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00:29Tanya Cushman Reviewer
00:52I don't know if Robert even remembers it by now, but I met him first.
01:00That night, all those years ago, leaning against the kitchen cabinets wasted on cheap beer, I made him laugh, and
01:09it was so spontaneous and natural.
01:15I knew he felt it, too.
01:18But then she walked over, and I introduced them.
01:22Robert, this is Nancy.
01:40What is it?
01:46Oh, my God.
02:16Oh, my God.
02:42It doesn't even look like her.
02:45It's Nancy, obviously, but it doesn't look like her
02:50I defended, David
02:53I really thought this didn't make any sense
02:57It doesn't
02:59Everyone gets to see this now and think whatever they want
03:02Before I've even had a chance to
03:03I know, but
03:07I hope you know that
03:09Whatever it is that you are feeling, you can tell me
03:15I mean, it's
03:19Bad enough to imagine her with someone else
03:22Seeing that
03:26I thought that when they had the guy in custody
03:29There'd be some sense of relief
03:40There's none
03:43Do you feel any?
03:46No
03:47Not really
03:49Despite all that
03:52I still love her
03:56If anything, get her back
04:00Is that crazy, isn't it?
04:03No
04:07No, it's not crazy
04:15This is me
04:22Hey
04:26Thank you for coming with me today
04:30It was nice being somewhere important to her
04:34Even if it was just for a little bit
04:47Thank you
04:48Thank you
04:55Oh shit
04:59Hey
05:01Well, I came to confront you about leaving me all red
05:04But
05:06Wow
05:08I'm sorry
05:09You know, if you had other plans, you could have just told me
05:11I had previous plans to go to the valet with a friend
05:14And I'm
05:14My phone was on silent
05:16You know, it feels like you don't take me seriously
05:19I thought we both understood that I am not interested in serious, Jay
05:23That's not what I meant
05:24What I meant is
05:26You don't respect me
05:27Like, as a person
05:28I do
05:30Jay, this is not an easy time for me right now
05:33It's not really even about tonight, though, right?
05:35I mean, after the St. Patrick's Day party
05:37You come over two hours after you said you would?
05:40The night your friend died?
05:41I mean, you text me at 9 p.m.
05:42You show up at 1?
05:43What is that about?
05:44No, it was just after 10
05:46No, it was definitely later than that
05:47No, it wasn't
05:48Hell, I stayed up
05:52We should not be talking about this in the street
05:55I think we should go upstairs
05:57I think we should open a bottle of wine
05:59And maybe try to talk about this like adults
06:03Yeah
06:05You said wine
06:06Oh, it's the wine that got you
06:08Not the adult part
06:33I'm not the adult part
06:39I think we should be able to sing this like a woman
06:39How can I sing this like?
06:41I know
06:41How can I sing this like?
06:45I don't know
06:45How can I sing this like?
07:32Morning.
07:34Hey.
07:35No milk, no sugar, just coffee, grounds, and hot water.
07:39Your favorite.
07:41Yeah.
07:43You're going to be late for work.
07:45You know, I think my boss will understand.
07:47Oh.
07:48Wow.
07:49You know, I didn't know you were into fishing.
07:52Are you?
07:52I'm not.
07:55Okay.
07:56Well, if you want to learn.
07:58I know there's a great spot at Lake Gregory.
07:59Shea, you should really get to the office.
08:02Yeah.
08:03No, I should.
08:05Let me do that.
08:06I'll see you there.
08:08Yeah.
08:21I call chocolate.
08:23I'm one of the chocolate orange.
08:25Too bad.
08:25Too bad.
08:26I'm sorry, sweetheart.
08:27I have to honor the dibs.
08:29Backpack's on in 20 minutes, girls.
08:31What do you say to Aunt Ellie?
08:33Thank you, Aunt Ellie.
08:34Welcome.
08:35Is it too much sugar?
08:36There's no such thing.
08:38Well, sure.
08:39I'm in there.
08:39So what were you going to tell me about the ballet?
08:42Okay, so what?
08:43I'm just not allowed to use the car anymore?
08:44This is what happens, Marcus.
08:45When you sit in my car and vape in secret, it's going to keep doing this.
