00:02Hello everyone, welcome back to my channel, or welcome if you are new, my name is Beatrice, this is my
00:12second video, I encourage you, I invite you to watch my first video, so you have an idea of what
00:19my channel is about.
00:23Today I'm going to share with you some of my story, but I won't tell it as if I was
00:34a victim, but I don't consider myself as a victim anymore.
00:42I see myself as a fighter and even a winner. Why a winner? Because my biggest win is that after
00:54all those hardships, manipulation, after they tried to erase, destroy my character, I never became like them.
01:10And I want you to have that mindset today. You aren't a victim, you are a winner. Because when you
01:21don't become like your attackers, you are a winner.
01:25That's your win. That's your pride. And nobody can take that from you.
01:34And that's what I feel today.
01:38Actually, in the beginning, about 15 years ago, I saw myself as a real victim. Even two, three years ago.
01:53But things have changed, especially last year.
01:57So, well, I want you to know also that you are very, very strong.
02:05It requires a lot of things, a lot of courage, a lot of, well, it takes a real chosen one
02:15to face the things that we are facing.
02:23Because I suppose that if you are watching that video, you are in a very hard trials.
02:34Well, let's start with my story.
02:37I was born in a very poor and tentative neighborhood.
02:43Also, my dad was a dentist.
02:47We lived very poorly.
02:49He was a polychemist.
02:51He had two families.
02:56After my mom was her legal wife.
03:01He had another woman he had kids with.
03:06And my family was a classical narcissistic family.
03:14Well, children had roles to play.
03:20We have special instructions.
03:23We had to react or act in a certain way.
03:29We were one against another, like a box of crabs.
03:37It was very, very awful.
03:42My parents had the rule, divide terrain.
03:51It was very efficient.
03:52And that family climate sharpened the rest of my life.
04:10Well, I won't go into details.
04:16I just wanted to know that it was a course called narcissistic family, bullying, gaslighting,
04:25and a lot of people, emulsions.
04:30Well, the things, not all the things, thank God, but a lot of things.
04:37But I pretty started to break those rules at a young age.
04:47Which, I started by questioning things.
04:52I was pretty weevil, even if I was very innocent and trustful.
05:04So, there was one of my siblings that was bullied a lot by my parents, both parents and my siblings.
05:15And I didn't want to do so.
05:17And that's how I became a target, too.
05:22Well, I was already bullied, but things got worse.
05:27And in a reaction, my mom even told me that I was a lesbian.
05:35And before that, she taught us how evil it was.
05:41But it was a way for her to show me that nothing is stable.
05:47Everything, nothing is certain.
05:48And what you got one day, you can lose it in one second.
05:55The world you built can collapse.
05:57So, you don't feel secure at all.
06:02I had to work on eggs, all that.
06:06And those accusations lasted my, all the time I spent with her.
06:20I mean, until two years ago, maybe.
06:24Because she came back with that.
06:26Although sometimes she said,
06:27I never said that in my whole life.
06:30And she came back with that.
06:32It was very, it brought me a lot of anger.
06:36But God susten my heart.
06:39And He truly changed me.
06:44And for me, it was something very deep, deep transformation.
06:50It's not only to disturb the kid,
06:54that narcissistic parents say things like that.
06:58It's also kind of programming,
07:01because they hope that happens someday.
07:04But it wasn't God's plan for me.
07:08And I've never been attracted to a woman my whole life.
07:12Thank God.
07:13But it was designed to happen.
07:16Well, I know maybe there are people who are into homosexuality,
07:23who is watching this video.
07:27But I want to say to you that you aren't born like this.
07:33Dig into your past traumas.
07:36If you were a victim of incest or any kind of abuse,
07:42sexual abuse or things like that,
07:46or emotional abuse,
07:48things that can affect your psychological cycle.
07:55And if there are people encouraging you on the path,
08:00don't think it's the right path.
08:02Because God didn't design us that way
08:07to like the same gender as ours.
08:15So, I hope I don't offend anyone,
08:18because I'm a Christian.
08:20So, I have to defend my faith first.
08:24Well,
08:27so,
08:28it is the first part of my story.
08:32I don't want to make long videos.
08:35So, I will see you in the next video.
08:39Be blessed.
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