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00:05Previously on the Madison
00:10He wanted to be buried here
00:11There's a spot marked on a map
00:14I know this spot
00:15I can't remember his face
00:17If I were you, I wouldn't listen
00:20Play it
00:22Jesus, fuck
00:23Hold on, right
00:26Stay, stay
00:27Oh my god
00:30I'm gonna die
00:33As much as I like sitting here
00:34It hurts more than you'll ever know
00:36So if you're wondering how I feel about you
00:38I feel enough to sit here and take it
00:40Abby, if I were you
00:42I would set my hooks pretty deep
00:44In that one
00:45They're not making any more men like him
00:52I wonder if you know
00:54How happiness would make him
00:56It would fill his heart
00:59Tomorrow
01:00We bury them
01:02I'm going to hold them
01:15I'm going to die
01:16I'm going to die
01:28I'm going to die
02:32That's an elk track right there.
02:34Oh.
02:35Oh.
02:36Look, there's another one.
02:38No, that's a moose.
02:41How can you tell the difference?
02:43If you spend enough time tracking, you just know.
02:47Oh.
02:50So, do you have any questions about today?
02:55Like what?
02:57Well, asking you.
02:59Well, you're going to bury them.
03:02We are.
03:03Then what happens?
03:06Uh, then they return to the land, and their bodies become a part of it, um, and their souls, too,
03:18I guess.
03:19They don't go to heaven?
03:22I think this is their heaven.
03:27Heaven is...
03:29Oh, how do I explain this?
03:30Our teacher says there is no heaven.
03:33You know, I don't know if you've already figured this out, but do not believe everything your teacher says.
03:38Heaven is your perfect place.
03:43For some, it's ice cream oceans and marshmallow mountains.
03:48And others, it's these mountains.
03:54Does that make sense?
03:57And Grandpa's heaven is here?
04:00I think so.
04:02But if you think he's here, why is everyone so sad he's gone?
04:07Well, his heaven isn't mine.
04:11And, well, I can't see him.
04:13And I can't talk to him, and I can't hug him, and he can't hug me.
04:18And I, I miss that.
04:21Yeah.
04:22I miss it, too.
04:24But that's why we have memories.
04:27We can revisit all those times that we did have.
04:32All the talks, all the laughs, all the hugs, and, you know, it's like a movie.
04:38We can, we can play it over and over as many times as we want in, in our minds.
04:48You know what I mean?
04:49I do.
04:52Not the same, though, as a real hug.
04:55No, it's not the same.
05:19Right here, huh?
05:21She marked it on a map.
05:23All right.
05:24Well, we ain't getting a backhoe down here.
05:27Might be able to get a tractor up from the river, but not sure what good that'll do us.
05:32No, these holes are getting dug the old Irish way.
05:36Yep.
05:38How the hell are we going to get the caskets here?
05:41Swinsets still feed off a wagon, don't they?
05:43That's a good idea.
05:46You want to call or run for shovels?
05:48Nah, you call, I'll run.
05:50My gelding's just going to follow you.
05:53Yank off that bridle.
06:16I am aware.
06:18Yes, I am aware.
06:20We have had a death in the family.
06:23I'm pretty sure the world of girls' volleyball will survive the week without her.
06:27Yes, you are correct.
06:29I am not factoring how this affects anyone else, even a little.
06:33Fuck.
06:34Let's go.
06:35Is this going to be okay?
06:38This is going to have to do, honey.
06:39It's all you got.
06:41Hey.
06:45It's just us.
06:47Okay?
06:47There's nobody to be offended.
06:49What did school say?
06:51You're missing a volleyball tournament.
06:53It's okay.
06:55It's okay.
06:57Hey.
07:19Hey.
07:20Hey.
07:22Hey.
07:28Where'd you find cream?
07:29Same shopping center where I found the dress.
07:33I gotta say, Boseman impressed me.
07:36I wasn't expecting to find Donna Karan in the mountains.
07:39Found a little something for you, too.
07:41Yeah.
