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00:04we're not friends
00:08what the fuck is going on
00:11what the fuck you just said that to me
00:13that you don't feel like we're friends
00:14okay then fuck you
00:16holy shit
00:26to be honest I'm not surprised
00:28with the way that Whitney's acting right now
00:31and this is just reconfirmed to me
00:33why I have kept my distance
00:36Kayla will you just talk to me
00:38and just did I do something
00:39like genuinely what happened
00:41if so she was upset because
00:43Jen didn't say congrats on her
00:45getting Chicago
00:46therapy's expensive I'm gonna send Whitney my bill
00:49after this conversation
00:51what did she tell you
00:53Zach told me last week
00:55oh and you just haven't said anything
00:57and I just haven't texted her
00:58I've told her in person
00:59but she's upset that I didn't tell her
01:01when you knew
01:02when I knew
01:03if someone posts
01:04I'm literally terrified
01:05to not comment on somebody's post
01:06because I feel like we have this expectation now
01:08like if I'm not like showing complete
01:10and it's probably that
01:11I mean I don't want to hear it
01:13like it's my fault
01:14this Whitney and Jen drama
01:16definitely makes me feel like
01:17I'm back at the CMA drama
01:18from last year
01:19I posted about my CMAs
01:21not a single one of my friends
01:23from MomTalk
01:23said a single thing about it
01:25or commented
01:26to hear nothing
01:27like what the fuck
01:28I think all the cool opportunities
01:29we're getting are great
01:31but I also think it has potential
01:32to pull us away
01:33from why we're in MomTalk
01:34to begin with
01:35and make us lose sight
01:36of the genuine friendships
01:38it's hard to balance it all
01:40but if we don't have our friendships
01:42what is this all for?
01:44I see where Whitney's upset
01:46but to be honest
01:47I don't feel like our friendship
01:48has been genuine
01:49to be honest
01:49I think it's very much
01:50been transactional and fake
01:53and I feel like
01:54in order to protect my energy
01:56I've been just being cordial
01:59this whole time
01:59because I don't have the time
02:00or none of us do
02:01there's a lot of competition
02:03and jealousy
02:03between Whitney and Jen right now
02:05and that's where this is all stemming from
02:06but MomTalk does not need
02:08to be dealing with this right now
02:09as we kind of grow in popularity
02:11we're getting more and more offers
02:13like Taylor with the Bachelorette coming up
02:14and when we start getting more exposure
02:17and more opportunities
02:18I do worry it may drive us apart
02:20it's all transactional
02:22she's saying like
02:23I don't care about her
02:24I'm like you don't care about any of us either
02:26you only came back for Dancing with the Stars
02:28I am feeling like
02:30so heated right now
02:32I don't even know
02:33if people are backing me up
02:35or people backing Jen up
02:36but if there is one thing
02:38that I have learned
02:38being a part of this group
02:39is that something is bound to happen
02:43but the show must go on
02:44come ye saints and come ye sinners
02:56alleluia
02:57listen up
02:59I'm the one you've been dreaming of
03:02I got everything you could ever want
03:06try me in your sleep
03:08I'll bring you to your knees
03:10baby you're gonna believe
03:22okay
03:23music
03:25music
03:30so
03:48would you love me when i'm broken and i'm hopeless when the race starts
04:00I know, me too, dude.
04:05After finding out about Dakota and Shania, I feel completely fucked over.
04:10And not only that, but I am on empty.
04:12This is not the headspace I wanted to be walking into The Bachelor.
04:15I think it was very deliberate.
04:16I need to start packing, though, so I'm going to grab my suitcases.
04:20I mean, Dakota knew what this would do.
04:21He's not fucking stupid.
04:23But, uh, it's just, it's, yeah, it sucks.
04:28Hey!
04:30Oh, yep, get on in.
04:31You're going with me, huh?
04:33What's your expectations?
04:35Are you nervous?
04:36It's okay to be nervous.
04:38I'm nervous for you.
04:39I don't have any.
04:41I don't have any going in that way.
04:43It's like, whatever happens is going to happen.
04:45There's a part of me that even wonders if I'm capable of doing this,
04:48given the recent events.
04:50And then there's another part of me that's like,
04:51well, you already said you're going to do it.
04:53You need to do it.
04:53So pull through.
04:54So kind of very chaotic in the head for sure,
04:58which is no secret to anybody, I guess, at this point.
05:00I'm so excited for you.
05:02This is going to be something, like, so fun and challenging and emotional, too.
05:08And I just hope that you can, like, handle all of it.
05:12Honestly, like, I can't imagine more chaos than I'm already living.
05:17So I'll never say that.
05:45Good morning.
05:48Good morning.
05:50What's up?
05:51How are you feeling?
05:52I need to stay off my phone.
05:54Yeah, you really need to stay off social media right now.
05:57Yeah.
05:58I know you've cried most of the night.
06:02Last night I got eliminated.
06:05And to be honest, I am devastated and very much surprised.
06:09The couple going home is...
06:15Jen and Yan.
06:19Just like, it's like a pit in my stomach.
06:21Like, I dreamt of this moment, like, my whole life.
06:26And the fact that it's, like, over just like that, it just...
06:31It feels just, like, weird.
06:33Yeah.
06:34Like, the positives even hurt more because it's, like, those memories and...
06:37Yeah.
06:38You can be sad, but you also, you have to be proud of yourself because you wanted to inspire
06:43people.
06:44And you accomplished that.
06:46You did this eight weeks postpartum.
06:49And I'll never forget, like, finishing my dance and looking over.
06:55Looking over at you and Nora.
06:59And just seeing how proud you were.
07:02I really gave it my all.
07:04Yeah, you gave your heart to it, and you have to be proud of that.
07:08Oh, man.
07:10I think I'm still trying to process.
07:12You should be really proud of yourself.
07:16Yeah, for sure.
07:20You made it to, what, week seven?
07:22You're right.
07:23I should be proud of myself.
07:25So proud of yourself, Jen.
07:29Whitney has been blowing up my phone.
07:32Apparently, she wants to have conversation, which is...
07:35You think she wants to apologize for how she yelled and screamed at you, or...
07:39No.
07:41You think she wants to apologize for laughing when you got eliminated?
07:44No.
07:45Okay, fam.
07:45It looks like Whitney is laughing when Jen gets kicked off.
07:49Do you think that she's happy she's safe?
07:50Or do we think that she's actually happy to see Jen going home?
07:54Hit me up at the comments.
07:55Let me know what you think.
07:56Like, I think she's worried about, she's thinking about her and being in the competition, and she didn't like what
08:03I had to say on live.
08:05And so, I'm sure she...
08:06Or about you not voting for her?
08:08Yeah.
08:08And I would be rooting for a former mom-talk person, but we won't get into it.