08:48Hey, guys.
08:49Hey, Elinor.
08:50Hey, Mom, could you tell me to cut me some slack?
08:51I'm just trying to ask for a jump.
08:53Sweetie, why don't you go outside for a job?
08:53Let's find the jumper cables.
08:54Come on.
08:54I am so sorry about all of this.
08:57No, it's okay.
08:57I promise you will have my full attention.
09:00Let me just make some room.
09:02Oh, God.
09:03I'm so sorry.
09:04Oh, no, no, it's okay.
09:04I'll get it.
09:05I'll get it.
09:05Ellie, let me get that.
09:11What is this?
09:12It's nothing.
09:13Nothing?
09:14It's a police report.
09:18They're public records.
09:20Yes, but why do you have them?
09:21Because something doesn't feel right.
09:24I know Divide was arrested, but he was arrested for robbery, not murder, because of some random informant's testimony.
09:31I mean, come on, it's sketchy.
09:33The news is trying to connect it to Nancy, and it's not.
09:38So you're investing a lot of time on this.
09:41Don't do that.
09:42Don't make me sound like I'm fragile.
09:46I get enough of that around here.
09:48Okay.
10:00Oh, thank you.
10:02I just couldn't get myself to do it.
10:05I get it.
10:06I keep staring at old text messages from her that I can't delete.
10:10Yeah.
10:12Was this your breakfast?
10:14I haven't had much of a nap type.
10:16Something else going on?
10:19It's just I don't want to bother you with it on top of everything else.
10:22What is it?
10:26Kit asked me today what I'm doing for Cora's birthday this weekend.
10:31Oh.
10:31I forgot about it.
10:32So now I'm trying to figure out this DJ for some silent disco that I have no idea if she's
10:37even into,
10:37and I'm Googling 17-year-old girl birthday party.
10:41Careful.
10:41You don't want to end up on a list.
10:44Thanks.
10:44Now I feel like an idiot and a pervert.
10:50What kind of father forgets his own daughter's birthday?
10:54I can't believe it.
10:55One married to Nancy?
10:57Yeah.
10:57You've never had to think about any of this.
10:59Yeah, but I want to at least try, you know, it's my first birthday after.
11:08Nancy always made it magical.
11:10I'm not going to give a speech, I swear.
11:13Um, 16 years ago, the greatest gift came into my life, and today we get to celebrate her.
11:20So without further ado, the birthday girl, my baby girl, Cora.
11:25Is it your birthday girl?
11:27Cause you looking like a present.
11:29Is it your birthday girl?
11:32Woo!
11:34It's on me, ladies.
11:35Gonna get it if you want it, it's free, ladies.
11:37Feel good when you're rolling with me, don't it?
11:39We here, we just had to believe on it.
11:41So glad we never worried about the shit they say.
11:45My biggest plans is at night in the same.
11:48I started from the bottom.
11:50I put my heart off.
11:51Love y'all so much.
11:53Don't be talking to me, don't be talking to you.
11:56Just don't want to fuck it up.
11:59I could help.
12:01I mean, I've been to my fair share of Nancy festivities.
12:05I think I could try to figure it out.
12:08And it's not too much?
12:09It's Cora.
12:10What's too much?
12:11There is no too much.
12:12Oh, thank you.
12:15Yeah.
12:16Yeah, okay.
12:17Just send me what you have so far, okay?
12:19Yeah, I'll get it.
12:26Detective Gans, are you looking to buy in this neighborhood?
12:30Not with what they pay me, sadly.
12:33She's beautiful.
12:36Incredible lines.
12:37Not many people would custom paint a vintage 450SL, though.
12:42Then again, if money is no object, what does it matter if you devalue a classic in mint condition?
12:49To each his own.
12:51Yeah.
12:53Have a good day.
12:54Actually, if you don't mind, I'm sure you've seen this picture.
13:00Yeah, it's all over the news.
13:01Yeah.
13:02I have studied this picture a lot.
13:04And what I can't get over is the look on Mrs. Hennessey's face.
13:11Right?
13:11She looks relaxed, not a bit out of place.
13:15But it doesn't track.
13:17What does a Pasadena socialite have in common with this crowd?
