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00:00:00I am a haunted house, and she is the ghost in the attic, turning on lights, stomping
00:00:23on the floor, and making herself known in every reflection I see.
00:00:29She's there, she's always there, to remind me of how lonely the world can be.
00:00:37To remind me that we are all fragile.
00:00:40I am there, with her, up those stairs, sitting in the dark, planning our future together.
00:00:48A future we will never have, a future I will never deserve.
00:00:56I am an exorcist, purging her with pigment.
00:01:04If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
00:01:23One thing?
00:01:25One thing's all I get?
00:01:28I don't want to play this game.
00:01:35I want to be President of the United States, that's right.
00:01:40That way I can declare a state anarchy.
00:01:44I want to be a movie star, a big fucking movie star, live in a big fucking house, make big
00:01:53fucking movies.
00:01:58I want to be the love child of Sid Vicious and Molly Ringwald.
00:02:07I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
00:02:12I want to be God, for the sole purpose of saying, I brought you into this world, don't think
00:02:16for one minute I will take you out.
00:02:23I want the original promise.
00:02:27I want justice for all.
00:02:31I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between, for nothing in return.
00:02:43I want the world in my palm.
00:02:47No cooler than 60 degrees.
00:02:50No warmer than 75.
00:02:53And never a cloud in the sky.
00:02:57I want the perfect kiss.
00:03:00The perfect imperfection.
00:03:04The perfect life.
00:03:06But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
00:03:13And I want her to walk through that door right over there.
00:03:18And order biscuits and gravy.
00:03:19Hi.
00:03:20Hi.
00:03:21Hi.
00:03:22I bet your kids are adorable.
00:03:24Oh, it's okay.
00:03:25I already know what I want.
00:03:26Okay.
00:03:27I'll have the biscuits and gravy, please.
00:03:28Same.
00:03:29Okay, two biscuits and gravy.
00:03:30Anything to drink?
00:03:31Coffee's fine.
00:03:32Alright.
00:03:33Of course.
00:03:34Thanks.
00:03:35I'm Brian.
00:03:36Bella.
00:03:37Nice to meet you, Bella.
00:03:38She blew into my life like a storm.
00:03:42Uprooting everything I knew to be true, and filling it with so much more.
00:03:47She became everything I never knew I wanted.
00:03:51I'm like, okay.
00:03:52You're okay.
00:03:53You're okay.
00:03:54You're okay.
00:03:55You're okay.
00:03:56You're okay.
00:03:57You're okay.
00:03:58I'm okay.
00:03:59You're okay.
00:04:00You're okay.
00:04:01You're okay.
00:04:02You're okay.
00:04:03I never knew what I wanted.
00:04:04In a single glance.
00:04:06In a moment.
00:04:09In a straight conversation.
00:04:10In that slight smile that started with the curling of her toes and ended at the corner
00:04:16of her lips, just before she burst into laughter, she became it.
00:04:24She became perfection.
00:04:31Cool.
00:04:32so so Morris here the cure the cure yeah Beatles or stones the stones King pop
00:04:41or King King of Rock definitely well Elvis is always fascinated how so well
00:04:50here's this normal guy that accidentally got famous I mean he wrote a song that
00:04:55was for his dad or his uncle or something like that for their birthday
00:04:58and the next thing you know he's a teen idol I just watching his life is like
00:05:04watching a tree grow it gets bigger and bigger and then he ends up swollen and
00:05:13yellow but it's like he's on a satellite somewhere in outer space watching
00:05:19himself and that's what it did to him
00:05:22are you saying that Elvis was an alien hello darling this is Elvis from the
00:05:28planet Graceland I just want to thank you for coming out on a date with me this
00:05:32evening you know what I like about you what's that you're full of shit I think I
00:05:40just got a little omish oh I apologize thank you sorry about that you better be
00:05:45to Elvis Elvis Elvis yellow and swollen how could I have known even then in a
00:05:58moment of such happiness the longitude and latitude of my fall from Graceland
00:06:04hours went by day turns to night night today small talk turns to talk of dreams and aspirations
00:06:15first date eyes become the eyes that you take for granted I hang on every word she says and
00:06:26those hours that became days become weeks and we were married on a Saturday and those weeks became
00:06:35months and Cole our first daughter was born sweet as sugar and those months became a year and that year
00:06:44became four years and Sarah our second daughter was born born sick and that sickness drove Bella into
00:06:53darkness and she began to wither and die and me I became Elvis yellow and swollen watching my life unfold from a
00:07:07satellite somewhere in space counting the rings of my tree and forever wondering how this perfect life came to be
00:07:37I'll be right here honey
00:07:39yeah I'll be right there honey
00:07:44I love you.