07:42Preston would prefer me in jeans.
07:44I think he would find a certain victory in that.
07:49He deserves a little black dress, and that's exactly what I got you.
07:52Did the boy say when they would be ready?
07:54He said to walk over at noon.
07:56How are they going to get them out there?
07:58I didn't ask, and they didn't say.
08:01They just said it was handled.
08:05About two hours.
08:07Preston wrote a chapter on telling time from the son's position.
08:13It's alarmingly accurate.
08:18The girls asked me to arrange a plane.
08:22When?
08:24Tonight.
08:24Oh.
08:27Okay.
08:27They need closure, honey.
08:30They won't get it here.
08:31They have lives, and they need to go live them.
08:34I would very much like to plan a memorial service.
08:37He has a lot of friends that deserve a way to say goodbye.
08:40Does he?
08:41He does.
08:42And you know that.
08:44We could do it at the Explorer's Club.
08:46Okay, just have at the apartment.
08:49Have Corbon, cater.
08:53He loved that place.
08:55I already called.
08:56You're flying back, too.
09:02I have a very worried husband.
09:04He's convinced some distant cousin of the Unabomber's going to abduct me and hold me in his basement for ransom.
09:10So, depending on the cousin, I'm not completely opposed.
09:14Of course, that's my warped romance novel version of abduction.
09:17I doubt that's how it would play out, Lily.
09:19That is how it would play out in my mind after two Percocets.
09:23You think I'm joking?
09:25No.
09:31I love you.
09:37There is nowhere I would rather be than with you when you need me.
09:41I know.
09:46I have a little bottle of Kahlua if you would like some lead in that coffee.
09:49Oh, well, now you're talking.
10:13I have a little more.
10:16Have fun.
10:17Okay.
11:04Of course you pack the perfect dress.
11:13Is there some little black dress tree by the river that I am unaware of?
11:18Okay, girls?
11:23And Russell.
12:06Where are they?
12:08No, I'm coming.
12:12Sorry.
12:18Sorry, Miss.
12:19That's fine.
12:27I'm sorry, Erin.
12:28You'll never know.
13:10Okay, boy.
13:27Watch your hand.
13:28I'll be getting...
13:30I'll be getting...
13:32I'll be getting...
14:21Mrs. Glabber, I'm very sorry for your loss.
14:27Is a preacher coming?
14:32I forgot, I didn't, I...
14:34Uh, this one will be Sam's preacher.
14:38What's that mean?
14:39Means we don't have one.
14:42Do you have someone to govern the proceedings?
14:46We, um...
14:48This is my first funeral here, so we're sort of winging it.
14:54Well, this is far from my first rodeo.
14:58Do you mind if I say something first and then give you all a chance to speak?
15:03I don't think my group has many speeches in them.
15:08Do you mind a prayer?
15:11I do not.
15:22Lord, we stand before you with heavy hearts.
15:25With the glory of love comes the pain of loss, and we look to you for comfort.
15:31Lord, remind us that it is a selfish pain because you have promised a place called heaven where our departed
15:39bask in the glow of your grace.
15:42They are no longer men.
15:44They are angels who guide us through darkness, lift us when we are weak, and nourish our souls and spirits.
15:54Our pain is a selfish pain because we do not know this place, heaven.
15:59We lean on our faith that it exists, and on your mercy that it holds a place for us where
16:08we may sit in your light beside our loved ones and know only joy forever.
16:17Amen.
16:20If anyone would like a word.
16:24Stacy, it's not the first time you've given that speech.
16:28No, ma'am.
16:30It's a good one.
16:33Do you care to say something?
16:37I have plenty to say, but I won't be saying it today.
16:50I guess that's it, then.
16:53Um.
16:56So, what happens now?
16:58We'll take care of everything.
17:04Wait, that's it?
17:05That's it?
17:06That's it?
17:07If he has anything to say, then say it, Paige.
17:08I don't know what to say.
17:11What are you supposed to say?
17:12I think that's her point.
17:15I think that's her point.
