- 7 weeks ago
Ayar, a first-generation American Latina, returns home to reunite with her daughter. But when her mother, Renata, refuses to let her see her due to Covid, Ayar is confronted by the many roles shes been forced to play.
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00:00:00Welcome to Melbette Casino and win!
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00:00:58Hello, my name is...
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00:03:42Look out, there's a fantasy mystery with history.
00:03:51No, no, no, no, she's related to the old painting lady.
00:03:55She's a cousin of her niece, I don't know.
00:03:59Oh, no, I'm going to make her wear a mask and gloves.
00:04:01And she leaves her clothes here after.
00:04:04He's fine.
00:04:05I mean, he actually made a ton of money on some math company.
00:04:08I know, it's so sad, but yeah.
00:04:12I should go, yeah, okay, let's play on a plane at this weekend, okay?
00:04:15All right.
00:04:16I'm so sorry, I don't know where my days get away from me now.
00:04:20No problem.
00:04:20Sorry, thanks for waiting.
00:04:29What is it?
00:04:30Sorry, nothing.
00:04:31You're just so much younger than I was expecting.
00:04:34How are you related to Maria again?
00:04:36I'm not, she's my friend's mother.
00:04:38She told me you just moved back from Vegas.
00:04:40Were you working at a hotel?
00:04:43I was working as a singer, but came back to be with my daughter.
00:04:47Your English is really good.
00:04:49How long have you been here?
00:04:50Since I was 13.
00:04:51Well, the house is really big, lots of rooms, four bathrooms.
00:04:59We only use two of them, so I have to clean two every week.
00:05:02We used to use all the natural products, but they just honestly don't get the job done,
00:05:06so now we just use bleach on everything.
00:05:09We like the floor is done, the window is done weekly, laundry, you know.
00:05:14Sure.
00:05:14No problem.
00:05:15Okay, well, I can show you where the supplies are, you can get started now.
00:05:21Oh, no, sorry, I can't start today.
00:05:23Oh, I thought we said today.
00:05:25No, we discussed Monday.
00:05:26We said on Monday.
00:05:28I can start on Monday.
00:05:30Huh, okay.
00:05:32Yeah, I guess that's fine.
00:05:33Sure.
00:05:34All right.
00:05:35See you Monday.
00:05:35Okay.
00:05:35Okay.
00:05:45Hey, how's L.A.?
00:05:56What do you want, Robert?
00:05:58I need to see you.
00:06:00When are you coming back, I ask?
00:06:02I don't know.
00:06:05I'm missing some big auditions.
00:06:08I need to go.
00:06:11Please.
00:06:13I'm coming to see you.
00:06:14No, her birthday is today.
00:06:16Don't.
00:06:18Why are you doing this?
00:06:20I have to go.
00:06:32Hey, Ayaz.
00:06:33I'll be there soon.
00:06:37Oh, yeah, you must be so excited to see her.
00:06:40How long has it been?
00:06:43Long.
00:06:44Too long.
00:06:53You're back now.
00:06:56That's what matters.
00:07:00I just hope it's not too late.
00:07:02Hey, you!
00:07:15Get away from there.
00:07:17What are you doing over there?
00:07:18Stop!
00:07:20Hey!
00:07:20You motherfucker.
00:07:21Stop!
00:07:22You motherfucker.
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00:07:42Oh, fuck.
00:07:43Oh, fuck.
00:07:43Oh, fuck.
00:07:44I don't know.
00:08:14Can you believe that my daughter won't even come here anymore?
00:08:31She could go to the bar, but she can't come and see her mom.
00:08:34Aya.
00:08:52Aya.
00:08:59Hey!
00:09:01Who you looking for?
00:09:03All right, I think I'm in the wrong place.
00:09:06You sure?
00:09:07All good, thanks.
00:09:08Have a nice day.
00:09:33Sit straight, sit proud, look at you, so beautiful.
00:10:03I know you're in there, I just saw you at the window.
00:10:32I can hear you coughing, are you okay?
00:10:36I'm fine, just leave you alone.
00:10:42Raj!
00:10:47Raj!
00:10:48What?
00:10:49I was telling a story, what happened?
00:10:55Did you put a sick person next to my room?
00:11:16What?
00:11:17Someone with COVID next to me.
00:11:18She said there are no symptoms when they checked in.
00:11:20You said this wasn't a COVID motel.
00:11:21It's not.
00:11:22Then why is the lady next door coughing her lungs out?
