00:00whenever i'm walking on a bridge something very high out here jump if i see a car jump in front
00:08of the car i would have thought like if i had a gun i would shoot myself so i couldn't understand
00:14because i never in my life i'm 41 years old never in my life have i gone through anything like this
00:21holy spirits let your floodgates of deliverance open right now let your power of deliverance
00:40descend right now descend right now descend right now descend right now receive your deliverance
00:50receive your deliverance receive it in the name of jesus christ my name is david and i'm connected
01:00from cape town south africa the person next to me is my wife patricia um it all began in the year 2024
01:09last year january when i went to do a part-time job for one of my clients and when i went to do the job
01:20i had the feeling that i shouldn't go but i ignored the feeling i went to do the job anyway
01:28after doing the job for the client the following day i started experiencing
01:34headaches severe headaches and these headaches it felt like there was this
01:40serious inflammation in my head i ignored the headaches for about a week or two
01:49and after a week or two i started feeling strange feelings an example when i'm standing i couldn't
01:57stand still so i would feel as if my body is moving i started having memory loss and i started having
02:04something like fatigue i would feel like something pushed me then one day i went to a store called
02:11macro here in south africa to buy a ink cartridge for our printers at work when i went into the store
02:20i just blacked out when i blacked out i felt i was going to collapse completely but suddenly i received
02:28strength and i stood upright then i found my wife i told my wife that no something is very wrong with me
02:34i need to go and see a doctor and the following day i went to see the doctor after seeing the doctor
02:41he prescribed um medicine i kept the containers because i believed that a day like this would come
02:49when i'll be giving my testimony so if you can see here clearly my name it faded a little bit my name is
02:55written on them so he the doctor prescribed um these pills one is called melon alprazzo it was 14 tablets
03:06and they were prescribed that i must take them for two weeks and this is called indoor block 40 milligrams
03:15and i was supposed to take these two tablets every night before i sleep for two weeks i took these
03:23tablets these containers these containers are empty and finished the tablets when i finished the tablets
03:29in the morning when i woke up i started having serious suicide thoughts and depression and i wondered
03:37i just woke up and i wondered what could this be i i couldn't understand it when i arrived at work i just
03:42felt no strength i felt i'm going to collapse and it got even worse on the 5th of march on the 5th of march
03:55i arrived at work i just felt no strength i felt i'm going to collapse and i found my wife again i said i
04:05need to go and see the doctor again because i had finished taking the tablets for two weeks and there
04:13was no solution so i requested to see the same doctor because it's a medical clinic so there's many doctors
04:19before i went to the doctor um just to take it back a little bit i i went to a shopping mall with my wife
04:27to deposit some money when i got to the atm i did not know how to operate the atm remember i'm someone who
04:35you love using um atms depositing money outside computers but on that day i could not deposit that
04:43money and i stood in front of the atm wondering what could be wrong but eventually i was able to deposit
04:51the money i went to see the doctor when i when i went into the doctor's room i explained to him that
04:56doctor i'm feeling very very weird i have suicidal thoughts i forget and i can just stand up
05:04going to the kitchen to get something immediately i get there i can't remember what what i'm doing
05:10there i can't remember anything and i have this depression i i don't have any desire to talk to
05:15anyone i'm just keeping to myself and this is not me then he was visibly afraid he said to me david
05:23would you like me to prescribe the same tablets i said no no no i don't want those tablets again he said
05:30okay i will prescribe something else for you he gave me a little paper i went to the uh pharmacy which
05:36they gave me still tablets for depression trepeline which i didn't take the tablets are still here all
05:44of them and i started to feel something else fear anxiety i got home i was sitting down to about to eat
05:55breakfast and i realized i couldn't sit at one place for 10 seconds that was very strange to me i took
06:06a few bites and i stood up i went to the room came back tried to eat stood up and stood in the kitchen
06:13and i stood there i started hearing voices run run and another voice would say to me no don't run
06:22and i would hear another voice scream another voice don't scream i was very confused i felt i'm losing my
06:29mind and at night insomnia i don't sleep i remember one day i slept around nine o'clock and i woke up
06:39with this uh torment of suicidal thoughts i checked the time how long i've been sleeping it was quarter
06:46past nine i slept only 15 minutes and that that made me very afraid at night i would wake up drink
06:54water i can't lay still on my bed and at the same time i can't sleep so i'm just sitting on my bed till
07:00the next morning and these suicidal thoughts whenever i'm walking on a bridge something very
07:08high out here jump if i see a car jump in front of the car i would have thoughts like if i had a gun
07:17i'll shoot myself so i couldn't understand because i never in my life i'm 41 years old never in my life
07:24have i gone through anything like this one day my boss came to visit because he is in johannesberg
07:31and he said to me david i want to buy a truck can you please accompany me so you can assist with the
07:38selection of the truck i left with him we went to the company where they sell the trucks and they packed
07:44four trucks next to electric wire electric fence and as he was looking at these trucks he kept saying
07:50david is this because i was under serious depression so i'm agreeing to everything he's
07:54saying i'm not even giving my input so when every time he says david is this one nice i say yes yes
07:58it's nice this one i think david this one is better i would agree with him yes i think it's better
08:03and then i i held on to um a live electric wire which electrocuted me very well and when it
08:13when it electrocuted me i screamed and i jumped off and he looked at me and said david
08:18what happened did you get shocked i said yes and he said to me are you awake now so i didn't even
