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00:00Goddamn!
00:03My name is associated with a lot.
00:05Listen, no one's safe.
00:06No one is safe, I can tell you that.
00:09It's not bad, it's just, oh, God.
00:12I have Tourette syndrome.
00:14you, bitch.
00:16Oh, no, no!
00:18And me and Colin are not married yet.
00:20Hey, Ryan!
00:21Come on, it's great!
00:23Do you guys let the alpacas be at weddings?
00:27We haven't started a single thing.
00:28No wedding planning done.
00:30Yeah. Nothing.
00:31So that's the first thing we're thinking about,
00:33is if alpacas are coming.
00:35Because you haven't really asked me for any help, so.
00:38That's our first child that's engaged to be married.
00:42I would love to be super involved.
00:45Can we talk?
00:46Yeah, honey.
00:47OK.
00:48This is about me and my dad, because I need clarity.
00:53I heard that Colin asked for y'all's blessing,
00:56and you said that there was no blessing to give.
01:00I mean it to be like, I'll do whatever Baylen wants to do.
01:03That is my blessing.
01:04That is my like, hey, if Baylen's OK, we are OK.
01:08What's really sunk in there, now it's them.
01:11It's not her, it's them.
01:13We have been talking about our marriage,
01:17and it started with some premarital counseling.
01:21I thought everything was fine, but this is definitely a curveball.
01:26So I don't want you guys to be offended, but I think some premarital counseling would be a good tool to have.
01:50Right now, I feel weird that my parents are bringing up premarital therapy.
01:57I'm sure this wasn't the birthday gift Colin was expecting.
02:00What the hell?
02:02It's not to test your fit.
02:05This isn't like, let's see if we fit, and if we don't, we're breaking up.
02:08That's not, that's not the...
02:10And you and dad did this?
02:11Yeah, that's not the...
02:12It was a requirement to get married in church.
02:14It was a requirement in the Catholic diocese.
02:16You know, like, we want you guys to really, like, get everything that you can in your corner.
02:22Get as grounded as possible.
02:24That's exactly it.
02:26I finally feel like things are in a better place with the DeBreeze.
02:30It's my birthday, we're all getting along and having a good time,
02:33and then premarital counseling popped up, and it's a complete shock.
02:38That's important stuff.
02:40It really is, because life is tough.
02:43Yeah, it is.
02:44You add children, and them kids.
02:47It doesn't hurt to kind of tackle some of the other intricacies that will come into play
02:52as your marriage develops over the years.
02:55I know that Alan and Julie are always just trying to help,
02:59but I just hope that they don't think Balin and I's relationship is not a healthy relationship.
03:07All right, guys, it's getting late.
03:09Thank you for having us.
03:10I appreciate you guys for coming.
03:11Yes.
03:12I'm nervous about saying anything, because I don't want you to be offended.
03:15Please don't be offended.
03:16I don't feel offended.
03:17I don't feel offended.
03:18I want you to be the opposite of offended.
03:20I want you to be like, okay, they want us, they want it to work.
03:23I think this suggestion could be perceived a little harshly, only because Al was a little tough
03:31with Colin.
03:32I'm very confident that Colin is committed to Balin, but I do have some reservations about
03:39how healthy and happy the relationship will be if you don't make sure that you're growing
03:45together as a team.
03:51So what do you think?
03:53Of the marriage counseling?
03:55Are you offended?
03:56It's hard to reach you sometimes.
04:01It's our relationship, our marriage.
04:04And given the history, like it's not always been like a easy pathway with your parents.
04:12You know that.
04:13It's been kind of rocky, so.
04:15Okay.
04:16I think it really just comes down to her parents being really overprotective and wanting the
04:24best for Balin.
04:25And I feel like I'm trying to do everything in my power to show that to them, that I want
04:31the same thing, that we're on the same page.
04:34And sometimes it just feels like it's never enough.
04:39I just appreciated them bringing it up personally.
04:41Mm-hmm.
04:42Because I didn't look at it as a bad thing.
04:47Okay.
04:49I think for right now, I just want to take some time to think it over.
04:54Maybe talk to my parents, family members that may have done something like this, and kind
05:00of get their opinion on it as well.
05:12Good morning, everybody.
05:17Good morning.
05:18Today, we're taking our first tour of a possible wedding venue.
05:26But before we leave, I need Colin's help putting in hair clip-ins that I bought.
05:31Gloria!
05:32Can I have some help here, trying to section this?
05:36Help doing what?
05:37Do you know how to section?
05:38No, I do not.
05:40Okay.
05:41I don't know how you do your own hair.
05:44It's called I wake up, put water in it, and I go.