00:11:24She lied to me when she checked in.
00:11:26By the time I'm back, you better be far, far away from my room.
00:11:30I will take care of you.
00:11:31Thanks, and please wear a mask.
00:11:33What'll do?
00:11:34Excuse me.
00:11:35Sorry how you are.
00:11:36Foster, are you going to move?
00:11:42Six feet.
00:11:43Seriously?
00:11:44Yeah.
00:11:45That's a fancy top.
00:11:46What's the occasion?
00:11:47None of your business.
00:11:48Why do I sense you need someone to talk to?
00:11:50Hey Raj, you expecting some white dude?
00:11:52Hey, what was that earlier?
00:11:53With what?
00:11:54With the car.
00:11:55Uh, with that car.
00:11:56Uh, huh.
00:11:57I don't know, it's not my car.
00:12:11You should be wearing a mask.
00:12:13And you should mind your fucking business.
00:12:15Oh, my goodness.
00:12:21Oh, shit.
00:12:26Shit!
00:12:31Okay.
00:12:45Julie.
00:12:54Oh, finally. Where have you been?
00:12:56I'm not that late.
00:12:58What are you wearing?
00:13:01You hate it.
00:13:02No, you look pretty.
00:13:03Andale.
00:13:04You look like a grown-up.
00:13:05Oh, what was that doing there?
00:13:15Ta-da!
00:13:22And I hope it's not still.
00:13:28It's beautiful.
00:13:30I love it.
00:13:34It's time for you to finish it.
00:13:36What do you mean?
00:13:38Well, what do you want to say to me?
00:13:45Please forgive me.
00:13:46What?
00:13:47I just think it's a little sad her birthday cake, no?
00:13:48You're right. I don't know what I'm thinking, bitch.
00:13:49No, no, no, no.
00:13:50Let me just cover it up.
00:13:51You're gonna ruin it.
00:13:52Please.
00:13:53It looks great.
00:13:54It's perfect.
00:13:55Jesus, I'm so fucking nervous.
00:13:56Julie, let's leave the room.
00:13:57Please.
00:13:58Please.
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00:14:00Please.
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00:14:16One second.
00:14:17That's a good one.
00:14:18What if she hates me?
00:14:21Don't be so hard on yourself, you know.
00:14:24Just, just be honestly.
00:14:25Hey, Leon.
00:14:26One second!
00:14:27It's out of the fucking way.
00:14:28But now, death has come to our doorstep.
00:14:35You never listened before.
00:14:39So now you must be shown.
00:14:43Forget when and ask yourself what?
00:14:46Leave me alone, please.
00:14:48Oh, this is this complicated, distracting world.
00:14:51This man-made world has led you astray.
00:14:56I asked you to leave me alone.
00:14:58You see, don't you?
00:15:00These selfish, deceitful dreams.
00:15:03These distracting storylines made up by others.
00:15:07Leave me alone.
00:15:08We believe for too long that we could do anything to be anyone.
00:15:17We could pass the higher, farther than anyone.
00:15:23But at what cost?
00:15:25Is it possible that death, the great equalizer, might somehow improve humanity?
00:15:32That this is our chance to reflect, to ride our road.
00:15:39Happy birthday, dear Jasmine.
00:15:51Happy birthday.
00:15:52Oh.
00:16:03Jasmine's hair is getting so long.
00:16:05Yeah, I have to cut it.
00:16:06I have to cut it.
00:16:08I have to cut it.
00:16:08Jasmine, come.
00:16:12Come here, sweetie.
00:16:22Don't be sad.
00:16:26Next year, we invite all your friends.
00:16:28And you will have the biggest party ever.
00:16:33What if I don't have any friends but friends?
00:16:35No te preocupes, todos tus amiguitos miss you just as much.
00:17:05No te preocupes, no te preocupes, no te preocupes.
00:17:35.
00:18:05I don't know.
00:18:08Can you go?
00:18:15Is that a yard?
00:18:35Where is she?
00:18:47Please, don't do this. Not today.
00:18:50What?
00:18:52I cancelled the party a yard.
00:18:55What are they doing here then, huh?
00:18:58It's not your decision.
00:19:00Let me in.
00:19:02You're not coming in!
00:19:03Are you serious?
00:19:05I know what you're doing.
00:19:06You're working with so many people in that hotel.
00:19:08And what do you think I've been doing? I'm not sick.
00:19:10You don't know that.
