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00:00Q-Tracks.
00:06What's up guys?
00:09What if I told you man, that I had a dream, and I was at an NA meeting, to go to NA meetings.
00:20They save lives man.
00:24In Manhattan everybody went to St. Mark's man.
00:27Everybody was trying to get their life together.
00:29Get off drugs.
00:30Well, I had this strange dream man.
00:33I want to share it with you.
00:35I can tell it to you, but if I tell it to you, it wouldn't be the same as if you saw it.
00:41You got to see it through my eyes.
00:43Now this, is not connected with NA.
00:47It's associated, affiliated, any kind of way, unless they wanted to.
00:51It's just, I had a dream, and I went to an NA meeting.
00:56Ready?
00:56Let's check it out.
00:57It was so strange.
01:08I saw a bunch of me's out there.
01:11What is this?
01:29It's so mysterious.
01:31But I guess when it's a dream, anything can happen.
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02:41Incredible.
03:03Well, let's let this show begin.
03:11Hello, family.
03:30Hello, family.
03:32I know I have only five minutes to talk.
03:34And I really don't have too much to say.
03:37I really came in here just to look around and get some strength from you guys.
03:41But, you know, I know a lot of you guys got a lot of clean time over here.
03:45But today is day one for me.
03:47And I made my mind up and I decided that I'm not going to do drugs anymore or alcohol and even quit smoking cigarettes, man, because I live in a neighborhood where I can see everything is deteriorating.
03:59But the most important thing is that I thought I'm deteriorating, man.
04:03I'm not the person that I used to be.
04:06And a lot of troubles are coming in, man.
04:11A lot of financial troubles, a lot of bills.
04:13I'm not saving money.
04:14I'm not having my clothes the way I want to have.
04:16I'm not living where I want to live.
04:17I'm not eating and drinking the things I want to drink, man.
04:20And, you know, I've been on drugs for, like, longer than I've been alive.
04:27It was a hard cycle to break.
04:28I keep telling myself I'm going to do it.
04:30And I called to different places to see if they can help me.
04:34I called eight places that said same-day service.
04:37I told them my whole story, my whole situation, what I'm going through.
04:40K2 and alcohol.
04:42That's what my thing is.
04:43K2 and alcohol.
04:44And I told them constantly, I need the help.
04:48I need the help.
04:48And they talk to me, I got to tell the whole story.
04:50And what happens, man?
04:51That was two weeks ago.
04:53Between that time, I already got high again, man.
04:55It's more easy for me to get the drugs out in the street than it is for me to get help, man.
05:00To get help, you got to have Medicaid, personal insurance.
05:03You got to have this, have that.
05:04You got to meet them over there.
05:05You got to be on a waiting list.
05:07I go to the drug man.
05:08The drug man is there constantly, man.
05:10Constantly.
05:11Just waiting to get my money.
05:14So I decided to start giving the drug man my money and keep my own money, man.
05:18And I decided that whatever way I got to do it, I'm going to have to do it, man.
05:23Because I got to get my life back together.
05:24I watched this picture with the guy who played Andrea's company, man.
05:29And it was an excellent movie about a guy that was on alcohol.
05:34And how he lost his family and his job and his friends and everything else, man.
05:37He got it back in the end.
05:39A true story, man.
05:40And after that, and also, man.
05:45Yeah, I only got three more minutes.
05:47And also, man, I saw this video and read the book with Mary Kay Baxter and Bill Weiss.
05:55They both went to hell, man.
05:56Well, Bill Weiss went to heaven.
05:58He went to hell, too.
06:00But Mary Kay Baxter went to hell 30 days for three hours every single day, man.
06:07And she felt and experienced it.
06:08And she was a Christian.
06:10And she asked God, why does he have to experience it?
06:13And God said to her that he wanted people to know that hell is real.
06:18So she would have to actually feel what hell felt like.
06:20So when she did her testimony, she could tell from her heart.
06:24So I decided, man, to really keep myself clean.
06:27Not just for me, but really for me, too.