00:08:14yay well I think you got dog poo in your hair yeah yuck where did you get the dog poo in your
00:08:33hair oh here we think we need to wash it out all right here we go your turn over clean clean
00:08:47back in back there we go you know you want to lean back but the other way because if you lean back
00:08:53then I won't get a dress yeah hold your hands there we go oh that feels good right there we go
00:09:00there it is oh yes standing on the shoulders of children innocent eyes that gaze upon the world
00:09:15with wondrous excitement you will probably never know me you will probably not remember me
00:09:23but someday when you're older your mother will show you a photograph and tell you my story
00:09:29a story filled with self-abandoned regret regret that I will not be there for your report cards
00:09:38for proms for graduations to give you both away at your weddings
00:09:45I always wanted to be the one to teach you to drive
00:09:50to navigate life with that same beautiful innocence that fills your youthful spirit today
00:09:56to hope
00:09:57to strive
00:10:00to dream
00:10:02but you're only three feet tall
00:10:06and already bigger than me
00:10:09good morning time to get up my water broke Brian
00:10:30huh Brian I just thought I was having a wet dream
00:10:35oh funny come on get up
00:10:38who
00:10:39hello
00:10:40oh really
00:10:41hello I can't reach you
00:10:42come on get up get up
00:10:44well I'm
00:10:44okay
00:10:45feel this thing it's coming out
00:10:46it's coming out please
00:10:47okay all right I'm just
00:10:49trying to keep you from panicking
00:10:50all right
00:10:52all right
00:10:53yeah take your time
00:10:55well I'm trying look I can't go to the hospital naked
00:10:58why not
00:10:58that would be awkward
00:11:00okay
00:11:01all right speak at which hospital we're going to
00:11:05you don't know which hospital we're going to
00:11:06yes I know which hospital
00:11:09which hospital are we going to
00:11:10I don't know let's go I got it
00:11:13okay
00:11:15okay
00:11:16okay okay
00:11:17okay calm down
00:11:18okay
00:11:19calm down
00:11:20okay
00:11:21do you want
00:11:23all out of it
00:11:25okay watch the hose
00:11:27something with more water than you
00:11:28oh come on
00:11:30Reese's you stay right there
00:11:32and
00:11:33okay
00:11:34thank you
00:11:38okay
00:11:39oh
00:11:40all right
00:11:41why is this getting it
00:11:42oh
00:11:44you guys are going to have to detail the car after this
00:11:45okay
00:11:49okay
00:11:50ready
00:11:51oh baby I'm ready
00:11:52um
00:11:53are you ready
00:11:54you seem a little frazzled
00:11:55yes I'm frazzled
00:11:56yes
00:11:57just breathe
00:11:59okay
00:12:00maybe
00:12:01um
00:12:02Cole should drive
00:12:05Cole
00:12:12well
00:12:13um
00:12:14oh
00:12:18my
00:12:19my
00:12:20love
00:12:21oh
00:12:22oh
00:12:23my
00:12:24oh
00:12:26my
00:12:27my
00:12:28my
00:12:29is
00:12:30I'm going to go for a walk.
00:13:00Hello?
00:13:13Are you busy?
00:13:15Ryan, are you okay?
00:13:17I just needed to talk to someone.
00:13:20I'll wait up.
00:13:30Time, it moves so slowly when you have nothing to do but think, to remember the beginning,
00:13:39to dwell on the end, and to be haunted by everything in between, to be haunted by that word, that
00:13:48undefinable word, as undefinable as God, yet a word I thought I knew intimately, perfection.
00:14:00The perfect wife, the perfect children, the house, the dog, the job, the two-car garage,
00:14:07the diapers, the joint bank account, piano recitals, tap shoes, the American dream, an
00:14:17idea that became an ideal.
00:14:21It's Friday.
00:14:23Is it recycling or yard waste today?
00:14:30Is itrisk you.
00:14:35Yeah.
00:15:14Have you ever stood naked, alone, and out of reach?
00:15:33The way Sarah cries, I can't help her.
00:15:39And the way Bella cries, she doesn't want me to help her.
00:15:43I just want...
00:15:46I know.
00:15:49Well, I don't.
00:15:52Once upon a time, maybe.
00:15:55But not anymore.
00:15:56You want too much.
00:15:59No, I don't.
00:16:01I just want...
00:16:02Your list is too long, and I'm too tired.
00:16:07I only want it to be perfect.
00:16:10Well, it's not.
00:16:11You never would have started fucking me.
00:16:13Do you have any idea what it's like to want something that you can't have?
00:16:30What do you want?
00:16:31I want you.
00:16:35And you want her.
00:16:37But you don't want her.
00:16:40You want the idea of her.
00:16:41And what you don't understand, Brian, is that you've idealized your life away.
00:16:46But I want you.
00:16:49I don't know what you want.
00:16:53But you don't want me.
00:16:55I'm just another part of the ideal, and I'm not perfect.
00:16:58But you're perfect to me.
00:17:04Don't want kids.
00:17:06I'm a cat person.
00:17:08I need time alone more than that.
00:17:10I need time with people.
00:17:13But I already know all this.
00:17:15And I love you for you.
00:17:18How can you love me when she gives you everything?
00:17:23Everything I want, but nothing I need.
00:17:26This, right here, right now, this is what I need.
00:17:41I need her to hold me like she used to.
00:17:45To hold me so close like we're the same person.
00:17:49Like this.
00:17:52Like what we have.
00:17:56We have a dance and a photograph.
00:18:12Kim was right.
00:18:14She had become the band-aid for a wound that would not heal.
00:18:18And no matter how much of her I stripped away,
00:18:21she would never fit into the mold Bella had created.
00:18:24I don't know if I'd be more alone with you.
00:18:29Without you.
00:18:30She was right about a lot of things.
00:18:48One day you wake up and you realize that everything you ever wanted
00:18:53turned out to be nothing you ever wanted at all.
