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Break the Game (2023) is a bold, emotionally charged original drama-thriller exploring identity, obsession, online worlds, and the real-life impact of digital fame.

The film follows a competitive gamer whose life begins to fracture as she pushes herself to break a near-impossible game record. As pressure builds from fans, rivals, and her own expectations, she finds herself confronting deeper questions about purpose, connection, and who she is outside the screen.

A gripping, modern, character-driven story perfect for fans of gaming culture films, psychological dramas, e-sports stories, and real-world digital challenges.

🎭 Starring: Narcissa Wright
🎬 Director: Jane M. Wagner
📅 Release: 2023
🎞️ Genre: Documentary-Drama / Psychological / Gaming
🔥 Themes: identity, gaming pressure, online fame, personal struggle, resilience

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00:02:29Let's go! Let's go!
00:02:33Yes!
00:02:58Hello.
00:02:59Hey, dgirl. Wait, hold on.
00:03:04A legacy video that goes through past stuff that I've done in speedrunning and jumps to
00:03:12the present at the end.
00:03:23I'm looking for a folder on my computer.
00:03:27I'm looking for selfies from the past.
00:03:30Hear me about everything up here?
00:03:32One of the premiere video game speedrunners.
00:03:35Welcome to the show.
00:03:36Hey, thanks for having me.
00:03:38So, speedrunning.
00:03:39My whole life I've been so passionate about video games.
00:03:41I ended up stumbling across all these people trying to break the game.
00:03:46Exploiting the game, abusing the game's code, and just finding some way to get to the end super fast.
00:03:53One of the motherfuckers!
00:03:55That's a new world record.
00:04:00I fucking finally did it!
00:04:02World motherfucking raccoon.
00:04:05The moment I saw it, I just jumped in head first.
00:04:07I'm wearing this headset.
00:04:08I'm like wired in.
00:04:09There's like three cords coming on me right now.
00:04:11We're gonna fucking go in hard.
00:04:13Oh, fuck!
00:04:15It's old.
00:04:16Ocarina of Time is dead.
00:04:18Postman Wright, the current world record holder on Zelda Ocarina of Time.
00:04:23How fast can I do that game?
00:04:2418 minutes and 10 seconds.
00:04:26When I was 16, I played through Ocarina of Time.
00:04:28It took me weeks.
00:04:29He basically skipped the entire game and was able to manipulate the code.
00:04:34This is your full-time job.
00:04:35This is what you do, right?
00:04:3619 hours of hard work.
00:04:38This self-made job is literally to play video games.
00:04:42Broadcasting is played through the internet around the world.
00:04:46You immediately have an audience, right?
00:04:48How about Cosmo, everyone?
00:04:49Oh, absolutely.
00:04:50Several thousand usually tune in for Zelda.
00:04:53I heard some people are going by here yelling,
00:04:56Cosmo, Cosmo, do you get that a lot?
00:04:58Go Cosmo!
00:04:59I love you!
00:05:01Sometimes I meet a bunch of people and I'll get a picture with me or something.
00:05:06I'm just like kind of sitting in my room playing games,
00:05:09but now there's all these people who know who I am.
00:05:12I'm proud of my past.
00:05:16I'm proud of my past, but people think that the magic's just gone.
00:05:46I didn't expect all those people to unfollow me.
00:05:53I can't let myself be torn down like that.
00:05:59I'm not fucking done yet.
00:06:00I'm not fucking done yet.
00:06:02Zelda's Breath of the Wild is coming out soon.
00:06:05This is a huge moment for me.
00:06:09My peak viewership back in the day was 18.3 thousand.
00:06:22So if I don't get 20,000 viewers, I'm always failing to outdo my past, and I can't stand
00:06:30for that.
00:06:37I know that I'm still capable of everything, and I'm going to surpass everything.
00:06:51I'm surpassing all of it.
00:06:52Maybe they'll start to see who I am and finally have it in their hearts to respect me.
00:07:02Is anybody out there?
00:07:09Is anybody out there?
00:07:22Is anybody out there?
00:07:32Is anybody out there?
00:07:39What is the internet to me?
00:07:42It's connection.
00:07:43Welcome back.
00:07:44Okay.
00:07:45Soylent, ready to drink food.
00:08:04It's so convenient.
00:08:10It's like an entire experience that I've created, the way I sound, the way I behave.
00:08:20Even though it's all online, it's still very real.
00:08:27I'm dumping my life into it and it almost becomes my soul.
00:08:31Actually, we have a lot of people I can't even talk about, and, and it's a good place.
00:08:32You're not doing this, I'm gonna have a lot of friends.
