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Nina, an art dealer, has her weekly massage appointment and is surprised to find out her usual masseur, Douglas, has sent a replacement named Fitch.
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00:03:59Great, Deed.
00:04:00I mean, there you are. You're standing right in front of me.
00:04:04Hi, Nina.
00:04:06Hello, Deedee.
00:04:07How was your day?
00:04:09Very pleasant, in a grim sort of way.
00:04:12Okay.
00:04:16So, how are things around here?
00:04:19Oh, did that, uh...
00:04:21What's his name? That strange, bald lawyer call?
00:04:24No.
00:04:25How about Douglas? Did he reconfirm for this afternoon?
00:04:27No, don't call.
00:04:30Well, if he ever does call me here, it's fine to give him the number in the car.
00:04:34Not the lawyer.
00:04:36Oh.
00:04:38He represents Murky.
00:04:39The artist that I'm showing next month?
00:04:41Douglas already has the number.
00:04:42Which means he must still be coming, since he didn't call.
00:04:48Well, yeah.
00:04:51So?
00:04:53What?
00:04:53Oh, how were things around here, you were about to say?
00:04:58Gardener came.
00:04:59And how is Mr. Lee?
00:05:00He cleared out that underbrush where you asked about.
00:05:03Good.
00:05:04He did the deep root fertilization, too.
00:05:07I paid all the bills.
00:05:08The checks are on your desk.
00:05:09All you have to do is sign them.
00:05:11And I bought some haddock from the fishermen this morning.
00:05:13I made a curry sauce to go with it.
00:05:15All you have to do is pop it in the oven and I left the directions.
00:05:17And you'd like to go home now?
00:05:21Go.
00:05:28Oh, uh, Mr. Lee said he won't be back again for three weeks.
00:05:33He has to go to Taiwan.
00:05:34I think he was trying to tell me some family thing.
00:05:36No doubt.
00:05:37You want to know if you wanted his nephew to come back the next two weeks?
00:05:40Uh, you said yes, I hope?
00:05:42You're a good little wife, Dee Dee.
00:05:44Every woman should have one.
00:05:47You're a good little wife.
00:06:17We're good.
00:06:18You're a good little wife.
00:06:25You're a good union.
00:06:27We're here.
00:06:29Good.
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00:06:31Good.
00:06:35Good.
00:07:06Hmm.
00:07:36Hmm.
00:08:06Hmm.
00:08:08Hmm.
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00:08:18Hmm.
00:08:22Can I help you?
00:08:36Hi.
00:08:38Yes.
00:08:40I'm Fitch.
00:08:42Fitch.
00:08:44I'm here for your appointment.
00:08:46Where's Douglas?
00:08:48Didn't he call you?
00:08:50Said he was going to.
00:08:52He said he would call you.
00:08:54To tell me what?
00:08:56Couldn't make it.
00:08:57Douglas.
00:08:58That's what he said.
00:09:00He said he would call you.
00:09:02To tell me what?
00:09:04Couldn't make it.
00:09:06Douglas.
00:09:08That's what he said.
00:09:09So, where should we set up, Nina?
00:09:11Well, wait, wait, wait.
00:09:12Just a minute.
00:09:13We're, uh...
00:09:14We're usually this way, but where is he, do you know?
00:09:16Who?
00:09:17Douglas.
00:09:18Didn't come up?
00:09:19I don't understand.
00:09:20My assistant confirmed the appointment.
00:09:21Um, listen, the thing is, I'm really very accustomed to working with...
00:09:26Sun also rises.
00:09:28I liked it.
00:09:29Well, see, I'm not.
00:09:30I'm not.
00:09:31I'm not.
00:09:32I'm not.
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00:09:44I'm not.
00:09:45I'm not.
00:09:46I'm not.
00:09:47Well, you see, I'm very accustomed to working with him, Douglas.
00:09:52And the thing is that I like him.
00:09:55I really like him, and, um...
00:09:58Well, it takes time.
00:09:59At least for a woman, you know, it really takes time to feel comfortable,
00:10:02really comfortable with a man who, you know, really...
