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Love Is Blind - Season 10 - Episode 05: Where the Hell is My Husband?
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00:00The End
00:01The End
00:06The End
00:08The End
00:09The End
00:14Wow
00:15Wow
00:17Time after time
00:19We will rise up
00:22We will rise up
00:24We will rise up
00:26Wow
00:26Wow
00:28Wow
00:29Wow
00:29Wow
00:49I love you so much
00:52I wanted somebody to
00:55Love me the way
00:56That I've learned to love myself
00:58She's leaving
01:01I'm gonna go home
01:02I'm gonna go home
01:04But this isn't my husband
01:06But just somebody on the journey
01:13I opened the door
01:14And nobody was in there
01:18She left
01:19She was gone
01:21She wasn't even there
01:23I'm sorry brother
01:24Thank you bro
01:26Like this
01:27I'm sorry man
01:30You're good
01:31You're good bro
01:32I love you man
01:34That's so fucking crazy bro
01:37Doesn't matter
01:39These girls man
01:41Why would she do that to you?
01:43How that conversation ended yesterday
01:44I don't
01:46I don't blame her
01:46You're not surprised?
01:47I don't blame her
02:00I'm waking up today
02:01And I'm gonna finally see the sun
02:03I know I'm ready to commit to Britney for the rest of my life
02:06I love her for who she is
02:08And what she stands for
02:09And what she believes in
02:10Her faith
02:11Her loyalty
02:12Her energy
02:13She has such a beautiful soul
02:14And that's what I'm attracted to
02:17I'm on cloud nine right now
02:19Take a breath and close my eyes
02:23I am going to be
02:25Mrs. Devonte Lee Anderson
02:28I am in love
02:30I bought a wedding dress for a reason
02:33I'm gonna be a wife
02:34We can go back
02:37I'm engaged to Britney
02:38Elena Wicker
02:40And I feel amazing
02:42We talked about
02:44Popping up to the reunion with the baby
02:46So we'll see what happens
02:54We quite literally have zero idea what each other looks like
02:58I didn't give away the fact that I'm Hispanic
03:01I kept the Latina in wraps
03:04Because what's exciting about all of this is looks literally had nothing to do with it
03:09I wanted Devonte to know I am beautiful on the inside
03:13And he fell in love with my inner person
03:16So why am I nervous?
03:18I don't need to be scared
03:24But he's telling you
03:28But he's telling you
03:44Hello
03:45That anticipation
03:47Thank you
03:49It was so good to finally see you too
03:52Oh yeah
03:54Mmm
03:57Mmm
04:00Mmm
04:00Mmm
04:01Mmm
04:02Mmm
04:02Mmm
04:02Mmm
04:05Well, I don't want to make you wait any longer
04:09So Brittany
04:11I'm going to get on my knee
04:13And I'm going to ask you if you will marry me
04:16Yes, I will
04:17It's just my imagination.
04:20Can you taste the anticipation?
04:23It's beautiful.
04:25Just like you.
04:35What I was expecting was probably a little bit bigger.
04:41He's shorter than I thought he would be.
04:44Oh man, I started sweating when I got near an hour.
04:46I'm nervous.
04:47He was definitely very sticky.
04:51I did not expect freckles though.
04:53So that's a surprise.
04:54He's definitely not somebody that I would probably
04:57have gone for out like in the bar.
05:01I don't think that he's someone that I would have been like,
05:04that's the one.
05:05But I don't care.
05:08I don't care.
05:09I mean, we're all going to get fat one day anyway.
05:11Oh man.
05:12You've got red in your beard.
05:13Yeah.
05:14From my mom.
05:15And do you look great?
05:16I do.
05:16Look at you.
05:19Like, he's still handsome.
05:21He's very handsome.
05:22I didn't know what color your eyes would be.
05:23Yes.
05:24Green, blue, whatever they want to be.
05:26Like a greenish blue.
05:27Levante's eyes are beautiful.
05:28I hope your kids have your eyes.
05:31Those are the kind of eyes that are going to get me pregnant.
05:33Did you have any idea?
05:35Did you think I was white?
05:36I had no idea.
05:37I fell in love with Britney.
05:38Just so happened that she is a woman of color.
05:41You know, that's something I've never actually dated,
05:45let alone proposed to get engaged to.
05:48So that, you know, that was something that kind of surprised me.
05:51But I fell in love with Britney because of her heart.