06:29But for so many other people I can help, man, that need the same help that I needed, man.
06:34And the only way that I can get myself clean, dude, is to, um, I mean, the only way I can help them is to keep myself clean.
06:41Which is not an easy thing, man.
06:42So I'm not doing it just for me.
06:44I'm doing it for other people with the help of God.
06:46Because there is no N.A. meetings out there, man.
06:49Let me show you something real quick.
06:52Come on, stupid.
06:53Let me show you something real quick, man, over here.
06:56I can't even show you right now, but I'm going to show you a little bit later because I only have, like, about two more minutes, man.
07:00But when you look for N.A. meetings now, it's spread out one a week way down here.
07:06Another one way down here.
07:08Marijuana is legal in my neighborhood.
07:10It's legal all over the place, but it's legal in my neighborhood.
07:13And, um, in the Bronx, man, and everybody's smoking constantly.
07:17So nobody's thinking about going to an N.A. meeting when you make weed legal.
07:20And, um, that's terrible, man, because, um, you got young kids.
07:25They're going to grow up to just the way you smoke cigars, how you smoke weed.
07:28And you're going to mess up your brain, your mind, and your whole life, man.
07:32And I'm going to, um, do little segments.
07:35I'm going to keep coming to this meeting every single day, man, because there is no N.A. meeting.
07:39So I'm going to come here.
07:40I'm going to listen to the last speaker, and then I'm going to have another speaker speak.
07:45And that's how I'm going to do that.
07:47And if anybody wants to come in here and tell their story, it won't be recorded, right?
07:50I'm only recording me because it'll let people know that, um, there is help available, man.
07:55So I'm going to use this app, man.
07:57This app right here that didn't want me to, um, get the plus, right?
08:01Because they try to hold me back from getting the plus.
08:03Every time I try and get the plus, what they do is, I think they did it to a couple of other people, man.
08:07What they do is they take your card number or something like that, and they fix it so that whenever you enter your card number, I don't give a damn, what kind of cards you have, right?
08:15You won't be able to get it through because your name is on the card, connected to your account, and it automatically, they don't tell you that.
08:21But you can use common sense if you're using your card all over the place.
08:24So I'm going to use this platform right here, only this.
08:28This one, this free platform to save souls, man.
08:31To let people know exactly what I'm going through and what they're probably going through.
08:36My five minutes is over.
08:37Thank you so much.
08:38I had more to say, but it's only five minutes over here because people get worn out.
08:42Thank you for letting me share.
08:44And I told you, man, um, Kenneth B. Recovering Addict, man.
08:48Day one from alcohol and, um, and the drugs, man.
08:53Not hardcore drugs like it used to be, but I'll talk to you later.
08:55I can't.
08:56My five minutes is finished.
08:57Okay.
08:59Thanks for letting me share.
09:01So then after that, I looked around and I saw another speaker come from somewhere like this.
09:31You can speak, Ken.
09:41It's your turn.
09:51He was a little nervous.
09:53So what happened was, day three took over.
10:17Day three took over.
10:23Okay, buddy.
10:40Okay, buddy.
10:40Okay, buddy.
10:49Thanks, family, for having me here.
10:52Um, my name is Kenneth B.
10:55I'm a recovering addict.
10:57And I'll tell you, man, it's always hard to talk in front of a crowd, man, because, um,
11:02get a little bit nervous, something like that.
11:04But, um, I got to do this, man.
11:05I got to tell you the truth.
11:06Today is day three, man.
11:09Day three of no drugs and no alcohol.
11:13If it's okay with you guys, I want to probably, let me see something.
11:17Do you want to sit down and talk to you?
11:29Do you want to sit down and talk to you?
11:36Right about here, buddy.
11:37I know normally people don't sit down and do the meeting, but I kind of feel like sitting
11:51down a little bit and doing the meeting.
11:55Wow, you look kind of strange.
11:56There you go.
11:57All right.
11:58So check it out, man.
12:01Day three, buddy.
12:02So this is what happened yesterday, man.
12:04All right.
