#video #Jesy Nelson: Life After Little Mix - Season 1 - Episode 06
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00:07The singer Jessie Nelson has quit the girl group Little Mix after she said constant pressure had
00:13affected her mental health. Jessie said the past nine years in Little Mix has been the most
00:19incredible time of my life. I find the constant pressure of being in a girl group and living up
00:25to expectations very hard she said. A very sad day for Jessie Nelson and her fans. Jessie Nelson is
00:31leaving Little Mix. Jessie. Jessie. Jessie Nelson. Jessie Nelson has left Little Mix. Oh my god. I've literally
00:38been fighting back tears. It's very traumatic. What the heck? Jessie's found herself back in the studio
00:47and returning to her passion which she notes is good for her mental health. It was everything that I
00:52had envisioned for me as a solo artist. But I did not expect the shitstorm that's going to come with
01:01it.
01:01Jessie Nelson is being accused of so-called blackfishing. Jessie, make her look worse for your son.
01:07She's going to do what she wants. Yeah, look for her son.
01:20I'm going to take this box and it's going, yeah?
01:30She's such a good artist, isn't she? Wait, with Jessie?
01:33Wait, is Jessie? No play 2006? She painted it, yes. Jessie? Jessie Nelson is being involved as a child. Jessie
01:38Yes, I'm an artist, you see.
01:41Pop star by day, artist by night.
01:48Ready? Yeah. I can't be heavy lifting.
01:50I've just had a C-section.
01:52It's not heavy. No.
01:55But also, I just can't be arsed.
02:00This isn't about me or Zan anymore.
02:03This is about the future of our girls. Ready?
02:05And I don't know why, just the thought of, like,
02:08that Cornwall just makes my heart feel so happy.
02:12I'm ready to leave Brentwood.
02:16Start my seaside life.
02:18You ready?
02:19Ouch!
02:25Is there any part of you that's scared to move?
02:27We're literally just by ourselves.
02:29Yeah, I can't wait for that.
02:41One thing I am going to miss though is Nando's.
02:44Yeah.
02:45I can't believe there's not a Nando's in the whole of Cornwall.
02:49Let's have pasties, mate.
02:51Pasties?
02:51Pasties, pasties.
02:52No, pasties.
02:57Oh, my God, what are you going to do if one day Ocean comes home?
03:00She's like, Dad, I want you to meet my boyfriend.
03:03How do you want him to greet you?
03:06It's just, hi, sir.
03:08Hello, Miss...
03:08Hi, sir, bloody hell, are you living in the 1950s?
03:12So some respect.
03:13Sure.
03:21It's going to be fun, though.
03:22I'm excited.
03:23We're either going to love it or we're going to hate it.
03:26At first, when she actually told me that she was moving to Cornwall,
03:30I was absolutely shocked, but I think they both crave peace and quiet now.
03:34It's just a much nicer lifestyle, calmer, just kinder.
03:41Jessie?
03:43Jessie?
03:44Been taking them there by to see it since they were babies.
03:49It's just somewhere they've grown up and she's got nice memories there.
03:55But it's the first time she's just got to do everything for herself,
03:58because I have done it all for her.
04:00It'll be nice to see her get a hoover out.
04:02I've never seen her do that before.
04:05It's going to be completely different to the last 15 years of her life.
04:10Complete change and a nice one.
04:13How is it raining, but the sun is out?
04:15There's going to be a rainbow.
04:17All right, where's my ponch?
04:18That's not the head!
04:19Look, on your head, look.
04:20Where's the hood?
04:26Let's button you up, let's button you up.
04:28Wait, I need to tuck my hair away.
04:31The hair is priority, guys.
04:38Honestly, you wouldn't catch me doing this in Brentwood.
04:44Wow.
04:46You like it, Pooh?
04:47Love it.
04:48This is like Mum's ideal weather.
04:50She absolutely loves it.
04:51Oh, my God!
05:01It's just not the life, the glamour down here.
05:03But this is what I mean.
05:05I just feel free when I'm here.
05:09I literally said design today when we were walking up the High Street.
05:12It's the first time I've walked into High Street.
05:13I don't have anxiety.
05:15It felt so nice.
05:18Look at that.
05:20That's like a five-minute walk for us now.
05:22I know.
05:24How nice is this?
05:26So nice.
05:29My whole life is, like, completely changed since having the girls.
05:34So, like, I would have never moved to Cornwall if I hadn't have had children.
05:41I feel like when you have children, they almost, like, force you to have to make decisions.
05:46Because it's not about you anymore.
05:47It's about them.
05:48And, like, we just really wanted them to, like, grow up in, like, a really peaceful location where
05:53they could just be kids and just be free.