13:21She wasn't always a socialite.
13:24She had a life before Robert.
13:26What kind of life?
13:28A tough one.
13:30Alcoholic mother, abusive stepfather.
13:33Trailer park, it was not easy.
13:36Yeah, yeah.
13:38Now we looked into her history.
13:40It kind of makes this even more peculiar.
13:42Why will a woman like that?
13:45What does she have in common with Robert and his family?
13:50Or with you?
13:52Is my friendship under investigation?
13:56No.
13:57It is not.
13:58Is the robbery charge just bullshit?
14:01I feel like you wouldn't be asking me all this if you had a real case against David.
14:05Are you looking into someone else?
14:09Thank you for your time.
14:22I don't know.
14:50Blow down your window!
14:55You have no right to be following me.
14:57This is harassment.
14:58I want your name and your badge number.
15:01I'm not a cop.
15:03I look for Donovan.
15:09Okay.
15:12Have you ever been to a war zone?
15:15A loss of life changes you.
15:17So, I had them apply for asylum.
15:20Pulling some of those governmental strings we talked about.
15:24Long story short, they now have a thriving dental practice.
15:29Their daughter just graduated from Vassar last year.
15:32And that's incredible.
15:35But when your heart is speaking to you, you ought to listen.
15:40Ladies, if you'll excuse me, I have just a little business to tend to.
15:43But I'll see you at the pool a little later.
15:49That's cute.
15:50You use my stories to pick up women.
15:52It's a good story.
15:54And mom and I do fund your little charity thing, so it's also my story.
15:59Little charity thing?
16:00Thanks, Donnie.
16:02The daughter went to Ohio State, by the way.
16:05Vassar sounded better.
16:06Wow.
16:07So, my guy Winston said you can sprint.
16:10Yeah, when I'm compelled to.
16:12In some families, when somebody's friend dies, they buy them flowers or a basket or even offer a hug.
16:18I can't relate.
16:21They say it's the curse of the well-bred and the wealthy.
16:24Okay.
16:25Not enough hugs, too much emotional sublimation, you know.
16:27Right.
16:28Since your man, Winston, is done stalking me and you can see that I'm very safe, very sound, maybe you
16:35guys go home.
16:38I would love to.
16:39Mm-hmm.
16:40There are better things to do than babysit you.
16:42But.
16:42But when tragedy strikes, you do have a tendency to get unpredictable.
16:47That's not fair.
16:48No?
16:49No.
16:50When Dad died?
16:51Don't, no, don't do that.
16:52Do not bring him into this.
16:54I was in a very different place back then.
17:00Seriously?
17:01If I had confronted you without evidence, you would have denied it.
17:03This is two old friends grieving.
17:05These look like pretty big smiles for grieving.
17:08Honoring the passion of somebody we loved.
17:13You and I both know you love to fix a broken toy.
17:16Especially a certain nice Caucasian one.
17:18What?
17:18Maybe you'd have joined the BSU or some black sorority.
17:22Here we go.
17:22You'd be with a Jamal or a Terrell instead of stuck on you-know-who.
17:26You're an ass.
17:27Why don't you just admit that you have a blind spot when it comes to Robert, and you always have.
17:34Are you done?
17:36Stop fucking following me.
17:38I'm done.
19:10I think they're just doing their due diligence, Robert.
19:12They're not going to find anything.
19:13Of course not.
19:14I wasn't implying that I was saying that.
19:17I'm sorry.
19:18It's just...
19:19This whole thing is just...
19:22Maybe this isn't the best time to throw a birthday party.
19:29I disagree.
19:31I think we have to keep on living.
19:34Do you know?
19:36Cora deserves some normalcy.
19:38As do you.
19:41And I think it's what Nancy would have wanted.
19:53So, if we are going to add someone to the team in Liberia,
19:57my vote would be Chelsea.
19:59Has she volunteered?
20:01No.
20:02No, but she's still on some initiative.
20:03She just has great local connections I think might help us.
20:09Elle?
20:11Elle.
20:13Yes, I'm sorry.
20:15Yeah, it's all good.
20:16Um, I can reach out to her, though, if you'd like me to.
20:19Sure.
20:21Um, hey, Jay.