00:10:04Doug's got the touch.
00:10:06Oh.
00:10:16Without even picking up a phone or...
00:10:20Douglas.
00:10:22When you have a relationship with someone, a business relationship,
00:10:25we go back, he and I, you...
00:10:27You expect some consideration.
00:10:29It seemed to be in a rush.
00:10:31He's very young.
00:10:32He's not so terribly young.
00:10:36No, not so young, but...
00:10:38He is young. Younger than he thinks he is.
00:10:41Besides, he could have not called either one of us.
00:10:44He's very talented.
00:10:46He is.
00:10:47Good-looking kid, too.
00:10:49Women seem to go for him.
00:10:51A lot of his clients are women.
00:10:53Most, really.
00:10:56Outside's nice.
00:10:58Especially if you have some privacy, and you have some privacy.
00:11:00Douglas does me outside.
00:11:04It's really hard.
00:11:05How's that?
00:11:07You don't.
00:11:08Twice.
00:11:10I dig it.
00:11:17It's cold out here right now.
00:11:21Well?
00:11:22What would you suggest?
00:11:24Some dark and quiet place.
00:11:26I was in such a hurry getting over here.
00:11:30I've got my oils and things.
00:11:32But as for cows and sheep, I'll need some.
00:11:37All right.
00:11:43I left some stuff in the car.
00:11:45I left some stuff in the car.
00:11:46I'm sorry.
00:11:47I moved on in the car.
00:11:48I'm sorry.
00:11:49I grew up in a car.
00:11:50Oh, my God.
00:11:51Oh, my God.
00:11:52Oh, my God.
00:11:53Oh, my God.
00:12:12Bitch.
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00:13:08Ugh.
00:13:09Thing results.
00:13:11Helen Fontes says.
00:13:12I'm fascinated with things.
00:13:13That is I'm fascinated with the fascination with things.
00:13:15This is my bedroom.
00:13:16I thought it might be.
00:13:18I wanted to wash up.
00:13:21When I happened to walk by,
00:13:23thanks.
00:13:26Well, I wanted to wash up.
00:13:48What massage is about in the end is healing.
00:13:55There are ways to heal people
00:13:56without words or prayers or drugs.
00:13:59That's it.
00:14:01That's the essence.
00:14:02I never really gave it much thought.
00:14:06Healing.
00:14:07Massage, in those terms.
00:14:09Try not to over-intellectualize the use.
00:14:12It makes life so grey.
00:14:14I'm more intuitive, I think.
00:14:18How old are you?
00:14:24Why do you ask?
00:14:25I don't know. Why not ask?
00:14:28I mean, you never learn anything
00:14:29if you don't ask, right?
00:14:31Older than you.
00:14:36The laying on of hands
00:14:38is power in it.
00:14:43But in our culture,
00:14:45there are so many western prejudices
00:14:47against illness and healing.
00:14:51We're really pretty tight-arsed,
00:14:52medically speaking.
00:14:53You just think about it.
00:14:58When was the last time
00:14:59your doctor really touched you?
00:15:02I don't mean probed or examined you.
00:15:06But touched you.
00:15:09Well, if it never happened,
00:15:11it was too recent.
00:15:12I don't like doctors.
00:15:13That's because they consult with you.
00:15:17They talk with you over the phone
00:15:19or they prescribe drugs.
00:15:24But they don't personally
00:15:25heal you.
00:15:27They leave that to time
00:15:28or to chemistry.
00:15:29Well, I don't like doctors
00:15:31because I don't like doctors.
00:15:35You've known Doug how long?
00:15:39Not long.
00:15:40Long enough to like him?
00:15:41How long's that take?
00:15:47It goes back
00:15:49to the ancient, you know.
00:15:52What's that?
00:15:54Massage.
00:15:56Maybe even earlier,
00:15:58some historians think.
00:15:59The Greeks
00:16:01were mainly into massage
00:16:03as a treatment,
00:16:05a healing aid.
00:16:07They have records
00:16:08with people like
00:16:08Socrates and Plato
00:16:10being massaged daily
00:16:12and Plato lived to 104.