00:19:12That's the best way to make sure.
00:19:16Let me see her.
00:19:18I just want to see her.
00:19:21It's not a good day, and not today.
00:19:24That's my daughter. She's still my daughter.
00:19:28But you didn't have a child.
00:19:33What did you tell her?
00:19:36The same story that I always give her.
00:19:39That her mother is working very hard.
00:19:42But someday she'll come to see her.
00:19:47Excuse me.
00:19:48That's it!
00:19:50What are you doing?
00:19:51Jasmine!
00:19:52Shut up!
00:19:53Jasmine!
00:19:54Stop doing this now!
00:19:55Jasmine! You stop it!
00:19:56You stop it!
00:19:57You stop it!
00:19:58You stop it!
00:19:59You stop it!
00:20:00You stop it!
00:20:01You'll see her when all this has happened.
00:20:02When all this has happened, I've been back for two weeks.
00:20:03Two weeks and I haven't seen her.
00:20:04Two weeks?
00:20:05Yes!
00:20:06Two?
00:20:07Yes!
00:20:08Why are you doing this to me, Mom?
00:20:14Mom?
00:20:15You don't call me like that for years.
00:20:18Don't try to manipulate me.
00:20:20You've done this.
00:20:21You wanted to live your life.
00:20:23You wanted me to.
00:20:24You said you wanted to take care of her.
00:20:27How long have you been there?
00:20:29How long have you been there?
00:20:31What do you really want, Aya?
00:20:41Why now?
00:20:52I just want to see her.
00:21:01Where is she?
00:21:02Where is she?
00:21:03What is she doing?
00:21:04What is she doing?
00:21:05How is she doing her time?
00:21:07Where is she?
00:21:11I'm not a bad person.
00:21:13But you're a stranger to her.
00:21:17This will take time.
00:21:20And you must learn.
00:21:25From who?
00:21:26From you?
00:21:29From her.
00:21:31From her.
00:21:42Here.
00:21:43Just give her this.
00:21:46Just give her this.
00:21:47Please.
00:22:01Her, have you.
00:22:02Please.
00:22:03She
00:22:24Come here.
00:22:25No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
00:22:55No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
00:23:25No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
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00:24:45No, no, no, no.
00:24:47No, no.
00:24:48No, no, no, no, no, no.
00:24:50But your mother, she remembered everything.
00:24:58She answered all the questions.
00:25:04Sit straight, please.
00:25:10Sit straight.
00:25:12Why?
00:25:14Now you look strong.
00:25:18So beautiful.
00:25:20Why didn't you let Mommy come in today?
00:25:32I'm going to tell you a story about a very far from where our ancestors came from.
00:25:38Where is it?
00:25:40Now we call it Cusco.
00:25:42Many years ago, it was full of trees, mountains, and stones.
00:25:48Now in the highest mountains of all, there was a lake.
00:25:54It was transparent and big.
00:25:56And you could see it inside the earth.
00:26:00And there, near there, there was a cave where the most supreme god gave birth to four sons.
00:26:08Why?
00:26:10It's a story.
00:26:12You can decide how much of it is true.
00:26:16Now listen.
00:26:18The gods bestowed them with a golden stick.
00:26:22And bury him in stone.
00:26:34And bury him in stone.
00:26:36Los hermanos continuaron su camino, and they encounter a stone deity.
00:26:54deity.
00:26:55Todos los hermanos demostraron respeto, except one brother.
00:27:05He wanted to show he was the strongest by defying it, and when he touched it, he turned
00:27:14to stone.
00:27:15Now, there was a third brother, he wanted to show he was the strongest, and he grew waves
00:27:24to fly, to find the perfect land, but when he thought he found the perfect land, he turned
00:27:35to stone.
00:27:36Now, there was one brother left, and when they finally arrived in Cusco, he sunk the golden
00:27:55stick into the ground.
00:27:58His name was Ayar Mankov.
00:28:02That's mommy's name.
00:28:05Yes.
00:28:06So, with his own hands, construyĂł las primeras casas del imperio, and when he was done,
00:28:15he turned to stone.
00:28:18And now, rest with nature.
00:28:22Good night.
00:28:25They should've worked together like a family's supposed to.
00:28:30Perhaps.
00:28:32Is mommy gonna turn to stone?
00:28:35No.
00:28:36Don't worry.
00:28:38Is she sick?
00:28:40No.
00:28:41Es mejor que pase, que nos esperemos hasta que el virus pase.
