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00:09BEING A DAB ISN'T JUST FEEDING THEM CHANGING.
00:12BUT NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO, IT'S NEVER GONNA BE RIGHT FOR YOU.
00:15I AM SO MUCH BITING MY TONE.
00:17I DON'T CARE, I DON'T WANT TO BE YOU IT ANYMORE.
00:19I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE YOU CHOOSE TO WORK BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO COME HOME.
00:23WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
00:24FIRE!
00:25IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE BEDTIME.
00:30ARE YOU STILL HAPPY?
00:31NO.
00:32ARE YOU FORGETTING THE LIES YOU TOLD ME?
00:34WHAT LIES?
00:35IT WOULD JUST BE NICE TO NOT HAVE TO CALL SOMEONE OUT ALL THE TIME.
00:39IT FEELS LIKE I'M TELLING OFF A TODDLER.
00:40HAVEN'T LOST BEFORE.
00:42IT'S SO SCARY.
00:44IT'S HARD FOR.
00:45I HATE GOING TO SCANS BECAUSE THE ANXIETY.
00:49WHAT IS IT? THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG.
00:51I FEEL LIKE WITH POTTY TRAINING, HAND TO GOD, I HAVE NOT BEEN AS CONSISTENT AS I SHOULD BE.
00:56ARE YOU DOING MORE?
00:57DO YOU WANT ME TO LEAVE?
00:59TELL MUMMY WHEN YOU'RE ALL DONE, OKAY?
01:01OH, MY GOD.
01:02MUMMY'S LOCKED HIMSELF IN THERE.
01:05NO!
01:07OPEN THE DOOR!
01:20DO YOU WANT ME TO LEAVE YOU?
01:26MUMMY'S LOCKED SH производ.
01:27TH 것은 ALSO CREATHER EDUCATIAL IN THE CREATE,
01:29NOT Medium Szzaf, SALE!
01:29THAT'S CREATING ME LOVE RENBC?
01:31TUCK LUMMY?
01:34THAT'S CREATING ME?
01:37and while I love him more every day,
01:39things have been really up and down between me and Tyler.
01:43And living with mum is making things even harder,
01:46cos she can't keep her nose out, which caused a huge row last night.
01:54I hate her. I generally do.
01:56I'm getting to the point I don't even want to be here.
01:58I'd rather live somewhere else.
02:01It's my relationship, not hers.
02:02She can't tell me who I can and can't work with.
02:04She can't tell me what to do.
02:07She just needs to step away.
02:11Having a C-section has made her feel much harder on me
02:14and mum doesn't think Tyler's been pulling his weight.
02:17She had a go at him last night and he walked out on us.
02:20So then me and her fell out and we haven't talked since.
02:25Well, last night I was just a full-blown argument.
02:27Why have you took your blanket off?
02:29Obviously, she doesn't like what I say about Tyler.
02:31I know I keep saying, I've got to bite my tongue,
02:34I've got to bite my tongue.
02:35But then something will be said and I just think, why bother?
02:39But I don't want to lose my daughter
02:41and I don't want to lose my grandson.
02:43So I do need to sort of speak to her
02:47and see if we can talk civil.
02:50Can we turn light on? Yeah.
02:53About last night, do you think we should, like, have a chat about it?
02:57No.
03:01So where's Tyler now?
03:03Oh, he's not allowed to come here.
03:07You're angry with me, aren't you?
03:09Yeah, I don't like you at the minute.
03:13The thing is, I can't, like, say,
03:15oh, yeah, I really love the laddies, this, that and the other.
03:18He's never done nothing to you.
03:19I just don't feel like he's doing enough.
03:21That's what I'm saying. Just leave.
03:22I can't be bothered.
03:25What if I have a chat with Tyler?
03:27Cos you don't talk, you start shouting like you did last time.
03:28That's what I mean, I have to stop shouting.
03:30No, no.
03:31I'm not being funny.
03:31It's my relationship at the end of the day, not yours.
03:34But it's me and him who's got problems.
03:36No, it's you that's got the problems.
03:38You've got problems with everyone.
03:39I don't.
03:40Yeah, you do. Just leave him.
03:41I can't be bothered with you.
03:43So, what do you want me to do?
03:45Step away.
03:49What about helping with baby and that?
03:50He doesn't need any help. I can do it.
03:52I know, but he's still my grandson. I worship him.
03:54Yeah, but I don't need help with him.
03:57Can I still hold him in that?
03:58Have I ever said that?
04:00Have I ever said you can't hold him?
04:02No, you've not.
04:02No, leave the room.
04:06No, you've never said that. I'm just asking.
04:08No, so you just ask that.
04:09I'm just asking, that's all.
04:12Don't speak to me.
04:17I just want the best for Leona.
04:19I am a bit to blame. I am.