12:05Yesterday, um, as I, as I mentioned before, I had that situation with my money, right?
12:11I found out that I should have checked a thousand dollars, man.
12:14I don't know why I didn't check a thousand, but the 500 was there, man.
12:17So this is what happened.
12:20Um, the other night, oh, last night, I got to tell you about last night.
12:27So, and yesterday.
12:28All right.
12:28So, um, first of all, I couldn't wait to get to a meeting.
12:32There's no question about it, man.
12:33If a meeting was close to me, I probably would have went there, um, in reality, but
12:37there is no meeting around my area at all, period.
12:41And let me just get to the point, buddy.
12:43Bang.
12:44So, um, I decided yesterday that I need to buy some shoes and take care of some bills,
12:52which I got to do today, man.
12:54So I paid all of my, um, con ed bill.
12:57First time ever, buddy.
12:59Always put like 150 on it.
13:01I got to pay my optimum bill.
13:02I got to pay the rent.
13:05Looks like the money's available and I can get access to more money.
13:09All right.
13:10So, um, dude, let me tell you this, man.
13:14When you're getting sober alone, it's a lonely journey, man.
13:18Because you don't have anybody to talk to to motivate you to say, like, hey, are you doing
13:21good?
13:22Are you getting high?
13:23Why don't you and me hang out when we don't get high and we can do something?
13:26It's none of that, man.
13:28It's me alone.
13:29And I understand why it's me alone.
13:30It's got to be me alone because, um, if you had help, it'll be easier.
13:34Alone is harder.
13:36And so I have to do it the hardest way possible to help as many people as possible.
13:41So, um, the store that I usually buy wraps from, when I get ready to smoke, I told them,
13:47um, I told the guys, things I do, I say, yo, don't sell me any wraps anymore.
13:52Don't sell it to me.
13:53I'm not, um, I don't smoke and I don't get high anymore.
13:56I don't smoke.
13:57I don't get, I don't drink or nothing like that.
13:59So don't sell me any wraps, right?
14:00So then, um, I left out of the store and I forgot something.
14:06Actually, I forgot the smoke spray, right?
14:08So I went back to the store to see the guy, right?
14:11My friend, I know him for a long time, man.
14:12I haven't did a video with him and stuff like that.
14:14We know each other for years.
14:15So I said, um, I said, I forgot something, man.
14:18So, yeah, what is it?
14:19I said, let me get him two wraps.
14:21So he went to give me two wraps.
14:22I said, dude, didn't I say don't give me two wraps, man?
14:26Right?
14:26You're my friend, right?
14:27Don't give me two wraps.
14:28I'm trying to stop it.
14:29So that's what you got to do sometimes, man.
14:30Sometimes you got to let people know, um, in the area that you used to get high, that
14:35you're not getting high anymore.
14:37So if you ever slip and come back, they will be the ones that say, yo, I thought you wasn't
14:41getting high, man.
14:43Right?
14:43So that's one.
14:44So anyway, I had an interesting, um, um, experience yesterday, man.
14:50This is what happened, man.
14:53After coming past the check camera place to check my money, and I saw that I had at least
14:57about five on me, right?
14:59I just decided right away, buddy, that, oh, I already paid the kind of, I said, yo, I
15:04need to get some clothes.
15:05I need to get some healthcare products.
15:07Um, I decided that I was going to get some boots.
15:10That's going to last forever.
15:11So in the event that anything ever happened, at least I have some more boots and clothes
15:15that I can wear, man.
15:16Because there's nothing worse than not having any money.
15:19Like you bumble me too, man.
15:21So at least if you have some money, you can get some money.
15:23So, um, what happened?
15:25I got on the bus to get down to, um, to go down to, to Fordham, right?
15:31Because I had a lot of plans, right?
15:32And I got on the bus, man.
15:34All of a sudden, I started choking a little bit.
15:38I had the mask on, right?
15:39But it was getting to the point where I said, yo, man, I can't stay on this bus and take
15:43the whole trip down.
15:44I can walk it.
15:45It was like only about like eight or nine blocks, right?
