00:05Who are you, if you can't remember who you are?
00:48Crashing Yields Memory Center.
00:49Yeah, I'm here to see a patient in the Alzheimer's ward.
00:52You're a visitor?
00:53Yes.
00:54I'm sorry, but our solos aren't allowed visitors.
00:56Yeah, I know, I just...
00:59I traveled a long way.
01:01They're meant to stay as solos.
01:03Yeah, I know the rules.
01:04Can you make an exception?
01:08Just this once.
01:26Are you still in Waldo Thompson?
01:31Yes.
01:52Are you Clark Kent?
01:54Yes.
01:55Are you Mickey Mouse?
01:59Yes.
02:12Hello, Stuart.
02:17Install stem cells directly into the bloodstream.
02:22Memory regeneration should occur within four to five minutes.
02:27That's just gonna hurt.
02:31Rightfully so.
02:32There's no...
02:35Uh...
02:40Right lower.
02:49It's not what you're suppose.
02:50Okay.
02:52All those notes...
02:53Phase one.
02:55Phase one.
02:55Base memory.
02:57Okay.
03:02Okay.
03:06You hear me, Stuart?
03:12Fuck.
03:15Okay.
03:17Look at that light.
03:19What color is that?
03:22Green.
03:24It's green, isn't it?
03:28Green.
03:31Yeah.
03:32Not blue, not yellow, not red, not white.
03:37It's green.
03:39That's right.
03:40Green.
03:42Green like grass.
03:46Green like trees, leaves, salamanders.
03:52You're gone.
03:54Green beans, alligators, all green beans.
03:57I love green beans.
03:58Yeah.
04:00What else is green?
04:01Green like peas and pickles and parakeets.
04:08The Incredible Hulk.
04:10The Grinch.
04:11The Grinch who stole Christmas.
04:12Mm-hmm.
04:14Yeah.
04:16Woldy clothes.
04:17Craying mantis.
04:19The Emerald City.
04:21Eh?
04:22Kermit the fucking frog.
04:23Mm-hmm.
04:24It's not easy being green.
04:26It's good, Stuart.
04:27Really good.
04:29Now tell me, where are we, huh?
04:30What's this place called?
04:32This is a, uh...
04:34I know you can remember.
04:39Uh...
04:39Beach.
04:40This is a beach.
04:41That's right.
04:42Yeah.
04:42We're on a beach.
04:43All this shit here is sand.
04:45Just sand.
04:47And that, that's the sea.
04:50Eh?
04:50That's right.
04:51Not a river, not a pond, not a lake, not a puddle.
04:55The sea.
04:56We'll stop now.
04:57Hmm.
04:59The waves.
05:00The waves.
05:02Crashing.
05:04Crashing.
05:05Like timpani drums in Beethoven's Sixth.
05:07Like, like, like fireworks on the Fourth of July.
05:1320%.
05:14You're doing so well, Stuart.
05:17Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
05:18Hey, hey, hey, hey.
05:18Look at me.
05:19Look at me, man.
05:20I can amble.
05:21Ha, ha, ha, ha.
05:22I can amble.
05:23My muscles, remember.
05:24My bones, for your quaint.
05:26Ha, ha, ha, ha.
05:28Look.
05:30You dance.
05:31Soft shoe.
05:33Tap.
05:34Jazz.
05:35Macarena.
05:36Yeah.
05:37Electric slide.
05:38Oh, yeah.
05:40Hey, what's this, too?
05:41Watch me whip.
05:44Oh, yeah?
05:45Watch me nae nae.
05:47Whoo!
05:47Whoo!
05:50I can sing.
05:51Oh, I love to sing.
05:53Always have.
05:55Wise men say, only fools rush in.
06:05For once in my life, I have someone who needs me.
06:10Ha, ha, ha.
06:11I miss the old, Kanye.
06:13Straight from the gold, Kanye.
06:14Chop up the soul, Kanye.
06:16Set on his goals, Kanye.
06:17Yeah.
06:18Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
06:22Ah, yeah.
06:24Yeah.
06:25The dope jams.
06:29The lip bangers.
06:32I know again.
06:36And I know that I know.
06:49But I don't know you
06:53No
06:54Why are you doing this
06:56Why are you doing this for me
06:59Hmm
07:01I'm
07:02From the National Health Service
07:04NHS
07:05Well if you think you're going to pay for this with my pension
07:08It's covered Stuart, memory regeneration is universal
07:13Take stem cells
07:15Inject them into you
07:17And
07:18Regenerates total brain function
07:20And soon after recovers all of your memories
07:23My memories?
07:27And it's free?