20:23This isn't going to happen,
20:25but the police investigation is getting kind of complicated,
20:29so if someone were to ask you about me...
20:36I know.
20:37I got it.
20:38I won't say anything, okay?
20:40No, you can.
20:42You can tell them that I was at your place.
20:48I don't know if you'd be discreet.
20:50We are.
20:51But, you know, if somebody asks,
20:54then we want to be helpful.
20:55Ellie?
20:56Yes.
20:56Do you have a second?
20:58Yes, of course.
20:59Can you give me a second?
21:01Sorry.
21:01Oh, yeah.
21:05What's up?
21:06You okay?
21:07It's my mom.
21:08Someone asked to pick her up from the police station.
21:11What?
21:11What do you mean?
21:27I've contacted an attorney.
21:29He's on his way.
21:29She is not going to answer any questions
21:31until he gets here.
21:32We're not arresting her.
21:33I just need someone to take her off our hands.
21:36I don't understand.
21:37I found out that your friend
21:38has been harassing my officers.
21:41What?
21:41Last week alone,
21:43she submitted 20 public records requests.
21:46And today, she crossed a line.
21:48Next time, handcuffs.
21:57What the hell did you do?
21:58It doesn't matter.
21:59No, actually, it matters.
22:01A lot.
22:02I may have used the C word.
22:04What?
22:05While throwing a stapler.
22:06Oh, my God.
22:07At a wall.
22:08Okay.
22:09Out of person.
22:10Are you okay?
22:11Look, they wasted all of this time
22:13on this Daveed thing.
22:14And meanwhile,
22:15they won't look at any of my leads.
22:17I circled every single David
22:20in our college yearbooks.
22:21I found every David
22:22that she follows on social media.
22:23I even found a William David
22:25who owns a flower shop in Texas.
22:27And she liked his post on Pinterest.
22:29And I just,
22:30I know it sounds crazy,
22:31but I don't know how to...
22:31Do not be mad at me for asking this.
22:33What?
22:34Are you taking the...
22:36No, Elle.
22:37Come on.
22:37I haven't taken more than an aspirin
22:39in six months.
22:39Okay?
22:40Okay.
22:43I'm sorry I can't let this go.
22:47But she told you, Elle.
22:50She shut me out.
22:51You got to hear things.
22:54And now I never will.
22:56She shut me out, too.
22:58There's so much shit I don't know.
23:01I wish I could just distract myself
23:04like you can.
23:06With work and Robert.
23:10I think tonight we should just have
23:12a very relaxed evening.
23:14Okay?
23:15I'm going to get some takeout.
23:16I'm going to bring it over
23:17for you and the kids and Howard.
23:18We're just going to chillax.
23:21Okay?
23:22Okay.
23:22Okay.
23:23I didn't realize anyone said that anymore.
23:24Yeah, I do.
23:26Well, chillax.
23:48Hey, I just came to...
23:50Robert?
23:52Hey.
23:54Robert!
23:58Hey.
24:00Hey.
24:01That look cathartic.
24:04Yeah.
24:06Whenever I want a drink,
24:08I'm down here and hit some balls instead.
24:10How long have you been out here?
24:13Uh...
24:13Whoa.
24:14I guess I really wanted a drink.
24:18Everything okay?
24:19Have you heard from the police?
24:21They dropped off a few of Nasty's boxes,
24:23but aside from that, nothing.
24:24I did hear from your brother, though.
24:27Are you joking?
24:30I was pretty shocked he called me.
24:32It's been so many years.
24:33Well, I don't...
24:35What did he want?
24:37Offers condolences.
24:38Right.
24:39The guy never liked me.
24:41Oh, come on.
24:42Did I ever tell you what he said to me?
24:44No.
24:45No, he was on that fishing trip with your dad,
24:47freshman year on spring break.
24:49Yeah.
24:50About an hour after we arrived,
24:52Donovan cornered me and told me
24:53that you were strictly off-limits,
24:56romantically speaking.
24:58Why would he do that?
25:00I'm sure he was just
25:01doing the big brother thing.
25:02I wouldn't hold it against him.
25:04I'm gonna, um,
25:05come up in the shower.
25:06Are you sitting around?
