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00:01Where is she at?
00:04Make appears.
00:07Is that my girl?
00:11Is that my girl?
00:14Lo?
00:17Lo?
00:19Lo, what's she at? I'm here, girl.
00:21Lo, what's she at? I'm here, Lo.
00:25Come on, girl. You're alright.
00:28You're alright, Lo?
00:31It's safe, Lo.
00:33It's safe, Lo.
00:34It's safe, Lo, my dad's here.
00:36My dad's here, Lo!
00:40Come here, Dad!
00:42Now! Hold! Now!
00:46Hold! Now!
00:49An open mouth screaming.
00:51Then Lo wakes up in bed.
00:58Her eyes flit around her bedroom for a moment.
01:03She shifts slightly, swallowing hard and trying to recover from the shock of her nightmare.
01:10CCTV footage of Combo at his panel interview in prison.
01:16First of all, just like to say, I really think I am ready for the outside world.
01:23You know, this might sound a bit daft, but I've never once considered prison as an opportunity.
01:29You know, a chance to completely rehabilitate myself.
01:34Prison was just another part of the fight for me.
01:38You know, I blame my crimes on the system.
01:41The system I felt created me, to be brutally honest with you.
01:46I never once felt remorse for the things I'd done.
01:50Or took any of the help that was on offer for me.
01:57And I know, and although I know this meeting is primarily about this case and this sentence.
02:04If you look at what I've achieved in here for the past four years, I hope you can see massive
02:10changes I've made to the way I was in the past.
02:16You see, the past does matter.
02:19It kind of shapes the future, if we face it.
02:23Sitting in the bathroom, Trev wipes a pad across her chin, then puts it down and stares into space thoughtfully.
02:35She rests her hand against her chin.
02:38So as well as doing all the things to tick the boxes in here, like my whole levels and passing
02:44my joinery course.
02:47Through working with Mary, the counsellor in here, I now know that the things that happened in my life,
02:56the things that hurt me, the things that broke me, I know how they affected me.
03:02So all I could do was head back.
03:07But I didn't know any better than her.
03:10So yeah, I feel shame and genuine remorse for the things I've done.
03:15For the things that I've done wrong in my life.
03:20But I've learned to accept myself as well.
03:23You know, I feel regret.
03:25But I understand now why I did the things that I've done.
03:30And as well as asking for forgiveness from the people I've hurt,
03:36I've also learned to forgive the people that hate me.
03:40Evelyn's been praying in church.
03:42Now Lol's sitting up.
03:44She drags her hand across her mouth.
03:48We all know I deserve to be in here.
03:51But I think I'm a better man.
03:54For being in here this time.
03:57And whether I get out in four days.
04:00Or four months or four years from now.
04:04I'm going to try to make amends for the things I've done.
04:09I'm sure you've heard it all before.
04:11I'm sure you've seen all this before.
04:12But I hope you do believe me.
04:18I'm not trying to say the right things to con anyone.
04:23I genuinely have been trying to do the right things for the past four years.
04:30I just hope you can see that.
04:34Thank you for seeing me today.
04:36Thank you Mr Gascoigne.
04:38As combos shown out by a prison officer,
04:41the panel members look at each other.
04:44One of them nodding.
04:48This is England 90.
04:56Autumn.
04:57At home, Kelly's looking in the mirror
05:00and applying heavy black eyeliner.
05:02Her mum comes to the bottom of the stairs.
05:09Kelly!
05:10Yes, Chrissie?
05:12Are you nearly ready?
05:13Yeah.
05:15You've got five minutes.
05:16Trev's here.
05:17Long's going to go eight if we're late.
05:19Calm down, woman!
05:21Menopause or what?
05:26Sean leaves his house and climbs onto his bike.
05:31He cycles off down the path that runs down the side of his house.
05:38Now he's riding through the park, weaving slightly from side to side.
05:43Milky arrives at Woody's parents' house with the kids.
05:47Come on then.
05:49Of course, something smells nice.
05:52Granny Woodford must be baking cakes.
05:55You know, Daddy likes cakes, don't you?
05:57Uh-huh.
05:59Ring the bell!
06:00Go on, you ring it.
06:01No!
06:02All right, I'll ring it.
06:05Here we go.
06:08Hello, darling!
06:10Oh, lovely Lisa, I love your jumper!
06:13Hello, hello, Jimmy Jimmy Jimmy Duda.
06:15I know Nana's been doing some baking.
06:17Do you want to bake a cake?
06:18We're going to bake a cake.
06:21She shuts the door in Milky's face.
06:26Oh, yeah, that's nice, isn't it?
06:28Yeah, I'll just, erm...
06:29I'll be in my slave quarters if you need me.
06:32Yeah, just ring the bell.
06:35I'm doing my thing for Christmas.
06:37Who the fuck...
06:37Who is that?
06:38Quarter past eleven.
06:39You having a giraffe?
06:40What time have you told him?
06:41I told him, fuck, I'm using Big Knife.
06:42A sort of awful twat would be knocking on the door at this time.
06:45Why are you taking the knife?
06:49What the fuck are you doing here at this time?
06:52You said twelve o'clock?
06:53Yeah, well, what's that saying there?
06:55Oh, shit.
06:56Oh, shit.
06:57I'll meet back in 45 minutes.
06:58It's fine, Sean.
06:59Sean, come in.
07:00Are you sure?
07:01Yeah.
07:02I don't want you to be here.
07:03Would he let him in?
07:04Alright, come on, get him.
