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00:05this program documents actual homicide investigations criminal charges are
00:10often dropped or reduced and all suspects shown are presumed innocent unless proven guilty
00:26in the turner park neighborhood
00:36a concerned father checks on his son after several calls go unanswered
00:54they find the son lying on the floor in a back room stabbed multiple times
01:05wake him up he's gonna wake up go in and crawl and make it down
01:10yeah
01:25for homicide detectives their chance of solving a murder is cut in half
01:30if they don't get a lead within the first 48 hours
01:54sergeant nathan shilling will lead the investigation
01:58contract was better since 10 o'clock this morning walking up the yard said he thought it was odd
02:02that the victim never came out he said i called no answer eventually he said at some point i called
02:08dad dad dad says i'm on my way dad gets here it's a lot they go in kind of live
02:14through the house
02:14contract to see the victim lay on the floor you know a lot of blood quite a bit
02:21the victim john christopher fender 57 year old john christopher fender known as chris was born and raised
02:30in tulsa he worked as an insurance agent and spent much of his spare time working on his home and
02:36cars
02:37he leaves behind a large family including his father and stepmother sister and several nieces and nephews
02:47victim is in this house okay they got the warrant the team secured a warrant to search chris's home
03:00in here is really where everything's heard i believe
03:05in here is really where everything's going to be in here is really where everything's going to be in here
03:11so step chris was stabbed more than 70 times
03:18there's better
03:22there's a lot of blood on the ground
03:26over here there's a lot more
03:30it is it's everywhere
03:39oh wow
03:42and there's a knife that's sitting on top of that sink down there
03:49a second knife and a bloody t-shirt are discovered in the kitchen trash can
03:54you said every camera supposed to be in the house there are
03:58chris has surveillance cameras inside and outside of his home
04:03i'll have to take it it's passcode locked the system will have to be accessed by the cyber unit
04:10thank you so much
04:15i got the contractor here he said he's willing to come down if we need to interview him
04:20dad is very very emotional and i understand you know you walk in and find your son like that
04:26the suspect is blake mcdonald
04:29chris's father told responding officers that he believes chris's ex-boyfriend blake may be responsible for his
04:36son's murder
04:39blake he's about six foot tall about 109 pounds
04:43white male yes approximately 29 years old these two have been signed a lot last year
04:49was blake i had been living there i suppose they had been kicked out but he apparently moved back in
04:56also there was a check my well being out here last night last night around 9 p.m an officer
05:02was dispatched
05:03to chris's house after a clerk at a marijuana dispensary reported that blake had come into the store
05:08and made threatening statements was did he make contact with the victim at nine nope did he knuckle the door
05:15i tried to go around back to look didn't make contact with anybody all right
05:26my name is nathan shilling i'm going to be the lead detective on this case
05:29chilling speaks with chris's father this is my partner detective warren he's already spoken to you
05:35you've been around some and i know it but i doubt you've ever ever seen anybody more pissed than i
05:45am
05:45right now ever doctor totally understand why i totally understand why i broke 67 bones i've had
05:53knives stuck in me i've been hit with lightning twice i've told three colors 140 miles an hour stupid
05:59me when i was young and brother all the i've been through doing this this isn't how it's supposed to
06:18be parents aren't supposed to bury their kids i'm so sorry sir i wish i liked being there
06:27i'll say this and i said it to the other the other police officers he's been making me nervous
06:33the last two weeks chris's neighbor speaks up about blake i never had a conversation with him because he
06:38was always a little bit strange i saw him at the gym a couple weeks ago and he was talking
06:42to himself
06:43and being weird and pacing around wasn't even using any equipment i'll talk to anybody but i just kept
06:49my distance with him then suspect corn 2006 lincoln sedan maroon in color the team gets the tag number
06:59for blake's car it checks back to blake's name and mother's address and this is mom's opening someone
07:07else already went out there and made contact officers spoke to members of blake's family but no one has seen
07:14or heard from him you got guys moving around right now kind of looking for the car yes sir a
07:19statewide bolo