17:18Which one's Paul?
17:29God damn you for taking it from us.
17:45I love you.
18:01Everyone deals with it different, don't they, boys?
18:05I don't think they're dealing with it at all.
18:08Not yet, anyway.
18:11Who can blame them?
18:24Who are they?
18:27Who are they?
18:28Who's the baby?
18:34Who's the baby?
18:36Who is the baby but who?
19:11Pretty sneaky.
19:13Trying to have a funeral and not tell anybody?
19:15Oh, I...
19:16I didn't know anyone would care.
19:20We let you have the funeral.
19:21We will not be denied our feast.
19:27When they decided to build these cabins,
19:29they wanted to do it all themselves.
19:31Mill the wood, frame it, rough in the electric,
19:34the whole deal.
19:35Look at the bottom of them there.
19:37They're sitting on railroad ties,
19:39and I could not figure out
19:41what in the hell purpose that would serve.
19:42And I told them they're going to be colder
19:44than the devil in winter,
19:45and every skunk and raccoon
19:47and God knows what else
19:48is going to set up shop underneath them.
19:50Well, Preston just looked at me and nodded.
19:52Didn't say a word.
19:54About six months later,
19:56tax assessor comes by my place and says,
19:57have you seen these cabins they built next door?
20:00I said, I had.
20:01And he asked me if I'd ever seen them move.
20:04I said, move?
20:05What do you mean move?
20:07Tax assessor says,
20:09when he tried to put a value on them,
20:10your husband said they was mobile homes.
20:14You pick them up with a forklift and move them
20:16and ask me if I'd ever seen them be mobile.
20:19Well, I told them,
20:20yeah, they haul them all over the place.
20:23And if you look at the back of that outhouse,
20:25your husband nailed tires from a shopping cart
20:28and said that son of a bitch was mobile, too.
20:32He did not want to pay any taxes.
20:34I wondered what those were for.
20:36Preston always had issues with authority.
20:39Wheels on the outhouse.
20:40Never seen anything like it.
20:42No.
20:45Indian tacos.
20:46Good stuff.
20:48Want some?
20:49How about some of those cookies?
20:51Oh, good choice.
20:54I was thinking, like, three.
20:58What's your mom going to say about that?
21:00My mom's not going to say anything
21:01because she's not going to see me eat him.
21:03Let's keep this between us.
21:06I think that's a good idea.
21:20Thank you for today.
21:22Means more than you know.
21:24Someone had to do it for me.
21:25I know what it means.
21:28I'm sorry it had to be done.
21:32We're flying out tonight.
21:33Girls have missed enough school
21:34and I have exhausted my wardrobe.
21:37But...
21:41I'd like to come back.
21:44Or dare I invite you to New York?
21:48Well, the only way you'd get me to New York
21:50is if it seceded from the Union
21:51and I was drafted into the Army to take it back.
21:54Okay.
21:54You gotta go a little easier on my city, buddy.
21:57I'm not knocking it.
21:58I'm just not going there.
22:00Fair enough.
22:02Then I'll come visit.
22:04Sure.
22:06I mean it.
22:09Okay.
22:12I mean it.
22:20I'm a sheriff's deputy who makes $52,000 a year.
22:23I have $12,000 in the bank
22:25and I'm about to spend six of it
22:27on a pretty average rope horse.
22:29Three nights a week
22:29I'm gonna load him in a trailer
22:31and drag him all over Montana
22:32trying to win back what I spent on him.
22:34In October
22:34I'm gonna take my boys in the mountains for a month
22:37and fill our freezer with elk.
22:39I ain't never laying on no beach.
22:40I'm never
22:42going to Europe
22:43or San Francisco
22:44or any city bigger than Billings.
22:45Ever.
22:48What part of that sounds good to you?
22:50None of it.
22:51Now walk me through your life.
22:53What won't you change?
22:54I don't have those kind of absolutes.
22:55Just walk me through it.
23:00Macy has gymnastics every morning.
23:03From there I go to Pilates.
