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00:18The Narrow River killing refers to the brutal murder of Paul Sparling.
00:24Fellow student Shane Martin was arrested for first-degree murder,
00:27though it was widely believed his classmate Oliver St. Ledger was responsible for the crime.
00:34When I was in high school, a kid drowned. I was involved. Paul just attacked Shane.
00:40Shane just kept on pushing Paul's head underwater.
00:43You're a fucking liar.
00:45Ciara, what are you talking about?
00:47Don't follow me!
00:48Did you forget the restraining order, Shyla?
00:50You need to get Oliver St. Ledger away from my family.
00:53I don't know what you're talking about.
00:54Oliver St. Ledger is living with my little sister.
00:58Megan?
00:59What the fuck, Shyla?
01:01I'm going to help you get rid of him.
01:03I'm gonna take care of it.
01:04No, you.
01:05Shyla, I need you to trust me that I'm gonna handle this on my own.
01:09Oliver, are you there?
01:10This woman, Ciara, is not who you think she is.
01:14It's Megan Martin. She's Shane's sister.
01:18It's okay, Dan. He knows.
01:19He's sleeping on me.
01:34Anything they start off fighting about, he can bring it back to that.
01:37I mean, this time, it's about how my mom never puts gas in the car and he always has to
01:41do it when he's already late.
01:43You know, and somehow he brings it back to how my school wants me to apply to all these private,
01:46out-of-state D1 colleges for lacrosse.
01:48And it makes him look like the bad guy, because you can't afford any of them.
01:51Shane, I mean, your dad is the Kevin Garnett of talking shit about Bridgefield.
01:56You know, and also there's such thing as lacrosse scholarships.
01:59Ivies don't have athletic scholarships. And nowhere else is gonna be a four-ride.
02:03Whatever. I mean, talking about why all these schools are no-goes also pisses them off.
02:07And you're so lucky.
02:08Yeah, I know you think so.
02:10I'm not even talking about being able to afford Stanford.
02:13Being able to afford to buy Stanford and rename it after yourself.
02:16St. Ledger University.
02:18Hey, shut up. Shut up, dude. Please.
02:20I'm talking about not having to listen to your parents screaming at each other every five minutes
02:25over something you can't change and neither can they.
02:27Well, I mean, to want to argue about shit, you kind of gotta care about it.
02:31You know? It's not that difficult.
02:33Well, I mean, any time mine won't stop caring so much, that would be great.
02:36But they won't, because they can't live unless they're up my ass.
02:39My sister can't either. I mean, Shiloh moved to fucking Pawtucket.
02:41She's still trying to be my boss.
02:43Oh, hey.
02:44What I would give.
02:45Here we go.
02:46To be you for one day. Just one. Just to try it. Just to see.
02:49Not even for the money. Just for the, like, silence.
02:59That guy might have told Paul we would be here.
03:01Whatever. He's not a bad guy if you give him a chance.
03:03Nah, you say that every single time.
03:06Nah, he's just insecure.
03:07Yeah, I promise. If you hang in there, it eventually stops being such a dick.
03:11Prove it.
03:12What does that even mean?
03:13What's up, fuckheads?
03:18You gonna be okay? What's up?
03:19What's up as I fucking ran here?
03:21You're kidding. From Bridgefield?
03:22Yeah, that's right, shithead.
03:24Wow.
03:25I mean, I know Coach said you need to do more cardio, but damn.
03:31You guys are so into this place.
03:33And it was cool for, like, you know, five minutes in middle school.
03:37Jesus.
03:38And don't you literally have, like, a massive house with a fucking helipad?
03:44There's no helipad.
03:45Why would anybody want to hang out here instead of there?
03:47Your dad have, like, no peasant rule or something?
03:50Oh, because I'm a peasant, right? A scholarship peasant?
03:53Yeah, I've been in there.
03:54Has your dad even lived in that house before?
03:56Like, uh, even when you were a baby?
04:00Because my dad says your dad hasn't been back to Narragansett since, like, the 90s.
04:03How would your dad even know that?
04:05Well, he's in global finance too, dude.
04:07People talk to each other. It's a network.
04:09Who cares?
04:10All these houses fucking freezing and none of the furniture is comfortable, okay?
04:14Yeah.
04:16What the...
04:17Are you fucking kidding me? There's mosquitoes now?
04:19Come on.
04:20Is your mom in town? Is that why we can't go to your house?
04:23What's your fucking deal, dude?
04:24Uh, it's buggy and clammy here and it doesn't not smell like pee.
