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00:14I
00:15Think we just need to say what we want to do
00:26Do you need time to think about it?
00:33I
00:33This morning and in the first date I had I just got like a gut punch just felt
00:40Like a little bit more
00:42Like a different feeling
00:48I think that's a sign I
00:53Think so too
00:56I'm so sorry, don't be sorry. Don't be sorry
01:00All I want is someone who gets me
01:03Until then, I'm not settling
01:06Bye, Connor
01:07I've been all through the mud
01:10I've got a wild side
01:13All I want is someone who understands
01:17My heart, the dark places I've been
01:21Right now, I'd rather be lonely
01:24I'm holding out for someone who gets me
01:30Someone who gets me
01:31Emma
01:32What happened? We broke up
01:34Someone who gets me
01:35Are you okay?
01:36Who was this?
01:37Your number two?
01:38No, it's my number one
01:39I get it
01:40No, it's my number one
01:43Please
01:43It's not easy
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02:26So checking in, how are we emotionally when it comes to your grandpa?
02:31It's a lot, but having that family support, it's kept me at peace.
02:34Okay, good.
02:35So, how are you feeling?
02:37Good, I got a little workout in, which I mean, honestly, is kind of the nice part of pod dating.
02:43Because I don't exactly smell like roses over here, but you don't know that.
02:49It's fun to envision you.
02:51I think you're probably going to be wrong about me.
02:56Time will tell.
02:57I have a guess for you, but obviously, like, having the name Devontae.
03:02I could be French, I could be Italian.
03:05You could be.
03:06Devontae.
03:07Shut up.
03:10You're definitely not French.
03:12Not with that accent.
03:13You'll never know.
03:15So, with your dad, I know you said he wasn't, like, present in your life.
03:19How old were you when he, like, stopped being a big part of your life?
03:23Around, like, three or four.
03:25How old were you when he passed?
03:27I was 18.
03:29And he was 42.
03:32Jeez.
03:33There was one time, after one of my high school football games, I was, like, going off the field.
03:38And, like, you know how, like, people Friday nights are all, like, waiting by the fence.
03:41And I remember, like, someone by their self, and they're like, hey, good game.
03:44And, like, I just, like, you know, kept walking.
03:47And then my mom was, like, hey, did you talk to anyone?
03:50And I was, like, what are you talking about?
03:51And I didn't know, but it was, like, my father.
03:54Oh, wow.
03:55I just didn't have any idea.
03:57And just never heard or saw from him again.
04:00I did get, like, a chance to, like, meet him, like, once.
04:02But at that time, you're an 18-year-old kid.
04:05You don't really know what to even say.
04:07Like, I always questioned.
04:08I was, like, how could you have a child and you don't want to be in their life?
04:12I was, like, if my father, like, didn't even want me, like, sorry.
04:18With my therapist, like, all the things that I wrote down, like, who I want to be on that paper,
04:23the very top, the most important to me was to be a husband and then to be a father.
04:28Yeah.
04:28I want to be my kid's everything.
04:30That's what I want.
04:32Yeah.
04:32My mom's my best friend.
04:34I do her lashes, her nails.
04:36I hope that I'm half of the mom that she is when I do become a mom.
04:41I definitely think having this emotional connection makes the physical 10 times better.
04:46And I think that's kind of why I'm in this season of celibacy, because it feels different.
04:51Yeah.
04:52We've got these little phrases over here, like, you're feeling, like, some feels for somebody.
04:56Like, oh, I got the tingly-winglies.
04:58Like, it's like when you're feeling it in your heart.
05:01And then the other one, it's basically when you're feeling it down below.
05:05That's the one that you need to run from.
05:08Which one do I give you, the tingly-winglies?
05:10Yeah, you give me the tingly-winglies.
05:16Oh, you have me smiling ear to ear.
05:19Yeah, you got the tingly-winglies.
05:20I have the tingly-winglies.
05:22I have the tingly-winglies.
05:29After meeting you, my whole, like, perspective has, like, changed on a lot of things.
05:33And it's an amazing feeling to your core, Jess, how compassionate you are, how kind you are.
05:39I wouldn't want to spend the rest of my life with anyone else, ever.
05:43I love the way that you talk to me.
05:45This is the greatest gift I have ever been given.
05:49I'm in love with you.
05:50Yeah.
05:51And, like, that's the truth.
05:52And, oh, my gosh.
05:58Jess Lee.
06:02Will you spend the rest of your life with me and marry me?
06:15I will.
06:16I love you so much.
06:18Oh, my God.
06:19I love you.
06:20I love you so much.
06:21I have my hands on the wall.
06:23Oh, my God.
06:24Oh, God.
06:26I think I felt that.
06:29I love you.
06:30I love you.
06:31I love you.
06:53I just don't know what to do.
06:56I don't want to go to my second just because my first doesn't like me, but I also owe it
07:02to myself to try and continue this experiment.
07:05Re-evaluate after the date.
07:07Yeah.
07:08Going into today, I really thought I was on the same page with Connor.
07:14I thought I knew things, and I don't.
07:17I'm getting in my mind a little, but I came here to find love.
07:20So I do think it would be regretful of me to not try.
07:25Maybe, could it be love?
07:26Maybe, could it be love?
07:31Hello.
07:32Hi.
07:33Talk about waiting all day to see or speak to you.
07:37You were waiting all day for me?
07:38I was.
07:39I mean, it's been absolute chaos out there.
07:43There's like six guys here that have number ones.
07:47I was hoping it was going to be you, but I didn't know if it was.
07:49I was super nervous.
07:52So I'm so sorry.