23:06From Pilates I go to my therapist.
23:07From my therapist
23:08I go to coffee with my girlfriends
23:09to talk about all the bullshit advice
23:10my therapist gave me.
23:12Then I pick up Macy
23:13and I get Bridget
23:14and we go to ballet.
23:15We have recitals every Friday night
23:17Saturday morning
23:17we have competitions.
23:19I take the girls the same parts
23:20for Christmas
23:20Italy for the month of July
23:22which
23:23you would love.
23:24I will point out.
23:30Who feeds the horses?
23:33Isn't there a service for that?
23:35You have to do it every day?
23:38Okay.
23:39Okay, there is no future in this
23:41but
23:41you are tall
23:42and kind
23:43and fucking
23:45beautiful.
23:46You are tall
23:46and kind
23:47and beautiful.
23:47Okay, so can we just agree
23:48to fuck this up together
23:50and have as much sex
23:52as possible
23:53until
23:54until we can't.
23:55Yeah, you city girls
23:56do spell it out, don't you?
23:57Yeah, we
23:58we get to the point.
23:59Yep, we do.
24:00You go from wondering
24:01when we're going to see each other
24:02to wondering when you're going to leave.
24:06I think I'd rather just miss you.
24:10I'm not gone yet.
24:11You know what I mean.
24:13So is this goodbye?
24:17I think it's best.
24:18Oh, wow.
24:21Let me just clarify
24:25that you are breaking up with me
24:26at my father's funeral.
24:28No, we aren't together.
24:29No, no, no.
24:30We seemed pretty together yesterday
24:31when you were lying on top of me.
24:33Abby, I...
24:33Don't fucking
24:33Abby me now.
24:35You want to miss me?
24:36Is that what you want?
24:38Here's your fucking chance.
24:45Here's your fucking chance.
25:09It's time to go home,
25:11isn't it?
25:12It's been time, honey.
25:34It's been time, honey.
25:49When did your father die, Russell?
25:54It'll be six years in April.
25:57Where is he buried?
25:58My mother had him cremated.
26:00The plan was to spread his ashes
26:02at our place in Montauk,
26:03but he never did it.
26:07I don't know why.
26:09So, he's sitting in a jar on our mantle,
26:12which is an odd custom.
26:15Putting ashes in a jar
26:17above a fireplace full of ashes.
26:20What do you miss most about him?
26:27He used to call me every Monday
26:29and tell me a joke.
26:31Really?
26:34You still remember them?
26:35Oh, yeah.
26:36Tell me one.
26:38Oh, no, no, no.
26:39Yeah, they, um...
26:40Yeah, my father had a, uh...
26:42rather warped sense of humor.
26:44Yeah, well, at this point,
26:45I'm pretty hard to offend.
26:49Hmm.
26:52Okay.
26:55Um...
26:56Okay.
26:58So, there are four nuns
26:59driving in a van.
27:00And the van goes off a cliff
27:02and they all die.
27:03Funny.
27:04No, no, no, that's...
27:05I'm getting...
27:06Sorry, this is all just a setup.
27:07Yeah, I got it, yeah.
27:08Okay.
27:09So, they're standing at the pearly gates
27:11and St. Peter looks them over
27:12and he says to the first nun,
27:14this is your last chance to confess
27:16before you enter the gates of heaven.
27:19And your conscience must be cleansed
27:21before you enter.
27:21So, the first nun thinks about it
27:24and she says,
27:24well,
27:26I used to sneak peeks
27:27at Father Riley in the shower.
27:29St. Peter says,
27:30well, you're a naughty one's sister.
27:32Wash your eyes in this bowl of holy water
27:34and say five Hail Marys.
27:35She does.
27:37Sends her off to heaven.
27:38So, he looks at the second nun
27:39and asks her the same thing.
27:41She says,
27:41well, on occasion,
27:43I would stroke Father Riley's member
27:45with my hand.
27:47St. Peter just shakes his head,
27:49tells her to wash her hand
27:50in the bowl of holy water
27:51and say ten Hail Marys.
