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00:25Puff Puff Puff
00:30Puff your cares away
00:38Puff Puff Puff
00:42Night and day
00:51Blow, blow then through the air
00:56Silky little rings
01:03Those little smoke rings
01:10Hi
01:12Hey
01:15How was the thing?
01:20Oh, you know
01:23It was a journalist's book party in midtown
01:28How do you think it was?
01:31Utterly fine?
01:32Violently fine
01:35Anthony dropped by for a bit
01:37Yeah? How'd he look?
01:39Frail
01:40Wonder why he bothered showing up
01:42Life is for the living
01:44Does that constitute living? A journalist's book party in midtown?
01:48I had fun
01:52Did you?
01:53Yeah
01:55Although I did get trapped for about 20 minutes by that artist lady who wears those hats
01:59Lizzy is a publicist
02:01The reason you think she's an artist is because she's a good publicist
02:12What are you doing?
02:13What does it look like I'm doing?
02:17I love this song
02:26You know what else I love?
02:30I love you
02:36I love you
02:37I love you too
02:43Tonight would have been so much more fun if you were there
02:47Everything's more fun when I'm there
02:50That's usually true
02:54You know I think this is the first song we ever danced to
02:58God we barely knew each other then
03:01I knew you
03:02I knew who you were
03:03Yeah?
03:04You were fearless
03:05Oh no I was terrified
03:10The way you used to walk into a room just to own it
03:16Used to?
03:18No you know what I mean
03:22Baby
03:23I missed you tonight
03:27Everyone was asking where you were
03:30It's hard to keep track of all the excuses at this point
03:43You hungry? I don't want the food to get cold
04:04I'm sorry I wasn't trying to guilt trip you
04:08I just missed you
04:12I mean it was a completely mediocre book party in Midtown
04:15I...
04:15It really doesn't sound like I missed much
04:17I mean, right?
04:23If you were so desperate to see me you would have just skipped it to see me
04:26And the fact that it didn't even occur to you as an option
04:29Makes me feel like this isn't just about us spending time together
04:31But about
04:32People
04:33Seeing us spend time together
04:36Just
04:37I hate showing up to these things alone
04:41Because of what people will say?
04:42No
04:43No
04:45Well obviously that's part of it
04:47You know what happens anytime I show up to these things alone
04:51It's another headline stating that we're headed for divorce
04:54Well, I mean at this point they're going to write a story no matter what
04:57Exactly
04:59Damned if we do, damned if we don't
05:02Right, I just, I feel like we're saying the same thing here
05:04All I'm saying is I'd like to spend time with you outside of this loft
05:14I have a crazy idea
05:16A plate?
05:17Let's go on a trip
05:19What kind of a trip?
05:20Any kind of trip you want
05:21Mm
05:23Paris
05:24Belize
05:25Tahiti
05:25Tahiti?
05:26Yeah, Tahiti
05:26Just you, me, the beach
05:29No parties, no obligation, no press
05:32No clothes
05:33Caroline
05:34I'm serious
05:38Maybe after the holidays
05:40After the holidays, John, it's August
05:42It's August 30th
05:44It's essentially September
05:46We have the Delancey Street Foundation dinner in San Francisco
05:49Mm-hmm
05:50Back to New York for Fashion Week
05:51Then I have the Cuba trip
05:53After that we're in the Vineyard
05:55Straight to Red Gate
05:56Then we're back in the city for Terry and Valerie's Halloween party
05:59November is the Georgia anniversary dinner
06:02Thanksgiving at Hyannis
06:03Christmas with the cousins
06:04Your birthday in January
06:06Figured you'd want to be with friends
06:07But yeah, the trip sounds nice
06:12Okay, so what you're saying is we can't go on vacation until 1998?
06:16Of course not
06:18We have Hyannis next weekend, remember?
06:23Fuck me, I forgot
06:28You know, a lot of people consider the Cape to be one of the most beautiful areas of the country
06:33Yeah, I'm aware of that
06:34I don't have a problem with the Cape, it's a compound
06:37What about it?