15:48But I didn't want to be on the, you can't stop coughing.
15:51Your face is ready.
15:52Everybody knows about the COVID-19 and stuff like that.
15:54So I got off the bus, man.
15:56Um, my legs wasn't in the best condition because I'm still working out on them.
16:00So I said, yeah, I'm going to walk.
16:02So I started walking, walking, walking, walking, walking, walking, walking, walking, walking.
16:06And I was grateful, man.
16:07I was grateful that I was walking and I wasn't walking to get high.
16:10I wasn't walking to get drunk.
16:11And then, uh, I was clean and sober just two days.
16:14So then, um, I walked down the block and I saw this guy.
16:19He looked like, um, I don't want to say homeless, but definitely looked like he was kind of homeless.
16:24And he looked like he might've been drunk or something like that.
16:30Older kind of guy, right?
16:31So I walked past him and, uh, I had 75 cents in my pocket.
16:37No, a dollar, a dollar in my pocket, right?
16:39And I gave it to him.
16:41He said, yo, thanks a lot, man.
16:42Thanks.
16:43I really appreciate it.
16:44I can see the gratitude in his eye.
16:46So I said, oh yeah, you like that?
16:47So I went in my pocket to give him another dollar, right?
16:51So I went in my pocket to give him another dollar, man.
16:54Um, some kind of transaction happened in there and the guy was in tears, man.
17:01And he gave me a hug, man, a real hug, a hug where his neck is on the back of my, my back
17:09and my neck is on the back of his back because I felt his pain, man.
17:16And his gratitude.
17:18And I didn't care who was in the street.
17:19It was people in the street walking around and stuff like that.
17:21We was total strangers, man.
17:23We hugged each other for about 30 seconds and didn't let go.
17:26And after that, I went in my pocket and gave him another $5.
17:31And I'm so grateful, man, because check this out.
17:35Had I been still getting high and I didn't have the money, had I stayed on that bus and
17:41kept going in that car, I wouldn't be able to give him any money, right?
17:46And that felt good to be able to give somebody something, man.
17:49And that's one of the reasons why I wanted to, um, get myself back together, man, to be
17:53able to help other people, man.
17:55And, um, that was a good experience.
17:57I'm not going to have anything really too exciting to say because it's day three and
18:01it's like a documentary.
18:02And the whole thing for me is that, um, I'm here, buddy.
18:06I'm day three and I'm here.
18:08And let me tell you, I used to go to meetings and people used to say I had a day back and
18:12everybody starts clapping and stuff like that.
18:14And I never wouldn't say I had a day back because when I went to the meetings, I probably
18:17didn't even have a day back.
18:18I had hours back, right?
18:21So then you see some people say, I got two days back and people clapping.
18:24Meanwhile, people got seven, eight, 10 years back, man.
18:26But let me tell you something, buddy.
18:28One day back is valuable.
18:32One day back means it's one day that I could have got high.
18:37One day I could have had my, um, I wasn't paying the bills.
18:40One day I could have went to the spot and I could have killed, hurt or something like
18:45that.
18:47One day, um, you never know what's in that day, but a day is like a package with a, um,
18:52with a bow on it.
18:54And it's like, it could be a good, um, present.
18:58It could be a bad present.
19:00And it goes like that.
19:01If I would have got high and getting and start drinking, that package that open wouldn't
19:07have been anything.
19:07It would have been a zero, right?
19:09But the package that are open today has all kinds of possibilities, man.
19:16And I don't know, buddy.
19:20Today, I'm not really talking too much, but it really doesn't matter because I have three
19:25days clean, man.
19:26And the bottom line for me is to get 30 days clean.
19:29So let me tell you about the temptation.
19:31The temptation comes.
19:32Yes.
19:33No question about it, buddy.
19:34All the things that I used to do when I got high, I can't do anymore, man.
19:39Right?
19:39I used to have a lot of fun, man.
19:41When you get high or something like that, it takes your mind on it.
19:44You say, I want to do this.
19:45I want to do that.
19:46And sometimes you are creative, man.