05:55And that's, like, how I feel when I'm here.
05:59Are you going to learn how to ride the waves?
06:02On a surfboard?
06:03Yeah.
06:04Are you going to be an absolute dude?
06:06I'm going to be radical.
06:15First time bathing them here.
06:24Right.
06:25There you go.
06:26Number two coming in.
06:27There you go.
06:28Is that nice?
06:29We get all cleans.
06:32We're going to get all cleans, aren't we?
06:35We got to get all in the nooks and cracks, haven't we?
06:40Look at that!
06:42In your new towel!
06:44Are you sure Mr Chris?
06:46Story Bear!
06:50Look at our little princesses.
06:53Fast asleep.
06:55This is Story Bear.
06:56Where's your sissy?
06:57She's fast asleep.
06:59And we're having a lovely old time in our new place, aren't we?
07:03Right.
07:04Currently doing our night feeds.
07:06I feel like they just ate.
07:07This is what twin life is about.
07:09They literally just ate.
07:11And an hour later they're ratted out for more.
07:14Ocean Bear.
07:15It's shattered.
07:24Obviously, I absolutely adore having twins.
07:27Like, it is just the best thing that's ever happened to us.
07:32But when one of them cries, it sets the other one off.
07:35Both just wake up at the same time.
07:38That part is really hard, isn't it?
07:40Sleep deprivation.
07:42Super hard.
07:43And yeah, twins is just another level.
07:46Imagine having triplets.
07:59I actually have no idea what's in this case.
08:02Jesus bloody Christ.
08:04Get your bejazzles out.
08:06What are you doing?
08:07I'm packing all my costumes.
08:09Where's that bloody hell?
08:11When do you wear that one?
08:12Get your whips and chains out.
08:14Where's the bottom?
08:17I just wore this and nothing else.
08:21You feel how heavy it is?
08:26Blimey.
08:28This is showbiz at its finest.
08:29It really is.
08:31Wow.
08:32Oh, my gosh.
08:35This was the last outfit I ever wore.
08:39Wow.
08:40Yeah.
08:42Like, I always thought that, like, when I eventually got my house, wherever I was going to live, that I'd
08:48have, like, a room.
08:49Frame them.
08:50That is sick.
08:51Yeah, like, frame them or have, like, mannequins and put them on that and then, like, name all the tools
08:59that I wore them in.
09:00That is so sick.
09:02Are all of these from Little Mix or any of these from when you went solo?
09:05I think these were all pretty much from Little Mix days.
09:09What was that even like, like, the main difference from, like, being in a group to doing it solo?
09:15It's a lot more scary being on your own because, obviously, all eyes are just on you.
09:19Yeah, I hear that.
09:20But I do think there's just a certain level of, um, freedom you get when you're a soloist.
09:25Oh, yeah.
09:25That is the part that's great about it because you have the freedom to be exactly who you want to
09:30be.
09:30You're not confining yourself to what the group has to be.
09:34So you can be as creative as you want.
09:36You can dress how you want.
09:37You can look how you want.
09:38You can make the music you want.
09:43Goodbye.
09:44When I left the band, the thought of being a soloist just never even entered my mind.
09:49Like, I just was like, I don't know.
09:51It just didn't.
09:52But it was such a weird feeling for me because I'd been so used to, like, non-stop working for
09:5810 years.
09:58But to then just have nothing was really, like, ugh.
10:02And I just thought, I need to get out.
10:03So, actually, probably going into the studio might actually be a good thing.
10:08And, um, it made me feel so happy.
10:11The thought of, like, finally getting to, like, make music that was really, truly, authentically me.
10:20I'd grown up on, like, R&B and hip-hop from being a dancer.
10:27She would always come home from school.
10:29I think it was MTV Bass or something like that.
10:32Always have the music channels on, always dancing, doing little routines.
10:37Let me know your mind.
10:39She always dressed completely different to everyone else and got a bit of stick for it as well once.
10:44She went to work in a pub in her baggy shorts and her cap and her socks and, like, like,
10:51quite hip-hop.
10:52And I remember they sent her home from the pub and said, no, you need to come back and dress
10:55sexy.
10:56Like, you can't dress like that.
10:57And I remember saying, I said, I don't want to work there.
10:58Anyone that knows me knows that, like, my love for, like, R&B and hip-hop is just, like, yeah.
11:04And so when I got the opportunity to, like, delve into that and, like, experiment with it, like, that excited
11:10me so much.
11:13So today we are doing my first ever campaign shoot for my solo music, which is very exciting.
11:23I mean, I'm not going to lie.
