00:00One of my last interactions with my dad was that he literally texted me that he was getting Panda
00:04to remember me, and now I go to Panda to remember him.
00:19Growing up, my dad, he just always loved Chinese food, and so we would go to Panda Express all the
00:28time. It was kind of just something like mundane, like usual, us going out to eat together, but after
00:36he passed away, when I looked back at the last thread of text messages he had sent me, and I had
00:42seen that he went to Panda Express to remember me, it became like a tradition for me where I would go
00:52to Panda Express to remember him. It was very unexpected. He was just at a red light, and then
00:58someone had hit his cab, and nobody wanted to tell me, which is totally understandable. I mean,
01:05I had just moved so far away. I had just started a new chapter of my life. Like, people were like
01:11DMing my friends in LA, trying to basically tell them to tell me. They told me that my dad had been
01:18in a car accident, and that it was on the news. And so after that, I just remember going on my
01:24computer in my room and searching it, and then it was when the article came up that I saw that he had
01:30passed away. One of the first things that I did was I went to look at my phone, like, what was the
01:37last thing we said? Do I have voice messages? Like, I was just seeking some type of connection, and I
01:43looked at the text messages from that same day, and I read them, and I'm like, oh my gosh, my dad just
01:50texted me that he went to Panda to remember me today. But I'm so grateful he texted me that,
01:55because it just reminded me of, like, something so casual that we did that, you know, was actually
02:03really special. That gave me a sense of peace, seeing that, despite all of the other unsettling
02:11emotions that I was feeling in that moment.
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