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00:06Previously on the Madison
00:10He wanted to be buried here. There's a spot marked on a map. I know this spot. I
00:16Can't remember his face
00:17If I were you I wouldn't listen
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00:30I'm going to die
00:33As much as I like sitting here it hurts more than you'll ever know
00:36Just like you're wondering how I feel about you feel enough to sit here and take it
00:40Abby if I were you I would set my hooks pretty deep in that one. They're not making any more
00:46men like him
00:52I wonder if you know how happiness would make him
00:57It would fill his heart
01:00Tomorrow we bury them
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03:41perfect place. For some, it's ice cream oceans and marshmallow mountains. And others, it's
03:51these mountains. Does that make sense? And Grandpa's heaven is here. I think so.
04:02But if you think he's here, why is everyone so sad he's gone? Well, his heaven isn't mine.
04:09And, you know, I can't see him. And I can't talk to him. And I can't hug him. And he
04:17can't hug me. And I miss that. Yeah. I miss it too. But that's why we have memories. We
04:28can revisit all those times that we did have. All the talks, all the laughs, all the hugs.
04:35And, you know, it's like a movie. We can play it over and over as many times as we want
04:46in our minds. You know what I mean? I do. Not the same, though, as a real hug. No, it's
04:56not
05:16the same.
05:19Right here, huh? She marked it on a map. All right. Well, we ain't getting a backhoe down
05:26here. Might be able to get a tractor up from the river, but I'm not sure what good that'll
05:32do us. No, these holes are getting dug the old Irish way. Yep. How the hell are we going
05:39to get the caskets here? Swinston still feed off a wagon, don't they? That's a good idea.
05:46You want to call or run for shovels? Nah, you call. I'll run. My gelding's just going
05:51to follow you. Yank off that bridle. Yep.
06:16I am aware. Yes, I am aware. We have had a death in the family. I'm pretty sure the world
06:24of girls' volleyball will survive the week without her. Yes, you are correct. I am not
06:29factored in how this affects anyone else, even a little. Fuck. Is this going to be okay?
06:38This is going to have to do, honey. It's all you got. Hey. It's just us. Okay? There's
06:47nobody to be offended. What did school say? You're missing a volleyball tournament.
06:53I'm not sure the pool. It's ok. It's ok. It's ok. Hey. Hey. Hey. Hey. Hey.
07:28where'd you find cream same shopping center where i found the dress
07:33i gotta say boseman impressed me i wasn't expecting to find donna karen in the mountains
07:39found a little something for you too yeah preston would prefer me in jeans i think he would find a
07:46certain victory in that he deserves a little black dress and that's exactly what i got you
07:52did the boys say when they would be ready they said to walk over at noon how are they going
07:57to
07:57get them out there i didn't ask and they didn't say they just said it was handled
08:05about two hours preston wrote a chapter on telling time from the sun's position it's
08:14alarmingly accurate
08:18the girls asked me to arrange a plane
08:23when tonight
08:27okay they need closure honey they won't get it here they have lives and they need to go live them
08:34i would very much like to plan a memorial service he has a lot of friends that deserve a way
08:39to say
08:39goodbye does he he does and you know that we could do it at the explorers club okay just
08:47have at the apartment have corbonne cater they love that place i already called you find back too
09:01i have a very worried husband he's convinced some distant cousin of the unabomber is going to abduct me
09:08and hold me in his basement for ransom depending on the cousin i'm not completely opposed
09:13of course that's my warped romance novel version of abduction i doubt that's how it would play out
09:19lily that is how it play out my mind after two percocets
09:23you think i'm joking no
09:31i love you
09:37there is nowhere i would rather be than with you when you need me
09:40i know
09:46i have a little bottle of kalua if you would like some lead in that coffee
09:49oh well now you're talking
10:13i'll get some more
10:16have a breath
10:17i'll get you
10:18okay
10:18okay
10:19okay
11:04Of course you pack the perfect dress.
11:13Is there some little black dress tree by the river that I am unaware of?
11:19Okay, girls?
11:24And Russell.
11:25Russell?
11:29Russell?
11:39Russell?
11:41Russell?
11:42Russell?
11:43Industrial?
12:06Where are they?
12:08Uh, Carmen.
12:12Sorry.
12:18Sorry, but it's not.
12:19That's fine.
