00:00There was a time, Mimilani, sa buhay mo, na bigla ka nalang nawalaan, hindi nagparamdam.
00:13It was an episode in your life when your friends were asking, what's happening?
00:17Palagay ko ito yung tamang panahon para tanuin ka, ano ba ang nangyari nun? Saan ka ba nagpunta?
00:23Kuya boy, inabdak ako. I was kidnapped against my will. I was a judge. Nobody talked to me. I cannot talk to anyone.
00:36My phone got hacked. And it's on my birthday. Birthday ko mismo, nung inabdak ako.
00:43Because I filed a case against Randy, yung suntok niya sa akin, nawala ako.
00:49So, nung nawala ako, linagay ko si mental hospital, thinking, si Raolo ako, well, in fact, I'm taking care of my two boys,
00:57and then I'm having a construction, binili kong lupa, bigla kong nawala.
01:04I was only invited to celebrate my birthday, but never, I never thought that this celebration will be my trauma.
01:13But I let them be. I just, parang nag-observe ako, kuya boy.
01:17Mimi, I'm sorry. Paano ka inabdak? At gaano ka katagal sa mental hospital?
01:25Nagulat nga ako eh. Inabdak ako, kuya boy. Sininjection nila ako, I cannot move.
01:32And I was crying because it was clear enough betrayal of trust.
01:38I don't want to mention anybody, but I was hurt.
01:44Then, nung iniwan ako dun sa facility, tinatawag ko sila, bakit ako naiwan dito?
01:53Inanok ko, hinila ako ng mga ano, yung mga ten...
01:55Facility made? Mental hospital.
01:56Mental hospital. Hindi ko pa alam mental hospital yun.
02:00Inanok ko, tas dinala ako sa fourth floor.
02:02Tinali nila ako. Sabi ko, ba't niyo ako tinataling? Hindi naman ako nagwawala.
02:06Sabi ko, mandatory daw.
02:08Sabi ko, nasaan ako?
02:11Tapos kinabukasan, sinabi ko, nasaan ako?
02:16Ang mental hospital po ito, saan?
02:19Pasig, bakit ako nandito?
02:22Ang pinakamasakit dito, kuya boy, hiniwalay nila ako sa anak ko.
02:27Sa dalawang anak.
02:28Umiyak ako.
02:32Na ano nila, hindi nila naintindihan yung sinabi kong,
02:37kung mamamatay ako, kasi hindi ko alam,
02:40mga anak ko, no, mahal na mahal ko, yung dalawang autistic,
02:43sana, kaming tatlo, mamatay ko na,
02:46nag-crash yung plane, ganyan, kaming tatlo.
02:49Para at least hindi ko na maisip ang mga anak ko na iwanan ko.
02:52Hindi ko alam kung sino magmamahal sa kanila.
02:56Then, inibaniling storya.
03:00Ang ginawan storya, na ako daw,
03:03papatayin ko yung mga anak ko,
03:04at papatayin ko sarili ko.
03:06My goodness!
03:08Malaga, ang kinatatakutan ko lang talaga, kuya boy,
03:12ang Panginoon.
03:13Hindi ko papatayin sarili ko.
03:16At lang, hindi ko papatayin ang mga mahal ko sa buhay,
03:18na sila ang strength ko.
03:19My autistic boy, I can feel their love to me, with me,
03:24and they helped me out, kahit na hindi sila ganun normal.
03:28But I felt their love lang,
03:30na pag hinahaga ko.
03:31Ay, yun ang kailangan ko eh.
03:33Klingi ako, kuya boy eh.
03:34I wanna be loved.
03:35I want attention.
03:37Siguro, that's why God gave me this too.
03:39It's because they're the one giving it.
03:41You know, my wish na mahalin ako ng totoo.
03:45Iginagalan ko ang sinabi mo,
03:46ayaw mo magpangalan ng mga pangalan.
03:48Pero, was Randy part of this whole thing?
03:53Later, yun ano,
03:55nung nagugulit kasi ako,
03:58nung doon sa mental,
04:01nandun ako,
04:02bago ako,
04:03bago ako inilagay sa rehab,
04:05hindi ko alam lalagay ako sa rehab eh.
04:07Punta pa kami sa hospital.
04:08So, iba pa yung rehab sa mental?
04:10Oo, iba pa yun.
04:11Ten days ako sa mental.
04:13Tapos pinakuha nila kung pwede daw kumuha ng blood test.
04:16Sabi ko, okay.
04:18Sabi ko, tapos hair.
04:20Okay.
04:21Tapos saliva.
04:22Okay.
04:24Tapos biglang,
04:26after ten days,
04:26hindi ko na kaalam yung day na yun eh.
04:29Injection na naman nila ako.
04:31Nang?
