00:00I retrained my brain to figure out how to make music for myself again, to actually make
00:07the music that I enjoyed, not the stuff that I thought was going to go popular
00:12after TikTok ruined fucking everything.
00:21I got this like brand new studio under my house and I opened myself to working with others,
00:27cooperating more using the space that I now have attained. I had someone working in the other room
00:33while me and another person were working in this room and we were all fucked on ketamine.
00:49The initial inspiration for Mercury was me going on my third tour ever and the love of my life
00:57who I got a green card for going back to her home. I think of love kind of as this helix
01:03sort of shape where you're doing a dance. It's kind of like when slugs are fucking this
01:08dance of push and pull, you need to constantly be in motion for that gravitational pull to even
01:15exist. And once one falls out of motion, then it gets torn.
01:20The idea of someone owning a replica of something that's just so desired like an artifact and then
01:39valuing that more than the original artifact is very ironic to me. And I feel like that can be found in
01:45the way we take pictures of each other when you're far apart from your lover. When love erodes into lust,
01:53I just want something to cure me and get rid of this poison in my body.
01:59I think this paints very much an imagery of sterile love. I'm offering you myself, my body,
02:15my love, and my time. But here you are wearing a glove so it never actually contacts the skin.
02:20In this moment, I love you. I won't let you down, let you down, let you down, let you down.
02:29Sometimes you need to leave in order to come back and see what went wrong. It's sort of like a plea
02:34of regret. Like, wait, wait for me. In this moment, I can love you. But it obviously implies temporally
02:41that you're only there for that moment. I promise that I won't let you down. I promise that I will
02:46give you what you need right now. There's too much technology. We've gotten to a point
03:03where it doesn't feel like progress anymore. And I feel like a lot of people share that opinion.
03:07Nobody has a semblance of privacy when they walk. That's the cost of freedom. Technology cannot be put
03:14back in the bag. Mercury represents spyware in the blood. Devil entendre is that. And this song
03:21makes me feel like the planet Mercury, which is the loneliest planet in the solar system.
03:26I'm what you wanted. I'm what you wanted me to be. I'm so exhausted. I can always pretend to be
03:42somebody else. I've climbed a fucking mountain to accomplish things that people can't even see
03:50be through my online persona, what they asked me to be, what they expected me to be. I rose to the occasion.
04:00It's getting to a point where my body is moving without me. I am so exhausted of my medical, my work,
04:10this relationship that I'm now asking who is it all for again.
04:33The throne is ego. This person hasn't earned this high place, this luxurious lifestyle.
04:38They feel entitled to it. They're not grateful for what I've given them. It's hilarious because
04:42I'm borrowing this lyric from a song I wrote in 2018, which were part of my demos that I shipped
04:48off to Warner before I got signed. And I never released that song, but I always loved the bridge
04:54of that song. Conspiracy of Ravens and murder of crows. It's just such strange words to like,
04:58you know, you got a bunch of bananas, right? A flock of geese. The fuck is a conspiracy of
05:04rapids and a murder of crows. That's British. Every time I hear this song, this purity washes over me.
05:12I'm not going to say it's the best song that I've ever made. I'm going to say that it's the song that
05:18identifies me suburban as a concept more than any other.
05:25I disappeared for three years after the last time I was here, I had like a prosthetic on and
05:30the red wig. And that was a fun time, but I hated my music so fucking much. Honestly,
05:37the song, when I listened to it sounds pathetic. I think that's kind of beautiful of an admittance
05:45because it is pathetic.
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