25:07I'm not sure.
25:09Okay.
25:24What decade do you think we're living in?
25:28I've been out in the sun a while.
25:29You're gonna have to give me a second.
25:30Do you think this is the dark ages
25:32where you get to decide
25:33who I date and who I don't date?
25:35Because despite what you
25:37and our mother believe,
25:38I am an adult.
25:40I'm an adult.
25:41I'm somebody who people
25:42look up to and rely on.
25:44I make responsible decisions
25:45about what I want and what I do.
25:48Okay.
25:50Why don't you have a seat?
25:52Tell me what we're so
25:53worked up about today.
25:55You called Robert?
25:58That was fast.
26:00You two talk a lot, huh?
26:02He told me what you said.
26:04Back then, when you first met him,
26:06that you forbade him from dating
26:08meeting me.
26:09That's a deep cut.
26:11Do you want to tell me why?
26:13Come on, Eve, we both know why.
26:14No, I really don't.
26:15I think I might need to hear you say it.
26:18All right.
26:24You're both smart, sensitive, like-minded people
26:29in a vacuum.
26:30If the rest of the world doesn't exist,
26:34you're the perfect interracial cannon bar.
26:38But because the world...
26:40Not the world.
26:41His family.
26:42No, you don't know anything about his family.
26:45The Hennesseys are old money,
26:47bone-deep entitlement.
26:49They think accountability's a myth.
26:52Ethics are a joke.
26:53Who do you think pulled the strings
26:54to get David arrested?
26:56That is a classic Hennessey move right there,
26:59closing ranks to protect their own.
27:01No.
27:02You sound ridiculous right now.
27:04Robert did not kill Nancy.
27:06She had a lover.
27:07His name was David.
27:09And David killed her.
27:10So maybe Robert found out about David.
27:13He didn't know about David.
27:14He didn't even know about the affair
27:15until I told him.
27:16And by the time I told him,
27:17Nancy was already dead.
27:19Wait a second.
27:20You...
27:22You told Robert
27:24that his wife was stepping out on him?
27:27Yes.
27:28Because he was worried
27:29he was going to call the police
27:31and I wanted to help.
27:32It seems like all you do lately
27:34is help Robert.
27:38He wanted to be his backup plan.
27:40You have no idea
27:42what you are talking about.
27:44Oh, no?
27:45No.
27:58I can't believe Mommy went to jail.
28:00I didn't.
28:01I was practicing civil disobedience,
28:04which we all have a right to do.
28:09But I'm sorry that I scared you guys.
28:11I wasn't scared.
28:12Oh, okay.
28:13Dad was.
28:19Hey, I'm still working on that.
28:21I think we're done here.
28:22That is unless anyone
28:23wants to help me clean up.
28:24Not it.
28:25Not it.
28:25Hey, hey.
28:26No, no, no.
28:26Get Junie.
28:27Get back here.
28:28I'll help.
28:29I'll help.
28:32They were scared.
28:34They don't want to say it,
28:35but they were.
28:35You just left with no explanation
28:37and then we get a call from the cops?
28:42I know she meant a lot to you,
28:45but so does your family.
28:48They, they're still here.
28:50They need you.
28:51We need you.
28:52I, I don't know how to,
28:53I don't know how to let it go, okay?
28:58Thank you, Eleanor,
29:00for the help and the noodles.
29:03No problem.
29:17He has a right to be concerned.
29:19I know, I know.
29:20Um, okay, so I need you to keep an open mind.
29:26About what?
29:27I found an address for David.
29:32No.
29:33Aren't you sick of them thinking
29:36that we don't deserve answers
29:37because we're just her friends?
29:39Of course I am.
29:39He painted her.
29:40He, he partied with her.
29:42He may know something about what happened.
29:45We can't just interfere with the investigation.
29:51She doesn't talk back.
29:53Who?
29:56There's this grief counselor
29:58on YouTube.
30:01And she suggests that you
30:03talk to your deceased loved ones.
30:07So I've been trying that.
30:09You know, when people aren't in the house
30:10or asleep so they don't think I'm crazy.
30:15And I just talk to her.
30:17I tell her, you know,
30:18how Artie just lost another tooth
30:21and how Howard may have a lead on a new job
30:25and...
