00:26I was raised on slam doors
00:29And bad advice
00:33Learned early how to live without a conscience
00:36I don't flinch when the truth gets ugly
00:39I just drink it down and call it honest
00:42I left records in my rearview mirror
00:45Names I don't say, places I won't go
00:48I don't pray cause I don't trust heaven
00:51And hell already knows me well
00:55I won't kill like a second skin
00:58Yeah, if it's a little too damn good
01:04I've been bad so long
01:06It feels like home
01:08Like a loaded gun in my head
01:11I don't dream about being forgiven
01:14I just wanna die a better man
01:17I've crossed lines I can't uncross
01:20Lift fires I can't outrun
01:23I ain't chasing light or salvation
01:26I'm just trying not to burn everyone
01:42I broke hearts like I broke knuckles
01:47One hit at a time, no hesitation
01:49I called survival freedom
01:53Called destruction reputation
01:56I slept with ghosts and bad decisions
01:59Woke up shaking out of shame
02:02You don't learn to change in comfort
02:06You learn when the pain won't leave
02:08I don't expect the past to forget
02:11I just want the future to flinch less
02:14I've been bad so long
02:17It feels like home
02:19Like a blade I know too well
02:21I don't need redemption speeches
02:24I've heard every lie I tell
02:27I've crossed lines I can't uncross
02:31Left blood on the sun
02:34I ain't chasing light or salvation
02:37I'm just trying not to burn everyone
02:40Yeah
02:41Change ain't mercy, it's a sentence
02:44You carry every step you take
02:48It's choosing to stop pulling triggers
02:50Even when the world deserves a brain
02:53If I fall, I fall for it
02:56If I fail, it's on me
02:59I don't need clean hands or forgiveness
03:02I just need to stop being the enemy
03:05I've been bad so long
03:08It feels like fate
03:10Like this mark won't wash away
03:12But I'm done letting my worst instincts
03:15Decide how I am in my days
03:18I walk this road with my demons
03:22No flags, no second chances
03:25I ain't asking to be saved
03:28I'm just trying not to leave more ashes
03:36I'm just trying not to leave more ashes
03:40I'm just trying not to leave more ashes
03:42Oh, I was bad
03:50Still am
03:54But tonight I don't put the mattress back
03:58I'm just trying not to leave more ashes
04:03I step in and I'll stay
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