06:39Come on
06:40No, let's hear it
06:42Out with it
06:45Um, it's not relaxing
06:47Every minute of the day is accounted for
06:48We can't sleep in, we can't sit on the beach, we can't go for a walk
06:53There's no privacy so we'd never have sex
06:55Oh, there's never enough hot water, which is frankly mind-boggling given the marvel that is modern plumbing
07:01And even in the height of summer, it's always cold
07:04How?
07:05And there are all these insane, unwritten rules
07:09Like, uh, board games are verboten, but playing cards are encouraged
07:14What's the difference?
07:15Oh, and yogurt at breakfast is sensible, but yogurt at lunch is, and I'm quoting your cousin here
07:21Some Weight Watchers shit
07:23Oh, and that, um, that rule about no TV during the day
07:27Well, that's not a rule, it's just, do you want to watch TV during the day?
07:32I want the option
07:35Spending your day in front of the TV on a beautiful summer's day is just wasteful
07:39So it is a rule?
07:41It's a norm
07:42Oh, there is nothing norm about it, trust me
07:45Everyone shoots me these judgmental looks whenever I read magazines
07:48And before you say that Caroline reads magazines all the time, too, let me interrupt your interruption and say that
07:54Caroline reads The New Republic
07:56And, well, technically, yes, that's a magazine
07:58Spiritually, it's a book
08:01Bogue, that's a magazine
08:03And don't think I haven't noticed the expectant looks on everyone's faces when I abstain from a cocktail
08:07I am basically guzzling Dark and Stormy's prophylactically at this point
08:11I have to drink or else people will think I'm pregnant
08:14You think I'm joking, but I'm serious
08:16I just feel like I'm on display
08:18Like there's this sense of visibility
08:20Like my body is this living, breathing report card broadcasting the state of our relationship
08:27You could always drink a sea breeze
08:30And the clams
08:31The clams
08:31Over Fourth of July weekend, your family had five clam bakes over three days
08:35Six, actually
08:37We had a midnight clam bake, but I let you sleep through that one
08:40Who wants clams at midnight? That's diabolical, that's sadistic
08:44Okay, okay, I hear you
08:47Hyannis can be specific
08:48No, I believe I said sadistic
08:52I like spending time with our family, I'm sorry
08:54John, they're your family
08:55They're your family, too
08:56Family's important
08:57Yeah, you and me, we're family
09:08Hello?
09:11What?
09:12What happened?
09:17Lauren, slow down, you're scaring me
09:19What's going on?
09:20What?
09:25What channel?
09:27Will you?
09:30Yeah, okay, let me call you back, alright?
09:32Love you, bye
09:35An update now on the condition of Princess Diana, who was involved in a traffic accident in Paris this evening
09:41She is in serious condition, she was driving with her companion Dodie Al Fayette
09:45He, according to police officials, died in the accident
09:49Along with the chauffeur
09:50The princess's bodyguard was also injured, we don't know his condition at this hour
09:54Oh my god
09:55The accident happened as Diana's car was being pursued by a group of paparazzi on motorcycles as they enter the
10:01tunnel
10:01I just saw her
10:03What?
10:03At Johnny's funeral, I sat right behind her
10:06She has been monitoring Paris for any new information
10:09Nina, can you hear me?
10:11Yes, I can
10:12Dodie Al Fayette, obviously a famous man, a millionaire as well
10:15Do you have any news of his condition?
10:17We have police reports and others saying that he is in fact
10:20Well, all we know at this moment is that he has, in fact, been killed as well as he wanted
10:26Princess Diana, for instance, to care the injured as well as bodyguards
10:30Do we know the nature of her injury?
10:32Carolyn!
10:34Carolyn!
10:35Yeah?
10:36The glasses in the dishwasher, are they clean?
10:40What?
10:42The glasses in the dishwasher, are they clean?
10:45I-I don't know
10:46What?
10:47From Buckingham Palace
10:48You don't know if you ran the dishwasher or not?
10:50I-I-what?
10:51I don't understand how you don't know, you either ran it or you didn't
10:53Why are you asking-
10:54You've been home all day!