00:28:46What if it doesn't pass?
00:28:49It will.
00:28:52How do you know?
00:28:59You know, I dreamed of being an actress when I was young.
00:29:26Like in the movies.
00:29:29Pero una vez que tĂş naciste, mi mamĂĄ me dijo, no way.
00:29:33Ya, eso era todo.
00:29:35Ahora eres madre.
00:29:38Por eso es que nosotros venimos a este paĂs.
00:29:43Por ti.
00:29:45оМalos-
00:30:05JesĂşs.
00:30:11Here, you can be anything you dream of.
00:30:37You can be anything.
00:30:51There's a new girl in town, so look out everyone.
00:31:03The cadence isn't just about your voice, it's about room.
00:31:21Do you feel that pain?
00:31:23You can use that, man.
00:31:25You can build on it.
00:31:27You can build on it.
00:31:37You can build on it.
00:31:39You can build on it.
00:31:59Hey!
00:32:03Are you okay?
00:32:07Need any help?
00:32:11Hey!
00:32:25Raj!
00:32:39Raj!
00:32:43Raj!
00:32:51Raj!
00:32:53No, I was joking.
00:33:03Let me tell you a story when I was 17 about my grandma in Jaipur.
00:33:09Beautiful city in Rajasthan you must visit.
00:33:11Almost done.
00:33:13Oh, good.
00:33:15My grandma, bless her Hindi heart.
00:33:19She told me this the day before I moved to America.
00:33:23She said one middle of the night she woke up and went straight to the kitchen and grabbed the longest knife she could find and walked back to my grandfather's bed and stood there with the knife in her hands.
00:33:37She was sleep walking?
00:33:39She stood there for an entire hour holding the knife above his chest and then returned back to the kitchen and went back to sleep.
00:33:49He abused her.
00:33:51I'm sure.
00:33:53To Americans most Indian women are abused.
00:33:55She said every night she would grab the knife and hold it above him when he's asleep and wait for gosh to show some sign to plunge the knife in his chest.
00:34:05Oh, shit!
00:34:07She looked at me straight in the eyes and said,
00:34:11Remember Raj, one day you are going to get married and you will be sleeping next to your own wife.
00:34:19You know, the divorce rate in India is less than 1%, much lower than the mother.
00:34:24Raj!
00:34:25Why is she still here?
00:34:26She's still in her room.
00:34:28Who?
00:34:29Who do you think the sick woman?
00:34:30No one is there.
00:34:31She's gone.
00:34:32No one is there.
00:34:33She's just coughing.
00:34:34What are you talking about?
00:34:35I just heard her.
00:34:36I had to call an ambulance.
00:34:38She was very sick.
00:34:40And I saw them load her up.
00:35:00She's all alone.
00:35:01Good that you told him.
00:35:02I swear.
00:35:03I just heard her.
00:35:04I wouldn't go in there.
00:35:05I'm gonna go grab a beer.
00:35:06You want one?
00:35:07I'm so glad you came.
00:35:09London, New York.
00:35:10Shows everywhere.
00:35:11This is the only coming capital of the world.
00:35:12This is the only coming capital of the world.
00:35:16This is the only coming capital of the world.
00:35:17This is the only coming capital of the world.
00:35:21It's the only coming capital of the world.
00:35:22You're welcome.
00:35:23I'm so glad you came.
00:35:24London, New York.
00:35:25There are shows everywhere.
00:35:26This is the only coming capital of the world.
00:35:27So where are you from?
00:35:28From Mexico.
00:35:29Mexico.
00:35:30How much longer do you stay in?
00:35:31Not long.
00:35:32Not long.
00:35:33Me neither.
00:35:34I thought you'd live here.
00:35:35Not long.
00:35:36Not long.
00:35:37Not long.
00:35:38Not long.
00:35:39Not long.
00:35:40Not long.
00:35:41Me neither.
00:35:42I thought you'd live here.
00:35:43Nah, I met Raj four years ago.
00:35:44I was traveling from Delhi to Varanasi.
00:35:46I used to work here once in a while to help him out.
00:35:48To Stayiverly.
00:35:49I've never been a man.
00:35:50You know, I'd have to lie in the world.
00:35:51You know what, you know, I lived here?
00:35:52I lived here when you lived here.
00:35:53I lived here when I was in the middle.
00:35:55You lived here when I was in the middle.
00:35:56So where are you from?
00:35:57From Mexico.