08:14Okay, well, I'm in this line now.
08:17Oh, I'm out of this shit.
08:19Whitney only cares about Whitney and her not getting eliminated, and she knows that I hold power when it comes
08:25to that.
08:25Just because if I say anything more, it could hurt her.
08:30Hello, um, I just want to apologize for overreacting and yelling.
08:35So, I'm going to say hi to you when I see you at the studio and wish you luck.
08:39Um, but yeah, I just wanted to say sorry for treating you that way.
08:43She knows she effed up.
08:45You want to act like everything's okay?
08:46I'm tired of being fake, and I've done that a lot, and I'm tired of doing that, and I'm not
08:50doing that anymore.
08:51And if that means the whole group is against me, because I'm not friends with Whitney, who's currently popular, and
08:57that's a cool thing to do right now, I don't care.
09:00And I think it would be good.
09:01I mean, just to have, like, a cordial conversation and just, like, hey, this is my perspective, that's her perspective,
09:08and you guys can just talk it out.
09:09You think I should go talk to her?
09:11Yeah, I think someone needs to hold her accountable.
09:15I know you feel like this is the end of the world, but this is just the beginning.
09:19I know it doesn't feel that way, but you're going to go do way bigger things.
09:23This journey of Dancing with the Stars, Jen was gone all the time, and so, like, our marriage did get
09:28neglected.
09:29At the same time, like, it was one of the coolest, happiest, fun experiences, and I feel, like, pretty sad
09:33for her.
09:34But I also feel really grateful that she got as far as she did.
09:36I've really learned I have to cherish every second I get with her, and it's also helped me realize, like,
09:40I have a lot more respect for stay-at-home parents.
09:43Getting away from Whitney and going back with some of your other friends could be good, too.
09:48If you don't have a lot of friends.
09:49If Whitney's down here, I'm, yeah, I should probably get out of here.
09:53But, hey, she's going to be in Chicago.
09:56New York.
09:57It's New York.
09:58The play's called Chicago.
10:02I'm dead.
10:03It's where I shine, shine, love it, yes, I love it all the time, time.
10:10Hello.
10:12Hi, Gorge.
10:14You're here.
10:15Wait, this is new?
10:16That's cute.
10:16So much.
10:17Love her.
10:18Did you get that in New York?
10:20Slay.
10:20Love her.
10:21Slayla.
10:22With all of the Shania and Dakota and Taylor drama going on, I haven't really had a chance to check
10:28in with Layla and see how she's doing.
10:30And I'm so excited to see how her meeting went with Ford Models because I know this is a huge
10:34opportunity for her and it's a dream of hers.
10:36Kate, so you haven't told me any update on Ford.
10:39Ugh.
10:40Yeah.
10:40Oh, yeah.
10:41What did, how did that go?
10:43They didn't find me.
10:44Um, so just calling to give you a little bit of an update.
10:48Yeah.
10:48Um, so I've spoken with my team here in New York.
10:51Unfortunately, not everyone is really aligned or on the same page.
10:55So we're going to have to pass at this time.
10:58So I'm just, like, embarrassed.
10:59I feel like I'm, like, don't be.
11:00Like, you're going to get yeses and you're going to get no.
11:02And every supermodel literally will tell you.
11:05Has had no.
11:05They have.
11:06Literally.
11:06Plenty of no's.
11:08I don't think you guys, like, getting rejected by a modeling agency, like, that means there's something wrong with me
11:12that they didn't choose me.
11:13So I feel like I've been, like, the last couple days I've been, like, struggling so hard with, like, confidence.
11:18And I'm, like, I weigh too much or my face isn't symmetrical.
11:21And I'm, like, I'm literally the ugliest person ever.
11:23You're not at all.
11:24I know.
11:25But I think it just, like, stems back to, like, just, like, me never feeling like I'm, like, enough.
11:29If that makes sense.
11:30And just, like, I don't know.
11:31Just, like, having someone, like, look at you and, like, look at your face and be like, yeah, like, we
11:35don't want you.
11:35You know?
11:36Like, it just kind of, like, it sucks.
11:38And I feel like everyone's always told me, like, you should pursue modeling.
11:40Like, you're built for it.
11:41You're built for it.
11:43I've struggled with body image issues and an eating disorder since I was in high school.
11:49I used to have anorexia.
11:51And then I got pregnant with my first son when I was 19.
11:55And naturally, I mean, there's a baby inside of me that I have to care for.
11:59So I feel like I kind of healed for a little bit.
12:01And then I got pregnant again.
12:02And I didn't spiral then.
12:05But after me and my ex separated, that's when I feel like I started to go back into those old
12:10ways and those old habits.
12:11And I feel like I've been battling it for the last four years now, silently.
12:18You know that that's not true because, first of all, you have a mirror that you can look in and
12:22you have eyes at work.
12:23But also...
12:24But I also have a brain that tricks me and says I'm too bad and I'm ugly.
12:27But you also have booked so many other modeling deals.
12:30I just feel like every girl is getting such awesome opportunities and I'm so proud of them.
12:34But I definitely, you know, you get a little hard on yourself and you hope that, you know, you can
12:38achieve things outside of mom talk as well.
12:40And rejection hurts.
12:42You wouldn't even have the...
12:43You wouldn't have made it in the door at Ford if you weren't a beautiful, like, accomplished person that had
12:49a lot of potential.
12:51I feel like I'm trying to look at positives in the situation that if I did get it, I would
12:55have to move to New York for three months.
12:57And that would definitely be hard with my babies and with Mason and figuring all of that out.
13:02But it's just a hard toss up because it's something that I want so badly.
13:05Not the only big agency.
13:07No.
13:07Like, there are others.
13:08I don't think I mentally can handle another now.
13:10No.
13:11I think I just wanted it, like, so bad.
13:14I think.
13:33I felt really bad the way that I handled Jen and I's argument.
13:36No matter what's happened, no one deserves to be yelled to like that.
13:40So I don't want things to be awkward with us.
13:42I've asked her to meet up with me and hopefully we can move past this.
13:52What the fuck?
13:53Why is Zach here?
13:54And where is Jen?
14:11I'm going to be filling in today.
14:13Filling in for Jen?
14:15I decided to go talk to Whitney because Jen asks me to.
14:18I wanted to go kind of just defend Jen.
14:22I don't care if Whitney screams or yells at me.
14:24Like, I'm not scared of Whitney.
14:26She didn't want to come.
14:28Why?
14:29I mean, the truth is she's hurting right now.
14:31She's sad.
14:32She's grieving.
14:32I think just like you would be.
14:34Yeah, of course.
14:35Yeah, I'm so sorry she got eliminated.
14:37It would suck.
14:37I don't know if you are.
14:39I hope you are.
14:40I think she's just, I think she needs time to process her journey.