00:16:14Socrates did not.
00:16:17But the Romans,
00:16:18being who they were,
00:16:20essentially Italians
00:16:21without the loafers,
00:16:23were the first to come up
00:16:24with the idea of
00:16:25massage
00:16:26as a form of foreplay.
00:16:29Courtesans became
00:16:30quite good at it.
00:16:32Became part of the transaction,
00:16:34finally.
00:16:35Well, you don't have to be
00:16:36a rocket scientist
00:16:36to make the connection.
00:16:38Massage is sexual.
00:16:40Very sexual.
00:16:42Can be.
00:16:42Doesn't have to be.
00:16:44Shouldn't always be.
00:16:46Well,
00:16:47I wasn't talking about
00:16:49a sweating,
00:16:50screaming,
00:16:50orgasmic epiphany.
00:16:51It's just that you're
00:16:52lying there naked.
00:16:53Someone's touching you
00:16:54in places you sure
00:16:55wouldn't let your father
00:16:56touch you
00:16:56and it's arousing.
00:16:59It's my desk.
00:17:06It's a form of communication.
00:17:08Just have to make sure
00:17:09you're both speaking
00:17:10the same language.
00:17:14Well,
00:17:15looks like you're
00:17:16ready to get started.
00:17:18We've already started.
00:17:20What do you mean?
00:17:21Well,
00:17:21most of any massage
00:17:22worth having
00:17:23takes place in the head
00:17:25and I'm sure
00:17:25you've been preparing.
00:17:27Why?
00:17:28You in a hurry?
00:17:30No.
00:17:36Funny little thing,
00:17:37eh?
00:17:40Maybe you'd like
00:17:41some music.
00:17:42What happened
00:17:42to that music
00:17:43you were playing
00:17:43before you turn it off?
00:17:45I'll find something.
00:17:46I'll find something.
00:17:47I'll find something.
00:17:47I'll find something.
00:17:48I'll find something.
00:17:48I'll find something.
00:17:49I'll find something.
00:17:49I'll find something.
00:17:49I'll find something.
00:17:49I'll find something.
00:17:50I'll find something.
00:17:51I'll find something.
00:17:51I'll find something.
00:17:51I'll find something.
00:17:52I'll find something.
00:17:52I'll find something.
00:17:53I'll find something.
00:17:53I'll find something.
00:17:53I'll find something.
00:17:54I'll find something.
00:17:55I'll find something.
00:17:55I'll find something.
00:17:55Oh, my God.
00:18:25I'd say we're ready.
00:18:55So, what are we working on, Nina?
00:19:08Any complaints, maladies?
00:19:10Any part of the body needs special attention?
00:19:13The part that starts with my hairline and ends with my toes.
00:19:16It's my job, you know.
00:19:32Yeah, you were going to say something about how tense I am.
00:19:40Douglas is always telling me how much tension I have,
00:19:44especially in my upper back and shoulders.
00:19:47It's all because of my job.
00:19:48I have a gallery.
00:20:05Well, a couple of them, actually.
00:20:07One here in town, off Melrose.
00:20:10One in New York.
00:20:11Rebecca.
00:20:11Rebecca.
00:20:14Anyway, what is your business, your baby?
00:20:18You know what they say about responsibility falling on your shoulders.
00:20:22It's best not to talk too much.
00:20:25Was I talking too much?
00:20:28Well, it's your message.
00:20:29You can do anything you like.
00:20:30You really should try to relax.
00:20:34You can't keep going all the time.
00:20:37Or is that what the people at work do?
00:20:41People I work with, relaxation is limited to what they can purchase in a vial.
00:20:45People say it's working already.
00:21:07I've got to move on.
00:21:18I know.
00:21:18I know.
00:21:28I know.
00:21:31I know.