00:18:58And even the big things become as trivial as watermelon.
00:19:01Sarah finally fell asleep.
00:19:15I swear that colic is going to kill me.
00:19:18I swear that colic is going to kill me.
00:19:20You smell like cigarettes.
00:19:27And watermelon.
00:19:31Mmm.
00:19:31Morning, sunshine.
00:19:57Hey, beautiful.
00:19:58Hi.
00:19:59Are you doing anything for lunch today?
00:20:07No.
00:20:08Did you want to do something?
00:20:10Well, I was thinking about stopping by.
00:20:13I'd like to.
00:20:14What time did you come in last night?
00:20:36What's that, honey?
00:20:38What time did you come in last night?
00:20:41I don't know.
00:20:42I didn't really look at the clock.
00:20:44I didn't even hear you come in.
00:20:46Really?
00:20:47Well, I gave you a kiss.
00:20:51Good night.
00:20:51You rolled over.
00:20:52I thought I woke you up.
00:20:55No.
00:20:55You know, one of these days I'm going to get a call from Canada.
00:21:02You're going to be missing a sock.
00:21:04You're going to have a new tattoo of a heart and some sailor's name on your ass.
00:21:08And you're going to say, I don't know where I was, but I woke up in a car that wasn't mine
00:21:14with some large man in a unitard offering me a sip of bourbon.
00:21:17You're so sexy when you have your drafty face on.
00:21:38Hey, beautiful.
00:21:38Hi.
00:21:40Want to go get some lunch or something?
00:21:42Yeah, I was thinking we could go down to the waterfront, but first I need to use the restroom.
00:21:46Yeah, just at the end of the hall to the left.
00:21:50Well, aren't you forgetting something?
00:21:52And what would that be?
00:21:53Do I have to ask?
00:22:04Hi.
00:22:05Hi.
00:22:08You look good.
00:22:09Oh, thanks.
00:22:09How are you?
00:22:10I'm good.
00:22:11I just stopped by for lunch.
00:22:12I think we're going to go to the waterfront.
00:22:14Did you want to come?
00:22:15I can't.
00:22:16Thanks, though.
00:22:17I've already got plants.
00:22:18That's too bad.
00:22:19We don't hang out enough.
00:22:20I know.
00:22:20We should see each other more often.
00:22:23Oh, that's pretty.
00:22:24What is it?
00:22:25Thanks.
00:22:26I think it's called posh, but it tastes like watermelon.
00:22:30Oh, watermelon.
00:22:32I like it.
00:22:34So how have you been?
00:22:36Good.
00:22:37You know, kids and stuff.
00:22:39Yeah, we've got some clients like that.
00:22:44Well, it's good to see you.
00:22:47I've got to get back to work.
00:22:48Yeah, good to see you, too.
00:22:49You haven't touched your food.
00:23:19And I'm not as hungry as I thought it was.
00:23:31I think she got this bit.
00:23:42Uh-huh.
00:23:43Yeah, she does.
00:23:44Uh-huh.
00:23:44Look, she does.
00:23:46She doesn't have a little bit of a lot.
00:23:48Oh, she does?
00:23:49Doesn't she?
00:23:50Yeah.
00:23:51Yeah.
00:23:51Bella?
00:23:58Bella?
00:23:59Are you okay?
00:24:00Yeah.
00:24:01Bella?
00:24:02If you want to talk.
00:24:04Mom, I'm fine.
00:24:05I'm fine.
00:24:06I'm fine.
00:24:07It's okay.
00:24:08I just...
00:24:08Right out here if you need anything.
00:24:10I'm fine.
00:24:10I'm fine.
00:24:40God.
00:24:44Everything's going to be okay.
00:24:48Everything's going to be okay.
00:24:50Everything's going to be okay.
00:24:51Hey, little angels. How are you doing? What you doing? Putting on a show? Hi. Do you
00:25:15want me cooking? Something smells good. Something smells good. How was work? I want my new client to
00:25:36cook a little prick though. That was good. It's nice to see you there for lunch. You still have one? Yeah. I'll let you go. Come on.
00:26:06She knew. Nothing more need be said. She knew. And the thought came to her as quickly as a bullet.
00:26:18A bullet expelled from a gun that I had cleaned, oiled, aimed, and fired.
00:26:25Dearest Bella, I miss you.
00:26:55Oh my god.
00:27:11Bella. Bella.
00:27:13Bella, what the fuck? Oh my god. Bella.
00:27:17Jesus Christ.
00:27:19Oh my god.
00:27:24Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh god. Oh god. Oh god.
00:27:31Um, my wife just cut her wrist. I need an ambulance at 6124 Street.
00:27:36Sir, I need you to calm down. Can you do that for me?
00:27:40Yeah.
00:27:41The ambulance is on its way. I need you to know, sir, is she still breathing?
00:27:47Yeah.
00:27:49I need you to stop the bleeding. What did you do here?
00:27:54Oh my god.
00:27:55Brian.
00:27:56Brian, I need you to apply pressure above the laceration and lift her arms above the level
00:28:01of her heart. Can you do that for me?
00:28:03Yeah, but do I have to put the phone down?
00:28:05That's okay, Brian. Put the phone down.
00:28:07Oh god.
00:28:08Just don't hang up.
00:28:09Just hang up.