04:28Uh, you have a house too, dipshit.
04:30Yeah. Well, they're selling it.
04:33Because the whole divorce is my dad punishing my mom for getting mad at him for cheating, so...
04:40That's hard.
04:42I'm really sorry.
04:46Thanks.
04:49Yeah, how is your mom doing?
04:50Shittily. Why?
04:52Just sucks, that's all.
04:55Makes total sense why she'd be having a tough time with everything.
04:58Yeah.
05:00Makes total sense your mom would be running her mouth again about someone she barely fucking knows.
05:04Fuck you. She knows her.
05:05Yeah, from sidelines and sport banquets, but not really.
05:08What are you even talking about?
05:09You just seem like you know something, Shane, so you tell me.
05:12Your mom's the one saying shit she heard from somebody who heard it from somebody like it's fucking real.
05:16She saw it in the paper.
05:17Who reads the local news? No one.
05:20When MPD arrests someone, it's always in the local police blotter.
05:23I'm not saying it should be, but...
05:24She didn't think she was gonna need a basket, and then she had too many things in her hands, so
05:27she was gonna go get one.
05:29I mean, she didn't even leave the fucking store, and now everybody thinks she's a fucking thief.
05:40You know what? I'm sorry.
05:42Yeah, I'm sorry too.
05:43Yeah.
05:44I'm sorry your mom's a bitch who won't shut the fuck up.
05:47Fuck the...
05:50Man, what's your fucking problem?
05:51Fuck!
05:52Fuck!
05:52Fuck!
05:55Hey, guys!
05:56Fucking fucking bitch!
05:57Guys!
05:58Fucking...
05:59Ow!
06:01Take a fucking sec. Take a sec, okay?
06:03Chill out.
06:07Who are you to wave your finger?
06:11You must have been out your head.
06:16I hold deep in muddy waters.
06:20You're practically raised by...
06:22Stop!
06:24Stop!
06:25Stop!
06:26Rob the grave to stop the cradle and let the evidence down.
06:33Ah!
06:34Ah!
06:35Ah!
06:36Ha!
06:43Oh!
06:43I hear you!
06:54Oh!
06:54Oh!
06:55Oh!
06:55Oh!
06:55Yes!
06:55Oh!
06:56Oh!
06:57Oh!
06:58Oh!
06:58Oh!
07:00Oh!
08:03Look, we didn't go to the Narrows today after school, all right?
08:05And we didn't know Paul was going to be there.
08:07He didn't ask me to hang out after practice, and he wouldn't have asked you anything,
08:11because you're not even fucking friends.
08:14I had to go home and babysit my sister anyway.
08:17So you gave me a ride, and then you what?
08:23Say it.
08:27I went home, and I studied for chem until I got a headache, and then I went to bed.
08:45What about your, um...
08:49Well, I wiped out during school, Angels, and someone must have stepped on me.
08:57I'm sorry.
09:00I'm sorry.
09:03I know you were just trying to help me.
09:07Save me.
09:09You were probably dead.
09:13Thanks.
09:42What are you doing?
09:44Nothing.
09:48Where were you?
09:51Those are dirty.
09:53Yeah, whatever.
09:54Why are you wet?
09:55I took a shower.
09:56When?
09:57Just now.
09:58When I thought I heard something outside.
10:01What did you do to your face?
10:03Nothing.
10:04You look like you...
10:04No, I don't, Megan!
10:12I got fouled at practice, all right?
10:14And then I came home, and I took a shower, and I'm back in here with you, like I have
10:18been this whole time.
10:21Are you okay?
10:25You know, I'm fine.
10:28I'm hungry.
10:31You want to make stovetop s'mores?
10:32You're alone.
10:36I don't know.
10:48I don't know.
10:51I don't know.
10:53I don't know.
10:58I don't know.
12:04I'm sorry.
12:05It's really important.
12:08I hope you think so.
12:17Hello? Can anyone hear us?
12:20Gretchen and Kenji, if you're on, get off.
12:24So what's so cloak and dagger?
12:26I killed someone.
12:27What?
12:30Who?
12:35Paul.
12:38Paul Sparling.
12:40You're sure he's dead?
12:50Yeah.
12:52We were at the Narrows.
12:55Who's we?
12:58Me, Shane, Martin, and Paul.
13:01Who else?
13:02It was just us.
13:05Okay.
13:06Stop talking.
13:07I need to think.
13:18Oliver.
13:19I'm Detective Sheehan.
13:21My lieutenant's just getting off a call, but we can start.
