00:00Talk to me about that life, because what are we going to learn about you?
00:03There's obviously so much.
00:05I read that anorexia, your daughter didn't know that until she read the book.
00:09So what else are we going to find out about you?
00:11And talk to me a little bit about your struggles there.
00:13I mean, well, I think what I've really realized is I think a lot of women suffer from body dysmorphia.
00:21I think we only have that one label, which is anorexia.
00:25And we didn't even have that label when I was growing up, because my mother would have never accepted any faults.
00:30You know what I mean?
00:30Oh, no, no, you're fine.
00:31You're fine.
00:31Go take a run.
00:32You know what I mean?
00:33There wasn't any talk of it.
00:35But, you know, I just realized I really struggled with it.
00:38And I used it as a control mechanism, because I grew up in a big family.
00:42And it really showed a lot of my personality by going through that time of my life, because I am a kind of a control person, a competitive person.
00:54And wanted better for myself, didn't have all the sort of resources that other kids had, especially in the environment.
01:01My parents put me in private school and stuff, which was difficult.
01:03You know, when you don't have money and then you're put in an environment and, you know, a lot is expected of you, not only in this new environment, but also from your family.
01:13You're constantly trying to tie the two together and keep it all together and advance yourself.
01:19And my way of dealing with that as a third child was really to control my weight, because that's the one thing that I could really control.
01:28And for me, that was very powerful.
01:31And how did you get through it?
01:33You know, it's really funny, because Hannah asked me the same question.
01:38She goes, Mom, I had no idea.
01:41Because, you know, we don't, we rarely as women, I thought about this a lot, we don't, we kind of go in the past, but very little.
01:49We'll go five, six years or whatever immediately has happened in our life in the last year.
01:54We rarely go back to the young girl that entered situations.
01:57And I really, you know, I wish women would do that more, because we all go into the world really hopeful and, you know, have all these hopes and dreams and ideals that have been sent to us in society of things we have to do.
02:13And, you know, let's face it, a lot of times they don't work out.
02:15So the fall from grace is not only hard, but it can be incredibly embarrassing.
02:20And I think that's where a lot of women get lost a little bit, because they don't, they look at it as a total rejection or an embarrassment, as opposed to a stepping stone and maybe a lead to something bigger and better.
02:32Like the girl that got divorced the first time that felt humiliated and sad, I don't recognize that girl.
02:38You know, I thought it was such a failure, but it actually wasn't.
02:41It was the best thing for us, because I'm actually great friends with Hannah's father.
02:46Hannah loves us both.
02:46He's very happy.
02:47I'm very happy.
02:48And the juxtaposition of that would have been to stay in an unhappy marriage, where everybody would have failed, and probably Hannah wouldn't have been as an adjusted human.
02:57So, you know, I learned a lot about my journey through all that, you know what I mean?
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