07:54I feel so bad.
07:54But yeah, today, me and my second ended it.
08:03Do you want to hear this?
08:05You don't have to tell me if you don't want to.
08:07I think it's important for our journey.
08:13It wasn't mutual.
08:14Oh, shit.
08:15Okay.
08:16Well, it was him ending it with you then?
08:19Mm-hmm.
08:19Yeah.
08:20Okay.
08:20Yeah.
08:21So he had another connection.
08:22Yep.
08:23Jesus Christ.
08:25No, Mike.
08:26I don't want that to negate what we have.
08:29I just think in the past couple of days,
08:31like I was juggling so many people.
08:33Yeah.
08:33So I do really like you,
08:37and it's just in my mind.
08:38I just need to get that shit out of my mind.
08:43Yeah.
08:44And you were so incredibly kind and caring and listening.
08:49Like it has meant a lot to me, so.
08:51Listen, I know we got a little deep,
08:54and I know it was very emotional,
08:56and it gave me a little bit more clarity, obviously.
08:59And like I said, I waited all day for this.
09:02You've been my number one.
09:04Since the beginning.
09:08And yeah, I can't wait.
09:10I have a question actually to ask you like tonight.
09:12You're getting on one knee already?
09:14It involves like what your ring looks like.
09:17Seriously?
09:18Swear to God.
09:20Damn.
09:21Think about that, and we will chat tonight.
09:23I will not ditch you.
09:24Don't ditch me.
09:25I will be there.
09:26I will be there, or I will be square.
09:28Bye.
09:28Bye.
09:28Bye.
09:37Falling in love with him every single day was so exciting.
09:40What's his last name?
09:42Spees.
09:43Spees.
09:43It's kind of funny, though.
09:44Free Spees.
09:45Breezy, Spees.
09:47Breezy, Spees.
09:47Breezy, Speesies.
09:48Breezy, Speesies.
09:48Breezy, Speesies.
09:50I do have some things to say.
09:52Okay, let's hear them.
09:53Wait, you really want to hear it?
09:54I do.
09:55Okay.
09:56Connor?
09:57Yes?
09:57From the moment I met you, I knew I met my perfect match.
10:01You take away all my self-doubts of never being enough or being too much and embrace me for all
10:08that I am, even though I cut you off every other sentence.
10:13Thinking about our future together, I know that the best is yet to come.
10:18You've been my slow burn from the start, but falling in love with you more and more each day has
10:23been my favorite part.
10:25I believe it's fate that brought us together and know that it will be unconditional love that will keep us
10:30bonded for a lifetime.
10:32I can't wait to start this next chapter with you.
10:35You're the man I've been praying to find, and I'm so excited to be your ride or die and forever
10:40stage five clinger.
10:42Oh, my God.
10:43Are you ready for this?
10:45Brianna, I am so ready for this.
10:47I can't believe we found each other.
10:49I am so happy that we did.
10:52I really do think you're my person.
10:54Like, it's crazy.
10:55I did not see this coming, and that's why I think it's one last coincidence for us that this just
11:03happened.
11:05You are everything I could ever ask for.
11:09You support me.
11:11You laugh at all the dumbest jokes I tell.
11:14Thank you for helping me open up.
11:17Thank you for challenging me.
11:19Thank you for being open.
11:21Thank you for feeling like you can share anything with me.
11:25You make me feel secure.
11:27Thank you for accepting me for me.
11:30Thank you for being authentic, honest, and genuine.
11:34But most of all, thank you for being you.
11:37I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
11:41I love you.
11:43Brianna Marie McNeese.
11:46Will you marry me?
11:53Absolutely.
11:54Let's go.
11:58Oh, my gosh.
12:01We are engaged.
12:03Holy shit.
12:04I love you.
12:04I love you, too.
12:05Let's go.
12:13Come on, boys.
12:14Come on.
12:15Oh, my gosh.
12:24You guys are screaming, crying, throwing up.
12:27Screaming, crying, throwing up.
12:30This is insane.
12:31This is insane.
12:34Oh, my gosh.
12:34Oh, my gosh.
12:39I literally would walk into the dates with Vick and be like, Kevin.
12:42That is so freaking funny.
12:44What's up, Kevin?
12:45Wait, has he told you that?
12:46No.
12:47But I knew it wasn't him.
12:49They have very different voices.
12:50Yeah.
12:50You're going to be perfect.
12:52You are perfect.
12:53I am excited to see y'all's journey.
12:55I was literally telling Dynasty.
12:56I was like, I don't know who else could be.
12:57I said, but I would not be mad if it's Christine.
12:59From day one, you've been authentic with what you have in common,
13:03which is your freaking faith.
13:04Like, the type of personalities that y'all are.
13:06The way that you would blend in with his family.
13:08His background story.
13:09I know Dynasty struggled with, like, my story isn't that.
13:13And I don't know how I could relate to someone that came from that.
13:16Which I got that just didn't make sense for me with him.
13:20And I know, like, may look different.
13:21Maybe a different color.
13:22But your story and his story are similar.
13:25Just different colors.
13:26Different version.
13:27And it sounded to me like he needed someone to connect with on that level.
13:31So, I think your love story is beautiful.
13:34You're in La La Land.
13:36I am in La La Land.
13:37I'm the president of La La Land right now.
13:39I'm the mayor.
13:40You're the mayor of La La Land.
13:42La La Land.
13:43Oh!
13:45Seeing the girls thriving and happy and falling in love with someone makes me feel worthy.
13:50Like, why wouldn't this work for me?
13:52I don't know.