12:27I'm sorry, Erin.
12:28You'll never know.
12:40I can't do it.
12:44Oh, my God.
12:47Oh, my God.
12:56Oh, my God.
13:10Okay, boy.
13:27Watch your hand.
13:28Watch your hand.
13:31Watch it.
13:50Watch your hand.
13:57Watch your hand.
14:00Watch out.
14:01Watch out.
14:07Watch out.
14:09I'm sorry.
14:21Mrs. Glabber, I'm very sorry for your loss.
14:27Is a preacher coming?
14:32I forgot.
14:33I didn't.
14:34Uh, this one will be San's preacher.
14:38What's that mean?
14:39It means we don't have one.
14:42Do you have someone to govern the proceedings?
14:46We, um, this is my first funeral here, so we're sort of winging it.
14:54Well, this is far from my first rodeo.
14:58Do you mind if I say something first and then give you all a chance to speak?
15:03I don't think my group has many speeches in them.
15:08Do you mind a prayer?
15:11I do not.
15:22Lord, we stand before you with heavy hearts.
15:25With the glory of love comes the pain of loss, and we look to you for comfort.
15:30Lord, remind us that it is a selfish pain because you have promised a place called heaven where our departed
15:39bask in the glow of your grace.
15:41They are no longer men, they are angels who guide us through darkness, lift us when we are weak, and
15:51nourish our souls and spirits.
15:54Our pain is a selfish pain because we do not know this place, heaven, we lean on our faith that
16:02it exists, and on your mercy that it holds a place for us where we may sit in your light
16:09beside our loved ones and know only joy forever.
16:17I'll be in.
16:20If anyone would like a word.
16:24Stacy, it's not the first time you've given that speech.
16:28No, ma'am.
16:30It's a good one.
16:33You care to say something?
16:37I have plenty to say, but I won't be saying it today.
16:49I guess that's it, then.
16:53Um, so what happens now?
16:59We'll take care of everything.
17:04Wait, that's it?
17:05That's it?
17:06That's it?
17:07He has no say it and say it, Paige.
17:08I don't know what to say.
17:11What are you supposed to say?
17:12I think that's our point.
17:18Which one's Paul?
17:29God damn you for taking it from us.
18:01Everyone deals with it different, don't they, boys?
18:05I don't think they're dealing with it at all.
18:08Not yet, anyway.
18:11I don't know who can blame them.
18:25I think so.
19:11Pretty sneaky, trying to have a funeral and not tell anybody.
19:15Oh, I, I, I didn't know anyone would care.
19:20We let you have the funeral. We will not be denied our feast.
19:27When they decided to build these cabins, they wanted to do it all themselves.
19:31Mill the wood, frame it, roughing the electric, the whole deal.
19:36Look at the bottom of them there. They're sitting on railroad ties.
19:39And I could not figure out what in the hell purpose that would serve.
19:42And I told them they're going to be colder than the devil in winter.
19:45And every skunk and raccoon and God knows what else is going to set up shop underneath them.
19:50Well, Preston just looked at me and nodded. Didn't say a word.
19:54About six months later, tax assessor comes by my place and says,
19:58Have you seen these cabins they built next door?
20:00I said, I had. And he asked me if I'd ever seen them move.
20:04I said, move? What do you, what do you mean move?
20:07Tax assessor says, when he tried to put a value on them, your husband said they was mobile homes.
20:14You pick them up with a forklift and move them and asked me if I'd ever seen them be mobile.
20:19Well, I told them, yeah, they haul them all over the place.
20:23And if you look at the back of that outhouse, your husband nailed tires from a shopping cart and said
20:29that son of a bitch was mobile, too.
20:32He did not want to pay any taxes.
20:35I wondered what those were for.
20:36Preston always had issues with authority.
20:39Wheels on the outhouse. Never seen anything like it.
20:42No.
20:45Indian tacos. Good stuff.
20:48Want some?
20:49How about some of those cookies?
20:52Oh, good choice.
20:54I was thinking, like, three.
20:58What's your mom going to say about that?
21:00My mom's not going to say anything because she's not going to see me eat them.
21:03Let's keep this between us.
21:06I think that's a good idea.
21:20Thank you for today.
21:22It means more than you know.
21:24Someone had to do it for me.
21:25I know what it means.
21:28I'm sorry it had to be done.
