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00:00The only way is up, baby, for you and me now.
00:09Ooh, ooh, ooh!
00:27Woo!
00:28Right, mats are already out, that's good.
00:30Great sign.
00:31And branches.
00:32Why the branches?
00:33For food.
00:34But where are the goats?
00:36What position do we go, doggy?
00:38You've got it!
00:40Oh, there's a big one.
00:42Just lay flat, Danny.
00:44Oh, my God.
00:46Hello.
00:48Just take what you want and leave.
00:50Hello, come on down onto your mat.
00:52Isn't yoga supposed to be relaxing?
00:54I don't like this brown one.
00:56No, seriously, this big brown one.
00:58Surrounded by the big ones.
01:06Who's surfing?
01:07Who there?
01:08I'm surfing, please.
01:09Thank you, Bill.
01:10Oh, love that.
01:11Love that, Bill.
01:12You up on that.
01:13Go on, Diggs.
01:14That's you.
01:15Oh!
01:16One-nil, one-nil.
01:17Yes, Bill!
01:18He's in!
01:19Oh, he's in!
01:20He's off!
01:21Pace on him.
01:22No, it's not that deep.
01:23The secret's not the key.
01:24Just ignore it.
01:25Is that his balls?
01:26Take this time just to settle.
01:27Just become familiar with your surroundings.
01:28What?
01:29Goats?
01:30Goats, indeed.
01:31Take your fingertips onto your shoulders.
01:32Circle your elbows.
01:33Oh, my God!
01:34I think they can seem scared.
01:35Oh, it's a noise.
01:36I think I've wet myself.
01:37What are you doing?
01:38I don't know.
01:39In continent pads.
01:40I don't know.
01:41I don't know.
01:42I'm done.
01:43I'm done.
01:44I'm done.
01:45I'm done.
01:46I'm done.
01:47I'm done.
01:48Well, that was a lot.
01:49That was a vent for warning.
01:50I loved it.
01:51I was sweating.
01:52I did love it.
01:53You were quite at one with it.
01:54I was impressed.
01:55Yeah, I was.
01:56I really zoned in and zen with the goats.
01:57You did.
01:58I did.
01:59I did.
02:00I did.
02:01I did.
02:02I did.
02:03I did.
02:04I did.
02:05I did.
02:06I did.
02:07I did.
02:08I did.
02:09I did.
02:10I did.
02:11I did.
02:12I did.
02:13I did.
02:14I did.
02:15I did.
02:16I did.
02:17I did.
02:18You did.
02:19How did you like it?
02:20No, I couldn't stand it.
02:21I had a horn in the face and trampled on by hooves.
02:25Honestly, it was horrendous.
02:27How can you honestly relax to that?
02:30Yeah.
02:31I did.
02:32At least I've laughed.
02:33It was so useful at the NFI party.
02:34Absolutely.
02:35Oh, it was amazing.
02:36Yeah.
02:37I thought initially it was hilarious, didn't I?
02:38I laughed when we were...
02:39It was quite funny.
02:40I thought make light of a bit of a shit time.
02:42Well, what's that good deal?
02:43On the actual date, it didn't actually go down very well.
02:45Oh, did it?
02:46No, because it's all well and good you going out and cheering up Saffron.
02:48Yeah.
02:49I think that isn't the issue.
02:50That was never the issue.
02:51I think it's more so that Courtney felt like it was made like a bit of a...
02:54Mockery.
02:55Like a mug off.
02:56Yeah, it was a mockery.
02:57Like a dig.
02:58Yeah, it was a dig.
02:59It's her 30th birthday.
03:00Obviously, yeah.
03:01I can assure everyone right now that this was not a dig.
03:05I did say you're not malicious.
03:06No, yeah.
03:07This was to put a smile on Safi Wappy's face.
03:09Well, look, she did leave the party and go on.
03:11She left the party.
03:12She was real.
03:13B-A.
03:14She's got shitty.
03:15No, but I think she felt upset because when you was a friend of parties,
03:18not invited, she feels like you was a peeking at her
03:20and she doesn't actually have, like, a problem with you.
03:22She was really upset.
03:23She was.
03:24It's been hard for her all week.
03:25Listen, I ain't got a problem with Courtney.
03:27I've got more of a problem with Harry after all of this.
03:30Oh, my God.
03:31Oh, my God, yeah, Harry.
03:32Well, hold on a minute.
03:33I don't...
03:34I don't want friendship anymore.
03:36Oh, really?
03:37Completely done with it.
03:38Dumb with it.
03:39But it is my nan's anniversary this week,
03:41so I've said to my dad, I want to mark it, you know,
03:44like, the first one.
03:45First anniversary.
03:46Yeah.
03:47Just do, like, an Easter thing, you know, like,
03:48pearly party.
03:49Oh, yeah.
03:50Should we get...
03:51What's the, um...
03:52What's the bunting?
03:53Like, the British bunting?
03:54Yeah, yeah, yeah.
03:55Let's do that.
03:56But I think I will invite Courtney.
03:58I think so.
03:59Yeah.
04:00That's a lovely idea.
04:01Cos me and Courtney, when that happened to my nan,
04:03I spoke to Courtney a lot,
04:05and that's where our bond come from, really.
04:07I'm not going to carry on this bad feeling.
04:09If you'll try just a little more times,
04:12I wouldn't make you a believer.
04:15I wouldn't show you what it's like.
04:21That's it.
04:22There we go.
04:23You're done.
04:24Oh!
04:25Have that.
04:26Oh!
04:27Have that!
04:28There you go.
04:29Oh!
04:30That's done.
04:31Eagle saw him through the air.
04:33Oi!
04:34Leave it, leave it.
04:35Oh!
04:36Tell you what, Diags has got games.
04:37This is right.
04:38I underestimated your Diags.
04:39I think this might be a sport that he's good at.
04:41See you.
04:42Turn that.
04:43Oh!
04:44Game.
04:45You're letting the team down now.
04:47Come on!
04:48Come on!
04:49Yes, Mo.
04:50Unbeaten,
04:51I'll tell you what.
04:52What a game.
04:53Great game.
04:54Paddle, Paddle, Paddle, Paddle, Paddle, Paddle.
04:57Paddle, Paddle, Paddle.
04:59Paddle, paddle.
05:00Paddle, Paddle, Paddle, Paddle.
05:01Paddle, Paddle, Paddle.
05:02Fields,andaag.
05:03Lad, spinning.
05:04Yes!
05:05Yes!
05:06You're all sweaty.
05:07You're all sweaty and dirty.
05:08Do you know what?
05:09Do you know what? I think Diags was the best player.
05:11I've never seen you stretch. You've got long arms.
05:13Can I just say one thing?
05:15Never played paddle once in my life. That was my first ever game.
05:18Well done. You've got a bit of tennis in you, haven't you?
05:20Yeah, I've got a bit of tennis in me, mate.
05:22Bit of Vandy, bit of fucking Roger.
05:24Enough of this, enough of this.
05:26It's just good to see Bill back.
05:28Thanks. Good to see you, man.
05:29Do you know what? It's nice to be out with the boys, actually.
05:31It is. Where have you been? I forgot what you look like.
05:33Where have you been?