10:56Do you remember hearing the dishwasher?
10:57Yes, I did a dishwasher!
10:59So they've gotten out recently
11:01The Paparazzi, of course, have been trying to photograph this by Anna, who's going to eat up by a famous
11:06millionaire with whom she had been in a romantic relationship for the last couple of weeks
11:10Had they been generating a fair bit of publicity while they were in Paris? Did most people know they were
11:15there?
11:15Oh, yes, there has been an extraordinary amount of traffic and media
11:21What can you tell us about the area where this accident occurred around the entrance rent to the home?
11:27It's an accident bridge to the underground tunnel that goes under the Seine River
11:31It's an area of well-known, I'm sure, and so it's a very well-populated area
11:37Let's go back to the Seine River wreckage
11:39There is a recognizable back end of the Mercedes sedan
11:43And there is the unrecognizable front end of what must have been a high-speed collision
11:48In the front part of the car, the two flashes of white there are the deployed airbags
11:53The remnants of the airbags
11:56Princess Diana is unmatched when it comes to generating interest
11:59And indeed cash for deserving project
12:01Going for a run
12:04What?
12:09John!
12:10I'll be back in a bit
12:11This is Amy Colau
12:14I'm your first sighted mission
12:15Diana has recently joined the tokyo
12:22From my sleep
12:26We tried
12:28My tears
12:35Today
12:35A private holiday was filmed by the Italian paparazzi
12:38We are scared
12:39We are now launching the photographs to the highest bidder
12:41We will continue...
12:43We are scared
12:52Breathe
12:57Keep breathing
13:00I can't do anything
13:05Oh
13:20You can't
13:26You're spine
13:28You're
13:30Now
13:35Over
13:40Rosy
13:43Heirs
13:45Down
13:46I'm joking out with one.
13:57And there's a place in peace with all that you trust, that you trust.
14:29I'm joking out with one.
14:47She's dead.
14:56They killed her.
14:59She did everything right, posed for every photo, gave them everything they wanted.
15:06They still killed her.
15:10It was very sad.
15:12It was monstrous.
15:13It was a battle they lost.
15:15She was their princess and they treated her like prey.
15:23I've got to clean my face off.
15:26I'm joking.
15:35I'm joking.
15:39You know, I think there's something really macabre about watching this shit when right now,
15:44halfway across the world, someone is waking up her kids before they find out their parent
15:48is dead on TV.
15:48He and the First Lady have sent their condolences to Buckingham Palace.
15:54There are reports that the royal family, that they are at all morrow in Scotland.
16:02I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you.
16:05I'm sorry.
16:07I'm sorry.
16:19I'm sorry.
16:22I'm sorry.
16:23They both love each other.
16:26Like you and Caroline.
16:28Like me and Caroline?
16:29Yeah.
16:31This is nothing like what me and Caroline went through.
16:35They're princes.
16:36They're members of a monarchy.
16:38I was three when my dad died.
16:40I grew up 60 blocks from here.
16:41I rode my bike to his school.
16:43It was night and day.