07:05You've got grey hair in your beard, mate.
07:07Yes, I know I have.
07:08How are you?
07:08Grey hair and it's like a cat hair, innit?
07:10Nice to see you, pal.
07:11Thank you, mate.
07:11So do you.
07:12Yeah, Sean.
07:14How are you?
07:14Yeah, good.
07:15How are you?
07:16Yeah, not bad, sir.
07:17Yeah.
07:18She won't go away.
07:19How are you with sprouts?
07:21Trev's on the sofa, staring into space, while Chrissie smokes.
07:26At last.
07:27Ready?
07:28You took your bloody time.
07:29Yeah.
07:30Well, it was worth it.
07:31Right, what do you think this is all about, then?
07:33I think she's pregnant.
07:35Really?
07:35Yeah.
07:36You think?
07:36That's not news, is it?
07:38Unless it's going to be a yellow one.
07:40Oh, my God.
07:41Do you not know?
07:42She tells you everything.
07:44You've got to have some clue of what's going on.
07:46Not hinted?
07:47No, nothing.
07:47I don't know.
07:48I'd know as much as you two, honestly.
07:50No.
07:50It's got to be something big.
07:51They've never cooked dinner before, have they?
07:52No, that's true.
07:53Oh, I bet Woody's proposed.
07:56It's a wedding.
07:57Ha!
07:57Might be that, yeah.
07:59Trev.
07:59Well, maybe.
08:00We've got a wedding coming.
08:01Well, come on, we'll find out, then.
08:02Five pound bets it's a wedding.
08:04Five pound.
08:04Just hurry up.
08:05Five pound.
08:06Move!
08:11They leave, and the living room sits empty.
08:18This is England 90.
08:25At Woody's, everyone's round the table.
08:29What a frickin' lovely woods.
08:32Cheers, mate.
08:32I'm not going to have you down.
08:33Don't have to be a cook.
08:36Slaving this morning, I will.
08:38She knows things are good.
08:41Yeah.
08:41Yeah, yeah.
08:42So, come on, then.
08:45What are all doing here?
08:46It's a big surprise.
08:47Yeah, I've got a tenner on there.
08:50It's...
08:50And if I win, which I think I will,
08:53I'm taking you all to the pub.
08:55I ain't got a clue.
09:00Good? Bad?
09:02Bad.
09:03Bad.
09:05Bad.
09:06Huh?
09:09Fucking hell.
09:12We got you.
09:13We brought you.
09:13We didn't want to...
09:15It's bad news.
09:16We didn't want to...
09:18We want to tell you all together
09:19so we haven't got that thing where...
09:23somebody knows before anybody else.
09:26Cos you're all equally important...
09:28as one another,
09:29and we just want you to know before...
09:33we dropped the fucking bombshell on you
09:35that we love you very much.
09:38I would.
09:40Right, I'm gonna stop and...
09:44try my best to...
09:48tell you something.
09:54I'm sorry.
09:58No worries.
09:59I'm not...
10:01I'm not sure how I'm gonna say it.
10:03Just say it.
10:04You're just gonna have to bet with me.
10:08No, I'm not sure I can do it.
10:11It's all right.
10:12Take your time with you.
10:13Just say it, love. What's up?
10:18I've lied about something.
10:21Something...
10:24Something really big.
10:26Mm-hmm.
10:29If I did it for the right reasons...
10:38I didn't call...
10:40What?
10:41Chrissie looks at Kelly in shock.
10:44What about that?
10:48Lol steals herself to try and go on,
10:50and Woody rubs her shoulders comfortingly.
10:53She looks at Trev.
10:56Okay.
10:58What do you know?
11:01Trev...
11:02knows I'm gonna say this.
11:06And...
11:10Oh, God.
11:13Come on.
11:14Come on.
11:16Right.
11:17Cole.
11:19Mm-hmm.
11:22You know, the date that I died.
11:27You know, the date before...
11:30you went to the pub.
11:32Do you remember?
11:33Yeah.
11:37Well, Trev came round to get you.
11:42And you'd gone.
11:45And Dad let her in.
11:54He raped her.
12:01Honestly, girl, he raped her.
12:06And she came round to me the next day and told me.
12:11Everyone round the table looks at Trev in shock.
12:18Oh, God.
12:25Cal.
12:26You have to look up there.
12:28No, please.
12:31Please.
12:33Cal.
12:36Kelly covers her face with her hand.
12:43Combo didn't kill Dad.
12:47It was me.
12:50Kelly screws her eyes shut, turning away.
12:56Lol stares at her sister with tear-filled eyes.
13:00Kelly takes a deep breath.
13:04Oh.
13:08Oh.
13:10Kelly.
13:14Kelly.
13:14Who?
13:15Look at me, because you need to know.
13:18Kelly, look at me.
13:19Look at me.
13:20Yeah.
13:20You don't.
13:23Kelly, Dad loved you.
13:25He still just fucking...
13:27Yeah, I know.
13:28Don't say that.
13:29No, I know.
13:29He does still fucking love you.
13:30He does still fucking love you.
13:32You...
13:33You knew?
13:35I'm sorry.
13:36I'm sorry.
13:37Who else knew?
13:38I'm sorry who the fuck are you?
13:41Helen's here because Helen helped Lol through all that.
13:44Oh.
13:44So you've had help?
13:47She would have gone to jail if it wasn't for what Combo did.
13:50She...
13:51She would have gone to jail, Kelly, and she wouldn't have had us to look after her.
13:55And we didn't tell you because we didn't want this.