07:20has been issued for blake's car we got a tag number which is good we just gotta look
07:31one hour in it's been kind of progressively getting worse over like the last month another neighbor
07:36approaches a shilling about blake's behavior i watched him just last week he sat out here just walking
07:42back and forth into the carport just yelling and talking to himself and sitting there having a
07:47full-blown argument with nobody there's something definitely wrong with him i don't know exactly what
07:52it was but he definitely needs some help all right so i think uh my partner already said you'd be
08:00willing
08:00to go downtown and and visit with us yeah chris's contractor agrees to be interviewed at headquarters
08:07we can go together if you want you come with me oh yeah yeah chris's father also agrees to talk
08:13downtown we'll talk to each individually and get your story i don't have a story and i know who's done
08:19it
08:20and you know who's done it dad immediately thought that blake was the person that did this so we're leaning
08:28towards that we don't necessarily know yet we'll find out we're gonna find blake
08:43blake matthew mcdonald 29 year old blake mcdonald an aspiring actor from tulsa works the night shift at a
08:51home improvement store he has no prior convictions it would appear that i mean there's really no other
08:56suspect other than his significant other at this point we still have to dot our eyes and cross our
09:02t's because we don't want to jeopardize anything so we're gonna holler at the victim's dad and the
09:09contractor that was working in the yard try to get a little bit more of the backstory we'll go get
09:13this
09:13rolling i know we spoke a little bit out there and we got a kind of summary of what you
09:21saw what
09:21happened today detective reggie warren starts with chris's contractor you were over the house
09:27today doing some landscaping concrete concrete work stuff like that how long have you known uh
09:3210 years maybe longer than that
09:39what kind of guy would you describe him as a good person kind person
09:49uh very witty you know he had a real good sense of humor about him a great guy great guy
09:55okay
09:57today you got to the house and what time did you get there i got there this morning around 10
10:02o'clock and
10:04i just got my tools out and went to work chris had not been out of his house all day
10:11so
10:13i called him okay you didn't get any answers i didn't get any answers and then i done some more
10:19work and i called him again got no answer so then i called his dad and i said hey have
10:29you heard from
10:29chris i can't get a hold of him i said his cars are here but i hadn't seen him all
10:34day he said that's
10:35strange something's wrong i'll be there i'm gonna check on it he was about to put the key in the
10:39door and
10:40i said hey why don't we try that door to see if it's locked first and when he opened up
10:45something
10:46told me for sure then something's not right because chris does not leave his door unlocked even when he's
10:54in the house so then i hollered for chris didn't get no response and i turned the corner to go
11:01into the
11:01office and on the door frame there was just covered in blood i went around and i noticed he's laying
11:11there
11:11on his back and that's when i ran out of the house and i said i'm gonna call the ambulance
11:20so just kind of describe the relationship between chris and blake i guess the word would be tumultuous
11:29they were in a relationship i know they were having lots of arguments about different things chris had
11:35kicked blake out for breaking and drugging and cheating on him i feel like probably if anybody
11:47wants to do he wants to do he would be black
12:03i didn't like blake he's just strange
12:13always pacing talking to himself very disturbing that's not normal
12:20i really appreciate you coming yeah
12:26i feel for his dad his dad's never going to be the same i feel for his dad as well
12:31i feel for all
12:32good news guys in the next room i knew chris was dead i knew it chilling speaks with chris's father
12:57he's a father figure to him so is blake considerably younger than chris
13:05yes
13:10he started to help him he started to guide him
13:13blake had no friends no relationship with the father figure very little relationship with his mother
13:20but he always had these he talked crazy in his head chris ever expressed any concerns about his
13:29behavior behavior to you yeah he told me he's constantly patient talking to himself he's a he needs to
13:41get some mentally you know chris is always talking to me about he's wanting to help him he's hoping
13:48that he can talk to him and he'll listen and kind of mentally straighten himself out
13:58he took on a project chris did if you will he's got a good heart
14:04how long have uh chris and blake known each other well it has to be he was 19.