05:46You bend over the sink, and you .
05:48Put water in it and go.
05:50So a few months ago, I asked Colin to trim my hair.
05:54Because I was like, you know what, she's looking a little bit dead.
05:56And that led to my hair being chopped off.
06:04Oh.
06:05Yeah.
06:06Oh.
06:07They're just over here.
06:18To help my baldness, I got webbed-in hair extensions.
06:24I am now luscious Goldilocks, okay?
06:26I feel like I've just added life to my head.
06:33I was more relaxed at the salon, and so I wasn't ticking as much.
06:37But the next day, I was yanking on my extension, my weave, goddamn.
06:43I was pulling on my hair extensions to the point where it was painful, because the webbed-in
06:48extensions is sewed into your head.
06:51I had them for a solid two weeks before I had to get them taken out.
06:55So tease the hair.
06:57Mm-hmm.
06:58Now I'm trying to clip in extensions, which I hope don't set my ticks off as much, because
07:08I can take them out when I need.
07:10Get all that out of here.
07:12.
07:13.
07:14.
07:15.
07:16.
07:17Okay.
07:18.
07:27All right.
07:28All right.
07:29All right.
07:30Chase after the weenie.
07:31Doing Balen's hair, and trying to put these hair clip-ins into her hair...
07:35it's a struggle yeah it's a struggle it's especially hard for me to sit still
07:40getting my hair done getting clip-ins sitting still in general is not good it's
07:49not working so no to the hair this isn't working we're saying no yes yes yes yes
07:57okay just add hair to the list of things that are more complicated when you have
08:02to wrap I'm excited that we don't have to do this for another two hours and we can go and see our
08:07wedding venue first question do you guys allow alpacas and no walk right out I know we've looked
08:27at a lot of wedding venues online I can't make up my mind with what I want and what I like but I mean
08:34I'm not the biggest fan of indoor today we're going to look at an indoor wedding venue and I don't
08:42really know if I'm going to like it because like I want like scenery in the background while we get
08:49married I think that we should be open to an indoor wedding venue because thunderstorms trigger Balin's
08:55anxiety and make her Tourette's worse if it were to somehow thunderstorm on our wedding
09:06it would just make it easier if everything's already indoors
09:10one of those
09:13truck's bald it is actually
09:17okay you baldlicious queen okay
09:19dumbass
09:22state law bowl
09:24518 exit
09:26one way
09:28traffic info
09:30call
09:31I'm losing my mind
09:35why am I on this side I'm just going to start looking at this
09:37state oh no I'm sponsored by Joe Biden
09:41look down look down
09:43when I see road signs and I repeat them it's because of my lexolalia
09:49lexolalia is a complex vocal tick that can also be associated with many other conditions but also can
09:56be included in Tourette I read something then I vocalize it as a tick
10:00so have you thought any more about the premarital counseling
10:05I personally don't have a problem with trying the therapy
10:09yeah it just makes me think that like your parents think our relationship isn't as good as it is
10:16they brought up premarital therapy out of the love that they have for us
10:23yeah but okay
10:25what
10:25if someone gets involved in our relationship or marriage too much
10:30where does
10:32where does it end
10:33there's got to be a line that's got to be drawn somewhere
10:37where does it end
10:38are they going to be over every single day involved in our household every single day
10:49or are we going to be able to have our own marriage and family
10:53I mean I would love to have my parents over every day
10:55I mean I'm not even going to lie
10:58family is really really important
11:00are you okay
11:01what
11:01you just said I would love to have my parents over every single day
11:05is this what our marriage is going to be like
11:09are your tics okay
11:14yeah I'm going to take my shoes off
11:16because you see how it's like around my ankle
11:18when I hold my tics in at the venue
11:20later on they will all come out at once
11:22I'm experiencing a dystonic tic in my foot and in my leg
11:27so when my foot's locked I'm twisting my ankle
11:30to the point where I want to snap my ankle off
11:32come on back
11:37oh my god
11:41this is actually our team mascot
11:43the ticker
11:45that's me
11:46the ticker's here
11:47you just said I would love to have my parents over every single day
11:57is this what our marriage is going to be like
12:02I know how close you and your parents are
12:06close dick
12:07but you're becoming more independent
12:10and do you think your parents being so involved
12:14is them not being able to fully let you go
12:21I don't think they ever will
12:25I do think that my parents hold on a little bit more
12:30because of my Tourette syndrome
12:32it's going to be a constant juggling act throughout our relationship
12:36I hear you
12:38I do see where my parents are coming
12:41also with the premarital therapy
12:44because the relationship has worked out
12:47and they've taken it
12:49have your parents taken it
12:50my parents did take it
12:52they went through the church
12:54but they did do something similar
12:56so I talked to my mom about premarital counseling
13:00and she thinks that it would be good for us
13:03however I still am on the fence about everything
13:06I mean what if it opens up stuff that we just aren't ready to deal with
13:11so I mean let's make the best of it
13:14and maybe it could end up being really helpful
13:16oh that's it right there
13:28it's so pretty
13:30so Crystal View is about 30 minutes away from where we live
13:36at this point we really don't know what we want versus what we don't want
13:40we're really just kind of looking at all the options to figure that out
13:44this is even better than the website
13:48it's so pretty
13:49you know how to work one of those
13:52I'm going backwards into the revolving door
13:58because I don't want to touch it
14:00because of my OCD and having a fear of germs
14:03I'll wear like long sleeves to purposely like touch things
14:08or you'll just wait 10 feet back and wait for me to open the door
14:11yeah yeah
14:12okay
14:15oh my gosh
14:20this is pretty
14:24where do we even go?