19:48You're not always not creative.
19:49Sometimes people smoke weed and they drink or whatever, and that's when they start doing
19:53something, man.
19:53And when they stop, they don't do it at all.
19:55But in this particular situation, the 30-day thing, before I actually introduce this video,
20:03I got to tell you each and every little thing that happened, man, that you might go through.
20:11A, you might have trouble sleeping because B, you used to get high and pass out or used
20:16to get drunk and fall out or something like that in the bed.
20:18And now you 100% sober laying in the bed.
20:22I have to learn how to sleep again, man.
20:24I have to learn how to lay down and relax again like a regular person after so many years of
20:30not doing that.
20:32Right?
20:32The other thing that I had to block off is pornography.
20:37Looking at pornography online, I can't do that anymore.
20:42Pornography causes the drugs, causes the alcohol, causes bang.
20:46So before, I used to buy, like, spend $40 a day on drugs almost every single day, buddy.
20:56Every single day.
20:58And then it went down to, like, $20.
21:02And it remained like that.
21:04$20 every two days, man.
21:06And then still buying a 40 and buying a pack of cigarettes and stuff like that.
21:09Right?
21:10So every day I got to have $10 for the cigarettes or maybe more, $20 for the bag, for the beer.
21:17And then I used to buy this pill, man, to get your, what do you call that thing?
21:23Libido.
21:24Get your libido good.
21:26So you could watch porn.
21:27Grab a chick.
21:28And then I used to do this too, man.
21:30I used to find young ladies on the street.
21:34Yep.
21:35I know, buddy.
21:35Here it goes.
21:36I used to find young ladies on the street that wasn't doing too bad.
21:39And we used to make arrangements.
21:43And I used to have sex with them.
21:44And it used to be, like, several times that this happened.
21:47I used to go down to the massage parlors.
21:50The Japanese and Chinese ladies.
21:52And go over there.
21:53$200.
21:54Or something like $250 plus.
21:56To get massages, man.
21:57And get high.
22:00And drink.
22:01And everything else like that.
22:02Live the ride.
22:04I ain't gonna lie to you, buddy.
22:06I look on a Craigslist or something like that.
22:09But then I stopped looking at that.
22:10I looked on this other thing.
22:11It shows the chicks.
22:12You call the chicks.
22:13You go down there.
22:14And bang.
22:14And you get the massage.
22:15And you get the, what do you call it?
22:17You get the happy endings.
22:19Right?
22:19So, um.
22:24Logicalized it.
22:25I said, you know, it's better for me to buy a hooker or a prostitute.
22:30Right?
22:30Than for me to have a real relationship with a girl.
22:32That's gonna have to spend a lot of time.
22:34And money.
22:35She might be fooling around with somebody.
22:37I don't know what she's doing.
22:38A, B, and C.
22:39Boom.
22:39I go over there and get this chick.
22:40Bang.
22:41She gives me all the attention.
22:42And let me tell you, man.
22:43When you get down there to this particular spot, they treat you like a king, man.
22:46You go over there.
22:47Pay the money.
22:48They want to take your shoes off.
22:49They give you a shower.
22:50Give you a shower.
22:51And take your thing.
22:51Give you a massage.
22:52Stuff like that.
22:52No war stories, man.
22:54That's what happens inside.
22:54People don't know a lot.
22:54You can't tell any war stories.
22:55It's called happy endings.
22:56Things like that.
22:57And it's illegal.
22:59People don't know.
22:59I did a lot of illegal stuff.
23:00Now, let me tell you this, man.
23:01With the drug thing.
23:02I can tell you right now.
23:03Right now.
23:03Right now.
23:04Today.
23:06I can go back.
23:06This is only three days.
23:08I can go back to the drug.
23:08I make a call.
23:10Right?
23:10I go back to the drug guy.
23:12He got the thing waiting for me.
23:13I told you it was K2, man.
23:15Because I got to be specific.
23:16I can't cover anything up.
23:18And act like, you know.
23:19And what do you call it?
23:20I can't sugarcoat it.