05:34Just life in general. Babies.
05:36Renovation works, just everything.
05:39Oh, yeah, you've got your pool and that.
05:41When's a pool party?
05:42A couple of weeks.
05:43It's unbelievable and for the kids, it's amazing.
05:46But just, fuck me, the work that's taken, do you know what I mean?
05:49It's been like... You're not digging it yourself, are you?
05:51No!
05:52Mate, I probably could have dug it quicker, to be fair.
05:55How are you doing, Tammy?
05:56Getting there, mate.
05:57Has it taken your mind off things?
05:58Actually, as you know, I'm just at the point now
06:00where I'm just sort of, just leave that in the past, crap on.
06:03Mate, you've been all right. You was all right the other day at the party.
06:05Yeah, do you know what I mean? We had fun, didn't we? It was good.
06:06We made the best of a bad situation.
06:07Yeah, so...
06:08Wait, have you messaged her since we last spoke?
06:09Nah.
06:10Not spoke to her at all, just...
06:11Good.
06:12Listen, I'm not going to move on doing that, do you know what I mean?
06:13Listen, the best thing you can do is just stay busy,
06:15just take your mind off her and you'll be sweet.
06:17Hey!
06:18Cheers, angels!
06:19Woo!
06:20Woo!
06:21Woo!
06:22Snacks!
06:23Wow.
06:24I need help, I need help.
06:25Yep, perfect.
06:26Stand in.
06:27This is cool.
06:28This is just what we needed.
06:29So, the NFI party, I couldn't make it, I was at Spa, sorry.
06:34We were...
06:35Oh, you was missed, baby.
06:36What happened?
06:37Oh, my God, we had the best time.
06:38We actually had a very nice time.
06:39I need to know who the heist was or how stairs, like...
06:40Freddie.
06:41Makes sense.
06:42It was like we were going to do something to cheer Saffron up.
06:43Freddie's just up Saffron's ass up.
06:44I think doing it on Courtney's birthday, there was a little bit sorry.
06:45Nasty.
06:46Do you think?
06:47She's really upset.
06:48She's really upset.
06:49Yeah, for sure.
06:50Yeah, she's not.
06:51All right.
06:52Yeah, she's really upset.
06:53I'm not sorry.
06:54I'm sorry.
06:55So, the NFI party, I couldn't make it.
06:56I was at Spa, sorry.
06:57We were.
06:58Oh, you was missed, baby.
06:59What happened?
07:00Oh, my God, we had the best time.
07:01We actually had a very nice time.
07:02I need to know who the heist was or how stairs, like...
07:03Freddie.
07:04Makes sense.
07:05Saffron is just up Saffron's arse up.
07:06I think doing it on Courtney's birthday, though, was a little bit sorry.
07:09Nasty. Do you think?
07:10She's really upset, though. She's really upset.
07:12She's just come out of a long-term relationship.
07:15She's going through a lot with her family at the minute,
07:17and she just thought it was a bit disrespectful
07:20to do it on her actual birthday.
07:21Saffron has been very upset. Yeah, which I'm gutted about.
07:24I think the thing is with Saff, like, she loves Courtney a lot.
07:27She didn't think it would get this far with Courtney
07:29because they have got a special bond and they have spoken.
07:32Do you know what I mean? They've had a friendship.
07:34She's actually more sad about Courtney coming round.
07:37And doing that.
07:38I don't think there would have been an NFI party
07:39if we weren't all trying to cheer Saffron up,
07:41and I think that was the main purpose of the party.
07:43It wasn't, we're going to do a party to piss Amber and everyone else off.
07:46Yeah, no, I get that. It's a big birthday.
07:47When she looks back in years' time and she thinks about her 30th,
07:52but it was all posted all over social media, babes.
07:55And it's, like, laughing on the fact that you're not invited to her party.
07:58It just, like, it's a bit, yeah.
07:59Especially given the reason that most people who wasn't invited,
08:02you wouldn't invite her either.
08:04I hate to say it, but, I mean, the NFI party, what,
08:06it was me, Joe, Fred and Ella,
08:08and I think I could speak on behalf of me, Fred and Joe.
08:10I don't think we really care about Courtney.
08:12If you say I'm too much, baby, go find less.
08:16If you can't keep up, stay below, I guess.
08:20Is that your big deal?
08:22Maybe you're too little.
08:24Ooh, ooh, if you're too, too, too, too much for you.
08:27I feel like our snack range is always on point.
08:31Immaculate.
08:32You always sit there and order the best snacks, though.
08:34I am snack cream. I do take that.
08:36Oh, she-string.
08:38Oh, it's the best.
08:39I actually saw Freddie.
08:41Yeah.
08:42I went to Goat Yoga to Cheer Up Saffron.
08:44It was actually quite funny, to be fair.
08:46I wet myself a little bit.
08:48In my head, I was thinking Goat Yoga,
08:49that you would have, like, little cute goatees.
08:51No, it was the whole herd.
08:53But, yeah, I saw Freddie and I just said to him, I was like,
08:57you threw an NFI party for people that was never going to be invited.
09:00Yeah.
09:01And he was like, it was meant to just be to cheer up Saffron,
09:03obviously, it just become a thing.
09:04I get what they were trying to do, the being funny, whatever,
09:07but they just took it so far.
09:09And, like, I try my hardest with them to be like,
09:12oh, but Freddie's a nice person, he's a nice person,
09:14then he does that, and I'm just like, no, I'm just like, fuck you.
09:16They don't think about the repercussions
09:18that something like that will have on me.
09:20Like, I was saying I was really looking forward to my birthday
09:23because it's, like, the one day a year that the attention's on me
09:25and it's not about anyone else in my family
09:27or about anyone else, like, in my life.
09:29People are forgetting as well, this time last year
09:31was a very tough time for you, like.
09:32Yeah, I was crying the whole time when it was my birthday last year.
09:35Yeah.
09:36And, like, it was a bit insensitive for them to throw this NFI apart.
09:40I know to them it's funny, jokes, laugh,
09:41and it probably is to other people, but to me, like,
09:44I'm just very sensitive about it.
09:45Obviously, I knew it wasn't with malice with Freddie,
09:47I knew he didn't mean it maliciously,
09:48but obviously, it just looked like a bit of a mug off
09:51and a mockery, really.
09:52So, did you actually know that is meant to be a monster, not a foot?
09:55I always thought that was a foot.
09:57Always a foot.
09:58It's always... It's always been a foot.
10:00Saffron's messaged me.
10:02What she said.
10:03What do you mean?
10:04What do you mean?
10:06Very...
10:08Hey, Colt, hope you had a nice birthday.
10:10It's my nan's year anniversary this week
10:12and I'm having a get-together to remember her.
10:14You was one of the first people I spoke to when I lost my nan
10:17and know you can relate. Hopefully see you there.
10:20Aw, that's a nice message.
10:21Cos I know, like, regardless, I know how close she was to her nan,
10:24and I know that we went through that exact same thing
10:26at the exact same time.
10:28Yeah.
10:29And you was each other's, like, safety blanket when that comes to it,
10:32cos you could relate to each other about it.
10:34I feel like that's what made us get closer as well.