14:26my first impression of the wedding venue when we walk in
14:29is breathtaking because of the stairs and the flowers and everything being white
14:34but it's very echoey
14:36and with my tics it just makes me very insecure
14:41hey Colin
14:43hey Galen
14:44how are you?
14:45it's nice to meet you
14:46nice to meet you Amanda
14:47how are you?
14:48Colin
14:48nice to meet you
14:49welcome Crystal View
14:50so we're going to
14:51lots of bling
14:51lots of bling
14:52lots of glam
14:53we love our chandeliers
14:54I don't think we've had anybody get married here that's had Tourette's Syndrome
15:03but we are aware of tics and I think it's important with our knowledge to create an environment
15:09and an atmosphere that's comfortable for that individual and that's what focused today
15:14when did you guys get engaged?
15:17last year
15:17I love it
15:18I love it
15:18so you've had some time to think
15:19have you thought about colors, theme, anything for the big day?
15:23I love where it's like very colorful and very bright and I love oranges and pinks
15:28she loves flowers
15:29yes I love flowers I'm obsessed with flowers
15:31perfect
15:31I found a baby pink dress that I really really liked
15:35no
15:35and I showed him and he was like no
15:37so I was like okay well I guess that's it
15:40there's certain things that can have color and then other things
15:43and I listen
15:43you're not showing up in a pink dress
15:45and I listen
15:46or a purple dress
15:46like it's just not going to happen
15:47but I listen
15:48that's the thing
15:49it's like if he says I don't really want to be in a pink tux
15:52I'll be like okay can we have a pink bow tie
15:55so there's different ways that we incorporate it
15:57but I don't really want the wedding
16:00what?
16:02fine I'll stop talking
16:03so the ceremony space is really a hop, jump, and a skip from your reception space
16:11welcome
16:12oh good
16:13I call it the Bridgerton room
16:16no I'm kidding
16:16pretty much
16:18the vow exchange is typically in between the mirrors
16:22and then theater style seating on both sides of the column
16:25and then the magic fills in all the gaps
16:27with the florals and the columns and all the beauty
16:29yeah that's nice
16:30this place is really fancy smancy
16:33it is very blingy
16:35it is very blingy
16:36can we see the reception space?
16:39so let's head on that way
16:40alright
16:40you okay?
16:43I can definitely tell that Baylin's holding in her tux
16:47I don't want her to go through that
16:49I always want her to feel free and be herself
16:51I still want to see the rest of the venue
16:53but this does make me think that this might not be the right one for us
16:57here's the ballroom
16:59welcome to the grand ballroom
17:01oh wow
17:03this is massive
17:05this is definitely grand
17:07it's really nice
17:08I like these chandeliers too
17:10I have a question
17:12yes
17:12have you guys ever had alpacas at a wedding?
17:15absolutely
17:15in the tent outside
17:17yes
17:17the bride made the exact same face on that date
17:21have they been allowed inside?
17:23no
17:24Colin that's not a deal breaker
17:25I told Colin I said deal breaker?
17:27no alpacas
17:28yeah
17:28we're having a white horse for an upcoming event
17:31so we love animals here
17:32we love animals here
17:33we don't like horses
17:33I'm petrified of horses
17:34okay sorry
17:35he's like
17:35yeah
17:36let's get all the horses
17:38let's ride horses in here
17:40let's stick to alpacas for now
17:41that would be sick wedding photos
17:43us on a horse?