16:46okay
16:52you're telling me it wasn't like that
16:56what was it like
17:00i don't want to talk about it
17:01john
17:03you're making assumptions and trying to tell me what my own childhood was like
17:07and i have everyone else in the world to do that for me without having to hear it from my
17:10own wife
17:22john
17:25i'm just trying to understand
17:29does it not scare you
17:41john
17:44fine
17:47you want to know what i'm so scared of
17:49what's going through my head what i was thinking about the entire time during my jog
17:54that you are never going to leave the house again
17:57do i see the parallels between what we deal with and what happened to her
18:01of course i do
18:02but can i say that
18:04no
18:04it'll just be one more thing that's going to stop you from living your life
18:11you want to know why i can't watch this
18:15because if i do i'll never fucking stop
18:18okay
18:35do you want to hear about my childhood
18:37i don't remember my dad dying at all but what i remember vividly is my mom being basically
18:45in a trance and the hours that caroline and the nanny and i spent while my mom was locked away
18:50in a dark room crying alone
19:01why couldn't she just play with me
19:09it was my mother i watched die not my dad
19:14and i watched her die twice
19:23and now it feels like i'm watching you slip away
19:27you're choosing the darkness
19:30i'm watching it happen i feel like i'm being abandoned again
19:35i can't lose you
19:37you're the one person i can't lose do you understand that
19:40i've lost so many people in my life
19:42and i can't lose you
19:44i can't i can't lose you
19:46i can't
19:47i can't
19:48i can't
19:56i can't
19:56i can't lose you carolyn
19:57i can't lose you carolyn
19:59just breathe
20:03i'm not going anywhere
20:09just breathe
20:29you
20:33now you should
20:37smile
20:38Oh, your heart is aching
20:44Smile, even though it's breaking
20:54When there are clouds
20:58Way up in the sky
21:03You're gonna get by
21:08That's the time
21:11You must keep on trying
21:16Oh, you gotta smile
21:19What's the use of crying
21:25You'll find that life is still
21:33Worth the while
21:39If you just smile
21:47Come on
21:50Now show me a little smile
22:00You're gonna hurt yourself
22:04You sure you don't want a hand?
22:05No, I'm good
22:11God, we went through so much wine
22:13Uh-huh
22:32Hey, Jason, it's John
22:34My dinner's done
22:36Just at home
22:37Give me a call whenever
22:41Why are you calling your Floyd instructor?
22:43What are you talking about?
22:44I talk to him all the time
22:47I have to log 40 more hours
22:49Before I'm instrument rated
22:51You just crashed flying
22:53That ridiculous llama or contraption
22:54I think it's obvious
22:55You need a bit more time than that
22:56It's called a Buckeye
22:57And it's an entirely different machine
23:00Buckeyes have nothing to do
23:01With airplanes
23:04Didn't you promise Caroline
23:05You were done with flying?
23:06Since when are you so concerned
23:07With what Caroline wants?
23:14What are you doing?
23:16I want my cigarettes
23:17No, just sit, sit
23:18I'll get them for you
23:19I don't want you hobbling up the stairs
23:22They're not up the stairs
23:23They're in my room
23:40You know, if we left now
23:41We could probably catch the tail end
23:43Of that Vanity Fair party at Pravda
23:46John
23:47You're not supposed to be putting
23:48Any pressure on that ankle
23:50No parties, no stairs, no flying lessons
23:53Well, we'll take a cab
23:54I can sit when I get there
23:59Ugh, fuck
24:00I'm wiped, but
24:02If you want to go, you should go
24:04Wiped?
24:05It's not even 11
24:11Can you please stop at the candle?
24:13Wait, is this a fight right now?
24:18No, I'm fine
24:19What?
24:20What now?
24:25Fine, if you want me to sit here
24:26And beg you for it, I will
24:28Or you can just
24:29Fast forward to the part
24:30Where you tell me exactly
24:31How it is I fucked up
24:36You told me to go work for Petra
24:40When?
24:40Uh, 30 minutes ago
24:41At this dinner party
24:42You insisted on hosting
24:45Petra was complaining
24:46About how difficult it is
24:47To find anyone with work experience
24:49Willing to build something
24:50From the ground up
24:50And accept a pay cut
24:51And you started yelling at me
24:53Oh, I did not yell
24:53Yeah, John, you were literally yelling
24:55And I know that
24:56Because you were seated
24:56At the other end of the table
24:57All I said was that you had fashion experience
25:00And you didn't need money
25:01PR
25:04I have PR experience
25:06At Calvin Klein
25:08Isn't that fashion?
25:09That's fashion
25:10Petra has a jewelry line, John
25:12I'm not a jewelry designer
25:13Well, I'm sorry for insinuating
25:15That you have great taste
25:16Yet that qualifies me to buy jewelry
25:18Not make it
25:25It's humiliating
25:26Getting pitched for job
25:28After job
25:29Regardless of my interest or qualifications
25:31When have I ever been
25:32You do it all the time
25:32I mean, you practically shoved me
25:34Into Andre Leon Talley's lap
25:35At that fundraiser
25:36Oh, I did not
25:37John, yes, you did
25:38You amaze me feel like
25:40I am this dead weight
25:41That you are desperate to shed
25:42You're just
25:44You're
25:45Getting wax
25:45All over the table
25:47I thought you hated this table
25:58What did you mean
25:59I insisted on
26:00Hosting this dinner party
26:01It was your idea
26:02Wasn't it?