11:24I was shitting myself at first.
11:26I was a bit stiff Steve at first, but now I'm just a goosey, so I feel good.
11:31It was so good to see her so happy and so passionate again.
11:34Like, she had that passion.
11:35It was like, right, I'm going to go solo.
11:38I've got these songs, like, these are my ideas.
11:40Like, do you like this?
11:41Do you like that?
11:42She'd gone back to being Jessie.
11:44At that time, I'd just come out of a bit of a toxic relationship.
11:49And I was just like, oh, my God, there's a song in this.
11:51Like, there's a song in me falling for the one boy that's shit.
11:57And the first day I went into the studio was the day I wrote Boys.
12:11She couldn't wait for this song to be released.
12:14Like, she was so proud of the music that she was making.
12:18And rightfully so.
12:19Like, to come out of a girl group and then to do it on your own,
12:21like, is a big step to take.
12:27And always when I, like, make a song, I immediately think of the video.
12:32So we are at Studio 38 today and we are auditioning the guys for Boys video,
12:39which is very, very exciting.
12:41People don't really audition dancers anymore.
12:44And I really wanted to do it because I just feel like you miss out on some really good gems.
12:57One thing that, like, I did love about being a solo artist was that I got creative control
13:02over everything, which I never had in Little Mix.
13:05And it was like, oh, I could, like, this is so exciting.
13:08Like, I could do whatever I want.
13:09Yeah, we should definitely get Boys from Back as well.
13:13That is sick.
13:14It has to be sitting down.
13:16Every girl can relate to that.
13:17I almost felt like that spark again of how I felt when I first, like, entered the band.
13:21Like, this is exciting.
13:22This is new.
13:23Like, this is, like, this is what it should feel like.
13:36So today, guys, we are on set of my first ever music video, which is absolutely mental.
13:43I don't think I've ever been excited in my whole entire life.
13:50Babe, you are an icon.
13:52You need to be in a museum.
13:55It's like everything I'd ever dreamed of, like, from watching music videos as a kid
13:59and now being able to create one exactly like it, but in my way, it's just, like, magical.
14:06I think the lead up to releasing Boys, Jess was really happy and really positive
14:10and everything was going really well.
14:16She put a lot of hard work, a real lot of hard work.
14:19I've never seen her work so hard.
14:21And everyone was saying, oh, it's going to do so well.
14:24When it comes, you launch it, it's going to be, like, big.
14:27You are going to literally come back to Earth with a bang.
14:32Shemonga's explosion, like, the big bang.
14:35Yeah, baby, it's coming.
14:37She was so excited, and she loved that music video, and she loved that vision,
14:43and she loved that, at the time, loved that song.
14:46But now she's learned to despise it.
15:09The day it got released, I was doing promo all day.
15:13Jessie Nelson, the studio.
15:16So I wasn't on my phone, I wasn't looking at anything.
15:20This is the first time I've ever been heartbroken in my life,
15:23and I have wrote some bangers from it, so thanks, mate.
15:27I remember someone from my management told me, and it's charted really well.
15:31It was, like, number one in the iTunes chart.
15:39Yeah, it was, like, looking like it was going to go to number one.
15:42Jessie Nelson is back, and we couldn't be happier.
15:45Here is her new single voice, and it's a banger.
15:50But now I remember at the end of the day of promo, my manager pulled me to the side.
15:58And he was like, listen, like, we need to have a chat.
16:08There's a lot of, like, controversy going on with the video.
16:17And I was like, OK, and he was like, it's not good.
16:22Former Little Mix star Jessie Nelson has denied that she's blackfishing in the video for her new song.
16:28So I suppose it's a form of sort of cultural appropriation.
16:31We have white women trying their best to appear racially ambiguous.
16:37The idea that she's trying to look black to me is a little bit, is a bit far-fetched.
16:42She said her new video is intended to be a celebration of a type of music that she loves.
16:48It was so big.
16:49The whole world was talking about it.
16:51She's a white British woman from the UK.
16:54And now she's looking a little bit too black.
16:56And we're sick of it in America.
16:58She's an artist. Let her do what she wants.
17:00She's always had fig tan on.
17:01She's had fig tan on since it's been a little mix.
17:03There, Jessie Nelson, at the sort of center of this storm.
17:06It needs a bit of stepping back and thinking about why people are annoyed.
17:10It actually, like, breaks my heart that, like, it, like, upset people.
17:18Because if I'd have known that that was how it was going to play out,
17:21like, never in a million years would I have put it out.
17:25Like, that was never my intention.
17:27And it's just sad.
17:29It's like...
17:30It's just one of them things.