00:08:33There's a lot of friends to play out with and out with.
00:08:34Two, three, four, three, four, five, one, two, and four, and five, five, five, and more, and five.
00:08:38Hey.
00:08:43Hi.
00:08:45Hi Angel!
00:08:53How are you?
00:08:54I'm good.
00:08:55How are you feeling about your body and everything?
00:08:56How are you feeling about your body and everything?
00:08:59Mostly good, but I think I've had a couple setbacks this year.
00:09:05I don't like that.
00:09:07I know.
00:09:08Do you get invited to, like, these gaming competitions anymore?
00:09:13I don't go anymore.
00:09:16Have you met any of your neighbors?
00:09:19No.
00:09:22I mean, I don't want to.
00:09:24No one's special.
00:09:26No, I'm just alone.
00:09:29I know.
00:09:30I don't like that.
00:09:32I'm actually okay with that.
00:09:34I mostly want to connect online.
00:09:37All I care about is your happiness.
00:09:40I love you.
00:09:41Bye.
00:09:41Bye.
00:09:47Being a streamer, I have a skewed relationship with the people who watch me.
00:09:52It's like a many-to-one relationship.
00:09:54And so I don't have, like, an intimate one-on-one connection with individuals in my audience so much.
00:10:00It's more like kind of me connecting with the mass of people.
00:10:06I don't know, Ness.
00:10:08I don't know.
00:10:08I feel kind of, like, unrelatable.
00:10:21I really do struggle to connect.
00:10:24I crave physical affection sometimes.
00:10:39It's a natural thing to crave.
00:10:41I crave physical affection sometimes.
00:10:41It's a natural thing to crave.
00:10:41I love you.
00:11:05I'm just like, oh, no.
00:11:08Oh, my God.
00:11:38Oh, my God.
00:12:08Oh, my God.
00:12:38Oh, my God.
00:13:08Get on the ground now!
00:13:09Get on the ground!
00:13:10Put your hands behind your back.
00:13:12Step out!
00:13:13Step out!
00:13:14People don't like what I do.
00:13:16They get my information, call the cops.
00:13:18Separate your feet.
00:13:19I don't need this right now.
00:13:32It's okay.
00:13:33I'm gonna, like, take a bath.
00:13:42My first real memory is coming out of the bath naked because my dad had installed a game.
00:13:57I don't need this right now.
00:13:58I don't need this right now.
00:14:04Standing on this platform, I was struck with a feeling that this was a special place.
00:14:10I was alone on top of the walls.
00:14:17For years, I felt like I was an alien stranded on planet Earth.
00:14:20While the other kids played outside, I was in my room, while you're there.
00:14:35While my classmates learned to drive, I was setting world records in beetle adventure racing.
00:14:42One day, I forgot to go to school because I was so absorbed with designing my own video game.
00:14:53A mega-Zeus game where you travel through space and save the world from evil robots.
00:15:05I even programmed my schoolyard bully Brad as one of the bosses.
00:15:23Suddenly, my mom came home and saw I wasn't at school.
00:15:34But she wasn't mad.
00:15:36My mom knew I was absorbed in a creative process.
00:15:53I want to go on a bigger, better journey than Zelda Ocarina of Time.
00:16:14And it's going to be a beautiful new revival.
00:16:17Six, five, four, three, two, one!
00:16:33It's time to go home and spend the video!
00:16:36It's better!
00:16:37It's better!
00:16:39All right.
00:16:44all right these controllers are tiny
00:16:57we haven't even started playing one thousand thank you all thank you
00:17:03that's very cool thank you all for tuning in for my my new journey
00:17:10you know today feels like christmas or something
00:17:15hey d girl oh i guess you can't hear me here we are
00:17:32we've just started you're at the beginning here this is the very beginning shrine of resurrection
00:17:44we're about to leave this cave
00:17:51there's a huge world
00:17:52you fought valiantly when your fate took an unfortunate turn here you now stand revitalized
00:18:04100 years later this truly feels more like an adventure than any game i've ever played
00:18:18i'm really happy right now
00:18:25may i ask do you really remember me
00:18:28oh i'm featured right now am i that's actually pretty cool
00:18:40welcome everyone who's watching from the front page
00:18:42i've been doing a lot of soul searching over the last several years
00:19:03and it led me back to the point where i wanted to sink my life into breath of the wild and stream it
00:19:16what do you do for a living and feel free to not answer any of this obviously
00:19:35What do you do for a living? And feel free to not answer any of this, obviously.
00:19:48Oh golly gosh, I don't even know your name is Alex.
00:19:54Now I know.
00:19:59I'm from another galaxy.