27:53So, she does,
27:54lets her into heaven.
27:55Now, the third nun steps up
27:57and the fourth nun grabs her,
27:59throws her to the ground
28:00and steps up to the bowl of holy water.
28:02St. Peter says,
28:03what on earth are you doing, sister?
28:05And the nun says,
28:06I'm gonna wash my mouth out
28:07in this bowl
28:08before that bitch puts her ass in it.
28:14I stand corrected, Russell.
28:16I can still be offended.
28:19I was very poorly chosen.
28:20I'm sorry.
28:20It was the first one
28:21that came to my mind.
28:22I am so sorry.
28:23I...
28:25It's terrible.
28:26Common denominator
28:27for their problem
28:28seems to be Father Riley.
28:30Yeah, he, uh,
28:31did get around.
28:32Ah, what's in it?
28:34Bacca soda.
28:35Easy on the soda.
28:37God bless you.
28:39The meeting's tough
28:39and at the gym at nine,
28:41if you're up for it.
28:43Oh, yeah.
28:44Exercise.
28:44It's exactly what I need.
28:49I see things
28:51didn't end well with a cowboy.
28:54How's that look about it?
28:58Paige has been quiet.
29:00I think this is going
29:01to be hardest on her.
29:03I'm afraid.
29:05How so?
29:06When you've dedicated
29:07your entire life
29:08to gaining the attention
29:10of one person,
29:13what is your purpose
29:14when that person is gone?
29:16The girls are handling it
29:17well, at least.
29:18Yeah, well,
29:19they're too young
29:19to know the difference.
29:21Just one less present
29:23at Christmas.
29:27I know an excellent
29:29therapist, Stacy.
29:31You're my therapist.
29:34You're my best friend.
29:36I'm incapable
29:37of being impartial.
29:38Speaking to someone
29:39who can look at the situation
29:41with clarity
29:42and with zero opinion.
29:44What I need is opinion.
29:46If I want to know
29:47what the book on death says,
29:48I'll buy the fucking book.
29:49I'll buy the fuck.
29:50I'll buy the fuck.
30:03I'll buy the fucking book.
30:18I don't know.
30:50I don't know.
31:28I don't know.
31:46I ordered a charcuterie board from Ely.
31:49And the pizzas from Joe's?
31:51One of us is thinking about your cholesterol.
31:54Pizzas are for Paul.
31:55It's the one thing he misses about this city.
32:00Look at you.
32:02Look at me what?
32:03Men are such children.
32:05Well, this should be interesting.
32:07You are.
32:08You have the same look on your face, pulling out those nasty boots, as an 11-year-old pulling
32:12out his baseball cleats.
32:14It's the same look you get when Gucci has a sale.
32:17That's different.
32:17That's me saving you money.
32:19You know, this is proof of the genetic distinction between men and women.
32:24Tell me, oh love of my life, all the ways how when you buy something on sale, it saves me
32:31money.
32:31I'm going to buy the damn thing no matter what.
32:33Waiting for the sale is how much I love you.
32:37That almost makes sense.
32:39It makes perfect sense once you accept the inevitability of the purchase.
32:48Why do you do that?
32:50What?
32:51Is your little mountain mistress the jealous type?
32:57You want to know?
32:58I do want to know.
32:59I really want to know.
33:01Because I lost it once.
33:04Fell off in the river.
33:05I spent two days looking for it.
33:07I'm not going through that shit again.
33:08So if I put it right there, I can't lose it.
33:13Panicked, were you?
33:16Terrified.
33:17It's nice to see I still have that effect.
33:19Oh boy, do you ever, baby.
33:40All right.
34:02All right.
34:14Oh, Madison Avenue.
34:17How did they get the name, do you think?
34:22I always assumed James Madison.
34:24Oh.
34:24The president.
34:25Yeah.
34:26Of course, that would make sense.
34:27Yeah.
34:30I suppose they named the Madison River after him as well.
34:34Where is the Madison River?