13:53I feel like I deserve to have a husband.
13:57I deserve to have a husband on the other side of that wall.
13:59Kevin better be for me.
14:04That is my expectation.
14:09But Kevin has to make a decision.
14:12Every time I'm, like, now looking at the door and Tyler together, it's just when she goes,
14:17what did you say?
14:18Not rewind, but you're like...
14:19Redo.
14:20Redo.
14:20And, like, walked out.
14:21I was like...
14:22Very embarrassing.
14:23The fuck?
14:23Good.
14:24No, nothing's embarrassing here.
14:26I don't think I'm necessarily worried about Kevin.
14:29Dating other folks.
14:31I think that's what we're supposed to be doing.
14:33It's my intention to ignore the noise and focus on what's going on here.
14:48Wow.
14:50That's a watch.
14:51I talked to you a little bit about honoring my dad, and I've been wearing my watch every
14:57day.
14:58It looks great.
15:01It reminds me of my father, but I feel like it's perfect for you, too, because I feel like
15:06sometimes you're in your head.
15:08And I want this watch to represent understanding that it is okay if it takes a few more ticks
15:16to understand where you're at with things.
15:19Just know that everything is what it should be.
15:25That's beautiful.
15:27That's beautiful.
15:31Kia, you deserve honesty.
15:34I'm Kevin from Columbus.
15:36I'm literally putting everything by my bootstraps to pay for my stuff, my mother's stuff, drive
15:47a little beat-up Chevy Cruze.
15:51I love it.
15:52I don't have the crazy crib or anything.
15:55I just have a little one-bedroom apartment.
15:57I don't have everything figured out.
15:58I came out here to take a chance and find someone that's special.
16:04You are a phenomenal, amazing person.
16:12And I do think you deserve the world.
16:18Yes, I do.
16:20I know that.
16:24But to be clear, I don't want a man that has it all.
16:27It doesn't matter.
16:28What matters is someone who is kind, who is thoughtful.
16:33It doesn't matter.
16:34You're right.
16:37But at the same time.
16:39You are so awesome, Kevin.
16:43I hope you feel like that.
16:47I appreciate you, Kia, for really taking the time to learn about me and getting to know
16:53me.
16:54You are phenomenal, Kia.
17:00Yeah.
17:01Damn.
17:01In this experience, the one thing I really have learned is what it means to love.
17:09For you to share that with me, it means the world to me.
17:14You, Kia, you have, you know, really opened my eyes.
17:20I feel good.
17:21I want a better word than good, like, I feel thankful.
17:29Thankful for this experiment.
17:31And I don't know, like, I feel like we unlocked a, like, this is crazy, right?
17:37Do you want to open up the gift?
17:41Oh, my God.
17:43Are you kidding me?
17:44It's so funny because of what you do, you know, love for basketball.
17:50And I want to be the LeBron James of fathers.
17:56This is really cool.
17:57This is a very sweet gift.
17:58Are you kidding me?
17:59Oh, my God.
18:01Oh, I'm so excited.
18:04How do you feel right now?
18:08I feel just heavy, a little uneasy.
18:15Really?
18:15Today, I think I've really just realized that I probably should let Kia win.
18:27Okay.
18:29Let everybody win.
18:30Let what?
18:33Let, let, let, let Kia win.
18:35Let everybody win.
18:36Let, I don't know.
18:39Like, it's, this is so crazy to me.
18:42I don't know if I'm worth the love of both people that I'm talking with now.
18:50Yeah, it's time to start doing the mature decisions, you know?
18:58We have feelings for each other, right?
18:59Yes.
19:00I care.
19:02Kia, I do, you know, care about you.
19:05You really took it to a whole nother level.
19:10But I also know that I have to make sure I'm making the best decision for everybody.
19:20Yeah.
19:21Me and Tyler.
19:25Yeah.
19:28I want the best for Kia, and I don't want to fuck up.
19:36We both have a lot to think about.
19:38You want the best for me, I want the best for me.
19:41But I, on a serious note, I want the best for you too, so like, yeah.
19:47Yeah.
19:50Let's go process.
19:52I'm going to go see if they'll let me play basketball with my new shiny blue basketball.
19:56I'm so confused.
20:01I deserve somebody who's willing to take all the risks for me.
20:04You all have an instinct today.
20:06Right now, the power is like all in his hands.
20:09Yeah.
20:09I don't like that at all.
20:11Yeah.
20:13Hi, guys.
20:14Hi, beautiful.
20:16Hi.
20:16Hi.
20:17How was it?
20:18It was good.
20:19It was good.
20:20Good.
20:20Is that a gift?
20:21It is a gift.
20:22Oh.
20:23Well, you guys know how, well, I don't know if you guys know this about me, but I used to
20:26work for the Cavs in sales and marketing.
20:28Long story short, I'm a basketball girly.
20:30And ironically enough, I got a basketball.
20:34So like, what are the odds?
20:37Very sweet gift.
20:48I'm just going to say it because I just can't with this whole fucking secret of shit.
20:51Like, it's me and Kia, like sitting in this fucking room every day.
20:56And that's my girl.
20:57We're just sitting ducks.
20:58I know it sounds silly, but it's like, I just want to be somebody's like undeniable choice.
21:03I just want for once, like, a man to be like.
21:08That they choose Tyler, I know.
21:13But you and Kia have been phenomenal.
21:18I don't want to fucking let anybody down.
21:26Shit's hard, man.
21:28It's the hardest decisions I've ever had to make in my life.
21:33I don't know what your journey is with Kia, but what I would need, like, today is for
21:41you to only be dating me.