14:11blake was 19? yes he says chris met blake 10 years ago
14:16and i don't know how they meant
14:20so there's no one else that lives there besides chris and blake blake yes sometimes blake's there
14:28sometimes sometimes he's gone chris has kicked him out okay he had to call his clothes in the car
14:33he's been gone when was this he says chris asked blake to move out three or four months ago so
14:39at some
14:40point he let him back in though because in there it sounded like blake's been around the last couple
14:46of weeks yeah he's been there off and on he's sleeping in his car chris wouldn't let him in
14:52are you aware of either of them ever messed around with any kind of drugs yeah blake all
14:57time not chris ever okay i mean obviously our goal is to go find blake at this point
15:03and um i appreciate you coming down here and visiting with me
15:20four hours in talking to officers of the scene they told me that a call had come in last night
15:26from
15:27the dispensary here south of downtown blake had been in there and the worker called in at like nine
15:35and said that he had made some homicidal and suicidal statements they rattled her problem
15:42made contact with her got her to come downtown and talk to us
15:54and talk to us about what we're going to talk to us about and talk to us about what this
15:57was about
16:00okay tell me what happened to the best of your recollection all right okay um
16:08he came into the dispensary he was moving like very erratically
16:14like he's been like that the past couple times he's been on this tour like i recognized him when
16:18i pulled his name out he sketches me out a little bit he said he needed dime cards
16:24and then he started talking about how he was going to go kill someone
16:32and he said at one point he was gonna axe someone
16:37he said something like you're gonna see this on the news tomorrow
16:40and i was when i was like i have to call the police
16:58it took me like 20 minutes to make the call because we were busy with other people
17:08did it sound like he was going to go and do something to more than one person
17:15no because he made it sound like he was gonna hurt himself too like he was gonna
17:21either kill himself or he was gonna die somehow
17:24i'm like i'm gonna die too or i want to die tonight
17:30okay well thank you for calling i know this has to be hard for you it's uh not not an
17:37everyday
17:37occurrence all right we'll uh get you out of here
17:46that girl's in shock she was scared to death she is she feels real bad her boss is like i
17:52can get
17:53you a video detective pablo zuniga pulls up surveillance video he collected from the dispensary
17:58that's him getting there he's running in blake arrives at 8 22 p.m
18:07so he's walking he's incredibly agitated all kinds of movements everywhere
18:14this isn't sped up or anything this is his real speed he's whacked out
18:21the clerk is saying that he's very agitated and angry just making statements about wanting to hurt
18:29people with an axe he mentioned that he was also going to die or kill himself
18:40he does like a double gun move to his head right there
18:49over here he starts making stabbing motions to his own neck
18:55he's like i just want to get you out of here
19:00those are the shoes that's in the house look
19:08that's pretty good
19:11and here he's premeditating i'm going to go oh yeah this might be one of the most premeditated murders
19:18i don't know what i'm going to say
19:25blake leaves the dispensary at 8 27 p.m and then his vehicle hits flop going westbound on
19:32admiral harter right at 2103. at 903 pm 36 minutes after blake left the dispensary his car was picked
19:40up by license plate cameras driving away from chris's house i wonder if he went home and he killed him
19:47and then he fled the scene the employee from the dispensary called in at 20 52. according to hers
19:53about a 20 minute time lapse he gave his address officers went by the house body cam footage from
20:00yesterday mcneil pulls up body cam from the officer sent to check on blake
20:10this officer's checking the perimeter trying to get in contact with someone at the house
20:13and nobody's answering the door i'm thinking our victims in the house dead already but this
20:18officer doesn't know i mean there's no reason for him to think anything's going on in the house
20:22he walked to each side of the house looked over the fence
20:30he's not motivated i mean there's no reason for him to do anything more
20:38he got there right at 2101 21 close to 2102 and his vehicle's hitting the flop down the street at
20:462103.
