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The Braxtons Season 1 Episode 1
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00:00I'm getting made up for it, but emotionally, uh, we'll see.
00:04Are you good?
00:05Yeah, I'm in a good space.
00:08Tamar's in a route.
00:11Miss E is in the kitchen.
00:12She's going to be cooking.
00:14We should be shooting in about 20 minutes.
00:17The Braxtons.
00:19The Braxtons are bad guys.
00:23Look at God.
00:25All right, y'all, let's get last looks in so we can get this going.
00:28Let's get this party started.
00:29This is my first green screen.
00:31What's the background going to be?
00:34It's going to be your house in the back.
00:36In the back?
00:37Yep.
00:38It's been a long time coming.
00:40We've dealt with a lot, and so we have a lot to share.
00:44Matter of fact, the Braxtons never should have gone away.
00:47How about that?
00:48Wouldn't you agree?
00:50I love you guys.
00:52Kiss you, you know.
00:54Yeah, baby, now the time.
00:55I think that the Braxtons remind every family of themselves in some aspect.
01:03Whether it's the music aspect.
01:05Oh, baby, don't you leave.
01:09Mother, baby, don't you leave.
01:10Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
01:11Let's watch these pictures, honey.
01:13When you're ready for me, let me know.
01:15Oh, you try.
01:15Okay, I'm standing.
01:17Whether you're getting along, whether you're not getting along.
01:19Well, since you left the group, Tony, somebody had to take control of the car.
01:25The cliques that's within the families, it somehow reminds you of your own.
01:28Hey, I'm so glad you're cooking.
01:30With our family, there's always an opportunity for things to go left.
01:35I'm just really excited that things are going right.
01:37You know, I'm glad that we're back, but the other part of it is, I know that we have a
01:45missing piece that is never going to be the same without her.
01:48This week is the second anniversary of Tracy's passing.
01:54Tracy wanted everybody to know that she was a fighter and that, you know, her illness was
01:58not going to break her spirit.
02:01She was going to always remain the Tracy that we all knew her to be.
02:05Hey!
02:06Hi, why y'all so excited to see me?
02:09All right, my sisters are here.
02:10Tracy may not be here physically, but her spirit and her energy will always be here.
02:17It will be here forever.
02:18Get up for Tracy!
02:21She called me.
02:22She said, Mom, I have cancer.
02:27Yeah, I felt so helpless.
02:29Like, I couldn't do anything to save her.
02:31I feel like we need to have some type of support.
02:34That grief management.
02:35Okay, that's a lot.
02:36I had the echo done.
02:37I had the EKG.
02:38I had blood work done.
02:39I had the EKG.
02:40I had blood work done.
02:41What's wrong with your heart?
02:44Suppose that I got my boys, but they're having a gentleman's teeth on.
02:48I am who I am.
02:50You accept me or you just don't accept me.
02:52It's just a part of who I am.
02:53I have alopecia and that's just it.
02:56We're just calling to check in on you.
02:57See how you're feeling.
02:58See how you're doing.
02:58I don't want him to go into a downward spiral.
03:02We need to go ahead and go on grief counseling.
03:04Tell me, what do you feel like you need help with?
03:09I don't think I'm ready.
03:10I have no idea what to expect.
03:14Any idea for what may need to happen tonight in order to make sure that it stays in a positive
03:19direction in order to make sure that it stays in a positive direction.
03:49Come on, Caleb.
03:56Yeah, I ain't going to work.
03:57I know.
03:57Take care.
03:58You two.
03:58Have a great day.
03:59What is that you're making?
04:01Beef chorizo.
04:02I am hungry.
04:03I haven't had any food today.
04:04Oh, shocker.
04:05Are you putting all that cheese in there?
04:07No, not unless you want to stay in the bathroom for the next couple of days.
04:10Yeah, I'm good.
04:12When's that going to be done?
04:14In a few minutes.
04:15What are we going to eat with it?
04:16Chips.
04:17That's it?
04:17It's dip.
04:19Any broccoli?
04:23Von and I have been married for almost five years now, and our blended family has blended
04:28together quite beautifully, and I'm still so much in love with Von.
04:32It's like the first day that I married him.
04:36Pause.
04:37Walk all the way up, and then let it go.
04:38Yeah.
04:41Now spread out.
04:41I got you, I got you, I got you, I got you.
04:46I got you.
04:47She slipped.
04:48I did.
04:49I knew my past was too long.
04:51I couldn't hold my pants up and hold Trina dress up at the same time.
04:55It was either her or me.
04:58I didn't drink now.
04:59Watch your boo, watch your boo.
05:00Watch your boo.
05:02How are you feeling about the show coming back?
05:03I'm a little leery.
05:06It's been three years now.
05:08Since we've last done the show, and then ever since everything happened, even with Tracy,
05:12I would have thought that maybe, you know, it would have brought everybody to a different
05:17place where we're closer and things like that, but that's not what happened here, and I just
05:21wonder how that's going to be actually working together again, because we haven't really done
05:25any kind of work together, not collaboratively, and that's, that worries me.
05:32I won't say that my sisters and I have become estranged since Tracy's passing.
