00:00we are happy for you thank you thank you thank you thank you marami ang nagmamase
00:11sa pag-uusap na ito na ganun din ang pinagdadaanan so now i understand kung
00:16bakit napaka-klaro ng iyong latag oh yes parang sabi ko nga maraming maraming
00:26challenges na nangyayari sa buhay ko but gusto ko na unti-unti siyang maayos sa partner sa
00:38magulang sa trabaho gusto ko maayos lahat para makapag move forward lahat gaano kaka buti bilang ama
00:46huwag na tayo magkahihiaan masasabi ko siguro sa kung ano na lang yung mga kaya kong
00:57ibigay sa anak ko magsimula tayo sa maliit po tito boy actually kahit nakapikit
01:04kayo ko paliguan yung anak ko eh ka kaya ko kaya ko siyang kaya ko siyang
01:19kaya kong
01:27okay um i think this is the
01:30And, right, time to talk about it.
01:43Okay.
01:48Okay.
01:50Kung babalik po tayo dun sa pangalan ni Anya, Herminia.
01:57And it's actually quite a story to that.
02:06There was a time, there was a time when I was very, very close to giving up.
02:20Ah, kasi sabi ko, pabihira, tinalikuran ko yung pangarap ko.
02:31Um, pero in return, araw-araw kong kasama si Anya, um, parang feeling ko ay keep on disappointing, disappointing my parents.
02:45Um, especially that it was them who helped me build and nurture my dream.
02:53Um, so, and then, there was a difficulty with, um, um, with, of course, syempre kung, ano, with finances and everything.
03:07That I'm trying to make ends meet.
03:09I'm, I'm taking jobs, which I am proud of.
03:13Kasi, ito yung mga trabahong hindi ko nagawa, pero para kay Anya, tsaka para sa pamilya ko gagawin ko.
03:21So, okay, going back, um, Herminia.
03:26Um, we were, kasama ko si Anya, parang buhat-buhat ko siya, tapos, um, nakuha niya kasi yun sa lola niya, yung name na Herminia.
03:34So, out of the blue, bigla niya sinabing, ay si lola.
03:39It's a one-year-old and eight-month baby.
03:43Sabi ko, huh?
03:45Tapos sabi niya, ay si lola.
03:47Sabi ko, ano, pakiulit nga, ay si lola.
03:51Sabi ko, ha?
03:52Ano sabi?
03:54Hi.
03:55Ha?
03:56Tapos, parang inisip ko pa nga po nun,
03:58Teka, anong lola to?
04:00Baka na mamaya, hindi ko, hindi ko lola to.
04:02Kasi for the longest time, hinihingi ko na, lola, nahihirapan ako.
04:06Baka naman pwede kayo magbigay ng sign.
04:09Tapos, um, sabi ko, so, medyo napapos ako, until, tinanong ko si, si Anya.
04:18Sabi ko, okay, um, anak, what's lola's name?
04:24Tapos tumingin siya, tapos umiwas.
04:27Sabi ko, what's lola's name?
04:29Meng.
04:29And, and that's where the time stood still for me.
04:34Kasi never ko naman minention yung name ni lola kay Anya.
04:41So, sabi ko, laking lola, lolo't lola kasi ako,
04:48hindi pa rin pala siya tumigil na...
04:52Alagaan ka.
04:53It was, sabi ko, ah, totoo nga pala yung sinasabi, totoo nga yung sinasabi nila na when loneliness and depression hits,
05:11ang hirap niyang kalaban, ang hirap niyang kalaban, na I have to be okay kasi, um, ah, kailangan, kailangan dalawa kami as parents na, na tulungan si, palakihin si Anya.
05:31Pero pag iniisip ko yung sarili ko, parang, ah, ayoko na.
05:40But, the time that nangyari yun, yung kaya niya, we were both surprised na Lenai, kasi we never mentioned the name Meng.
05:53Meng was lola's nickname.
05:55Okay.
05:56And, it's impossible to recall ng baby yung Meng, especially na hindi namin naman ina-address yung pangalan.
06:05So, I, I, I, I took it as a sign, na,
06:13Man, I have to, I have to do this.
06:17I, I have to give, I have,
06:21I have, I have, I have to live, kasi,
06:28I have to give everything to my child.
06:33Now, kung mga ngarap ako, kailangan ako mas tindihan pa yung pangarap ko,
06:37kasi gagawin ko ito para kay Anya, para sa akin, and for everybody else na, who has been so, so, so, so, so helpful to me.
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