00:28:10Oh god.
00:28:12Oh god.
00:28:13Oh god.
00:28:15Oh god.
00:28:16Oh, my God.
00:28:30Oh, my God.
00:28:46Oh, my God.
00:29:16It is currently after hours, but if you have an emergency, you may contact a representative at 555-4868, or stay on the line and leave a message.
00:29:32Hey, John. This is Brian.
00:29:36I'm having a family emergency, so I'm just calling to let you know that I won't be into work for a couple days, so I'll probably see you next Monday.
00:29:44Okay. Bye.
00:29:46Bye.
00:29:48Bye.
00:29:50Bye.
00:29:52Bye.
00:29:54Bye.
00:29:56Bye.
00:29:58Bye.
00:30:00Bye.
00:30:02Bye.
00:30:04Bye.
00:30:06Bye.
00:30:08Bye.
00:30:10Bye.
00:30:12Bye.
00:30:14Bye.
00:30:16Bye.
00:30:18Bye.
00:30:20I have been dying ever since.
00:30:24As her heart slowed and stopped,
00:30:27I realized at that very moment something I should have always known.
00:30:32She loved me more than she loved herself.
00:30:50And in the history, she found that person felt bad,
00:31:00but I need a friend to tell about such negativity.
00:31:05I remember when I met your mother.
00:31:35She was beautiful.
00:31:41It's not that she's not beautiful.
00:31:42She's gorgeous.
00:31:45It's just...
00:31:47I'm used to her.
00:31:52I don't even know why I did it.
00:31:54I'm stupid.
00:31:59It's not commitment that I have a problem with.
00:32:03It's contentment.
00:32:05It's like no matter how good I have it, it's never good enough.
00:32:15It's no one's fault.
00:32:24I'm just fucked up.
00:32:25It's no one's fault.
00:32:30It's no one's fault.
00:32:32It's no one's fault.
00:32:33It's no one's fault.
00:32:37Yeah, this is Brian Sanders, I'm calling to see how my wife's doing.
00:32:55What is her name, please?
00:32:57Bella Sanders.
00:33:07Your wife is in stable condition, she should be released sometime this evening or tomorrow
00:33:18morning.
00:33:19Okay.
00:33:22She's sleeping, Brian.
00:33:52Okay.
00:33:54She doesn't want to talk yet, Brian.
00:34:15I just want to make sure she's okay.
00:34:19I think it's going to be a long time before she's okay.
00:34:22Hello.
00:34:23Hello.
00:34:24Hello.
00:34:25Hello.
00:34:26Hello.
00:34:27Hi, Gary.
00:34:28Is Bella there?
00:34:29He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:30Hello.
00:34:31Hello.
00:34:32He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:33He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:34He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:35He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:36He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:37He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:38He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:44He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:45He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:46He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:51He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:52He will call you when she's ready.
00:34:58So, how are you, Jen?
00:34:59She will call you?
00:35:00I don't know this.
00:35:01We'll call you maybe she will call you when she's ready.
00:35:02All right, she's just not ready yet.
00:35:30Can I please see the girls?
00:35:32Hold on.
00:35:39What time do you get off tomorrow?
00:35:41Whenever you want.
00:35:43Meet me at Owens Beach around 1.
00:35:48Thank you so much.
00:35:50I'll see you tomorrow.
00:35:53You want to see a call tomorrow?
00:35:56All right.
00:36:00Hi.
00:36:01Oh.
00:36:03There you go.
00:36:07Hey.
00:36:09Did I have to come play?
00:36:10How are you doing?
00:36:11Come on.
00:36:12Here you go.
00:36:13There's Daddy.
00:36:14There she is.
00:36:15Hi.
00:36:16Hi.
00:36:17Oh, look who's here to see you.
00:36:19Oh, I know.
00:36:20Here, come on.
00:36:21Here, come on.
00:36:22Here, come on.
00:36:23Here, come on.
00:36:24There's Daddy.
00:36:25There she is.
00:36:26Hi.
00:36:27Oh, look who's here to see you.
00:36:28Oh, I know.
00:36:29Here, come on.
00:36:30Come on.
00:36:31Here, come on.
00:36:32Here, he's excited.
00:36:33Okay.
00:36:34Get this up.
00:36:37I feel like a magician.
00:36:39Okay, you ready?
00:36:40I'll trade you.
00:36:41Okay.
00:36:42Here we go.
00:36:43There she is.
00:36:45Oh, gorgeous.
00:36:47Come on.
00:36:48Come on.
00:36:49Hey.
00:36:53Hold on here.
00:36:55It's good to see you guys.
00:36:58Yeah.
00:36:59So.
00:37:00How have you been?
00:37:01Huh?
00:37:02Oh, she's been.
00:37:03How has she been?
00:37:04Oh.
00:37:05Always doing interesting things.
00:37:06Oh, yeah.
00:37:07Character.
00:37:08Come on.
00:37:09There you go.
00:37:10Yeah.
00:37:11Oh.
00:37:12Yeah.
00:37:13Oh, yeah.
00:37:14Character.
00:37:15Come on.
00:37:16Yeah.
00:37:17There you go.
00:37:18Yeah.
00:37:23Oh.
00:37:27Ready?
00:37:38There she is.
00:37:39Come on.
00:37:40Let's get out and see the day.