05:37I feel like no one really wanted to address it and talk about it.
05:40So, my feelings were enclosed.
05:43They were put in a box, and especially for me, that was unhealthy.
05:47I should have had my sisters to lean on to be those people for me to talk to, but it
05:51just didn't feel like that's what they wanted for themselves.
05:55You know, we're supposed to be going to dinner with Tony and the girls tonight.
05:58Well, not you.
05:59Who was we?
05:59But me and Tawanda and Tamar and Mommy.
06:03Nice.
06:04Y'all need some time to go.
06:06I am really glad that Tony is in town for a couple of days, because we never see each other,
06:10okay?
06:11Tonight will be a good check-in to see how everyone's doing, especially as we get close
06:15to the two-year anniversary of Tracy's passing.
06:17Mommy's been pushing for us to talk to a grief counselor together, but we haven't decided
06:22if we're ready to do that yet.
06:23We're going to talk about, you know, Tracy.
06:27Tracy, we never really sat and talked about it as a family ever since, you know, we had
06:32her memorial service.
06:34Yeah.
06:35How are you feeling?
06:36You know, it's been difficult.
06:37It's been difficult.
06:37Grieving is a very real thing.
06:39You know what I mean?
06:40And that's why it's so important for us to stay in contact with baby Kevin, with little
06:45Kevin.
06:45Little Kevin is not just Tracy's son.
06:47He's our only child.
06:49They had the deepest bond in the whole entire world.
06:53Hey, Kevin!
06:54I think the loss of Tracy for little Kevin was one of the most detrimental things he's
07:00ever been through in his life.
07:02And we need to make sure he knows that just because he lost his mother, he isn't alone.
07:06The dude lost his mom very early in life.
07:09But he doesn't speak to his dad as much either.
07:10What?
07:13I didn't know that.
07:14Not as often as I would think.
07:18I won't speak negatively about his dad, because his dad was grieving too.
07:22No matter my personal opinion toward him, he's still a grieving husband.
07:27But when your surviving parent is shut down, and the parent that you lost is gone, who
07:32do you have?
07:34It's almost a loss of both parents.
07:36I think we should check what I'm saying he's doing.
07:39I just don't know.
07:40Situation was tough for everybody.
07:41Yeah.
07:43It's tough for everybody.
07:47But Tony said that she has something to say to us, but you just never know what it's
07:52going to be.
07:52Good or bad?
07:53I don't know.
07:54Tony, in true Tony fashion, asked the family to come to dinner, and she had something to
07:59tell us.
08:00You know, but this time, when she told us that she wanted to talk, the setting of her
08:04tone was very melancholy.
08:06And I'm really afraid, because Tony has always been recluse when it comes to her feelings.
08:10She's never really been this person who just wants everybody to know what's going on with
08:15her.
08:15You know what?
08:15It don't matter what she wants to talk about.
08:18The fact of the matter is that all of y'all be together.
08:20Now, that I agree with.
08:21We've never truly grieved together since Tracy's passing, because I don't think I'm ready.
08:32I haven't talked to anyone at all.
08:33You just try to live with a broken heart.
08:36This is really messed up, so I'm scared, like, every day.
08:38I can't even know how to do that.
08:40See ya.
09:05Hey mama.
09:06Hey.
09:07Everybody looks amazing.
09:08Nice.
09:09I would just like to say for the record, I'm not paying because y'all do this to me
09:13every time.
09:14Who's paying?
09:15Tawanda.
09:16She's late.
09:17Okay.
09:18This family dinner is the first time that everyone together filming again.
09:24It feels so good to have everyone in the same room.
09:29However, I'm missing Tracy.
09:33How's everybody been?
09:34I ain't seen everybody.
09:35I ain't seen or talked to you.
09:37Where you been?
09:38I've been working.
09:39Good.
09:40I'm excited.
09:41I haven't worked in 15 months.
09:42These days I'm a bit bicoastal between L.A. and Atlanta, but I've been staying in L.A.
09:46more lately since I've been rehearsing for my new Las Vegas show with Cedric the Entertainer.
09:50It's called Love and Laughter.
09:51It's a variety show with singing and dancing and comedy, which is kind of new for me, but
09:58I'm getting more and more excited about the challenge of it all.
10:02You feel like you ready?
10:03I'm a little nervous.
10:04Yesterday I was like, I'm nervous.
10:05I'm never nervous like this.
10:08So just anxiety.
10:10That's all.
10:11You got this.
10:12Yeah, you're fine.
10:13You got this.
10:14I actually had a Vegas show over 15 years ago in 2007.
10:16And while I was doing that show, I had chest pains.
10:21That's when I was diagnosed with lupus.
10:24And I was told then that I may never be able to perform again.
10:27I was scared to tell anyone.
10:29The truth is that I have lupus.
10:32What do you mean?
10:34I've been battling it for a while.
10:36And I don't want to tell anyone because everyone's like, oh, you can't tell anyone because you
10:40can't work.
10:41You don't want to tell anybody because it may defer people from wanting to work with you.
10:45Suddenly, now I'm tired of faking it.