00:35:58Mexico.
00:35:59How much longer do you stay in?
00:36:00From Mexico?
00:36:01Mexico.
00:36:02How much longer do you stay in?
00:36:04Not long.
00:36:05Not long?
00:36:06Me neither.
00:36:07I thought you'd live here.
00:36:08I thought you'd live here.
00:36:09Nah, I met Raj four years ago.
00:36:10I was traveling from Delhi to Varanasi.
00:36:11You see I have this condition, this rear condition.
00:36:24I can't stay in one place too long, I have to keep moving in any way possible.
00:36:29Okay.
00:36:30If I stay in one place too long, then I slip away, I sink back in, I get stuck.
00:36:36I used to work as an accountant, I had this nice apartment downtown.
00:36:42I used to have this feeling, it was normal at first, this feeling of my mind and body being
00:36:46separated.
00:36:47It's always preserving everything through a plate of glass.
00:36:52You sound like an alien.
00:36:55Literally, literally.
00:36:57It's like I was like a little man that set back my own head, I could see the inside of
00:37:02my skull and everything.
00:37:04I could see out these two eye sockets, with controls, the controls really didn't work.
00:37:15Seriously?
00:37:16The first cases of feeling unreal go back to French otolaryngologist, Maurice Chrissabert
00:37:22in 1873.
00:37:25Feeling unreal.
00:37:27It's called DPD, depersonalization disorder.
00:37:31Someone who gave it a name, now you believe.
00:37:38Someone who came before you said, do this, do that.
00:37:42Now you believe them.
00:37:44I guess so.
00:37:45I ended up selling my apartment and all my shit and I've been shouting ever since.
00:37:50So you felt trapped in a steady, well paying job and you decided to say fuck it and become
00:37:57a gypsy.
00:37:58Yeah.
00:37:59Basically.
00:38:00What a luxury.
00:38:01My dad worked a job he hated until the day he died.
00:38:08Now they want us to all stay in place.
00:38:16Don't you feel lonely, traveling all the time?
00:38:23I miss my son.
00:38:28He's in college now.
00:38:29Barely talks to me.
00:38:30Why?
00:38:31Because that's what happens.
00:38:44People forget.
00:38:47I was working in Vegas when everything shut down.
00:38:54What'd you do there?
00:39:00I got my first gig after college as a backup singer in a show.
00:39:06My dad would do so.
00:39:27My mom is to say, now you can be anything you dream of, Ayur.
00:39:46You can be anything.
00:39:57That's why we came to this country, for you.
00:40:09We sacrificed our lives, for you.
00:40:15I know that you're still alive with me, but I didn't tell you this.
00:40:25Your life will continue.
00:40:29I'm going to help you to take care of this girl.
00:40:33You can still build your own path.
00:40:40How am I going to be anybody I want to be now, huh?
00:40:48You can't do anything.
00:40:55By the dawn's early light.
00:41:04I never really felt at home here.
00:41:06That's why my mom always points to the past.
00:41:10Nothing wrong with that.
00:41:12I want her to make a life of my own.
00:41:18Make her proud.
00:41:20Did you?
00:41:23Did you make them proud?
00:41:25I know.
00:41:26No.
00:41:27No.
00:41:33Well, I know.
00:41:34Can you sing in Vegas?
00:41:38Viva Las Vegas!
00:41:41Do you have any idea of the shit that happen in that city?
00:41:45So what do you want to do?
00:41:47Do you clean houses like me?
00:41:49No!
00:41:50Why did we sacrifice?
00:41:52This is a good opportunity for her.
00:41:54She's going to help with a girl.
00:42:04I'm sorry, Dad.
00:42:06You're not going to talk to me.
00:42:08I'm sorry.
00:42:14Hey, Dad.
00:42:16Come here, Dad.
00:42:24I'm sorry.
00:42:26I'm sorry.
00:42:28I'm sorry.
00:42:30I don't know.
00:42:32Maybe I've made a mistake.
00:42:40Maybe you don't have what it takes.
00:42:43I don't know.
00:43:02This role is made for you.
00:43:15I believe in you.
00:43:17Okay.
00:43:27A virus can only grow if it has life.
00:43:32I have to infiltrate, take over, and multiply.
00:43:39And it grows and multiplies until it consumes all life.
00:43:47Until it destroys everything it needs to live.
00:43:52And then it dies.
00:43:53But...
00:43:54I don't know.
00:43:56I don't know.