13:59We didn't want to hurt you, love.
14:01You were too young back then.
14:03We didn't want to...
14:04We didn't want to cause any unnecessary damage.
14:06We...
14:07We're telling you now because we have to.
14:09Kelly.
14:11You deserve to know that he wasn't a good man.
14:14He was not a good man.
14:16I can't believe it.
14:16He wasn't a good man to Mum.
14:17He wasn't a good man to me.
14:18He wasn't a good dad.
14:20If he wasn't a good man, why would Mum have kids with him?
14:24Well, because...
14:25Why would you have kids with him if he wasn't a good man?
14:28Brainwashed, Kel.
14:29He was a fucking vile, vile man.
14:31He was a rapist.
14:32He abused me for years, Kelly.
14:35Oh, my God.
14:36For years.
14:36And you know what?
14:38Right.
14:39Let me put it like this.
14:43I don't know if any of you know, but Combo is coming out.
14:49And if he wasn't, I would never breathe a word of this.
14:54I would happily take it to my grave, and I wouldn't put you through it.
14:58Any of you.
15:01But he's coming out.
15:02And then I can't allow a man who's took time for me
15:09to be put through something that he doesn't deserve to be put through.
15:13Are you going to have that?
15:15You're going to have it talking about a dad like that?
15:17Is that what you're going to actually stand here and put with?
15:19I don't know.
15:20If that was true, why would you let him fuck you?
15:22I don't know.
15:23You don't know the fucking truth.
15:24You need to tell her then.
15:26It was a bully, Kel.
15:27What, an easy fucking cop-out, cos he's in the fucking grand.
15:30It's not a cop-out.
15:31Kelly, why would I pop-out with that?
15:33Trev, why would she lie about that?
15:35Why would I...
15:36Why would I be putting any of you through this?
15:40Kel, I fucking love you.
15:43You're my sister.
15:44I want to protect you from everything.
15:46Everything.
15:47I never want you to be through any kind of pain.
15:50I never want to hurt you.
15:54But I have to be honest with you, Kel.
15:57I have to be honest with all of you.
16:01And I want you to know that this is fucking...
16:04This is horrible for me.
16:05It is horrible for you.
16:07And I will be there for you every step of the fucking way.
16:12Well, you three have been together all there for each other.
16:14No, it's nothing like that, Kelly.
16:15And you fucking knew.
16:16No, Kelly.
16:17We've left the fucking house this morning and she didn't...
16:19Kelly, you weren't there.
16:20We asked her if she had any idea of what was going to happen today.
16:23How could I have said that to you, Kelly?
16:25I have been there for you through everything.
16:28Don't even...
16:28I have been there for you from every step of the way.
16:31And I just...
16:32She'll be there for you.
16:32Oh, you two have been fucking there for each other.
16:35Kelly.
16:36Every fucking step of the way.
16:37How could I have told you?
16:37I've had nobody.
16:39I've had absolutely nobody.
16:41Well, you know you are once there.
16:42You are.
16:42Kelly.
16:43I've always known about that.
16:44I don't even know who the fuck you are and you're sat here.
16:47Kelly.
16:48How's that remote?
16:49I fucking...
16:50I fucking...
16:50Let it go.
16:51Let it go.
16:52Let it go.
16:54Let it go.
16:55Kelly.
16:55Kelly.
17:24Kelly.
17:26You know! You fucking know!
17:28I know! I know!
17:29And I didn't...
17:33I'm sorry! I'm sorry!
17:39I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.
17:42You were nothing to apologise for all time. I'm so sorry.
17:46But it wouldn't...
17:48It wouldn't have happened, wouldn't it?
17:50I'm so sorry.
17:51Don't be... Don't be...
17:53It was him. It was an evil fucker.
17:56I'm sorry. I didn't know anything about it.
17:58I swear to God, if you don't shut the fuck up
17:59saying stuff like that about my dad, I swear to God.
18:02You didn't say it, Kelly. You didn't say it.
18:04I know! You're all fucking liars.
18:06And it's easy to say it now.
18:07It's in the grind, isn't it?
18:09It's all right now. How would you know?
18:11Because you weren't ready!
18:12Oh, so were these two special?
18:15No, no.
18:16Was you special to me then?
18:19No! So you were so fucking special.
18:23Please, Kelly, stop it, Kelly.
18:25You were special, was you?
18:27You two were the special ones.
18:28Stop it, Kelly.
18:29How come he picked you two then?
18:31If he loved me! If he loved me!
18:34If he wanted to be picked, Kelly, listen to what you're saying!
18:36Hold on a second! I don't know that happened!
18:38Listen to what you're saying!
18:39I don't know that happened! It happened!
18:41Why was you that way?
18:42I lied to you! I fucking love you!
18:44You're my sister!
18:45Do you know why he didn't do it?
18:47Because he loved you!
18:48Oh, look!
18:49No! He fucking loved you!
18:50I'm telling you now!
18:51He liked it more!
18:52He never fucking loved you!
18:53He loved you, my boy, didn't he?
18:54Listen to what you're fucking saying, Kelly!
18:56How can you stand there?
18:57Kelly!
18:58I don't know what you're saying!
19:01Kelly, stop!
19:02How can you stand there?
19:04Stop! Stop!
19:06Traff!
19:07Just stop! Come here, sit there!
19:10Sit down for a minute!
19:12Sit down for just a minute!
19:14Kelly, listen!
19:15How do you feel?
19:16I can't see in this room!
19:17I know! I know!