34:36Montana.
34:39Where your husband spent time?
34:42Mm-hmm.
34:46Is that where he died?
34:48No.
34:49He died on another river.
34:50Actually, no.
34:52He died on a mountain.
34:55No.
34:55No river involved at all.
35:03How do you feel when you tell me that?
35:06How do you think I feel?
35:08I don't presume to know.
35:09That's why I asked.
35:11Isn't that your job?
35:14Like, tell me how I feel.
35:17My job is to help you understand how you feel.
35:20Hmm.
35:22More so, my job is to help you understand the behaviors that those feelings elicit.
35:29Hmm.
35:33And how would you describe my present behavior?
35:39Hostile.
35:42Hostile?
35:43Mistrusting.
35:45Which I understand.
35:48You don't know me.
35:51And yet, here you are, in theory, willing to expose your most personal thoughts and intimate
35:59feelings.
36:01Trust me in my interpretation of those feelings and behaviors to guide your decision-making
36:11in the future.
36:12My decision-making?
36:13What decisions are we questioning?
36:15I'm not questioning anything.
36:16No, you are the one who said it.
36:18My husband died.
36:20The love of my life.
36:22The father of my children.
36:24My center, my soul, is gone.
36:29If you, by chance, have happened upon any information that might assist me in mitigating the desire
36:37to claw my eyes out with a fucking spoon to get rid of the pain, I sure would appreciate
36:44that.
36:45But I do not need you staring at me like I'm some bored housewife trying to justify her
36:51affair with her fucking tennis coach.
36:54I know those women.
36:55Plenty of them.
36:56I am not one of them.
37:01I am hurting.
37:03And I would like some help with that.
37:07If you can.
37:09If you can't, then I'll leave early.
37:16And you can keep the fucking change.
37:25You care for a drink?
37:29I would love one.
37:38Don't normally do this.
37:40Spend most of my time convincing my clients not to self-medicate.
37:47Don't mind whiskey?
37:48I don't give a shit what it is.
38:11What you need is this.
38:12A lot of this.
38:15A lot of this.
38:16Not this.
38:17A lot of talking.
38:19And yelling and crying.
38:21A lot of it.
38:22And often.
38:25And in time,
38:28those memories will become fond again.
38:30They won't hurt to recall them.
38:35And you'll laugh.
38:41Will you love again?
38:43Maybe.
38:45I don't have any idea if that's something you want.
38:50Will you ever be whole again?
38:52Will you feel like you did before he died?
38:58No.
39:00But you know that.
39:03But you will heal.
39:05If you let yourself.
39:07You will have as much life to live as you allow yourself.
39:15Or you'll have none.
39:20You'll have no life.
39:25Does that make sense?
39:30Yeah.
39:32Okay.
39:38Why don't you finish your drink and let me have it?
39:41Seriously.
39:42Come on.
39:43Give it your best shot.
39:50You're a terrible therapist.
39:52You know that.
39:53Yeah.
39:53With that smug fucking sweater.
39:58You really like saying fuck, don't you?
40:00I know.
40:02I find it quite...
40:06liberating at the moment.
40:08Good.
40:09Say it again.
40:11Fuck you.
40:12Are we going to do trust falls next, you fucking quack?
40:17It's a really good place to start.
40:19Come on.
40:19Keep it coming.
40:20Let's go.
40:21I'm serious.
40:27I'm thinking about it.
40:29I'm considering it.
40:32I know, I know, I know, I know.
40:34I'm running away, running away from my problems.
40:37This problem goes with me, so I'm not running from anything.
40:43Would I miss my daughters?
40:45Honestly, I don't...
40:48I don't know.
40:49And part of me thinks it would be better for them.
40:52You know, live their own lives.
40:54Maybe they could move with you.
40:57I mean, it doesn't sound like either of them are bound to the city.
41:00That's what I said.
41:01My oldest daughter needs it.
41:03I actually threatened to cut her off if she didn't.
41:08That's not very nice.
41:10Oh, what do they teach sarcasm in therapy school these days?