07:29It's free
07:31As it should be
07:32I know at first that they were
07:35That they were selling
07:36This cure for Alzheimer's
07:39Yeah
07:39But I always said
07:41I want to be a human right
07:45It's awful in there
07:48That demented fog of dementia
07:50And there it's like being buried alive
07:54Or cast in amber
07:55But still puttering inside
08:02You want to roar
08:04You wish to scream
08:05But screams and roars
08:07Are all
08:07Banned in that land
08:10No crying
08:13No mercy
08:15No wishes
08:16Or prayers
08:18You cry out for your mother
08:20Or your father
08:22Or your God
08:28But they're all gone
08:30But they're all gone too
08:30They've all left in the fog
08:33And their terror
08:35And their fury
08:36Oh, rises in you
08:40I exist
08:41You want to shout
08:43I exist
08:45I exist
08:49But you surely do not
08:52Not in this land
08:56But then
08:59You came
09:00You burned off all the fog
09:04And I can remember again
09:08I'm alive, my son
09:12And you're to blame
09:18Phase one is complete
09:20Brain regeneration is at 50%
09:23Now comes the rest
09:25Phase two
09:27Personal memory recovery
09:37Hang on tight
09:58What do you remember?
10:01My wife's farts in the night
10:05Code red
10:06Code blue
10:11Floating in my best friend
10:12Leo's pool
10:14Looking up at the clouds
10:17Marching 13
10:18Going on 30
10:21Seeing Ming Chong
10:22In the supermarket
10:24Flying down that blue slide
10:27Into mom's arms
10:28This slide
10:32Where was that?
10:34In the park
10:36With the big trees
10:37And a duck pond
10:39And the woman
10:41And the mother
10:42What does she look like?
10:45It's all I can remember
10:47It can't be everything
10:49Yeah
10:50Yeah
10:51It's all there is
10:52It's all the memories?
10:56Afraid so
10:57Are you sure?
10:59Of course I'm sure
11:01I already said I'm sure
11:04It's all there is
11:05It's all I can remember
11:06Okay
11:08Do you remember me, Stuart?
11:11I'm afraid we just met
11:15What is this?
11:16Is this some kind of NHS thing?
11:18Huh?
11:19Like a shakedown
11:21Of a poor Alzheimer's patient's
11:24Pension fund?
11:25Were you ever diagnosed
11:26Of course
11:30Alzheimer's patients
11:32Exhibit identical symptoms
11:33To aging memory addicts
11:36If you install
11:37Too many recollections
11:39And over time
11:41Your neurons are destroyed
11:44So you know what I think, Stuart?
11:49That after years
11:50Of stealing memories
11:51Your brain was dying
11:53Not from Alzheimer's
11:54But from your addiction
11:56Son, you
11:56You
11:57You must have
11:59The wrong man
12:00I know who you are
12:01In case of mistaken identity
12:03I know what you did
12:05I didn't do anything
12:07I spent the past
12:09Eleven years
12:12Trying to find the monster
12:14Who took the memories
12:15Of my mom
12:16Who started by hacking
12:18Into company servers
12:20And who graduated
12:21To violently assaulting people
12:24And stuck an extractor
12:27Right into their fucking brains
12:30Downloaded their memories
12:31I've long thought about this day
12:34About the day
12:35I would find the man
12:37Who took her from me
12:38In that hospital hall
12:40By the vending machine
12:41And strip that little boy
12:44Of every memory
12:45Of the mom he just lost
12:58What do you want?
13:01What do I want?
13:04Do you know what
13:05My earliest memory is?
13:08A dark shadow
13:10Reaching out to me
13:13I can't see her face
13:15Or her body
13:16She's a glitch
13:17A blur
13:20Pixelated
13:21Buffering
13:21A dark fog
13:26I can't even see her
13:29My own mother
13:30And I can't even see her
13:31And I can't hear
13:33Not a laugh
13:35Or a cry
13:36Or
13:39I love you sweetheart
13:42I can't even miss her Stuart
13:45My own mother
13:46And I can't even miss her
13:50The worst part of all
13:52Is that the only place
13:54She still exists
13:56Is in there
13:59And it's a shitty feeling
14:00You know
14:01Cause the fucked up thing is
14:04Now I need you
14:08So what do I want Stuart?
14:13I want what's mine
14:16I want you to give me back
14:18What you took from me
14:20I want her
14:26I
14:28Can't
14:29You give me her
14:31And I won't tell the authorities
14:32About you
14:33I won't bring you in
14:34You can live out your days here
14:47How do I know
14:50How can I know
14:51You'll hold up your end
14:57What choice do you have
15:08Oh well
15:13Blue
15:15Blue eyes
15:20They have blue eyes
15:25Blue how?