00:20:01Ah, no, I live alone. I kind of like to have my own space, but also, if I'm alone, then it's lonely.
00:20:14Well, I should probably go to sleep.
00:20:18Oh, you just got home. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
00:20:22I gotta go to bed. I have to.
00:20:26I guess I kind of stream so that sometimes I am part of people's daily routine.
00:20:31It's kind of cool to have people tuning in regularly and kind of coming along the journey with me.
00:20:39Peace out. Goodbye.
00:20:43I bet you can bowspin to do that.
00:20:45But bowspinning also doesn't get as many hits, so you need more stamina, so.
00:20:50Narcy, what's up?
00:20:51Sitting stable at, like, 10 plus viewers, which is, like, it's fucking amazing.
00:20:57Like, seriously, like,
00:20:58it means, it really means so much to me that you guys fucking, like,
00:21:02come around to watch me be bad at games.
00:21:06If I could have any pet,
00:21:08it would be either a skunk or a bat.
00:21:11Katarina says...
00:21:18D-girl, I like your username.
00:21:22D stands for dick and to death to your foes.
00:21:24D-girl, have you ever had soylent?
00:21:27It tastes really good.
00:21:29I'll go to bed for not seeing a lot of things,
00:21:32but not for that fucking soylent shit.
00:21:35What was that on the ground?
00:21:36Was that, like, a nut or something?
00:21:38Or should I say nut?
00:21:42Nut.
00:21:43Nut.
00:21:44This is the way I am to people I like.
00:21:46So if I'm giving you shit, it's probably because I like you.
00:22:03I really love the people here, honestly.
00:22:06Not to get all, like, softy and shit.
00:22:09I'm getting a little emotional.
00:22:11This is magical.
00:22:13Oh my god, there's a star.
00:22:20They're gobstoppers.
00:22:27D-girl, will you be my D-girlfriend?
00:22:29I think I'm dating Narcissori.
00:22:41I don't know.
00:22:48D-girl, I've been thinking about you being here.
00:22:50I like the view up here.
00:23:12I feel like I'm in a high point of my life suddenly.
00:23:15And I think this game is partially to thank for that.
00:23:23Someone chopped down a tree and, like, launched it super far.
00:23:27But then Link pulls the paraglider
00:23:29and it actually maintains the momentum from the ragdoll physics.
00:23:34And I'm like, oh my god.
00:23:35Okay, like, look at this tree, right?
00:23:50This looks bad, actually.
00:23:52This one right here.
00:23:53This one.
00:23:53This one.
00:23:53Oh, damn it.
00:24:13I guess we want to go more this way.
00:24:15New voicemail from death.
00:24:22Hey, Narcissa.
00:24:23She's calling up to say hi.
00:24:25Give me a call sometime.
00:24:27All right.
00:24:28I love you.
00:24:29Five new voicemail from mom.
00:24:30Hi, my darling.
00:24:32She's here, I'm late.
00:24:33All right, sweetheart.
00:24:35Hang in there.
00:24:36I love you.
00:24:37Call me when you're free.
00:24:39Bye.
00:24:42Oh.
00:24:43Oh.
00:24:43Wait, why?
00:24:54All right, this is doable, I think.
00:24:56We can do this.
00:24:58Let's fucking go.
00:25:01No, that's what I call speedrunning.
00:25:05She just started her run.
00:25:06Let's go.
00:25:09I'm disrupting speedrunning much like I did in 2011.
00:25:12I want to be the single greatest player of this game.
00:25:15Nine hours and 38 minutes.
00:25:17It's 5-0-4-11.
00:25:18Free 51-50.
00:25:20There's a whole journey to it.
00:25:22There's the magic to it.
00:25:23The streams.
00:25:24Learning and improving.
00:25:26Keeping people company during lonely nights.
00:25:28I can't get up this.
00:25:47It's too high up.
00:25:48But I think I can jump it with this.
00:25:50You take a bomb.
00:25:51You place the bomb.
00:25:52Then it's like shield, backflip and detonate, forward air jump, shield surf, paraglider, and
00:26:01then you climb up the wall.
00:26:03And you have to do it all really fast and accurately.
00:26:05So let me try.
00:26:06It's like.
00:26:09Wait.
00:26:10It's hard to do.
00:26:11Oh.
00:26:12Oh my god.
00:26:17Come on.
00:26:21Come on.
00:26:22Why didn't that work though?
00:26:23What the fuck?
00:26:25I started today feeling very adequate.
00:26:27And now I feel like kind of inadequate.
00:26:34It's okay.
00:26:35It's okay for me to be a mess on stream.
00:26:37Sometimes it's okay.