04:21I just, I don't know how I'm feeling.
04:25One minute I can get on with him dead good and I see things he's doing and I'm like, oh,
04:30brilliant.
04:31And then I'll sit down, have a brew and whatnot and I think, he's a waste of space.
04:38So I, I don't know how I feel about him right now.
04:43At this moment it's hard, I don't even want to speak to her.
04:45She keeps coming in, trying to make a conversation and I don't want to talk to her.
04:49There's nothing more to talk about.
04:51She said everything clear last night to me and I won't forget anything she's ever said.
04:57Just horrible things that I wouldn't dream of ever saying to someone.
05:00She didn't grow up more than anyone.
05:17You're going to have a snack when we get home?
05:25Yeah.
05:26Yes we are.
05:28OK, you don't come as happy.
05:30Today's been a long day.
05:32Khalil's been at nursery and I've been at college.
05:34And with mum being away, it's meant no lifts.
05:41The last thing I can face is toilet training.
05:44But I've been putting it off for months and the pressure's on at nursery to get him out of nappies.
05:48Go on, it's quite an aspers.
05:50But Khalil's having other ideas.
05:55Should we put some big boy pants on?
05:56Can you sit on your bed for mummy?
05:59No, no, no.
06:00Khalil.
06:01Stop it.
06:02Come and lay down there now, please.
06:04Khalil.
06:09Khalil's being extra clear today.
06:11It's as if he's got a twin here with him and it's double the work that he normally is.
06:16You have got poo poo in your bum bum.
06:18Lay down.
06:20No, Khalil.
06:22I don't know what it is today.
06:23Maybe it's something he's eaten.
06:24Maybe he's just decided when he woke up, I'm going to stress mum today.
06:28Yeah.
06:31Yeah, your poo poo smells.
06:34Don't, don't.
06:35Khalil, stop.
06:36Fuck.
06:36What?
06:40OK, bye.
06:41Let me know when you want to be changed.
06:42I'm not arguing with you.
06:44Bye.
06:46Khalil will not listen to me today, but I know one person he will listen to.
06:51I'm calling Nana.
06:52I'm calling Nana.
06:53Yeah, I'm calling her because I'm going to tell her you're being lost.
06:55I'm calling Nana.
06:56No, you're not calling Nana because you smell of poo.
06:58You're not listening.
06:58I'm calling Nana.
07:02No, we're not his friend at the moment, mum.
07:03He stinks of poo and he won't let me change him.
07:07Khalil!
07:07And he's climbing on the sofa as we can get him off.
07:10He doesn't listen.
07:11He smells everything.
07:13Come on, listen to my mate.
07:15Listen.
07:18Why?
07:18Why?
07:19Why?
07:20Can you go and get wipes from Mummy, Khalil?
07:22Yeah.
07:23Now, please.
07:24My child doesn't respect me, mum.
07:26He doesn't respect my authority.
07:27I'm still going to check, anyway.
07:33And you stay still.
07:36Hold that phone and talk to your Nana.
07:43Khalil, you've got big boy pants on.
07:45Tell Mummy if you need to use the toilet, OK?
07:47Toilet.
07:48Do you need to use the toilet now?
07:49No.
07:50Are you lying?
07:52Come on, come on, Mummy, come on.
07:56No, no, no.
08:01Yay!
08:02You've done it.
08:03Shake, shake, shake, shake, shake.
08:05Good job.
08:06You've done it.
08:07I'm going to tell Nana you did it.
08:09No, I did it!
08:10You've done it.
08:11Pull it down to the biggie.
08:16He's going to wash his hands.
08:18Yeah, baby, get it!
08:20It hasn't been easy, but Khalil used the toilet, so that's a win for me.
08:30I never knew what I had until you're gone.
08:35Until you're gone.
08:36Until you're gone.
08:36You used to be my issue.
08:38Got that problem solved.
08:50Got that problem solved.
08:53It's just me and the boys again, as Matt's at work.
08:56I swear I'm superwoman.
08:59Mummy's superwoman.
09:00But I know I really need to talk to him.
09:03I'm finished.
09:04Stop.
09:05I just want to know that he's happy.
09:07And I want to say that I'm not feeling the happiest at the moment,
09:10with just how everything's been going.
09:12But this whole thing has spiralled from the way he was acting with me.
09:14I felt like he didn't love me, so I backed off.
09:17I think it is healthy to get things out in the open,
09:19but sometimes it causes more issues when you say things,
09:25so you just don't bother saying anything.
09:28How do you do it?
09:30Make it look so easy, darling.
09:34So easy.
09:35My mum's looking after the boys today,
09:37so that Matt and I can have some time together.
09:40It's always day there, isn't it?
09:41Yeah.
09:42Finally, the sun.
09:43And I'm working up the courage to speak my mind.