00:21:32about 400 gauss potency perfect for those hard-to-treat areas
00:21:42now you really must visit my gallery a very interesting installation going in next month
00:21:50i think you should see what's that it's a history of women's fashion as a form of bondage
00:21:55hmm don't see it you'll enjoy it it has a point of view ironic satiric point of view exactly
00:22:05well i'll tell you and this is why so much of art today is so pointless that what we
00:22:11us our society suffers from is a kind of bankruptcy of spirit well i'm sure people have said something
00:22:18like that as long as there have been people around to say it yeah except this time it's true i'm sure
00:22:22they said that too if you're talking about today the way we live it's fear that's what defines us
00:22:38fear of change fear of the future technology changing things faster than people can take
00:22:53it in turns us into strangers everyone that's why people create the art they create bad faith
00:23:00what is blaming someone else something else technology as though we had no responsibility over
00:23:08ourselves our actions well so what would you suggest i suggest we look inward all of us
00:23:15for starters and then i suggest we look outward
00:23:21then do we all sit around cross-legged humming like gnats we could we might why not or else we could just go out
00:23:33and kill all the gallrianas
00:23:35what do you think of it
00:23:43where do you show
00:23:51where do i show
00:23:55do you have any family fitz wife children
00:24:05mother father
00:24:08gone now they've been dead a while i have a sister back in sydney
00:24:15i try to stay close to my family it's important don't you think
00:24:21my sister's in boston my brother's in georgia somewhere my parents are retired in florida but
00:24:28we work at it it's important don't you think
00:24:32i think so family's staying close
00:24:37what makes you think that think what
00:24:43a bankruptcy of spirit
00:24:46is that really what we're about
00:24:48call it what you like the essence of it is is that we have lost our way
00:24:52as a civilization
00:24:54spiritually i'm saying
00:24:56i've been around and the one thing i've learned is we don't know what we don't know
00:25:01my work i suppose has a spiritual side to it
00:25:27each artist is unique each has individual needs
00:25:34what do i show
00:25:39people like me don't show anywhere
00:25:44i'm not in fashion
00:25:51of course there is a little matter of compensation
00:25:58people understand that when they come to me
00:26:01usually that's why they come to me
00:26:04artists are rarely as concerned with the idea of their earning a living as everyone else seems to be
00:26:11um
00:26:26oh nina
00:26:30hmm
00:26:31what's this
00:26:32It's a shiatsu thumb for when I get tired.
00:26:46So what's the spiritual side to your way?
00:26:51This is not too hard for you, is it, Mina?
00:26:55Why do you ask?
00:26:56I had aspirations, artistic aspirations, except I saw myself up on stage somewhere as a performer.
00:27:11Only problem was I couldn't sing or dance.
00:27:16I could audition.
00:27:19You see, my gift is I know how to sell.
00:27:22Now kneel up, head this in.
00:27:26And what happened to him?
00:27:31Who knows, really?
00:27:38Like this?
00:27:39Mm-hmm.
00:27:44I like what I do, where I've ended up, who I am.
00:27:49I get enormous satisfaction from it.
00:27:55You happy, Fitch?
00:27:57Happy.
00:28:00Well, you said you've done all this traveling around.
00:28:03I was just wondering if it made you happy.
00:28:15Made me a better person.
00:28:17Sure, I suppose so.
00:28:19Happier than most people, if that's what it's about.
00:28:21There was more to happiness than just being happy.
00:28:29Meaning what?
00:28:30Well, to most people, the culture, civilizations, the idea of happiness is not some trivial thing.
00:28:42It's not a good job or a new car in the drive.
00:28:45It's something else entirely.
00:28:48Something spiritual.
00:28:49Sometimes what's wrong is what you'd call illness.
00:29:12At other times, it comes from outside.
00:29:19Drawn by our own evil thoughts and those of a two-heart.
00:29:23What's this?
00:29:24Mushroom tea.
00:29:25It'll cleanse you.
00:29:26And that way, he can see the source of the trouble and the hope, he's saying.
00:29:32The actual face of the two-heart, who's causing it.
00:29:33I don't know.
00:29:34Tell me you've got a crystal in that bag of yours.
00:29:35No.
00:29:36I guess I could stand to know the two-heart's causing me my pain.
00:29:39Works, though.
00:29:40This kind of healing.
00:29:41Modern medicine, and any science when you think about it, is a belief system.
00:29:44A religion like any other religion.
