Still Loading (Almost Me) is a moody gothic darkwave track about becoming whole without rushing the process.
It explores the quiet realization that growth isn’t about perfection — it’s about acceptance, patience, and choosing yourself piece by piece.
Using the metaphor of a system download, the song reflects on identity, emotional completion, and learning to exist without waiting for approval. Not broken. Just unfinished. And that’s okay.
🖤 A song for anyone who feels like they’re still becoming.
LYRICS:
[Verse 1]
I wake up half-rendered in the glow of the screen
Lines still buffering between who I am and who I’ve been
Every mirror freezes before it tells the truth
I learned how to wait, but I never learned how to choose
I wore borrowed versions, tried them all on for size
Smiled through the static, hid the cracks in my eyes
I kept the parts that made it easier to stay
Deleted the rest like they were taking up space
[Pre-Chorus]
I thought being ready meant being clean
But nothing real loads perfectly
[Chorus]
I’m still loading, almost me
Watching pieces fall into place slowly
Not broken, just incomplete
Still loading, almost me
I don’t need to rush the screen
I’m becoming who I’m meant to be
[Verse 2]
I chased approval like it was proof I existed
Built my name out of wants I never resisted
Every update promised clarity
But the missing file was honesty
I muted my doubts, called it peace of mind
But silence isn’t safety when it’s self-designed
I kept restarting, afraid to stay
Like I’d lose everything if I finished the change
[Pre-Chorus]
I used to think I had to win
But arriving feels better than fitting in
[Chorus]
I’m still loading, almost me
Watching pieces fall into place slowly
Not broken, just incomplete
Still loading, almost me
I don’t need to rush the screen
I’m becoming who I’m meant to be
[Bridge]
If I stop waiting for the bar to fill
If I let myself feel unfinished still
Maybe wholeness isn’t a final state
Maybe it’s choosing not to hesitate
I don’t need a perfect design
Just a version that’s finally mine
[Chorus]
I’m still loading, almost me
No more hiding from what I see
Not flawless, just finally free
Still loading, almost me
Every piece belongs to me
I’m not done—but I’m enough to be
[Outro]
No countdown, no release
Just one more step toward honesty
Still loading…
Almost me.
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