15:28Blue like the Mediterranean
15:29At twilight
15:33Blue like a starling's feathers
15:39Blue like an astral flower
15:41Just moments after bloom
15:45She had blue eyes
15:47Hmm
15:49And clumps of mascara
15:52Always clumps
15:56And when she looked at you
16:00When she looked at you
16:02My god
16:03Her eyes
16:04Opened wide
16:06Really?
16:07Yeah
16:07Right
16:09And she cooed
16:10When she saw you
16:15Involuntarily
16:16She cooed
16:17When you walked into the room
16:19She would gasp
16:22As if she thought
16:23How
16:25How could this boy
16:27Be so perfect
16:28How could I have made
16:31Such a beautiful kid
16:34How could he be mine
16:35She gasped
16:37When she saw me
16:38Yeah
16:39And she smelled like lavender
16:42It was the detergent
16:44She used
16:47I've always loved the smell of lavender
16:48Mm-hmm
16:50Well she would do this
16:51Thing
16:54Whenever she saw me
16:56You
16:57In the morning
16:59She would
17:00Hold out her hand
17:02As if for a handshake
17:04Like
17:04Like we were
17:05Business partners
17:06And she would say
17:08Nice to make you
17:09Acquaintance
17:10Mr. Man
17:15And she'd take you
17:17To the playground
17:18Every day
17:20Feed the ducks
17:21And play
17:23And there was this
17:25Slide
17:25Yeah
17:27Big blue slide
17:28It was like
17:29Your Everest
17:31You saw her growing small
17:35And then
17:36You
17:37Slid down
17:39Right into her arms
17:43And she held it tight
17:46I don't know
17:47What came over her
17:48That day
17:50But her eyes
17:51Were
17:52Watery
17:53And
17:53Her little nose
17:55Her nose
17:56What
17:57What is it
17:58Like a button
17:59Small
18:00Red
18:03And she said
18:04I will
18:06Always
18:07Catch you
18:08I don't
18:09I will never
18:10Let you fall
18:15She sounds
18:16Lovely
18:18She was
18:20She really
18:22Was
18:25And so
18:26Were you
18:27A lovely boy
18:33Why
18:34Why
18:35Why
18:35Why do you take
18:35The memories
18:36From that little boy
18:37In that hospital hall
18:38Who just lost his mom
18:54I had a child once
18:56I had a child once
18:59A beautiful boy
19:02During the stay
19:03During the stay
19:04I began to
19:05Make him a nuisance
19:08An annoyance
19:10An interruption
19:11To the
19:13Screens that I loved
19:15To the devices
19:16I cherished
19:21I made excuses
19:22Not to play with him
19:25Not to help him
19:26With his school
19:29Not to show him
19:30The stars
19:30Or
19:32Tuck him
19:32Into bed
19:33At night
19:37And then one day
19:42One day he got sick
19:47Virus took him
19:48In his arms
19:50And he ailed
19:52And glitched
19:53And
19:55Begged for breath
19:58Until
19:59He was gone
20:03And the light
20:04Left my world
20:09And when he passed
20:12I roamed the streets
20:13For days
20:16Wishing to disappear
20:19Wishing to die
20:22Wishing to leave
20:23On a rocket ship
20:24Or
20:26Stay locked
20:27In my stay
20:28Or
20:31Travel to the future
20:34Or
20:35Be punished forever
20:39Wishing I had seen
20:40My boy
20:41For what he was
20:45Which was the whole world
20:52I couldn't bear
20:54The memories
20:54Of it
20:56So I spiraled
20:57And tumbled
20:58And
21:01That's when I started
21:04Stealing
21:05Leaving
21:09I needed to stop
21:11My heart
21:12From this
21:13God-awful bleeding
21:17I stole the other
21:19Memories
21:19To rid myself
21:21Of my own
21:22I stole from them
21:25From hundreds
21:27Of victims
21:29From you
21:32The sweet boy
21:33Just like my own
21:36And I just
21:37Needed to remember
21:39A boy's love
21:40For his parents
21:42So that I could
21:43Make myself believe
21:44This is what my boy
21:46Must have felt
21:47About me
21:51So I took
21:52Your memories
21:54And I watched
21:56Every one
21:56Over
21:57And over again
21:59Six years
22:01Of you
22:04And her
22:06Been together
22:12But as the
22:13Dementia progressed
22:14And the fog
22:17Overtook
22:18And their memories
22:19Grew dim
22:19And I could see
22:20Only dark shadows
22:23Where people
22:24Should be
22:27I realized
22:30The worst truth
22:32Of all
22:35This is what
22:36My boy must have
22:37Felt
22:37When he looked
22:39At me
22:40A glitzing
22:41Father's
22:42Face