10:35She said that today as well. She said, like,
10:37we really bonded over that.
10:38Like, that was where the bonding come from.
10:40Mm. I'll definitely be there.
10:42Yeah, I knew you would. Yeah, I think that would be really nice.
10:45Yeah.
10:46May your heart be open.
10:54The only way is love.
10:57Don't be lonely.
11:00You're the sun in.
11:04Open heart, eh.
11:07Hold your baby.
11:09Aw.
11:10She's too much.
11:12She's too much.
11:14Oh, woo-hoo.
11:15Get down, Ma.
11:16Yeah.
11:17We're done, Emma.
11:19Woo-hoo!
11:20Let's go!
11:22Woo-hoo!
11:23We've got our eggs there.
11:26We're in.
11:27Yay!
11:34Right, nice cold can of pops up.
11:36Yes, please, love.
11:38It is all going on over here, George.
11:40Hurry up, cos I need you.
11:41I'm coming.
11:42I'm coming.
11:43I'm coming.
11:44I've got a bit of news here.
11:46Oh.
11:47It's a nice sound, that, isn't it?
11:49That is a lovely sound.
12:01Whoa!
12:02It's a car Ferris wheel.
12:03Have you been on a Ferris wheel before?
12:05Yeah.
12:06Yeah.
12:07Was it fun, or was you scared?
12:09Fun.
12:10Yeah.
12:11Can you talk to me?
12:12Can you talk to Mummy?
12:14Can you talk to Mummy?
12:15What can you say?
12:18Oh, am I boring you?
12:19Shall we go see Mummy and Marley?
12:21Shall we bring it to Mummy?
12:23Come then.
12:24Where's Hudson?
12:26Hey?
12:28I can hear him.
12:29Oh, hello.
12:30We've got all the people on the Ferris wheel.
12:32Hello, babe.
12:33Darling.
12:34You all right?
12:35Yeah.
12:36Hi.
12:37How are you?
12:38Good.
12:39Just made you a tea.
12:40Oh, nice.
12:41Lovely service.
12:42Yeah.
12:43On the point.
12:44I'm a pro.
12:45Yeah.
12:46I'm a pro.
12:47Yeah.
12:48I'm a pro.
12:49Yeah.
12:50Hello babe. Darling. You all right? Yeah. Hi. How are you? Good. Just made you a tea.
12:58Oh, nice. Lovely service. On the point. Come through.
13:13Can I just tell you I've got some really good news?
13:16Go on. You're pregnant.
13:18No, but work-wise now, obviously, everything that's been going on,
13:24I've got a couple of free months before you say something.
13:28So, wait, does that mean that we can get cracking and get booking?
13:31Tell me what you're thinking. Right, OK, this is good.
13:34We're on the same page. I'm enjoying. Go on.
13:36So, I've sent out some feels to the clinic. Yeah.
13:39And I've just been, like, throwing some dates and stuff at them.
13:43So, they basically said, we can't do the month, the month that's coming up.
13:47Yeah, yeah. But we can do a little bit later on. Right.
13:50Which isn't that far away. No, but I think that's, like I said,
13:52I'd rather get it all done when all the staff are there.
13:55All my work stuff, pray to God, is sorted by then.
13:57We're good to go. Right. That date there? Yeah.
14:00Shall we do it? Yeah. Yeah? Yeah, it's exciting. Is it happening?
14:03Yeah, it's exciting. Yeah, it's happening.
14:04All right, OK, right, all right. Go.
14:05Right, reply. Right, OK.
14:07Hi, Olympia. Just to let you know, yes, that date is absolutely fine with me.
14:11And, Jordan, we are really looking forward to it.
14:14Can't wait for the next step of this fertility journey.
14:17So, yeah, thank you.
14:20Well, it's done. It's done.
14:23Give me a kiss. Wow, I love you.
14:25I love you. This is really exciting.
14:27Why don't we have a really positive day here?
14:29We can tell everybody what we've done today.
14:31Your mum's down here now. Yeah.
14:33Why don't we have all the mums round here?
14:35For a barbecue. For a barbecue.
14:37Abso-fucking-lutely. All our pals, the mums.
14:40Yeah. Get Julie round with Amy.
14:42Oh, that would be amazing.
14:43Because Julie's obviously not been great.
14:44Julie and my mum. It would be insane.
14:45Introduce your mum to all the Essex mums.
14:47God help her.
15:03What's been going on? I've not seen you all in ages.
15:06Yeah, because we've been so busy.
15:08Go on, tell me all about it, Holly.
15:12Tell me what's been happening.
15:14Is she like me?
15:15She is your double.
15:16Because we've been so busy.
15:18What's been happening? Tell me.
15:20So, the swimming pool's done now.
15:22Yeah. I've been in the swimming pool.
15:24Do you mean the swimming pool, Elmer?
15:25Do you love it? Yeah.
15:27I think you will love it when I have a staycation with you.
15:30Staycation? Can't wait.
15:32Honestly, it's been...
15:33The house has been a little bit stressful,
15:35like, with the pool going in.
15:36But we have been getting out on Monday date days.
15:39Oh, I love you.
15:40Which has been really nice now.
15:41Yeah, we have been.
15:42It's our little Monday club where we try somewhere new.
15:44We go somewhere different and we've not been.
15:45Oh, my God, that's unreal.
15:46Oh, God, that's so nice.
15:47You didn't tell me that.
15:48Yes.
15:49I love that.
15:50Yeah.
15:51I was over at Paddle with the boys.
15:53Obviously, Sammy was over there.
15:54Oh, yeah. How is he?
15:57Look, I think he's doing all right.
15:58I think he's pretty cut up, though, I think, about you two.
16:02Mm.
16:03I think it sort of affected him a little bit.
16:05Obviously, I know you've drawn a line under it and you're still friends.
16:08Which is nice.
16:09Yeah, he's good.
16:10Do you know what I mean?
16:11I thought that we were on talking terms where we could, like, send each other messages
16:13and that.
16:14And he didn't reply to my last lot of messages.
16:16And then when I spoke to Safran briefly, she was like, yeah, he said that the boys have
16:19told him not to message me back because it's unhealthy.
16:22Because, obviously, he still has a lot of feelings there.
16:25When you hear that, I think probably for you, it's probably for the best then if you've
16:27got a bit of communication.
16:28Yeah.
16:29Yeah.
16:30Yeah, I do agree.
16:31I think, yeah.
16:32Because I can't really, I can't, I can't make him be my friend if he doesn't want to
16:35be my friend.
16:36And I can't, I can't push to keep having conversations with him.
16:38Don't get me wrong.
16:39There's times that things happen or I see someone and I want to send you a message.
16:44Oh, careful.
16:47Mind Delma, please.
16:49But I just think that's just part and parcel of it.
16:52Time's a healer, innit?
16:53Time's a healer, innit?
16:54Time's a healer, innit?
16:55For a relationship right at the start, to spend 24 hours a day with each other, it's
16:59so heightened.
17:00Yeah, three weeks feels like three months, obviously.
17:01Yeah, that's what I mean.
17:02So, I suppose, you know, there's probably a lot of feelings there that are generated
17:06quite quickly.
17:07You know, but look, if it's friends, it's friends.