14:44And to be honest, I think she's probably scared to come here and get yelled at by you.
14:49You do that a lot.
14:50Yeah.
14:50You know what else I did?
14:52I voice memoed her an apology for yelling at her.
14:55Yeah.
14:55Whitney, it was a bullshit fake apology.
14:58I heard it myself.
15:00You know what?
15:01It wasn't a bullshit apology.
15:02I really did feel bad for yelling.
15:04And I said, I'm so sorry for saying that.
15:05And then you said, let's be friends again because I don't want this exposure to the media.
15:08No, I didn't.
15:18You know, that hurt my feelings and I overreacted.
15:20I apologize.
15:21I love the transparency, but you know, I will not stand is for you to go on live after you
15:27get eliminated to then say, I'm not voting for Whitney.
15:31What's the objective there?
15:32I'm in a competition.
15:34I think the objective is she thinks there's people who deserve it more than you.
15:39That's fine.
15:40You could have said who you were voting for, not who you're not voting for.
15:43You know what?
15:44That to me is cruel and it's mean.
15:48Because what do I have to deal with now?
15:50This hate online, it's overwhelming.
15:52And then on top of it, all of the news media outlets saying, oh my gosh, Jen's not voting
15:56for you.
15:57Whitney's not mom talk because I have that narrative.
15:59That's manipulation.
16:00That's an objective.
16:01That's calculated.
16:02And that's strategic.
16:03Why do you think the whole world, all of social media thinks that about you?
16:07Because people can see your true colors.
16:09If you had gotten eliminated, would you be voting for Jen?
16:12Absolutely.
16:13And that is complete bullshit.
16:14I don't even believe that one person.
16:16And you know what, Zach?
16:17Zach, you don't have to.
16:19Because even when I had a conversation with Jen, the way that she thinks is she thinks
16:22everybody's calculating, everyone's strategic, and the world's up to get her.
16:25No, she thinks you and me aren't.
16:27It's weird that you two happen to be best friends.
16:29First of all, I don't appreciate that because I know who I am.
16:33I am a great fucking person.
16:35And I put in so much effort in that relationship.
16:37The difference between me and Jen is I'm going to be straight up and honest.
16:41And Jen isn't.
16:42This actually is probably the biggest lie that's come out of your mouth.
16:45Jen is actually the least calculated person.
16:47Therefore, she gets herself in bad situations.
16:48Yeah, that's not true.
16:49This isn't easy for anyone, Zach.
16:51No, I never said it was.
16:52All of us are mentally unwell.
16:53I can tell.
16:56And I don't think she should have said that on life.
16:57But I think there's a part of Jen that wants the world to see your true colors because she's
17:01sick of it.
17:02She's sick of you being fake to her on camera for the show for your own gain.
17:07And then in real life, she knows you're not a genuine friend.
17:10This is the most delusional woman I've ever met.
17:14Whitney's friendship with Jen has been fake from the beginning.
17:18Anytime Whitney's been frustrated or things haven't gone her way, she screams or she runs
17:21away from mom talk.
17:23She's hurt you.
17:23I've never hurt Whitney and then runs away.
17:26I'm going to start my own mom talk.
17:29I'm sorry.
17:30They're like, oh, Whitney's only back filming because she wants Dancing with the Stars.
17:35They're not wrong.
17:36I just think it was a very transactional friendship.
17:38She's not the main star.
17:40Whitney is not interested in it.
17:42When someone goes on a live and decides to create more shit for me to deal with, that's
17:48fucked up.
17:48And I'm sorry for that.
17:50You're not.
17:50I don't want to hear your apology.
17:52I want to hear Jen's.
17:53But guess what?
17:54She doesn't think she did anything wrong.
17:56No, I don't think she cares to give you an apology.
18:00Of course she doesn't care.
18:02But you want to know.
18:03Shout it to the rooftops.
18:04Of course she doesn't care.
18:06Okay.
18:07Do you have anything else you want to say?
18:10I don't want to talk about it anymore.
18:11That's fine.
18:12So I'm sorry.
18:13I wish you guys the best.
18:15I'm not going to sit here and try to convince you the perspective that I have.
18:19I'm not going to sit here and try to convince you that what your wife did was unwarranted,
18:24how she's treated me is unwarranted.
18:26You are not my friend.
18:27You are not in my circle.
18:28And I do not trust you.
18:30Okay.
18:35Zach showed up instead of Jen.
18:38Oh my God.
18:40They're just, every time I talk to them, I just feel, I feel so manipulated.
18:46And then I hate fucking crying because then the world is like, oh, she's being the victim.
18:50I like, I can't ever fucking win.
18:53And then for you to sit there and be like, Jen has done nothing wrong.
18:56It's you.
18:57That's not a good friend.
18:58I'm like, what the fuck?
18:59And then he's saying like, basically that I deserve all the hate I'm getting.
19:03It's like, go fuck yourself.
19:05I'm going to rip that man's head off.
19:07My biggest fucking pet peeve with me is when men try and make women feel fucking small.
19:13Well, guess what?
19:14I feel that way.
19:15And I hate so fucking much that like, I let it get to me.
19:19I don't know where I'm at after this, but what I can control is not having Jen and Zach
19:25a part of my life, a part of my circle.
19:27And that's what I'm deciding.
19:29She wanted you to feel like shit.
19:30Mission accomplished, Zach.
19:32I hope you feel like a big, strong fucking man right now.
19:34What a fucking loser.
19:37Is it all just smoking here?
19:49Hello.
19:51How are you?
19:51Good.
19:52How are you?
19:52Oh.
19:53Good to see you.
19:54I know, you too.
19:55I'm excited for this.
19:56I feel like we all need this.
19:57Oh, hello.
19:57You guys look so cozy and cute.
19:58I know.
19:59I'm so glad we all went like lounging here because I was like, am I going to look homeless?
20:03Never.
20:03You carrying your $6,000 product?
20:05Homeless.
20:06Mom talk has a lot going on right now.
20:09And Taylor's leaving for the bachelorette in a few days.
20:11And then after that, I'm hosting my annual Halloween party.
20:14We should talk about the guest list though, because with Taylor gone, I'm like, okay, who
20:18are we inviting?
20:19We can actually have alcohol because Taylor's gone, which will be fun.
20:22Oh.
20:22Open bar.
20:23Okay, so I have mom talk on the list, obviously, who's left of it.
20:27Dakota.
20:27I think Shania has been invited because Jordan invited everyone at Red West, but I don't
20:31know if she would actually show up.
20:33We've been so busy lately, and I'm so excited to just go and have fun and relax today with
20:37Miranda and Layla at the spa.
20:39Okay.
20:39I have to...
20:40We can do anything for 30 seconds.
20:42No, I will.
20:42We'll be the burpee then.
20:43You were married to Chase.