00:30:02Medicine works, because we believe it will work.
00:30:04You know, sometimes it just works...
00:30:05And a lot of times it doesn't.
00:30:08A lot of times it doesn't.
00:30:11Then the medicine man uses his crystals.
00:30:28This is the teaching crystal.
00:30:38This is the shaman's crystal.
00:30:43He looks through it at each of the centers.
00:31:08They understand themselves.
00:31:16The Hopis.
00:31:26I like clergymen even less than I like doctors.
00:31:29That's because you worship at the Temple of Art, which is a whole lot like the Temple of Science when you get down to it.
00:31:36Your god is a jealous god, the most jealous god of all.
00:31:42The god of reason.
00:31:44Oh, what do you suggest? That I convert?
00:31:47Become a Hopi mystic?
00:31:50Can you do that, by the way?
00:31:52Convert to another race?
00:31:54The point I was making really is that, without realizing it,
00:31:59we've given up one form of mysticism for another more socially acceptable form of mysticism.
00:32:04Now, I don't know about you, but I've never seen a black hole or a quark.
00:32:07They may exist, they may not.
00:32:09Personally, I have no way of knowing.
00:32:11What I do know is that I've seen Hopis walk away healed by a medicine man
00:32:16using no more than a pair of hands and a few crystals.
00:32:21Christ, you're patronizing.
00:32:23All I'm saying is that we, everyone,
00:32:28have replaced a system of belief with a system of disbelief.
00:32:33And that it's found its way into everything we do and think.
00:32:36We've lost our capacity for wonder.
00:32:38And this is the insidious part.
00:32:41No one even knows it's happened.
00:32:43Except for you.
00:32:56They understand themselves, the Hopis.
00:32:59I just got it.
00:33:06What do you think?
00:33:09It doesn't matter what I think.
00:33:16Well, what do you mean?
00:33:18It doesn't matter what you think, I...
00:33:20I want your opinion.
00:33:22There's only one reason to do art.
00:33:28It needs to be done.
00:33:31He did it.
00:33:33So why discuss it?
00:33:35Oh, come on.
00:33:37I just wanted to know what you think.
00:33:39Where have you been, Fitch?
00:33:40Where have you been, Fitch?
00:33:41In your travels?
00:33:42Well, places that I can sometimes remember.
00:33:43Well, wherever the spirit takes me.
00:33:44Far East, Africa.
00:33:45The year with the Aborigines in Australia.
00:33:46Sort of massaged away from one end of the world to the other, huh?
00:33:48I envy that.
00:33:49What, traveling the world?
00:33:50Having no responsibilities.
00:33:51No responsibilities?
00:33:52Just the opposite, I think.
00:33:53Why did you come here tonight?
00:33:54Why wouldn't I?
00:33:55Far East, Africa, Aborigines.
00:33:56No responsibilities?
00:33:57Just the opposite, I think.
00:33:58Why did you come here tonight?
00:33:59Why wouldn't I?
00:34:00Far East, Africa, Aborigines.
00:34:02I'm not your style.
00:34:03Did he?
00:34:04Did he?
00:34:05I like him.
00:34:06He said, of all the people he knew,
00:34:09you were the one who was most...
00:34:10...and I was most...
00:34:11...a little bit older.
00:34:12So what?
00:34:13Why did you come here tonight?
00:34:14Why wouldn't I?
00:34:15I'm not your style.
00:34:17I'm not your style.
00:34:20I'm not your style.
00:34:21Duggar.
00:34:23Did he?
00:34:24I like him.
00:34:27He said of all the people he knew,
00:34:29you. You were the one who was most... What? Adrift. Adrift? That was the word.
00:34:42Why would he say that? Doug's got the touch.