21:32We're flying out tonight.
21:33Girls have missed enough school and I have exhausted my wardrobe.
21:41But I'd like to come back.
21:44Or dare I invite you to New York?
21:48Well, the only way you get me to New York is if it seceded from the Union and I was
21:52drafted into the Army to take it back.
21:54Okay, you gotta go a little easier on my city, buddy.
21:57I'm not knocking it.
21:58I'm just not going there.
22:00Fair enough.
22:02Then I'll come visit.
22:04Sure.
22:06I mean it.
22:10Okay.
22:12I mean it.
22:20I'm a sheriff's deputy who makes $52,000 a year.
22:23I have $12,000 in the bank and I'm about to spend six of it on a pretty average rope
22:28horse.
22:29Three nights a week.
22:30I'm going to load him in a trailer and drag him all over Montana trying to win back what I
22:33spent on him.
22:34In October, I'm going to take my boys in the mountains for a month and fill our freezer with elk.
22:38Look, I ain't never laying on no beach.
22:40I'm never going to Europe or San Francisco or any city bigger than Billings.
22:46Ever.
22:48What part of that sounds good to you?
22:50None of it.
22:51Now walk me through your life.
22:53What won't you change?
22:54I don't have those kind of absolutes.
22:55Just walk me through it.
23:00Macy has gymnastics every morning.
23:03From there I go to Pilates.
23:06From Pilates I go to my therapist.
23:07From my therapist.
23:08I go to coffee with my girlfriends to talk about all the bullshit advice my therapist gave me.
23:12Then I pick up Macy and I get Bridget and we go to ballet.
23:15We have recitals every Friday night.
23:17Saturday morning we have competitions.
23:19I take the girls the same parts for Christmas.
23:21Italy for the month of July, which you would love.
23:24I will point out.
23:31Who feeds the horses?
23:33Isn't there a service for that?
23:35You have to do it every day?
23:38Okay.
23:39Okay.
23:40There is no future in this, but you are tall and kind and fucking beautiful.
23:46You are tall and kind and beautiful.
23:48Okay.
23:48So can we just agree to fuck this up together and have as much sex as possible until we can?
23:55God, you city girls do spell it out, don't you?
23:57Yeah, we get to the point.
23:59Yep, we do.
24:00You go from wondering when we're going to see each other to wondering when you're going to leave.
24:06I think I'd rather just miss you.
24:10I'm not gone yet.
24:11You know what I mean.
24:13So is this goodbye?
24:17I think it's best.
24:18Oh, wow.
24:22Let me just clarify.
24:25That you are breaking up with me at my father's funeral.
24:28No, we aren't together.
24:29No, no, no, we seemed pretty together yesterday when you were lying on top of me.
24:33Abby, I...
24:33Don't fucking Abby me now.
24:35You want to miss me?
24:36Is that what you want?
24:38Here's your fucking chance.
25:09Here's your fucking chance.
25:09It's time to go home, isn't it?
25:13Spend time, honey.
25:49When did your father die, Russell?
25:54It'll be six years in April.
25:57Where is he buried?
25:58My mother had him cremated.
26:00The plan was to spread his ashes at our place in Montauk, but...
26:06He never did it.
26:07I don't know why.
26:09So, he's sitting in a jar on our mantle, which is an odd custom.
26:14Hmph.
26:15Putting ashes in a jar above a fireplace full of ashes.
26:20What do you miss most about him?
26:27He used to call me every Monday and tell me a joke.
26:31Really?
26:32Hm.
26:34You still remember them?
26:35Oh, yeah.
26:36Tell me one.
26:38Oh, no, no, no.
26:39Yeah, they, um...
26:40Yeah, my father had a, uh, rather warped sense of humor.
26:44Yeah, well, at this point, I'm pretty hard to offend.
26:49Hmph.
26:52Okay.
26:55Um...
26:56Okay.
26:58So, there are four nuns driving in a van.
27:00And the van goes off a cliff, and they all die.
27:03Funny.
27:04No, no, no, that's...
27:05I'm getting...
27:06Sorry, this is all just a setup.
27:07Yeah, I got it.
27:08Yeah.
27:08Okay.
27:09So, they're standing at the pearly gates, and St. Peter looks them over, and he says to
27:13the first nun, this is your last chance to confess before you enter the gates of heaven.