20:44You can do it.
20:44No, one.
20:45Not a sec.
20:46That's more close.
20:47Okay.
20:48One, two, three.
20:50Oh!
20:52No, no, no.
20:55That was a frozen tundra.
20:57Straight out at like ice cap, frigid temperatures.
21:01This is what I've ever experienced.
21:05I thought it was supposed to be relaxing.
21:07No, no.
21:08Not relaxed.
21:09Yeah.
21:10Good.
21:11Um, how are you feeling about all the modeling stuff?
21:13I don't know.
21:14I feel like I'm trying to like keep my expectations low.
21:17I feel like I put a lot of my self-worth into my image.
21:20Having someone say that like they didn't want to take me on, even though they didn't say anything physically was
21:24wrong with me.
21:25I feel like my brain automatically was like, oh, like I'm not small enough or I'm not pretty enough.
21:29But I think more of it was just like, I feel like I weighed too much.
21:33I'm sure your sample size is not smaller.
21:35I don't look at myself that way, though.
21:38I weighed myself like two days ago when I was 99.
21:43And you're like 5'10", 5'9".
21:48I mean, do you know that that's not super healthy?
21:52And when I say healthy, like it doesn't mean big, you know, like healthy is strong.
21:57Yeah.
21:59No, I...
22:02I just feel like I really can't.
22:04I don't know.
22:05I just feel like it does not.
22:06I don't think I'll ever be like small enough in my head.
22:08And I know that it's affecting me.
22:10And like, I'm so exhausted all the time because I don't eat.
22:13And my body hurts every night when I go to bed.
22:16What do you mean?
22:17Like, I like literally lay down.
22:19Like, if my knees are touching each other, it hurts because I don't have any fat on my body.
22:23Like, cushion it.
22:25Like, I know that it's going too far and I'm taking it too far, but I can't stop.
22:28Do you think...
22:29Are you open to stopping trisacetate?
22:34I have been using weight loss drugs, GLP-1s.
22:38Now, for about a year, I would say.
22:42I initially got on them because I feel like I just had stubborn weight that I couldn't get off.
22:47But the thing is that people don't talk about how addicting this is and how hard it is to get
22:52off.
22:53And it's just this ever-living thing that's so negative and especially negative here in Utah.
22:59People are obsessed with how they look.
23:01It's a very negative part of the Utah culture.
23:04I can't even count on both hands how many people I know abuse GLP-1s.
23:08It's like myself and it's a real problem for sure.
23:12When's the last time you did it?
23:14Last week.
23:16That's what scares me is I don't think you need to be actively losing.
23:19It's hard.
23:20I feel like everyone, like, obviously everyone's starting to notice what it looks like in my comments.
23:24Like, I can't post a single video right now.
23:26Like, every single person saying something that, like, you need to eat or you're not going to be able to
23:30show up for your kids.
23:31Like, you're being a bad mom, blah, blah, blah.
23:33Like, I always say something I'm not trying to.
23:35Like, I...
23:35Yeah.
23:36It's not like...
23:37Well, I've noticed your comments have switched from, like, you're so thin, your arms are so long to now.
23:42Like, are you okay?
23:43And I think that's kind of the sentiment we're all thinking is that, like, just are you okay?
23:47I feel like for a long time there, people calling me ill or saying that I look sick or too
23:53thin, it was almost a dopamine rush for me because I feel like with an eating disorder, okay, someone's noticing
23:59all this work that I'm putting in to look this way and, like, it's paying off in a way.
24:03But now I can't even post a simple ad to make money, to support my family without there being a
24:09bunch of comments on it.
24:10And it's actually starting to get a lot that I don't even want to post right now because I can't
24:15run away from it.
24:18And I don't know, like, how to stop, but...
24:21Obviously, like, you've always had to have such a strong friend growing up the way that you grew up.
24:25And I think when so much is out of control, it's easy for you to cling on to one thing
24:30you can't control.
24:31Yeah.
24:32And I want you to know that, like, you do love...
24:34You have a family, Canada.
24:37Okay, we're here for you.
24:39Then we love you.
24:41Okay?
24:42My glass helped you.
24:44And you don't, like, we can help you be in control.
24:46Like, you don't have to do it by yourself, okay?
24:49Like a thread that starts when I don't believe
24:55And all the pieces never seem to fit
25:00When you feel you can't breathe
25:07When you're lost in the dark, I'll be here in your heart
25:11Hi, buddy.
25:14Hi.
25:14Hi.
25:21This is Taylor's last night before she flies out for The Bachelorette, and I'm just dropping Ever off.
25:27This is kind of like the last, like, our last time, like, actually kind of seeing each other before she
25:33goes away.
25:35And, yeah, it kind of feels surreal.
25:38There's part of me, obviously, where I want to go over there because, like, I know she's leaving.
25:41Like, and I'm not going to talk to her, I think, for like two months.
25:45So, yeah, I'd be lying if I didn't think there was a piece of me that just kind of wanted
25:48to go, I don't know, like, see her, be with her, like, possibly the last time.
25:55Like, I don't know.
26:14I'm walking on fire.
26:16My debt is in pay
26:18I'll take myself higher
26:21So I'm feeling okay
26:22Taylor's leaving for The Bachelorette today, Dakota.
26:25What happened last night?
26:30Um
26:33I want to take my time to make my decision
26:38Just want to find for no damn reason
26:50Espen and I are at Taylor's house
26:52Getting ready to leave to California for The Bachelorette
26:56And we're supposed to leave in two hours
27:00Taylor
27:04It's 8.40
27:07She is not ready
27:09She is still in bed
27:11And she is not feeling well
27:14What do you think we should do?
27:16We're supposed to be leaving here like any minute
27:19By 9
27:20She's still sleeping
27:21You're her mom
27:22No, you can talk too
27:23Because I'm always the one that's like a
27:25The B
27:25Did you talk to Taylor?
27:26Yeah
27:27What'd she say?
27:28She says she just doesn't feel like
27:29She's just not feeling well
27:31She says she can't get on the plane
27:32And that you guys can go
27:35And she'll just have to meet me there
27:37She's just
27:38She's like there's no way I can get up right now
27:40Go and go
27:42This is ridiculous
27:45I'm very frustrated right now with Taylor
27:48She has this huge opportunity
27:50And I feel like a part of me is like she's not going to go
27:53I know that you have anxiety
27:55I know that there's a lot going on
27:56That's all right
27:57I know you're sick
27:58I know
27:59You've been running like the same mad woman
28:01The same
28:02This is a commitment that you made
28:04I don't want her to blow this opportunity to possibly find love
28:09And also to get on with her life
28:12Aspen and I are going to get on this plane
28:14And I'm hoping that Taylor will meet us there in California
28:18I expect you to be there tonight
28:20I just
28:21I don't want to tell you
28:25Okay, you two are sitting in the very back right here
28:29Yeah, oh my gosh
28:30Do we have everything?