09:49Quite nervous about today.
09:51I just feel like I haven't been with Matt in so long
09:55that it's weird.
09:58I feel really uptight.
10:01It's not a nice feeling,
10:02but also it would be nice to be with him as well, I think.
10:07It's very quiet about the kids.
10:11We have one chucking food there, one running away there.
10:14Yes, sir.
10:15I can't believe it's Teddy's birthday next week.
10:18I know we'll have a four-year-old.
10:20You're working.
10:22I feel like we've lost our connection a little bit.
10:25Like, cos you went through a really weird phase with me a few weeks ago
10:29and you were telling me that you don't want to be with a person like me.
10:32No, it's just...
10:33And then I've obviously gone cold a little bit
10:36and now you're like, do you even love me?
10:38Nah.
10:38But that's how I felt with you.
10:40I just...
10:42kept doing little things, like, I would say something,
10:45and you'd just come in and bite my head off and be like, why?
10:48But we're not arguing.
10:49No, I'm just...
10:50I know, but I just think, like, they'd carry on.
10:53No, sorry.
10:57I feel really awkward now.
10:59Why?
10:59Cos the way you reacted.
11:03Is this not all the planned conversation or something?
11:06What do you mean planned?
11:07This whole thing?
11:08Is this why we're here?
11:10No.
11:10Oh, I just feel like...
11:13ganged up on.
11:13You're not ganged up on.
11:16But I've obviously been feeling like how I've been feeling about it all.
11:19Kids, and when do we ever have a chance to have a conversation?
11:22100%.
11:22I agree with that.
11:23Cos you're always at work.
11:24We're with battling with the kids.
11:26So, if we go out for a day out together,
11:29and I could just bring it up and say how I'm feeling,
11:31so we can squash it.
11:32Yeah.
11:32Or we can work around it.
11:34Yeah, I get that.
11:41Now I'm turning the page.
11:44It's a new day.
11:46My light's shining my way.
11:48Time to face it.
11:50Oh, I'm feeling good.
11:53Hello!
11:54Happy birthday, girl!
12:00It's Jack's 23rd birthday,
12:02and I planned a super special family day out for us
12:04at the aquarium.
12:06It's not my birthday.
12:08It's not your birthday.
12:12Elizabeth Pope, we're really excited about the balloons.
12:14I think Jack was as well.
12:16I'm just really excited to spend the day with them both.
12:20We're going to the aquarium!
12:23Aquarium!
12:29Wow!
12:32Oh, my goodness!
12:35She's neither!
12:37Yeah.
12:38Do you want to come look in here?
12:39No!
12:41No!
12:42No!
12:44What's up, sweet?
12:45No!
12:47No!
12:49No!
12:49No!
12:49No!
12:49No!
12:49Do you want to take a big belly breath and sit out?
12:52Because that's not how we talk to people.
12:55No!
12:55Do you need to calm down?
12:57No?
12:58Do you want to carry on playing?
13:00Elizabeth Hope is well and truly in her teenage years.
13:03So, what do we say?
13:05Right, come look in here.
13:07I think you'll like it.
13:09And we're figuring it out.
13:12I won't lie.
13:13I'm a bit nervous about what the future holds juggling a toddler and a newborn.
13:20I feel like she's very much at that age where she's got a mind and wants of her own.
13:25When we've got the baby, she's all right at sharing but I don't think she will want her with the
13:30baby.
13:31She doesn't have to learn to be a big sister and it won't be easy for her.
13:35I think we all just need to be patient with her.
13:38She's not going to get things right straight away.
13:40Just as long as you tell her when she's not.
13:43But I think there'll be times where she gets pastime.
13:46It won't be easy but we'll get through it together.
13:49We can get through anything together.
13:50Yeah.
13:53There's going to be so many challenges for me, Jack and Elizabeth home when baby boy comes.
14:00And for baby boy.
14:01I just think as long as me and Jack keep that open dialogue, we'll be absolutely fine.
14:07But, you know, it's not going to be easy on sleepless nights.
14:12And we will get things wrong.
14:14We will.
14:14It's inevitable.
14:15We get things wrong every single day.
14:17But it's about putting them right and just holding your hands up.
14:24Mummy!
14:25Mummy!
14:25No, mamas!
14:26Come and see you!
14:49Can you stack the cups?
14:52One, two, three, four.
14:58What? Uh-oh.
15:01This morning, I went for a baby scan, and the baby's facing in the wrong direction,
15:06which means there's a high chance I'm going to need another C-section.
15:10And after the trauma of the emergency C-section last time, it's not the news I want to hear.
15:16I would love to have a really, really natural birth.
15:19I feel like, at first, me and Valentina really didn't have a bond.
15:22Maybe it was partially because of the C-section.