17:45you love alpacas that love to kick people
17:47I like horses
17:49the one animal that I'm more than afraid of
17:51is a meaty horse
17:53like
17:53your mom's a whore
17:55Marlene's a dirty filthy horse
17:58Marlene's Colin's mom
18:02I feel like I just heard Marlene
18:05and heard the word whore
18:06and that's how we integrated
18:08so we won't be going down to see her
18:10until the tick goes away
18:12actually
18:12because I will
18:13I don't actually want to make eye contact with her
18:15when I say that
18:16so
18:16thank you guys so much
18:18thank you so much
18:19thank you
18:20thank you
18:20lots to talk about
18:21have a great day
18:22thank you
18:22I think we go up this way
18:23yeah
18:23yeah
18:24all right
18:27how did you feel about everything?
18:28I feel like you already know what you want to say
18:30so go ahead
18:31um
18:31it's too glam for me
18:34it was great that they allowed like
18:36the alpacas
18:41but like
18:42I want like
18:43instead of like the place to be luxury
18:46like we make it look luxury
18:47if that makes
18:48like any sense
18:50I feel the same way
18:51I think it's just a little bit too bougie
18:53bougie for us
18:54boozy bougie dick
18:56boozy bougie
18:57definitely crystal view
19:00I can
19:00I can see the name now
19:02yep
19:02the crystal really
19:03crystal math
19:04Joe Biden does crystal math
19:07Joe Biden and JB
19:11do crystal math together in my basement
19:14that's a crazy combo
19:17JB is the head of photography
19:20and he is always in my peripheral vision
19:22so
19:23that is where the tick comes from
19:25our director of photography right here
19:31doesn't do crystal math
19:32yeah
19:35nailed it
19:36whore
19:39wh hockey sticks
19:40o-r-e
19:41ow
19:42you okay
19:43I'm gonna
19:53I'm gonna take
19:54are your tics okay
19:54yeah
19:55I'm gonna take my shoes off
19:56cause you see how it's like around my ankle
19:58when I hold my tics in at the venue
20:01it's incredibly painful
20:03it's uncomfortable
20:04and
20:05later on
20:06they will all come out at once
20:07I'm experiencing a dystonic tick in my foot and in my leg
20:12it's basically like a locking and a twisting
20:15so when my foot's locked I'm twisting my ankle
20:18to the point where I want to snap my ankle off
20:21rainy
20:22during the tour
20:26did you hold your tics?
20:27maybe a little bit
20:28cause I started ticking
20:30and it was like echoing
20:31and I was like okay
20:32my wedding day
20:34has been something
20:35that I've always dreamed of
20:36and me holding in my tics
20:38would look like
20:39a disaster
20:40your mom's a filthy fat whore
20:43I could have a tic attack
20:46in front of all my guests
20:47because it's pretty much bound to happen
20:49when I hold my tics in
20:50hmm
20:51between my Tourette's
20:55I have Tourette syndrome stupid
20:56and my OCD
20:57obsessive compulsive tic
20:59I'm not like every other bride
21:01so who knows
21:03what we have in store for us
21:05me and Colin
21:10just looked at our first wedding video
21:12Phelan's my first kid
21:15getting married
21:16and as a mom
21:19I've poured my heart
21:20into her
21:21so a little part of me
21:23feels like a tiny bit left out
21:26I'm back
21:35Come back.
21:53Have a good rest of your day.
21:56With my tics, I don't drive.
21:58So today I took a ride share from D.C. to Beckner's baseball game.
22:03It's his first game of the season,
22:04and I haven't been to one of his games in a long time
22:06because there's a lot of things that will set my tics off.
22:09For example, I purposely miss the beginning of the game
22:12because the silence during the national anthem
22:15is a huge trigger for my tics.
22:17I tend to just be tossing away,
22:20and everyone's just looking my way.
22:23So there's a rhyme for the day.
22:25Oh, my God, and all that rhymed.
22:28Woo-hoo, woo-hoo, woo-hoo.
22:30F*** you, Kevin.
22:32Hey, baby.
22:33Hi.
22:34But these are parents with Beckner's team.
22:37All of those people know my mom.
22:39All of those people know that I have Tourette.
22:41So it's a safe space,
22:43and I'm here to support Beckner.
22:46How was your trip?
22:48You shopped the whole way here.
22:50You did what?
22:51I shopped the whole way here on my phone.
22:53Of course.
22:54Shocker.
22:55Yeah.
22:55Becky's playing shortstop.
22:57Hi, Beckner!
22:58Oh, my gosh.
23:02Double dick zero.
23:04That's where he's playing.
23:05Does he have a pink glove?
23:06Yeah.
23:07Yeah.
23:08Okay.
23:08Only Beck's would pick out a pink glove.