28:33We're going to miss our flight
28:38On our way for the first week of Bachelorette
28:41Who's not even coming with us?
28:43Who's a no-show?
28:44Mom
28:45You're crazy, huh?
29:05Me and the girls are at the airport ready to surprise Taylor
29:07We decided to make signs for her new adventure
29:10She's been through so much
29:11Kind of send her off on her little mission to the Bachelorette
29:14Because in our church
29:15When someone goes on a mission
29:16Usually when they come home
29:17People have signs welcoming them back
29:19We also see that a lot at Salt Lake Airport
29:21So we're sending her off
29:22To her mission to the Bachelorette
29:24And we're ready for her to be away from Dakota
29:25And find her real man
29:27We're already getting close
29:28It's great
29:29Guys, it's 9.45
29:30It leaves at 11
29:33Where is she?
29:34Was she with Dakota last night again?
29:35Yes, 100%
29:36She was with Dakota last night
29:37So I am genuinely stressed
29:38That she told him, like
29:40I'll stay for you
29:41This morning, Jordan heard from Dakota
29:44Taylor slept with Dakota again last night
29:46Go self-sabotage!
29:48Jessie tells us that Jordan told her
29:50That Dakota slept with Taylor last night
29:53Oh my god
29:54I thought I couldn't get more disappointed
29:56Right when we're like
29:57Yes, she sees it
29:59She sees her worth
30:00It's like she's going to the Bachelorette
30:02She's ready to start this new journey
30:03We're so excited for her
30:04She's back sleeping with Dakota again
30:06And I'm so disappointed
30:07I'm so disappointed
30:08I'm definitely disappointed in Taylor
30:10I don't think that this was a smart move to do
30:12Right before the Bachelorette
30:13To be frank
30:13If I was one of these guys
30:14And I found out that she
30:16F'd her baby daddy
30:16The day before meeting me
30:18I would be extremely upset and pissed
30:21Dakota's trying to pull out all of his cards
30:22Because he's desperate
30:24Like he's doing anything he can to get her to not go
30:27Like I'm shocked
30:28But I'm not shocked at the same time
30:29I'm just tired
30:30I'm so over this
30:31I'm just hoping Dakota doesn't sneak there at some point
30:33I'll be happy
30:34Dakota's in the checked luggage
30:35Let's be honest
30:36Is that Ben?
30:37Weird
30:38That's not Ben
30:38Weird
30:39No, that's Ben
30:40Shut the fuck up
30:41Do you like my sexy socks?
30:43I was just going to comment on your sexy socks
30:47Wait
30:47That's not them
30:48That's not
30:50Oh
30:51It looks exactly like her
30:52I about died, you guys
30:54She only has 40 minutes
30:5640 minutes until boarding ends
30:57Wait, she's right there
30:58Coming down
30:59She's right there
31:00I can see that rat's neck for a mile away
31:03You guys wait
31:03Oh, that's Aspen
31:04Okay
31:05I'm going to yell
31:06Okay, that's her mom
31:08That's her mom
31:08There's Aspen
31:08Wait, where's Taylor?
31:09She's right there
31:10Wait, where is she?
31:13But that's Aspen and her mom
31:14Where's Taylor?
31:16Taylor's not even there
31:17What the hell?
31:18Where's Taylor?
31:19Aspen's going to be the bachelorette
31:21Oh my gosh
31:22Look at that
31:24Wait, where's Taylor?
31:26Oh, yeah
31:26Where's Taylor?
31:28She's not coming
31:29She's not
31:29For real
31:32She's not coming
31:33You're joking
31:34You're joking
31:34No, I'm being dead
31:35You guys heard about this
31:37Is it because of Dakota?
31:39Oh, no
31:39We don't know why
31:40What's going on
31:41She slept with him last night
31:42No, sir
31:43For real
31:44No, sir
31:46You guys are freaking kidding me
31:47You're joking, right?
31:49No
31:49I mean, that's why we're
31:50I got into the literal
31:52For real
31:52Then why the hell are we going
31:53And doing all of this?
31:54Oh my gosh
31:55It makes me actually very sick
31:57That she would put this whole deal
31:59In jeopardy
32:01Why isn't she here?
32:02She wouldn't get up
32:03We could not get her up
32:05And she's like
32:05I'm not going right now
32:06I can't do it
32:07I hate you guys
32:08And then she's like
32:09You guys get on the flight and go
32:10Okay, no
32:11She's going to send you without going
32:13Like, what's the point of that?
32:14Hey, I need you to call me like ASAP
32:16I fucking hate Dakota
32:18And Taylor
32:19I'm like
32:19I love my sister
32:20But I'm like
32:21Pull it out of your ass
32:23And you can't be this mad at Shania
32:24And then give him a pass
32:25I'm like
32:25I'm so
32:26Ew, ew, ew
32:28Does ABC have a backup plan?
32:30Oh, I freaking hate him
32:32Don't forget to drop your baggage
32:34Yeah
32:35She's allowing it
32:36I know
32:36I'm sorry
32:38I'm sorry, Leighan
32:38Come here
32:39Give me a hug
32:39I'm sorry
32:40I know
32:41This is so bad, you guys
32:43Taylor not showing up at the airport
32:45Is not only a bad sign for her
32:47And her journey in the Bachelorette
32:49But also for MomTalk
32:50Like, she's going to choose Dakota
32:51Who's been kind of ruining her life
32:52For the last three years
32:53Over something that is a fresh start
32:56Like, all of us in MomTalk
32:57We've all tried so hard to help her
32:59And we've all been there for her
33:01But I think it backfired on us
33:03I'm like so frustrated
33:04I'm so pissed
33:05I don't even want to get on the plane
33:06No, this is
33:06Well, you guys shouldn't
33:07You shouldn't
33:08If she's not coming
33:09She has to go
33:10She has to
33:10She's already announced it
33:11I'm going to go
33:12This flight
33:13And she better be there today
33:14Or I'm cutting her freaking off
33:16Do you want us to go to her house
33:18And drag her out of bed?