05:54I literally don't think that we would have ever, like, crossed paths.
05:57I know.
05:57Any other way.
05:58Yeah, that's so true.
05:59I was, like, a very, like, quiet, like, if I was out and about, like,
06:03I would just be sitting at the table with my friends, too.
06:06That's me, yeah.
06:06Yeah.
06:07I'd just stay in the house.
06:08I'd go to work.
06:09I'd go to the gym.
06:09I'd go to church.
06:11Right, mouth and mouth.
06:12Like, so how exactly did you expect to find a man?
06:14I was like, I don't know.
06:15Yeah, exactly.
06:16I'm so excited for you to meet my family.
06:18I'm so excited.
06:19I know.
06:20I think they're going to love you.
06:21You think so?
06:21Mm-hmm.
06:22I really do.
06:24Are they just as goofy as you?
06:27More.
06:30I know.
06:30My lips do compliment my lips.
06:31They do.
06:32They do compliment each other.
06:34You still think I have a nerdy voice?
06:36Yes, I do.
06:39They're right back at you.
06:41You sure you won't put up with that?
06:42I will put up with it for the rest of my life.
06:44Oh, my gosh.
06:45So happy.
06:46I know I am, too.
06:48Seeing my fiancee for the first time,
06:50it honestly felt like a dream.
06:52We're going to get married.
06:53Yes, we are.
06:54We have babies.
06:55I know.
06:56Babies are on the way.
06:58Well, I will set you on your way, beautiful.
07:06One for the road.
07:12I'm going to walk backwards so I can see the whole time.
07:13Okay.
07:14Okay.
07:14Make sure I don't fall down.
07:17Now we have a monkey out of mine.
07:19You can turn around now.
07:20All right.
07:21I'll see you.
07:22I love you.
07:23I love you.
07:37I love you.
07:39I love you.
07:55I love you.
07:56I love you.
08:08I love you.
08:25I love you.
08:35I love you.
08:54I love you.
09:03I love you.
09:08I love you.
09:08I love you.
09:09And I feel balanced and calm whenever I'm with you.
09:10I choose you.
09:13And I am in love with you.
09:17that was beautiful thank you i got a little emotional myself over here i couldn't really
09:24be that emotional the way that i i did come up in my upbringing and the tough love i really
09:30have
09:30never been this open with with anyone else before talking to you i feel safe i feel secure i don't
09:38feel judged i feel like you actually listen to me and just basically tell me i want that man
09:46yeah and that's all really i've ever wanted it feels awesome so oh god oh god take your time um
10:01oh god all right
10:07emma lilu bedsinger will you marry me
10:19yes yep let's go a million times yes let's go go oh my god
10:28i'm really really really really excited i am too
10:32take me to the stars
10:35can't wait bye bye
10:38i wanna come through the clouds break the sea
10:42i wanna dance i'll lose you and me
10:46oh my god
10:50oh my god
10:52that's so awesome
10:54that's so awesome
11:09wow i told tyler i was picking her yesterday okay but of course i also had those same feelings
11:17for kia yeah and it was flip-flopping tyler it's fucked up because she did that
11:24carlos you're a good fucking dude he's like disrespectful and hurtful i think you died as a
11:29bullet bro i don't think you're in the wrong at all and you should not look at it and from
11:33that
11:34light like you did exactly what you needed to do you love two women yeah i feel like you generally
11:40it's a big decision to choose who you want to spend the rest of your life with i ended up
11:46in a situation where there were two women i could see a future with and i felt pressured to make
11:51a decision i told tyler that i choose you and for her to still run out after me saying that
11:59makes that look like kia being a second option which she's not she's a first of the first option she's
12:08an amazing human being
12:09the way kia makes me feel i've never felt like that honestly in forever kia is still over there
12:17kia is over there right now yes what what do you want to do with kia we've had the connection
12:23since the beginning
12:23yeah you know we've been able to connect and bond and really just open up our feelings kia might be
12:30smiling ears to ears right now yeah because of that because of that yeah a good conversation with kia
12:36at least like a full like honest conversation like it could go it could go really well wow
12:43wow wow wow just stuck with her yeah be real just say this is the second time tyler's ran on
12:48me i think
12:49the universe is telling me something i have had feelings for you like i would just be honest man if
12:54that's what you want to that's what you want this is a big decision as well yeah absolutely yeah if
12:59it's
12:59meant to be it's meant to be i still have time to make that decision and the choice is mine
13:12i'm always going to be somebody who is going to show up and fight and i'm never going to run
13:20and when it comes to what i need from you know my wife i just need you to just show
13:26up even when it's
13:27not easy to show up it's um kia she's she's been amazing man she really has hey hey hi how
13:39are we
13:39feeling we are feeling good same i've really been just loving everything that we've been able to connect
13:49all i know is that kia is one of one my heart has always been loving and caring for you