17:09Yeah.
17:10You know, and you've been straight, so...
17:11For me, you can't tell anyone how to feel.
17:14Yeah.
17:15If you felt that way, you felt that way, do you know what I mean?
17:16Yeah, look, some people fall...
17:18A lot harder.
17:19Yeah, a bit quicker, do you know what I mean?
17:21That ain't it for me, so...
17:22Yeah.
17:23You know?
17:24That's why she did, actually.
17:25And it's always hard to see you when I wish you were ready, yeah.
17:30Always hard to leave you when I miss you everywhere.
17:34Make him jump.
17:35Make Marley jump.
17:36And this one in there.
17:38Oh, no, I don't need you, but I miss you, come here.
17:42I just feel like everything's been so hectic since my birthday.
17:45Go on.
17:46What's happened?
17:47So, Chloe and Saffron had a falling out, and she was obviously meant to come to my party.
17:51Obviously, I didn't want any awkward vibes on my birthday.
17:55I just thought maybe it was the best decision to say to Saffron, just like, sit this one out.
18:00Obviously, it was really hard.
18:01Like, I hate doing stuff like that.
18:02Oh, my God.
18:03Then led to this other group of people who I'm not really that friendly with to throw an NFI party.
18:08What's that?
18:09And not a freaking invited party.
18:11Oh!
18:12Sorry, Marley.
18:13I made you jump.
18:14And not a freaking invited party.
18:16Yeah.
18:17I've had such a hard year.
18:19Yeah.
18:20Like, a tough year.
18:21And, like, I put everyone before myself.
18:23Like, I put my family before myself, everyone.
18:25And my birthday was one day a year.
18:27Yeah.
18:28That's just about me.
18:29And I was basically saying, like, I get that people forget what's going on in other people's lives.
18:34We're living in it every single day.
18:36And, like, just thought it was really insensitive of them to throw an NFI party over my big 30th birthday weekend.
18:42Yeah, salve order.
18:43And people don't look at the bigger picture.
18:45They might not know what you've been going through.
18:48I don't know.
18:49Maybe they haven't.
18:50And hopefully they feel bad.
18:51Yeah.
18:52Oh.
18:53Bye.
18:54You're a good boy, aren't you, Marley?
18:57But you're just happy to be with Mummy, aren't you?
18:59Are you happy being with Mummy?
19:01Yeah.
19:02How is Marley?
19:05He's all right.
19:06He's doing good.
19:07We had a couple of incidents last week with, like, seizure control.
19:10And it's just managing them and knowing when they come.
19:13And, you know, it's just, it's been hard.
19:17And he loves all his therapy.
19:19So we do, like, Hydro.
19:21And he loves music therapy.
19:23He does that once a week at Haven House.
19:25Yeah, they've been amazing, haven't they?
19:27Amazing.
19:28They've been so good.
19:29Can I come and sit on my lap?
19:31Yeah.
19:32And you, you're honestly amazing.
19:34How you're now a mum with three boys and you handle everything.
19:37I try to.
19:38I try.
19:39I always say I look up to you.
19:40You're my big sister.
19:41But I do look up to you.
19:43Thanks.
19:44You're my best friend, my sister.
19:46Aww.
19:47Yeah.
19:48No, we're very lucky we've got each other.
19:49Yeah.
19:50And we're such a close family.
19:51I know.
20:08What's been happening?
20:09A lot.
20:10Every time we see each other we just know.
20:15What's up?
20:16Yeah, it ain't been good.
20:17What's going on?
20:18I've got to get straight into it.
20:20We've got part.
20:21I'll tell you a summary in my weeks.
20:23OK.
20:24It ain't been very good.
20:25Then I had to go goat yoga just to calm down.
20:27What?
20:28Sorry?
20:29I went goat yoga yesterday.
20:31What's that?
20:32Yoga with the goats.
20:34Goats can't do yoga?
20:36No.
20:37But I can.
20:38And they were just walking round me.
20:39I know it's been a lot though, isn't it, lately?
20:41Yeah.
20:42I have not been here.
20:43I wasn't at the NFI.
20:44What was it?
20:45I need to stay away from that energy at the minute.
20:46I've got a lot going on.
20:47Yeah.
20:48It's my nan's anniversary this week.
20:49Yeah, I know.
20:50Yeah.
20:51It's not worth it, is it?
20:52No.
20:53Like, you've got your own trauma going on.
20:55Mm.
20:56And grief, which I can relate with.
20:58It's never left my mind.
20:59It doesn't.
21:00It's so raw.
21:01No, you don't realise it.
21:02Yeah.
21:03You won't contrary thinking of it.
21:04No.
21:05But it changes you.
21:06You've probably come across the type of way.
21:07Yeah.
21:08This time of year is so hard.
21:09Yeah.
21:10And people deal with it differently.
21:11I probably haven't managed the fallout as I would have.
21:13Yeah.
21:14Because I've been crying all the time.
21:15I know.
21:16That ain't me.
21:17See?
21:18The Bondi woman and not many people do have their grandparents.
21:19No, no, don't.
21:20She was like a second mum to me.
21:21Exactly.
21:22How beautiful you've had that.
21:23Yeah.
21:24But, obviously, the goodbye was terrible.
21:26Awful.
21:27And your grief, you have, like, strong boundaries and you change.
21:31Yeah.
21:32And you don't tolerate stuff because life's too short.
21:33Yeah.
21:34It changes me and I'm like, but I'm fine.
21:36But it comes out in other ways.
21:38So, when's Lorena's...?
21:39The 8th.
21:40Next week.
21:41Oh, yeah.
21:42So, it's a similar time.
21:43Yeah.
21:44I think, what would she look like now?
21:45What would she look like, yeah.
21:46What would she be doing?
21:47And I feel that's the hardest part.
21:51It's not like I've had a life with her.
21:54No.
21:55And lost and I've got the memories.
21:56Yeah.
21:57I have to imagine it.
21:58You're doing it the other way.
21:59And what was her eye colour?
22:00Yeah.
22:01Because I never saw her eyes.
22:03When Lorena passed, did you just come straight home from that?
22:08No.
22:09I don't want to go into it all because it's quite a lot,
22:12but I stayed the night at the hospital.
22:16And we went to, like, a hotel room.
22:19Yeah.
22:20And we had Lorena.
22:21They obviously...
22:22They give you time with...
22:23Yeah.
22:24So, next morning, I didn't know what was going on,
22:27what I had pictures done with her.
22:29But I'm so grateful for that.
22:30Yeah.
22:31That was a charity thing.
22:32At the time, I was like, what?
22:33Yeah.
22:34And then, erm, passed her over.
22:38Oh, my God.
22:39And then you come home and, yeah, with no baby.
22:46Yeah.
22:49Weird.
22:50Numb.
22:51Horrible.
22:52But it's hard, innit?
22:54You get it?
22:55You understand that?
22:56Yeah, of course I do.
22:57That grief.
22:58It's your first...
22:59It's a different grief.
23:00Different?
23:01Different grief, but...
23:02It's still a trauma.
23:03Yeah.
23:04And it's still that pain and that missing.
23:06Well, listen, at least we've found each other.