22:43He hardly saw
22:46Whose embrace
22:50He never knew
22:53Whose love
22:58Whose love
22:59He never felt
23:05I see now
23:06That
23:07I've committed
23:08This same crime
23:09Twice
23:12To you
23:14And to him
23:19Robbing the child
23:20Of his parent
23:23Tell me about
23:24That last day
23:28My last day
23:29With her
23:31Simon
23:32Tell me
23:33I want to know
23:40It was cold
23:43You had on a sweater
23:47And you went in
23:48To see her
23:50And she was lying
23:52In bed
23:54Bald and pale
23:57Her nose
23:58Her nose was
23:59Red
24:00And small
24:01Like a bun
24:02You crept toward her
24:04And
24:06As soon as she saw you
24:08Her blue eyes
24:09Open wide
24:13Her eyelashes
24:14Caked with mascara
24:16Wide like this
24:18She reached out her hand
24:20To you
24:20To shake it
24:21As if we were
24:23Business partners
24:24Which in a way
24:25We were
24:25Her and me
24:28And she said
24:29Pleasure to make
24:30Your acquaintance
24:30Mr. Man
24:32Exactly so
24:34Exactly so
24:37And she held you
24:38Tight
24:41Only now
24:41It was final
24:43She smelled
24:44Of lavender
24:46She smelled
24:47Great
24:50She pulled you
24:51Close
24:52Like that day
24:53On the
24:54Big blue slide
24:57She said
24:58She'd always
24:58Be there to
24:59Catch me
25:01Even if she
25:02Was gone
25:02That's right
25:04And her
25:05Breath grew
25:05Fainter
25:07She pulled you
25:08Close
25:12She held you
25:12Tight
25:15And she said
25:19Tell me
25:20What she said
25:23She said
25:24My boy
25:26It has been
25:27The privilege
25:29Of my life
25:29To be your mom
25:31I'm sorry
25:32We've had such
25:33A short visit
25:33Together
25:37And as the
25:38Years go on
25:40These moments
25:41Together may fade
25:42But it's okay
25:44It's okay
25:45It's okay
25:45If you forget me
25:49It's okay
25:49If you forget me
25:50Because you never
25:52Can
25:53You are literally
25:55Made up
25:56Of me
25:58I'm in every fiber
26:00Of you
26:00Every eyelash
26:01And follicle
26:02And cell
26:03Like the stars
26:04In the sky
26:05And the sand
26:05And the sea
26:06I'll always
26:08Be with you
26:09And you don't
26:11Need to remember
26:12For it to be true
26:15For I will
26:16For you
26:22And as you
26:23Held her close
26:25You looked at
26:26The respirator
26:27Beside her bed
26:28The machine
26:29That hung
26:30And glowed
26:32With a
26:32Green light
26:33Yeah
26:35Until her breath
26:36Ceased
26:39And she grew
26:40Still
26:43And the green light
26:44Too brief
26:46Went out
26:53A memory
26:54Isn't simply
26:55A thing
26:56You have
26:58It's a promise
27:02It's a vow
27:03To the one
27:03You love
27:05Remembering
27:06Is a search
27:08And you
27:09Found her again
27:10Son
27:17She would be
27:17So proud
27:27I am sorry
27:31I'm so sorry
27:33For what I've
27:33Taken from you
27:37For what I've
27:37Done
27:51It's time
27:52Stuart
27:56For what
27:57I have to
27:59Take it with me
28:01The memories
28:04The green light
28:06That's right
28:07Oh, you
28:07You said
28:09I said
28:09I wouldn't
28:10Tell the authorities
28:11About you
28:15No
28:17No, no, no, no
28:18No, no
28:20No, no, please
28:20Please
28:21Don't
28:22Don't
28:22Don't
28:22Take
28:23Don't send me
28:24Back there
28:26Please
28:28I have to
28:29Stuart
28:29Please
28:30You know
28:31I do
28:36Can I ask
28:37Just
28:39One small
28:40Favor
28:40You don't
28:42Deserve a favor
28:43However
28:45Small
28:50You've hurt
28:51So many
28:51People
28:52I know
28:53But
28:54Can't you
28:55Just leave me
28:56One
28:57One memory
29:00Just one
29:02Please
29:07Which memory
29:10Of your boy
29:12Those memories
29:13Are all corrupted
29:14I'm afraid
29:16So which one
29:22I don't know
29:24I know
29:25I know
29:25I know
29:25I know
29:25I know
29:42Yeah
29:46Would you show me
29:47What it felt
29:48What do you feel like?
29:49What?
29:51Or a hug?
30:15You know, Stuart?
30:20I imagine this is what your boy must have thought your hugs felt like, too.
30:28How about this one, Stuart?
30:32How about this memory?
30:48How about the melody?
30:52How about this?
30:54How about it?
30:58How about it?
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