27:19And your conscience must be cleansed before you enter.
27:22So, the first nun thinks about it, and she says, well...
27:26I used to sneak peeks at Father Riley in the shower.
27:29St. Peter says, well, you're a naughty one's sister.
27:32Wash your eyes in this bowl of holy water, and say, five Hail Marys.
27:35She does.
27:37Sends her off to heaven.
27:38So, he looks at the second nun, asks her the same thing.
27:41She says, well, on occasion, I would stroke Father Riley's member with my hand.
27:47St. Peter just shakes his head, tells her to wash her hand in the bowl of holy water,
27:51say, ten Hail Marys.
27:53So, she does, lets her into heaven.
27:55Now, the third nun steps up, and the fourth nun grabs her, throws her to the ground, and
28:01steps up to the bowl of holy water.
28:02St. Peter says, what on earth are you doing, sister?
28:05And the nun says, I'm going to wash my mouth out in this bowl before that bitch puts her
28:09ass in it.
28:14I stand corrected, Russell.
28:16I can still be offended.
28:19I was very poorly chosen.
28:20I'm sorry.
28:20It was the first one that came to my mind.
28:22I am so sorry.
28:24I...
28:24It's terrible.
28:26Common denominator for their problem seems to be Father Riley.
28:30Yeah.
28:30He, uh, did get around.
28:32Ah.
28:33What's in it?
28:34Vodka soda.
28:35Easy on the soda.
28:37God bless you.
28:39The meeting's stuffing at the gym at nine, if you're up for it.
28:43Oh, yeah.
28:44Exercise.
28:44It's exactly what I need.
28:49I see things didn't end well with a cowboy.
28:54How's that look about it?
28:58Paige has been quiet.
29:00I think this is going to be hardest on her.
29:03I'm afraid.
29:05How so?
29:06When you've dedicated your entire life to gaining the attention of one person,
29:13what is your purpose when that person is gone?
29:16The girls are handling it well, at least.
29:18Yeah, well, they're too young to know the difference.
29:21Just one less present at Christmas.
29:27I know an excellent therapist, Stacy.
29:31You are my therapist.
29:34You're my best friend.
29:36I'm incapable of being impartial.
29:38Speaking to someone who can look at the situation with clarity and with zero opinion.
29:44What I need is opinion.
29:46If I want to know what the book on death says, I'll buy the fucking book.
30:12If I want to know what the book on death says, I'll buy the fucking book.
30:44I'll buy the fucking book on death.
30:46Wall Street, following a new round of warning that's in your town line.
30:51The Dow managed a modestly from the close as well, and to move a hundred finished little
30:55change, which matter wavering.
30:57I think that the tension is exactly where we are now.
31:00I'm bringing inflation data.
31:01We're going to talk about what it's decisively good.
31:04So, is this just a cause, or does it only want to be meaningful?
31:08Well, I don't think this is how it takes you off.
31:10I'm just going back.
31:38I'm just going back.
31:46And we're doing a charcuterie board from Ely.
31:49And the pizzas from Joe's?
31:51One of us is thinking about your cholesterol.
31:54Pizzas are for Paul.
31:55It's the one thing he misses about this city.
32:00Look at you.
32:02Look at me what?
32:03Men are such children.
32:05Well, this should be interesting.
32:07You are.
32:08You have the same look on your face, pulling out those nasty boots as an 11-year-old pulling
32:12out his baseball cleats.
32:14It's the same look you get when Gucci has a sale.
32:17That's different.
32:18That's me saving you money.
32:19You know, this is proof of the genetic distinction between men and women.
32:24Tell me, oh, love of my life, all the ways how when you buy something on sale, it saves me
32:31money.
32:32I'm going to buy the damn thing no matter what.
32:33Waiting for the sale is how much I love you.
32:38That almost makes sense.
32:39It makes perfect sense once you accept the inevitability of the purchase.
32:48Why do you do that?
32:50What?
32:52It's your little mountain mistress, the jealous type.
32:57You want to know?
32:58I do want to know.
33:00I really want to know.
33:02Because I lost it once.
33:04Fell off in the river.
33:05I spent two days looking for it.
33:07I'm not going through that shit again.
33:08So if I put it right there, I can't lose it.
33:13Panicked, were you?
33:16Terrified.
33:17It's nice to see I still have that effect.