00:37:42Huh?
00:37:43There you go.
00:37:44Hi.
00:37:47There you are, gorgeous.
00:38:01Thank you so much for bringing the family.
00:38:03It's just the right thing to do.
00:38:07Well, how are you doing?
00:38:09Well, I just want to know if she's okay.
00:38:12She's really hurt, Brian, and I don't think she's going to forgive you.
00:38:16Well, I can't even forgive myself.
00:38:18I know you love her, and she loves you.
00:38:21You just made a mistake.
00:38:23She doesn't understand that you understand what you've done.
00:38:26She only knows she's hurting, and it's because of you.
00:38:31I, this is either going to drive you farther apart or bring you closer together, but it's not your choice.
00:38:41It's her choice now.
00:38:43I know.
00:38:44I know.
00:38:46You just have to give her time to decide.
00:38:49It's just hard not being able to see her or talk to her.
00:38:51Thanks for coming out today.
00:39:03It's the right thing to do.
00:39:07My mother has the gift of Catholic guilt, and my dad's going to kick your ass if you keep calling.
00:39:20So, how are you doing?
00:39:22If I see a therapist three times a week, the state won't take the kids. How are you?
00:39:26Well, it's over. I told her we're done.
00:39:29It's too late for the rest.
00:39:30I know I messed up, and I can't go back. But I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
00:39:43How could you do this to me? How?
00:39:47I know I messed up, and I can't go back.
00:39:51But I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
00:39:55How could you do this to me? How?
00:39:59How? When I love you so much?
00:40:03I don't know.
00:40:05I love you so much, Brian.
00:40:15I love you.
00:40:24I want a divorce.
00:40:26Bella.
00:40:27I don't want to talk about it.
00:40:28I want a divorce. And I want the kids. And the house and the car. And you can keep the dog, okay?
00:40:40Take whatever you want.
00:40:42Could you be out by Friday? If we don't come home soon, Cole's going to know something's wrong.
00:40:48Well, what are you going to tell her when you come home and I'm not here?
00:40:52I'm going to tell her the truth.
00:40:56Okay. She should know.
00:40:58I have to go. Take care of yourself, Brian.
00:41:08Yeah. I love you.
00:41:11I love you.
00:41:12Okay. I guess this is it for a while.
00:41:24I love you.
00:41:26I love you.
00:41:43I love you.
00:41:45Hello.
00:42:14Hi.
00:42:15Where's Kim?
00:42:16Um, I've only been here for a week.
00:42:18I don't think I've met her yet.
00:42:20Okay, thanks.
00:42:21Oh, Mr. Jennings wanted to just stop by his office and get it.
00:42:24Alright, thank you.
00:42:30I've known you for a long time, and I've never seen you like this.
00:42:36I'm sorry, John, I'm just having problems at home.
00:42:39You've missed 43 days in the past three months.
00:42:44And when you do show up, you smell like alcohol.
00:42:49My wife and I are... I don't even know what we are.
00:42:53Which is why it hurts me to do this, but you're really not leaving me any choice.
00:42:59I understand.
00:43:01And I wish you the best. I really do.
00:43:05Thanks.
00:43:14What I didn't give away, I threw away.
00:43:27I threw it all away.
00:43:29As easily as one throws away the wrapping on a birthday present.
00:43:34I've always been too selfish to understand that it's the wrapping that makes it special.
00:43:40You're fired, he said, in so many words.
00:43:43You're fired from life.
00:43:46For you have failed everyone who has ever loved you.
00:43:49You have failed yourself.
00:43:52And no amount of sorry will make this better.
00:43:56No amount of forgiveness will make me worthy.
00:43:59I deserve the hurt I have caused.
00:44:02And in the end, the last thing I want is to feel better.
00:44:08Here.
00:44:36Security!
00:44:37Security.
00:44:48Excuse me, sir.
00:44:51We've had a few noise complaints.
00:44:53I had to top it off.
00:44:54Your credit card is going to be closed.
00:44:57So we need to get your stuff out right now.
00:45:00Do you have a jacket you want to bring?
00:45:03That's your jacket.
00:45:05Is this the one?
00:45:07Yeah?
00:45:08Yes.
00:45:09Why don't you put that on?
00:45:10Alright, we've got to grab your stuff.
00:45:12What do you want to bring with you?
00:45:18There.
00:45:19Hold on to that.
00:45:22Hold on.
00:45:23Hold on.
00:45:24Just get in.
00:45:26I don't know.
00:45:27Is that all you need?
00:45:28Alright, we're going to go.
00:45:35gonna come across her too.
00:45:37We'll see you.
00:45:42But it doesn't..
00:45:44Sh Jackie..
00:45:45eye 여러..
00:45:51Thankfully we werere for us today,
00:45:52It was just...
00:45:54The disciples saw her..
00:45:56They were missing her.
00:45:58I don't know how to do that.
00:46:29Freezer, freezer, freezer, freezer, freezer.
00:46:39Freezer, freezer, freezer.
00:46:52Party just moved to a new venue, that's all.
00:46:55Good morning.
00:46:59You know what?
00:47:06I love you, Reese.
00:47:11You know what else?
00:47:14You're too good for this.
00:47:17You wanna go home?
00:47:20Come on.
00:47:22Off like a herd of turtles.
00:47:25Come on.