20:48so i think that's when he's playing the scene the officer arrived at the house one minute
20:53after license plate cameras captured blake's car leaving the scene so he barely missed him barely
20:59missed him and so is it possible could happen in that that's a small window i think it had to
21:07happen
21:07in that window if he's got the shoes on at the dispensary and they're clean he's not covered in blood
21:14i think his phone data will tell the tale yeah just waiting on att mcneil sent a warrant to blake's
21:21phone company requesting his location records we should hopefully get some data hopefully by tomorrow
21:34nice seven hours in the suspect called in 359 a.m he said that his roommate just tried to stab
21:43him
21:43dispatch informs the team that blake called 911 eight hours after the murder from near stringtown oklahoma
21:51here it sounds like an hour and a half two hours two and a half hours two hours much left
21:55stringtown
21:56is about 125 miles south of tulsa
22:02tulsa please um me and my boyfriend got in some sort of orientation like he tried stabbing me
22:13i drove away to you know get the fresh air i was in shock
22:30what is your name blake mcdonald
22:40like i just don't know what happened to him he was okay when i left him
22:44what location are you at i need to send an officer to speak with you and take the report
22:49i'm imaging like tulsa in springtown right now okay so do you plan on coming back to tulsa
22:57i don't have a car i hit a deer i'm on the side of the highway uh walking to stringtown
23:03all right mike what i'm gonna do i'm gonna put this in and see if an officer or a supervisor
23:08will
23:09leave you at all all right thank you no problem a supervisor called blake but he didn't answer
23:15i wonder if somebody maybe came in contact with that car i already called them zuniga reached out to
23:21the local sheriff's department and asked them to look for blake's car their assistant chief called
23:26back and said if we run into the car we'll give you a call back but their dispatch said according
23:31to
23:31their records they had no nobody out asking for help for hitting a deer or anything last night
23:39he called the police last night and said that his boyfriend tried to stab him to me
23:46i feel like the call is self-serving i would argue that you know he just called to try to
23:52give
23:52himself some sort of self-defense claim eight hours in the team still has no leads on blake's whereabouts
23:59i would be concerned for the safety of others at this point talking to witnesses he's got some
24:05abnormal behaviors sometimes there's medical issues for that and other times it's drug induced and then
24:12sometimes which is probably more common than not a combination of the two you know there's a there's
24:19a lot of uh struggles with both of those in society and when someone that has some mental health issues
24:26exacerbates it with drug use then you know it's kind of a tempest
24:39one hour later so margo doing what margo does she did a offline search on blake and found out that
24:48a deputy down outside of kiowa ran blake crime analyst margo hayne bell discovers that around
24:55midnight last night a deputy found blake's car on the side of the road in pittsburgh county oklahoma
25:02so that's probably a hundred miles south of here the deputy said yeah the car was disabled parked
25:09on the side of the road they found him walking down the highway with a laceration to his face
25:15blake says he hit a deer the deputy gave him a ride to kiowa and dropped him off the convenience
25:21store
25:21blake got a ride from the deputy four hours before he called 911 from stringtown to report that his
25:28boyfriend had tried to stab him stringtown's probably another 30 miles down the highway
25:35you know if blake had really been assaulted the first opportunity he comes in contact with law
25:39enforcement you know when you think it might be something important to tell them but deputy said
25:45when he asked blake what happened to his face blake said the the deer kicked him in the face so
25:51only later
25:52to decide that maybe it's in my best interest to try to get ahead of this and and and at
25:57least put a
25:57self-defense story up so i think it's pretty clear that it's just trying to cover his tracks when he