14:01kia you truly are a flower that has bloomed man for us to really just kind of talk about
14:11what that love feels and then also you not demanding
14:16that peaceful spirit about you is what made me really like have love and feel that in my body
14:24and soul i thought i had an idea of what i want out of my life yeah but then i
14:31met kia you kia you
14:34truly really opened my heart and so my heart to find that love was just so powerful you know
14:45you're probably one of the most beautiful souls i've ever met in my life you truly truly truly
14:52opened my eyes to knowing what i need for it to be a forever thing it's been one of the
14:58most beautiful
14:58experiences i've ever had in my life kevin oh my god and i have to be accountable like yesterday was
15:07such a
15:08crazy fucking day frame like i spoke with you know tyler and i i'll be honest like i asked tyler
15:16if you
15:16want to try to make something happen and do this because she was like i'm i didn't want to see
15:21her go
15:21either you know yeah and i made a decision out of pressure that was stupid kia you are nobody's
15:31second option well no go ahead go ahead for clarity i never felt like a second option okay okay okay
15:39ever i have to be accountable though yeah before you yeah hold yourself accountable though i feel
15:45like we've spent a lot of times with you kind of saying how you're feeling and me working through that
15:52so yeah i do want to take some time for me for a second and yeah kind of let you
15:58know what's going
15:58on in my head yeah talk to me i feel like i was put here for a purpose and my
16:07purpose here was to
16:09be vulnerable potentially find love and i think you are so awesome like you are such a great guy
16:16you are kind you are heartfelt you are self-aware you are empathetic all of those things will make a
16:25great
16:30husband kevin i have love for you and you've said so many so many kind words to me
16:40however i am not falling in love with you
16:46i i have to stand on business when i say that you are not the one for me
16:54you are not ready for a relationship at least at one of this magnitude um and that's okay
17:01but you are not ready to be anyone's husband right now
17:05and i mean that with love yeah yeah one could probably say in past judgment that you should
17:12not have come here because you were not ready but i think that there is beauty in trying something
17:16different to get to a place where you understand that you aren't ready i felt ready but it just was
17:25a
17:25situation where i had found different qualities with some people and it's fucking shitty your heart was
17:35not even ready to be pulled in two separate ways to be clear tyler deserved more too she did
17:43even with you asking her to move forward she deserved more she did i'm always in on business and i
17:52gotta choose me every time
17:58get your together you know yeah and be great and make sure you're looking at that watch to make
18:05sure you stay in check one thousand percent thank you for everything
18:22i feel phenomenal i feel free i feel perfect i feel perfect
18:32hello hello hello there's a smile i chose me bitches
18:37how was the screen that was good that was a good screen that was a good screen that was a
18:43good
18:43screen that was a very good screen that was a bad screen i was not in love i'm in love
18:48with myself
18:49you know what's weird is i've always choose myself so this feeling feels very very very familiar
18:57what's unfamiliar is the journey i took to choose myself and that's a testament to the amount of
19:04growth that happens in this experiment yesterday i was a bit confused because there is a part of me
19:11and a part of a lot of women that want to fix men and help them get to where they
19:17need to be
19:18i'll give you some of this anyway i love you guys and that is not typical key at all but
19:26i love that i was able to kind of lean into that for a second because kevin is going to
19:31be a phenomenal
19:32husband when he understands that he has work to do to get there because a man wants you doesn't mean
19:39you have to want him you guys and it feels really really really good to not only choose me
19:45but to let someone else know how they should choose them
19:52what a magical woman
20:10knowing that mike is choosing me and is ready and is committed to starting a life with me and spend
20:16forever feels like a weight has lifted throughout life i feel like there's been mental roadblocks
20:23there's been physical roadblocks i've thought a lot about what people have thought of me the fact that
20:28this man knows so much about me and he's not he's not running he's here that's that's amazing
20:41i can't wait to meet emma and start our lives together i mean it's a great warming feeling like
20:48just knowing that that other person on the other side of the wall chose you too she is so caring
20:54she's kind
20:55compassionate um empathetic to me i do love her
21:03i am nervous about not being his physical type in terms of race of height of body type
21:13but he makes me feel like i am enough
21:18and i'm just so excited to start this life with him it just feels like a dream right now