00:47:26I can't believe I let you talk me into this.
00:47:36Well, I know you've heard this story a million times, but if I don't keep talking, I can't keep walking.
00:47:51So, a million and one.
00:47:55What do you have to say about that, huh?
00:47:58Huh?
00:48:00That's what I thought.
00:48:03Anyway, we drove all day to get to where you were born.
00:48:10Have you ever seen your mother drive?
00:48:13Huh?
00:48:14She's beautiful.
00:48:15She's so serious.
00:48:17I always felt like I was on a mission to make her laugh.
00:48:24I like that feeling of trying to impress somebody.
00:48:31She made me feel that way all the time.
00:48:34Huh.
00:48:35Huh.
00:48:36And when she smiled, I swear there was heaven on her lips.
00:48:44But don't get any ideas.
00:48:47You're too young to start dating there, mister.
00:48:50You're too young for that.
00:48:54Anyway, we get to the farm way out in the boonies.
00:49:02And I swear the place was odd.
00:49:05It was like a circus.
00:49:08There was kids on unicycles.
00:49:13Goats with eight horns.
00:49:16I think there was even a cat with wings.
00:49:19Ha!
00:49:20Woo-hoo-hoo!
00:49:23I bet you like to play with that.
00:49:25Chase that around the yard all day, huh?
00:49:30Ugh.
00:49:32And your mother, she had the best sense of style.
00:49:37She wore dresses from the 50s.
00:49:40And little things in her hair.
00:49:49She reminded me of Marilyn Monroe before...
00:49:53Well, she was Marilyn Monroe.
00:50:00I think it was the way the wind whipped up her dress.
00:50:06It didn't matter where we went or what we did.
00:50:13I couldn't take my eyes off her.
00:50:15She glowed even when she slept.
00:50:25Have you ever seen The Lion King?
00:50:27Yeah.
00:50:28I have about 75 times.
00:50:30I have kids.
00:50:34Remember?
00:50:35Remember when James Earl Jones is holding up Simba?
00:50:39Well...
00:50:47That's how it was when I met you.
00:50:50Only...
00:50:53You weren't Simba.
00:50:57You...
00:51:01You were like a peanut butter cup.
00:51:03A...
00:51:08A fat...
00:51:10Chunky...
00:51:13Little peanut butter cup.
00:51:18That's how you got your name.
00:51:33Let's just do this tomorrow, buddy, okay?
00:51:48One more time.
00:52:03Do...
00:52:06You're right.
00:52:07I...
00:52:09I...
00:52:11I...
00:52:12I...
00:52:14I...
00:52:16I...
00:52:18I...
00:52:20I...
00:52:25I...
00:52:27I...
00:52:28I...
00:53:29Oh, I missed you.
00:53:43Oh, I missed you.
00:55:44Fucking kids.
00:55:46Hey, fuck off.
00:55:48Hey.
00:55:49Hey, what's your problem?
00:55:52I don't have a problem.
00:55:54You walk through here every day.
00:55:55Where do you go?
00:55:56I don't know.
00:55:57I guess I'm not going anywhere.
00:55:58I guess I'm not going anywhere.
00:55:58I guess I'm not going anywhere.
00:55:59Quit being a pathetic fuck and say hi every once in a while, huh?
00:56:04Well, you gonna sit down?
00:56:05It ain't fucking church.
00:56:06I'm a piece of shit.
00:56:07I'm a piece of shit, Paul.
00:56:10I'm Terry.
00:56:11I'm Terry.
00:56:11This is my friend, Vodka.
00:56:13Who the fuck are you?
00:56:14Brian.
00:56:15Hey.
00:56:18Hey, waitress.
00:56:20Can I get a napkin for my friend here?
00:56:21Don't sleep at all.
00:56:23I'm a child rotting, you stagnant cunt.
00:56:29I gotta go.
00:56:31Where the fuck are you gonna go?
00:56:33You got a job interview or something?
00:56:36Oh, gonna be a big shot dental assistant?
00:56:38Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:57:08Father, I'm a child rotting, you drunk, you drunk, you drunk.
00:57:53The taste of used food subsides as the flickering streetlights create a rhythmic dance of muted shadows.
00:58:01I stuff my coat with newspapers I will never read.
00:58:05The first night was cold.
00:58:09So was the second.
00:58:11And every night that followed.
00:58:14Memories will never keep you warm at night.
00:58:18But they will keep you up.
00:58:21Even the good ones.
00:58:22Have you ever held someone so close that you forget which one you are?
00:58:29That you think it's your fingers moving.
00:58:32That it's theirs.
00:58:36That they finish your words.
00:58:37I think it's your lips that make my heart beat.
00:58:52That it's your lips that make my heart beat.
00:58:57Hey!
00:58:58So did you get that job?
00:59:00Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
00:59:01Jesus Christ.
00:59:03Watching you is like watching some pathetic fucking dog shit himself.
00:59:07And then wipe his ass all over the ground and smear it in real good.
00:59:10What you need is an aspirin and a shower.
00:59:16What you need is an aspirin and a shower.
00:59:19Well, are you going to sit down or what?
00:59:22What is your deal anyway?
00:59:29You ain't supposed to be here.
00:59:32Well, I used to have a wife, kids, a dog, and a house.
00:59:37Jesus Christ.