23:10Yeah, he used to play center field,
23:11but now he's shortstop.
23:12We need to get him pink cleats, too.
23:13No, he's fine.
23:14How would you describe Beckner?
23:21Loud.
23:21Confident.
23:22He's a lot.
23:24Heard you guys talking about me.
23:25No.
23:25Make room.
23:30You're going in the middle?
23:31Okay.
23:31Make room.
23:33I heard you were saying something about my confidence.
23:36What's wrong with it?
23:37Nothing.
23:38Nothing is wrong with it.
23:39You love it.
23:40All right, Beckner.
23:43Come on, Beck.
23:46Oh, Beck.
23:47Cheese.
23:47Okay.
23:50Got a little star in the fan.
23:52Yeah.
23:52Did it actually hit the fence?
23:54Did it?
23:55Oh, my goodness.
23:58Oh, my gosh.
24:00It means a lot to me to have been at my game
24:03because she hasn't been to one in, like, a year,
24:06so I've improved a lot.
24:07Like, I'm at top notch right now.
24:10So what's new with you?
24:12What have I been missing out on?
24:14Me and Colin just looked at our first wedding venue.
24:17It was beautiful.
24:18A little bit too bougie, too glam.
24:22They had 260,000 crystals.
24:26Baylin's my first kid getting married,
24:29and as a mom, I've poured my heart into her,
24:34so a little part of me feels like a tiny bit left out.
24:39Another reason why it just really didn't work out
24:42was I held my tics in to the point when,
24:45when I got out, my legs locked,
24:46and I don't know why I held them in
24:49other than the fact that I was, like,
24:52echoing through the whole place.
24:54Oh.
24:55Well, that is, that's, like, awkward, though,
24:58that you felt it necessary to be holding them in.
25:02Honestly, it wouldn't hurt to get back in
25:05to see Dana and talk to her about some of these concerns
25:09just to, like, readdress with her.
25:11Dana is Baylin's CBIT therapist,
25:14and CBIT is a technique that Baylin uses
25:16to manage her tics.
25:18When you have that urge to say an obscene word,
25:21breathe in through your mouth and out through your nose,
25:24that sensation will go away.
25:26It's just hard to, like, get there.
25:29I know that Baylin still meets with Dana virtually,
25:33but I also think it would be smart for her
25:34to plan an in-person session soon.
25:37That's a good idea.
25:38I'm going to schedule another appointment with Dana.
25:40Dana.
25:41So speaking of therapy,
25:43how are you feeling about premarital counseling?
25:46Well, me and Colin are going to do it.
25:48So?
25:49Okay.
25:49It hasn't started, but, I mean,
25:51I have high hopes about it.
25:54I feel this deep sense of relief
25:55that they're going to give premarital counseling a try,
25:58and I think that they'll be glad that they did it.
26:01Ooh.
26:02It's all right.
26:03Way to hit the ball, guys.
26:06Becker's team lost?
26:07Yep.
26:07They lost.
26:09I'm so glad that you ride-shared here and came to this.
26:12I know it's not easy.
26:13I have so much fun.
26:14I know it means a ton to Beckner
26:17to have Baylin at his game.
26:18The two of them are a lot alike
26:20with their anxiety
26:22and then certain behaviors
26:23that Beckner is starting to exhibit.
26:25Thank God he has baseball right now
26:26because I think baseball really keeps his mind
26:29in a place where he can put some of that
26:33on the back burner.
26:34Come on, boo.
26:35You did so good.
26:38You almost hit it out.
26:39Yeah, we did.
26:40And I love your pink glove.
26:43I know, right?
26:44Did you, like, hear her?
26:46Yeah.
26:46You did.
26:47I heard her before I saw her.
26:49You heard her before I saw her.
26:51Of course.
26:52That's our baby.
26:54This is actually our team mascot.
26:56The ticker.
26:58That's me.
26:58The ticker's here.
27:00We should change our name.
27:01Look at my bird.
27:02What mascot would I even be?
27:07Uh, a mockingbird.
27:10Ooh, I'd be a parrot.
27:12I'd be a parrot.
27:14Do you still want to play baseball?
27:15Yeah, I'm getting drafted out of middle school.
27:18One million dollar deal.
27:19No.
27:20If I ever make it,
27:21that's going to be, like, 90 million.
27:23Okay, yeah.
27:24Mm-hmm.
27:24Maybe if we make it to the car,
27:26we can make the 90 million happen.
27:29Get out of here.
27:31Only 90?
27:33That's not a lot of money.
27:34Max, you're so full of yourself.
27:37I love you, though.
27:40Do you have anxiety about therapy today?