13:23Is this being recorded, Jerry?
13:25I'm out of custodial interrogation, so I want to make some notes, but first things first.
13:32Your lawyer here, Mr. Sykes, he filled me in a little bit on what happened.
13:35But obviously, I want to hear from you.
13:38Can you tell me about it?
13:39Yeah.
13:40Just start wherever you're comfortable.
13:42If I have any questions, I'll ask you.
13:48Yeah, I was, um...
13:51I was home.
13:52And I'd been studying all night because I had a midterm coming up and I didn't really understand the material.
13:58Uh, but I, uh, I forgot to eat.
14:02So, uh, after a little while, I got a headache and, um, I set an alarm for early so I
14:09can, uh, wake up and do some more in the morning.
14:12But then I, uh, I woke up, uh, because someone was, um, was, uh, buzzing to be let in.
14:23And who was that?
14:26Um, that was, uh, Shane, Shane Martin.
14:31Shane Martin, okay.
14:33And this was what time?
14:37This was around midnight.
14:41Last chance.
14:42No idea.
14:43You have no idea?
14:45No.
14:46You can't think of a single thing happening they might want to talk to you about.
14:49Right, and I don't buy it, is why I keep asking, because I want to have some idea of what
14:53kind of buzz saw we're about to walk into.
14:55You knock out some more street lights or steal some shit your buddies think is nothing, but to regular people
15:00means real money.
15:01God, like you and your friends never gotten into anything stupid before.
15:04Except, you know what, no one at your school ever got into an Ivy League college.
15:07Probably doesn't even know what one is.
15:08Oh, oh, shh.
15:10So Shane's going to the Ivy League now.
15:12Wow.
15:13Really, wow.
15:14When were you guys gonna tell me that?
15:15After we talked to the cops, I guess?
15:17Could you have a little faith in your son, please?
15:19Can we just...
15:20He's a good kid.
15:21He's a good kid.
15:22So you're on with that whole narrative again that I have no faith in my son.
15:25He could have a better future.
15:32Bef.
15:34Hey, great to see you.
15:36Fabulous.
15:37You're good too.
15:38You're a man.
15:39Listen, I want you to tell your father he's sitting around.
15:41He might be able to put the mail.
15:44Freezing.
15:45Out of here.
15:46Hey.
15:48Stop.
15:48Stop.
15:53Freeze now!
15:54Stop it man!
15:55Hold on.
15:55Come on!
15:56Get easy.
15:58Stop it! Get out of here!
16:00Let me see. Get back inside.
16:35Let me see.
17:12Let me see.
17:32Let me see.
17:35We're kinda close there, Otis.
17:38Hey, Oliver, a little bit.
17:39Seven minutes till morning announcements.
17:43If I had that car, I'd probably want to hang out in it all day, too,
17:45but you're about to get one demerit for being late
17:48and another for ignoring me to my fate.
17:50Oh, my God, are you all right?
17:52Hey, Oliver, can you open the door?
17:53Jesus, where's my...
17:55We can need to call 911.
17:56Please, please, please.
17:58No, please don't.
18:00Please.
18:03I still think we should at least go to urgent care.
18:05I feel way better now. I really do.
18:09All right.
18:10Still, an hour ago, you were passing out in your car.
18:17Uh, amoxicillin.
18:19Here.
18:21Take two.
18:22Maybe four.
18:24Why do you just have these?
18:26Dog bite.
18:27In the stop-and-shop parking lot?
18:29Yeah.
18:30Apparently, different tail waggings have different meanings.
18:33I thought a dog wagging its tail always means friendly.
18:36It does not.
18:39Yeah, I thought that, too.
18:40Yeah, well, now we both know better.
18:52Hey, what about your mom?
18:54What if we called her?
18:55No, I think it's, uh, I think it's 12 hours ahead there.
18:57Well, it still wouldn't be past 11 p.m.
18:59I don't think that there's reception.
19:01There's gonna be reception at a resort.
19:02Uh, she's off the coast.
19:04It's her friend's boat.
19:06Um, and the school knows.
19:07She told them.
19:08I'm gonna have them mark you in excused absence.
19:11I'll say, I saw you and I sent you home sick.
19:14It's not even a lie.
19:15Okay.
19:18And I'll leave you the amoxicillin.
19:20Take a couple more tonight.
19:22Look, look, I know.
19:26You were good friends with Shane and Paul.
19:29I know you're having a hard time right now.
19:32I wish you weren't having it alone.