21:45I need you to make a decision.
21:52I'm just going to speak from the heart.
21:54When I hear your name, like, my face, it lights up.
21:57I love that passion that you've had.
22:00You've been just so fucking steady rock, fighting for it, getting to it.
22:08It's like, wow.
22:13That's true love right there.
22:15That's fucking true love.
22:18So what you going to do, Kevin?
22:29I am choosing fucking Tyler.
22:34Kevin, look at you making a decision.
22:39This feels so good.
22:40Wow.
22:41Are we, like, official?
22:45You are currently my girl.
22:51I got a boyfriend?
22:53Oh, yes, ma'am.
22:56I got a boyfriend?
22:57Yes, ma'am.
22:59Oh, I haven't had a boyfriend in so long.
23:02Okay, so we're official now.
23:04Love that for us.
23:05Love that.
23:06Now that I'm your girlfriend, do you remember my middle name?
23:14Because I don't remember yours at all.
23:16Facts, facts.
23:17I don't, I don't.
23:18It's Marie.
23:19Oh, shit, I did.
23:23Oh, my gosh.
23:24In all seriousness, I have loved every interaction, moment when we had to share the highs and the lows.
23:34Yeah.
23:34I can't shy away from how that makes me feel.
23:38What's the feeling like?
23:41It feels like I'm floating.
23:50It feels like cloud nine.
23:56Oh, I love that.
23:58Yeah.
24:02Oh, man, this is, what a fucking day.
24:06What a day.
24:08Oh.
24:08Oh, my God.
24:12Okay, I kind of got to pee.
24:15Okay.
24:16What?
24:17Want to take a quick 10 minutes?
24:19Yeah, I'll have to.
24:20Okay.
24:21I'll see you soon.
24:27Hi, sweet girl.
24:29Hi.
24:30I got to pee.
24:31I have to go patty?
24:32Do you need anything?
24:34Do you want an old-fashioned?
24:35Yes.
24:37Do you want a snack?
24:38Yeah, maybe some cheese and salsa.
24:41Is Kia in here?
24:42What?
24:42Is Kia in here?
24:43No.
24:45I have a boyfriend.
24:47Hi.
24:47Shut the fuck up.
24:48What happened?
24:49She has a boyfriend.
24:53Because I think Kia is in a good type of space about it.
24:58Girl.
25:02So are you going to wait until he can talk to her tomorrow?
25:05Oh, yeah.
25:05Or are you going to say anything?
25:06I'm not saying anything.
25:07Okay.
25:07I wonder if he can ask to talk to her tonight or if he'll just wait until tomorrow.
25:10I think I might ask him.
25:12Yeah, you don't want to sleep on that shit.
25:13You fucking decide.
25:17It's about you.
25:20You're good.
25:21Have fun.
25:22Good luck, sweet friend.
25:23I love y'all.
25:25No.
25:25That is hard.
25:29I wonder if we should take a shot now or wait for Kia.
25:35Welcome back.
25:37It was just Emma and Christine in there.
25:39And I was like, I'm just going on a quick bathroom break.
25:41And like, how do you feel?
25:42I was like, I feel really good.
25:43And they looked at me really confused because they were like, okay, I think Kia also feels
25:48really good.
25:49Yeah.
25:49That just feels like shit to me.
25:51I'm sorry.
25:52Like, she could be laying out her engagement outfit where she's going to get engaged in.
25:57Like, that's just kind of fucked up, Kevin.
25:59Like, if it was me, I would want you to tell me.
26:06I have been having strong connections with her.
26:14It was hard choosing between, you know, you two.
26:18And why was that again?
26:22I didn't want someone who I had these feelings for to just to leave.
26:34You know, at the end of the day, Tyler, I felt very deeply about you.
26:40But me and Kia were able to bond.
26:44Is there any parts of you that feel like you have, like, feelings of love for her?
26:52Love is a very strong word.
26:56But I will say, you know, definitely, you know, bonded, exchanged gifts.
27:01It's relating to a lot of, a lot of stuff.
27:06How are you going to tell me that?
27:07You literally asked me to be your girlfriend.
27:10Yes, I want you to be my girlfriend.
27:13But having two amazing people, this isn't a fucking game, you know?
27:21This is our lives.
27:24Like, this isn't fucking...
27:27Oh, my God.
27:35I want you, though.
27:38What the fuck?
27:40Thanks, man.
27:41You know?
27:46What?
27:48I want you.
27:50I do want that.
27:53Oh, my God.
28:02Okay.
28:08Oh, my God.
28:09I just, oh, I feel so fucking dumb.
28:12Not, not dumb.
28:15Oh, my God.
28:23How do you ask somebody to be their girlfriend?
28:25How do you talk about engagements and weddings and marriage and life?
28:31If you don't feel ready to be married, if you don't feel ready to be engaged, that's fine.
28:34I feel ready.
28:35I feel ready.
28:35Oh, my God.
28:36I feel crazy.
28:38Don't feel crazy, Tyler.
28:40But, baby, tomorrow, you're supposed to be getting down on one knee.
28:44I know.
28:44I know.
28:46But I wanted to talk through us, though.
28:50Let me just be very clear.
28:52Let me just be very clear.
28:52I'm not spending the night in that hotel with the feeling that I have right now.
28:56I'm not coming back tomorrow.
28:58This is crazy.
28:59This is bananas.
29:00This is nuts.
29:02Like, if I think about how my husband would make me feel, it's how I felt two hours ago,
29:07not how I feel right now, which is fucking crazy.
29:10If you're my husband, you got to spend the rest of your life making it up to me.