00:43:57I don't know.
00:43:58Hello?
00:44:13It's your father, Yaro.
00:44:17Your father's heart died.
00:44:22Please, come to the house.
00:44:28I do.
00:44:30Hiya.
00:44:32Hiya.
00:44:58I didn't even go to his funeral because I had a fucking audition.
00:45:10I've made a lot of mistakes and I didn't know.
00:45:20I've been telling you all this.
00:45:23You're lucky.
00:45:25Some people avoid their feelings.
00:45:27They hide their feelings.
00:45:28They avoid their pain.
00:45:29They're scared of love, so they hide in their own little roles.
00:45:32Whether it's TV shows, books, games, movies, maybe even this movie.
00:45:36Look at them.
00:45:38Sitting there, feeling their emptiness in this honest recreation of someone else's life.
00:45:45What?
00:45:46Because we hope that they may sympathize and understand what it's like.
00:45:49What are you talking about?
00:45:50They love it.
00:45:51I'm in the middle of what?
00:45:52Don't hide your pain now, y'all.
00:45:53What?
00:45:54Look, you have power.
00:45:56Learn from the past.
00:45:58You can say fuck tomorrow.
00:45:59You can say fuck next week.
00:46:00You can say fuck Christmas, Valentine's Day, fuck Thanksgiving, fuck all that.
00:46:05Choose your own road a day.
00:46:07That's what matters right now because this is still America.
00:46:10And America, you don't get what you want unless you fucking take it.
00:46:15âŚ
00:46:25âŚ
00:46:36âŚ
00:46:37Nosotros no heredamos la tierra de nuestros antepasados.
00:46:40We asked for our children.
00:47:10Father!
00:47:40Father!
00:47:52Did you hear?
00:47:53All the shows are closing, all the hotels are shutting.
00:47:59What's going on?
00:48:05I'm leaving.
00:48:07What?
00:48:09What are you talking about?
00:48:14I'm going home.
00:48:21For how long?
00:48:28I don't know.
00:48:33Let go.
00:48:36Why are you doing this?
00:48:39I have a daughter, Robert.
00:48:53I have a daughter.
00:48:55Are you joking?
00:49:01Very funny.
00:49:04Funny, funny, funny girl.
00:49:06She's turning five.
00:49:11She's turning five.
00:49:15Why didn't you tell me?
00:49:23Wait.
00:49:25Hiya!
00:49:26Sit straight.
00:49:27Sit proud.
00:49:42Sit straight.
00:49:43Sit proud.
00:49:52I'm here.
00:49:54I'm here.
00:49:55I am here now, aren't I?
00:50:11Please.
00:50:12Let me see her. I just want to see her.
00:50:15What are you doing right now?
00:50:16What are you doing right now?
00:50:17Just stop this.
00:50:19My name is Ariana Rompedrique.
00:50:21I'm an actor.
00:50:23I was born and raised in Caracas, Venezuela.
00:50:27Being beautiful, it was a big thing.
00:50:29I remember being like five years old, walking in my mom's high heels.
00:50:34You have to do it like this.
00:50:35You have to walk like this.
00:50:38I was 11 the first time I stood on a stage.
00:50:42Romeo, Romeo.
00:50:43And then I started choking and everybody was like, stop, Ariana.
00:50:46What's going on?
00:50:47I don't know what's going on.
00:50:48They gave me a bunch of pages.
00:50:50All of a sudden I was Julieta just because I had a long hair.
00:50:54I don't know.
00:50:55I think I enjoyed being a character.
00:50:56Me, Ariana, the tiny, like skinny little girl.
00:51:00If I do all this, I can look like a whole different person.
00:51:03I thought it was magic.
00:51:08I started being a model.
00:51:10Venezuela is like, there's one audition in one month.
00:51:13And that's the audition that you have.
00:51:15Mom, somebody hired me.
00:51:16Like I'm going to earn money.
00:51:18I always looked myself in the mirror like, am I beautiful today?
00:51:23Or no, I'm not beautiful yet.
00:51:26I was 21 years old when I moved to Mexico City to pursue fashion.
00:51:30And then I moved to Los Angeles.
00:51:33I was coming to see the person who then become my husband.
00:51:36And he was living here.
00:51:38He fueled my dream.
00:51:39He was like, why not?
00:51:40Why are you doing this to me, Mom?
00:51:43Mom?
00:51:44You haven't called me that in years.
00:51:46They were like, you need to be more Latina.