19:34Go easy on yourself, okay?
19:37Understand that something terrible has happened to you, too.
19:44Try to give yourself a little grace.
19:53Uh, wait, uh, uh, please, wait.
20:01And you're what again?
20:02Uh, guidance counselor?
20:04School counselor.
20:05What kind of background is a school counselor supposed to have in this kind of thing?
20:09Well, I'm actually a licensed independent clinical social worker.
20:13But I'm working towards getting licensed in Rhode Island as a clinical mental health counselor.
20:19And what makes you think my son needs your help?
20:22Uh, I'm not saying it has to be me.
20:29But, from the amount of detail Oliver gave me about his present headspace and what led to it, he's gonna
20:38need therapy from someone.
20:40And what amount of detail would that be exactly?
20:44Clinically.
20:47Enough.
20:49Enough.
20:50Enough for what?
20:52It's enough to know what really happened.
20:57Every time I think there's nothing left that can surprise me, I'll put you in touch with my personal accountant.
21:14Mom?
21:16Yeah.
21:21Do you want tea?
21:25No.
21:33I understand.
21:35This may be weird at first.
21:39It's okay.
21:41You do this too.
21:41You know, you see people outside of school.
21:45My real life goal was always this.
21:49So, I'm your first patient?
21:53Yeah.
21:54Kind of are.
21:58Don't you have to be able to come clean?
22:03Tell the truth, you know?
22:06Be honest.
22:08Are you saying you haven't been honest with me?
22:11Yes.
22:12You didn't tell me the truth?
22:15Of course I have.
22:16Yes.
22:17I did.
22:19Okay then.
22:21It's gonna work.
22:23Hey, it's already working.
22:43It's okay.
22:53You're right here.
22:54You're right here.
22:54We work.
22:55What does it work?
23:21Shiloh, do you want to meet us at the crib?
23:22No, I can't. Do a shooter for me.
23:29Hello?
23:30Hey, McGaggy.
23:31Hi, Shai.
23:33Hello?
23:34It's not Shane, Mom.
23:36Don't tie up the phone.
23:39She just talked to him yesterday, didn't she?
23:41They're not going to let him call her again today.
23:43I don't. She knows what day it is.
23:46When are you coming home?
23:4820 minutes. I'm leaving work right now.
23:50Just do us all a favor and stay out of her way, okay?
23:55Okay.
23:59We all packed?
24:01You travel Tuesday, right?
24:04Why?
24:05Orientation's probably going to be pretty hectic.
24:08A lot of new people,
24:11new living situation.
24:16What? What are you thinking right now?
24:21That you were right.
24:23That I might not be ready right now
24:27to go to Stanford.
24:32That I can't.
24:36Have you talked about any of this
24:38with your dad?
24:43No.
24:47Well,
24:49you need to, Ollie.
24:54Call him.
24:55And tell him.
24:59I can't.
25:01You want me to do it?
25:05Please.
25:05Yes.
25:07Okay.
25:11Oliver St. Ledger,
25:12he dropped my brother off
25:13at our house in his car.
25:15Are you aware Mr. St. Ledger
25:16says he did not see your brother
25:18after school until Shane came
25:19to his house after midnight?
25:22Yes, I am, but it's not true.
25:23What the hell are you doing?
25:25Are you...
25:25Are you playing at trial or something?
25:28Is it supposed to be funny?
25:30No.
25:30Because it isn't.
25:32I know.
25:33I did see him.
25:36Shane didn't come right home
25:37after practice.
25:37He didn't come home till later,
25:39and when he did,
25:41I saw him.
25:42I saw him getting out
25:44of Oliver's car.
25:45I can't believe you're doing this
25:45right now.
25:46I cannot believe you can't see
25:48how wrong it is
25:50for you to do this right now.
25:51It's not like that.
25:52It's really true.
25:53It's never like that, right?
25:56Like when your teacher kicked you.
25:58Like when the woman
25:58in the stop-and-shop
25:59tried to kidnap you.
26:00It's never about you
26:01wanting attention.
26:02It's always true.
26:03The jury is deciding
26:05right now, Megan.
26:07Remember?
26:08They're all sitting in a room
26:10talking about whether
26:12they're going to send
26:13your brother to prison
26:14for life.
26:18Now, I'm sorry
26:19that we are all so terrified
26:21of that,
26:22that we can't put
26:22our attention on you.
26:23I'm sorry that this is
26:24the worst fucking thing
26:25that's ever happened
26:26in the world,
26:27and you still have
26:28to make it about you.