19:18I know it's awful!
19:20I know it's awful!
19:21Mum, you have to talk!
19:22You have to open your mouth!
19:24Listen to your mum, Kelly!
19:26You have to listen to Mum!
19:27You have to listen to Mum!
19:29She was with him!
19:30You have to listen!
19:34Kelly, love!
19:36Mum, I'm not having it!
19:37There's no point telling me!
19:39There's no point telling me!
19:41Please listen to me!
19:44They're not making it up!
19:46They're not making it up, love!
19:48I'm sorry, I wish it would be different,
19:50but they're not making it up!
19:51So why did you call a poison then?
19:54Because I'm a fucking coward!
19:59I'm a fucking coward and I'm sorry!
20:03No, it's right!
20:04I saw what he was doing and I didn't fucking stop him!
20:07Because I was scared of him!
20:11I'm sorry, I'm sorry!
20:13Kelly, don't touch me!
20:15Please, Kelly, love, please!
20:17Come on, God!
20:18Please!
20:20I enjoy it!
20:22Kelly!
20:23Kelly leaves!
20:26It's a lot for her to take in!
20:28It's a lot for her to take in just now!
20:30Give her time!
20:31Just give her time!
20:34I'm so sorry!
20:37Don't believe me!
20:38Believe me, I'm really!
20:42You alright, Bill?
20:45How have you fucking lived with this for so long?
20:47And not said anything?
20:50Like, you said we're fucking family!
20:54Why suffer with this by yourself?
20:57I don't understand it!
21:00And what the fuck is this about, Combo?
21:05Come on, Bill!
21:06He needs somewhere to be!
21:09Bill, you need somewhere to be, man!
21:12He has to stay here, there's nowhere else to go!
21:16Hold on a second!
21:17What the fuck are you on about?
21:19There's nowhere else for him to be!
21:21Man, without him, we wouldn't have any of this!
21:25I forgave you!
21:27I forgave you!
21:28And you've got to try and find a way to forgive him, man!
21:31I know it's not easy!
21:33So, hold on a second!
21:34He tried to tell me at least...
21:37He's fucking coming out of prison!
21:38And coming in here!
21:39People change!
21:41People change!
21:41You've fucking changed!
21:43I don't want to hear the fuck!
21:44The people fucking changed!
21:45The whole change!
21:46She'll fucking change!
21:48One day she'll see sense!
21:50One day she will fucking see sense!
21:52And do you know what?
21:53He's seen sense!
21:54Combo has seen sense!
21:56I know, man!
21:57I know you're reckless!
21:57I'm sorry, Bill, but I have to make sure you...
21:59Well, you don't fucking know!
22:00Let me tell you that!
22:02No, I know!
22:02You don't fucking know!
22:03I understand what forgiveness is, man!
22:05Don't you fucking go there, dude!
22:08You fucking...
22:09You made the love of my life!
22:11I had to watch your fucking child being born talk to me about forgiveness!
22:16It's not about us, man!
22:18It's about our children!
22:19It's not about us!
22:21See past it, mate!
22:23You've got to see past it, man!
22:26I'm sorry, man!
22:28I'm sorry!
22:29I'm sorry!
22:30I know, man!
22:31I know how angry you are!
22:32I can feel it on you, dude!
22:33You fucking don't know!
22:35I'm not doing anything wrong!
22:37I'm not trying to hurt you!
22:38You don't fucking know!
22:40I'm telling you!
22:40No, I know, but...
22:41Woody!
22:42I've fucking done wrong!
22:44Yeah!
22:46I've fucking done wrong!
22:48And thank you for fucking forgiving me!
22:50But I swear to fucking God!
22:52I am not having that man!
22:54Fucking living in the same house with my fucking daughter!
22:57But where else do I put him?
23:00Where else do I...
23:01Milk!
23:01I could be impeding!
23:02He ain't my fucking problem!
23:04But he's fine!
23:04He is not my fucking problem!
23:06He fucking stabbed my head into the fucking floor!
23:09I know he did!
23:09I know milk it, mate!
23:10I know he did, man!
23:12Milk, I know he...
23:13Listen, stop!
23:13Stop!
23:14Please calm down for just a minute, man!
23:16I know he did!
23:17I know!
23:17I can say I've never seen you like this!
23:21Milk, listen!
23:22Please listen to me!
23:23Please listen to me!
23:24I know he did!
23:26I can't deal with this right now!
23:27I swear to God!
23:28I...
23:29Trev!
23:29I will fucking be there for you!
23:31Whatever you fucking need!
23:33Kelly!
23:34All of you!
23:35I fucking loved a lot of you!
23:36But there's one thing I'm not fucking having!
23:39It's him!
23:39Living in the same house as my fucking kid!
23:42I can't even believe you fucking think I'd...
23:45I'd live with this!
23:46She's my kid too!
23:48She's my kid too!
23:49She's my kid too!
23:51She's fucking changed so good, man!
23:54She has!
23:55She has, Milk!
23:55I know it's hard to accept!
23:57I know it is, man!
23:58Listen, it's...
23:59Forgiveness is fucking underrated, mate!
24:02It is!
24:03Without forgiveness, we wouldn't even be here having this chat, would we?
24:07We wouldn't even be here doing this!
24:11Would we, man?
24:14Please, Milk, try and see past how angry you are!
24:18What he did was awful!
24:19It's unforgivable what Combo did to you, man!
24:21I'll never forgive him for that!
24:22There's no way!
24:23You hit the nail on the fucking head there, mate!