00:26:38I have self-image issues.
00:26:40Like a lot.
00:26:42Being trans, you walk this fine line between being like a goddess and a monster.
00:26:55It's hard for me to explain this, but sometimes it feels like I am really not enough.
00:27:07I'm not enough or I'm not like where I want to be with myself.
00:27:10I don't want to feel like I'm like this.
00:27:12I don't want to feel like I'm like this.
00:27:40I don't want to feel like I am really not enough.
00:27:55a group of people showed up and we're like we're with something we're looking for jake
00:28:08for people who are having trouble and then i said i'm not jake and then they said well
00:28:12what's your name and then i was like if you don't know my name then go away
00:28:18and then they're like okay but can we leave a card and i'm like okay fine
00:28:23mental health crisis services i wish i asked them more questions like how the fuck like
00:28:35why are you here
00:28:37i need a fucking cloth
00:28:54that
00:32:04Not even a week ago.
00:32:13Then it causes another whole group of negativity to spawn off of that.
00:32:20I can almost date these people into spreading my image all over the place, even though it's really negative.
00:32:32I'm so lost.
00:32:35How do I navigate this fucking online experience?
00:32:49Hi Angel.
00:32:50Hi.
00:32:55How are you?
00:32:56I've been a bit emotional lately.
00:32:59It's great to be emotional and it's great to be
00:33:02deep and aware what you are of the world and everything, but mostly you shouldn't be crying a lot.
00:33:10I know, I know.
00:33:12Yeah.
00:33:13I should probably be calling more often.
00:33:14Yeah, I know.
00:33:15That's all I do is think about you every day.
00:33:19Bye bye.
00:33:20Bye bye.
00:33:21Bye bye.
00:33:22Let's just drink all of our sorrows away.
00:33:25Let's just drink all of our sorrows away.
00:33:26What?
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00:34:04okay if anyone in my chat is like a counselor or a therapist
00:34:13dealing with people who have depression let's have a conversation publicly
00:34:19twitch must be my all and my everything it must be it has to be public
00:34:28no stop doubting the power of the internet
00:34:33i feel isolated i feel it
00:34:44i feel really lonely i don't feel like i have friends
00:34:50i think that i don't know how to be friends with people
00:34:56me interacting with people irl is like me being really shy and closed
00:35:01and then like having trouble connecting that's my experience
00:35:07i have this queen-size bed
00:35:15it's like all i want to do is like roll around with someone
00:35:19and like i just don't
00:35:25i'm just alone
00:35:29all right
00:35:45oh my god and oh my god why
00:36:00jesus too much is happening right now
00:36:05okay voice chat with me right now
00:36:11it's ringing it's ringing
00:36:16hi i don't know like where do you feel we are right now
00:36:20i feel not alone right now
00:36:22yeah i feel like i'm sharing my time and space with you
00:36:26yeah but i don't get to like wake up next to you and shit
00:36:29that's almost not even just okay like look there's like physical into this
00:36:33it is absolutely okay it is it is it is
00:36:35it bums me out man let's go with my guitar
00:36:40it bums me out
00:36:49it bums me out
00:36:55your voice is so beautiful
00:37:05it bums me out
00:37:09and if i could be
00:37:13in your apartment
00:37:16and you could be
00:37:19in southern california
00:37:22all time
00:37:26all time
00:37:28all time
00:37:31oh shit
00:37:34three
00:37:40two
00:37:41one
00:37:42go
00:37:43it's me
00:37:46it's d girl
00:37:47this is only our first date
00:37:50come on. You gotta fucking take it slow. I opened up Narcy's fridge. It is only
00:37:59soylent and then a fucking jar of peanut butter. I died the moment I opened it.
00:38:07It tastes like fucking mulch. So she keeps her room dark. Fucking garbage bags
00:38:15in the window. It's kind of a nightmare. I'm gonna be nesting so fucking hard.
00:38:23Nesting. We're gonna upgrade some shit in your apartment. I'll fucking upgrade it.
00:38:30Damn!
00:38:32Alright, thank you for tuning in. I'll see you later.
00:38:45We've been improving my place, basically. Yeah, I'm trying to make her have a apartment
00:38:54like an adult. I'm actually like super hungry suddenly. I want some pizza now. We can just
00:39:00get it. But we need to like end this stream. No, do another attack. Okay.
00:39:08These are here. I'll be right back when I get pizza.
00:39:11That's been good. There's this person there with me and like I'm not being like harshly
00:39:19judged and like we're like doing cool shit and like improving things and I just felt really
00:39:25like I felt like this bond and it was really fucking good and I just started like crying
00:39:29really hard and it was like incredibly fucking like it felt almost like therapeutic. It felt
00:39:34like extremely good. I think she's back. Cool.