26:41The people of the state
26:42of Rhode Island
26:43versus Shane Martin.
26:45Verdict, count one,
26:47voluntary manslaughter.
26:48We, the jury,
26:50find the defendant guilty.
27:07Six minutes,
27:0811 seconds, actually.
27:12Very good for my age,
27:14For anybody's age.
27:16What were you
27:17last time you were in the pool?
27:20Uh, 317.
27:22The fuck?
27:23You're going backwards now.
27:26Are you even practicing?
27:29I'm not really sleeping lately.
27:36Since the verdict.
27:40I get it.
27:42All the more reason
27:43to stay disciplined.
27:45Here's the thing.
27:46Practice.
27:47You have to do it every day.
27:49You're staying on it, right?
27:51Grow your capacity.
27:52Your number grows.
27:54That's like anything.
27:55Just keep at it.
27:57Let me know.
28:06Sometimes I just feel like
28:07I have to call Shane,
28:09but that's stupid
28:10because you can't call,
28:12so...
28:12No, you can't call.
28:15I try to go see him
28:17to be put on his visitors list
28:19or whatever.
28:25When, um...
28:26When did you do this?
28:28I don't know.
28:29A month ago.
28:31They said he said no.
28:34Oh, wow.
28:37That's understandable too,
28:38though, right?
28:42If he said yes,
28:44would, uh...
28:45So I try to write it
28:46in a letter.
28:51I am disappointed.
28:53He didn't feel like
28:54this was something
28:55you could talk over
28:56with me first.
28:57It felt like I could...
28:58I could start
28:59with this.
29:04Uh, but then...
29:05But then I felt like
29:07if I send it,
29:09is he even gonna open it?
29:14And if he doesn't open it,
29:16then maybe sending it
29:17at all
29:18is still the point.
29:20I don't...
29:22I don't know.
29:23Okay.
29:24Okay, what about this?
29:26Shane knows me
29:27from school.
29:29What if I have to be
29:31put on his visitors list?
29:33I don't say why,
29:36but I take that with me.
29:39And I read it.
29:41Out loud.
29:43And whatever happens next
29:44is up to him.
29:55I'm just sorry
29:56I couldn't make myself
29:57do it before.
29:59And I know
30:00it won't make me
30:01a good person
30:02to do the right thing now,
30:03but still.
30:06I'm gonna fix everything.
30:10I promise.
30:18You look a little...
30:19Yeah, my food's pretty bad here.
30:21Yeah.
30:21They serve it at weird times,
30:22whatever.
30:25I don't know why
30:26I didn't think
30:26he'd actually come.
30:27I don't know why
30:28it took me so long to ask.
30:29Well, I mean,
30:30we didn't ever talk
30:31all that much in school,
30:32so...
30:33Oof.
30:34I'm sorry.
30:34I'm not saying that
30:34for, like, Blaine.
30:35No, I know you're not.
30:36It just doesn't reflect
30:37very well on me, though.
30:41So, can I ask
30:43how you are?
30:48I'm so sorry
30:49about all of this.
30:50It's just...
30:52It's really terrible.
30:54Yeah.
30:55Yeah, it's pretty terrible.
30:56Yeah.
31:00In full disclosure,
31:01and I know
31:02I should have said this
31:03up front when I first
31:04asked to come see you...
31:04Are you gonna try
31:05and write a book
31:06or something?
31:07Oh.
31:08Uh...
31:09No.
31:13I'm working with Oliver.
31:18Working with him how?
31:19Just counseling him
31:21as his therapist.
31:24So you're with him, then?
31:26Yeah, I wouldn't let him
31:27in, so he sent you?
31:29No.
31:31Although,
31:32obviously,
31:33that's a very
31:33logical first question
31:35to ask.
31:35What does he need
31:35therapy for, huh?
31:38Does he feel bad
31:39for what he did?
31:39Actually, yeah,
31:40he does.
31:41Which part?
31:42Killing Paul
31:43or killing me?
31:47I understand.
31:48It must feel
31:50unbelievable.
31:51What must?
31:52I don't know.
31:54How the world
31:56just...
31:57still turning
31:59like you were
32:00never even in it.
32:03Like all I am
32:05is this thing
32:05I didn't do,
32:06you mean?
32:07All because I was stupid
32:09and tried to help
32:10my friend?
32:12Do you guys
32:13talk about that
32:14in your little
32:14fucking therapy sessions?
32:16What he did to me
32:17for trying to help him?