27:43I have a little bit of anxiety.
27:44Therapy for the first time.
27:46Baylin and I are headed
27:47to premarital couples counseling.
27:49We're going in there completely blind.
27:51So it's really hard for you
27:53to express your emotions.
27:54Does it feel kind of overwhelming?
27:57Yeah.
27:58Yeah.
28:15What the heck, too?
28:17Oh.
28:19What the heck?
28:19You guys got to clean up your toys.
28:21They're all Dana's going to trip over your toys.
28:22I'm taking my mom's advice,
28:25and I'm meeting with my CBIT therapist today.
28:27I haven't seen Dana in a while
28:29because of the engagement, moving.
28:33Some things that help manage my tics,
28:35other than CBIT,
28:36are having headphones on
28:38or listening to music,
28:40being around my dogs.
28:43However, with my wedding coming up
28:45and not wanting to say certain tics,
28:48it's so important that I meet with her
28:50to get the right tools
28:52to not have those tics happen.
28:58Hi!
29:00How are you?
29:00Oh, I'm so good.
29:02How are you?
29:02I'm done.
29:04My name is Dana Wachter.
29:05I'm a registered nurse
29:06certified in CBIT therapy.
29:08CBIT is an acronym
29:09for Comprehensive Behavioral Intervention for Tics.
29:13So I love your apartment.
29:14It's beautiful.
29:16Do you want to do a walkthrough?
29:17That's your flair.
29:17I would love to.
29:18Okay, sweet.
29:19Okay.
29:20We have the bar stools
29:21because the backs of the chairs
29:23set my tics off
29:25to lean my head back.
29:27So instead of having anything there,
29:28it helps because I can hold on to the things.
29:31The stovetop is electric,
29:33but I also learned that I need a stove cover
29:39because I don't want to break the stovetop.
29:41Right.
29:41We also have plastic everything.
29:44Tic-proof.
29:46Seeing Baylin's progress,
29:47I am so proud
29:49because I always reflect back to our first meeting.
29:52She was in tears.
29:53She couldn't control her tics.
29:55She was ashamed by them.
29:56So she's come such a long way.
29:58It's so rewarding to see.
30:00So what did you want to work on today?
30:02I would like to work on
30:04dick.
30:06My, um...
30:07Yeah, my goddamn.
30:11On your goddamn tic.
30:12Goddamn!
30:13Yes, absolutely.
30:15I've had my...
30:17Mm-mm...
30:19tick for a long time,
30:22but I don't really know what set it off.
30:24It's either from a movie
30:25or something that someone said.
30:28But I...
30:29Goddamn!
30:30Definitely don't want to say it on my wedding day, so...
30:32So typically, we would recommend
30:35using a competing response
30:37whenever an urge comes on.
30:40We'll review your reverse breathing
30:42when you breathe in through your mouth
30:44and you hold it
30:45and then you breathe out through your nose.
30:47And the reason why you're reverse breathing
30:49is you're fighting with speaking.
30:52By breathing in through your mouth,
30:54it makes it impossible.
30:55How do you feel?
31:04Like I didn't need to say my tic.
31:06Beautiful.
31:07Mm-hmm.
31:07Now, sometimes what happens
31:09is if you're speaking
31:11and you feel an urge
31:13to have a vocalization,
31:15to stop and do a competing response
31:17interrupts the natural flow of speech.
31:19Right?
31:20So it's okay to do
31:22a less intense version of the tic,
31:24such as whispering the tic.
31:26Like I can do it without saying it,
31:28but just make...
31:29Like...
31:31Exactly.
31:31Or you can camouflage it as a yawn
31:33if you want.
31:34That's awesome.
31:35I never thought about that.
31:36Yeah.
31:37I practice my SIPA exercises
31:40pretty much every day.
31:42But it's a lot to do
31:44deep breathing or masking...
31:45For every tic.
31:51And there will be times
31:52where I do hold in my tics
31:53when I feel uncomfortable.
31:55So me and Colin went
31:56to look at a wedding venue.
31:59It was completely indoor
32:00and I was just echoing.
32:02And I also did suppress
32:04to the point where
32:04when we left the wedding tour,
32:06my legs were locked up
32:08from like motor tics.
32:09Yeah.
32:10From almost like holding in
32:11all my vocal.
32:12From hearing the echoing.
32:14Remember,
32:14we also want to eliminate triggers.
32:16Maybe go look at venues
32:18that are outdoors.
32:19Mm-hmm.
32:19So you won't have that feeling of...
32:21Being trapped almost.
32:23Yeah.
32:23Just like a claustrophobic
32:24maybe type feeling.