10:48I'm a little scared because I haven't performed in so long.
10:52But the doctor said 15 months and it's exactly 15 months.
10:56I know I have to tell the girls about a health scare, which makes me feel some kind of way
11:01because the last health scare we heard was Tracy.
11:05My family know that a few months ago, I had to have a stent put in my heart, which was extremely scary.
11:12But I haven't told them the nitty gritty, the details of it, what really has happened.
11:18So I got to make sure, you know, I tell them without making them, I want them to feel at ease, I should say.
11:24And it's not easy to talk about for myself.
11:26But on the brink of Tracy's stuff, I don't want to get them riled up.
11:29Oh, it's only okay.
11:30So I don't even want to tell them.
11:33Maybe I shouldn't.
11:34I don't know.
11:35You look really good.
11:36I do.
11:37I can tell you've been over there in that California lifestyle.
11:39I'm over here in this Georgia lifestyle.
11:40Ugh, I hate living in Lemon Pepper Island.
11:43You know what?
11:44What's that?
11:45What's Lemon Pepper Island?
11:46That's where I live at.
11:47Everything is Lemon Pepper.
11:48They probably got Lemon Pepper pedicures.
11:50What?
11:51It's Lemon Pepper everything.
11:53Lemon Pepper and hookah, hookah, lemon, hookah, lemon, hookah.
11:57But we have guacamole.
11:58We eat avocado toast.
11:59I'll eat that.
12:00What?
12:01What about you?
12:02Is you single?
12:03What's the tea?
12:04Oh, that's a big tea.
12:05I feel like I'm single.
12:09I feel like I'm pretty much single.
12:12What's that mean, pretty much?
12:14I was engaged.
12:16I'm not married.
12:17I'm not engaged anymore, and I'm not married.
12:20And that's all I'ma say.
12:22So you got a boyfriend?
12:24I'm focused on my two boys and my work.
12:26It's been a strange time since Tracy's past, but I am happy in my life overall.
12:33Just not in a place for a relationship.
12:37Right now.
12:38Yeah.
12:39What are you checking?
12:40Under my eye.
12:41What are you doing, First Love Club?
12:42Under my eye.
12:43Under my eye.
12:44Oh, yeah.
12:49Oh, wow.
12:50Y'all did this on purpose.
12:52Y'all went and no we did not.
12:53Oh, my God.
12:54Why are you copying it off of me?
12:56Nothing wrong with it.
12:57They did it on purpose and no we did not.
12:59I didn't see Trina all day.
13:01All I want to know is, what new pussy cat?
13:04Y'all used to dress like this when y'all were young.
13:06I can't.
13:07I'm flabbergasted.
13:08Trina.
13:09Tracey is like 100% looking down, cracking up.
13:12I mean, I've been missing this.
13:15Whenever we get together, there's always this crazy and silly moments.
13:18And with Tracy, it was even crazier.
13:20She made everything fun.
13:21I have to pee right now.
13:22I came with you.
13:23Don't pee, Tracey.
13:24Since this is an ocean, don't pee.
13:25Tracey.
13:26I have to pee.
13:27Wait for a bathroom, Tracey.
13:32Will you get that big Bob Marley one?
13:38I just don't see where it's like a seat's missing.
13:40It is missing.
13:41Tracey's holding out purses.
13:43Yeah.
13:44I'm not holding everybody's purse.
13:46Everybody take they own.
13:48Here's yours.
13:49Here's yours.
13:50Here's yours.
13:51I hear all the time from our fans how they miss watching our antics.
13:56Laughing with us.
13:57Clang, clang, clang, clang, clang, clang, clang, clang, clang, clang, clang.
14:13Yes.
14:14That's that old Whitney clap.
14:15Yes.
14:16Whitney will get you.
14:17Have a seat.
14:18Been crying with us.
14:19I don't want to talk about that bitch.
14:21But it's the truth.
14:22Been singing with us.
14:24The trumpet sounds.
14:31He must always let me ask her to be a girl.
14:41Go.
14:43Go.
14:45Go.
14:46Go.
14:47Go.
14:48Go.
14:49Go.
14:50She got four kids, and that's enough.
14:53She don't want no more kids, and that's just tough.
14:56Tough, tough.
14:57Dear doll.
14:59Dear doll.
15:01We don't like all of y'all.
15:04Dear doll.
15:06Happy birthday to you.
15:14Thank you, guys.
15:16When we were filming for your birthday in LA,
15:19she was telling me and Trina, she was like,
15:21I can't.
15:22It burns.
15:23Oh, my God, it burns.
15:24The last season, yeah.
15:25Oh, it burns.
15:26Oh, it burns.
15:27Oh, it burns.
15:28Can I get a cat over?
15:30Yeah, she was sick.
15:32When she finally went to the doctor,
15:34I was in LA.
15:36Yeah.
15:37And she called me.
15:38She said, Mommy, I have cancer.
15:43Help us.
15:45She said, but I'm going to beat this.
15:47I said, I know you will.
15:51When Tracy got diagnosed, it didn't seem real at all.
15:54It still doesn't.
15:57For me, family is the most important thing in my life.