33:19Tell her she better get there
33:20We've got to rebook a flight
33:20Well, you could go ahead and tell her
33:22If she doesn't get up and go
33:23That she's losing everybody
33:24Her help
33:25I'm done
33:26She'll be done
33:27And I'll be done too
33:28I'll be done
33:29I'll be done
33:30This is so bad
33:31Taylor is like an addict
33:32When it comes to Dakota
33:33We're just trying to help her
33:35We spent hours making these signs
33:37We showed up early at the airport
33:38To be there
33:38And send her off
33:39But seeing her mom and kids
33:41Come to the airport without her
33:42And saying she's not coming
33:43I'm like, great
33:44My worst fears have come true
33:46She's going to sabotage
33:47This entire experience for Dakota
33:48And she's never going to get better
33:50I love you
33:51I'm sorry
33:51I'm so heated
33:52I love you
33:53So don't worry
33:54Yeah, go to her house
33:55Okay
33:55Go to her house
33:56We need to go take these to her door
33:58And be like
33:58Look, we were here to support you
34:00We stomp him
34:10She's not going to let us in, you guys
34:11I don't give a shit
34:12I'm going to break her damn window by her bed
34:14I'm going to jump in
34:15It's a Sunday
34:16I should be in church
34:17Praising the Lord
34:18And here I am
34:20Does anyone know her doorstep?
34:22I don't care
34:22But I know there's a big rock by her window
34:24We can slap this
34:25I'm just not sure how to approach this yet
34:27Let's approach it in a nice situation
34:28I don't know if we approach it angry
34:28Or like
34:29I just don't know
34:30She's not going to answer you guys
34:33Do you have a text sent out?
34:35Almost
34:35Oh, it's locked
34:37That's probably there
34:38You guys should go around back
34:40Yeah, let's go
34:42Tap on the window
34:45Oh, I think
34:45What about this one?
34:46No, it's locked
34:46I thought it wasn't
34:48Oh, wait, it got in
34:49But there's something there
34:49Is it Dakota?
34:51Oh, my gosh
34:52What is all this?
34:53Now that we've successfully
34:54Broken into Taylor's house
34:55I think we can officially
34:56Add breaking and entering
34:57To our resumes
34:59Should I wink?
35:01I can't wink
35:03I've been working on it
35:05Is she going to be so mad at us?
35:07Well, Leanne told us to do this
35:08There's her bag like half packed
35:11It's half packed?
35:12Yeah
35:13Oh, my hell, Taylor
35:15I think it looks like she didn't fully go
35:16You guys, what do I do?
35:18We're already in here, guys
35:19Now we can't leave
35:20So we have to just sit
35:21We're already in here
35:22Just like pop your head in
35:23Just don't like
35:24Don't say anything
35:24Unless she's awake
35:25Because I don't want to wake her up
35:29Taylor?
35:31Yeah
35:35Mom talk
35:35Your mom sent us
35:39I mean, why are you here?
35:41I'm so sick
35:43And no one will leave me alone
35:44Taylor, you have a responsibility
35:46Why aren't you on the plane?
35:47Because I'm so fucking sick
35:49What the fuck do I want me to do?
35:50I'm so sick
35:50Why won't anyone be alone?
35:53I mean, you were with Dakota last night
35:54You weren't that sick
35:55I was with my babies all night
35:57I'm so fucking sick
36:00I mean, if you don't want help
36:01We'll leave
36:01But we're just trying to
36:03Get you on that
36:05Because you said yes to Bachelorette
36:07You should have said no
36:08You're not well
36:10I'm feeling definitely sick
36:13Exhausted
36:14Drained
36:14My friends want the best for me
36:15And they're, you know, in my house
36:17Trying to get me to go
36:17And I really appreciate it
36:18I'm just to a point where it's like so low
36:20That I don't even want them to help me
36:22Like, I'm sorry
36:23But I'm just sick of supporting you
36:24When you keep doing this
36:25Your mom's pissed
36:26Your sister's pissed
36:27Like, you're sending them to L.A. with your kids
36:28And you can't show up
36:30Like, just say no to the Bachelorette
36:33Sucks that we woke up at 6 a.m. to be there for you
36:35So over it
36:37All of us girls are honestly going through a lot right now
36:40Mikayla and Jace's marriage
36:42Is going through a really hard time
36:43Jessie's contemplating divorce every day
36:45I'm dealing with my eating disorder
36:47And the last thing that we need
36:49Is our leader, Taylor
36:50To be falling apart as well
36:51I just feel like she's kind of the glue
36:54To this group
36:54And if she's not doing well
36:56Then mom talk is not doing well either
36:58Let's just go and let her deconstruct on her own
37:01Okay, we'll leave, Taylor
37:03But we hope that you make one of the later flights today
37:06Go talk to Dakota
37:07You can talk to him and not us
37:24Thank you for talking to Whitney for me yesterday
37:27Are you eventually interested in talking to her?
37:29Are you just done with this friendship?
37:32I don't owe her anything
37:33I literally told her
37:35I said, Whitney
37:35If anything, Jen's the least manipulative, calculated person I know
37:39In fact, she's so not calculated
37:41That like she gets herself in trouble
37:42Jen wasn't planning on doing a live
37:44If she wanted to expose you for the way you've treated her
37:46She would have already done it
37:47I mean, watch the live
37:48It was very much
37:49Should I have said that?
37:51No
37:51Someone asked me if I'm rooting for her
37:53And I say no
37:54And now I owe her an apology
37:55That's what I told her
37:57I said, I'm sorry
37:58I'm not rooting for you
37:59Were you not just saying F you to me last week?
38:03Do you see yourself ever being friends with Whitney again?
38:10Holy shit!
38:11Fuck you!
38:13Well, I mean
38:16Whitney's to me 2.0
38:18Like, I have no interest in
38:21Being friends
38:22Interacting
38:23I'll always be cordial
38:25But like
38:26Feels like Whitney ruined enough of the experience
38:29And it's sad to me that now that it's over
38:31We're still talking about it
38:32And it feels like
38:33It feels like she's like a parasite
38:35And no matter what thing we do
38:36It always
38:37Like, we can never just enjoy the experience for what it is
38:40And take the positives
38:41Like, and I just want to like focus on what you accomplished
38:43And the positives you took away
38:45You becoming a better dancer
38:46You growing as a person
38:47Like, that's what I wish we were talking about
38:49Not Whitney and her drama
38:50Yeah
38:52When I got eliminated
38:53Honestly, I was
38:55So sad
38:59Gosh
39:00I think the hardest part about leaving Dancing with the Stars
39:05Was how much it brought back my authentic self
39:10And so when that journey was over
39:13I felt like it was almost stripped from me
39:15And so I just remember praying to God
39:17Just being like
39:18Oh, please don't let that version of myself go away
39:22Things are ever going to go wrong
39:24Whenever talking to Whitney
39:27To be honest
39:28I think that's why I want to go back to Utah
39:30As I want to regroup
39:31Go back to my family and friends
39:34And just really figure out what it is that I want
39:37I think we need to go do something fun
39:38We need to get out of the house and just go
39:40I want to go to the beach
39:41Yeah, we need to go to the beach
39:58This is the thing with being a part of MomTalk
40:01Is there are going to be relationships that ebb and flow
40:04But with Jen not even bothering to show up
40:06It seems that my friendship with her is officially coming to an end
40:10Can I still be in this group and have Jen in the group?