00:34:47What do you suppose that means, adrift? I mean, what does that mean? Your heart, your spirit,
00:34:55you're searching. How would he know? He's a kid. Not as much of a kid as he thinks he
00:35:01is. Turn over. All my life, it's been the same thing. Men refusing to see me for what
00:35:10I am, projecting their idea of who I should be on me instead. Now, even the guy who does
00:35:16my massages wants me to be something I'm not. And what's that? A tormented, career-obsessed
00:35:23woman. I mean, why not take a little risk and actually get to know someone on a more
00:35:29complex level? I really thought more of Douglas. I know he's your friend, but I really thought
00:35:38more of him. So is it a risk? What? Complexity. Just now you said he wouldn't risk knowing
00:35:46you on a more complex level. So is complexity dangerous? Isn't it? Well, you said it was.
00:35:55Well, it is. Getting to know someone is always a risk. In what way? In every way. In every
00:36:04conceivable way. I'm not sure I get it.
00:36:26I find myself thinking about you all the time. Is that a bad thing? That's what I was
00:36:48going to ask you. Is everything in your life always so complicated? No. Just the important
00:36:58things.
00:37:28intimacy, whether it's emotional or intellectual or sexual, I think it can be very threatening.
00:37:41Threatening or a risk? Semantics? Christ. No, I'm just trying to understand you. You said
00:37:50Doug didn't. So I'm trying to. Lay down. That's what these are for. Colors draw things out of you,
00:38:10even in silence. Well, as much as a man might be tempted, I don't think he's got a bolt for
00:38:15the door the minute he's had sex with his wife. Obviously, you don't think I can. That's how Doug
00:38:23always does it. Yeah, but Doug can get away with it. Get away with it how? Being gay. Gay? Doug, you knew he was gay? Of course.
00:38:40You said you did. Yeah, sure. He's usually very upfront about it. Very upfront.
00:38:49That's how he and I met. He thought I was gay. Well, actually, a friend of his I worked on, he thought I was
00:39:07gay. You're not. No. But Doug thinks everybody's gay. That's part of his charm. I think he's bisexual in some half-arsed way.
00:39:22Nevertheless. How? Well, it was all the same to her. Classical music, classical art. Didn't matter who or what it
00:39:34was. It was all lovely. The woman, and I've almost come to admire this about her over the years, didn't
00:39:42have a critical bone in her body. She was the type of person they created public television for.
00:39:49One night, it was one of these Saturday night deals, and there was a very important client coming.
00:39:55All the men were supposed to wear a black tie. About ten minutes before the guests were to arrive,
00:40:05I came downstairs dressed, ready. My father took one look at me, and let's say he wasn't pleased.
00:40:16Why? It was my bow tie. He said that by wearing one of those clip-on bow ties, I was humiliating him
00:40:26beyond humiliation. He said that a real gentleman ties his own tie. You look like a bus boy.
00:40:36That's nice. You were how old? Seventeen. But he wasn't ranting, you have to understand. Never.
00:40:48What did you do? I pulled the tie apart. What do you mean? Well, it wasn't a clip-on,
00:40:54you see. It was one of your standard J-press bow ties. I'd tied it so well, I'd done it so perfectly
00:41:03that it looked too good. What did he do then? He told me to retire. Retire?
00:41:33That's it? That's it. No.
00:41:53Heat, like a hot bath, can sometimes stimulate or relax.
00:41:57It's a kind of Japanese acupuncture where we use heat instead of needles. And we put
00:42:06it on here. And we put it on here for nervous tension.
00:42:17How about you?
00:42:18How about me what?
00:42:23Married?
00:42:25No.
00:42:27Never?
00:42:28Never.
00:42:30Close?
00:42:32Maybe, I suppose so. Depends how close you mean.
00:42:36A serious relationship. A meaningful relationship. You've had one of those, I would hope.
00:42:44I would hope so.
00:42:44But nothing that stirred the old conjugal instinct.
00:42:49An instinct, is that what it is?
00:42:51The desire to mate, sure.
00:42:53The desire to mate is not the desire to marry.
00:42:57No, I suppose not.
00:42:59No more than standing in a firing squad is the same as standing in front of a firing squad.
00:43:05Right.
00:43:05What's getting married about anyway? Two people swept up in some out-of-control, delusive kind
00:43:13of passion, swearing to God they're going to stay that way for the rest of their lives.
00:43:17Oh, so you're a romantic.
00:43:20For me, what comes out of an experience isn't nearly so interesting as the experience itself.