00:51:49Just cry.
00:51:50Just cry.
00:51:51I'm asking you to cry.
00:51:52I'm going to give you a little thing in your ear.
00:51:55You can just repeat what the person in the ear is telling you.
00:51:59You can feel definitely like a puppet.
00:52:01This is what you have to wear.
00:52:02And I want it.
00:52:03And come here.
00:52:04And I'm not.
00:52:05I knew that could be something that killed my Ariana de Cinco AĂąos.
00:52:11When you just try to fake it, that's eventually going to explode.
00:52:17Stop it! Stop it! Stop it! Stop it!
00:52:19Yes, ma'am! Stop it, please!
00:52:20Stop it!
00:52:21Stop it!
00:52:22Stop it!
00:52:49Hiya, please open up.
00:53:19Please open the door.
00:53:26Aya!
00:53:33Why aren't you returning my calls?
00:53:37What are you doing here?
00:53:39Please just stop this and come back.
00:53:41You shouldn't have come.
00:53:44I love you Aya.
00:53:46You don't know anything about love.
00:53:50Please, we can raise it together.
00:53:53We can be a family.
00:53:55I'm never coming back, Robert.
00:53:59Goodbye.
00:54:01You don't mean that.
00:54:02You don't mean that.
00:54:03Don't say something you're going to regret.
00:54:05Oh!
00:54:06Let go!
00:54:07Come on, look.
00:54:08I know I've made mistakes.
00:54:09I know that.
00:54:10Please.
00:54:11I'm sorry.
00:54:12Let go!
00:54:14Please, Aya.
00:54:17You feel that pain?
00:54:22You can use that.
00:54:25You can build from that.
00:54:27You think you can just go back?
00:54:33Wake up.
00:54:34You're ashamed of who you really are.
00:54:36You're scared to admit that you're a nobody.
00:54:39Admit it.
00:54:40You're going to be a nobody forever.
00:54:42I know.
00:54:43People want to see stars.
00:54:44The same people over and over again.
00:54:46People don't care about you.
00:54:47Nobody's going to watch this movie.
00:54:49Shut up!
00:54:50Go away!
00:54:51Go away!
00:55:21You won't go away!
00:55:22Finish your head.
00:55:24Is that okay?
00:55:25Do I realize this is awesome?
00:55:26No!
00:55:51My name is Vilma Vega. I was born in Lima, Peru. I have one brother. My mother never received a formal education and she worked as a maid for years.
00:56:20I met my father for the first time this year, 2020. My heritage is indigenous Peruvian. Both of my parents were raised to speak in Quechua and later learned Spanish.
00:56:33I left for the United States to Los Angeles when I was 15 years old with my boyfriend. I loved him. It was a world of possibilities filled with hopes and dreams.
00:56:46I wanted to be an actress when I got pregnant. And at the same time, my boyfriend left me for another woman.
00:56:56My mother-in-law took custody of my child. And I was all alone. But I got an education. I learned English. I got a four year college degree from UC Davis.
00:57:10And I got my citizenship when I was 40 years old. It took just about over 20 years. I worked several jobs. I worked as a band teller, babysitter, fast food worker, then sales, then management and leadership.
00:57:28I miss my son every day. And I was finally reunited with him when he was 15 years old. And last year, I took him to trip to Cusco to show him where I was from.
00:57:46Two years ago, I decided that pursuing acting wasn't too late.
00:58:02Vilma, when you were apart from your son, did you ever think to yourself, I'm not, maybe I'm just going to forget about him?
00:58:11There was a time where, so, yes, you're after this success, right? It is to prove something, to validate your absence, to validate you.
00:58:23The shame gets bigger because of what happens when you don't put truth to the lie.
00:58:27You never know for sure who you are.
00:58:30When I go into this hole or this rabbit hole, my mom played this character, my dad played this character, my brother, like, am I part of a movie? And I'm just, I'm just a character. And so, if I am, then what do I get to create? You know?
00:58:44I'm thinking of, as, like, if I'm a yard. But yeah, she's a role. She's a movie.
00:58:53Right. It's probably the real wake up moment. Am I really in this world?
00:58:59That's like, because, you know, life is, you know.
00:59:04A yard. A yard.
00:59:07Hello, my name is Henry Foster Brown. I'm Caesar Hartman for the role of Raj.
00:59:11Hi, I'm Simon Aycock. I'm 6'1".
00:59:14It's me.