40:12Absolutely
40:12Because I'm actually a mature adult
40:15Right now, my focus is on bringing home that mirrorball
40:18And then I need to pack for New York City
40:23And what's in New York City?
40:25Roxy Hart
40:29It's official!
40:30I booked the lead role in Chicago
40:32And I'm heading to Broadway
40:51I am scared to find a guy that will love me back
40:55And also be willing to deal with a couple baby daddies and kids
41:00But I think if I don't take this step
41:02I do stay stagnant in where I'm at
41:04This is not only like an opportunity
41:06I think for just finding someone
41:08This is an opportunity to get away from the toxicity I'm in here
41:12And I want out of it
41:29I got a later flight
41:32I am in LA
41:33I am exhausted
41:34But I'm here
41:35And I'm happy that I made it
41:37I am in LA
41:40I am in LA
41:41I am in LA
41:43I am in LA
41:44I am in LA
41:45I am in LA
41:45I am in LA
41:48Hi
41:49Hi
41:49Hi
41:50Did you make it?
41:52I did
41:53How was it?
41:55Good
41:55Just really tired
41:58Yeah, I bet
41:59So Taylor just landed
42:01And I feel like this is the last chance
42:03I'll be able to kind of
42:05I don't know
42:06Even like express to her
42:07How I feel
42:08Essentially just the fact of
42:10I've always wanted you
42:13I do just want to say sorry
42:16For everything that I did
42:18I know that that caused a lot of problems
42:22Not only
42:22Can you be more specific what you're talking about?
42:24With Shania
42:25For doing what?
42:26What did you do?
42:27Even with you
42:27For you know what I did
42:29For hooking up with her
42:30Well be specific if you're going to apologize
42:32Well I think
42:33I think everybody knows
42:34That
42:35I want to hear it
42:36Yes
42:36I want to hear how sorry you are
42:38For what you did
42:38I know I am
42:39Taylor
42:40I'm sorry for what I did
42:42I'm sorry for hooking up with Shania
42:44I think
42:44Was it dumb of me?
42:45Yes
42:46Could I pick someone else?
42:48Yes
42:48Like who it was matters
42:50And that's where I think I went wrong
42:52And I picked somebody that
42:55I mean obviously yeah
42:57Was going to come with problems
42:58And
42:59Um
43:00I think that was like very shitty of me to do
43:03Thank you
43:04And it put you in a shitty spot
43:05And I know that hurt you really bad
43:07The apology is just words like it always is
43:10How many times can he do this where you believe it
43:13And you suck back into it and it's not true?
43:15Wake up
43:16I think there's a lot of pain
43:17I think there's a lot of things we've done to hurt each other
43:20But overall I still think we love each other
43:23It's toxic that's the issue
43:24I know it is toxic I agree
43:26But that's the thing is I also
43:28It doesn't have to be this way
43:29We make it toxic
43:31It doesn't have to be that way
43:33This would be the best thing for us regardless of like what happens
43:36Yeah I agree
43:36For you and me
43:37Like this would be the best like break
43:39And break off of like our cycles
43:41And I think you could do a lot of healing
43:42But it's up to you really
43:44What you do
43:45I just feel like
43:47I don't know
43:48Like I am
43:48I'm happy for you
43:49Like I want you to be happy
43:50And if you
43:51And that's what I'm saying
43:51If you do find someone like great
43:53But all I'm gonna say
43:57Save a rose for me
43:58Okay
44:00Like if you don't find someone
44:02Like I know I've been acting like such a dumbass
44:05And I've kind of just like fell completely away from who I am
44:09And
44:10Like that's
44:11That's why I love you
44:12It's like
44:15Like you're the only person that could help me see that sometimes
44:18I'm just like
44:19Hey
44:20Like this isn't who you are
44:23It's just not
44:24I think that's not secret to anybody Dakota
44:27What?
44:29Say it
44:31That there's feelings there obviously
44:33Can you just admit that you still love me?
44:37I love you and I hate you guys
44:40I think talking to Dakota is not a good idea
44:43But it's a hard pill to swallow that it's done
44:45And I need to move on
44:46It hurts
44:47Just say it
44:48Like
44:49Oh
44:50At the end of the day
44:51I do think it's an opportunity to get away from him
44:53Absolutely
44:53It's like a dream come true
44:54Okay they're about to film me getting away from her
44:57Okay save me a rose
44:58Say it
44:58Save me a rose
45:01Hmm
45:03So just let me know
45:06Okay bye
45:08Bye
45:23The night is finally here
45:25It's my annual Halloween party
45:26Last year at the Halloween party
45:28There was a lot of groutiness
45:29I have no idea how this is going to go down
45:31But this year
45:31I'm hoping that tonight
45:32We can just have a chance to relax
45:34And maybe have one night of fun
45:38I am so happy to hear that Taylor
45:40Finally caught a flight to LA
45:41For The Bachelorette
45:42Things with Taylor and MomTalk
45:43Feel a little unresolved right now
45:45But I feel like The Bachelorette
45:47Is going to be like
45:48An eight week detox
45:49Where she can't talk to Dakota
45:50And it couldn't be coming at a better time
45:53Are you where?
45:54I'm the new queen bee obviously
45:56I should have known
45:57But you look so cute
45:59Thank you
46:00Look at it
46:01She's Blair
46:01Ew
46:03Wow
46:04Wait you look so hot though
46:06I'm like obsessed
46:06Thank you
46:07Where's Jace though?
46:09I have no idea
46:10What?
46:11I'm like I think he's coming
46:12Oh okay
46:12You just drove separate?
46:14Yeah
46:14Okay
46:14It's still kind of awkward
46:16Because I still haven't told the other girls
46:17Kind of the state of
46:19Where Jace and I are at
46:20And they don't know that
46:21The two of us are living
46:23Separately currently
46:24And Macy's the only one that knows
46:26I like my alone time for sure
46:28But also I'm like
46:29I don't like being alone at the same time
46:31I'm just hoping it gets better
46:34And I just don't want this information in someone's hand
46:37Like Jordan who has a big mouth
46:39Jeff Bass is here
46:41Whoa
46:42Wow
46:42Hi
46:43I think it's definitely hitting me
46:45The gravity of being separated
46:48And what that looks like
46:49I think there's part of me that is definitely scared
46:51To lose him because I don't know how long it's going to take
46:55And I don't know how long he can be patient for
46:59Yeah
47:00I don't know
47:01I don't know how to feel about it
47:02Just feeling super nice
47:04You can touch me all the time
47:06Dan Humphrey
47:08Hi
47:09You're coming here
47:10Yes
47:11You guys did so good
47:13You were so good
47:15I love this vibe on you
47:17Naughty schoolgirl
47:19He liked it
47:20Ooh
47:20It's so good
47:21I'm obsessed
47:23It's a brand new day
47:25Cool and close the rhythm of my own big girl
47:27Please
47:27Oh my god
47:30Yes
47:31Are you kidding me?