29:12But if you're not my husband, then leave me alone.
29:15I'm going to go.
29:17Tyler, don't go.
29:21You are an amazing woman.
29:23You are that person that I want to be with.
29:28Prove it.
29:30Okay.
29:32Let me figure out how to do something.
29:38Because I'm not coming back here tomorrow without clarity.
29:42And I don't know how to tell you to do that.
29:44Okay.
29:44So you got to figure that out.
29:47I'll figure it out.
29:48All right.
29:49Good night.
29:49Good night.
29:53Might be having one of the craziest days ever.
30:00Girl, unless that man can send a secret carrier to my motherfucking hotel room, I thought I might get back
30:05on another bus.
30:06I just went on the most rollercoaster of my shit too, bro. This shit is fucking crazy, bro.
30:13I got to figure some shit out, man.
30:15If y'all already see the last five hours I've been through, I just feel like I got jumped by,
30:19like, sumo wrestlers.
30:24Oh, Jesus.
30:27Like, I just got my ass looked.
30:30I was great, man.
30:32Went from great to okay.
30:34Ooh.
30:34Who's that?
30:35Which one?
30:36Tyler.
30:37Tyler.
30:38Who's at your top?
30:39Well, it's been, but I thought we were, said that we're, we were ready to move forward and be together
30:50and, you know, move forward.
30:51But then she did make me think about with Nia.
30:57I just don't, I just don't like how that ended up.
30:59I don't know.
31:01Help me out.
31:04What do you got to lay on?
31:06I couldn't fucking tell her that you love her.
31:08Yeah.
31:08I went from exuberant to just fucking what the fuck, bro.
31:12I love you, bro.
31:14It's gonna work out.
31:16It's gonna work out.
31:17Appreciate it, man.
31:29Hello.
31:30Good morning, my love.
31:32How are you?
31:33I'm good.
31:34How did you sleep?
31:35Amazing.
31:36That's good.
31:38How did you?
31:38I do not.
31:39I was up a lot.
31:41Daydreaming.
31:42What were you daydreaming about?
31:44Our life together.
31:46I am grateful for you.
31:49Thank you for bringing me so much peace and comfort and security.
31:53Even with not even physically being with you, I just feel so safe.
31:59I feel loved.
32:01I feel seen.
32:01And I pray for a lifetime of laughs, love, and lots of babies.
32:10You have me at a loss for words.
32:12I met my best friend.
32:14And I'm excited to do life with you.
32:18Brittany, Elena, Wicker, I love you.
32:25Will you marry me?
32:29Yes!
32:32I know you didn't know what I was gonna say, but...
32:35I can't wait to be your wife.
32:38We're getting married.
32:39We're getting married.
32:40Be ready.
32:41No more waiting for you.
32:43Right.
32:44Let's go celebrate.
32:45Okay.
32:46Bye.
32:47Bye.
33:06He's a fiance.
33:08My baby, my baby, my baby.
33:10What are you waiting for?
33:15I come alive.
33:19When you walk into the room, I swear, dim the lights.
33:24It's beyond comprehension how lucky and grateful I feel in this moment.
33:30I'm ready to commit to Chris forever because of who he is.
33:34I love that man so much.
33:36It is fucking wild.
33:37This can't be real.
33:39It's like a living out of movie and you're the star.
33:44Choosing Jessica to be the person I want to spend my life with, it's almost like a premonition of fate.
33:51When the stars align like almost perfectly, my life that I've lived up to this point and maybe her life
33:58she's lived up to this point, it's just like literally meant to be.
34:04I'm dying to see Chris because I want to touch him and I want to be in his presence, but
34:10not because I want to see what he looks like.
34:11Like I don't care.
34:13The anticipation is unbelievable.
34:19She's willing to go above and beyond for love.
34:23And I don't think that's ever been reciprocated back to me.
34:25I mean, I love her.
34:27Yeah.
34:27Uh-huh.
34:53oh my gosh
34:57wow
35:05I feel like I have to do this in person right now
35:07let me try to figure this out real quick
35:12okay
35:14oh my gosh
35:16alright
35:23leave Amy
35:26oh my god
35:32why are you taking me?
35:34you like it?
35:35you like it?
35:42I feel like I'm so nervous right now
35:44you're okay
35:45you're okay
35:46I love you
35:47I love you
35:47oh my gosh
35:50you look amazing
35:51thank you so much
35:53thank you
35:55thank you
35:55thank you
35:55thank you
35:56this is me
35:58wow
36:00mmm
36:01seeing Jessica I'm like I know you so well
36:04and like to see her physically it was like
36:07oh my god
36:09she's perfect
36:09it was the best moment of my entire life
36:14I'm so happy
36:15I'm so happy
36:16oh god I love you
36:18I love you
36:20oh my god
36:21I could have never found you
36:23never
36:25wow
36:25wow
36:25you're literally stunning
36:28stunning
36:29literally
36:30I'm also so short
36:32like when you were talking about my six inch heels
36:34I was like
36:35I was literally
36:36I wasn't gonna say anything to you
36:37I was like how do I
36:38because I'm not
36:39I'm not six foot three
36:40obviously
36:40so I was like
36:41six inch heels
36:42I was like she's six foot with heels
36:43I was like
36:44I'm gonna be like
36:45yo this guy
36:46literally only five feet tall
36:51you're perfect
36:52stop
36:52no you are
36:54I was like
36:55man I wonder if she's like the way I look
36:56and then I got
36:57are you kidding me?
36:58it's
36:58ugh
36:59can we just stay here?