00:59:15I stood there with a knife in her.
00:59:17As though I was observing everything from a pretty glanced.
00:59:22I am a middle-aged gay Jewish New Yorker.
00:59:28I am born in Tijuana, Mexico.
00:59:31Indigenous to this land and to Mexico.
00:59:34My grandfather grew up on a plantation.
00:59:36First came to the United States as a student.
00:59:39Through Ellis Island.
00:59:40To be with the love of my life.
00:59:42To an arranged marriage. We have been married for over 33 years.
00:59:47To travel with the United States military doing
00:59:52a social self-prevention training.
00:59:54I'm also a lead singer in a rock band.
00:59:56I'm also an artist job.
00:59:58I started acting when I was a dance teacher.
01:00:01I like action.
01:00:02I'm serious.
01:00:03I'm moving to L.A. 30 years old.
01:00:06I want to help people.
01:00:09That I finally decided to do one.
01:00:22OK.
01:00:23Let's climb.
01:04:10Hello?
01:04:14Hello?
01:04:18Hello?
01:04:20Hello?
01:04:30What are you doing?
01:05:00Are you there?
01:05:02So, this is how it ends.
01:05:08I are.
01:05:10This is not you.
01:05:12This is not you.
01:05:14You have no idea how much you mean to me.
01:05:18You'll find your way.
01:05:20And how brave I feel today because I was you for a moment.
01:05:28Amen.
01:05:30Amen.
01:05:34This is not you.
01:05:40This is not you.
01:05:42This is not you.
01:05:46This is not you.
01:05:56This is not you.
01:05:58This is not you.
01:06:00This is not you.
01:06:08This is not you.
01:06:10I am.
01:06:11I am.
01:06:12I am.
01:06:40Mom?
01:07:10What happened? Is everything okay?
01:07:29I just had a dream.
01:07:37Are you sure?
01:07:39Good night.
01:07:52Okay.
01:07:58Good night.
01:08:08Let's go.
01:08:23Jeffy, where are we going?
01:08:25Shh, shh, shh.
01:08:30Let's go. Come here.
01:08:32Come here. Come here.
01:08:53Okay. Yay.
01:09:07You live here?
01:09:10It's temporary. Only temporary.
01:09:15Come, sit.
01:09:23Here. I got this for your birthday.
01:09:34Happy birthday to you.
01:09:40Happy birthday to you.
01:09:46Happy birthday to you, Jasmine.
01:09:51Happy birthday to you.
01:10:00I'm tired. It's too late to eat cake.
01:10:06Okay.
01:10:10You can sleep.
01:10:12You're safe here. Come.
01:10:14You can sleep here.
01:10:16Come. Come.
01:10:17Come.
01:10:22There you go.
01:10:24There you go.
01:10:28Yay.
01:10:29I need you to know something.
01:10:44I need you to know I'm sorry.
01:10:46I'm sorry I wasn't there.
01:10:52But I'm gonna be here for you now, okay?
01:10:55Okay.
01:11:10I thought I could become a star.
01:11:16Someone you would look up to.
01:11:17I was so ashamed.
01:11:18I was so ashamed.
01:11:33Ashamed of myself.
01:11:34I will talk about love like it's this great, beautiful, warm thing.
01:11:51Love is hard.
01:11:57Filled with worry.
01:12:01And work.
01:12:05And somehow you end up hurting those you love the most.
01:12:11Because...
01:12:12I just want you to know that I have loved you with all my heart.
01:12:33And I'm so sorry it took me so long to learn.
01:12:44To see what that really means.
01:13:02When that feels.
01:13:15It's okay.
01:13:17And it just happens.
01:13:19And this is great, it's okay for you to understand.
01:13:24Am I continue?
01:13:27You need a good time...
01:13:29Good morning.
01:13:43Good morning.
01:13:59Do you like it?
01:14:29Come.
01:14:46Come, Hasmina.
01:14:59I miss you so much.
01:15:11I've made a lot of mistakes yesterday.
01:15:14Your dad too.
01:15:17We lost each other.
01:15:21I almost lost each other.
01:15:29You don't have to cry.
01:15:51Oh, thank you.
01:15:54Thank you, I won't.
01:15:58I'm sorry.
01:16:00Oh.
01:16:02Oh.
01:16:04Oh.
01:16:06Oh.
01:16:08Oh.
01:16:10Oh.
01:16:11Oh.
01:16:17Oh.
01:16:22Oh.
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