21:25everything fell into place like emma told me about her adoption that doesn't matter to me
21:29when she told me about the birthmarks i mean the first thing that goes to my mind is obviously
21:33how big are the birthmarks how big are the scars but i want to judge her based on the connection
21:39that
21:39i've made with her and that's what i've done so far my biggest concern out of everything would be if
21:50she turns around and says she does not want kids i think she sees how passionate i am about having
21:56children and i do think that emma would absolutely be able to see herself having children and i think i'm
22:04the right man for it you do i do let's do this thing let's get married
22:21hi hello how are you i'm doing good how are you doing good you look so beautiful you look so
22:27good
22:28oh my god oh my god thank you i know right this is wild this is insane oh all right
22:42hold on i got
22:43something for you do you know what i'm gonna say i hope it's yes
22:52i'm gonna tell you what i have and yet what i have to do
22:55hey mom will you marry me yes
23:03oh my gosh this is so beautiful thank you shut there we go
23:17i need you i need you i need you i need your love
23:25i had a image in my mind of him and it was completely wrong in like the best way possible
23:33tall dark and handsome he is a beautiful man oh it's real it's real you're real i'm real
23:45beautiful you're so handsome you look so good thank you you look beautiful i love the blue thank
23:51you emma had mentioned her birthmark on her arm and how she had to get that skin graft so that
23:57wasn't
23:57a surprise to me to see that and to be honest i didn't even really acknowledge it um i was
24:02too busy
24:02looking at her smile and i think that she's absolutely gorgeous i like having heart palpitations
24:08i had no idea kind of kind of what she would look like you know i guess but i didn't
24:13mean i was
24:14gonna be right and just so happens that uh she is is asian um i never dated a different race
24:21before
24:21so to be able to fall in love with someone from a different race is is really amazing in my
24:27eyes
24:27do you want to pop open some shoes i do let's go yeah i just can't wait to to start
24:31the rest of my
24:31life with her i'm speechless i'm speechless i like literally did not know what you would look like
24:40check please
24:43you're gorgeous you look beautiful you have a beautiful smile too which i like i like a nice
24:48smell thank you i like the literally just can't stop staring at you this is so wacko this is so
24:55wackadoodle
24:56who would have thought who would have thought seeing him in person i still felt so comfortable
25:02so grounded and like so light with him i didn't have to worry about like what he was going to
25:08think about like my birthmarks or like my physical characteristics like it just felt really
25:15comforting for myself what do you think the family's gonna say they're gonna be so shocked
25:23i wait till i say something to mine like yeah find out oh my god they're gonna be i
25:28you're gonna have to fly out you'll like them they're fun i'm nervous a little rowdy we do too
25:33don't worry we do too i'm i'm excited to meet your family and your friends me too they'll look good
25:40you'll get along with them really yeah i was looking for marriage i was looking for a lifelong
25:46partner and i know that we will be so compatible on all like facets of physical emotional and i know
25:55that when we get old looks will fade but we'll still always have this emotional connection
25:59it is more than everything i've ever i've ever dreamed of
26:13see you in a little bit see you soon all right bye oh man i'll watch you walk out yeah
26:19watch right
26:20watch me look at this ass all right hell yeah damn bye-bye bye
26:52oh my god wow you're beautiful after finally seeing each other for the first time i love you
26:57i love you you're gorgeous will you marry me dad seven couples are now headed to a romantic getaway
27:05there they will have the chance to discover if their physical connection is as strong as their
27:17emotional
27:18on our way to malibu we're gonna spend some quality time together how you feel
27:28all right so we're getting ready to tour the place it's day one
27:33mansion dude we're like twins right now yeah it wasn't even intentional
27:40and with their weddings only four weeks away their love is about to face some serious tests
27:46so amazing hey can we get some drinks let's go
27:52okay we're in mexico oh no and in cabo so have you been here before no all right never even
27:58been
27:58mexico what how was my happy place is it really yeah holy shit and my hands aren't that sweaty
28:05they're kind of sweaty yours are kind of sweaty actually now mine no because yours is coming off
28:09at me yeah don't put that on me come on hola thank you my gosh cheers
28:17will their looks race lifestyle or insecurities tear them apart in the real world first time in mexico
28:23actually what i know i know you have to show me around you're like i want to go to antarctica
28:28but
28:28i haven't been to mexico it's just beautiful we got everything you can't oh my god seriously i can't i