33:20Oh, boy.
33:21Do you ever, baby.
33:23Baby.
34:14Madison Avenue.
34:17How did they get the name, do you think?
34:22I always assumed James Madison, the president.
34:25Yeah, of course, that would make sense.
34:27Yeah.
34:30I suppose they named the Madison River after him as well.
34:34Where's the Madison River?
34:36Montana.
34:39Where your husband spent time?
34:42Mm-hmm.
34:46Is that where he died?
34:48No, he died on another river. Actually, no, he died on a mountain.
34:55No, no river involved at all.
35:03How do you feel when you tell me that?
35:06How do you think I feel?
35:08I don't presume to know. That's why I asked.
35:11Isn't that your job?
35:14They tell me how I feel.
35:17My job is to help you understand how you feel.
35:20Hmm.
35:22More so, my job is to help you understand the behaviors that those feelings elicit.
35:29Hmm.
35:33And how would you describe my present behavior?
35:39Hostile?
35:42Hostile.
35:43Hostile?
35:43Mistrusting.
35:45Which I understand.
35:49You don't know me.
35:51And yet here you are, in theory, willing to expose your most personal thoughts and intimate feelings.
36:01Trust me in my interpretation of those feelings and behaviors to guide your decision-making in the future.
36:12My decision-making? What decisions are we questioning?
36:15I'm not questioning anything.
36:16No, you are the one who said it.
36:18My husband died.
36:20The love of my life.
36:22The father of my children.
36:24My center, my soul, is gone.
36:29If you, by chance, have happened upon any information that might assist me in mitigating the desire to claw my
36:38eyes out with a fucking spoon to get rid of the pain, I sure would appreciate that.
36:46But I do not need you staring at me like I'm some bored housewife trying to justify her affair with
36:52her fucking tennis coach.
36:54I know those women.
36:55Plenty of them.
36:56I am not one of them.
37:01I am hurting.
37:02And I would like some help with that.
37:08If you can.
37:09If you can't.
37:12Then I'll leave early.
37:15And you can keep the fucking change.
37:24You care for a drink?
37:29I would love one.
37:38Don't normally do this.
37:40Spend most of my time convincing my clients not to self-medicate.
37:47Don't mind whiskey?
37:48I don't give a shit what it is.
38:11What you need is this.
38:13A lot of this.
38:15Not this.
38:18A lot of talking.
38:19And yelling and crying.
38:21A lot of it.
38:23And often.
38:25And in time.
38:28Those memories will become fond again.
38:31They won't hurt to recall them.
38:35And you'll.
38:38Laugh.
38:41Will you love again?
38:43Maybe.
38:45I don't have any idea if that's something you want.
38:47But.
38:50Will you ever be whole again?
38:52Will you feel.
38:53Like you did before he died?
38:58No.
39:00But you know that.
39:03But you will.
39:04Heal.
39:05If you let yourself.
39:07You will have as much life.
39:09To live.
39:10As you allow yourself.
39:15Or you'll have none.
39:20You'll have no life.
39:25Does that make sense?
39:30Yeah.
39:32Okay.
39:38Why don't you finish your drink and let me have it?
39:42Seriously.
39:43Come on.
39:43Give it your best shot.
39:50You're a terrible therapist.
39:52You know that.
39:53With that.
39:54Smug fucking sweater.
39:58You really like saying fuck don't you?
40:00Yeah.
40:00I know.
40:02I find it quite.
40:06Liberating at the moment.
40:08Good.
40:09Say it again.
40:11Fuck you.
40:12Are we gonna do trust falls next?
40:14You fucking quack.
40:17It's a really good place to start.
40:19Come on. Keep it coming.
40:20Let's go.
40:21I'm serious.
40:27I'm thinking about it.
40:29I'm considering it.
40:32I know. I know. I know.
40:34I'm running away.
40:35Running away from my problems.
40:37This problem goes with me.
40:38So I'm not running from anything.
40:43But I miss my daughters.
40:45Honestly, I don't.
40:48I don't know.
40:49And part of me thinks it would be better for them.
40:52You know.
40:52Live their own lives.
40:54Maybe they could move with you.
40:57I mean, it doesn't sound like either of them are bound to the city.
41:00That's what I said.
41:01My oldest daughter needs it.