32:25Yes.
32:26That would be eliminated
32:27if you were outdoors.
32:28I'm excited to look into that
32:29and those types of venues.
32:30And remember,
32:31you have your C-BIT therapy
32:34in your back pocket.
32:35Yes.
32:35You can use those
32:36competing responses
32:36as you see fit.
32:38Whatever feels comfortable
32:39for you at the time.
32:41Yeah.
32:42Thank you for coming.
32:43You're welcome.
32:43Thank you so much.
32:44You've come so far.
32:46I want you to focus on that.
32:47You live on your own now.
32:48That was big for you.
32:49So I'm so proud of you.
32:50Keep up the good work.
32:54Sometimes the C-BIT sessions
32:55with Dana
32:56can be difficult
32:57if my tics are bad.
32:58Today's went well,
32:59but I would like to do more
33:00as the wedding gets closer
33:02so I can be
33:03the best version of myself
33:05on my big day.
33:13How are you?
33:25I'm good.
33:27Oh, how was work?
33:30It was good.
33:32I just got off work
33:33and Balin and I
33:34are headed to
33:35premarital couples counseling.
33:37Yay!
33:38I'm going from one therapy session
33:39until next.
33:40I, um,
33:42have my C-BIT session
33:43with Dana today.
33:45How'd that go?
33:46It went well.
33:47One thing that Dana
33:48reminded me of
33:49is that C-BIT
33:50is all about
33:51removing triggers.
33:53And
33:53remember when we went
33:54to the wedding venue?
33:56It was kind of like
33:57setting my tics off
33:58or making me feel like
33:59I had to suppress in a way.
34:00Mm-hmm.
34:01Now that we know
34:02that
34:04it's a trigger
34:05I would just not like
34:06to see any more
34:07indoor venues.
34:09Yeah, no, I get it.
34:10I think an outdoor venue
34:11would probably fit.
34:13Finding the perfect
34:14wedding venue
34:15is like a moving target.
34:17Trying to
34:18avoid the triggers
34:20of thunderstorms
34:21I have a gun!
34:22by looking at
34:23an indoor wedding venue
34:25only created
34:26more triggers
34:27that we were unaware of.
34:28So I know that we both
34:31filled out
34:31the assessment form.
34:34What do you think
34:35is going to be
34:36something that we
34:37should probably
34:37focus on?
34:39There's so many questions.
34:40Do you remember
34:40one of them?
34:42I know the questions.
34:43There's a lot.
34:44So the therapist
34:45sent over an assessment
34:47for us to complete
34:48before we got there.
34:49There was a lot of questions.
34:50There was like
34:51a hundred questions.
34:52I know there was
34:52a lot of sex questions.
34:54Okay.
34:55There was.
34:56I remember.
34:57That's the only thing
34:58I don't remember.
34:59I don't know
34:59how they were worded.
35:00I just remember
35:00it was like
35:01one after the other.
35:02Was it like
35:03how often are you doing it?
35:04Or like
35:04what do you call them
35:05from the bedroom?
35:06Literally.
35:06Kind of both.
35:07Both.
35:08Kind of both.
35:09Does your partner
35:10not please you?
35:11Or like
35:11do you not please
35:12your partner?
35:14Is there ever times
35:15that
35:15one person's
35:18more pleased
35:18than the other
35:19and you're upset?
35:20Or just like
35:21any type of
35:22specific question
35:23like that
35:23was on there.
35:25Is that an issue
35:26with you guys?
35:26No.
35:30Why'd you say
35:31it like that?
35:32Because I'm
35:33nervous.
35:34I don't like
35:34talking about it.
35:44This guy can
35:45a whole bag of
35:46Suck a whole bag of
35:47Colin.
35:49Sorry.
35:51Suck a whole bag of
35:52Suck a whole bag of
35:55And that's how
35:56tics start
35:57ladies and gentlemen
35:58right there.
35:59Right there.
36:01Suck a whole bag of
36:02Sorry.
36:03Suck a whole
36:04Dude's honking
36:05Suck a whole bag of
36:06I know you're watching.
36:09Suck a whole bag of
36:10Just don't say
36:14anything else.
36:15Suck a whole bag of
36:16I got it.
36:18Should we bring this
36:19up in therapy?
36:21Do you have anxiety
36:22about therapy today?
36:24I have anxiety?
36:25Yeah I have a little
36:26bit of anxiety
36:27for therapy for the
36:28first time.
36:29Are you not?
36:30No.
36:30Okay.
36:32Good for you.
36:33I'm super nervous
36:35right now.
36:36Alright.
36:37We're here.
36:38Let the therapy
36:39begin.