16:00I spent my whole life caring for and protecting my sisters,
16:03but this was different because there's nothing I can do.
16:06I felt so helpless.
16:08Like, I couldn't do anything to save her.
16:10That's really hard for me to digest because I was a sick one, not Tracy.
16:16Anyway, I'm sorry, guys. I just need a moment.
16:20Thanks.
16:21Okay.
16:22Here we go.
16:23I can't mess up my makeup.
16:25You know, I feel like we need to have some type of support.
16:27So I'm just saying, like, a grief management or...
16:28Because that's a lot to...
16:29It's a lot.
16:30You know what I'm saying?
16:31Yeah.
16:32Everybody is dealing with it in their own way.
16:46But I think Trina really and truly need extensive counseling
16:54because she was there when Tracy took her last breath.
17:02Has anybody gone to grief counseling?
17:04I probably should have after Tracy.
17:05Yeah.
17:06I have before, but not after Tracy.
17:08I probably should have.
17:10Yeah.
17:11And every time I see y'all necklace...
17:14Oh, yeah.
17:15Yeah.
17:16I don't have mine on today.
17:17I think a tray.
17:18Tracy wanted us to wear the sisters.
17:19She just...
17:20It's like, I want my sisters to all wear...
17:22No, she said she want us to take her wherever we go.
17:27Tracy loved hummingbirds.
17:29There was just this whole muriel on her back.
17:34It was five hummingbirds.
17:36So it represented every sister.
17:38Before she passed, she told us that she always wants us to take her with us
17:43so she can continue her journey.
17:45So wherever I go, whatever I'm doing, I take her with me.
17:49She's still here.
17:51She's still here.
17:53Now, the only time I ever take Tracy off is when I'm in a moment with my husband.
17:59I'm sure she doesn't want to be there.
18:01Sorry, Tracy, but I'm sure you didn't want to be there.
18:04How's little Kevin doing?
18:06He's going through some things.
18:07He's going through a divorce, so...
18:09Wait, what happened?
18:12What happened?
18:13He told everybody what happened?
18:15What happened?
18:16I am taking a bet that little Kevin is going through a divorce
18:23because I see little Kevin all the time.
18:25We have dinner and ketchup and things like that,
18:28but he's never told me about his situations with my niece.
18:33Tracy would be sad about that.
18:36Very sad.
18:37Has little Kevin done grief management?
18:39No.
18:40No, no.
18:41Loss of his mom?
18:42That's a lot.
18:43His best friend.
18:44I heard that Kevin was getting a divorce.
18:51And I know...
18:52I think of Tracy.
18:54That would break her heart.
18:56Because it's breaking mine, for God's sakes.
18:59She about to cry as well.
19:01Yes, she is.
19:03As time...
19:04You can't touch Trina when she's crying.
19:06As time go by...
19:08Is this cheese?
19:09Don't put your hands on my face like that.
19:11Let's change the subject.
19:14I'd like to hear Tony's news.
19:19I went to the doctor.
19:25Here's to Tracy.
19:26I'm not above you.
19:27Plank, plank, plank, plank.
19:28I'm not below you.
19:29I'm right here with you.
19:30How are you guys feeling about being here tonight?
19:35What's going on?
19:36Y'all got so many secrets.
19:37I'm so irritating.
19:38Trina's going, tapping, and it's like...
19:40But this is not the forum.
19:41This is not the forum.
19:48I'd like to hear Tony's news.
19:53I went to the doctor.
19:55My heart was aching.
19:56It was like...
19:57I had had every test done.
19:58I had the echo done.
19:59I had the EKG.
20:00I had blood work done.
20:01And I went to get the angio.
20:02And the doctor was like,
20:03No, that's your pre-op.
20:04So what do you mean my pre-op?
20:05No, you're having surgery.
20:06You got to look inside your heart.
20:08What's wrong with your heart?
20:11If the heart attack had happened,
20:12they caught it just before it happened.
20:14If I had a heart attack,
20:15I wouldn't survive.
20:16I wouldn't be here right now.
20:19But it was something called the Widowmaker.
20:21They told me your sister was watching over you.
20:25Because you buy rice.
20:26You should be dead today.
20:29You should not be alive today.
20:32I've always known Tony health was serious.
20:38I didn't take it lightly.
20:40As a mother, I worry.
20:42And I think she feels that if Tracy can leave now so soon,
20:51well, maybe me too.
20:55The thing that's really messed up,
20:57I was told that even though I got the stent in,
21:02you will eventually need bypass surgery.
21:05Because if I have a heart attack, I won't survive.
21:10I had to have a stent put in my heart,
21:12which was extremely scary.
21:15That's very scary procedure itself.
21:17But when my doctor told me,
21:19I might not ever be able to do a tour again.
21:22Okay, I heard it before.
21:23But this was different.
21:24They say you may never be able to do another tour
21:26because you could have a heart attack and it could kill you.
21:28It's like crazy anxieties.
21:30I just think about it all the time.
21:33I'm having a government diesel.
21:35I'm going to take care of them.
21:37This is really messed up so I'm scared.
21:40Like every day if I have a heart attack,
21:42I won't survive.