00:39:41Um, I still haven't left the plateau. I'm about to start another one, I guess. Although
00:39:54I could use a slice. I could use a slice.
00:39:57Okay, we're going back to IRL.
00:40:00Let's go!
00:40:16Yeah!
00:40:17Yeah!
00:40:24Yeah!
00:40:24I can't.
00:41:24Right back in it, let's go.
00:41:29Come on, come on, this is the run.
00:41:36Yes, first try.
00:41:42We're heading to the airport later tonight, and that'll be the end of our five-day vacation.
00:41:49I'm squeezing every last possible second out of the day, Narcy.
00:41:54Yes, this is world record pace.
00:41:57Adrenaline pumping through my veins, holy shit.
00:42:02Oh my fucking god, no.
00:42:15I think I just lost one minute.
00:42:20I failed the tree launches every fucking run lately.
00:42:23I don't understand why.
00:42:25Still a minute ahead.
00:42:29I staced this at two really, so it didn't go.
00:42:42It wasn't disconnected from the bottom yet.
00:42:44I'm so bummed, like what the fuck.
00:42:47Okay, it's over, it's actually over.
00:42:49I'm so fucking sad.
00:42:50That's it.
00:42:51Like there's no more.
00:42:52No Molly's Gale is now right.
00:42:53That's it.
00:42:54I could have had it and I didn't get it.
00:42:55It's over.
00:42:56The run's over.
00:42:58The run's over.
00:43:02It's time to go.
00:43:03It's time to go.
00:43:06The run's over.
00:43:12The run's over.
00:43:25Let's go.
00:43:55Okay, I'll use those to play games or something.
00:44:20I don't know.
00:44:21How's life for everybody?
00:44:24I missed you too.
00:44:26But, it's been replaced by missing Narcy even more.
00:44:31Like, I really like her.
00:44:33So nice.
00:44:36The line is it was a gaycation, but...
00:44:40We just haven't gotten...
00:44:42We haven't, like, hammered out shit.
00:44:44What I miss is feeling like the universe loves me.
00:45:10And that everything was good.
00:45:13A lot of my ego is built out of the impact I had before.
00:45:19And I feel like I don't have that impact anymore.
00:45:24And it really hurts me.
00:45:27Feels like I've failed if I can't reach that.
00:45:32Hello?
00:45:33Hello?
00:45:34Let's hatch out everything we are to each other right now.
00:45:36I'm gonna start a new run while we're chatting.
00:45:39So you're saying that, like, you would kind of want to develop something with me?
00:45:45I mean, I'd like to think I'm building a relationship.
00:45:51I've kind of designed my life in a way where I can just focus in on a few things that I really want to work towards.
00:45:59Okay, well, so what do you want?
00:46:02I want to be idolized by my viewers.
00:46:0620,000 viewers or bust.
00:46:08If this is the record, then we must post a Reddit thread called Absolutely Disgusting Record by Narcissa.
00:46:31Do I still think I can get over 10,000 viewers in Breath of the Wild?
00:46:36Yes, I do.
00:46:37I certainly do.
00:46:43Clear your minds for this jump.
00:46:49We're actually on pace for fucking sub 340.
00:46:53It's unbelievable.
00:46:57I want this run.
00:46:59I want to finish this run.
00:47:00I want this to be the run.
00:47:09Oh, oh my god.
00:47:12That was fucking miraculous.
00:47:15Oh my fucking god.
00:47:30Free 3831.
00:47:33This beats the record by minutes.
00:47:37May I ask?
00:47:39Do you really remember me?
00:47:42Peace and love.
00:47:43Peace and love.
00:47:44And remember...
00:47:46Trans girls rule Breath of the Wild.
00:47:48The current world record holder on Zelda Ocarina of Time.
00:48:09You immediately have an audience, right?
00:48:11Oh, absolutely.
00:48:12Several thousand usually tune in for Zelda.
00:48:20I was at the precipice.
00:48:23And now...
00:48:25I'm like a fallen star.
00:48:29I want to feel like I'm on top of the world.
00:48:31I want to feel like I'm being swallowed by it.
00:48:36No one in the world gives a fuck.
00:48:56It turns out life is not a fairy tale after all.
00:48:59It turns out everyone abandons the fuck out of you.
00:49:06Everything I've done up until now...
00:49:09It was all for nothing.
00:49:12I will never succeed in the way I succeeded in the past.
00:49:20This stream will never fucking be big again.
00:49:22It'll never fucking happen.
00:49:23I'm not relatable anymore.