24:25You hit the fucking nail on the head!
24:28It's un-fucking-forgivable!
24:30He's a fucking racist!
24:32So what do I do, Milk?
24:41Fucking bastard!
24:42He's gonna have anything to do with the fucking...
24:44My fucking black child!
24:47Oh, man!
24:47Listen to me!
24:49Listen to me!
24:50We'll fix this!
24:52We'll fix me before!
24:54We'll fix it again!
24:55And look at me out of here!
24:57Look at me now!
24:58They continue to argue, Milkie in tears,
25:02Woody crying and rubbing his beard in desperation.
25:09Sean just sits listening, Hante's mouth,
25:12with an expression of utter desolation on his face.
25:16Milkie sobs, then sips at his bottle of beer,
25:19and Lol stares into space, looking hopeless,
25:23until eventually she turns to glance at Milkie.
25:29In slow motion, Kelly pulls clothes out of her drawer at home,
25:33then starts to stuff them into a hold-all.
25:40Her face crumples with tears,
25:42as she shoves the clothes into her bag.
25:48Then she hooks it over her shoulder,
25:50and heads for the door of her bedroom.
25:55Outside, still in slow motion,
25:57she runs down a path.
26:01Her long blonde hair billows out behind her as she runs.
26:05Her face is set in a devastated frown.
26:09Now she's heading through a bleak underpass,
26:12the lights flickering above, turning her face a ghostly yellow.
26:20She walks on into the shadows,
26:22until her face is completely obscured by the dark.
26:33This is England 90.
26:41One week later.
26:47Harvey's empty flat.
26:52Gadget comes running down the stairs,
26:54and opens the front door.
27:11He ushers Kelly inside.
27:16Woody's asleep in bed.
27:19Lol comes in fully dressed,
27:21and with a cup of tea for him.
27:26Here you go.
27:27Thanks, Lol.
27:28What are you doing?
27:29Do you mean what am I doing?
27:30I'm going to get a combo.
27:32What time is it?
27:33Half seven.
27:34Fucking hell.
27:35Well, it's not that far away, Liv.
27:36Yeah, I know, but I might get stuck in traffic.
27:39What about Lisa?
27:41Woody sits up a little.
27:44I'm not going to be here when she goes.
27:46I can't do it.
27:47I can't do it, Woody.
27:48I've just been packing a shit,
27:49blubbing my eyes out,
27:50and I can't let her see me like that,
27:52so I want her to think it's a good thing
27:55that she's going to go and stay with her dad,
27:56and I can't do it.
27:59I know, I'm a shit mum.
28:00Don't. Stop.
28:01I can't even believe I'm having to do it, Woody.
28:04Stop.
28:04You're not a shit mum, Lol.
28:07You're not a shit mum.
28:09Well, you just make sure you give her a kiss.
28:11Tell her that I'll see her soon, and...
28:13Stop worrying about it.
28:15Stop worrying about it.
28:17She's coming back.
28:18Well, I know she is.
28:20All right?
28:20Yeah.
28:21All right, I'll see you in a minute.
28:22Drive safe.
28:23I will.
28:23Don't drive angry.
28:24I love you.
28:27She leaves.
28:29Sean's in the car with his mum driving.
28:34Oh.
28:37I feel a bit nervous, Sean.
28:39Why?
28:41I've not seen them all for, like, over nine years.
28:46You'd be fine.
28:47We used to travel all over with them lot.
28:50We used to love it.
28:51Went to, um...
28:52Love her? It's good.
28:53...Berlin.
28:54Had a little girlfriend there.
28:55Hiker.
28:56Do you remember her?
28:57Sort of.
28:58You used to run away from her when she tried to kiss you.
29:00Yeah.
29:01She wouldn't try that now.
29:02She'd be great, wouldn't she?
29:03Yeah.
29:04We had little trunks on.
29:05I remember being by...
29:06I think it was at the swimming baths.
29:08We had a little pair of blue and white striped trunks.
29:11And then they were fast.
29:13I don't know much like that.
29:14And then I fell into labour in Glasgow.
29:17Oh, wasn't it?
29:19Well, the other bloody kid did she think I've got.
29:21Yeah, you, you'd have to hate birth.
29:23So I was born in Scotland?
29:25Why are you having a mardy about that?
29:27Well, you've never thought to tell me.
29:29Damn Scottish.
29:31Why does it matter?
29:32What do you mean, why does it matter?
29:33Because I'm not even English.
29:35Of course you are.
29:36Me and your dad are bloody English.
29:38It's a bit, it's exotic, isn't it?
29:40It's not exotic, it's horrible.
29:42I thought people from Scotland ate it English.
29:44Oh, they have got a bit of a chip on their shoulders, I suppose.
29:46So you've never crushed your minds to tell me that I'm Scottish?
29:48You never really came up.
29:50Oh, Sean, have you done your own work?
29:51You're Scottish.
29:56You gonna...
29:58tell us what all this is about, or...?
30:04It's just been...
30:07One of them weeks, Gaj.
30:09It's been more than one of them fucking weeks, Kyle.
30:10You've got a bag full of your own clothes there, love.
30:14What's up with you?
30:16Why don't you ask the three musk of fucking tears?
30:21About three musk of tears.
30:24You fell out with your mum again?
30:26My mum not give a shit, Gaj.
30:28Kelly...
30:29I've been away for a fucking week.
30:31Of course she gives a shit.
30:33Has she rang?
30:34Has she rang you?