41:16Well, if by therapy school you mean Dartmouth, then yeah, they kind of invented it there.
41:26Do you think I should?
41:30Not my place to say, but...
41:35I think you should consider it, and I'll tell you why.
41:39Because you are actively weighing your future.
41:42And the consequences are your choices in that future, and that's healthy.
41:45That's good for your soul.
41:46So whether you actually do it is irrelevant.
41:49But you should seriously consider it.
41:52You should consider moving to Europe.
41:56Spend a year traveling.
41:57You've got the financial means.
41:59No responsibilities here preventing it.
42:01You should consider everything.
42:06Wish I could have met him.
42:08Must have been a hell of a man.
42:10Because you are a hell of a woman.
42:12You know who you are, and you're not ashamed of it.
42:14And this, yelling and crying and pondering.
42:18This is what you're supposed to be doing.
42:20This is grieving.
42:22This is accepting an immeasurable loss in your life.
42:25And racking your brain to try to find a way to survive it.
42:30And you will.
42:34Thank you, Phil.
42:38Wow, this has been...
42:41pleasantly cathartic.
42:43I took one look at that sweater, and I had very little faith in you.
42:46But you...
42:48You overcame it.
42:50Turns out, you don't suck at your job.
42:53Well, that is wildly offensive.
42:59Same time tomorrow.
43:00I'm thinking afternoon.
43:02I still got five clients, and I'm pretty drunk.
43:05I think you are a client to end the day with, not begin one.
43:08Fine.
43:09See you at happy hour.
43:40Who's your realtor?
43:42Yeah.
43:43No matter what I do, I can't stay here.
43:45Lily, I can smell him.
43:48Hold on.
43:49Hold on.
43:52Is everything okay?
43:53So, um...
43:55Paige is...
43:56is in bed,
43:57and she won't talk,
43:58and she can't stop crying,
44:00and she's...
44:01Well, she's hyperventilating,
44:02and I feel like I should call an ambulance,
44:04but I don't...
44:04Like, I feel like that might make her worse.
44:06You're right.
44:07You're right.
44:07It would.
44:08I'll be there in 15 minutes.
44:09Call Abby.
44:10Okay.
44:10Okay.
44:11Calling her now.
44:39Is she in the bedroom?
44:40Yeah.
44:46Do you have any sweets?
44:48Sweets?
44:49Okay, get some ice cream,
44:51Rocky Road,
44:52and buy some chocolate chips.
44:54Put three scoops in a glass of milk,
44:56put the chocolate chips on top,
44:57and then just bring it to me with a spoon.
44:59That sounds, uh, disgusting.
45:01I wasn't asking your opinion of it, Russell.
45:09I got Rocky Road.
45:11Desperate times call for desperate measures.
45:13Grab chocolate chips,
45:14the shitty ones, like she likes.
45:16Well, looks like all we need from you is a cup, Russell.
45:19Give it to her.
45:20She knows how to make it.
45:21Got it.
45:21Okay.
45:25Hey, hey, hey, hey.
45:26Hey, it's okay.
45:27It's okay.
45:28It's okay.
45:29It's okay.
45:29It's okay.
45:29It's okay.
45:30You know what this is?
45:32What?
45:33You know how much you love them,
45:34and your body just doesn't know where to put all that love now.
45:37Okay, but you don't have to put it anywhere,
45:39and you don't have to stop loving someone when they're gone.
45:42In fact, one could argue that you should love them more,
45:46and here's a sad act of life.
45:51You will feel this way again.
45:53Yeah, when I die,
45:55when your husband dies,
45:56and your friends,
45:58and someday your children will feel this way about you.
46:03Thanks, Mom.
46:04I feel so much better.
46:06I come bearing gifts.
46:08I'm not hungry.
46:09It's not food.
46:11It is a drug.
46:12It is sugar and chocolate in a mixture
46:15that only your metabolism can process
46:16in a way that doesn't end up on your hips,
46:18and I hate you for it.