00:49:24It doesn't matter if I'm the best fucking player in the world of this game.
00:49:27No one fucking cares.
00:49:29I've gone from being the superstar to the fallen star plummeting into earth like a fucking comet.
00:49:36Slamming down, creating a shockwave and burying in my fucking chasm so deep as everyone piles on and pushes me down into the caverns of darkness where I'm crowned the queen of hell.
00:49:50I think I'm a deranged freak who's delusional and should kill myself.
00:49:54They only fucking watch me if I'm raving.
00:50:00So the only solution is just to fucking go nuclear.
00:50:09I am the monster that you all created.
00:50:15These fucking people watching and observing me as I sit here and fucking literally struggle.
00:50:19I fucking hate this game.
00:50:22I hate people who watch videos.
00:50:24That fucking twitch and viewership is so fucking boring.
00:50:26Y'all such fucking poor taste.
00:50:28I fucking hate you.
00:50:29I fucking hate you.
00:50:30So what happens if I call that phone number?
00:50:55You get to talk to your counselor.
00:50:59And my phone is right here.
00:51:05Suicide prevention lifeline.
00:51:06Um, well I cut off all my hair and I guess it was like an active self-harm.
00:51:17And I'm feeling kind of hopeless.
00:51:20It's like people want to see me fail.
00:51:29And anytime there's any sort of sign of weakness, they pinpoint it and like harass me and like
00:51:33pick out of like a scab until I'm squeezed and I'm bleeding.
00:51:36I mean, I guess I just have like a certain level of visibility so they're like jealous or something.
00:51:42I don't know.
00:51:43But like there's a lot of like sick twisted feelings I get out of it.
00:51:46And it just makes me like feel like humanity in general is kind of evil.
00:51:50And that like every single entity on this planet is just like self-interested.
00:51:55And that friendship is an illusion.
00:51:57And that love is an illusion.
00:51:58And that like I'm just incredibly fucking alone.
00:52:00I'm just like a fucking alien on this planet.
00:52:02It just feels easier to like damage a social connection than it does to grow it.
00:52:10Yeah, I'll get through tonight.
00:52:13Definitely.
00:52:16Alright, bye.
00:52:25Well, that was okay, I guess.
00:52:32Why weren't you all watching?
00:52:39When I broke the Breath of the Wild record, I could have really used your support.
00:52:49I think I'm an attention addict.
00:52:52I think I'm an attention addict.
00:53:22I think I'm an attention Pablo.
00:53:35I think I'm an attention객.
00:53:40See you later.
00:53:40I think I'm going through.
00:53:43See you later.
00:53:44Oh my god
00:53:53You did it live on stream
00:53:59I don't know I just hope she's gonna be okay
00:54:04Hello
00:54:10Hey
00:54:11What do you feel?
00:54:13I like ruined myself by cutting my hair off
00:54:16You didn't ruin yourself
00:54:20You just fucking
00:54:21Cut your hair off
00:54:23I don't know how to just be calm
00:54:27And quiet during the hard moments
00:54:30Cause I feel like I really really
00:54:31Want and need connection
00:54:33I feel like crying
00:54:38Cause
00:54:39I'm like grateful that you're talking to me right now
00:54:45Happy cries are good cries
00:54:47Can I ask you something?
00:54:54When would you be free if I was to calm?
00:54:58Whenever
00:54:58Whenever
00:54:59We did it
00:55:15It's like we're parting the birds
00:55:17I like this big opening
00:55:28Let's just like move in here
00:55:30This is the ocean
00:55:33How is all this even real?
00:55:40What is reality?
00:55:42I see all this and I'm like
00:55:43I'm alive
00:55:44Like this is a thing
00:55:45It's happening
00:55:46It's like
00:55:46Yeah
00:55:46I can't help myself
00:55:48This is happening as fuck
00:55:49Do you think your life is too filled with things
00:56:00If you're a band so then you're streaming
00:56:02Yeah
00:56:02And you're cooking
00:56:04I mean that's just kind of the thing I like to do
00:56:06Yeah
00:56:06That's why I like having people around
00:56:08Cause I can cook for them
00:56:09Try to change your perspective
00:56:15So that you see the sky as like a giant lake
00:56:18Okay
00:56:19And you're like
00:56:20You're above it looking down at it
00:56:23Do you ever want to go to outer space?