26:03makes that phone call then so according to phone stuff he's somewhere in texas blake's phone location
26:18records finally come in somewhere in dallas fort worth airport area somewhere in there that was at
26:25902 pm blake's phone was last picked up by cell towers near dallas four hours ago they're hoping
26:32to do to fly to afghanistan we called dallas fort worth police department airport police and they're
26:38checking their terminals but i think there's hotels around the terminals this place is so huge
26:45there's a lot of different areas he could go a lot of a lot of ground to cover so certain
26:49styles is
26:50going to reach out to some federal agents and see if they can't help us and figure out where he
26:54went
26:55okay let me get on it and i'll take some info for you awesome thank you the unfortunate part is
27:00he
27:00might have already hopped on the flight
27:12the next morning all right thank you so much sir okay of course bye pretty important news we have some
27:19contacts down at the fbi and they were able to check the flight itineraries for my suspect and it
27:27would appear he is on a flight currently from dallas to jfk and has a connecting flight onto paris
27:36obviously we want to snatch him before he leaves the country blake's flight is due to land at jfk airport
27:42in new york in two hours i try to get this warrant knocked out really quick so that when they
27:47land
27:47they'll board the plane and take him into custody
27:54one hour later so uh got a warrant issued five million dollar bond since he was trying to flee the
27:59country
28:05port authority up in new york will be able to pick him up as soon as he lands and uh
28:10we're going to go
28:29welcome welcome shilling and warren update chris's family as soon as we hear something we'll let
28:35y'all know i'll give you my notes oh thank you thank you thank you yes sir yes
28:44shilling as shilling and warren leave chris's family
28:501400 miles away at jfk airport blake's plane has just landed
28:55uh
28:56Oh, man.
29:21Sir, Blake.
29:23How are you?
29:24Are you going to be on here?
29:25Good.
29:27I see you, I think.
29:28Yeah.
29:31Put all your stuff right there?
29:33All my stuff?
29:33Yep.
29:33He's right there, right here.
29:34His hands are running back.
29:37Port Authority police officers take Blake into custody.
29:55Back in Tulsa.
29:59He's in custody.
30:00They're emailing me what they have.
30:02All right.
30:02Let me just run in there and tell them real quick.
30:08See, I just had to try to leave.
30:09He's in custody.
30:11He got him!
30:11They got him up there.
30:12They got him on the plane.
30:14I don't know the story yet, but we'll hear it.
30:17We got some work to do.
30:18We'll talk to God.
30:26Later that afternoon...
30:28There's quite a bit of evidence that he had with him.
30:30His clothing he was wearing and he had two backpacks of stuff.
30:35Blake will be held in New York
30:36until he can be extradited back to Tulsa.
30:39We may try to go up there and take an opportunity to interview him,
30:43but eventually he will be brought back to Tulsa
30:46and have to answer for what he's done.
30:49With just over 24 hours left in the first 48,
30:53the team must now wait to hear Blake's side of the story.
31:11Eight days later...
31:13Well, we just landed in New York City.
31:15So, me and Pablo, this is the first for us.
31:19Schilling and Zuniga arrive in New York City, both for the first time.
31:23Sergeant Schilling is going to talk to the suspect tomorrow.
31:27I'd like to just kind of touch base with him,
31:29let him know, you know, that we are investigating it.
31:33You know, there's obviously two sides to every story.
31:36And right now, you know, we don't really have either side.
31:39We just have the physical evidence to it.
31:40He got booked into Queens Central Booking,
31:42and then after that, he ended up getting transferred to Rikers Island.
31:46You hear about it in movies,
31:48probably never thought you were going to be getting to go there.
31:52It's all downhill from here, Pablo.
31:56You've peaked. You've peaked way too early.
31:59Yeah.
32:00So, this is my first time in New York City,
32:05and it's one of those places I think is kind of like a bucket list place for a lot of
32:09people.