30:36No, no, she's not rang, but...
30:38Exactly.
30:40Kelly, that's your mum.
30:43She...
30:44She loves you.
30:48She loves a little more.
30:50Oh, for God.
30:51She loves you both, you're both her daughters, Cal.
30:54I'll tell you what, Trev's a light cunt, no?
31:00What about Trev?
31:03Kelly shakes her head.
31:06Kelly, you're fucking scaring me now, love.
31:12Sorry.
31:13Fucking say sorry.
31:17Just tell me what's up, mate.
31:19Please.
31:22She looks at him, through wide, tear-filled eyes, and nods.
31:27Lal's driving down a deserted country road.
31:32She keeps her eyes fixed on the road ahead,
31:35as memories flash into her mind,
31:37of her dad shaking her head,
31:40and screaming abuse into her face.
31:46In slow motion, she continues to drive.
31:52Lilky pulls up by a row of bleak-looking houses.
31:56Lisa's in the passenger seat next to him.
32:01He climbs out of the car, and Lisa gets out after him.
32:09Holding hands, they walk off up the steps that lead up to his house.
32:14Woody's been left at home, looking after the baby.
32:18He's half lying on the floor, watching the baby drive a wooden toy up and down the rug.
32:25Woody covers his mouth with his hand, looking thoughtful.
32:31Milky and Lisa walk hand in hand up to a gate and head through it.
32:38Lol remembers her dad lying on the floor in a pool of blood, her face filled with rage
32:43as she lifted her arm to hit him again.
32:47As she carries on driving, she remembers Combo taking her dad's hand and smearing it over
32:53his own face, then using it to hit himself hard on the cheek.
32:59In prison, Combo's sitting up in bed.
33:03Slowly, he gets off the bed, and onto his knees on the floor.
33:08He picks up a wooden crucifix, and holds it tightly in his hands, bowing his head in prayer.
33:19A memory of Mick kissing Trev, grasping both sides of her face, which is contorted with
33:25fear.
33:27Tears roll down Kelly's cheeks, and Gadget stares at her with concern.
33:32Grasping her hand in his.
33:36A memory of Lol pulling Trev in for a hug.
33:42Now Lol in the present, driving towards the prison.
33:47Mick sitting, staring.
33:50Then Kelly, lying asleep in bed.
33:54Sean and his mum are sitting round a table in a pub, with soldiers in civvies and their wives.
34:29Oh, it's lovely to see you all.
34:29Yeah.
34:30I wanted him to see where his dad's from, you know, and see you all again.
34:34Last time he saw you, he was only a little one, weren't he?
34:37Well, I am a little now, aren't I?
34:38Lovely.
34:39Yeah, stand up, let's have a key.
34:40Come on, come on.
34:41Come on.
34:41Sean gets to his feet.
34:43Oh, look at that.
34:44He's not too big for a smacked arse.
34:47Well, Regiment would have been the A-fix Regiment, didn't it?
34:50Willy Wonka's Regiment.
34:54Hey, he's going nowhere.
34:57You want another one?
34:59Gadget trudges down the wide walkway that leads to Harvey's flat, laden with shopping bags.
35:08He pushes open the door to go inside, and into the kitchen, where Harvey's inhaling the smoke from some drugs
35:15through a plastic bottle.
35:20Hello, Gary.
35:25That's a lot of shopping for us two, who live here solely by ourselves.
35:29Oh, no, I'm starting, mate.
35:33Why share, mate?
35:35I'm not starting, lad.
35:36I'm not starting, I'm asking you a question, boss.
35:39I should stay in here for a bit.
35:41This is my flat, mate.
35:43This is where, where I live.
35:44Shh.
35:45I think I was kind enough to have you in here, mate.
35:47But, er, if we're going to bring Kelly in here, I don't know why the fuck she's here.
35:51She had a fallout of her mum and that.
35:54Right.
35:56So she's...
35:58So she's staying here for a bit, yeah?
36:00Right.
36:00She has a lot of fallouts with the mother.
36:03It's different this time, eh?
36:05Okay.
36:05Can you remember the time that her father was brutally moving through the hammer?
36:08Ah, for sure, man!
36:09She went fucking here then, was she?
36:10Shut the fuck up, mate.
36:10You can't say shit like that.
36:12This is my gaff, mate.
36:13I want to know why the fuck she's here.
36:17I can't...
36:17I can't tell you.
36:18You can?
36:18I can't tell you how...
36:19You can.
36:21I promised Kelly I would.
36:23Well, I don't give a fuck, mate.
36:24This is my gaff.
36:25You need to fucking tell me.
36:26If you're staying here, I need to know why.
36:31It's about what you were talking about.
36:35Harvey gives him an expectant look.
36:42You know how that combo's banged up?
36:46Right.
36:49It wasn't him who did it.
36:53He just...
36:56took blame for someone else.
36:58For him.
37:05For him.
37:10Mate, he took the rap for a lot.
37:14Well...
37:15Well...
37:16I...
37:17Kelly didn't go into detail, right, but...
37:21She...
37:21She knew.
37:22She was...
37:23It wasn't a fight.
37:24She was...
37:25She was going there.
37:28For that.
37:32Fucking hell, man.
37:34She...
37:35She murdered their dad, mate.
37:42I can't let her go back there, Alf.
37:44I can't let her go back there, Alf.
37:45She's not going fucking back there, Alf.
37:47Just stay here, man.
37:47Just stay here.
37:51I can't...
37:52I can't...
37:52I can't help her.