00:56:30For some reason I feel like the view is better down here
00:56:32Earth is beautiful
00:56:34I think from here and elsewhere
00:57:02Cool it came in like a bully with a bud
00:57:10Skin to stone
00:57:13Like a bone
00:57:14Guilty and polite
00:57:17It'll get out of the smoke and screw
00:57:19Turn out you to your lips for blue
00:57:22It'll get out of the skin and part
00:57:24The testimonies out of you
00:57:27It's got you by the fifth challenge
00:57:29It's got you by the tone of it
00:57:32guitar solo
00:57:35guitar solo
00:57:49Guitar solo
00:57:50Guitar solo
00:57:50Thank you, we're man-eaters.
00:58:16I started fucking crying because you're so inspirational.
00:58:20You look fucking beautiful.
00:58:22Just shut up and hug me.
00:58:36I lose my center of balance.
00:58:41I saw, like, phone records and computers.
00:58:45Wait, what did he say?
00:58:47Do you think he's in our balance in general or, like...
00:58:50No, just when we're doing this.
00:58:53But why...
00:58:55I don't care.
00:58:56It's like I...
00:58:57Wait, let's try again.
00:58:58All right.
00:59:01Wait, step, step, step.
00:59:03There we go, yeah, there we go.
00:59:05There we go.
00:59:14Ah, this is really cool.
00:59:16This reminds me of Coventry Cove from Beetle Adventure Racing.
00:59:19Well, that's your...
00:59:20That's your comfort zone.
00:59:21This is my...
00:59:22This is my road, right here.
00:59:25I always just book it when I'm on a trail.
00:59:28Kinda hard to get your hands when I'm behind you and the path is so thin.
00:59:40I feel sick.
00:59:41Oh, fuck.
00:59:42Wanna sit on this?
00:59:44I guess so.
00:59:56I wish I got more sleep.
00:59:58I don't have a pillow on me, but I've got a bag full of shit.
01:00:00I feel...
01:00:01I feel bad.
01:00:02I'm like...
01:00:04I think I'm ready to go.
01:00:09See what I'm doing.
01:00:10Okay.
01:00:15Okay.
01:00:21There we go.
01:00:22It wasn't so bad.
01:00:40Oh, I might puke.
01:00:52Try to lunge it over the edge.
01:00:59Oh, I am really feeling queasy.
01:01:05Fuck.
01:01:06Such bad timing.
01:01:07Yeah.
01:01:11Okay.
01:01:37All in all, like, I'm doing better now than I was, like, before the trip.
01:01:38All in all, like, I'm doing better now than I was, like, before the trip.
01:01:42The time I spent there, it felt like it kind of healed me somewhat.
01:01:43Yeah.
01:01:44All in all, like, I'm doing better now than I was, like, before the trip.
01:01:47The time I spent there, it felt like it kind of healed me somewhat.
01:01:48Like, I really needed that.
01:01:49Like, I really needed that.
01:01:50Yeah.
01:01:51Yeah.
01:01:52Yeah.
01:01:53Yeah.
01:01:54Yeah.
01:01:55Yeah.
01:01:56Yeah.
01:01:57Yeah.
01:01:58Yeah.
01:01:59Yeah.
01:02:00Yeah.
01:02:01Yeah.
01:02:02Yeah.
01:02:03Yeah.
01:02:04Yeah.
01:02:05Yeah.
01:02:06Yeah.
01:02:07Yeah.
01:02:08Yeah.
01:02:09Yeah.
01:02:10Yeah.
01:02:11Yeah.
01:02:12Yeah.
01:02:13Yeah.
01:02:14Yeah.
01:02:15Yeah.
01:02:16Yeah.
01:02:17Yeah.
01:02:18Yeah.
01:02:19Being able to share some affection and, like, just be around people, I guess, without being
01:02:30so isolated.
01:02:33It just felt really good, and, I don't know, it's like a breath of, a breath of
01:02:49a breath of, what is it, a breath of fresh air.
01:03:09I was little, and she used to help me play Soda when I was like, I don't know, six, seven
01:03:14years old, and that's really fun.
01:03:17I just wanted to crop, okay, I just wanted to crop, like, one pixel in.
01:03:24I'll see you next time.
01:03:29Ahhhh!
01:03:31I don't know.
01:04:01I got banned on purpose, because it wasn't making me happy.
01:04:07And maybe that's because my brain got hooked on the dopamine.
01:04:11So now my Twitch account is gone.
01:04:15Hi, my darling.
01:04:17I miss you terribly.
01:04:20Maybe you should come home, my darling.
01:04:21It might be nice to receive some kind of unconditional love, seeing my parents.
01:04:51This is not a healthy environment for me to be in.
01:04:57Therefore, I must leave this place.
01:05:01But do not grieve for my disappearance.
01:05:06Bye.
01:05:11For I will find what I'm looking for in this life.
01:05:16I will just do it alone.