28:36can't help it wow look at the view oh my gosh problem we made it i know
28:47what is love truly enough to conquer it all i remember like all the girls like close their eyes
28:56and see if we sound like what we and i was like never would have got like i would have
29:02been so
29:02confused because i feel like your voice does not sound i know i was like i sound white
29:08now it's hard because i see you in person yeah it's like i don't know my dad is black and
29:12my mom's
29:13colombian okay i like that is your mom from colombia or just yeah is she my mom was adopted when
29:20she was two days old my grandpa's admission my grandparents are actually white actually my mom
29:24wanted to name me liliana and that that would have given it away i could see that i probably would
29:29have gone by lily i like liliana has such little hands oh you've got clean nails oh gosh you're amazing
29:38can i do what i can okay you're so pretty oh also this is how tall i actually am it
29:54works for me
29:55because like i didn't care about like if you were like i think i'm like really sure
30:00and then you're like i was like i literally couldn't get it and then you're i've never and
30:04never been an issue yeah you're happy i'm so happy me too it's just like crazy you know i was
30:11thinking
30:11about the other night just like man i feel like she's just like perfect like i'm absolutely not i was
30:17like perfect no like like the time like when i saw you i was like i literally couldn't have like
30:21like if you had a picture something i was like that's like literally like perfect stop i swear
30:29you're gorgeous during those like pod sessions we connected so well in there where i knew like
30:34hey if we were in person like obviously we don't know what each other we don't know each other look
30:39like but it's like at the same time it's like i felt like that just didn't matter and almost like
30:43now at this point like we've spent time with each other it's like it doesn't matter dude it's
30:51it's amazing oh i never want my phone i know we're actually talking about that it's incredible
30:58i feel like so much more clear-headed yeah and like i don't get bombarded by like oh
31:02shit that like stressed me out and this like made me upset and whatever especially like the news
31:07that's like really gets to me it's all i'm gonna do this stuff anyways you don't have cable or anything
31:11well i don't either but like my i'm on instagram yeah and because of like my strong political views
31:19a lot of the accounts i follow or like yeah i like that updates on that very very should be
31:25yeah i
31:25appreciate it i appreciate that about you thank you i think you know that though it's just so cool
31:33to just be with you and like see and talk to you i never anticipated like being physically attracted
31:39to you before i saw you i already think that chris is hot and i haven't seen him like i
31:45was like
31:45that's a weird sensation like i just didn't anticipate that i was like that doesn't make sense jessica
31:52none of it does none of it does that's kind of the beauty of it it is right we're so
31:58lucky literally
32:05i always thought this earlier you're gonna not like it um but i said this to the girl i said
32:11if i
32:11like saw you in the wild i would think that you would only want to be with like a gym
32:15rat and you
32:16would never eat pizza with me that's interesting you say that um you don't eat pizza oh i do
32:23i fucking love pizza no like i i mean i told you like i come home and i'm like even
32:28if it's not
32:29i'm that late and like it's not like super like whatever like i'll uber eats a doordash like all
32:33the time same i just love eating and i do not love working out
32:39i only think of like running as punishment
32:44it does suck the first like couple miles but i think once you get like into it it's like
32:48i would never get through two miles that's the thing it's hard to get through the first two
32:53but like you don't even have to go fast like i will go on every walk with you
33:01obviously i think she's the most beautiful like human being i've ever like
33:05like been around like i love her i'm super attracted to her and like everything else like physically
33:10i didn't think like someone like her even existed for me to be honest with you
33:18i don't know no no no no a does you feel the way i'm in
33:24we went to the gym we're in the sauna for the second time
33:30and we did a jacuzzi that was a pizza and it's a wine
33:33Yeah, that one's the gym with pizza in line.
33:40Get in the pool.
33:45I fell in love with Brittany, but as far as what each other looked like,
33:49I know she's dated white, mixed, black,
33:51so I don't think she had a set preference of what exactly she was looking for.
33:58So grateful.
34:02And maybe my judgment in the past,
34:05it's like maybe that wouldn't have been someone I had approached
34:08and nothing against who Brittany is as a person.
34:11Like I was attracted to what I thought was my person,
34:14but I definitely think love is blind
34:16and it didn't matter what race she was on the other side of the wall to me.