36:41Alan's bald.
36:42We're going in there
36:44completely blind.
36:45Like we have no idea.
37:00Hello.
37:04Hi.
37:04Hi.
37:05Your room is so nice.
37:08It's so nice to meet you.
37:09Can you hug?
37:09Yes.
37:09It's nice to meet you.
37:12Hi Colin.
37:13Are you a hugger?
37:13Nice to meet you.
37:15Sit wherever you'd like.
37:16My name is Amy Begnall.
37:18I am a licensed
37:19professional counselor.
37:21I've been practicing
37:21for the last 11 years.
37:24Specializing with couples
37:25for the last 8 years.
37:27How does it feel
37:28to be here today?
37:29I was a little nervous
37:30before getting here.
37:32Just therapy scares me.
37:33Okay.
37:34My parents came to
37:36him and I
37:36and said that
37:38they did premarital counseling
37:39basically kind of
37:41as like an avenue
37:42to grow the relationship
37:43together.
37:45So anyway
37:45to just make our marriage
37:47as strong as possible.
37:48Yeah.
37:48That's a really good
37:50motivator.
37:50Bitch.
37:53I've never had a client
37:55with Tourette's Syndrome.
37:56What I know about
37:57Tourette's Syndrome
37:57is that it is
37:59a neurological disorder.
38:01So Valen and Colin
38:02might have
38:03a little more
38:04of a challenge
38:05than your typical couple.
38:06But I'm really grateful
38:08for the opportunity
38:09to sit and establish
38:11a safe space
38:12for Valen and Colin
38:13to be able to open up
38:15so that they can share
38:16really vulnerable pieces
38:17of their relationship.
38:19So before you came here today,
38:22I sent you an assessment
38:24to complete a premarital assessment
38:25that was able to highlight
38:27your strengths
38:28as well as some growth areas.
38:31And I'm just curious,
38:32what were some areas of strength
38:33that really popped out for you?
38:36Do you recall?
38:36It's definitely not communication.
38:38It's definitely not communication.
38:40It's definitely not communication.
38:41You seem pretty confident in that.
38:43Yes, because I'm very bad
38:45at communicating.
38:46Okay.
38:46Tell me more.
38:47Like everything,
38:48like everything that I communicate.
38:50Like I don't know
38:50how to like express my feelings.
38:53And then I also struggle
38:54with like everything
38:55to do with vocally.
38:56Like everything, so.
39:00Does it feel kind of overwhelming?
39:02Yeah.
39:03Okay.
39:03Yeah.
39:04And stressful.
39:04How frequently do you feel
39:06pretty overwhelmed?
39:08Like every day.
39:09Okay.
39:10Like every day.
39:11Yeah.
39:12Just don't get myself.
39:13It's fine.
39:14Yeah.
39:15Is this bringing up
39:15some emotion for you?
39:17Yeah.
39:17Okay.
39:18Yeah.
39:19Yeah.
39:20This wasn't supposed to happen.
39:23I mean, I was on board for therapy.
39:25Of course I was.
39:26But I wasn't expecting
39:27to be in a puddle of tears
39:28in five minutes.
39:29But I guess that's what therapists
39:31are for is to actually say something.
39:34How about you, Colin?
39:35Did anything come up for you
39:37that you thought would be important
39:39to bring up together?
39:40Um.
39:46I think.
39:48I don't know.
39:49Like, I guess like.
39:53I've been holding on to something
39:54for a while now.
39:56and it's not easy to say out loud
39:59because I know it's going to affect Baylen.
40:01It's something that's been a burden
40:03and I can't keep pretending
40:05that it's not.
40:15I am having a girls' night.
40:21Girls' night
40:22with a twist.
40:24Twist that dick around.
40:25Wrap it, slap it, tap it, that dick.
40:27Holy s**t, I look like Beckner.
40:29I look like Beckner.
40:30This is the first time that I've had
40:32a solid, tight group of girlfriends.
40:35It's great.
40:38Here soon, I have to make like a career decision.
40:41That is a super heavy burden
40:45that I guess I could say that I have.
40:47So, what's Colin's plan
40:48after he gets out of the military?
40:50He doesn't obviously know.
40:52Because he knows you can't work a normal job.
40:54I think there is some tension
40:56between my siblings and Colin
40:57because my siblings are very, very protective of me.
41:04Baylen, I want to show you something
41:05that we got outside, okay?
41:07My dad's been bugging me
41:10to come by the house to see something
41:11and I have no idea what it is.
41:14What's he doing?
41:16Yeah, what are we doing?
41:19Tell us that funny.
41:20No, I'm being serious.
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