37:53I don't know how...
37:53I'll...
37:54I'll...
37:54I can't.
37:56A tear rolls down Gadget's cheek, and he presses his fingers into his eyes, then starts to
38:03delve in his shopping bags.
38:06Harvey comes over, to help him unpack the shopping.
38:13Lol's leaning against the fence that surrounds the prison.
38:18She taps the ash from the end of her cigarette, arms folded, and turns her head slightly towards
38:25the entrance. Inside, Combo's standing with his arms outstretched, being patted down by
38:33a prison officer. He folds something up and puts it in a bag. Then the prison officer pulls on
38:45plastic gloves, and Combo bends over. Combo pulls off his sweater. Lal's still waiting outside,
39:03leaning against the fence. Combo signs his name. Then a prison officer opens a gate, and Combo
39:27steps through it, turning the collar of his coat up against the cold outside.
39:34Lal takes a long drag of her fag. Then, in slow motion, she looks up to see Combo being let
39:41out through the prison gates.
39:46He walks towards her, as she waits with her arms folded. She smiles, and he strides over
39:53to her. Then they turn, and walk off, arm in arm. Combo exhales, looking emotional.
40:10This is England 90.
40:19Night time.
40:20Night time. Lal's car pulls up outside hers and Woody's house.
40:29Combo undoes his seatbelt, pauses for a slight moment, then gets out of the car.
40:38Lal gets out of the driver's side, and bends to lock the door. There's a slight air of uneasiness
40:45between them. Inside, Woody's sitting on the sofa, looking on edge. He gets to his feet.
40:59Lal comes in, and Combo follows.
41:03Hi, everyone.
41:05Woody bursts into tears. Then Combo starts to sob, too, and Lal puts her arms around him.
41:13Woody trudges across the room to them.
41:17As Lal and Combo pull apart, Woody comes over to him, and puts his arms around him, Combo sobbing
41:24into his chest. At Milky's...
41:28You get tucked in, and I'll get the teddies in the good places.
41:33Like this one? Yep. Yep. What about this one? Oh, he don't look very well, does he? He's got an
41:40injury.
41:42Move him!
41:43Yeah, I know. Looks like roadkill.
41:45We'll leave him just there.
41:47Where's that one going?
41:48Next to this one. Okay.
41:50All in a row.
41:51This has turned into a good sleepover.
41:54And then put that one just there.
41:57Oh, this is fun.
41:59Put this one.
42:00Any more?
42:02What about this one? He looks cute.
42:04Yeah.
42:04Can I have that one?
42:05No.
42:06Oh, go on then. Can I have this one then?
42:08Go on then.
42:11Harvey, Gadget and Kelly are having their dinner in front of the TV.
42:17I can't believe you cleaned the floor.
42:21Needed it.
42:25Kelly glances at Gadget.
42:29How's your yolk? Is it runny enough?
42:32Yours is.
42:33Oh, I like it runny.
42:34Can you get your tips in it then?
42:37Like that.
42:38Can you shut the fuck up a minute?
42:39Go on. Go on, please.
42:44Can't talk while he's watching this shit.
42:48Like a 55-year-old fucking moment.
42:52At Woody's.
42:55You look bloody old.
42:57Oh, dear.
42:58Thanks.
43:00Lol holds out a lighter for Combo to light his fag.
43:05You look like David Bellamy. Cheeky bastard.
43:09It's wheelie wheelie undergoes.
43:12Combo lights Woody's fag. Then Woody takes a sip of tea.
43:16Oh, shit.
43:19Thank you both so much.
43:23Oh, thank you.
43:28And little Lisa.
43:30Shall we hear Dad?
43:31Yeah?
43:32Yeah.
43:33It's his weekend.
43:34Well, she's...
43:35She's...
43:36She's due a bit of time with her dad, so...
43:39We're gonna just...
43:40Look, if there's any problems, you know, if there's any...
43:41There's no problems.
43:42There's no problems.
43:42No, no, no.
43:43Stop, stop, stop, stop.
43:44Listen to me.
43:45She needed to spend a bit of time with her dad, and that's what she's doing, so...
43:48You know, for the first couple of weeks, you've got your own room, you can have a bit of space,
43:52sort yourself out.
43:53It's been agreed, it's fine.
43:54It's work day.
43:55That's what I want.
43:56This is home.
43:57Okay?
43:58I mean that.
43:59While you're here.
44:02Always will be.
44:08Oh, it's bloody freezing.
44:10Oh, you know what I was thinking this year?
44:13What?
44:13Christmas dinner.
44:14Yeah.
44:15Instead of me, cooking and doing all the bloody washing up and everything.
44:19Yeah.
44:19Just gonna get Sanders to take us out for a nice dinner, what do you think?
44:23It'll be nice, but your cooking's loads nicer.
44:25Oh, Sean, you know how to flatter your mother.
44:28Ha-ha.
44:29Fancy better chips, give me this.
44:31I know, yeah.
44:31How about that bloke in the middle of the road won't move?
44:33I know.
44:34It was a Jimmy, hello, darling.
44:35Hi, Sanders.
44:35How are you, love?
44:36How are you?
44:37Good, how was your day?
44:38It was lovely.
44:39We had a really nice day, didn't we?
44:40It was good fun, yeah.
44:41Me and Lardy here had a laugh.
44:42Yeah, it was fun.
44:43It's other than the fact I found out I'm Scottish.
44:45Oh, don't give up.
44:46You what?
44:46No, I'm Scottish.