32:10Detective White, who's our local tour guide,
32:13he gave me enough to do to fill up a week or two,
32:16but we don't have that much time, so if we get the opportunity,
32:19I'd love to see the World Trade Center.
32:21It's kind of the one thing that's really on my list.
32:27Two hours later, while we wait to talk to Blake...
32:40Older people talk about where they were, like when JFK was assassinated or Elvis Presley died,
32:44but for me, one of the biggest significant events was 9-11.
32:47I was actually in training, driving around Tulsa with a senior police officer,
32:52and all this stuff's going on in New York,
32:55and it's just, you know, now, gosh, 23 years later,
33:01I'm getting to come here and kind of see it for the first time.
33:06I'll do a hot dog.
33:07I want a hot dog, too.
33:10Thank you, sir.
33:14Man, it's good.
33:16There's five buildings I can see right now that are all bigger than any building we have.
33:22And that's just this side of the street.
33:24That's why.
33:26So we're going to go over to Rikers at 11 and holler at Blake.
33:31It's a place that's, I don't know, a bit intimidating.
33:36It's like, you know, it's not Alcatraz, but if you talk about jails that people have heard of...
33:42Yep.
33:43That's one of them.
33:45Yeah.
33:49The next morning...
33:50So we're on our way to Rikers now, and we're going to go meet with Blake,
33:55and let him know that we're interested in his side of the story,
33:59and if he decides to talk to us, it'd be great.
34:02If not, then, you know, go with what we have.
34:07Nathan Schilling.
34:08Nice to meet you, brother.
34:09Nice to meet you as well.
34:10NYPD will escort Schilling and Zunica across the bridge to Rikers Island.
34:20Hey, Blake.
34:22I am Sergeant Blaine Johnson.
34:25Also, Oklahoma.
34:26This is a partner all over the bridge.
34:29We just wanted to let you know that we are interested in what you have to say, and I'd love
34:35to hear your side of the story.
34:51Welcome lawyer.
34:52Okay.
34:53Good.
34:56Do you have any questions for me about anything at this point?
35:01I don't know.
35:02All right.
35:06You know, it's a little anticlimactic.
35:09He immediately said, I want my attorney, but he starts pointing at his face, at the cuts on his face.
35:15So he's trying to tell me something without telling me something, but ultimately, you know, he chose not to tell
35:22us.
35:23Unfortunately for him, there's a mountain of evidence against him.
35:26So whether he talks or not, it's going to be a hard case to beat.
35:33Two hours later.
35:34Is that everything up in the conference room?
35:37All right.
35:37Schilling and Zunica meet with Port Authority detective Michael McDaniels to collect Blake's belongings.
35:43Were you actually on the plane when he got arrested or?
35:46Yeah, yeah.
35:46Oh, nice.
35:47Did you think he was surprised or shocked or?
35:50I wouldn't say he was really surprised.
35:53He kept his head down.
35:55He didn't really talk.
35:55He was very cooperative.
35:57At one point, I don't remember the exact wording, but somehow he uttered, he stabbed me.
36:05There was another interaction with him when we were in the cells.
36:08He said, detective, I said, I have a question.
36:10I said, sure.
36:10He said, did he die?
36:13I hear a guy saying, I have a warrant for murder.
36:16Did he die?
36:17I said, all I can tell you is that you have a warrant for murder out of Tulsa, Oklahoma.
36:22And he said, okay.
36:28Okay.
36:29So this is the bags.
36:31Hello, Abby.
36:33This is the clothing.
36:35We were asked not to go through it, so we didn't even open it.
36:37Okay.
36:38Excellent.
36:39Blake's luggage will be searched for possible evidence back in Tulsa after the team has secured
36:44a warrant.
36:44I think that's everything.
36:46Thanks so much.
36:47No problem.
36:51This morning was not quite what we hoped for, but this was a good trip.
36:57I'm glad we came to New York.
36:59It's pretty spectacular, a great place to visit, but there's no place like home.