37:00I know
37:01mmm
37:01oh my god
37:03this is like
37:05mmm
37:07you wanna look at you like
37:08yeah look at me
37:09I really do just wanna like
37:11wow
37:12the connection we made
37:13I love you so much
37:14and like just seeing you
37:16it just like
37:16it literally makes it like a thousand times better
37:20I will remember this forever
37:24mmm
37:27God you're so cute
37:31stop
37:31stop
37:32you stop
37:34everything is exactly how it's supposed to be
37:36literally one of the best moments of my entire life
37:38100%
37:38actually
37:38no question
37:39it's not one of
37:39it literally is
37:40same
37:43you're a falling star
37:45you're the getaway car
37:47you're the light in the sand
37:49when I go too far
37:51I absolutely did not care
37:54what package he came in
37:55but he's gorgeous
37:57oh god
37:59I'm really glad I have some champagne
38:04we live our whole lives ahead of us
38:07we're the luckiest people ever
38:09you're such a nice person
38:10you're just
38:11I haven't had this love before
38:14after my divorce
38:15I literally couldn't even have dreamed it
38:17he just makes me feel so safe
38:20like I just know
38:21he's never gonna let me down
38:23I just know it
38:24I love you
38:28I love Jessica
38:29I couldn't imagine being with anybody else
38:32like ever
38:37I love you
38:43I love you
38:55I love you
38:58I love you
39:02cause you're my everything
39:10so you felt like your one
39:12last night after the
39:14everything went a lot better
39:15so
39:16I was so confused
39:18I had feelings for two people
39:19but
39:20I feel so comforted
39:21I feel so stable
39:22so
39:23secure
39:24and like
39:25I feel
39:26like loved
39:26like I can like feel
39:27like he really
39:29really
39:29really cares for me
39:31that's the one
39:33and that was never the one
39:34that I thought I was gonna go for
39:35that was
39:36that was him
39:37like that was the one
39:38who's standing here today
39:40I
39:41woke up
39:42at peace
39:43for the first time
39:43in a long time
39:44I got butterflies you know
39:45do you wanna open first
39:47sure
39:48alright
39:48I'm opening right now
39:49okay
39:51they are letters
39:53okay
39:53so
39:54my
39:55mom
39:56is an amazing writer
39:58every year
39:59she writes a Christmas letter
40:00summarizing
40:00our life in a nutshell
40:01and excerpts
40:03of
40:03each of us
40:04oh my gosh
40:05I'm already getting cured up
40:06I was hoping that someone
40:07was going to get to know me
40:09so well
40:10I found that in you
40:13so
40:14I'm really excited for you
40:16to be able to read these letters
40:17and learn more about my family
40:20through my mom's words
40:22I'm gonna read the first one
40:24what year is that?
40:262002
40:27I didn't have a personality then
40:29so it's not as funny
40:29but it's
40:30a personality
40:31I think you had a personality
40:34season's greetings
40:35after writing the past three Christmas letters
40:37from three different homes
40:38living in the same house for over a year
40:40we had a good year
40:41took a few family vacations
40:43the biggest being four days at Disney World
40:45it was Emma's first time there
40:48so it was very exciting for everyone
40:50Cora 10
40:51continues to study violin
40:53and also participates on the math team
40:55and went on to the state level
40:57Hannah 8 is in third grade
40:58still loves animals and the outdoors
41:00on her walk home from school one day
41:03our mighty little naturist
41:04managed to capture two little turtles
41:06so the two turtles
41:08join our two guinea pigs
41:09two fish and two dogs
41:11oh my god
41:11the ark is full
41:12she goes
41:13your mom's got a sense of humor
41:15we had every single pet under the sun
41:17hamsters
41:17rats
41:18rats?
41:19yeah my sister had rats
41:20Jesus
41:21we had lizards
41:22we had ducks
41:24we had a rabbit
41:25you had a whole farm
41:27yeah we like
41:27have housed many things
41:31alright
41:31um
41:32Emma
41:34here we go
41:34is five and a half
41:36don't make the mistake of leaving off the
41:39and a half
41:41most of you know she underwent six operations
41:44to remove a big black birthmark
41:46that covered her left arm
41:47and we are all grateful to that behind us
41:50Emma developed an enormous medical vocabulary
41:53over the last several months
41:55and can probably name more types of bandages
41:58than the average intern
41:59I wanted to be a doctor when I grew up
42:01because of that
42:01oh wow
42:02that's amazing
42:04this is
42:05now she delights in playing hospital
42:08with the leftover supplies
42:09yep
42:10yeah there you go
42:11checks out
42:12she wrapped the neighbor's boy's leg
42:14in bandages
42:15and then told him to come back on Tuesday
42:17for a dressing change
42:21we wish all of you a wonderful holiday
42:23season
42:23and wish all the best for the upcoming year
42:26love
42:26Jeff, Steph, Cora, Hannah and Emma
42:30aww
42:30you can really feel the love
42:32and
42:32how proud she is of interviewing
42:34yeah
42:34I knew my parents loved me
42:36yeah
42:37but I didn't know
42:40like it could be that much
42:41like looking back at these
42:42my mom
42:43I told you we were very big into sports
42:45yeah yeah
42:46so she did like
42:46she's doing like a scrapbook for me
42:48yeah aww
42:49for like my high school career and stuff
42:51that's so special
42:51she went to every single one of my games
42:54and she filmed it
42:55yeah
42:55oh my gosh
42:56even my younger ones
42:57wow
42:58it's amazing how mothers can show love in so many different ways
43:01I couldn't agree more
43:03yeah
43:03alright
43:03you wanna open up mine
43:05oh yeah
43:06oh my gosh
43:10this is so cute
43:12little scrapbook
43:13stop it
43:15so do you like scrapbooking?