00:59:38You are a dental assistant.
00:59:39Well, I was an architect.
00:59:44An architect?
00:59:46If you were an architect, you'd know how many floors there were between you and the ground.
00:59:53Let me tell you something, you piece of shit.
00:59:56I used to be a dental hygienist.
00:59:59Ha ha ha ha.
01:00:01Being a dental hygienist is a lot like being a shrink.
01:00:04Only most of my clients were numb.
01:00:07Kind of like you.
01:00:07Talk to me about being a mom.
01:00:12You ever smoke crack?
01:00:16Smoking crack is kind of like waking up Frankenstein's monster.
01:00:20There's a big jolt of electricity, and then he just stumbles around all sad and lonely.
01:00:25So the town folk, they all get together and, you know, get their pitchforks and, I don't know,
01:00:30they run him out of town or kill him or, fuck, I forget.
01:00:35Killed it.
01:00:36Killed it.
01:00:38Thank you very much.
01:00:39Anyway, my point is this.
01:00:42You walk around here like fucking Frankenstein's monster.
01:00:45And I see.
01:00:46I can tell you ain't supposed to be here.
01:00:48You're a fucking accident.
01:00:49So, I look for my pitchfork.
01:00:53But then I realize I'm not a fucking farmer.
01:00:55What do I need a pitchfork for?
01:00:57Ha ha ha.
01:00:58But by the time I realize that, you're fucking gone.
01:01:04Just do yourself a favor.
01:01:06Go be an architect.
01:01:09Build yourself some big building that you don't want to jump off of.
01:01:12Or at least be a good drunk.
01:01:16You fucking piece of shit.
01:01:28Yeah.
01:01:29Go fuck yourself, Frankie the parkfly.
01:01:31Jesus, Paul.
01:01:37You're a fucking embarrassment.
01:01:39Thank you very much.
01:02:09Thank you very much.
01:02:39Interesting how something so strong can also be so fragile.
01:02:45So are you in school?
01:02:47Third quarter freshman.
01:02:48Well, it's very beautiful.
01:02:52Do you paint?
01:02:54I always wanted to.
01:02:56I was told my wife I'd paint her, but I never did.
01:02:59You're married?
01:03:00No, I'm divorced.
01:03:03I'm sorry.
01:03:05It's okay. It's been a while now.
01:03:07How long?
01:03:10Going on three years.
01:03:11This is too bad.
01:03:15It's all right.
01:03:16Where are you from?
01:03:18Yeah.
01:03:19I must have tourists written all over me.
01:03:22Well, that depends if you ask me to take your picture in front of the space needle or not.
01:03:26I'm from Portland.
01:03:30Really?
01:03:30Yeah.
01:03:30I'm sailing.
01:03:31Right on.
01:03:35Well, I should probably let you get back to your work.
01:03:38That's okay.
01:03:39You don't have to.
01:03:41Thanks, but I need to start looking for some dinner.
01:03:44But good luck to you.
01:03:47You too.
01:05:02Hi.
01:05:03Hi.
01:05:03How are you?
01:05:05Just trying to get money to the other person's food.
01:05:08Do you have any spare change?
01:05:10Oh, I'm sorry.
01:05:11Don't.
01:05:12It's okay.
01:05:13Thanks anyway.
01:05:15Have a good night.
01:05:16You too.
01:05:32So I don't get the homeless money, but I will help you help yourself.
01:05:37You don't have to do this.
01:05:38No, it's okay.
01:05:39I want to.
01:05:41See, you can paint pictures, and that way you don't have to beg.
01:05:45Can I hug you?
01:05:47What?
01:05:49Oh, you're one of the nicest people I've ever met.
01:05:51I hope you get everything you ever want from life.
01:05:55I hope you get everything you ever want from life.
01:05:57That you know what you have when you have it.
01:06:03Hey.
01:06:13Hey!
01:06:14There goes Frank, you're the architect.
01:06:16You're gonna come over and join me or what?
01:06:38What the fuck are you so happy about?
01:06:41Life goes on.
01:06:46It doesn't matter how much you push it, pull it, remember or forget.
01:06:51It's indifferent.
01:06:52It just goes on.
01:06:55And I think back to the little things, the things that matter most.
01:07:00The laughter.
01:07:02The wet laughter that hurts in the best way.
01:07:07Her lip-lock eyes across a crowded room.
01:07:11Philosophy over coffee.
01:07:15Explaining why the sky is blue to a child who thinks the world of you.
01:07:20So wide-eyed and full of possibilities.
01:07:24Endless possibilities.
01:07:27When the world was made of magic.
01:07:30Of course unicorns are real.
01:07:35As real as princesses.
01:07:38As real as Bigfoot.
01:07:40As real as you and me.
01:07:43Once, when I was your age, I rode one.
01:07:47I rode one but the horn is very sharp.
01:07:52That's how I got these scars on my chin, you know?
01:07:56Fly.
01:07:57Fly.
01:07:58Fly.
01:07:59Fly.
01:08:00Fly.
01:08:01Fly as I sink.
01:08:05Fly.
01:08:06Fly.
01:08:07Fly.
01:08:08Fly as I sink.
01:08:10Fly as I sink.
01:08:32So let's get started.