34:20Now it's like you see her and it's just like,
34:22how could I walk away from this?
34:24Like that's my person.
34:25Like I'm hopeful that this moment doesn't stop,
34:28but it's just like the groundwork for, you know,
34:30what 10, 15, 20, 30 years looks like from now.
34:34I wonder what, like, time you're going to have to wake up tomorrow.
34:37It's like 6 a.m.
34:39I don't run.
34:40Me either.
34:42Oh my gosh, sure.
34:43You're looking at the wrong person for a run.
34:46You can't run with this.
34:48Yeah, you can.
34:49No, you can.
34:50Not comfortably.
34:51I prefer it.
34:53I bet you do.
34:55Yeah, no, running in Big Titty City don't, don't, don't go together.
35:01Does it still look okay?
35:02Yeah, it looks good.
35:03I promise.
35:08I can't.
35:09Just look at me.
35:10It's like green, blue, golden eyes.
35:14Yeah.
35:16Kissing Brittany has been like a long time coming.
35:19It's like every time it's just like,
35:20oh, wow, that takes your breath away.
35:22She has really nice lips,
35:24so I'm excited to be able to kiss some more.
35:28We'll do a little bit.
35:30Away for so long.
35:32Spilling our words till I'm empty.
35:36Ooh.
35:40I'm not running away anymore.
35:45Ooh.
35:50I love the purple lights.
35:52It's so pretty.
35:54Did you see the moon?
35:55Yeah, it's awesome.
35:57Glad we get a beer together.
35:59Me too.
36:03I, you know, you have a child when you're unwed and 26 years old,
36:09and you just kind of watch everybody else's life go,
36:12and to sit here and, like, have a ring on my finger,
36:14like, it's crazy to me, and it's amazing,
36:16and it just feels right because it's with this, like, person
36:20that I laugh with and that I feel so genuine.
36:24And now to actually, like, see that smile and to see that laugh,
36:27I think it's one of the most incredible experiences
36:30I have ever had in my entire life.
36:33Looks good on you.
36:37It does.
36:38I know.
36:40Got your sparkly nails, too?
36:41Mm-hmm.
36:42Did you do that for Emma?
36:43Mm-hmm.
36:44I love it.
36:45It's pleasant to be around you.
36:47It makes you feel good.
36:56Oh, my belly's just hanging out here.
36:58Buttons up.
36:59I love it.
37:01There we go.
37:02Hush.
37:04Don't you hush me.
37:06Mm.
37:07Do you want another pillow?
37:08Or you can lay like this if you want.
37:12Your hair smells good.
37:16Freshly washed.
37:16You get a lot more hair than I do.
37:22Yours is really thick.
37:24Did you say you used to have your hair, like, red, red?
37:26Mm-hmm.
37:27I bet that was pretty hot to you, honestly.
37:32You look amazing as a blonde as well.
37:35Mm-hmm.
37:48I definitely can get used to this, Amber.
38:01Wait, I want to see your scars.
38:02Is this a scar?
38:04That actually might be surgery.
38:06There's, like, a soccer one that kind of goes in the back here.
38:10There's a scar?
38:11No, no, no.
38:12A tattoo?
38:12A tattoo.
38:13A tattoo.
38:13It's like a kid with a ball in his hand looking up here.
38:16Okay.
38:17It's almost like a skeleton of a dragon that kind of circles this, and then he's looking
38:21up at that.
38:22You're into dragons?
38:23Oh, no.
38:23So cool.
38:25So you like dragons?
38:25You're like, I don't like dragons.
38:27Wait, did I tell you what I was, I had to, like, read a book.
38:29I was trying to, like, read a book.
38:30But the book I had, had, like, dragons on the side, and all these kids were around me.
38:33I was like, I can't read this.
38:35It's about dragons and, like, dragon riders.
38:37What was the book?
38:38It's called Fourth Wing.
38:41Oh, is it?
38:43Yes.
38:44It's like smut, as the kids say.
38:47Yeah, I still don't know what that stands for, if I'm going to have to explain it.
38:50It doesn't stand for anything.
38:52I know what it means.
38:53Yeah, that's what it means.
38:54I like to read.
38:56I'm a nerd, though, for sure.
38:57I like stoicism.
38:58I like to read, like, not just, like, someone else's interpretation of it.