15:24I didn't get to see him be born, I didn't get to experience it,
15:27I didn't get to have skin-to-skin, I didn't get to see any of his firsts.
15:30I woke up, he was already dressed, he'd already had a bottle, he'd already had a bum change,
15:33he was already, like, in the costume and his own thing.
15:36Like, he didn't need me.
15:39I don't want another C-section. I am literally traumatised from his C-section.
15:44So you cannot do anything then to it?
15:46Well, there's, like, a way they can, like, flip the baby,
15:48but apparently it's, like, really painful.
15:49It's obviously, like, massive risks, like, it always goes wrong.
15:53It's just, like, they end up getting tangled, they end up getting stuck.
15:56Her head's under my ribs at the moment.
15:58Yeah, I know, the woman was, like,
15:59I can't believe you're not in loads of pain.
16:01She said, I don't know how you manage it.
16:04There were so many complications last time
16:06that I had to be put to sleep for his delivery.
16:09It was literally, like, from zero to 100.
16:12It was so normal to, like, so dramatic.
16:15Valentino didn't take a first breath for 15 minutes.
16:19I hemorrhaged after being woken up and had to go back into theatre.
16:24I can remember just, like, 20 people coming in, swarming around me.
16:27I couldn't even see you.
16:29And then next behind you, I was, like, in theatre.
16:33There was no time to even process what they'd just said to me.
16:37I remember I was crying and I, like, shouted for our own
16:40and I was told he couldn't come.
16:42By the time I came round,
16:43it just felt like I'd missed out on so much.
16:49We didn't even get to have skin-to-skin or nothing.
16:51I didn't even really feel like I'd actually, like, had him.
16:54Like, it didn't feel real, did it?
17:01She wants a normal pregnancy.
17:02She wanted that the first time that she felt pregnant with Tina.
17:07But she felt like she got it taken away, basically, robbed off her,
17:11that it didn't go exactly how she wanted it.
17:13So it'd be nice for her to experience
17:15the pregnancy in her own way and get her a real feeling.
17:19I'm pretty still, like, 28 weeks.
17:21There's plenty of time for her to flip.
17:23Yeah.
17:24Plenty of time.
17:42I'm trying to talk to Matt about our relationship
17:44because I don't feel he wants to be with me anymore.
17:47But I'm not getting the answers I was hoping for.
17:51I'm really bloody awkward.
17:52I feel like I can't talk.
17:53Why?
17:54I just feel like you shut me down so much.
17:57We need to have, like, conversations like this
17:59to be able to make things work.
18:00Because I'm struggling.
18:02You don't know how you're feeling.
18:04It's just, at the moment, Ainge, no matter what we do, it is going to be hard.
18:08Because we've gone from having a child who was starting to be independent on his own,
18:13then getting our time back together, yeah, to having a newborn baby again,
18:18going through the whole stages again.
18:21Our relationship has been put on the back burner, and that's not...
18:24It's not good.
18:26What more do you want?
18:27Like, with parents?
18:30It's OK if you feel like this, and it's not a problem, but, like...
18:33I know what you're saying, but some days I get fed up of being told, like,
18:36I'm always doing the wrong thing, and it pisses me off.
18:38And I feel like that with you.
18:40I'm not doing this.
18:41I'm not sitting here and just feeling like everything I say,
18:42there's always something wrong, like...
18:45I...
18:45I want...
18:46You brought me out of here, right?
18:48Clearly just feels like to have this conversation,
18:50not to spend any time, because all we've done is speak about this.
18:53I just want to come out and have a nice meal,
18:55chat with you, have a nice talk.
18:56And I wanted to just talk to you so we could clear the air,
18:58we could go home and be happy.
18:59I can't be asked for it, Ainge.
19:01It's just all the time.
19:06And I just wanted to speak about how I was feeling.
19:10Yeah, but that's all we spoke about this whole time you've been here.
19:12But let's talk about it.
19:12No, I don't want to talk.
19:13I want to go now.
19:15Go then.
19:16No, I won't.
19:20Why do we have to let everyone know in about everything, Ainge?
19:23I can't be doing this.
19:35I just feel like, like, every time I try to, like, speak,
19:38I just get shut down and, like,
19:41there's always a reason why we can't talk.
19:49I just want to go home.
20:12I have got some time to stop.
20:17I'm going to have a good night.
20:18What kind of do you think you want?
20:19I want pink.
20:21Pink?
20:22Please?
20:23When I was pregnant with Elizabeth Hope,
20:25it was always just me and my mum.
20:27So while Jack's away and her lads do for his birthday,
20:29we're having a girly sleepover.
20:31We're at Grandma's house today.
20:34We've got our matching jimmy jammies on.
20:37Yeah.
20:38I'll be looking.
20:39Take a look now.
20:41I've been struggling a lot with my endo,
20:43so it's a relief to have my mum looking after me again,
20:45like the old days.
