It's not my fault I'm like this 😓

Clara Violet

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00:00This is what advanced Lipoedema looks like.

00:02It can grow in the arms, the breasts, the stomach, the buttocks, the legs.

00:06Mine is primarily in my legs.

00:08As you can see, they are very heavy and uncomfortable.

00:11Lipoedema doesn't just affect your appearance.

00:13It also has effects under the surface.

00:16Your legs can feel heavier throughout the day,

00:18and sometimes it can feel like there's insects crawling all up and down them.

00:22Lipoedema can be really painful, and it can also affect your mobility.

00:26A lot of people tend to focus on how Lipoedema looks,

00:28when really it should be how it makes you feel.

00:31Unfortunately, there are many causes for Lipoedema,

00:34but her story points to some common causes.

00:36Pregnancy, puberty, perimenopause, and menopause.

00:40Trauma and stress also play quite a big part in this too.

00:43I was diagnosed with 11,07, so a bigger kid anyway.

00:48Then you're getting put on diets continuously.

00:49So I'm constantly up and down with my weight,

00:52and then that leads to binge eating,

00:54also leads to other ways of trying to lose weight.

00:57I'm destroying my body as time goes on.

00:59Getting diagnosed while I was pregnant,

01:01and pregnancy is a big thing that triggers Lipoedema.

01:04And then my dad got ill and passed away,

01:07and I was 30 weeks pregnant.

01:09More stress on the body.

01:10I had my son, and then got pregnant quite quickly again,

01:14because my body's not going to recover.

01:15I had my other son, and that was through emergency C-section,

01:18where we both nearly...

01:19So again, more stress on the body.

01:21I can look back, and it's not so much like I let it progress.

01:24It's that I was doing things, but probably not properly.

01:27Many of her audience question if there's any surgery available for it to be removed,

01:31but it's not as simple as it seems.

01:33I did actually ask a surgeon in the UK,

01:35sent some thoughts on my body,

01:37and he was like,

01:38no, you've got too much loose skin,

01:39too overweight,

01:40you need too many surgeries.

01:41In the UK, I'm not eligible for liposuction,

01:44as they don't do it anymore.

01:45The only surgeon in the UK who did it

01:47has actually retired now.

01:48I'm aware that there are surgeons in the UK,

01:50up and down the country,

01:51who do provide liposuction for lipidemia as well.

01:54However, it is costly.

01:57There probably won't be a stage where

01:58surgery is no longer an option for me.

02:00Her application for surgery funding was declined by the NHS,

02:04as it's seen as cosmetic.

02:05That is still something that really irritates me now,

02:07because it's not cosmetic.

02:08I don't care what I look like.

02:09I do not care what I look like.

02:11It's all about the pain, mobility,

02:13and the relief that that would bring.

02:14But her journey with lipidemia

02:16has empowered her to be more self-loving.

02:18And now she's doing the most

02:20to look after herself and her body.

02:22And now I'm in a safe space.

02:24I am doing lots of therapy, grounding.

02:28I'm doing a lot to help my lipidemia.

02:32And I'm never going to reverse it.

02:34I'm going to be able to reverse it.

02:36What I am able to do is help the inflammation,

02:38make it more soft or wobbly,

02:40and try and keep it at this level.

02:42I will always say lipidemia is not your fault,

02:44because it isn't.

02:44Lipidemia is not your fault.

02:45It's a medical condition.

02:47And then some people are like,

02:48oh, well, I should have done this.

02:49I should have done that.

02:49It's a chronic illness.

02:50It lives with you.

02:52And you never know what's going on in people's lives.

02:53You never know what people are dealing with.

02:55You never know what people are doing.

02:56I didn't let it progress.

02:58There was just a lot going on.

03:00I don't know.

03:01I'm looking at that in people's lives.

03:05I find out someone you never know what people are doing.

03:08You never know what people are doing.

03:09I wanna know what people are doing.

03:11Are you trying to find out who's also trying to get something to do?

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