37:13One week later.
37:14Blake got brought back on Thursday, so he is now at the Tulsa County Jail.
37:20I was able to get a search warrant for the bags that Blake had with him on his flight.
37:26In the check bag, ended up finding a kind of a military style, like K-Bar knife.
37:32Okay.
37:34I don't see any blood on it.
37:36I don't know.
37:37There's nothing that gives me reason to believe that this was involved in it.
37:41And also found a tomahawk style axe.
37:46So, you know, again, it doesn't look like it was involved in the actual incident.
37:51But the fact that the witness from the dispensary said that he said he was going to go axe somebody,
37:56it could play a role in the investigation.
38:00I have some DVR footage I've also been able to review.
38:03The Cyber Crimes Unit was able to access Chris's surveillance system
38:07and sent Shilling several clips of Blake inside the house at the time of the murder.
38:14So he pulls into the driveway.
38:1712 minutes after leaving the marijuana dispensary, Blake arrives at Chris's home.
38:22For whatever reason, it doesn't pick up the initial him walking in the house.
38:28This is literally two minutes after he pulled into the driveway.
38:35It would appear that he's already had an altercation with the victim.
38:39And he ended up back outside somehow.
38:44He's coming back in the front door.
38:47And he's already bloody.
38:50Then he pulls the knife out and goes back to where our victim was found.
38:55You can see him over here a little bit.
39:00It's almost like he's talking to him.
39:13It would appear that Blake took a shower after.
39:17You know, we definitely have self-defense cases.
39:21You know, you have people get into a fight and someone pulls out a knife
39:24and stabs someone once, twice, three times in quick succession to get away.
39:29And then that person dies.
39:31You know, that's a little bit understandable.
39:34But to stab someone at least 71 times, numerous stab wounds to the chest, to the back, to the back
39:44of the head, that's not consistent with a self-defense claim.
39:48I think in this case, there's no question that Blake was going to kill Chris.
39:53He's saying that before it happens.
39:56So he has lost pretty much any self-defense claim.
40:00He's going over there with the intent to stab him.
40:03And I think the evidence would support that.
40:36Eight months after Chris was killed, his family gathers to remember him.
40:43We had some good times with Uncle Chris.
40:46We miss him, don't we?
40:47Yes, we do.
40:49He was funny, wasn't he?
40:51Yes.
40:53Chris was just a real kidder.
40:55He loved to joke.
40:56He loved to laugh.
40:57He worked on his cars.
40:59He kept an immaculate yard.
41:01He was always meticulous about everything, whether it was artwork or decorating.
41:06He always liked to improve things.
41:11He just had a soft spot, too.
41:13A soft hard.
41:16And it's just unfortunate, you know, that he got hooked up with Blake.
41:23He just wanted to use Chris.
41:25Chris was loving.
41:27I think at the beginning, it was a boyfriend-boyfriend relationship.
41:32But later on, I think it became, I'm trying to nurture him.
41:36He came from a bad home, you know, and I can make it better kind of thing, and I can
41:41help him.
41:42And, you know, he, I mean, for a long time, he just took advantage of my brother.
41:48I mean, we all worried Blake would do something.
41:53I kept trying to get Chris to kick him out.
41:56And Chris kept telling me, he says, he'll heal himself.
41:59And I said, that's not your problem.
42:01Your problem is letting him stay there.
42:04You need to get him out of that house.
42:07Yeah, I'm sorry I couldn't protect him.
42:09I'm sorry I couldn't change things for him.
42:13It's just very sad.
42:15And, um, he didn't deserve, I mean, nobody would deserve that.
42:18But my brother didn't deserve it from just trying to help somebody.
42:25I wish we could turn back time.
42:28But you can't.
42:31I just don't want him to be forgotten.
42:33I don't want my brother to be forgotten.
42:39I don't want a believer.
42:41And things are more important.
42:42I look back in a few months as I'mINE.
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