21:44And I can't even handle what she said.
21:46Just because they say it doesn't make it true.
21:48It's not awful.
21:49It's not awful.
21:50It's not awful.
21:51All I could think about were the boys.
21:53And I hate saying it out loud even now.
21:56It's real.
21:59It's real life.
22:01To be scared every day.
22:03Every day.
22:04You can't even understand.
22:05Like if I was a heartburn or am I having a heart attack?
22:08Absolutely.
22:09The Bible says speak things although they are what?
22:12So they were.
22:13And so it is.
22:15That's it.
22:16That's how that works.
22:17As a person's thing.
22:18As soon as you feel that that fear is coming in here,
22:21you demand it to leave and it will.
22:23That's just it.
22:24Did you point to my vagina?
22:25Yes.
22:26You manage to leave and it will.
22:28If you don't use it.
22:29You don't use it.
22:30You'll lose it.
22:31You'll lose it.
22:32Now that's a foul.
22:33Seeing my family rally around Tony with so much love and support
22:36reminded me of how many times we've hugged each other
22:39and loved on each other in the past.
22:41And it gives me hope that we can be as close as we used to be.
22:44And it might take time, but we always have Tracy with us,
22:47making us stronger.
22:48Making us stronger.
22:49I needed this more than I wanted to admit to myself.
22:53And I honestly think we all did.
22:55Oh, you do fine Tony.
22:56Yep.
22:57You're already okay.
22:58You're already good.
22:59You're already okay.
23:00For me, the main reason for wanting to do the Braxton's again
23:05is because of Tracy.
23:08She wanted us to do the show.
23:10She wanted us to talk about her cancer, her illness,
23:14in hopes that it would help someone else maybe battling it.
23:17Whenever there's a loss, a death in the family, it can go either way.
23:22It can bring you closer or further apart.
23:24And I think this was her way of making sure we stay together.
23:33And it is so.
23:34Listen, let me say something.
23:35You're already living.
23:36You can't be afraid to live.
23:40I thought I was strong, but I wasn't strong enough to see it.
23:44And if somebody said Trina drinks too much, well, I'm sorry.
23:49That's what Trina needs right now.
23:53You guys are enemies.
23:58I can't take it.
24:00It's too much.
24:05Trina.
24:11Trini.
24:12You look adorable.
24:13So do you.
24:15I got you a drink and I got me a drink.
24:17All right.
24:18But after today, I'm on a hiatus.
24:19So why?
24:20Because I need my stomach to be flat.
24:22It's got a speed bump on.
24:25Umba and I have always been super close.
24:28You know, Tawanda and I live in Georgia.
24:30Tony and Tamar lived in California.
24:32My brother Mikey and Tracy lived together in Maryland.
24:34So it just made more sense for Tawanda and I to gravitate towards each other.
24:38But especially after Tracy's passing, we've gotten even closer because you just never know.
24:46Thank you so much.
24:47You know, Trina, a lot of people were sending me messages saying, oh my God, it's Tawanda sick.
24:53It's Tawanda sick.
24:54Oh my God.
24:55Is she sick too?
24:57First of all, you remember that we all said that we were going to cut half our hair, right?
25:02But you didn't cut your hair.
25:05I have a face that's round like mommy's.
25:09Y'all have slender faces.
25:10Mine is round.
25:11That was my inheritance.
25:13I hadn't exactly told the world that I have alopecia.
25:17A lot of people assume a lot of different things.
25:20I took pride in how I looked and I have to be honest.
25:23I didn't think about my body.
25:26It was what was going on in the inside.
25:28And that was, oh my gosh, people are going to know that I have alopecia.
25:32Oh my God, maybe people aren't going to like me anymore.
25:35How do you feel about it now?
25:36I am who I am.
25:37You accept me or you just don't accept me.
25:39It's just a part of who I am.
25:40I have alopecia and that's just it.
25:43I like it.
25:44Well, thank you.
25:46There's this video of Tracy and she got her long little skinny fingers.
25:52And she's rubbing on Tawanda's head and Tawanda has all these patches.
25:57You know, like missing hair.
25:59Tawanda used to always do my hair.
26:01Didn't you, Tracy?
26:02It's fine.
26:03Whatever happens.
26:04Whatever happens.
26:05Whatever happens.
26:06Only on Tracy would just always just rub it.
26:08Just rub Tawanda's hair.
26:11And just want to cut off her hair.
26:17And Tracy said that she should do it.
26:19And I need a second because you're not going to get me.
26:24You're not going to get me today, Ochi.
26:29I don't know why, but little Kevin's on my mind.
26:31Is he really?
26:32Yeah, yeah.
26:33Want me to call him?
26:34Yeah.
26:35Okay.
26:36Since Tracy passed, we have really been trying to be there for little Kevin as much as possible.
26:40I know we can never fill that void of losing his mom and his best friend.
26:45But we are definitely doing the best that we can to be there for him.
26:50Oh, shoot.
26:51Oh, I see you.
26:52Hey.
26:53How are y'all?
26:54We're just going to check in on you.
26:56So how you feel?
26:57How are you doing?