43:17I do
43:18like scrapbooking
43:19so I decorated the front
43:21and
43:22Mike you did this?
43:23yeah
43:23I'm excited to
43:25have the both of us
43:26take pictures
43:27and fill that out together
43:29and
43:29it's our story
43:31wait so are we boyfriend and girlfriend?
43:33yes
43:34I think we have so many similarities
43:36so you don't judge
43:38you're very empathetic towards me
43:40mhm
43:40I am
43:41very very excited
43:43for committing to you
43:45and
43:45wanting you to be my wife
43:47yeah
43:48um
43:48the only thing would be
43:50the kids thing
43:51yeah
43:52you're kind of afraid
43:53because you don't know
43:54your genes
43:55what if we got gene testing done
43:57and it was fine
43:58cause I
44:00I mean
44:00listening to you talk
44:01and like
44:01even when I was
44:03reading these letters
44:04you're such a family person
44:06I know
44:06you could be
44:08a great
44:08mother
44:09and just think of having
44:11a little you
44:12that you can literally
44:15do what your mom did for you
44:17I think that you would
44:19absolutely kill it
44:20I
44:23could see
44:25a family with you
44:27the idea is still so new to me
44:29I'm also nervous
44:31that I'm like
44:32some days I
44:35am very selfish
44:36and I'm like
44:37no I don't need to take care of anyone but me
44:38and like that's kind of how I've been
44:40rocking and rolling for 27 years
44:42I've been selfish too
44:44yeah
44:44you can be selfish for a little bit
44:46yeah
44:46and I'll take the brunt of the work
44:48yeah
44:49you know
44:50and then vice versa
44:50like if I'm having a tough day
44:52you know
44:53you might take the brunt of the work
44:55my parents
44:56gave us so much
44:58I'm just afraid
44:59like I can't
45:00like
45:00offer that to my kids
45:02I've been in
45:04money situations
45:05where I'm like
45:06oh shit like
45:07yeah me too
45:07I've maxed out my credit card
45:09what if shit hits the fan
45:11we're young
45:12yeah
45:12you're 27
45:13I'm not even 30 yet
45:15maybe like three or
45:15three years ago
45:16yeah
45:17I maxed out my credit card
45:19yeah
45:20I was $23,000 in debt
45:22yeah
45:22I fought
45:23and I clawed my way
45:24yeah
45:25and now I don't have any debt
45:26things like that happen
45:27yeah
45:27and it's a learning experience
45:29but we're learning together
45:31and I know
45:32just how my family is
45:34and I'm getting a really strong sense
45:35how your family is too
45:36yeah
45:37I feel like
45:37if there ever was
45:39a money issue
45:40yeah
45:41which I don't think there would be
45:42but I know that my family would help out
45:44yeah
45:44and I'd like to think that maybe your family
45:47yeah
45:47it seems would help out too
45:49yeah
45:49I know they would say yes
45:50so that's what I'm trying to say
45:51and it's not
45:52that's not being shameful
45:54yeah
45:54to go to parents for help
45:55that's what they're there for
45:57yeah
45:57it doesn't sound good
45:59I'm sorry
46:00no no
46:00no it didn't
46:01it did sound good
46:02I'm like speechless
46:03just seeing you so passionate about it
46:05I want to be open-minded
46:07I do see myself
46:08marrying you
46:09and that was the only thing
46:11that was a question mark
46:12are you still okay
46:13that it's a question mark
46:14I am
46:15yeah
46:16okay
46:16I feel such a strong connection with you
46:18that I'm okay with the question mark
46:20yeah
46:20I'm okay with the question mark
46:22but
46:23I'll be lying to you if I
46:25if I didn't say
46:26I'm gonna try to sway you a little bit
46:28yeah
46:29um
46:30not looking for an answer
46:31no I know
46:32but
46:33I'm just saying
46:34yeah
46:35to think about it
46:35anything could happen
46:37anything could happen
46:40anything could happen
46:40anything could happen
46:44yeah
46:56oh my gosh
46:58I've literally engaged to Connor
47:00I feel like I just put it in the universe
47:02the first day I was like this is my guy
47:06I found
47:08my person
47:12I feel over the moon
47:13elated
47:14Brianna has made me realize
47:16what I want
47:17we've trusted each other
47:19put confidence in each other
47:20supported each other
47:22listened to each other
47:23me more than her
47:24since she doesn't ever
47:26stop talking
47:27it's so awesome
47:29I never want her to stop talking
47:32it's definitely a fairytale
47:34it's definitely a fairytale
47:34but is this all gonna come to fruition
47:36and be real life
47:37or are we just like living in this fairytale world
47:40that isn't really gonna pan out
47:45I do have some insecurities
47:47is she gonna be okay with how I look
47:50I know I'm out of shape
47:51I'm not the most built
47:53and I'm 5'11 and 3 fourths
47:55I'm not short
47:56just
47:57standard date
47:58normal body
47:59normal height
48:00and I don't really stand out
48:01hopefully she's okay with that
48:03cause she's my soul mate
48:15stop
48:17Connor
48:20finally
48:20oh you have no idea
48:22stop it
48:24oh my gosh
48:25stop
48:25oh my gosh
48:27you're freaking gorgeous
48:38the wildest brusque ever
48:40oh shit
48:41oh my god
48:42I do have one thing for you
48:44what?