32:19because if anything else,
32:21you're just another person
32:21getting paid
32:22to listen to him lie.
32:25Shane,
32:27it doesn't matter
32:28what Oliver's told me.
32:29My job isn't
32:30to judge
32:31what the truth is
32:33and I wouldn't be
32:34in charge of anything
32:35even if it was.
32:37It's more that
32:38his pain
32:39has made me
32:40think about yours
32:42and how
32:43I just,
32:44I can't imagine
32:45what you're going through
32:46or the strength
32:47I know you'll need
32:47to find.
32:49For what?
32:51I have strength.
32:52I know you do.
32:53See, I remember
32:54that about you.
32:55Like you said,
32:55we didn't talk much
32:56but still I could tell
32:57you had character,
32:59integrity,
33:00that those things
33:01matter to you.
33:07Just
33:10before I came
33:11to Bridgefield,
33:12I was a social worker.
33:14this was in Connecticut
33:15and a lot of my clients
33:17were in your situation
33:19with public defenders
33:20who were no match
33:21for white shoes.
33:22And?
33:23One of my clients,
33:26Dawn,
33:28her husband was doing
33:2915 to life
33:30in McDougal.
33:32Dave had a carpet
33:33laying business
33:34with his cousin
33:34and the cousin
33:35had a shady side thing
33:37where a guy ended up
33:38getting killed
33:38over money
33:39and the cousin
33:39took a plea
33:41saying it was all Dave.
33:45and Dave just thought
33:47he didn't do it
33:48and that would prevail.
33:52He did not
33:53stop his frustration
33:55and rage
33:55from getting him
33:56into situations
33:56that just added
33:57more years
33:58to his sentence
34:00or how to live
34:01knowing he was
34:03only in prison
34:03in the first place
34:04off a lie
34:05from someone he trusted.
34:08and compared to you
34:11he was lucky.
34:14He wasn't up
34:15against people
34:15with enough money
34:17to make the world
34:18exactly the way
34:19they want it.
34:25So what happened
34:26to Dave?
34:27Is he still in prison?
34:31No.
34:33When did he get parole?
34:38He didn't.
34:41I'm not going to
34:42go into details
34:44if it's okay
34:45just out of respect.
34:47I'm just never
34:48never going to forget
34:49that phone call.
34:54There was one
34:55tiny silver lining
34:56craziest that is to say.
34:59Dave's family
34:59didn't think so
35:00but I know Dave
35:01would have.
35:03There's something
35:03called
35:04the doctrine
35:05of abatement.
35:06Look,
35:07if you're convicted
35:08at trial
35:08even for murder
35:09and you die
35:10in prison
35:10before all your
35:11appeals are exhausted
35:12your conviction
35:13is automatically
35:13set aside
35:14and your
35:15indictment
35:16is dismissed
35:16like it never
35:17even happened.
35:19When he died
35:20because he died
35:22as far as law
35:23and the world
35:24were concerned
35:26Dave was an
35:27innocent man.
35:33Hey,
35:34finally no line
35:35at the vending
35:35machines.
35:35I'm going to get
35:36a soda.
35:37You want one?
35:57No, no, no, they must have, Mom, okay?
35:59They wouldn't just say this is the person calling, okay?
36:01It's that this is ACI calling
36:03and we're sorry to...
36:04Okay, but that doesn't make any sense, Mom, okay?
36:05So are they going to call us back?
36:07He wouldn't do that to himself.
36:08He wouldn't do it to me.
36:09He would never do that.
36:11I'm going to call them
36:11and I'm going to find out
36:12who called us, okay?
36:13Where were the guards, right?
36:14We're supposed to be watching them.
36:15Where were they?
36:16Okay, okay, okay, okay.
36:17It's terrible.
36:18It's a terrible thing.
36:20It's hard to even think about
36:22the kind of desperation
36:23behind a choice like Dad.
36:26Makes you think about
36:27all your own choices in life, right?
36:30All the things you've done
36:31or haven't done.
36:38Hey, hey, hey, hey.
36:40Hey, you know the Navy SEALs
36:41use this thing to help them calm down?
36:44They're just crazy, right?
36:45These elite warriors,
36:46they train and they practice
36:47and still they panic.
36:49Even Navy SEALs
36:50have to make themselves remember to breathe.
36:52In for four, hold for four,
36:55out for four, hold for four.
36:57It's called box breathing.
36:59Box has four sides.
37:00You just focus on the numbers
37:01and the sides
37:02and that's it.
37:03Four by four.
37:03Do it with me.