26:03Well, I knew better
26:03Than to suggest
26:04We go to a restaurant
26:05Or anywhere else
26:06Other than this apartment
26:07Are you seriously that upset
26:09That I organized
26:10A dinner party
26:10For your friends?
26:12Really bothers me
26:13When you do that
26:15Do what?
26:16Delineate between my friends
26:18And your friends
26:19We're a unit, John
26:20They're our friends
26:25Okay, Caroline
26:29Pronoun rescinded
26:30What are you doing?
26:31Sorry if my grammar offended you
26:42You seemed perfectly happy
26:44Holding court with my friends
26:46Yeah, well, they were
26:47Bombarding me with questions
26:52Yes
26:55To be honest
26:56I think people
26:57Are uncomfortable
26:59Asking you about
27:01What's going on
27:01In your life
27:02Because they're
27:02Not sure if you
27:03Want to talk about it
27:04What do you mean
27:05What's going on
27:05In my life?
27:07You know
27:08That you're still
27:09Trying to figure out
27:10Your thing
27:11My thing
27:15Enough with this
27:16Relentless pressure
27:17To have a thing
27:18Why do I have to have a thing?
27:20It's all I hear about
27:21From your family
27:22And your friends
27:23And the press
27:24And especially you
27:25Because it's not enough
27:26To just be a Kennedy
27:26No
27:27You know
27:28You have to work
27:28At the NRDC
27:29Or make a documentary
27:29Or write a book
27:30About constitutional law
27:32I'm 33 years old
27:35I've been working
27:35Since I'm 15
27:36Can't my thing
27:37Just be
27:37Like taking a beat
27:38To settle into my marriage
27:39And enjoy my life?
27:40Is that what you're doing
27:41All day alone
27:42In the apartment?
27:43Enjoying your life?
27:47I'm figuring it out
27:49And in the meantime
27:50I don't want to just
27:50Join some board
27:51Because it would make
27:52You feel better
27:52When people ask me
27:53What I do at dinner parties
27:55I would think you
27:55Of all people
27:56Should be able to
27:56Understand this
27:57Me of all people?
27:58Yes John
27:58You of all people
27:59Should know what this is like
28:01Instead you just come at me
28:03With all this unhelpful help
28:04It's become a full time job
28:05Just batting away
28:07This constant barrage
28:09Of indiscriminate suggestions
28:10On how to fill my days
28:11And I feel guilty
28:17Because I know you think
28:18You're trying to be helpful
28:19But it doesn't
28:21It doesn't feel helpful
28:24It feels like you're judging me
28:26So what am I supposed to do
28:28When you complain about
28:29How unmoored your life feels?
28:31Just sit there
28:32And say nothing?
28:34Yes, yes
28:35Just say nothing
28:37Just
28:39Just listen
28:42That's what I need from you
28:43I just need you to sit
28:44And listen
28:45And let me feel lost
28:46Can I
28:46But can I just
28:49Feel lost?
28:51Can you please allow me
28:53The space to do that?
28:55Yes
28:56Yes, I can do that
28:58Okay
29:01You know, look
29:03I get that it's daunting
29:04To start over
29:05But just look at my mom
29:06Oh my god
29:09She was a lifelong reader
29:10Who became a book editor
29:11At the age of 46
29:12Yeah, I know
29:14I know
29:14All I'm saying is
29:16That she figured it out
29:17Despite public scrutiny
29:18Or the threat
29:19Of public scrutiny
29:20John
29:20It is impossible
29:21For me to overstate
29:23Just how aware I am
29:23That your mother
29:24Was a very impressive woman
29:26Believe me
29:26Okay
29:28But do you think
29:29Your mother could have
29:30Held a 9 to 5 job
29:30In publishing
29:31When she was married
29:32To the most famous man
29:33On the planet?