23:10I know.
23:11Always.
23:12We've got...
23:13Listen, for the short time we've known each other...
23:14I know.
23:15We get each other.
23:16I feel very comfortable with you.
23:17Yeah.
23:18And we have a laugh and...
23:19I know.
23:20When I ask you things, you're like, oh, I'm like that.
23:21Yeah.
23:22And I'm like, really?
23:23I've never met anyone as mad as me.
23:24We'll be sharing a room on the next holiday.
23:26I would love to.
23:28Yeah, we will.
23:29Joan Janay said no one would ever share with me.
23:31Oh, I will.
23:32Just know I need you more.
23:36The only way is love.
23:41I wanna go where the lights are low when you hold my bones like a miracle.
23:46I wanna know when I'm far from home that you'll help me find my own.
23:50Let's try love.
23:55Let's try love.
23:57Oh, Shai.
23:59Hey.
24:00Nothing.
24:01Hello.
24:02Hey.
24:03I come bearing some flowers.
24:04Aww.
24:06Hello, Ray.
24:07And some tarts.
24:08That's so sweet.
24:09Oh.
24:10They're unreal.
24:11That's stunning.
24:12I was gonna bake a cake, but I cheated.
24:14No, they don't.
24:15Oh, I'm so happy.
24:16I love you.
24:17I love you.
24:18I love you.
24:19Let's try love.
24:20Let's try love.
24:21Let's try love.
24:22Let's try love.
24:25Let's try love.
24:27I bet you can't wait for a sausage.
24:29So let's try love, let's try love.
24:34Let's try love.
24:36Can I do it?
24:37It's got sausage in your hand.
24:39Nothing unusual, is it?
24:40Let's try love.
24:41Let's try love, let's try love, let's try love.
24:44Hi.
24:45Hello.
24:46It's all right.
24:47You're good.
24:48Let's try love.
24:49So let's try love, let's try love.
24:52Yeah.
24:53Yeah.
24:54So let's try love.
24:55So keep still.
24:56Keep your head in.
24:57Let's try love.
24:58Who's just moved?
24:59Daniel, get back in.
25:00We need to get Daniel.
25:01Daniel.
25:02Daniel.
25:03Come in.
25:04Cheers, everyone.
25:05Woo!
25:06I love this song about you.
25:10So I just want to say thank you for all coming today.
25:12It's a year since my nan passed and as you can see, she was glam.
25:17So glam.
25:18She brought the glam.
25:20Well, obviously, I miss her.
25:23But I'm lucky that I had such a bond.
25:28Some people don't have that.
25:29I'm lucky I've had such a bond with someone that was more than a nan, really.
25:34And I know that in this situation that's been going on, she would have been there.
25:38So it has been hard because I would have gone to her and she would have told me, tell
25:42them to go elsewhere, because that's where I've got it from.
25:45That's right.
25:46That's a polite version.
25:47Yeah.
25:48That was a polite version.
25:49So, if we could just all raise a toast to nan.
25:53Nanny Jen.
25:54Nanny Jen.
25:55Love you, nan.
25:56Miss you.
25:57She'll be so proud of you, sir.
26:00Oh, dear.
26:01We love you, Sophie.
26:02We love you.
26:03You done well.
26:04Thank you so much.
26:05She'd be so proud as well.
26:06She will be so proud of you.
26:08It's been a lovely afternoon.
26:10I know.
26:11Yeah, it has.
26:12Thank you so much for coming.
26:13It's been lovely, isn't it?
26:14We loved coming, sir.
26:15It's so nice that we can celebrate your nan.
26:16Yeah.
26:17Obviously, it's not a nice situation, but...
26:18It's better than sitting indoors.
26:19100%.
26:20And what a beautiful day.
26:21I think, as well, with, like, everything that's been going on the last few weeks with
26:22you, like, it's been so much.
26:23Yeah.
26:24This is, like, a nice...
26:25It's, like, a bittersweet, isn't it?
26:26It's, like, remembering, which is quite sad, but also nice to, like, move forward with
26:27you as well.
26:28Yeah, exactly.
26:29And I think we've all been there.
26:30You are going through it.
26:31You are like your nan.
26:32Yeah, everyone's like that.
26:33Oh, my God.
26:34100%.
26:35Yeah, everyone's like that.
26:36Oh, my God.
26:37100%.
26:38Thank you so much for coming.
26:39It's been lovely, isn't it?
26:47It's a picture.
26:48I'm just glad.
26:49It's fun, isn't it?
26:50Very big...
26:51Yeah.
26:52...Essex personality.
26:53East end.
26:54I love it.
27:13Oh, lovely.
27:14There you go, Mum.
27:15Thanks, Harry.
27:16Oh, all good.
27:17What a nice day.
27:18Oh, how lovely's here?
27:19I feel like this weather is, like, the best summer we've ever had.
27:22It is.
27:23Like, I can't remember the last time it's been this hot in England.
27:25How lovely, though.
27:26I know.
27:27All everyone here today.
27:28All the mums here.
27:29I love coming to this house as well.
27:30This house...
27:31You're lucky I am here today because I should have been on the flower stall.
27:33I've got a new job.
27:34You've got a new job, Artie?
27:35Yeah.
27:36Oh, lovely.
27:37On the flower stall.
27:38I absolutely love it.
27:39I've never seen someone have so many jobs, so it's nice to see...
27:42It's nice to see that she's got something that she's gone back to her roots doing.
27:45She's got more jobs in the job centre, ain't she, Harry?
27:47No, she has.
27:48Well, I try.
27:49I do try.
27:50I've never met someone so busy.
27:51I ring her up what you're doing today.
27:52Right, I've got the kids today, then tomorrow I'm on the flower stall.
27:55Then she's going somewhere else.
27:56Then she's cleaning.
27:57Then she's cleaning.
27:58But everyone thinks I'm really lazy because you clean for me.
28:00Do they?
28:01Yeah.
28:02I said it the other day and I said to all the girls, I said, oh, my mum comes and cleans
28:06for me.
28:07They went, what?
28:08Yeah, but it's because I live...
28:09No, but it's because we live in the same block.
28:10We live in the same block.
28:11When Harry has a hot date, like, one day and you're looking at the door, Aunty, I think
28:14he might think, okay, we run at the door.
28:16I never ever go down when I know he's got a hot date.
28:18I never interfere.
28:19I've never had a hot date.
28:21I'm just saying.
28:22We need to start going on a few dates, I think, personally.
28:24How are you, though, Aunty?
28:26Yeah, no, I'm all good.
28:27Yeah, I'm all good.
28:28What's the update with their heart?
28:30Yeah, just still chilling.
28:32Your mum's working.
28:33I'm just chilling.
28:34But you feel all right?
28:35You'll be fine.
28:36Does she look amazing, though, Mum?
28:37She does.
28:38Unbelievable.
28:39You look amazing.
28:40Your skin looks lovely.
28:41You look so well, Mum.
28:42We're going to go to the Cotsworts in the summer, aren't we?
28:44Definitely.
28:45Yeah.
28:46And remember now, Mum, we have got the pool.
28:47Yeah, Mum looks like Marbella at your house now.
28:49Yeah, Mum, come by the door, she looks like Marbella.