30:27just answer.
30:33Just talk back.
30:38And I have so many questions.
30:42Please help.
30:54Hello?
30:55Leave me the hell alone!
30:57Sir, we're not reporters.
30:59We're not police officers.
31:01We're friends of Nancy.
31:03We just want to talk.
31:05Go away!
31:06No!
31:08We will not go away!
31:11Let us in!
31:12Please!
31:13Mary!
31:14Are you out of your fucking mind?
31:16Please.
31:17She was our friend.
31:20Please.
31:22Please.
31:22Please.
31:23Please.
31:54She saw my work at a collector's
31:56and reached out.
31:58I thought she was one of those white women who,
32:01no offense,
32:02wanted me to paint what they think
32:04is their true authentic self.
32:06But after a few sketches,
32:08it was clear that she was someone different.
32:10She wanted me to paint her scars.
32:12She said they were from an accident that she caused.
32:15She said the scars were her fault?
32:18They most definitely were not her fault.
32:20David, from the photo,
32:22it seemed like you two knew each other so well.
32:25I don't even remember that picture.
32:28She was barely at the party.
32:30I think the guy she brought wasn't having a good time.
32:32What?
32:33What do you mean the guy that she brought?
32:34Divi, do you remember what he looked like?
32:37He was white.
32:39Do you think she could have been with Robert?
32:41No.
32:42No, he had never seen that photo.
32:45Can you look at this?
32:47He would have told me.
32:48Hold on, can you look at this photo for me?
32:50Do you recognize this man?
32:52If I remembered anything more than his race,
32:54I would have said so.
32:55I told the police it's on them.
32:57You barely looked at the photo.
32:58No, you've asked your last question.
32:59This is a spangler so far as is.
33:01I was put in jail.
33:03And for what?
33:04I did nothing.
33:05Nothing.
33:06Okay.
33:07We've taken enough of your time.
33:15Where were you?
33:17Excuse me?
33:19Your best friend was in a death spiral.
33:22She was drowning in her own misery.
33:24That's what I saw.
33:26That's what I painted.
33:27So where were you when she needed you the most?
33:30She wasn't hiding it.
33:31If you didn't see it,
33:33it's because you didn't want to.
33:36Come on.
33:37Come on, let's go.
33:42I'd like the centerpieces to be a bit more consistent.
33:45And I'd like three people at every corner.
33:47I don't want a bomb on that.
33:48It's not the entire time.
33:49Okay?
33:50Your fault.
33:52You did not.
33:53I told you.
33:54Over and...
34:04Hey.
34:04Everything okay?
34:06Despite my strong objection,
34:08my family went ahead and hired that crisis PR firm
34:10to pressure the police.
34:12They're the ones who leaked that photo.
34:14Can you fucking believe it?
34:16They're the reason David Boyette was arrested.
34:18My family.
34:20That's disgusting.
34:21I thought it would help keep the press off of us.
34:25Apparently, who gives a fuck
34:26if an innocent man has to sit behind bars for weeks?
34:30And...
34:32you've never met him, right?
34:35I've never met who?
34:36David.
34:37I mean, the first time you saw him was on the news.
34:41Oh, you were here.
34:42We saw him together.
34:43What are you getting at?
34:44I'm...
34:45No, I'm not getting at anything.
34:47I...
34:48I just know
34:50what it means to be from a powerful family.
34:53Sometimes you can't
34:54see how they're pulling the strings.
34:56Well,
34:57you managed to
34:59make your own way in the world.
35:01You think?
35:02Yeah.
35:04I constantly feel them
35:05looking over my shoulder.
35:10Yeah, but you do the things that matter to you.
35:15I admire that.
35:17I've always had.
35:20Dad?
35:22Dad!
35:26Hey.
35:27Cora, Mom's thing's boxed up.
35:29I was...
35:29I was just organizing.
35:31You...
35:31You can't get rid of them.
35:33Cora, that's not what this is.
35:35You have to understand,
35:36it's very difficult for me
35:37to have her things all around me.
35:39So what?
35:39You're just gonna erase her?
35:42No.
35:43No, he can't do that.