23:21It's K2.
23:22So, I call a guy.
23:24Boom.
23:25Meet this person.
23:26Meet that person.
23:27Meet this person.
23:27Boom.
23:28I go down there.
23:28They know me.
23:29Bang.
23:29Got over there.
23:30Got to the point where as soon as they see me come down the block, they already in their
23:34hand waiting for me.
23:35And I said, dude, don't be so obvious, man.
23:39You know what I'm saying?
23:39He said, no.
23:40I just want to make sure that you're okay and stuff like that.
23:42Bang.
23:44Dude, what a life, man.
23:45What a life.
23:46So, this is why I really got to stay sober, man.
23:49Because, dude, my neighborhood is drug and alcohol infested.
23:53I live on the block where they're selling drugs and alcohol.
23:57All over the place, man.
23:58And I want to clean the block up, man.
24:00I can't clean the block up unless I can clean myself up.
24:03Bang.
24:04I can't go over there and just tell people, you know, you need to get your life together
24:07and da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da.
24:09That's not going to happen unless you get myself clean strong enough.
24:15And 30 days, I think, I believe will be strong enough to get myself clean so that I can go
24:20out there wherever I got to go and be tempted by anybody and see if I can team up with somebody,
24:24man.
24:24I'm going to start making flyers.
24:27I know people that have stores, right?
24:28People that have stores.
24:29I'm going to make a flyer and ask them if it's okay if I put a flyer that has something to do it.
24:35Don't do drugs.
24:36Don't do alcohol.
24:37Baby, remember?
24:38Right?
24:39Other people, I'm going to give them this YouTube channel.
24:41It's not even on yet because this is like, I said I was going to 30 days.
24:45I have 27 more days to go in order for me to get this thing right.
24:51And let me tell you this, man.
24:52I got to tell you this.
24:54The devil said this, man, to me because I know it didn't come from God.
24:58And the devil said, dude, you got money.
25:01You got plenty good money to take care of your bills and wait for your next check, which is coming in two weeks.
25:07It's going to be a good amount.
25:08Plus the money that you have on you.
25:10Hey, why don't you get one?
25:12Get one.
25:14Right?
25:14Get one.
25:15Do the same video over here and say, this is what happens when you relapse.
25:20Right?
25:20So just in case somebody relapsed, you do the relapse first for them.
25:25I said, no, buddy.
25:26No.
25:27No.
25:28I got seven days to go.
25:30I can't get high.
25:32And then I'm back to day one.
25:34I'm missing this room again, man.
25:36If it happens, it's going to happen.
25:37Not because I plan on it.
25:38It's not going to happen either, man, which is incredible.
25:42Because, dude, I never thought I'd have three days.
25:47I haven't had three days in my whole.
25:51Well, that's not true, man.
25:53At one time I did.
25:54Let's put it like this.
25:55I haven't had three days clean and sober and had money in my pocket.
26:02I had three days clean and sober because I didn't have any money in my pocket and I had no choices and stuff like that.
26:06But now I got choices today and I'm choosing not to get high, man.
26:10So now there's like all the money that I wasted on the drugs.
26:14I can save.
26:14I bought myself some juice.
26:16I bought myself some hair grease.
26:18I'm getting ready to perm my hair again like I used to have a long time ago.
26:21I bought myself something like a Noxema to keep the face clean.
26:25And then I bought Animal Pack with a bunch of vitamins, man.
26:28And I bought the monster.
26:29Because I'm saying like this, man.
26:30The energy that I used to have when I was getting high that came from the devil, I got to find that same energy that God has.
26:38Because with every negative thing that you're enjoying, God has something better for you that you can enjoy.
26:46I can't see it right now, man.
26:48But, you know, little things happen, man.
26:50Like the other day I told you about the bus and the guy on the bus.
26:55And then, you know, the guy let me get on the bus free because I helped the guy.
26:59And then the other day that I told you that, I didn't tell you that, man.
27:04But I went to the chicken spot.
27:05The guy gave me some extra pieces of chicken.