37:04Come on.
37:05Let's build a box together right now.
37:11One, two, three, four,
37:20out for three.
37:29Hi.
37:32Do we have a...
37:33What the fuck did you say
37:33to my brother?
37:35Excuse me?
37:36Show up out of nowhere,
37:37get in his mind,
37:38say who the fuck knows what
37:39until suddenly he thinks
37:40he has no way out of...
37:41Oh, my God.
37:45Can I just...
37:47I was so sorry
37:48when I heard what happened.
37:50Why were you even there, hmm?
37:52You didn't exist for Shane at school
37:53and I know that.
37:54He never mentioned you once.
37:55To be fair,
37:56seeing the counselor
37:57is not always going to be something
37:59the student talks about
38:01at home, right?
38:02You're telling me
38:03he fucking came to see you?
38:05HIPAA requirements
38:06say I can't tell you anything.
38:08I'm sorry.
38:10But whether he did or didn't,
38:12with the student body
38:13of 600 kids
38:14being generally aware
38:16of all of them
38:16and their various
38:18struggles,
38:20yeah,
38:21that was my job.
38:24Why'd you go to the prison?
38:26To offer my support.
38:28No, I want to know
38:29what kind of apocalyptic shit
38:30you said to him.
38:31Besides that fucking
38:32Oliver St. Leger
38:33sees you for therapy,
38:34which is...
38:35I just don't really know
38:36how to wrap my mind
38:36around that, actually.
38:37So he told you that,
38:37but he didn't tell you
38:38what else we talked about?
38:39Okay, he's figuring things out.
38:40He's taking fucking classes
38:41and then here you are
38:42and a month later
38:43he kills himself.
38:47And you think
38:47talking to me
38:49had something to do
38:50with that?
38:51I do.
38:51And I think I have
38:52a lot of questions
38:53that I'm going to ask
38:54to whoever's responsible
38:55for you having a license
38:56to talk to anybody, okay?
38:57So just know
38:58that's what's going
38:59to be happening.
39:00Well, then maybe
39:00also ask them
39:01if they think
39:01someone without a baseline
39:02of mental instability
39:03and a history
39:04of emotional detachment
39:05of the home
39:05can be goaded
39:06into suicide
39:07by one casual conversation
39:09with a sympathetic
39:09relative stranger.
39:14Oh, this is
39:15such an awful thing.
39:17Look, I understand.
39:20needing to explain
39:21it away somehow.
39:22But when an already
39:23mentally vulnerable person
39:25is put into such
39:26a challenging environment
39:28at an age where
39:29they're still struggling
39:30with coping skills
39:31and with the idea
39:32that the future
39:33even exists,
39:35not to mention
39:35a support system
39:36at home that just
39:37isn't up to the task
39:38in a real...
39:41Jesus fuck!
39:48So, as soon as
39:49court opens tomorrow,
39:51I'm going to file
39:52a temporary ex parte
39:53order of protection
39:54against you.
39:55And just to make it
39:56final...
39:57Fuck you!
39:57Okay!
39:58Okay!
40:11Did Mom go to sleep?
40:14She went to our room.
40:15Sure, she's not sleeping.
40:17Nobody sleeps in this house.
40:18Obviously.
40:29Okay.
40:30Talk show.
40:31Old movie.
40:32Infomercial.
40:32Where do you think
40:33Shane is now?
40:36Shit.
40:38I'm going to need
40:38a drink or ten
40:39for that conversation.
40:41Megan, I don't want
40:42to talk about heaven
40:43or whatever, okay?
40:45Because you don't think he's...
40:46If there is a place
40:47he is, I hope that
40:49everything makes sense
40:49to him.
40:51That he doesn't hurt
40:52anymore.
40:53Okay?
40:55Me too.
40:57Also, I wish it was
40:58a place like that
40:59for Mom to go.
41:03Yeah, I mean,
41:04Mom's still alive,
41:05but I get what you're
41:06saying.
41:09I saw him that night.
41:13What does that mean?
41:16Mom and Dad went
41:18to Holy Spirit
41:18versus Bingo,
41:19and he was supposed
41:20to come home
41:21after practice
41:22and make dinner.
41:23But he didn't.
41:25So I made it.
41:28And I saw him
41:29get dropped off
41:32by a car that I saw.
41:36Whose car it was.
41:40Okay, well,
41:41did Shane know this?
41:43Yes.
41:44When?
41:46Right when he came
41:47inside.
41:47Okay, what did he say?
41:49He said he was home
41:50the whole time.