08:23realize that my boss noticed that there's something wrong with me then i decided no no no no no i need
08:30god's intervention i reached out um to brother chris i sent a prayer request explaining everything i'm
08:38going through the depression insomnia anxiety i can't sleep and i joined interactive prayer
08:48that was in in april i joined the interactive prayer during the interactive prayer i didn't form it
08:57didn't manifest but i felt the love of god and after he prayed for me for everyone including myself
09:07i started to experience something marvelous the suicide thoughts were there depression was there
09:15anxiety was there but i started feeling this joy and love as if someone is just pouring it on me
09:22every time i hear the voice of suicide and depression and anxiety this love keeps increasing so much
09:33that i felt is quenching or shutting out the voice of depression the voice of anxiety the voice of
09:41suicide thoughts and i started studying it i realized that anytime i focus and think about this suicide
09:50thoughts and depression and anxiety they they dominate me i they become so much but when i focus on this
09:57love and joy they are dying down then i said to my wife ah since the prayer i'm feeling this joy and love
10:05this awesome and focus to this love this suicide thoughts this depression they are dying down
10:15then i i i started to change my focus i'm i'm reading my bible i start to think of heavenly things
10:22every time i i i i force my mind think of heavenly things think meditate on the word of god the more i do it
10:31the more the suicide thoughts were dying down the more depression was going down the more um anxiety
10:37was going down and then insomnia vanished completely i was able to sleep after some time the suicide
10:44thoughts died down completely i was left with um depression and also it was it was not heavy and then
10:53during the crossover service brother chris said something if god has removed something in your life has
10:58done a miracle in life don't wait until everything is gone testify send that testimony of what god has
11:07done for you i said to myself okay i'm still feeling depression but insomnia is gone suicide thoughts
11:13are gone i'm going to send my testimony so i sent my testimony of the suicide thoughts people of god
11:18after i sent my testimony of suicide thoughts within a few days depression disappeared completely
11:27and today i am here suicidal thoughts free depression free no more insomnia no more anxiety i am back to
11:37my normal self by the grace of god and my relationship with god just went to another level i've learned to
11:44trust in god i've learned to leave it all for god um i was put in a corner where i had to
11:50um exercise faith because i knew after some point of going in and out of hospitals and doctors i came to
12:00a a very heavy realization that no human can help me i have to start um acting faith um whether i like it or
12:11not that was just one thought that was for jesus only and that just took my relationship with god to the next
12:20level grace and peace to you all as he already explained everything it was scary it was terrible at first he
12:31didn't tell me he went through it alone but as a wife i noticed that something was wrong because i was
12:38seeing someone else in him someone that i didn't recognize his eyes just changed and him doing up and
12:49down not to be able to sit still that part was scaring me because i'll be watching him not knowing what
12:57he was going through he's the one who's always strong who will be able to take care of me when i'm not
13:04well but at that point i felt helpless because i didn't know how to go about it i didn't know how
13:12to help him he went through it um for some time and then he explained himself to me what he was going
13:23through i was so scared i remember i was standing on a stove cooking i just closed my eyes and said please
13:30god help me to know how to take care of him help me to be there for him as he always is for me on on
13:42that same january when this thing started him going in and out to doctors to clinics to hospitals he will
13:52go out not telling me where he's going he'll just take the key and go out when he comes back he comes back
14:00with plastic he bought things that are not needed he was spending like it was not normal for him to do
14:09that one day he's at the doctor the next is the day at the clinic at the day of hospital even i remember
14:17there was this specific day i think it was around nine and he just stood up i asked him where are you
14:25going he said i'm going to day hospital i'm like but it's nine o'clock you can't go there
14:30there and he was like i'm going and then i i let him go he was updating me all the time when he was
14:39there and then eventually he came back when he came back the following day he was like i'm going to the
14:47doctor i'm like i i didn't know how to help him i didn't know i didn't even know to stop him like what
14:56you're doing is wrong because i knew that he was going through something so he spent all our savings
15:03by the grace of god he's himself he's normal he's even gained weight because during that he lost so
15:12much weight but now he's back to his normal self and everything is okay and we
15:19need we we socialize and we share everything by the grace of god before my advice i'd like to say i am a
15:28god's hat tv partner and i would like to encourage the viewers all over the world that all of this is
15:35possible the testimonies what we watch on the internet is made possible by the grace of god through the
15:44partners the workers in gosha tv gosha tv team so i want to encourage you to become a gosha tv
15:54partner and share help share the gospel to all four corners of the world because there are many people
16:00that need to hear the word of god and by becoming a partner you can help spread the word even further
16:06um my word of advice i want to say that you know we've got all things are possible there's nothing
16:14too hard for god this i i thought to me it was the end i thought it was my end and i mentioned it on
16:21on my testimony i thought it was the end of my life because i could not see any other way out but god
16:29came through and proved to me that there's nothing impossible so i want to encourage viewers all over
16:36the world whatever you are going through no matter how big it is don't magnify your problem above god
16:45believe god that god will remove that problem from you just as he removed mine he will remove yours
16:52and give you peace of heart thank you jesus to my sister is there any advice that you like to give
16:58to viewers i will advise them to give it all to god to god all things are possible what we can't do
17:09ourselves god can do it for us
17:28so
17:41you
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