20:46I can.
20:47Grandma gets here.
20:51Girls night!
20:53Woo!
20:56Nice.
20:56You think baby brother will like that?
20:58Yeah.
21:00Oh, that's lovely.
21:02That's a nice massage.
21:05How have you been, pain-wise and pregnancy?
21:08I went out to the aquarium the other day with Jack,
21:12and literally the next day I couldn't move.
21:15Really?
21:15I was in so much pain.
21:19It sucks.
21:20And Jack's supportive.
21:22He's, well, I couldn't have asked for anything out from him.
21:25Yeah.
21:25When I've been in pain and he sees me, like, all tense in the head,
21:30he's like, babe, relax.
21:32And I'm like,
21:33you're going to be such a good birthing partner.
21:36Like, aw.
21:37Obviously, when I go into labour, I still want you there,
21:39but more for the role of watching her,
21:42because I want her as involved as possible.
21:44I'm really excited to get the phone call,
21:47to come down and do what, you know,
21:51just to get all zen and relaxed and make sure that you're OK.
21:57That's Jack's job.
21:58Your job is to watch her.
22:02And if I need my mummy, I'll let you know.
22:06But it's important to me and Jack that it's our moment.
22:12You're mainly there to be our support system with her.
22:15And, you know, if I need you, you're there.
22:19Yeah.
22:20But I think Jack's got this.
22:27I know if I could just ask her to be there,
22:29she'd have been, like, elbows deep in my floof,
22:32like she was last time.
22:34And I definitely want Jack to feel like he's my birthing partner
22:39and he's there to support me.
22:41As much as, like, it's nice to see you settled
22:44and to do it all yourself, it's hard for me.
22:47You know, I want to be a part of it all,
22:49which I'm going to be a part of it, just in a different way.
22:52It is going to be in a different way
22:53because we don't want to take that away from Jack
22:55because it's his baby.
22:57And if, say, he's struggling to do counter-pressure,
23:01don't just take over, show him how to do it.
23:03You know what I mean?
23:03Yeah, yeah.
23:07With Chloe's pregnancy,
23:08it's obviously been very different this time.
23:11With Elizabeth Hope,
23:12I was there every single step of the way, holding her hand.
23:15I caught her as she come out of Chloe.
23:17It was a special moment, you know,
23:20and I just hope all that happens again.
23:23It is a fear that I'm not going to have as much of a bond
23:27with a baby boy,
23:29but I'm sure everything will work out.
23:33Oh, that's in legs.
23:35You're not so small anymore.
23:36You're a big girl.
23:39We'll always be our baby.
23:58Oh, look, it's exciting.
24:01Get excited.
24:02Look straight in and it's a cop, man.
24:05Oh, stop moaning.
24:08Looks like hospital beds all lined up, isn't it?
24:11Well, yeah, what did you expect to say, like,
24:13when you wanted a bed like that?
24:15Mum and Aaron have been setting up the new cot
24:17and the reality of being a mum to two kids
24:20is really sinking in.
24:22I know Amelia is properly stressing out at the moment,
24:25but, you know, she's very highly strung anyway,
24:27so we all just go, ooh, back off,
24:31and then, yeah, we just let her crack on with it.
24:33I hate it. I really don't like it.
24:35Why? It just looks cramped with Aaron.
24:37You're not in there half your life.
24:38Half my life is in that room.
24:40And it's horrible.
24:42Doesn't look too bad.
24:44I think the news that I might need a C-section
24:47is also making me worry about how I'm going to cope
24:50when the baby comes,
24:51and Aaron's not pulling his weight.
24:55When he wants to play and wants to do things,
24:57he's amazing with Valentino,
24:59but he's not a good partner,
25:01and the fact that if I was to ask him,
25:04can you do this with Valentino
25:05so I can get five minutes to myself,
25:06he sees it as, like, he's doing a favour for me.
25:10Like, if I get to do the washing up
25:12without, you know, clinging onto my legs
25:13and things like that,
25:15that's a favour to me.
25:20It's Aaron's day off today,
25:22so we're taking Tina out to soft play,
25:24our favourite spot for family time.
25:26It feels like time and money are tight as it is,
25:29so I need Aaron to step up
25:31and think more realistically about the future.
25:46What's going to happen
25:47when the new baby comes
25:48when she's, like, three weeks old
25:50and I can't take them both swimming
25:53when she's only three weeks?
25:55So what's going to happen then?
25:57Yeah, I get where you're coming from.
25:58I haven't really got anyone else to help.
26:01Obviously, there's you and Mum,
26:02but you both work
26:03and that's it, that's all I've got.
26:05So when it comes to...
26:06Yeah, but once I said,
26:08boy, I'm going to try and get...