39:02Like, I will go in and read Letters to a Stoic by Epictetus and, like, no, I actually
39:06read it.
39:07Okay, just make a shit.
39:08It makes me nerd.
39:10God damn.
39:11Don't do that.
39:12You can see those eyes.
39:14I don't do anything.
39:16Damn.
39:18What?
39:19Eye contact throws me.
39:21Don't do that.
39:23I saw what you just did.
39:24Throwing eyes around.
39:25I haven't even done any of, like, my moves.
39:27You haven't?
39:28I haven't seen them yet.
39:29No, mom.
39:30Oh.
39:31Yeah, you're dangerous.
39:33Very dangerous.
39:35Dangerous.
39:36Dangerous.
39:40I don't bite your lip like that.
39:42I was just smiling.
39:43No, you weren't.
39:44I was just smiling.
39:45No, you weren't.
39:45No, you weren't.
39:46Yes, you were.
39:48I was just smiling.
39:49You know exactly what you're doing to me.
39:54God, stop doing that.
39:56Doing what?
39:57Throwing eyes around like that.
39:58Hey, don't know what you're talking about.
40:00I think you might.
40:01I think you might.
40:03Just kidding.
40:04I know what I'm doing.
40:06Yeah, you do.
40:06Yeah, you do.
40:10Oh, my God.
40:11You're making it difficult.
40:14Do I make it hard?
40:17Very good choice of words.
40:18Very good choice of words.
40:19Answer's yes.
40:20You finished?
40:22Only after you.
40:25It would not matter if Alex was not the hottest man alive.
40:28Fortunately for me, he is.
40:31He's fucking hot.
40:35You happy?
40:37Yeah.
40:46Connor, is your hips that bad?
40:48Yeah.
40:49Connor, you can't cross your legs.
40:52I think I just like pulled.
40:53This is a joke.
40:54What do you mean?
40:54This is being dramatic.
40:56What do you mean?
40:56This is dramatic.
40:58How do you sit?
40:59I just sit like this.
41:01Like a normal dude.
41:03Wait, I'm shocked.
41:04You can't do this.
41:06Not like that.
41:07That would be going to cross your legs.
41:08Like, should have been exposed to me.
41:10Deal breaker?
41:11That was like an ick.
41:12I didn't know I had to watch that.
41:13Deal breaker?
41:14I was like, please stop crossing your legs.
41:15You can fix me.
41:16How was your first day with me?
41:18I knew it was going to be comfortable, but.
41:20Yeah.
41:21I'm like, it's easy.
41:23Chemistry is there.
41:24Just even walking through the villa.
41:28I was like, yeah, this is it.
41:30This is it.
41:31This is it.
41:33That's a thought process in my brain.
41:36That's so attractive.
41:38Don't make fun of me.
41:39I'm not.
41:40That was satirical from you.
41:42Do you want me to say the opposite next time?
41:45No.
41:45Okay.
41:46Only the truth.
41:49To be able to look you in the eyes and talk to you, I'm like, oh.
41:52I know.
41:54I know.
41:55It's more intense.
41:56Nuts.
41:57I can't stop staring at you.
41:58I know.
41:59I'm not mad about it.
42:00I know you have to fly, oh, so you can say goodbye, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
42:12I think my biggest fear was, like, how we be physically from emotionally, because, like,
42:18we were, like, we've been so good emotionally.
42:20Yeah.
42:20But I feel like I'm very comfortable with you physically.
42:23That was something that I was obviously nervous about, too.
42:26Yeah.
42:26Because I feel like...
42:28I'm sorry.
42:30I'm sorry.
42:31Why are you laughing?
42:33I'm so sorry.
42:33I'm so sorry.
42:37I'm so sorry.
42:39I'm so sorry.
42:41I'm so giggling.
42:42I'm so giggling.
42:43I'm so sorry.
42:43I'm so sorry.
42:44I love you so much.
42:45This is supposed to be bedtime, right?
42:46I know.
42:49And, like, I think...
42:59I don't know why I'm so uncomfortable right now.
43:01I think, like, now, like, for me, like, we've gotten, like, to such...
43:07What?
43:08No, okay.
43:09We've, like, gotten to, like, such an emotional level.
43:11That's what I was, like, racking my brain around.
43:13Will you like me physically as much as emotionally?
43:15Yeah.
43:16I do.
43:22And I do, too.
43:32Good night.
43:33Good night.
43:35Good night.
43:36Good night.
43:37Good night.