00:43:24How many people know passion? I mean, really know her.
00:43:38Who was she?
00:43:41How'd you meet her?
00:43:42How'd you meet her?
00:43:42I was running from myself and she wasn't.
00:43:56Some people, from the moment they're born, know what their destiny is. They live with it.
00:44:02It's as much a part of them as the color of their eyes.
00:44:08Is it on?
00:44:11It's on.
00:44:13Okay, don't look.
00:44:14Okay.
00:44:18I went down to St. James' infirmary
00:44:23To see my baby there
00:44:28She was stretched out
00:44:31On a long white table
00:44:34So cold, so pale, so fair
00:44:39But it makes them a little old, too.
00:44:44It's because they understand.
00:44:47Understand what?
00:44:49Everything.
00:44:50You're rich.
00:45:00It's not your fault.
00:45:03That's why you're here.
00:45:06Because you can afford to run away from your problems.
00:45:18So what happened to her?
00:45:20Oh, my God.
00:45:45Oh, my God.
00:45:49people drift apart not always more often than not you get to a point of knowing a person then
00:46:15you start asking what's left or maybe you just think you've gotten to that point well that's
00:46:22what I found some point you just realize there are not going to be any more surprises
00:46:29just decide what it is you want me to do
00:46:35just decide and tell me and you like surprises or is it variety
00:46:46I don't I don't like surprises I don't like variety variety some guy in a leather jockstrap
00:46:58has just had his nipples pierced don't think I haven't dated them
00:47:03I guess I shouldn't blame people for what they think of me no more than I blame myself
00:47:16seeing something for the first time looking at you
00:47:35what's that an empty room a locked door
00:47:43so much of what people do is just invention anyway inventing themselves inventing their
00:48:00friendships is that what you did invent yourself didn't you poor little rich boy run off to join
00:48:12the Indians you know the most dangerous thing in the world is to think you've got time to play it safe
00:48:22is that what it seems like
00:48:39it's what it is
00:48:43where do you show
00:48:49where do I show
00:48:52we're like I guess you and me
00:49:00you know nothing about me
00:49:07don't I
00:49:08not a thing
00:49:10I know self-indulgence is not self-fulfillment
00:49:14at least I don't go hiding behind things
00:49:17yes you do
00:49:19in the worst possible way
00:49:21you hide behind your soul
00:49:22behind all this
00:49:23ooga booga bullshit
00:49:25which it is
00:49:38all relationships are a form of currency I've come to the unfortunate conclusion
00:49:45I'm using you just like you're using me using you using me and on and on it goes
00:49:52the money part it's
00:49:55at least honest
00:49:59hi this is Nina at the sound of the tone the voice you hear will be your own
00:50:04hey Nina you there
00:50:07hey it's me Douglas
00:50:09you got an answer
00:50:12listen uh sorry about the switch but um something came up and uh actually I was just kind of calling
00:50:20to see if uh Fitch made it by there
00:50:22look I know you really like him he's a really decent guy and uh I don't know maybe he's already
00:50:26been there left
00:50:28so uh anyway I will see you same time next week okay same place alright
00:50:33ciao Bella bye bye
00:50:35thanks
00:50:36are you mad
00:50:40don't be upset
00:50:43you're tense don't be tense
00:50:45well I can't say this is the most relaxing massage I've ever had
00:50:56but this is the best
00:51:00I wasn't being totally honest
00:51:06about what?