28:51I've got all the day beds now.
29:05Right, listen, everyone, I've cooked the food.
29:06Come on, ladies, top in.
29:08This looks scrum-dilly-umptious.
29:11I feel like yous always do the best barbecues.
29:13Good chips.
29:18Someone has Nixon cake, though.
29:19Yeah.
29:20It's definitely you.
29:21It was.
29:22Show me underneath your fingernails, cos that's been done with fingers.
29:24Oh!
29:25It was me.
29:26Really?
29:27I just had to try it to make sure, like, it was nice for you.
29:29No food poisoning.
29:30Really nice.
29:31Do you want some cake?
29:32Do you want a bit of cake?
29:33Yeah, please.
29:34Yeah, let's have some cake.
29:35I think it's well-deserved after the day.
29:36I know.
29:37What a lovely afternoon.
29:38Days like the day make me happy.
29:40Just seeing you in Essex, Mum, Sam, yeah?
29:42Yeah.
29:43It just...
29:44Oh, look at that.
29:45Thank you, darling.
29:46That's amazing.
29:48It just makes us happy.
29:49Yeah, it's so nice, isn't it?
29:50All just all to be together.
29:51Yeah.
29:52How are you finding it, living down here now?
29:53You're actually...
29:54Can we just...
29:55Can we just appreciate this?
29:56I've never made an Essex girl out of my girlfriend.
29:57Yeah.
29:58I've never made an Essex girl out of my mother-in-law.
29:59You didn't just get one, you got the mother as well.
30:01That's great.
30:02Yeah.
30:03Are you happier down here?
30:04Yeah, I'm really happy I'm down here.
30:05And it's all just worked out, hasn't it?
30:07And it's just worked out, and I've never seen you so happy in your whole life.
30:11Yeah, I agree.
30:12We've actually got some news for you, too.
30:13Right.
30:14My wife's not pregnant.
30:15No, no, I'm not.
30:16I've got a preceptive.
30:17I mean, that would have been unreal.
30:19Yeah.
30:20But we have booked our fertility treatment.
30:23Yeah.
30:24So we're actually going.
30:25It's booked.
30:26It's finally booked.
30:27We're going the first week of September.
30:29So Soph's body, at the minute, well, for two and a half years now, has got such an
30:34overactive immune system, not towards everything, like with being ill, it's a completely different
30:38immune system.
30:39This is your immune system towards being pregnant, getting pregnant and your fertility.
30:43Towards sperm.
30:44So my sperm goes into Soph's body, Soph's body instantly thinks it's a foreign body
30:48and a foreign organism, so kills it and rejects it straight away.
30:51Rather than normally a woman's body would accept it, make an embryo, put the coat around
30:55it and that.
30:56So now, basically what they have to do, they're going to take my blood and they're going to
31:01take my...
31:02Are you going to be okay with that?
31:03No, I'm not going to be okay with that, Mum.
31:04I don't like these.
31:05But we're doing what's best for us.
31:06It's white blood cells.
31:07So they take the white blood cells, all the good white blood cells and they make a vaccine
31:11and at skin level they administer it to Soph.
31:14So you get like...
31:15So Soph's body.
31:16I think it's like six injections and you get them really lightly under the skin.
31:20So Soph effectively becomes more of me, so when the sperm enters her body, her body recognises
31:25it, doesn't kill it and makes the embryo and makes it its own.
31:28It's crazy, isn't it?
31:29Because I was 12 weeks when my body tried to reject it.
31:33Sam, that is mental.
31:34Yeah.
31:35It's not crazy.
31:36It's very, very similar.
31:37Do you know what his blood type is?
31:38No.
31:39He should know though.
31:40Yeah.
31:41I don't know.
31:42He doesn't like needles.
31:43But you've got to get used to that long.
31:45It's very, very similar.
31:46I love how that you can now go and explore all that and you can get all that done.
31:50It feels like there's a weight off the shoulders.
31:52It gives you hope.
31:53We've got a call with the doctor next week, I think.
31:54Yeah.
31:55I think we should have a little cheers to her doctor, don't we?
31:57Yeah.
31:58Cheers to baby Brooke.
31:59Yeah.
32:00Cheers to baby Brooke.
32:01Yeah.
32:02Cheers to baby Brooke.
32:03Oh, oh, sweet.
32:06Cheers to me.
32:08The only way is love.
32:11Ooh, Mr. Electric Blue.
32:16I know.
32:17I wanna dance like you.
32:20Nothing's better than slugging your partner off to his mum.
32:23I mean, if anyone knows who a James Bond.
32:25I do.
32:26Do you know what is wrong with him?
32:27If you tell him something, he cries like a little baby.
32:30Right, so he cries at anything?
32:32Well, say if we're having a little bit of a disagreement, he will sob about it.
32:36For God's sake.
32:37He really feels sorry for himself.
32:38We need to get to know each other.
32:40Because, aren't we gonna talk James out if we don't know each other?
32:43I know.
32:44We can tag team out.
32:45Yeah.
32:46So he doesn't listen to me and I know he'll listen to you.
32:48And if he's got both of us, get him in a...
32:50Because it takes more than one of us to deal with James.
32:52Oh, I know.
32:53He's a man's man.
32:55A good, hard-working American.
32:58But he ain't the guy you'd wanna fight.
33:02Do you only do?
33:03I've never tried one.
33:04Right, try one right now.
33:05No, stop it.
33:06Right, how do you eat this?
33:07Right, so you get it like that.
33:09Yeah.
33:10Oh my...
33:11Oh, actually.
33:15Come on.
33:16Oh, what'd you eat?
33:17So, right, so that's the bone.
33:19So hold it there.
33:20So do you want to eat this bit?
33:21Yeah.
33:22Oh!
33:23My mouth's making me feel...
33:24Come on.
33:27Right.
33:28It's making me gag.
33:31Stop.
33:33You're making me gag, Jan, stop.
33:35That I didn't.
33:36You're having more!
33:41You like it?
33:42Oh, I do.
33:43What?
33:44You're making me gag.
33:45Ah!
33:46Jan!
33:47The way you're eating that.
33:48No!
33:49You like it?
33:50You like it?
33:51Mmm.
33:52Bit of vinegar on it.
33:53Oh, that's actually not bad, guys.
33:54Really?
34:02Sorry I was late.
34:03How we doing?
34:04Good.
34:05Good.
34:06We've had a long convo about you.
34:07About me?
34:08Good stuff.
34:09Yeah.
34:10We're going to have to get Jodie involved in the family.
34:12Yeah.
34:13Because we don't know her.
34:14It's not fair.
34:15People ask me, what's James' girlfriend like?
34:17Oh, she's cool.
34:18And I say, I don't know.
34:19She's pretty cool.
34:20I am.
34:21Yeah.
34:22You better be.
34:23And my mum's pretty cool as well.
34:24Yeah, you better be cool.
34:25She's pretty cool.
34:26Because you're with my son.
34:27So I'd like to think that we can get to all know each other a little bit better.
34:30No, listen, I'm not...
34:31Mum, I know.
34:32I know, I know, I know.
34:33And also, I don't know Bear.
34:34I don't know nothing about him.