48:45okay you're so sweaty
48:47I know I'm freaking sore
48:47your hands are so sweaty
48:49yeah I know
48:52this is insane
48:53you're like free
48:55I know
48:55officially?
48:57it's official
48:59okay
49:00it's on
49:03holy shit
49:04no you have no idea
49:05oh my god
49:08no you have to go my way
49:10oh your way
49:10because I
49:10you have to walk away
49:11not me
49:12I was gonna walk you back
49:13no you were
49:14this is your gentleman
49:16yes
49:16oh my god
49:17Connor
49:17what?
49:18your hands are the sweaty
49:20I told you
49:21this is nuts
49:22my heart's like
49:24like Connor's a stud
49:26I can't wait to see like
49:27all of each other
49:28whether that's with clothes
49:29or without
49:32this is weird
49:34wow
49:35stop
49:36stop
49:37stop
49:38stop
49:39you're such a cheese ball
49:41I don't know
49:41she's gorgeous
49:42it matches her personality
49:44you look unbelievable
49:45oh thanks
49:46holy shit
49:47you said it to me
49:48no
49:49get out of here
49:50you get out of here
49:51come here
49:52perfect smile
49:53you could see it just radiating off her
49:55and she was just so happy
49:59to see me
50:00that's when I knew
50:01I'll remember that moment
50:03for the rest of my life
50:04am I what you expected
50:07mhm
50:07really?
50:09yeah I think so
50:09it all checks
50:10really?
50:12well he's not medium ugly
50:13I appreciate that
50:15you're laughing
50:16the minute you just started laughing
50:18when you came out
50:19of the double doors
50:20I was like that's all I needed
50:21it's just like when we were on our dates
50:22and I'm just like
50:23if I'm ever nervous or whatnot
50:24and I just hear your voice
50:25and like your
50:25like positivity
50:27and your optimism
50:28just like
50:29aww
50:29look at him
50:31gasping me
50:32that's all I needed
50:32and then you just started laughing
50:34I'm like
50:34I told you I would
50:35I'm like I'm just gonna start laughing
50:37I know you too
50:37it's like my nervous tick
50:39I don't even know what I did
50:40wait how tall are you?
50:415'4
50:42okay
50:42wait how tall are you?
50:455'11 and 3'4
50:46I'm not 6 foot
50:47yeah someone fact check this man
50:48get a really
50:49I didn't say I was 6 foot
50:50yeah you were honest
50:51well
50:52that's a great
50:53that's a great quality in you
50:54I think I got like
50:55an extra half inch
50:56you wore his high heels today
50:57is my heart still being like
50:59fast as
51:00yes
51:01mine was too
51:02did you think there was
51:02gonna be any awkwardness
51:03when we saw each other?
51:04no
51:05I thought maybe
51:06for like a
51:07no
51:07me or you?
51:08me
51:09being engaged
51:11is
51:11one of the craziest feelings
51:13no one's ever said
51:15how good
51:15it feels
51:19I feel like I can
51:20climb a freaking mountain
51:21right now
51:21even
51:22in this suit
51:27this is an unbelievable feeling
51:29I found the love of my life
51:32which is perfect
51:33you're too far away from me
51:34we even get closer
51:35oh my gosh
51:36she's like
51:37sit on my lap
51:39stop
51:43you are so freaking cute
51:45stop
51:47stop
51:47do you want me to stop or no?
51:48no
51:49no
51:49okay
51:51don't actually stop
52:01okay
52:03what?
52:04you can't just make out for 20 years
52:05oh you can
52:07I never knew anybody
52:08until I knew you
52:11feels like I'm gonna be okay
52:12because I have Connor
52:14oh
52:14oh my gosh
52:20well it's nice to meet you
52:22stop it
52:23I'm really happy
52:24don't walk me down
52:25no
52:25no I'm not walking you down
52:27no I'm fine
52:33I love you
52:34I love you too
52:34oh my gosh
52:36so cute
52:36I know how you've not said that yet
52:38so you just wanted to make out
52:40I told you
52:42okay watch out
52:43you're gonna like run into that side
52:45you're worth it babe
52:46oh
52:47okay
52:51you kidding me
52:53I fucking love you guys
52:55oh my gosh
53:03the best moment of my life
53:05I don't know what to do with my hands
53:11you've been in your head for a while now
53:14you don't have to make a decision now
53:16make a decision together
53:17I don't know
53:18don't know
53:20we shall see
53:22I never expected myself to be in a love triangle
53:27but here we are
53:31what percentage of your heart is with Kia
53:34and what percent is with Tyler
53:39I don't know if I can put a percent on it
53:43what I will say
53:43what I will say
53:44is that
53:44for different reasons
53:46there's something that's
53:48pulling me
53:49and I truly don't want to
53:55don't want to mess that up
54:00I'm not here to find a girlfriend
54:02I'm here to find best friend
54:05I want to
54:07raise a family
54:08be with my wife
54:09and in today's date with Tyler
54:11I need to be able to
54:13say hey
54:14this
54:15is where I'm at
54:16this is how I feel
54:19that beautiful chapter
54:20it needs to be written
54:21that's what I'm here for
54:26Tyler makes me feel like
54:27she may be the one
54:28so I'm ready to see
54:29if she's
54:30she's available
54:31and she's ready to see me
54:35hey
54:41hello hello
54:50hello
55:02nobody's on the other side
55:20that's what you want
55:30and she'll be here
55:33on the other side
55:33that's going to have to be
55:33that's what I'm saying
55:33that's what I'm saying
55:33and I just didn't make
55:33it
55:33I just made it
55:33There's so much to discover, there's so much to discover, there's so much to discover.
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