41:03I actually threatened to cut her off if she didn't.
41:08That's not very nice.
41:10Oh, what do they teach?
41:13Sarcasm in therapy school these days.
41:16Well, if by therapist school you mean Dartmouth, then yeah.
41:19They kind of invented it there.
41:26You think I should?
41:30Not my place to say.
41:33But...
41:35I think you should consider it.
41:37And I'll tell you why.
41:39Because you are actively weighing your future.
41:42And the consequences are your choices in that future.
41:44And that's healthy.
41:45That's good for your soul.
41:46So whether you actually do it is irrelevant.
41:49But you should seriously consider it.
41:52You should consider moving to Europe.
41:55Spend a year traveling.
41:57You got the financial means.
41:59No responsibilities here preventing it.
42:01You should consider everything.
42:06Wish I could have met him.
42:08Must have been a hell of a man.
42:10Because you are a hell of a woman.
42:12You know who you are and you're not ashamed of it.
42:14And this, the yelling and crying and pondering,
42:18this is what you're supposed to be doing.
42:20This is grieving.
42:22This is accepting an immeasurable loss in your life
42:25and racking your brain to try to find a way to survive it.
42:30And you will.
42:34Thank you, Phil.
42:38Oh, this has been...
42:42pleasantly cathartic.
42:43I took one look at that sweater and I had very little faith in you.
42:46But you...
42:48you overcame it.
42:50Turns out, you don't suck at your job.
42:53Well, that...
42:55is wildly offensive.
42:59Same time tomorrow.
43:00I'm thinking afternoon.
43:02I still got five clients and I'm pretty drunk.
43:05I think you are a client to end the day with, not begin one.
43:08Fine.
43:09See you at happy hour.
43:10Good.
43:13Good, good.
43:20Good, Good.
43:25Good.
43:25Good.
43:27Good.
43:28of the northern plains and into the upper midwest.
43:31A colder air mass is settling in.
43:33Gathers no showers with low average temperatures.
43:40Who's your realtor?
43:42Yeah, no matter what I do, I can't stay here.
43:46Lily, I can smell him.
43:48Hold on, hold on.
43:52Is everything okay?
43:53So, um, Paige is in bed, and she won't talk,
43:58and she can't stop crying, and she's...
44:01Well, she's hyperventilating,
44:02and I feel like I should call an ambulance,
44:04but I don't, like, I feel like that might make her worse.
44:06You're right, you're right. It would.
44:08I'll be there in 15 minutes. Call Abby.
44:10Okay, okay, calling her now.
44:38Is she in the bedroom?
44:40Yeah.
44:45Uh, do you have any sweets?
44:48Sweets?
44:49Okay, get some ice cream, Rocky Road,
44:52and buy some chocolate chips.
44:54Put three scoops in a glass of milk,
44:56put the chocolate chips on top,
44:57and then just bring it to me with a spoon.
44:59That sounds, uh, disgusting to start.
45:02I wasn't asking your opinion of it, Russell.
45:09I got Rocky Road.
45:11Desperate times call for desperate measures.
45:13Grab chocolate chips.
45:14The shitty ones, like she likes.
45:16Well, looks like all we need from you is a cup, Russell.
45:19Give it to her. She knows how to make it.
45:21Got it. Okay.
45:25Hey, hey, hey, hey.
45:26Hey, it's okay, it's okay.
45:28It's okay, it's okay.
45:30It's okay, it's okay.
45:30It's okay, you know what this is?
45:32What?
45:32This is how much you love him,
45:34and your body just doesn't know where to put all that love now.
45:37Okay, but you don't have to put it anywhere,
45:39and you don't have to stop loving someone
45:41when they're gone, honey.
45:42In fact, one could argue that you should love them more.
45:46And here's the sad fact of life.
45:51You will feel this way again.
45:53Yeah, when I die,
45:55when your husband dies, and your friends,
45:58and, and someday your children will feel this way about you.
46:03Thanks, Mom. I feel so much better.
46:06I come bearing gifts.
46:08I'm not hungry.
46:09It's not food.
46:11It is a drug.
46:12It is sugar and chocolate in a mixture
46:15that only your metabolism can process
46:16in a way that doesn't end up on your hips.
46:18And I hate you for it.
46:23I used to eat this when I was, like, five.
46:25No, you still act five, so...