27:08And it's like people and then the homeless guy, you know what I'm saying, who cried on my shoulder and stuff like that.
27:13There's more to come in.
27:14There's more to come.
27:14Because let me tell you that.
27:15When you're a preacher or a minister or you're a motivational speaker, you have people come out.
27:19I said, yo, thank you so much, man.
27:21If it wasn't for you, for him going through what you went through and documenting it and recording it to try to help other people.
27:27Like Moses.
27:28No, not just Moses.
27:29Like Harriet Tubman.
27:31Right?
27:31So I want to be like a Harriet Tubman.
27:33Not only do I want to save myself from being a slave from drugs and alcohol.
27:38After I get myself saved, I want to go back in and keep saving other people, man.
27:42And that's how I want to be.
27:44That's how I want it to end.
27:45Life has got to start somewhere.
27:47It's got to end somewhere.
27:48And when it ends, that's how I want it to end, man.
27:51And it's incredible, man.
27:52Because I'm doing all of this stuff and nobody knows about it at all, man.
27:55And sometimes when people know about it, they can encourage you and motivate you and keep you going.
27:59But this is an internal motivation.
28:02An external regard, man.
28:05So, boom.
28:07So last night, I still got the cigarettes, man.
28:10And I bought a pack of cigarettes.
28:11I'm going to have to slow down on that, too.
28:13I'm going to have to do two cigarettes.
28:14But it's, like, hard to stop everything at one time, man.
28:17Because sometimes you start everything at one time.
28:19You just go right back to it again.
28:21And I don't plan on my back.
28:23I plan on putting a brick, right?
28:25And making sure the brick is correct before I put the next brick to make sure it's correct.
28:31Before I put the next brick to make sure it's correct.
28:34Before I put the next brick.
28:35So, I want to tell you this, man.
28:37You know, you can't have a holy, godly life doing drugs and alcohol, man.
28:47I'm going to stop for a second.
28:48Because the thing is like this, man.
28:49People who do rap music, they smoke a lot of weed, man.
28:51It encourages them, inspires them to do rap music.
28:54And I can totally understand that.
28:55Because when I was getting high, I was inspired.
28:58But do you want to live life every day like that, man?
29:01That you have to have this in order to get that.
29:03I want to be able to get up in the morning and have what I have on me.
29:06And be able to take off without having to add anything extra on me, man.
29:10And let me tell you about my neighborhood.
29:11Dude.
29:12All right.
29:13Five more minutes.
29:14I know.
29:14Sorry about that.
29:15So, let me tell you about my neighborhood, man.
29:19I see people at the all-you-can-eat fast food.
29:23Open up the door.
29:24Close the door for a quarter.
29:25I see people laying all over the street, man.
29:27I'm going to bring you something.
29:29I'm thinking about taking some pictures and putting it in here.
29:33So, you can take a look at it.
29:34But that wouldn't be good for those people that are on the street.
29:36But let me tell you.
29:36People are spread out, man, in my neighborhood.
29:39People are spread out, walking in the street.
29:42I saw this other guy the other day.
29:44He was walking in the middle of the street.
29:45And he just kicked his sneaker off, dude.
29:48Both of his sneakers off on Fordham.
29:50Right in the street.
29:51And started walking barefoot.
29:54People are laying down on the street, passed out.
29:56I can show you every day, man.
29:58I can show you every single day at least four people in my neighborhood.
30:02Not the same people.
30:03Different areas passed out, man.
30:06Everybody's asking for money.
30:07Everybody's asking for money.
30:08They ask me for money, buddy, when I'm in the store.
30:11You're supposed to ask outside the store.
30:13But now, the devil is now, he's going into different...
30:16Getting ready to take money out of the machine.
30:24And somebody will say to me, do you have any money?
30:26While I'm right next to the ATM machine.
30:28I see, you know, I lose my anger a little bit, man.
30:30And let me tell you this, man.
30:31I have an anger issue, too.
30:33Right?
30:33That I got to work on.
30:34I saw this movie.
30:36And it says you got to do a timeout.