29:34She did that
29:35When she was a widow
29:36Enough
29:36Enough about my mother
29:38Look, John
29:38You brought her up
29:39And now I'm saying
29:40To drop it
29:40Well, you certainly
29:41Mentioned my mother
29:41Yeah, well
29:42Your mother's still here
29:42To defend herself
29:43You know, you don't know
29:44How lucky you are
29:45That I never introduced you
29:46To my mother
29:46Because she never
29:47Would have encouraged this
29:49Us
29:59Wow
30:00I mean, it's not like
30:01I would have listened to her
30:02No, no, yeah
30:03Sure
30:08Maybe I should have
30:09Listened to mine
30:10What?
30:11My mother basically told me
30:13I should end this
30:14When?
30:17At the wedding
30:18Oh, right
30:19This speech
30:20No, no
30:21It was earlier
30:24That afternoon
30:25What are you talking about?
30:28Carolyn
30:31Carolyn
30:32What are you talking about?
30:35Carolyn
30:36My mother came into my room
30:37The day of our rehearsal dinner
30:39And warned me not to marry you
30:42She said that you would never prioritize me
30:44That you'd always choose your job
30:46Or your family
30:47Or yourself
30:48I do prioritize me
30:49That you would never make space for me
30:50In your life
30:53When I pushed back on her
30:54I told her she was wrong
30:55And now
30:56Now
30:56I don't know
30:57Carolyn
30:58I do make space for you
30:59No, John
31:00John
31:00I know you think you do
31:01But you're always out
31:04You come home at 11
31:05Midnight
31:06Last night you were home at 3 a.m
31:08Yeah, we're closing the August issue of George
31:10You're always
31:14You're always closing the magazine
31:16Or you're out getting drinks to celebrate closing the magazine
31:20Or you're chasing some writer or investor
31:22Or you're tearing up the layout
31:24And if it's not the magazine
31:25It's a Kennedy benefit
31:26Or a fundraiser
31:27Or a Senate run
31:29So you don't support it
31:34I support you
31:38And I'd support it if I really thought it was something you believed in
31:41But everything for you comes out of this misplaced sense of obligation
31:46Like your lunch idea
31:47I specifically set aside two lunches a week so that I can spend time with you
31:51That's not the same as wanting to spend time with me
31:54It's literally the same thing
31:55No, lunch is a checkbox
31:58It's something you can tell yourself to absolve yourself of guilt
32:00What guilt?
32:01You don't want to be around me
32:05You don't want to talk to me
32:06Half the time you're sleeping in the other room
32:08I talk to you all the time
32:09No, John
32:10You're not interested in me
32:12You don't solicit my advice
32:14You're not fascinated by what I want to say
32:16You're not curious about me
32:18You talk to me just long enough to keep the peace
32:20Just long enough to prevent more conversation
32:25You used to be desperate to spend every single second with me
32:28And now you treat our marriage like it's this layover
32:30Between places that you really want to be
32:34And I get it
32:38I imagine it's tough seeing how unhappy you make me
32:51You know what?
32:53It is
33:00And that's all I seem to be capable of lately
33:05Is disappointing people
33:07I spend all day fighting with publishers, investors, bankers
33:11All telling me to take my magazine out back and shoot it in the head
33:15And then I come home and I fight with you
33:17About how I'm never home
33:19And then I go to bed each night
33:21Dreading the moment I get up and having to do it all over again
33:23And the worst part about it is that I want to talk to you about all of this
33:27But you feel a million miles away
33:29You're here, but you're not here
33:33And I miss you, Carolyn
33:35I miss the person I fell in love with
33:37John, I'm right here
33:41I am the person you fell in love with
33:46But you don't want this version of me
33:47You want the cold, unattainable, shiny version
33:51The version of me that's like a trophy
33:54The moment I started being vulnerable with you
33:56You think you're vulnerable with me?
34:00To be vulnerable, you'd actually have to want something
34:02Need something
34:04The only thing you seem to want to do is tell me again
34:06And again and again how much you hate our life
34:09I knew it, I knew it
34:10I should never have let my guard down
34:11I broke my own rule
34:12I'm so dumb
34:15I've just been bracing myself
34:17For what?