44:48It's for you, Jimmy.
44:49Don't ask.
44:51Don't ask.
44:52It probably explains why I'm ginger.
44:54Yeah, probably.
44:56Hey, look.
44:57There's something here for you.
44:59What's that?
45:00It's got the college mark on it.
45:03So what?
45:03Bloody hell.
45:04Come on.
45:06Oh, you don't think they will have reconsidered?
45:07No, no.
45:08No, they might have done.
45:09Get it open.
45:09They've probably just re-sent a rejection letter by accident.
45:12Come on, Sean, open it.
45:13Let's have a look.
45:13Come on.
45:13I'd just rather leave it.
45:15Oh, don't do that.
45:16Bloody hell.
45:17I won't be able to sleep.
45:18Get it open.
45:18Jesus.
45:21As Sean opens the envelope, his mum and Mr Sandu exchange glances.
45:26He pulls out the letter inside.
45:34Dear Sean, due to a student withdrawing from our first year photography diploma course,
45:39we are pleased to inform you that your application has been reconsidered and we can now offer you
45:44a place here at Winsill Technical College.
45:46Yay!
45:47Yay!
45:50Yay!
45:50Yay!
45:50Give me five.
45:52I'm so happy for you.
45:54Give me six.
45:54I'm shocked some bloody bits.
45:56Jesus, that's the best news for the whole day.
45:59Hello.
45:59Sean.
46:01Oh, good on you now.
46:02I'm so happy for you.
46:04At Woody's, Combo's running himself a bath.
46:07He tests the temperature of the water coming out of the tab, then grabs a bottle of bubble bath
46:13and pours in a hefty measure.
46:16Downstairs, lols with Woody.
46:22Oh, I'm exhausted.
46:26Christ, I love you, you know.
46:28I love you too.
46:29More than you'll ever know.
46:32More than you will ever know.
46:35They look at each other for a moment, then Woody gets up and crosses the room.
46:41Lol.
46:44He comes back over to her, moves his chair out of the way, then kneels in front of her,
46:49rubbing a length of yellow plasticine in his hands.
46:53Is this a trick?
46:55Give me this finger here.
46:56What are you doing?
46:57Come here, give me a finger.
46:58Just hold your hand out like that.
47:00Woody, what is this?
47:01Hold your hand out, trust me.
47:05Woody.
47:06Woody.
47:07What?
47:09What?
47:11Where's your towels?
47:13In the cupboard behind the bath.
47:18Nice one.
47:21Combo pads off.
47:25What's going on?
47:26I want you to marry me.
47:28Shut up, Woody.
47:29I want you to marry me.
47:30Please marry me.
47:30Woody.
47:34Marry me.
47:35Of course I want you.
47:38Oh, Woody.
47:40A plasticine ring.
47:42Oh, my God.
47:44Are you being serious?
47:46Yeah.
47:46I never know with you.
47:48No, of course I'm being serious.
47:50I've got to do it this time.
47:52Really?
47:53Yeah.
47:55Oh, Christ.
47:56What's going on?
48:00Combo's back and we're getting married.
48:03What's going on?
48:05Looks good on you.
48:10Oh, baby.
48:14They hug.
48:16Milky's sitting at his desk at home.
48:18He picks up the phone.
48:25Looking at it for a moment,
48:27he dials a number.
48:38Yeah, you alright? It's me.
48:44No, we're not doing it tonight.
48:48No, I'm not backing out.
48:51They agreed and she's here with me.
48:53She's safe.
48:56Yeah.
48:57Just put her to bed.
48:58She's upstairs.
49:02I don't want it happening tonight,
49:03but trust me, it will happen.
49:10I understand.
49:13But...
49:13Like I say, just...
49:15Just wait until I say.
49:20Yeah, I love you too.
49:23Love you.
49:25Bye.
49:26Bye.
49:29He hangs up the phone,
49:30then clasps his hands together.
49:39At Harvey's, Kelly heads up the stairs.
49:44When I'm outside the station...
49:47She crosses the landing,
49:49and goes into the bathroom.
49:56Inside, in slow motion,
49:58by a flickering greenish light,
50:01she turns her head,
50:02and pulls out a square of silver foil.
50:07With an army around you...
50:10She unfolds it,
50:11then empties out a small bag of heroin into it.
50:18She puts the end of a wide straw in her mouth,
50:22then flicks on a lighter,
50:24holds it underneath the foil,
50:26and inhales the vapour through the straw.
50:28For me.
50:31For me.
50:33For me.
50:36For me.
50:37The old life is over.
50:40Reflected in the mirror of the grubby bathroom cabinet,
50:43she flicks the lighter off again.
50:45The old life is over.
50:48Then she closes her eyes,
50:50and tilts her head backwards.
50:53When, when, when...
50:58While you time round the face me.
51:04When, when...
51:04She tilts her head to smile up at him,
51:07and he looks down at her.
51:09Then she closes her eyes,
51:11and rests her head back against his chest.
51:15Well, when...
51:17Still in slow motion,
51:18Combo heads into Lisa's bedroom,
51:20and picks up a small plastic bag full of photos.
51:24he stares at the top black and white image of a man then swallows hard at
51:34home Milky's wearing a red hoodie and practicing some boxing moves in his
51:39darkened living room from the truth he swings out imaginary punches left and
51:47right now he's sitting with his head bent over
51:54standing up again he paces across the floor with his hands on his hips in
52:00Harvey's bathroom Kelly opens her eyes
52:06www.channel4.com forward slash this is England 90
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