26:09That's why I'm saving up more holidays.
26:12It would just be nice
26:12if, like, when it comes to your one day off,
26:15we could 100% do something
26:17because when it comes to that one day off,
26:19if I say, let's go swimming,
26:20you're like, it's my one day off of the week,
26:22I want to chill.
26:28He's never going to change,
26:29that's just the way Aaron is.
26:30He does what Aaron wants
26:31and he does his own thing,
26:33that's the way it is.
26:34So I've had to learn,
26:35I've just got to accept it
26:37if I want any time to myself ever.
26:39The only thing I'm dreading
26:40with your hours,
26:42and I am actually dreading this,
26:43is bedtimes.
26:44I'm going to be alone at bedtime.
26:46How am I going to put two babies
26:47to sleep at the same...
26:48Because they're going to be around the same age,
26:49they're going to be going to bed at the same time.
26:51He still needs cuddling to sleep,
26:53she'll need cuddling to sleep.
26:56How am I doing it?
26:57Either do a week off kind of thing,
27:01or just can't work late evenings anymore,
27:04till like 8, 9,
27:05stable o'clock time.
27:06Then that means having no days off,
27:08because your hours would get cut in half,
27:10doing that.
27:11But you've got...
27:12I mean, you know what I mean,
27:13I can't do anything about that.
27:14Or it's maybe looking into getting
27:15a different type of job.
27:17Stop cheffing.
27:18Why doesn't Daddy...
27:21do something else?
27:23Do you know?
27:25At least he sees now
27:27that there is a problem,
27:29but we're still not really
27:30any closer to finding a solution.
27:32I think something's got to change.
27:50Wow!
27:51Hello, look!
27:53Wow!
27:54New pants!
27:55Do you like them?
27:58Look, Teddy's got pants too!
27:59Yeah!
28:00I hope you've got pants!
28:02Yeah!
28:02Yeah, Muffy's wearing pants!
28:04Khalil's wearing pants!
28:05I'm on a mission
28:06to get Khalil toilet trained.
28:08Shik, shik, shik, shik, shik, shik, shik, shik, shik.
28:10But it's one step forward
28:12and two steps back at the moment.
28:14Let's look.
28:20oh dear don't you say oh dear what happened no no no stand there wait do not touch me i
28:26love you
28:26but do not touch me we had an accident no it's too late to use this one let me clean
28:34your bum bum
28:34please look you've already done the poo poo wait wait you need to tell mommy when you need to do
28:45poo poo is okay yeah today was one of the more frustrating days of toilet training whether
28:53kanil has accidents or not and i feel like giving up on some days like i'm obviously going to still
28:57persevere he's shown so many times that he's ready to use the toilet and it's just a case of us
29:02continuing continuing until he's finally got the hang of it so yeah we're going to persevere no matter
29:11what between juggling motherhood and college i don't get much time for myself but i've had an
29:16idea and i'm hoping i can change that so i've had this idea to do this whole mums club thing
29:21for a
29:22while and today i finally get to meet with the girls kid free so we can talk without any interruption
29:27hey how are you babe okay hey girls hi what time do you call this mate what time do you
29:36call this mate
29:42this is so nice this is my screaming children there's no mom mom mom oh yeah they look forward
29:48to that they'll tug at you like this mom mom that's why i'm excited for the newborn to just go
29:53out and
29:53just have her like just in the pram i miss the newborn stage you put them on the bed they
29:57don't
29:57move they're just nothing i was thinking we're gonna start a mom's club that sounds like a great
30:04idea just maybe an hour every week or every two weeks without our kids where we can do something
30:09yeah bond as mums yeah because as much as we see each other but we only we see each other
30:13with our
30:14kids we never actually get to do this very often even if it's just coming to a cafe talk about
30:18a week
30:18then go back to our feral kids yeah yeah i'm up for it i just want this to be a
30:27really fun thing
30:28for mums even if it just means an hour every fortnight or every week when we're all three
30:33with no kids we just go and do something fun for us cheers cheers to mom club
30:39cheers
30:57at first it was just me you and grandma and then mommy met jack and now it's gonna be me
31:04you jack jack and
31:04baby brother it's been a great sleepover reliving the old days when i was pregnant with elizabeth hope
31:14and still living at mom's it's been really nice and i think elizabeth hopes really enjoyed having
31:20all three of us together um because even though i don't think she remembers the time that we lived here
31:25now i think it's very much um in their subconscious memories in who she is today especially with who she
31:32is today with my mum but as nice as it's been jack's still away on his lads weekend so i'm
31:40really
31:40looking forward to getting home and having some chill time with elizabeth hope
31:48can you cut that up my my hand hey do you want to stay at grandma's tonight