34:18Oh, I'm always bracing myself, John
34:19I have spent my entire life
34:21Just bracing myself for these terrible things to happen to me
34:24And deal with them alone
34:25And this is no different from any of that
34:29You knew who I was before you married me
34:31I wish people would stop telling me that
34:34No one knows who they're marrying
34:37Apparently not
34:44People are supposed to change, John
34:47I didn't
34:50You say that like it's a virtue
34:51Like it's somehow commendable
34:55You haven't made any space for me in your life
34:57Tell me one thing that you have changed in your life
35:00Since we've been married
35:01You live in the same loft
35:02You have the same job
35:03The same friends
35:04You spend the same weekends at Red Gate
35:05Or Hyannis
35:06The same schedule
35:10Everything in my life has changed
35:12Do you understand that?
35:13That's your choice
35:16You act like every misfortune in your life
35:18Is the result of some ultimatum I've given you
35:20Like you have zero agency in this relationship
35:22I didn't make you quit your job
35:25I didn't make you marry me
35:26I didn't tell you to let the tabloids ruin your life
35:29But you know what?
35:30I think there's a part of you that enjoys this shit with the press
35:32Excuse me?
35:33Yeah
35:33So you can lord it over me
35:35Punish me with it
35:36Fault me endlessly for not controlling things outside of my control
35:40You relish it
35:41It's like you have no identity outside of your own victimhood
35:44Thank you
35:46Thank you
35:46You love how hated I am
35:48Of course you do
35:49Because you're America's son
35:50And I am just another tragedy you bravely endure
36:02Well
36:03Yeah
36:04I think I may have hit my limit
36:10What are you talking about?
36:18John
36:19What are you talking about?
36:21Maybe I've endured
36:22Enough tragedy for one lifetime
36:34John
36:34John, come back
36:38John
36:40John, what are you doing?
36:46I can't keep doing this
36:51What are you talking about?
36:53Doing what?
36:54What are you talking about?
36:56Everything and everyone I touch falls apart
36:58And now this is falling apart too
37:00And I just think that if I stay
37:01I'm going to do or say something that I regret
37:04Like what?
37:05Like what, John?
37:07I'll be at the stand hope just a day or two
37:09No, John, just say what you were going to say
37:13There is nothing you can say to me
37:14That would hurt me more than you walking out that door
37:18Do you know what it's like
37:19To see it in your eyes
37:20That I'm failing at this marriage
37:22Like I failed as a lawyer
37:23And now I'm failing as a magazine editor
37:26I couldn't help my mom
37:28And I can't help Anthony
37:30And I don't think I can handle another failure right now
37:32No, John
37:36When I told you everything ends
37:38You said not us
37:41What happened to not us, John?
37:44What happened to not us?
37:45What happened to not us?
37:46What happened to not us?
37:50What happened to not us?
37:53When I told you everything ends
37:55You said not us
37:56What happened to not us?
38:04This isn't ending
38:06Yes, it is
38:09You're running away
38:10I don't want to keep hurting you, Carolyn
38:13I want to be with you
38:15Then be with me
38:16I don't want to fight
38:20You have to
38:23That's what people do
38:24They fight
38:25They stay
38:25They fight
38:26If we keep fighting
38:27We're going to lose each other
38:30Please don't leave me
38:33Please
38:42Please don't prove my mother right
38:52I'm coming back
38:54I promise
39:03I love you
39:05I don't want to be with you
39:05I don't want to be with you
39:07I don't want to be with you
39:07I don't want to be with you
39:08I don't want to be with you
39:09I don't want to be with you
39:11I don't want to be with you
39:13I don't want to be with you
39:18I don't want to be with you
39:21I don't want to be with you
39:22I don't want to be with you
39:22I don't want to be with you
39:24I don't want to be with you
39:25I don't want to be with you
39:25I don't want to be with you
39:28I don't want to be with you
39:34I don't want to be with you
39:41Oh, my God.
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