34:36He's four years old, about yay high.
34:37Yeah, and?
34:38He's lovely.
34:39He's fun.
34:40No, it's more than that.
34:41I'm joking, obviously.
34:42I've got a present for Bear that I had over two years ago, which was a dinosaur with an
34:46easter egg.
34:47Unfortunately, I've eaten the easter egg.
34:49So he's now only got the dinosaur, which I have named Denzel, by the way.
34:53That's fine.
34:54He would absolutely love that.
34:55James.
34:56As you was late, my friend.
34:57Thank you very much, Joel.
34:58Saved you two of the five.
34:59Oh, I haven't even eaten today.
35:00You've just saved him, Jordan.
35:01I'll sort us out something nice next week.
35:03Yeah.
35:04Why don't we get your mum to come?
35:05Yeah, that'd be nice.
35:06Because I haven't even met Jodie's mum.
35:07I know.
35:08We need to all now just become a big family.
35:10When you actually think about it, if you put it down on paper, we've been together almost,
35:12what, two and a half years?
35:13Yeah.
35:14Longer.
35:15We've got the family going on between us, but we need to just get everybody else involved.
35:19We need to branch out.
35:20Yeah.
35:21And then I'll be much happier when I get to know Jodie better.
35:24Yep.
35:25Because then I know when you're being a pain in the backside, I know where Jodie's coming
35:28from.
35:29No, this is why I was a little bit nervous to come here today, because I was thinking,
35:32oh my God, we hardly know each other.
35:34I know you had to deal with him when he was really sad.
35:36And obviously you only knew, like, one side of everything.
35:39Not that any of us were in the wrong, but we both dealt with things like, shut up.
35:43We both dealt with it a little bit differently.
35:46I did nothing wrong, Mum.
35:47Oh, shut up.
35:48I would never, do you know what I mean?
35:49James.
35:50It was all I couldn't believe it.
35:52Well, I'm glad that you're both happy.
35:54That's the main thing.
35:55We're good.
35:56We're really good.
35:57And then where do you think this is going to go?
35:58At the moment, I'm in a situation with Dan, having a really good time living with Dan,
36:01now that we're in there.
36:02And then obviously the future will be that we live with each other.
36:05Jodie's possibly going to maybe come off contraception after Christmas.
36:10OK.
36:11And then, yeah, go from there.
36:13So that's some big moves.
36:14So you have to make sure that you really are settled, the two of you,
36:17and that all that nonsense that went on before isn't going to happen again.
36:20Well, that's why I've waited this long.
36:21OK.
36:22Because I wasn't sure at first.
36:23I'm not going to lie.
36:24I told you that, didn't I?
36:25It's right to be.
36:26You can't just go straight back into it and think it's going to be,
36:27everything's going to be like...
36:28No, of course.
36:29Well, also there's Bear to think about.
36:30So if you're going to make these moves, you've got to make acts.
36:32But you and Bear's relationship is, like, perfect now, isn't it?
36:36Yeah.
36:37Bear loves me.
36:38He does.
36:39He loves him so much.
36:40Yeah.
36:41I don't hear anything about a wedding here.
36:42Right.
36:43So we're just jumping straight ahead to the second child.
36:46Well, I would love a ring.
36:47Yeah.
36:48Or a pregnancy.
36:49Well, that would be a good idea.
36:51That would be a great idea.
36:52I think someone's calling my name from somewhere.
36:54I'm sure I can hear it in the wind.
36:55Hello, people.
36:56Hello, Daniel.
36:57Hello.
36:58Nice to see you guys.
36:59Wendy.
37:00Hi, darling.
37:01Mwah.
37:02Everything, you good?
37:03Hi, darling.
37:04Mwah.
37:05So how's it going on in the flat with you two?
37:06How's it getting on?
37:07Perfect.
37:08It is going well.
37:09It is going well.
37:10I don't know, the other week we sort of had a conversation about
37:12you weren't quite so tidy as Danny's.
37:14No, he's getting better.
37:15His levels of tidiness are a mental, mate.
37:17It's like being in a doctor's surgery.
37:19OK.
37:20Well, he did say the other day, because I spoke to him,
37:22because I speak to both the boys pretty much every day,
37:24and he did say,
37:25I'm all the way home, Mum.
37:26I did tidy up, but Dan's coming home today,
37:28so I'm actually going back to tidy up again.
37:30True.
37:31Where are you with girlfriend thing?
37:33Come on.
37:34Spill the beans.
37:35I'm single.
37:36Oh, I liked Ella.
37:38That girl could cook.
37:39She's beautiful.
37:41Yeah.
37:42We tried a few times, it just wasn't working.
37:44It's probably the toughest thing I've walked away from,
37:47because for once it's not like we're falling out.
37:49You can't carry on just flitting in and out.
37:52No, I can't.
37:53I need to, I want to settle down.
37:54I want to find that person, of course.
37:56I think also with Dan is that the same with James, really,
37:59is that they've both come from what they call a broken home.
38:02I'm guessing, I don't know, that from Dan's point of view,
38:05he wants to get it right.
38:06Yeah.
38:07From my experience, marriage doesn't, more often than not,
38:12doesn't work out in my own...
38:13Well, it's a bit sad, because you have to, like, go for it.
38:16You have to believe in it.
38:17Yeah, of course.
38:18And marriage is a really good thing.
38:19If you feel that way about someone, it should be something that happens.
38:22But there's always a chance that it won't work.
38:25Don't be put off by that.
38:26Don't let that ruin what you're looking for,
38:29because that's wrong.
38:30Have faith in it.
38:31Because I don't think you think you're worth it, and you are.
38:34Fred, how are you feeling with Cockney?
38:52Do you know what?
38:53I don't actually feel awkward.
38:55I'm going to be honest with you.
38:56I don't.
38:57Like, obviously, when we was at GOATS the other day,
38:59Danny and Elmer did say that she was really upset
39:03that I organised the NFI party.
39:06Well, I'm just going to say,
39:07I'm really sorry I found you right under the bus.
39:10Why?
39:11Because we went out for drinks the other night,
39:12Libby and Bex were there,
39:14and they were like,
39:15you are so wrong for doing that NFI party,
39:17you planning it,
39:18and I was like, it was all Freddie.
39:20I didn't do anything.
39:21It was your idea I executed it.
39:22That's so bad, Sinead.
39:28Hello. Hello.
39:29You OK?
39:30Thanks for coming.
39:31I wouldn't miss this.
39:32How are you?
39:33I'm OK.
39:34How are you?
39:35How's the day been?
39:36Oh, it's been lovely.
39:37It's been nice to just mark it,
39:38but it's been a lot.
39:39Yeah, I feel like it's been a lot for everyone
39:41the past couple of weeks.
39:42Yeah, it has.
39:43It's like...
39:44I feel like it's time to turn a new page.
39:47That page ain't turning!
39:49Is it not?
39:50No, I don't know.
39:51What's your feelings towards Chloe now?
39:53Um...
39:54Do you know what, Colt?
39:55I don't really know,
39:56because I've not spoke to her for so long,
39:58and there's been so much input.