43:38What are you thinking about?
43:40Dangerous eyes.
43:41No.
43:43No.
43:44Just enjoying you.
43:46Yeah?
43:46Yeah.
43:48Okay.
43:49Not on?
43:50Mm-hmm.
43:53I'm very excited for sex, honestly.
43:57I'm a very sexual person, but, like, I'm a very loyal person.
44:00And I do not give it out to just anybody.
44:03So I'm very excited to share this moment with Alex.
44:07Love's my religion, but he was my faith.
44:11Something so sacred, so hard to replace.
44:15Falling for him was like falling from grace.
44:18I know what I like.
44:19I know what I want.
44:21I know how to treat a man.
44:23I think it's very attractive.
44:24Like, the confidence for a woman to have, knowing exactly what she wants.
44:29Those things are very attractive to a man.
44:31Are you happy?
44:32Yeah.
44:33Confident.
44:34Happy.
44:36Are you?
44:36Yeah.
44:37Get used to it.
44:38Yes, sir.
44:39Good answer.
44:41I'm a little sexually flustered, I guess, right now.
44:45He's just so handsome.
44:47Beautiful, so beautiful man.
44:51Don't look at me like that.
44:53Too late.
44:54Mm-hmm.
45:00You getting used to my hands there?
45:02Yeah.
45:02Yeah?
45:03I love you.
45:04I love you, too.
45:05They say all good boys go to heaven.
45:10But bad boys bring heaven to you.
45:13It's automatic.
45:16It's just what they do.
45:20They say all good boys go to heaven.
45:24But bad boys bring heaven to you.
45:27I'd definitely be okay with having sex tonight, for sure.
45:31We'll talk about it.
45:32I'd be okay to wait, too.
45:34Sex is sex.
45:36Like, most men will, like, put their dick in a chicken sandwich.
45:39Those things really don't matter to me as much.
45:42But, I mean, I'd rather have with a person, like, I love and I'm attracted to, for sure.
45:48Being in his arms feels amazing.
45:50It's kind of indescribable.
45:53Oh, look at this bad boy.
45:55What do you think?
45:57Hey.
45:58Maybe I'll let you try it if you're nice.
46:11How do you feel about being in person together?
46:14Better.
46:15I'm not going to lie.
46:16At first, I made me, like, real nervous because I was like, oh, my God.
46:19And it kind of freaked me out.
46:21But I feel like we have a good base to go from.
46:30I feel like we're going to be 70, like, dancing in our kitchen.
46:33Oh, for sure.
46:34Together.
46:34Oh, I might break my hip, but that's okay.
46:38As long as we're together.
46:39You're right.
46:40I'll take care of you.
46:41I need you a little nurse now.
46:43Your own personal nurse.
46:44I love that.
46:45I'm excited about, like, just, I don't know, physical connection, being in person.
46:50If I broke your heart, would you do?
46:54The next time that I do have sex with somebody, I want it to be with the person that I,
46:58100%,
46:59we are going to spend the rest of our lives together.
47:05So, I think that eventually we will have sex.
47:09I feel hopeful.
47:11I feel excited.
47:13I feel like we have a good thing.
47:15I feel like we have a very strong connection.
47:25We're going to have a good life.
47:27Yes, we are.
47:30I think what I'm most hopeful for is that we're going to actually get married and build a future
47:36together and have kids and just have the life that we both always dreamed of.
47:41Like, I feel like I could just do this forever.
47:43Good night.
47:45Love you.
47:47I love you.
47:53You know, I hope to be with Chris forever.
47:56Like, and this is, you know, the first night of hopefully thousands.
48:01I'm so happy.
48:04I don't feel.
48:04Love you.
48:05Because I'm not scared of loving you.
48:08Oh my God.
48:10Wow.
48:11This could be the start of the rest of my life.
48:15Oh.
48:16Oh.
48:21Oh.
48:22How could they love you, as much as I do, as much as I do?
48:30Cause I'm not scared of loving you, I'm just scared of losing you.
48:38I'm not scared of anyone, or dying young.
48:42Or if you're gonna find somebody new, cause how could they love you,
48:49as much as I do, as much as I do?
49:20All right, look at me.
49:20It's the funny story.
49:22What was it music that happened?
49:23Is that good?
49:40I don't know!
49:40So it is good to see, after, you know,
49:48be a 모델, be a doctor.
49:49But as you know, I still have a lot of amazing ideas.
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