00:00So, basically, my intentions of using design court are for a fraudulent purpose, not for
00:08genuine for getting help, and for, you know, gaming the system, to circumvent court appearances,
00:14to circumvent foot orders, to circumvent, to circumvent pretty much things that involve
00:22that matter. It was never intended for me to get help, it was only for me to get my way,
00:28and it's pretty much how I intended to use the psych court. As far as, um, for me to get
00:35psychiatric treatment, that intent was for the same, you know, same reasons I would use
00:40the psych court, to get my way, to ensure I didn't have to comply with the court, to ensure
00:46that I would at least get high off of any psychiatric medication, it doesn't matter if it was addictive
00:54or not, is to use the psych court for purposes that the psych court was never built for. You
01:03know, for reasons, you know, for, there are other reasons that I wouldn't do things such as that,
01:10you know, when I had shot myself in 2008, that was for intention, not suicide,
01:15but the intent of me shooting myself was so I don't survive the winters in New York State,
01:24and that the only place that I would survive would be in Southern California or Hawaii.
01:29For reasons that I had started myself in 2010, would be for the similar purposes that I had
01:36shot myself in 2008, is to ensure that my only survival was in California and Hawaii.
01:41And that is for the same purposes that I would use the psych court, to get my way,
01:48and to ensure that no psychiatrists in New York State would ever want to help me,
01:56because my intent is to ensure that no psychiatrists in New York State would agree,
02:02because this is a willful intent of how I have done things. I willfully intended to use the psychiatric
02:12treatment and the psych court, to ensure I don't have to do a court order, and to ensure I don't have
02:21to pay restitution, and to ensure I get my way. And as long as I live in New York, this is how things are
02:29going to go. You know, you know, and you know, if I had my services transferred out to California,
02:39I wouldn't, I wouldn't, I wouldn't be doing this. The only reason why I'm doing this is because
02:46I've been doing this behavior since the summer of 1997, into the, the summer before I came to New York,
02:56which is the summer of 2004, I've been doing this because I knew I was going to end up here in New York
03:02State, not by my own accord, but by because, by the accord of Nebraska Social Services, and because
03:10nobody helped me move out, move out to California when I was 18, I still continue these behaviors. And
03:17maybe once they kind of see that I'm not willing to do things, you know, in a certain way anymore,
03:24and that it was always going to be my intent to use the psych ward in ways that are not appropriate,
03:31and to ways that are, you know, that would break the law, and ways that would pretty much ensure
03:38that people, that these, that mental health professionals in New York State would not want
03:44to do it because it would put them in multiple ethical dilemmas, because if they had invented me,
03:52they would be enabling the behavior, and would continue to allow me to use the psych ward to get
03:58my way. And as long as I live in New York State, that's how it's going to be. And once I have my
04:06service is transferred out to Los Angeles, California, or to Laurel Canyon in that area,
04:14I would be better off and would be able to function. But until, in total seven returns in New York
04:23state, this is how things are going to go. And unfortunately, until everything's transferred
04:29out to Laurel Canyon in California, or to Hawaii, this is how things are going to go. I am going
04:36to use the psych ward to get my way. I am going to use psychiatric treatments to get my way, like I've
04:41always done. And since, that is a continuation of the behaviors that I've done since the summer of
04:491997, before I had moved to New York, when I was living in Nebraska. This is that new behavior.
04:56So, you know, once I get my way, I will be better off. You know, if I get my services transferred out
05:06to LA, to Laurel Canyon, I will be able to settle down. You might, you may not be instantly able to
05:14put myself back together, but it might take two or three months out in Laurel Canyon for me to settle
05:19down, get things brought up. You couldn't even think as long as a year, but because of how the weather
05:26and the climate is in LA, it will be easier for me to function. So that is pretty much why I do this
05:34behavior. And, you know, and as far as, you know, DSS being my payee, it also is a factor into this as
05:43well. You know, as long as that DSS is my payee, it'll keep, it'll keep the behavior going.
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