46:23I used to eat this when I was, like, five.
46:25No, you still act five, so...
46:31Fuck you and your bad roots.
46:33No, she's back.
46:34I don't understand it.
46:37It's the crunch
46:38with the cold
46:39and the mushy of the ice cream.
46:41Wait.
46:43The explanation doesn't sell it, Paige.
46:46Well,
46:47you got her.
46:49I got her,
46:49but I cannot stay the night.
46:51I can stay the night.
47:02It was my favorite thing ever.
47:04I know.
47:17Is she okay?
47:20Yeah.
47:21She will be.
47:24Is there a decent bar
47:25near here?
47:27Uh, there's a...
47:29There's a dive bar
47:30around the corner.
47:32Well,
47:34Soho's version of a dive bar.
47:51What's this place called?
47:53Um,
47:54I don't know.
47:55I'm not sure it has a name.
48:10What's the name of this place?
48:12Name?
48:13Uh,
48:14people just call it the bar
48:16or the bar down the street,
48:17something like that.
48:18No name?
48:18Not that I'm aware of, no?
48:20What does your paycheck say?
48:23XT Enterprises LLC
48:25or some shit.
48:28Okay.
48:29So,
48:30bar just
48:32doesn't have a name.
48:33No name.
48:34What can I get you?
48:35Oh, God.
48:35I'm, uh,
48:37I am not in the mood
48:38to make any decisions.
48:39Mm-hmm.
48:40Martini?
48:41Uh,
48:42that is a cocktail
48:42and this is the furthest place
48:44from a cocktail bar, so...
48:45True that.
48:46Uh,
48:46how about an Irish car bomb?
48:48I have no idea what that is.
48:51Trust me.
48:51Okay?
48:52What about you?
48:53What kind of amber ales do you...
48:55That'll be two Irish car bombs.
48:57Yeah, like your style.
48:58Two Irish car bombs.
48:59I have to work in the morning.
49:00It's one drink, Russell.
49:07Ooh, I didn't see that coming.
49:09Oh, gosh.
49:10Apologies, Russell.
49:14This is gonna hurt.
49:17I...
49:19Great.
49:21You gotta...
49:23Yeah.
49:24Yeah.
49:32It went down the wrong pipe.
49:35I have a...
49:37bad gag reflex.
49:38No, no.
49:39I'm not...
49:40I'm not laughing at that.
49:42What, then?
49:44Oh, life.
49:47Uh, choices people make.
49:49Don't get me wrong.
49:51She made a good one with you.
49:55What are your dreams?
49:59Dreams?
50:00Or, you know, aspirations.
50:03Might be a better word.
50:05For your life.
50:06For my daughter.
50:08I mean, what, uh, you know, we, we just got the townhouse, so...
50:12Yeah, well, that's a purchase.
50:13Not a dream.
50:16Have you two talked about starting a family?
50:21You know, Paige.
50:23She just got down to a size zero, and she worked really hard for it.
50:26Russell, Russell.
50:27Independent thoughts.
50:28Do you have any?
50:31Yeah.
50:31I mean, I guess I want, I want to have kids.
50:34Mm-hmm.
50:35Okay.
50:35I don't want to raise them, and I want to...
50:38I want to move out of town, you know, where they can have a normal, you know, trick-or-treat,
50:43and, and, and play baseball, and run out on the street, you know?
50:47No, I don't know.
50:48No, I don't know.
50:49I raised mine here.
50:52Well, that would be my dream.
50:54What about when they're grown?
50:58What's the dream, then?
51:00I don't know.
51:01I don't know.
51:02I, I haven't gotten that far.
51:03Yeah, well, then you need a new dream.
51:08Honestly, I always thought of you and Creston as the dream.
51:15So did I, Russell.
51:20But that dream is over.
51:24Well, I guess we both need a new one.
51:29Yeah.
51:31So,
51:32yeah.
51:33Yeah.
51:38Yeah.
51:42Yeah.
51:44Yeah.
51:46Yeah.
51:49Yeah.
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