46:31Fuck you and your bad roots.
46:33No, she's back.
46:34I don't understand it.
46:37It's the crunch with the cold
46:40and the mushy of the ice cream.
46:42Wait.
46:42Wow.
46:43The explanation doesn't sell it, Paige.
46:46No.
46:47You got her.
46:49I got her, but I cannot stay the night.
46:51I can stay the night.
47:02It was my favorite thing ever.
47:04I know.
47:17Is she okay?
47:20Yeah.
47:21She will be.
47:24Is there a decent bar near here?
47:27Um, there's a...
47:29There's a dive bar around the corner.
47:32Wow.
47:34Soho's version of a dive bar.
47:37Hmm.
47:45Hmm.
47:50Hmm.
47:51What's this place called?
48:10What's the name of this place?
48:12Name?
48:13Uh...
48:14People just call it the bar.
48:15Or the bar down the street.
48:17Something like that.
48:18No name?
48:18Not that I'm aware of, no?
48:20What does your paycheck say?
48:23Uh...
48:23XT Enterprises LLC or some shit.
48:28Okay.
48:30So...
48:30Bar just...
48:31Doesn't have a name.
48:33No name.
48:34What can I get you?
48:35Oh, God.
48:35I'm, uh...
48:36I am not in the mood to make any decisions.
48:39Mm-hmm.
48:40Martini?
48:41Uh, that is a cocktail, and this is the furthest place from a cocktail bar, so...
48:45True that.
48:46Uh, how about an Irish car bomb?
48:48I have no idea what that is.
48:51Trust me.
48:51Okay?
48:52What about you?
48:53What kind of amber ales do you...
48:55That'll be two Irish car bombs.
48:57Yeah, like your style.
48:58Two Irish car bombs.
48:59I have to work in the morning.
49:00It's one drink, Russell.
49:07Ooh, I didn't see that coming.
49:09Oh, gosh.
49:10Apologies, Russell.
49:14This is gonna hurt.
49:17I...
49:20Great.
49:22You gotta...
49:23Mm-hmm.
49:23Yeah, yeah.
49:32You went down the wrong pipe.
49:36I have a...
49:37Bad gag reflex.
49:38No, no.
49:39I'm not...
49:40I'm not laughing at that.
49:42What then?
49:44Oh, life.
49:47Uh, choices people make.
49:49Don't get me wrong.
49:51She made a good one with you.
49:55What are your dreams?
49:59Dreams?
50:00Or, you know, aspirations, might be a better word, for your life, for my daughter.
50:08I mean, what, you know, we just got the townhouse, so...
50:12Yeah, well, that's a purchase, not a dream.
50:16Have you two talked about starting a family?
50:20I...
50:21You know Paige.
50:23She just got down to a size zero, and she worked really hard for it, so...
50:26Okay, Russell, Russell.
50:27Independent thoughts.
50:28Do you have any?
50:31Yeah.
50:32I mean, I guess I want... I want to have kids.
50:34Mm-hmm.
50:35Okay.
50:35I don't want to raise them, and I want to...
50:38I want to move out of town, you know, where they can have a normal, you know, trick-or-treat,
50:43and, and, and play baseball, and run out on the street, you know?
50:47Mm-hmm.
50:47No, I don't know.
50:48No, I don't know.
50:49I raised mine here.
50:51All right.
50:52Well, that would be my dream.
50:55What about when they're grown?
50:58What's the dream then?
51:00I don't know.
51:01I don't know.
51:02I, I haven't gotten that far.
51:03Yeah, well, then you need a new dream.
51:08Honestly, I always thought of you and Creston as the dream.
51:15So did I, Russell.
51:20But that dream is over.
51:24Well, I guess we both need a new one.
51:29Yeah.
51:45I don't know.
51:45I don't know.
51:51I don't know.
51:52I don't know.
51:53I don't know.
51:55I don't know.
51:56I don't know.
51:57I don't know.
51:58I don't know.
52:00I don't know.
52:00I don't know.
52:01I don't know.
52:01I don't know.
52:01I don't know.
52:02I don't know.
52:02I don't know.
52:03I don't know.
52:03I don't know.
52:04I don't know.
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52:05I don't know.
52:06I don't know.
52:07I don't know.
52:08I don't know.
52:08I don't know.
52:09I don't know.
52:11I don't know.
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