17:32And I've learnt a lot from it.
17:34You know, your first-ever performance of it, Graham Lawton.
17:38Mm-hm, mm-hm.
17:39Talk me through that day.
17:42I was petrified.
17:44I almost pulled out of doing it.
17:50You're good, man.
17:51Trust me, man.
17:53Personally, I think, I feel like I can do it for, like...
17:57I know about the last thing I want to do.
17:59And I know what my brain is like right now.
18:01Mm-hm.
18:02And I thought, this ain't good.
18:03This is not good to be performing when you're petrified.
18:06And not a petrified of, like, good, excited nerves.
18:08Like, sometimes I get when I was performing in Little Mix,
18:11it was like a...
18:11Like, I'm scared.
18:13Like, I'm actually scared.
18:17I really appreciate everyone's energy.
18:19I'm really sorry for being there.
18:20Don't be sorry.
18:21How do you feel?
18:22And...
18:23I just...
18:23Yeah, a lot of pressure.
18:25You got it.
18:26You got it.
18:26There is a lot of pressure, but you...
18:27This is growth.
18:29Time for growth.
18:29Time to push through that pressure.
18:31Rachel.
18:31This British pop star topped the charts with Little Mix.
18:34Now she brings us her debut solo single, Boys.
18:39Please welcome...
18:39Jessie Nelson!
18:44I think after all the accusations come out,
18:47she kind of went numb again, really.
18:50And I could see the sadness on Jessie's face.
18:54I was just in such a low place.
18:57I couldn't do this anymore.
19:00There's just something quite, like, dark about the music industry, I think.
19:04And you can't ever get away from that.
19:08Like, I love music.
19:09I love making it.
19:10I love performing.
19:12But the minute I have to put it out and, like, do all the crap that comes with it,
19:16it's then not fun to me.
19:18And that is for me why I personally don't think I will ever go back into doing music again.
19:28It definitely feels like a weight that's been lifted off my shoulders.
19:32I just felt, like, free of that pressure.
19:45Are you sure it's supposed to be this tight?
19:47I don't know, mate.
19:48Wait, we're getting there.
19:50Sit down.
19:50This is tight in the piece, honestly.
19:55I've got it, trust me, look.
20:02Slug it off.
20:05I can't give it off, please.
20:26Out of everything that's happened in my life, good and bad,
20:29I would not change anything because everything led me to my beautiful girls.
20:46So there's, jeez, man, this is tough.
20:51Oh, so they're slightly different, look.
20:54So I've got to pick one.
20:57Is she okay?
20:59I'm just doing dad stuff.
21:01Basically, there's no, can't find the instructions, but I feel like...
21:05Are you just going to wing it?
21:06I'm going to wing it.
21:07And I feel confident.
21:08Interesting.
21:10Not sure I...
21:13Got to have faith.
21:15This definitely goes here.
21:17I just don't know what, if it's a screw, if it's this.
21:20Jessica, how do you find it, being down there,
21:23with, like, so far away from your support?
21:26OK, so know how to do washing.
21:28I'm an absolute pro at washing.
21:31The cooking we're getting there is still in our air-fryer job.
21:35But I cooked you breakfast the other day.
21:37Yeah, she's been making me breakfast.
21:38Honestly, I was, like, super mum.
21:40I've got the babies to sleep.
21:41I did the washing.
21:42I did the cleaning, the hoovering.
21:44Just many breakfasts. Can you believe it?
21:45I made breakfast for everyone.
21:46And honestly, I've never felt like such an...
21:48I felt like I'd achieved so much in my life.
21:52How's this looking, Jessie?
21:56One thing I love about Zion is if he, like,
21:59needs to figure something out, he will figure it out.
22:02So, like, right now, I know it doesn't look promising,
22:04but I do know that eventually this will be done.
22:07This is why we work so well together,
22:09because we genuinely, we hardly ever argue.
22:12Is that correct?
22:14The only thing that, like, maybe I'm a bit like,
22:17oh, really, is if, like, like, when he bought the skateboard,
22:20I'm like, why have you bought the skateboard?
22:24I broke my arm in two places on a skateboard,
22:27so I just, like, have a phobia of skateboards,
22:29and I'm just like, you've got two children.
22:30So you're projecting your fears onto me?
22:32No, no, that's not what I'm doing, basically.
22:34Well, it sounds like it.
22:35I'm not going to break my arm because you broke your arm
22:38when you were six years old on a skateboard.
22:40All right, can I... Do you understand what I'm saying?
22:41I've got something that I would like to say.
22:43Oh, here we go.
22:44This is what will happen, yeah?
22:46I'll say to Jess, what would you like for dinner?