47:32Oh my god
47:33Jay Layla
47:35I'm very grateful for Jessie and Miranda
47:37And how supportive they've been for me throughout this hard time
47:41Sometimes when you're in the midst of an eating disorder
47:43It feels like you're never gonna be better
47:48And you're never gonna, like, overcome it
47:51However, Jessie found one of the number one eating disorder facilities here in the U.S.
47:55Which is amazing
47:57Hey
47:58Guys
47:58Hello
47:59Hi Layla
48:00Thank you so much for coming
48:01Thank you
48:01I'm a little nervous, definitely
48:04I'm like, I don't know what to expect
48:05Okay
48:05We have all options
48:06We have 24 hour care
48:08We have outpatient
48:09So we'll just kind of see what kind of fits your needs
48:11What you're looking for
48:12I was definitely anxious going into the center
48:14And they kept telling me that they weren't gonna check me in
48:17And have me be impatient
48:18But that didn't happen
48:19So that's good
48:20Are you guys
48:21Are you all schoolgirls?
48:22Like, what's going on?
48:23Hey
48:23How are you?
48:24I've listened to your book
48:25Okay
48:26I'm like, I'm an hour left
48:27It's fucking so good
48:29Yeah
48:29I'm actually shocked to hear that Mason read my book
48:32And he was saying how much he loved it
48:33Which I was like, wait, what?
48:34I'm like, sorry I didn't know guys, like, read books
48:37Maybe that's so horrible of me to say
48:38But like, despite everything going on in MomTalk right now
48:41The reason why I wrote this book was to inspire
48:44I think that's what keeps me fighting to save my friend group
48:47To save MomTalk
48:48And keep them away from all these toxic men
48:50Because I've been through a lot of challenges
48:52Heartbreaks, hardships
48:53And I just want my friends to be happy
48:54I just want us to thrive
48:55And that's a big purpose behind what I do
49:05It looks like his type, so
49:07We're like, we're like, we're trying to figure it out
49:11Oh, hi
49:12You came here?
49:15You're crazy?
49:17You're crazy
49:17I'm not crazy
49:18I could not believe you're here
49:21Wait, wait, wait
49:22Oh
49:24So Shania shows up
49:26And, uh, damn
49:28This is a tough spot
49:30So it feels a little awkward, obviously, like, seeing her
49:33And the last thing I want is for us to have some shit show happen
49:37Like, the last Halloween
49:38Why is he talking to Shania?
49:41They're back together
49:43He's so dumb for doing this right now
49:44I'm glad we made a sex talk for sure, that was cool
49:46Yeah, that was badass, huh?
49:49I want, to be fair, I also thought it was gonna last a lot longer than what it did
49:54You broke it, not me
49:55I know, but hang on
49:56Wait, I know
49:57No, no, no, no
49:58Oh my gosh, okay
50:00Technically, okay
50:01Oh, fuck
50:03Dakota
50:05I didn't even
50:06Well, I never got the chance to even tell you this
50:08So, uh
50:10Yeah, you're gonna fucking hate it
50:12But
50:13You already know
50:15Probably
50:16It was freaking Taylor
50:19The truth is
50:21This right now, okay
50:23This is what I am right now
50:24I'm like
50:25I'm just emotionally, like
50:27I think a little bit more of myself than I thought
50:29I thought I could maybe do it
50:31I would love to be with Taylor
50:32I would love that opportunity
50:34And maybe there's a chance that this could be something that she needs
50:37If she goes out and dates like 30 handpicked men for her
50:40And ends up choosing me at the end
50:42I feel like that's also maybe like a good sign for her
50:45Like, maybe that would help her
50:47Yeah, but I'm also, again, I'm in a position to where
50:51I don't think I can sit and rely on that either
50:53Of having that hope
50:55I do want to, you know
50:56I really did care a lot about
50:59Like, how everything went down
51:00And that was really hard to watch
51:02Oh, I'm serious
51:03And
51:03I'm like, sorry, you had to go through that
51:05I just don't ever wanted to come back on brand
51:08And that's my only thing that I care about
51:10Being back in MomTalk
51:11It's no secret that Taylor and I have kind of been through hell
51:16I mean, it's been one thing after the next, it seems
51:19You think Taylor should still be leading MomTalk?
51:23Personally, you know, maybe we just raw dog MomTalk, no leader
51:30We have come so far in just the last few years
51:37Especially here in the Utah Mormon culture
51:39Because MomTalk has flipped typical gender roles
51:41We're breadwinners, not trad wives
51:43With Taylor being bachelorette
51:45Whitney and Jen doing Dancing with the Stars
51:47Macy in her book event
51:48Layla and modeling
51:49We all have so many cool things happening for us
51:52Oh, I love it!
51:53It really is true that in life
51:54What you do doesn't matter
51:56It's who you spend your time with
51:57So having a good supportive group of friends
51:59Makes your accomplishments even better
52:02I'm not here
52:03I'm not here because I need to pray
52:04Okay
52:06I needed to talk to somebody about this
52:08Because like it's kind of been freaking me out a little bit
52:10But like Taylor told me like the last time that we did it
52:15That she was like ovulating
52:21So she could be pregnant
52:22Like Taylor randomly in bed
52:24She goes
52:25She's like I haven't had my period yet
52:26And I was like
52:27I was like from like when
52:29Like and then she told me
52:30I was like whoa hang on okay
52:32Or I could ask this
52:33Is she a pregnant bachelorette?
52:35That's what I'm freaking
52:36But because they took her damn phone before I could ask her and say
52:39Hey have you
52:40Did you start your period or what's going on here?
52:42This is a movie
52:43Like deep down like you have symptoms you know if you're pregnant
52:46Oh my god
52:46Like especially
52:47What's weird too is like
52:48Then I was starting to think about like how emotional kind of she's been lately
52:50She's been a little erratic
52:52Yeah like a little bit more
52:53To where I was like
52:54God Dakota this is so bad
52:55And then she was like sick a few times
52:56Like I remember telling me she felt sick a little bit
52:58To where then I was like holy
52:59But I just don't
53:00I don't know anything
53:02Can you fucking imagine you guys?
53:04Like she's the bachelorette and she's pregnant
53:06Like that's never happened
53:07I don't feel like they could keep her on for that
53:09I'm scared to death
53:10I don't know if she's pregnant
53:11Oh Taylor
53:18What are you feeling?
53:19Is there a possibility that you know you could be pregnant?
53:48Only you can make it stop
53:52At the final part
53:56Can you feel the beat of my heart?
54:00Can you feel the beat of my heart beat of my heart beat of my heart beat of mine?
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