32:00do you want to stay here tonight you're gonna have to now you've told me you will
32:12i can't say no if she wants to so do you want to stay here tonight with me and we'll
32:18have some fun me
32:19and you yeah okay deal am i being kicked out uh well you can stay but i'd prefer it if
32:28you weren't
32:28here because she goes to you for everything it's lovely having you here don't get me wrong but like
32:33i want to look after her and she doesn't come to me for anything when you're here yeah because she
32:38needs to look after me feels like i'm going in circles mum wants elizabeth hope again tonight to
32:44have a bit of one-on-one time with her um and obviously she has elizabeth hope first so because
32:51she has elizabeth hope first and elizabeth hope said yes that's what will happen i love that she
32:55won't spend time with her but it's my baby i'm not good at chat room
33:01i don't know if i should go or i should stay so what's your plan then i feel like i'm
33:08being
33:08kicked out no you're not being kicked out stay as long as you want but tonight i'm having her
33:15and then i'll just drop her off tomorrow
33:20i just think i definitely used to be the favorite child and um as soon as i birthed my own
33:26i got demoted
33:26from that spot very fast um mum wants elizabeth hope by herself tonight and obviously like if
33:33i start feeling unwell or whatever then i will come back um because i have a lot of anxiety about
33:39being alone because what if i'm in pain and i collapse and stuff like that so i don't know
33:51how to do this
33:53have a two feet for us
33:54no
33:54no
33:54oh
33:54no
33:55oh
33:55no
33:56no
33:56no
33:58no
33:59no
33:59no
34:00no
34:00no
34:01no
34:01no
34:02no
34:02no
34:02no
34:02no
34:03no
34:03no
34:03no
34:03no
34:03I want to go home.
34:06I want to get out of here.
34:07I want to get out of here.
34:10I want to get out of here.
34:13You'll know I've been waiting for years.
34:17I'm tired of waiting for you.
34:21Let's do this.
34:23Beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep.
34:25Me, Mum, and Tyler still aren't talking
34:27since he stormed out yesterday.
34:30I thought it would just blow over as we planned
34:32to give Carter his first bath tonight.
34:35But Tyler just texted, saying to go ahead without him.
34:39Obviously, I didn't think Tyler was going to call and help me.
34:43He said he doesn't want to, no.
34:44I'm really sad he's missing out on such a big moment.
34:47But even though I'm still not happy with how she spoke to Tyler,
34:50at least I know I can always rely on my mum to be there for us.
34:53I feel like putting her in water.
34:56But she will, aren't we?
34:57She'll always do it for me, no matter what.
34:59Are you smiling?
35:00Are you really, little monkey?
35:01Yeah.
35:02Grandma can't drive it.
35:04We're a bit stuck.
35:05What are you doing?
35:07I'm showing him right house.
35:09But I can't drive it, honestly.
35:12I message Tyler, obviously, saying, like,
35:14I'm going to bath him and that if you want to come.
35:16Oh, yeah.
35:17And you say you don't want to see me, I'll be there.
35:20All right, OK.
35:23I don't mean to help you bath him.
35:26He wants Mummy and Grandma to be friends.
35:30I know I've said something that are wrong things and I will try and make it right.
35:36It's not that easy just to forgive everything, though.
35:40Obviously, like, me and Leonie's still got a bit of making up to do and things like that.
35:44Oh, look at him.
35:46I don't want to wake him on the roll.
35:49But she knows, I know she knows, that it doesn't matter how many times we fall out.
35:56She can show it to Mum and I will come running.
35:59What am I doing?
36:00Nice to meet you.
36:10Oh, it's OK.
36:13I was absolutely made up.
36:14She asked me to help.
36:16She seemed really organised and everything.
36:18It gives me what, panicking more.
36:20But, yeah, I loved it. Loved it.
36:22You like that?
36:24Whee!
36:26Whee!
36:27It's good, isn't it?
36:28Ooh!
36:33Right, is he all right now?
36:34Yeah, it's a little washed, yeah.
36:36He's a little bit fresher, isn't he?
36:41How do you feel like Talyn's not been here for it?
36:44It hurts, but there's nothing about forcing to be here for it.
36:48Is it because, obviously, like, we fell out, me and him, or...?
36:51Is that what it's about, because of me and him?
36:53He doesn't feel like he can come into the house and see him.
36:55If you want, if you want to come round, I can nip out for an hour.
37:00I'm not sure, right?
37:01I know, but I know mine. I can nip out, can't I?
37:04You could explain to him, like, I know I'm out of order and...
37:08That's still not going to work, though, is it?
37:10But I'm trying to make things right from the big mess I've made.
37:17It's not going to be right now.
37:18What is he you actually want, though, now? Do you know?
37:21Most importantly, I want him to be there for the character.
37:24Yeah, but what about you and Talyn together?
37:27We're the last thing I'm thinking about at the minute.