04:33Nung facility,
04:34nung mga tao.
04:35Injection na ako.
04:36Nang wala na ako ng malay.
04:39Paggising ko,
04:41iba na yun, ano,
04:41iba na yun environment.
04:43I'm in the rehab already.
04:46Okay.
04:47So, inilipat ka?
04:48Nilipat ako.
04:49Nagulat ako.
04:49Sabi ko,
04:50so ako naman,
04:51I'm curious.
04:52Sabi ko,
04:53okay.
04:54Ibang yung dugtong ng buhay ko ito.
04:57Susulatan ko ito one day.
04:59Nandun ako,
05:00but,
05:01bakit ako nandito?
05:03Kasi sa rehab,
05:04kuya boy,
05:05parang nasa jail ako na,
05:07wala lang rehas.
05:08Bakit ako nandoon?
05:11Sino ang nagjajad sa akin dito?
05:13Bakit nila ako linagay dito
05:15na di man lang nila ako kinausap?
05:17Did you get answers?
05:18I didn't talk to anyone.
05:21I can only write.
05:23And then,
05:23latter part,
05:24eight months ako dyan, ha?
05:26Sa rehab?
05:27Yes.
05:28Ten days a mental?
05:29Yes.
05:30Lagay nila ako,
05:31sila mismo sa rehab,
05:32sabi niya,
05:32wala,
05:33wala,
05:34wala,
05:34walang problema ako.
05:35Oh, my hair fully,
05:36folic,
05:37my hair follicle.
05:38Negative lahat.
05:38May test sa blood.
05:41Negative lahat.
05:42Mi Milani,
05:43did you do drugs?
05:45Yes,
05:45when I was younger.
05:47You did drugs nung bata ka pa.
05:48Bata pa.
05:48Pero hindi itong buhay ngayon.
05:51Matanda na ako.
05:52Ibig sabihin,
05:53when you just,
05:53I mean,
05:54how long was that?
05:56Nakatagal na yun.
05:57Nung teenager pa ako.
05:58Okay, alright.
05:59Pero mula noon ay,
06:01Sino nung nag-try lang ako,
06:03experience,
06:05nila lang,
06:06parang,
06:06party-party lang.
06:07But when you got married to...
06:09Hindi bisyo.
06:09Okay.
06:10Hindi siya bisyo.
06:11When you got married to Randy,
06:13when you started to become a mother,
06:15you didn't do drugs anymore.
06:17Mga anak ko,
06:17hindi na.
06:18Alright.
06:19At if ever,
06:19nagpa-party ako,
06:20inom.
06:21Okay.
06:22You know,
06:22I love drinking.
06:23Walong buwan,
06:25sampung araw sa mental,
06:27eight months sa rehab.
06:30Pasang gugulat ako,
06:31pag nag-uusap-usap,
06:34lagi nilang ako sinasamay,
06:35huwag ka magalit dito ha,
06:36huwag ka magalit sa kanila,
06:37magalit na ganon.
06:39Kaya tingnan ko sila,
06:40hindi naman ako galit eh.
06:42Sama lang na loob ko.
06:43Offended lang ako.
06:45Masakit,
06:46masakit pag minahal mo,
06:48binitray ka.
06:49Yeah.
06:50Kumusta yung buhay na yun?
06:51Walong buwan sa loob ng rehab?
06:53Nag-leader pa nga ako eh.
06:56Kasi,
06:57gusto ng motivation,
06:59ng mga salita ko,
07:01word of wisdom.
07:03But they gave,
07:03and they put me in depression.
07:05Nag-depress ako talaga,
07:06Kuya Boy.
07:06Okay.
07:07I went to that stage,
07:08depressed na depressed ako.
07:09Kasi wala akong support kay Randy.
07:12Okay.
07:12Wala.
07:13I mean,
07:13I'm supporting us.
07:15And then I'm paying his bill.
07:16Yung ganoon,
07:18kaya nabenta ko yung bahay ko sa filam.
07:21I need money to survive.
07:23Me and my two sons.
07:27I don't want,
07:28hindi ako nagbibigyan ng obligasyon
07:29sa mga anak kong apat.
07:31Because they have their own life.
07:34At hindi ko naging ugali,
07:35Kuya Boy.
07:36Kahit nung bata ako,
07:38hindi ko humihingi ng,
07:39ng limos.
07:42Marunong ako magtrabaho,
07:44Kuya Boy.
07:45Kahit maghugas ako ng plato,
07:46gagawin ko yung trabaho niyo,
07:48basta disente lang.
07:49At huwag lang ako,
07:50madakit ng kata ko.
07:51Naamba o.
07:52Naamba o.
07:53Naamba o.
07:53Naamba o.
07:54Naamba o.
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