00:51:08men
00:51:10men and me
00:51:12as much as I choose not to believe it the truth is I've been involved with a lot
00:51:17of them
00:51:18always more of the same sorry to say
00:51:21but the middle of last year
00:51:27this man suddenly came into my life
00:51:31or I guess if I was being totally honest with myself
00:51:34I came into his
00:51:36an artist
00:51:41you have to understand
00:51:43in my world so much is done for effect
00:51:46and here was someone who did nothing for effect
00:51:49he was who he was
00:51:52no apologies
00:51:53he treated me well
00:51:56very well better than I treated him
00:51:58and all he expected in return
00:52:02was for me to be me
00:52:04even now
00:52:07especially now
00:52:11especially now
00:52:13some strange way you're pretending
00:52:16liking my work
00:52:18being involved with me
00:52:19and wanting to go to bed with me right now at everything
00:52:22you couldn't
00:52:25give yourself up
00:52:27so far
00:52:28so far
00:52:29so
00:52:30so
00:52:34it's been a long time
00:52:48long time
00:53:02long time since my various husbands blew through my life
00:53:05still
00:53:08too much stuff
00:53:11you don't want to admit how much people affect you
00:53:16but they do
00:53:17maybe you should maybe that's the key
00:53:22admitting just how much they are with you still
00:53:28but they are with you still
00:53:29we are alike aren't we Fitch
00:53:34you
00:53:35you
00:53:36you
00:54:04Miss? Miss? Miss, you okay? Miss? Miss? Shit.
00:54:28Roger, we're about 2 miles south of Colton Ranch here on Route 4.
00:54:32I'm going to be heading outside with one fatality female.
00:54:37Transporting to a cat. Copy that.
00:54:39Over.
00:54:40Roger, close her up.
00:54:43Uh, yes.
00:54:45We're going to need it.
00:54:47If it's foggy down there, you can miss that burn very late.
00:54:50You're coming down here, you know.
00:54:56I came to a place not long ago.
00:54:59It was a lonely place.
00:55:03An empty place with no hope.
00:55:05And I thought, no way out.
00:55:10It's a place I could have been lost in forever.
00:55:13But slowly I began to understand something.
00:55:17That I allowed myself to stay in that place.
00:55:20And it was up to me to get myself out.
00:55:22And so I chose hope.
00:55:24I chose belief.
00:55:26I chose belief.
00:55:27I chose belief.
00:55:29That I was even less.
00:55:30Oh.
00:55:31Things like courage understand you.
00:55:32I chose belief.
00:55:33Mm.
00:55:34Things like yes.
00:55:36You do.
00:55:37I chose faith.
00:55:38And of course, magic off that bill.
00:55:40Isn't that supposed to meet me?
00:55:41And.
00:55:42It was something like yeah.
00:55:43It's a it is astrom.
00:55:44Is just not easier.
00:55:45I chose belief.
00:55:46Is it the explosion?
00:55:47No hole.
00:55:48It's fascinating.
00:55:49I chose them.
00:55:50They chose them.
00:55:51Does that matter?
00:56:22God has to be all things to all people.
00:56:36To be anything less would be less than perfect.
00:56:40Human.
00:56:46What we believe in isn't nearly so important as believing in something.
00:56:49But you can't wait too long or you may find yourself believing in nothing.
00:56:57How do you feel?
00:56:59Good.
00:57:00Very good.
00:57:07Good.
00:57:08Good.
00:57:12Good.
00:57:24Good.
00:57:26Good.
00:57:27Good.
00:57:28was it 100 that i owed you did i say that no that's what goodness charges me i'll make it 50
00:57:45then take it honestly take it 75 then all right 75 with a 25 tip you do like getting your own way
00:57:57don't you what's that it's something we're all looking for and that would be information about
00:58:05you about me and you now i want you to think about not dropping it and that's all i want you to think
00:58:15about not dropping it concentrate try hard and by the time i count to 10 it'll fall from your hand
00:58:24and you'll have no power over controlling it one two three four five
00:58:30keep it where did you learn that saw it in a movie once i gotta be going i'd like you to come back
00:58:42next week i'm flattered i'm serious same day what about doug what about him well i don't like taking
00:58:51his gig away douglas is young so so he'll find someone to replace me with women like him that's
00:59:01what you said well it's not as though i don't want to come back do you
00:59:05yes then i'll talk to him i'll explain the situation if it's that big a problem i'll have
00:59:13you both come just not at the same time very nice meeting you i hope i wasn't too um what
00:59:22confrontational
00:59:24of course you were i'm gonna be off
00:59:54so
01:00:02come on
01:01:48The whole wide world all over
01:01:51She'll never find a man as sweet as me
01:01:57I went down to St. James
01:02:02And then...
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