26:58Yes.
26:59I've been making it.
27:00Well, I love you.
27:01You look amazing.
27:02Look at your hair.
27:03Yeah, you're twisted.
27:04Cute.
27:05Look at my hair, Olivia.
27:06Yeah.
27:07Wait, wait.
27:08What?
27:09What?
27:10Your wife braided your hair.
27:12When did she do that?
27:13Last week.
27:14Yeah, it's very confusing.
27:17She don't know what she going to get married.
27:19Boys, she's one of them.
27:20So I don't want them.
27:21But she did your hair.
27:23Right.
27:24She did my hair.
27:25Little Kevin is Tracy's only son.
27:27And I think that the death of Tracy has really affected his marriage.
27:32I keep it moving.
27:33I'm sorry.
27:34You know, I'm a mom.
27:35Don't do it.
27:36You know, that day.
27:37It's not up in a few days.
27:38Yeah.
27:39Yeah.
27:40Can't let that distract me.
27:42He's lost a mom and a best friend.
27:44And he's losing his wife.
27:45So I can only imagine what he's going through emotionally.
27:49We were all together last night.
27:51And what we understand is that we need to go ahead and go on grief counseling.
27:57I agree.
27:58Okay.
27:59After last night, we all agreed to have family grief therapy.
28:02And we're deciding that we're going to go to Tony's house.
28:05Mommy and Trina are cooking Tracy's favorite meals like oxtail and turkey wings to celebrate
28:11her.
28:12And we're also going to meet with the grief therapist.
28:15This is a different journey for us.
28:17And I'm very hopeful that maybe whatever's going on with everybody in the family, maybe
28:22they can get it out.
28:23Because I think that's important.
28:24Would you want to be a part of that too?
28:26Yeah.
28:27I've been wanting to get grief counseling lately.
28:29Yeah.
28:30Because I feel like Christmas, it really hit me.
28:32Yeah.
28:33It's like I want my mom to be there.
28:34Yeah.
28:35It's feeling like kind of down.
28:36Of course.
28:37Of course.
28:38Yeah.
28:39I miss her.
28:40Yeah.
28:41I know you do.
28:42I don't want him to go into a downward spiral, you know, especially during holidays, especially
28:46during those commemorative moments.
28:48That's when a lot of people get so downtrodden, you know, they just don't want to have to
28:52deal with the stress.
28:53They don't want to have to deal with the hurt.
28:55They don't want to have to deal with their feelings.
28:58He's got to get it out of his body.
29:00But you know, we're going to get through this together.
29:02Yes.
29:03Okay.
29:04I love you.
29:05Just a bit.
29:06Bye.
29:09Here's to Tracy.
29:10I'm not above you.
29:11I'm not below you.
29:12I'm right here with you.
29:14Yes.
29:23Tell me, what do you feel like you need help with?
29:26When we go through therapy sessions, a lot of things are revealed.
29:32I have to put y'all back.
29:33Are you okay?
29:34No.
29:35Okay.
29:36Go check on him to Wanda.
29:37He has a warrant.
29:39Wait a minute, what?
30:03No, ma'am.
30:04I need you to slice the, um...
30:05Onions?
30:06The onions and the garlic.
30:07Oh, no.
30:08Can you get that stuff in my clothes?
30:09Well, I hadn't changed yet, so...
30:11I have Michelle A to do it.
30:12Oh, my God.
30:13Yes, girl.
30:14Prima donna.
30:15Everybody know that.
30:16It's my middle name.
30:17This week is the two-year anniversary of Tracy's passing, and we're getting ready for our family
30:23grief therapy at Tony's house.
30:24I invited a therapist, and her name is Spirit, and she helped me so much in the past, and I'm hoping she can do the same for everyone else.
30:31Mommy and I came early to start cooking some of Tracy's favorite dishes, but Tony has to get camera ready, and Tawanda and Tamar are on their way now.
30:44I'm back.
30:45Hey, Tom.
30:46You on your way here?
30:47Yeah.
30:48Okay.
30:49I'll be here in a few minutes.
30:50I'm just doing the temperature check.
30:51You good?
30:52You ready for today?
30:53I'm getting ready emotionally.
30:55I'm getting made up for it, but emotionally, we'll see.
31:00You know, I'm in a good space.
31:03You know, I'm eager to listen.
31:05I'm eager to learn.
31:07I'm eager to grow.
31:09Yeah.
31:10Yeah, I haven't, I haven't talked to anyone at all about Tracy's stuff.
31:14I've been dealing with it on my own, so I'm optimistic that this will help me.
31:19Yes.
31:20Yes.
31:22I'm optimistic that this grief management thing will work.
31:25But, I just miss her.
31:32I just miss her every day.
31:35I try to make myself think of something positive.
31:37Like the butterfly doesn't know it used to be a caterpillar, and the caterpillar doesn't know it's going to be a butterfly.
31:42So Tracy's a butterfly.
31:44You just try to live with a broken heart, and it's really difficult.
31:49Trying to make yourself live with a broken heart.
31:53Well, you know what?
31:54This does sound real corny.