01:09:02Take a walk with me
01:09:13And let's go find belief
01:09:17I want to see the stars again
01:09:22With the wonder that I had
01:09:25At the age of ten
01:09:28So now I'm alone
01:09:32Once again I'm on my own
01:09:37She lost the magic she had for me
01:09:42In her eyes
01:09:46We no longer share the same skies
01:09:53No, we don't
01:09:57Not at all
01:09:59Not at all
01:10:03So now I walk alone
01:10:10Once again I'm on my own
01:10:16She lost the magic she had for me
01:10:22Lost the magic I'm not complete
01:10:29In each one of us
01:10:33Peter Pan
01:10:35Elvis Presley
01:10:37Superman
01:10:39In each one of us
01:10:43Jacques Cousteau
01:10:45To marvel at the earth
01:10:48And the sea below
01:10:51In each one of us
01:11:04In each one of us
01:11:11In each one of us
01:11:16Jacques Cousteau
01:11:18To marvel at the earth
01:11:21And the sea below
01:11:23Do you remember the first day we met?
01:11:46Do you remember the first day we met?
01:11:48Let's go find belief
01:11:55Belief
01:11:59Belief
01:12:03I want to see the stars again
01:12:11The stars again
01:12:18With the wonder that I had
01:12:21At the age of ten
01:12:25Oh
01:12:27Oh
01:12:30The age of ten
01:12:34I remember lying on your chest and talking for hours
01:12:37The age of ten
01:12:41And then we remembered we was lying on the bathroom floor
01:12:47And we had a shower again
01:12:49So I walk alone
01:13:06Once again
01:13:11Once again
01:13:11I'm on my own
01:13:15She lost the magic
01:13:18She had for me
01:13:22Oh
01:13:24In her eyes
01:13:27We no longer
01:13:32Share the sky
01:13:36Oh no
01:13:39Oh no
01:13:42Not at all
01:13:45Not at all
01:13:52Sometimes I can't
01:13:55I don't wonder
01:13:56Maybe we forget each other every time you look away
01:14:01I see
01:14:06You
01:14:08Beautiful
01:14:10In each one of us
01:14:15Peter Pan
01:14:18Elvis Presley
01:14:21Superman
01:14:24In each one of us
01:14:29Jacques Cousteau
01:14:34To marvel at the earth
01:14:36In the sea below
01:14:39Well I
01:14:40I just need someone
01:14:43Who understands
01:14:46The little boy
01:14:49Inside the man
01:14:53I just need someone
01:14:57Who understands
01:15:00Part of me lives
01:15:04In our dreamland
01:15:07In our dreamland
01:15:08In our dreamland
01:15:23I remember
01:15:25I remember
01:15:27She thought
01:15:28But I can't forget
01:15:31Once you asked me
01:15:34If I had ever stood naked
01:15:35In front of anyone
01:15:36Alone
01:15:38And out of reach
01:15:39I took off my clothes
01:15:42And backed away from you
01:15:43You simply asked me
01:15:45My middle name
01:15:46And told me
01:15:47To put my clothes back on
01:15:48I am standing naked and raw
01:15:53For you now Bella
01:15:54Not to beg forgiveness
01:15:56But to beg that you find happiness
01:15:59The kind of happiness I could never give you
01:16:03And if you should see
01:16:06The unrecognizable me on the street
01:16:08Don't look down
01:16:10Don't look back
01:16:13And I will grant you the same respect
01:16:17Ain't you guys got a home to go to
01:16:22Yeah
01:16:23I was thinking about maybe getting a wife
01:16:26Shitting out some kids
01:16:28Being an architect
01:16:30You'll marry me
01:16:32Shut up you fucking drunk
01:16:34Do you ever leave the bench
01:16:37What do they decorate you guys at Christmas time
01:16:42Yes
01:16:46No
01:16:47Okay well
01:16:50I'm going to go get a cup of coffee
01:16:52If you want to join
01:16:52Come on sweetheart
01:17:00Daddy wants some breakfast
01:17:03Lupe
01:17:05You're
01:17:32So we'll see where that comes from.
01:18:02So we'll see where that comes from.
01:18:32That way I can declare a state anarchy.
01:18:37I want to be a movie star.
01:18:40A big fucking movie star.
01:18:43Live in a big fucking house.
01:18:45Make big fucking movies.
01:18:47I want to be the love child to sit vicious in Molly Ringwald.
01:18:53I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
01:19:02I want to be God for the sole purpose of saying, I brought you into this world, don't think
01:19:09for one minute I won't take you out.
01:19:10I want the original promise.
01:19:16I want justice for all.
01:19:19I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between.
01:19:25I want the world in my palm.
01:19:32No cooler than 60 degrees.
01:19:36No warmer than 75.
01:19:39And never a cloud in the sky.
01:19:41I want the perfect kiss.
01:19:47The perfect imperfection.
01:19:50The perfect life.
01:19:51But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
01:19:59And I want her to walk through that door right over there.
01:20:03And order biscuits and gravy.
01:20:05You're a pathetic fuck.
01:20:11Thanks.
01:20:13Not you, him.
01:20:16Jesus, that was beautiful.
01:20:35That was beautiful.
01:20:35That was beautiful.
01:26:21Alright.
01:26:23Oh, that you're in love
01:26:27Oh, that you're in love
01:26:31Oh, that you're in love
01:26:53Oh, you're in love
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