35:44That's impossible, Cora.
35:46This is all I have.
35:47What's in these boxes
35:49is all I have left of my mom.
35:51I understand, sweetie.
35:53Cora.
35:53Come here.
36:02You know,
36:03my car belonged to my dad
36:05before he passed.
36:08And...
36:10he gave me this necklace.
36:13And I even have a fishing rod of his
36:15hanging on the wall in my apartment
36:17because I want to feel his presence.
36:20So I keep all of those things
36:21really close to me.
36:24So you can do that.
36:26You can look at all of this stuff
36:28and just whatever reminds you of her,
36:31you take that,
36:31you keep it close to you.
36:34And the rest of it,
36:35we will make sure to put somewhere
36:37very special.
36:39Like,
36:41maybe the Ojai house.
36:43That way you can go there
36:45whenever you want to feel her presence.
36:48Okay.
36:51You don't have to let go of your mom.
36:53Your dad would never ask you to do that.
37:11Hey, thanks.
37:19I'll blame her for calling it off.
37:22I'll just probably have more fun back at school anyway.
37:27I really fucked up this birthday.
37:29I'm the one who insisted that you throw her a party.
37:32You've done nothing but help.
37:33I think Cory just needs some time.
37:37It's so unnatural.
37:39You know, nobody prepares a kid to lose a parent.
37:41No one prepared us.
37:45You know, part of me was relieved
37:47when the police came and took her things.
37:50I don't want to erase her,
37:52but everywhere I look,
37:54there's something of hers
37:55just shouting at me
37:56about this secret life that she had.
37:59Fucking affair that she kept for me.
38:02It's deafening.
38:04It's all around.
38:09Well, I think that the Ojai house
38:11is going to be the perfect place
38:12for all this stuff.
38:14Yeah.
38:16It's going to be hard to go out there alone.
38:32Feeling all the day pass me by
38:35Hearing that you'll be all right
38:38They will never know what it's like
38:40To be me right now
38:43When everything's falling apart
38:46You're the one I usually call
38:48What am I supposed to do
38:51When I am just a child
38:54Acting tough
38:56I'm a wish with no luck
38:58I've been trying to find a way
39:01But I get stuck
39:02You're irreplaceable
39:07There's only one of you
39:09I don't understand
39:12How the world can move
39:15When it's missing you
39:17Something must be wrong
39:20When life goes on
39:22With or without you
39:24With or without you
39:27With or without you
39:30With or without you
39:32With or without you
39:41With or without you
40:05she used that on every person in my family everyone hated it
40:10nothing made her laugh harder every time she used it she would laugh for hours
40:33i didn't know how much pain she was in
40:37how could i have not seen what she was going through
40:42none of us did i missed it i just i just missed it hey it's okay so did i oh
40:54god
41:18so
41:25so
41:32so
41:38so
41:43so
41:49so
41:56so
42:07so
42:14so
42:17so
42:23so
42:27so
42:30so
42:34so
42:37so
42:44so
42:53so
43:04so
43:10so
43:14so
43:18so
43:28so
43:31so
43:40so
44:06she asked me once if i liked robert
44:14i remember how quickly i said no
44:22she must have known i was lying how could she not
44:31i was never as good as she was at pretending at creating my own reality
44:42so maybe this is my chance
44:47and maybe she would understand
44:49and maybe she would understand
44:50because she was lying too
44:52lying to robert
44:54lying to all of us
45:07nancy
45:08nancy
45:08i need to start with an apology
45:11my reaction
45:12was extreme
45:15i was horrible to you and
45:17i'm sorry i scared you so badly
45:20but you can hardly blame me for being angry when you're sleeping with someone else
45:27hey
45:28hey
45:30are you okay
45:35all this madness
45:41sins
45:42of silence
45:46saints
45:48and liars
45:51thieves
45:53and
45:54tyrants
45:58what is the truth
46:00what is the truth
46:02why does it matter
46:03if the light covers up
46:06what
46:06whatever comes after
46:09what is real
46:11what is true
46:14who am i
46:17who are you
46:21secret
46:22secret
46:25secret
46:26secret
46:28secret
46:28secret
46:28secret
46:29secret
46:29secret
46:29secret
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