31:55It's hard to try to live with a broken heart, so maybe she can help Unbreak our hearts.
31:59I know this sounds real corny and cliche-ish.
32:01Tony Braxton.
32:03You had to put your song in there, Unbreak My Heart?
32:05I wasn't even thinking about it.
32:06I'm talking about Johnny Mathis' version.
32:08I'm singing Johnny Mathis' version.
32:09Oh, no, uh-uh, no, no, no, no.
32:12That is amazing.
32:13Well, at least we can smile and laugh, you know?
32:16Well, I'll see you in a minute.
32:17All right, see ya.
32:18Bye.
32:19Bye.
32:20Bye.
32:21Hey!
32:38I think grief counseling is very important.
32:41Whether you lose someone to death or lose someone in a relationship, you know?
32:45I just feel like it's something that you have to do.
32:47Why?
32:48Why you got no surgical gloves?
32:50Okay, good mother.
32:51Because I had to clean ourselves.
32:52Her latrine.
32:53Oh.
32:55Tracy loved buttermilk biscuits, so I'm making her in her honor.
32:59Let's have some champagne.
33:01I got a quick question.
33:02So what's the objective of today?
33:05I think it depends on the individual.
33:07What do you want to accomplish?
33:08Oh, I'm here for moral support.
33:10I've been to counseling.
33:13I've been to every kind of counseling.
33:15I've been to a psychiatrist.
33:17I've been to a spiritual counselor.
33:19I've been to IFAs.
33:20I've been to everybody.
33:22Different things call for different kind of people to explain it to you properly.
33:26The way my help is set up, I don't care where it comes from as long as I get it.
33:29Grief counseling is a lot different than regular counseling.
33:31Because I've been to regular counseling before.
33:34Let me ask you a question.
33:35This is not...
33:36I'm not trying to be derogatory.
33:37Ask the questions that you want to ask.
33:38Where's spirit come from?
33:39Why is she calling her spirit?
33:40That's her name.
33:41Oh.
33:42Obviously, she didn't come from you.
33:43Who is she?
33:44Well, I've actually known her for a lot of years.
33:45What was the first experience with her?
33:46Honestly, please.
33:47The first time that I had a conversation with her, and this was almost five years ago,
34:00and that's when Gabe passed away.
34:01Oh, no.
34:02It was very helpful.
34:05But I just wasn't ready.
34:07No, I couldn't.
34:08I wasn't ready.
34:09I'm asking you to marry me.
34:14Before I was married to Vaughn, I was married to Gabe for 14 and a half years.
34:19And we were on and off for the last few years.
34:22Mom!
34:23What the did that do to your hair?
34:25You don't like it?
34:26No!
34:27He loved me.
34:28He loved my family.
34:30They loved him in their own way.
34:32Put on some pants.
34:34Mm-mm-mm.
34:35What?
34:36Nobody want to see Dick Van Dyke all over the place?
34:39Right!
34:41After Gabe and I divorced, we stayed really good friends.
34:44And when he passed away from cancer, he was only 43 years old.
34:48And even though I was very happy with Vaughn at the time, and still am, the pain was unexpected
34:54because I lose someone who was a really big part of my family and the lives of my children.
34:59And that wasn't something I was ready for.
35:03So when you asked her to come, can you help my family?
35:05What did you ask her to help?
35:07I just knew, even from a short period of time, how she helped me.
35:10She asked questions that I didn't want to face at the time, but I knew that I had to.
35:13Okay.
35:14Well, can we get this show on the road?
35:15Because...
35:16All right.
35:17We're going to get this road on the show.
35:18I got to go upstairs and change my...
35:19I brought my stuff upstairs.
35:20Why do you have to change?
35:21Because I brought an outfit that Tracy gave to me.
35:24Oh, okay.
35:25Very Tracy-esque with it.
35:26Oh, that's what you're doing today.
35:27That's what I'm doing today.
35:28Okay.
35:29Let me tell you what I need.
35:30Let's make some tea.
35:31Let Trina go get dressed.
35:32When you come back down, we're going to set up over here and get all comfortable.
35:34So whatever is happening, we be ready.
35:36That part.
35:37Be he also ready.
35:38Yeah.
35:39Okay.
35:40Where's your fancy stuff?
35:41We got Tony Braxton stuff.
35:42We got T stuff.
35:43We got Tony Braxton stuff.
35:44Yeah, we'll get the Tony Braxton stuff.
35:45Okay.
35:46I do have a little bit of fancy Tony Braxton tea stuff.
35:50I'm a tea girl.
35:51I love tea parties.
35:52I like collecting tea sets.
35:54And Tamar, she loves it.
35:55Where are your Tony Braxton trays?
35:56I haven't been here in Atlanta in a second.
35:59I've been in LA working on, you know, that show stuff.
36:02You cannot find like paper cups and bowls and spoons in her house unless I bring it there.
36:07It's Tony Braxton.
36:08She got to spend the house.
36:09Like, what do you think she got?
36:12You got a tea towel.
36:13I have everything.
36:14I just don't know where it is.
36:16Oh, thank you, mommy.
36:17Oh, you look beautiful.
36:19Go, girl.