41:51And he never asked you
41:51to say anything
41:52later to anybody,
41:53ever?
41:56He thought he would.
41:59He was waiting,
42:00but he never did.
42:05Why didn't he want me to?
42:09You know what?
42:09Maybe he was afraid.
42:13Yeah.
42:14Of you bringing Oliver
42:15into it,
42:16of Oliver's family.
42:18Of what they might do
42:19to us,
42:20to you.
42:20I mean,
42:21who knows?
42:23With people who can be
42:25what they are,
42:28you feel guilty
42:29for not saying
42:33don't.
42:34Okay?
42:36It wouldn't have
42:36made any difference.
42:38It still would have
42:38all happened
42:39the exact same way
42:41and you couldn't
42:41have stopped it.
42:42So please,
42:43please,
42:45don't let it
42:46derail your life.
42:49Okay?
42:51Come here.
42:52Please,
42:54please.
43:21Ms. Martin, one of them.
43:26She's a girl.
43:27Which one are you?
43:29Shiloh.
43:30Is your mom Christy?
43:31Is she here too?
43:32She's not here at the moment.
43:34Now, you live here with her.
43:36Rub it in, why don't you?
43:39So, uh, you're Shane's sister.
43:41Hey, can I ask a question?
43:43Yes, we are here to ask people questions
43:45about a guy named Oliver St. Ledger.
43:48Specifically about the possible revenge killing
43:51of a guy named Oliver St. Ledger.
43:53We spoke to Annette Sparling.
43:54She gave us your address.
43:55Does your sister live here, too?
43:58Megan or Ciara Wise?
44:00Which one do you call her?
44:04Look, I don't know where Megan lives, okay?
44:07I don't even know where she is.
44:11Or if she's ever coming back.
44:31Hey.
44:36I've just been sitting here watching you breathe.
44:42You're Megan?
44:45You're Shane's sister?
44:49Yeah.
44:57The day that Paul Sparling died,
45:00I saw you.
45:04And I knew that you were lying.
45:08But I was of no one compared to you and your family.
45:15And there was nothing that I could do.
45:20And it just kept spinning out of control my whole life.
45:25Even so many years later, spinning out of control.
45:29And I wanted to hurt you.
45:33I really, really wanted to hurt you.
45:38And so I made a plan.
45:43But then I started to know you.
45:46And I saw...
45:48How lonely you were.
45:52That I didn't need to do anything to ruin your life
45:54because you were doing that on your own.
46:02I really wanted to tell you the truth.
46:06I had so many opportunities to tell you the truth,
46:09and I didn't.
46:18I'm sorry.
46:24I'm sorry.
46:25He was my best friend.
46:28And your brother, he didn't deserve that.
46:34Your brother didn't do anything.
46:36It was me.
46:41I know that.
46:45But I knew that.
46:51Thank you for saying that.
46:53Because I think I really needed
46:56you to say that to me.
47:04And I'm so in love with you.
47:09I'm so in love with you.
47:11Yeah.
47:13Yeah.
47:14Yeah.
47:39I can't say that I am surprised
47:40that you're a Tom Petty fan,
47:42but if I hear another Tom Petty song
47:43in the next million years,
47:44it'll be too fucking soon.
47:46When was Tom Petty bothering you?
47:48When I was driving and you were sleeping?
47:51Or when I was driving and you were sleeping?
47:56So do we think
47:57Megan Martin,
47:59slash,
48:00Sierra Wise,
48:01is somewhere in the world
48:03with or without
48:04Oliver Kennedy?
48:06Yeah, we all know that.
48:08I said, we think.
48:10Not, we know.
48:12But you do agree that that's the first road
48:14we should go down to the road.
48:15Okay, yeah, it's the first road,
48:16but it's not the only one.
48:18Oh, shit!
48:19Ah!
48:26Wow.
48:45You better watch what you say
48:49You better watch what you do to me
48:52Don't get carried away
48:57Girl, if you can do better than me
49:01Go
49:04Yeah, go
49:08But remember
49:09Good love is hard to find
49:13Good love is hard to find
49:17You got lucky, babe
49:21You got lucky, babe
49:25When I found you
49:35You put a hand on my cheek
49:39And then you turn your eyes away
49:42If it don't feel complete
49:46If I thought I'd take you on the way that's cold
49:54Yeah, I'd hold
49:58Remember
49:59Good love is hard to find
50:04Good love is hard to find
50:08You got lucky, babe
50:11You got lucky, babe
50:14When I found you
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