01:05:20It's like level one where you grew up.
01:05:26Green fields, grass, trees.
01:05:39You are my most beautiful flower.
01:05:41Baby, mommy's gonna catch a fish to fry tonight.
01:05:45You are the best of your generation.
01:05:51Brilliant, talented, sweet, honest.
01:05:54Hi.
01:05:55Hi.
01:05:56Hi.
01:05:57Hi.
01:05:58Hi.
01:05:59Hi.
01:06:00Hi.
01:06:01Hi.
01:06:02You were special, different from other children.
01:06:08That is why I quit my job and became a stay-at-home mother.
01:06:11I couldn't possibly trust anyone else to give you the love, attention, and freedom that your mind needed to explore life.
01:06:21Bye-bye.
01:06:23Yeah.
01:06:26Isn't it?
01:06:36So, if you were on the nightды, you'd take me crazyotiable for you.
01:06:39I'm Munjo.
01:06:40I didn't.
01:06:41I'm my soul.
01:06:42You are a little bit funny.
01:06:44Oh, how are you?
01:07:04How was your flight?
01:07:09It was fine.
01:07:12Oh, baby, I'm sorry it's been so long.
01:07:19Oh, it feels so good to hug you.
01:07:26I mean, look at you.
01:07:29Just beautiful.
01:07:31I've been waiting for that moment for one time.
01:07:34Yeah.
01:07:35Oh, you've been wonderful.
01:07:42Oh, you've been wonderful.
01:07:47Oh, you've been wonderful.
01:07:52Oh, you've been wonderful.
01:07:57Oh, you've been wonderful.
01:07:59Margaret screams, sing a ton of scenes.
01:08:03She dare not harm.
01:08:06Soft like rain and unwelcome.
01:08:11Tarrying on.
01:08:18Margaret sees if you bet them lead to the day's fight.
01:08:27Each can aim to be thrown out and die.
01:08:32She looks under the bodies.
01:08:37God kissed.
01:08:39Perfect in their resemblance.
01:08:44Without a care.
01:08:46I promise you this.
01:08:49Even if you don't believe me.
01:08:51Margaret weaves from a world of teeth.
01:08:52It's a sea beast home.
01:09:06Margaret weaves from a world of teeth.
01:09:07It's a sea beast home.
01:09:08Angry heart like a spilled flame.
01:09:09Tired and alone.
01:09:10Margaret I'm to believe I tried.
01:09:11But I'm not so sure.
01:09:12Margaret I'm to believe I tried.
01:09:13But I'm not so sure.
01:09:16I can have one thing you can pity me for.
01:09:27She's a sea beast home.
01:09:29It's a sea beast home.
01:09:31Margaret, I'm to believe I tried, but I'm not so sure
01:09:38I can have one thing you can pity me for
01:09:45She can't keep holding on
01:09:49This can't be all that they lie below me
01:09:57Margaret, don't dare
01:09:59I'll promise you this
01:10:02Even if you don't believe me
01:10:05But Margaret, I'm sorry
01:10:25I have no excuse
01:10:28You deserve so much more than this world would afford you
01:10:33Bed in your belly like a panic attack
01:10:38It's you, you see
01:10:40I'll leave it for you
01:10:43Margaret, I'm sorry
01:10:45You must understand
01:10:47You must understand
01:10:48It's you, you must understand
01:10:54Katerina
01:11:22Katerina says
01:11:26I've been on this roof too long
01:11:32Sleek October rain
01:11:36Railing with my ears
01:11:40At the bitter eyes like fire
01:11:45Raking me up and down and spinning out
01:11:48And if there will
01:11:52But Katerina
01:11:56If you feel light too
01:11:58I'd like you to know
01:12:02Here's a song for when you get lonely
01:12:06And all
01:12:08You count it as holy
01:12:12Falls aside
01:12:14Sends you up shivering in the cold
01:12:18But Katerina
01:12:22Honey
01:12:24It's not fair
01:12:26And up there
01:12:28When you
01:12:30Can't decide
01:12:32If it is worth it at all
01:12:36When everything hounds you
01:12:38I'll be round
01:12:40To carry you home
01:12:42To forget about
01:12:44All that you told me
01:12:46Last night
01:12:48And those
01:12:50And everything times like
01:12:52When you were laid on the ground
01:12:54To fillies and boxes and stones
01:12:56Ooh
01:12:58Ooh
01:13:00M Swan
01:13:022
01:13:041
01:13:06achieving
01:13:07Michelle
01:13:083
01:13:092
01:13:105
01:13:12Cesare
01:13:13Marshall
01:13:142
01:13:15Local
01:13:194
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