37:29Are we close tonight? Or do we drift away?
37:34The fact that Tyler's not coming, I don't know,
37:36it's made me just feel a bit useless in that kind of way,
37:39cos I did think he'd still show up for him and stuff like that.
37:44It's a bit of a letdown, really.
37:47I don't know what the situation's with me and Tyler at the minute.
37:50He's meant to live here, but then, no, he's not living here.
37:53You start feeling me, I need to know what's happening, obviously.
37:57It's hard of doing it alone when I shouldn't be doing it alone.
38:16Teddy! That's dangerous!
38:19No, that's really, really dangerous.
38:22After I finally told Matt how I was feeling the other day,
38:25things are worse than ever.
38:27He's even told me to leave him if I'm not happy.
38:30Luckily, he works so much that I barely see him.
38:34When Matt says that if I'm not happy I should just leave,
38:37it makes me feel quite sad because I feel like the pressure's on me,
38:40like he's the one that was not happy,
38:43then he's made me unhappy because he was unhappy.
38:46And I just feel like we're just going around in circles
38:49and it just makes me feel so sad that he'd rather me just give up.
38:53We're going to go to Nanny's house,
38:54and we're going to go get some dinner.
38:56I don't know what's on the cards for mine and Matt's relationship,
38:59but I just think that's something that will come in time
39:01and after we'll figure out between us.
39:04We're going to my mum's to stay over tonight.
39:07I feel like I need to be around someone
39:09that actually wants to spend some time with me.
39:12Hello!
39:17Oh!
39:19Hi, Angie.
39:19How are you then? I see you really.
39:21I'm all right.
39:22What happened after you met up with Matt?
39:25He walked out on me.
39:27But he just didn't want that conversation.
39:29How has it been since then?
39:31He was like, you're clearly not happy, are you?
39:33And I was like, no, I'm not happy.
39:35He was like, you don't want to be with me anymore.
39:38You really don't want to be with me
39:39because the way you've been, you've never acted like this before.
39:42That's when you should turn around and say,
39:45you've made me feel like this.
39:47All I want in life is somebody to appreciate me for me.
39:51You did some damage.
39:55That should just be awful.
39:57That should be natural.
39:58It shouldn't...
39:58You should be saying that anyway.
40:00Am I asking for too much?
40:03I just get the feeling he's not happy
40:06and he doesn't want what he's got.
40:11I think it was absolutely disgusting
40:12the way Matt walked out on Angel
40:14when she was trying to have a conversation with him.
40:18She's not appreciated for what she does for the boys.
40:21And there's only a certain amount of time
40:23that she could put up with it.
40:24She deserves to feel loved and wanted
40:27and have a better life, really.
40:30I think we're stuck in a rut.
40:32Yeah.
40:33I don't think either of us wants to leave or admit...
40:35No, because it's scary.
40:36The next step is scary.
40:38It's not that, it's like...
40:39And it's not like I want to...
40:40I wanted it to change and I was still...
40:43I just don't want to say anything
40:44because I'm hoping it all goes back to normal.
40:47I know, love for that.
40:48Don't you make me cry
40:49because that's how I did it for years.
40:53If I stay, like, I feel like I'm wasting so much of myself.
40:59But if I go, I feel like I'm...
41:01not giving the boys the life they deserve.
41:05Yeah.
41:08But listen, I just feel like they need a family life, like...
41:12Yeah, but Angel, a happy family life.
41:14They don't need that, the feeling, the...
41:16the energy in the room.
41:17Yeah.
41:25I feel alone and I'm in a relationship.
41:28Well, there you go.
41:29That's your answer's there, isn't it?
41:42Well, there you go.
41:57That's your answer's there, isn't it?
41:57Yeah.
41:58It's a big jungle.
41:59I love these.
42:01Yeah.
42:05I just said give me two minutes.
42:06No, it's right, I was just...
42:07I was just trying to get in the bag out for you.
42:09You're swearing under your breath at me.
42:11My head's telling me to go and just do it on my own,
42:15because...
42:15I'd be happier.
42:17I do have a little surprise that I've been meaning to tell you.
42:20I have booked us a holiday.
42:21You're not getting holiday from me while I'm a student.
42:24We need to build better people.
42:26But it's not just me, it's you as well.
42:29It's the both of us.
42:29Right, so what do I need to start at? You tell me that.
42:32Your attitude.
42:33I don't want anyone touching any decorations until I am done,
42:36because if anything gets broken or ruined,
42:37I'm not going to be happy.
42:39There's definitely tension up in the air.
42:42Everything is ruined!
42:44So I'm going to be doing it on Saturday.
42:46Wow.
42:47I'm going to be proposing.
42:49Oh my God, I can't believe it.
42:51I'm so excited for you, though.
42:53I'm here for the ride.
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43:09Bye.
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