36:20You hear the doorbell?
36:22Trina, can you answer?
36:23Yes.
36:24Because I don't know her.
36:25I'm going to take off my robe.
36:26That would be nice.
36:27Come on, let's go sit down.
36:29Hurry up.
36:30Hurry up.
36:31Let's sit down.
36:32Come on, man.
36:33Why are we running?
36:34Because we want to be seated when she gets here.
36:36We're not late for class.
36:37Knocking, knocking.
36:38It's me and spirit.
36:40Okay, let's hold, Trina.
36:41Let's hold, Trina.
36:42And then let's go ahead and report all characters over here.
36:45Hurry up.
36:46Let's sit down.
36:47Come on.
36:48I don't get a lot of space.
36:49You got space right there.
36:50Nuh-uh.
36:51That's mine over here.
36:52Go ahead.
36:53Hey, guys.
36:54This is just to do final look.
36:55And then, Trina, you're walking with spirit, okay?
36:56Yes, sir.
36:57Hey, guys.
36:58Can you just slam in just to do final look?
36:59Oh, yeah.
37:00Yes, sir.
37:01And then, Trina, you're walking with spirit, okay?
37:02Yes, sir.
37:03Kevin Jr. is going to be on the Zoom.
37:04Okay.
37:05Oh, right.
37:06And Mr. Braxton is also going to be on the Zoom.
37:07Okay.
37:08He's still up?
37:09I know.
37:10My daddy's up.
37:11Daddy's up.
37:12He took a nap.
37:13Hey, everybody.
37:14Hey, everybody.
37:15Hey.
37:16That's mom.
37:17Hi.
37:18How are you?
37:19Hello.
37:20After the passing of Tracey, I'm going to go with spirit, okay?
37:22I'm going to go with spirit, okay?
37:23Yes, sir.
37:24Kevin Jr. is going to be on the Zoom.
37:25Okay.
37:26And Mr. Braxton is also going to be on the Zoom.
37:27Okay.
37:28Oh.
37:29And Mr. Braxton is also going to be on the Zoom.
37:30Okay.
37:31Oh.
37:32Okay.
37:33He's still up?
37:34My daddy's up.
37:35Daddy is up.
37:36He took a nap.
37:37Hey, everybody.
37:38Hey, everybody.
37:39Hey.
37:40Hey, everybody.
37:41Hey.
37:42Hey.
37:43Everybody's trying to deal with their pain.
37:46You okay?
37:47Is this my chair?
37:48Yes.
37:49That's your chair.
37:50I want them to have grief counseling because they need it, for God's sakes.
37:55I need extensive grief counseling also.
37:58Hey, Daddy.
37:59Hello.
38:00Hi, Dad.
38:01You all good?
38:03Daddy got his name tag.
38:06That is hilarious.
38:07He says Michael Braxton on his shirt.
38:11Hey, my mom.
38:12Hi, handsome.
38:13Hey, Kev.
38:14How are you?
38:15One of the things that I like to start off by saying is grief looks different for everybody,
38:21and sometimes we think that we're grieving one thing, and we start to pull on that, and
38:26then we realize that there's a whole lot of things that are connected to that, because
38:30grief is really just a feeling.
38:32But I'm wondering, since you're the person that called, tell me, what do you feel like you need help with?
38:41Can I not go first?
38:44Why don't you want to go first?
38:46Because I don't think I'm ready to say how I feel yet.
38:50Hmm.
38:51Okay.
38:52We're clearly nervous about this family grief counseling session, and the truth is we're not great communicators, okay?
39:00We don't know how to communicate with each other.
39:02We don't.
39:03We just shut down, and the next time we see each other, hey, but we ain't never talked about it.
39:07We just pushed it under the rug.
39:09I miss you all terribly.
39:11I'm worried that holding our feelings in would be the worst thing for us in the long run,
39:17so I think this is really needed.
39:23Okay.
39:24Who else?
39:25What are you all feeling?
39:31We've always dabbled in a little bit of family group therapy, and I think in a lot of cases it has worked.
39:36I love you girls.
39:38When we, as a family, go through therapy sessions, a lot of things are revealed, like things that have been suppressed,
39:49conversations that have been suppressed that we didn't deal with.
39:53So I don't think that today is going to be any different.
39:57Sometimes everybody is ready, and sometimes nobody really wants to.
40:01How are you guys feeling about being here tonight?
40:04I have no idea how to feel yet.
40:11So are we just kind of disconnected from our feelings?
40:13No, not disconnected.
40:14Maybe a little, but I haven't done grief management before, so I have no idea what to expect.
40:20Okay.
40:21How do I help you?
40:22I wish I could give you some answers.
40:25I want this to be what I like to call a no-judgment zone.
40:28I do not believe in pitting individuals against each other.
40:33I do not believe in creating conflict, and I do not believe that any individual is ever a problem in a situation.
40:41I believe that the problems are the problem, and it is up to you as a family to be able to work through those problems.
40:49It's shifted.
40:51It's gone past how we feel in this whole bereavement situation.
40:56I can't help you if you guys aren't clear on what you actually want to talk about as real problems.
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