40:00But obviously, you turning up at mine
40:02and not wanting me there because of the atmosphere,
40:06I thought, is Chloe feeling that way and in your ear?
40:08So I just...
40:09I don't know if she wants this to carry on.
40:10Do you know what I mean?
40:11Chloe didn't say anything to me.
40:12I just know she would have felt uncomfortable
40:14because she hasn't spoken to you since it all happened,
40:16and the last time you saw each other,
40:18you were shouting.
40:19I just don't know how we navigate it forward.
40:21But I would really like you to have a conversation with Chloe.
40:23I know she's ready to speak to you,
40:24and I would love it if you girls sorted something out.
40:26Mm, yeah.
40:27I feel like when you two have a conversation,
40:28I think it will be settled this time.
40:30Listen, I value your friendship.
40:32I value Chloe's friendship.
40:33I love Chloe, but this has got ridiculous.
40:35Yeah.
40:36It's like...
40:37I've not come to your 30th,
40:38and I love you.
40:39You were there for me.
40:40Hence why I've got to go.
40:41I love you.
40:42You were there for me.
40:43Hence why I've got to go.
40:44I love Chloe.
40:45I love Chloe.
40:46I love Chloe.
40:47But this has got ridiculous.
40:48Yeah.
40:49It's like...
40:50100%.
40:51I've not come to your 30th,
40:52and I love you.
40:54You were there for me.
40:55Hence why I've asked you to come today,
40:57and I know, like, you had...
40:58You didn't have a great time,
40:59I was saying, at the 30th.
41:00Yeah, it was awful.
41:01I felt like...
41:02I felt shit about the situation with you.
41:03Like, I felt, like, not in a good place.
41:05How are you feeling, then?
41:07Like, I was really upset.
41:08How are you feeling in general, then?
41:10I just feel confused in my life.
41:12Mm.
41:13Like, I think last year was such a bad year for me.
41:15Like, obviously, my grandma passed away,
41:17found out about Marley's diagnosis,
41:19and then it was my birthday,
41:20and I just cried my whole birthday.
41:22Did you?
41:23Yeah, and I just didn't enjoy it at all.
41:24No.
41:25And I didn't enjoy that year,
41:26and then I was, like, thinking,
41:27oh, my God, it's a new year, it's a fresh start.
41:29That's the problem.
41:30You've probably had such an odd year
41:31that you've expected it to be...
41:33The day happens, and it's all great,
41:35and everything disappears,
41:36but that's not reality.
41:38I had such high expectations in my 30s,
41:41and then it's happened,
41:43and I feel like I haven't even taken...
41:44I don't even want to cry,
41:45because it's about you today, isn't it?
41:46No, no, no.
41:47Colt, the thing about me and you is that,
41:49away from everyone, we can talk from the heart,
41:51and you listen to me,
41:52and sometimes you don't want to keep telling the closest people to you,
41:55because Chloe and Amber and Harry probably heard it a lot,
41:58and then you're thinking,
41:59their lives are moving on a bit, and what am I doing?
42:02I just feel like there's so much pressure turning 30,
42:05and I don't know why.
42:06Yes.
42:07Why is there...?
42:08We follow a timeline, don't we,
42:09that we're meant to follow.
42:10So, I think, in our heads,
42:11we think, by 30, you're meant to be settled,
42:13children come and all that,
42:14and it does spin your head cold.
42:16Yeah.
42:17And all I was looking forward to is having my birthday
42:19and being around people that are close to me,
42:21and then to have it, like, overshadowed by this NFI party.
42:24I think, with the NFI party,
42:26I think the boys thought it would be a good idea to lift me up.
42:30It weren't like they were going, F Courtney,
42:33this is another party.
42:35We don't care.
42:36That weren't the vibe.
42:37That's what it just came across.
42:38Yeah.
42:39Because why would they be invited?
42:40No, they knew that.
42:41I don't talk to any of them.
42:42And I understand that they want to take you out in...
42:44But, like, I just think it was a bit much,
42:46and I am very sensitive at the moment.
42:48But I don't want to see you upset,
42:49because I can see it in you.
42:51I know, but it's like,
42:52it's been like this for the past week since my...
42:54Come.
42:55I just hope you, Chloe and Harry, can come to some sort of...
43:01Yeah.
43:02It will over time.
43:04I'm sure it will.
43:05Yeah.
43:06Hello.
43:07You all right, Fred?
43:08You okay?
43:09Obviously...
43:10Well, I think Janae said about the NFI to you, didn't he?
43:14The party?
43:15Yeah.
43:16Erm...
43:17It's upset, Courtney.
43:18No, I spoke to Elmer and Danny about it,
43:21and they said you was upset with it.
43:23And, obviously, I just want you to know
43:25that there was no malice towards you at all in the slightest.
43:29It was just me being a good friend to Saffron,
43:32cos, obviously, the whole situation was shit.
43:36Yeah.
43:37And I just wanted to cheer Saffron up,
43:39so I made a party for everyone else that wasn't going.
43:42At the end of the day, for me, why I was so upset
43:45is because even though you'd fallen out with my friends,
43:47and with Harry, I still was sat there being like,
43:51but, Freddie, like, he's really nice.
43:53I had really nice conversations with him.
43:54Like, I just don't think this is him.
43:55I feel like this is acting on, like, other feelings,
43:58and I just feel...
44:00Like, I just don't know where I really stand with you after that,
44:02cos I get you're not going to understand
44:04what I've been through for the past year.
44:06And then the last thing I needed was that whole NFI thing,
44:09like, laughing and joking.
44:11No-one's laughing at you, or no-one's laughing.
44:13OK, laughing and joking at the situation,
44:15which I really struggled with.
44:16Like, I really struggled with.
44:18That wasn't nice for me at all.
44:19I just think, like, I actually respected you
44:22and had good conversations with you,
44:23and I just want you to see it from my side,
44:26like, what I saw it as.
44:27Yeah, listen, I actually done this to cheer up my friend,
44:30and if it did offend you that I threw a party
44:33and done my own thing on the day on your 30th,
44:35I am truly sorry.
44:36But listen, it's been a long, long few weeks,
44:41and I think we've just got to move on from it.
44:44Mm. Oh.
44:46Yeah.
44:47And again, I am sorry if I did upset you.
44:49That wasn't ever my intention at all.
44:51Let's hear it for the man of the hero.
45:01Next time.
45:02I'm throwing a tea party.
45:04Who's going?
45:05Everybody.
45:06What could possibly go wrong?
45:07Are you seeing a ring coming up soon?
45:09I bloody hope so.
45:10How many animals do you want to see today, Ben?
45:14Dan, Diags and Jodie, they were, like, double dating.
45:17You've just shot the bomb there without even realising.
45:19We split up three months ago.
45:21What do you expect me to do?
45:23I'm lifting because I wanted to feel something.
45:25Yeah.
45:26A bit of want from him, and I never had that,
45:28and now you're wanting someone else.
45:30The only way is up, baby, for you and me now.
45:52The only way is up, baby, for you and me now.
46:00Because I did it.
46:01I'll be right back, baby.
46:03Yeah.
46:04I'm going to go.
46:05I'm going to go.
46:06I'm going to go.
46:07I'm going to go.
46:08I'm going to go.
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