22:50And guess what she'll say?
22:52She'll say, whatever you want, great.
22:56I'll say, I would love pizza.
22:59Guess what she says?
23:00I don't want pizza.
23:18Oh, this call on the club looks banging.
23:20This looks really, really good.
23:22Really good.
23:23Don't you think we're just so lucky that this is on our doorstep?
23:26Super lucky. Don't you?
23:28Yeah.
23:29Like, who can say that this is, like, five minutes down the road
23:32from where they live?
23:33I don't think people thought we would be able to do this.
23:37No, of course not.
23:38I think people thought we were going to come to Newgate
23:41and we were going to be like, we can't do it by ourselves.
23:45Yeah.
23:45And we'd be back.
23:46Mm.
23:47But I think we're literally smashing it.
23:49I think you've taken to it literally like a duck to water.
23:52Do you?
23:53Yeah.
23:54Oh, it really hurts.
23:56You know when you can feel a little hair?
24:03But on another note, I just want to thank you for being, like,
24:10the best partner I could ever ask for.
24:12Oh, baby.
24:14Yeah.
24:15I feel like you've helped me...
24:20..find the love deeper than I ever thought was possible.
24:23I just want you to know that.
24:25Oh, that's so lovely.
24:26I love you so much, baby.
24:28I feel exactly the same.
24:37I love you, baby.
24:41So, on that note...
24:42I love you.
24:51On that note...
25:07I love you so, so much.
25:10You're my best friend.
25:12And you're the person I genuinely want to spend the rest of my life with.
25:16We've been through so much.
25:19Good times.
25:20We've had our challenges.
25:21We've always come out stronger.
25:24And you've always been the best partner I could have ever asked for.
25:27With thick and thin.
25:31So...
25:31Wait, I need this, honey.
25:33No, it's this.
25:34Is it?
25:38Oh, baby, you're so beautiful.
25:41You married me.
25:42Yes.
25:44Wow, this is the most beautiful ring.
25:48No, I love you so much.
25:50I can't see.
25:57I love you so much.
26:00Thank you for being your best partner, I think.
26:02No, you're the best partner.
26:06This is the most beautiful ring ever.
26:09You like it?
26:10Baby, this is beautiful.
26:11Oh, and it's gold.
26:20I was going to do a spin, but...
26:23I love you so much.
26:24I'm so glad she says yes.
26:25I just want to say no.
26:27Imagine, no, I'm all right, friends.
26:29You never know.
26:30Well, you should know.
26:38Congratulations.
26:40Oh, my God.
26:43Pam, that's a rock.
26:46Oh, my God, so you all knew.
26:50How long did they know for?
26:52Months.
26:52No.
26:54Are you serious?
26:56Oh, my God.
26:59Okay, you want to take Vicky?
27:01Are you ready?
27:02Bear with eyes open or closed?
27:04Both.
27:04But I think you should get the set in.
27:06Yeah.
27:07Okay, got it.
27:07Let me see.
27:10Wait, okay, don't get with my eyes open.
27:11Okay, do it again.
27:22I'm not actually sure where to start with this video.
27:28After the most gruelling three, four months and endless appointments,
27:44the girls have now been diagnosed with a severe muscle disease called SMA type 1.
27:56It is the most severe muscular disease that a baby can get.
28:03Over time, it kills the muscles in the body.
28:09And if it's not treated in time,
28:14your baby's life expectancy will not make it past the age of two.
28:31Sorry.
28:36There is no cure for SMA.
28:40There's only treatment that can help.
28:42And so the best thing we can do right now is to get them treatment and then just hope for
28:50the best.
28:59We were told that they're probably never going to be able to walk.
29:08They probably will never regain their neck strength.
29:18I practically feel like the hospital has become my second home.
29:23I also feel like I've like,
29:26almost had to become like a nurse within the space of like two weeks of getting their diagnosis,
29:30because I now have to, you know, put them on a breathing machine and do lots of stuff that no
29:36mother really should ever have to do on their child.
29:41The last three months has honestly been the most heartbreaking time of my life.
29:47I literally feel like my whole life has done a 360.
29:51I almost feel like I'm like grieving a life that I thought I was going to have with my children.
29:58And I don't have to be grateful, you know, because at the end of the day, they're still here.
30:02And that's the main thing.
30:04And they've had their treatment.
30:07And I truly believe that my girls will defy all the odds.
30:11And with the right help, they will fight this and, you know, go on to do things that have never
30:20been done.
30:22So I've just had my second dose of medicine.
30:26Yes, I have.
30:39Yes, I have.
30:39Yes, I have.
30:46Yes, I have.
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