30:38Whenever you get ready to get upset or angry, do a timeout.
30:42Relax a little bit, man.
30:43Because your next move can be critical.
30:45Your next move with anger can be...
30:48You can kill somebody.
30:51You can get killed.
30:52You can say something you can never take back.
30:54You can do something that can never be unrecorded, man.
30:57So you got to watch out for that, too, man.
30:59So, this is what's happening, man.
31:01I haven't found anything, actually, yet to give me that excitement that I got when I used to get high.
31:10But guess what?
31:12If being sober is a boring life.
31:15Then I'll be sober.
31:17I don't want to get high again.
31:19I never really liked the taste of beer, anyway.
31:21And let me tell you what my thing was, man.
31:22My thing was, maybe I'll get a 40 a day.
31:25Or I'll get a 24-ounce can.
31:28Right?
31:28It was a 24-ounce can.
31:29And I will get 20 bags.
31:31I'll get $20 worth of K2.
31:34And that'll be every other day.
31:36Every other day.
31:37Every other day.
31:37It wasn't critical like it was.
31:39But the bottom line is, I shouldn't be getting high at all, period, man.
31:42I came out of daytime, dude.
31:45I spent a year and a half in a treatment center up in Monticello.
31:50Right?
31:50That was daytime.
31:51Right?
31:52I spent another three months in Shepherd House.
31:56That was in Philadelphia, man.
31:58I went to St. Kitts and Nevis to go to school.
32:04Back when they had multi-made word purple and stuff like that.
32:08And that was many years ago.
32:09I went all the way to St. Kitts.
32:10I had to get a passport and stuff like that.
32:12And that's like around St. Thomas.
32:16And I was getting high down there, man.
32:17All the way in St. Kitts and the Virgin Islands, man.
32:21You go in the woods.
32:22And they call it rock.
32:24And that's what you do, man.
32:25When you smoke in a crack.
32:27You don't have the stems down there.
32:29I broke off the TV antenna.
32:32The screen off the window.
32:35And smoked crack like that, brother.
32:39You think what I'm saying?
32:40Dude, I used to smoke crack on a stem that's so damn small, you couldn't even use it, man.
32:46Nightmares me.
32:47Nightmares.
32:49It was three days.
32:50I couldn't believe it now in my mind.
32:52But it was three days that I went without eating, man.
32:55Three whole complete days without eating, my friend.
33:01And just getting high.
33:03Just getting high, man.
33:04Nothing in my pocket.
33:05I remember one time, brother.
33:08Back when they had tokens.
33:10All I had was a, I don't know, a token, a hundred pennies or something like that, whatever the heck it was, man.
33:18And I went and I got crack off for that, man.
33:19I didn't care how much money I had left as long as I had the crack on me, buddy.
33:25I didn't care about the meal, where I was going to live at, where I was going to stay at.
33:28Because what happens after you keep doing drugs after a while, you'll rationalize it.
33:32You say to yourself, you know, it's okay to do this.
33:34It's okay to do that.
33:35You say, I got one more minute.
33:36It's okay to do this.
33:37So let me just tell you this, man.
33:38What can I leave you with?
33:40What do I have to do?
33:41Keep pushing.
33:42Oh, I spent a lot of time praying and listening to motivational tapes.
33:47Last night, I couldn't sleep.
33:50I couldn't get tired, man.
33:51I took two time off PMs, buddy.
33:54No, not two time off PM.
33:55It was zero.
33:57I couldn't sleep.
33:58I was restless.
33:59Because that time right there that I had was the time that I got high, man.
34:03I get high.
34:04I play my games.
34:05I get on the Oculus.
34:07I go different places and stuff like that.
34:09And I couldn't do it, man.
34:11I couldn't do it.
34:11I couldn't do it.
34:12I couldn't do it.
34:13And I wasn't too far yesterday from the spot where I normally go to, man.
34:17But I couldn't bring myself to go back down there again.
34:20It's a new life, man.
34:21I got this technique that I had planned on using.
34:25I never was going to use it before because I didn't want to erase my memory banks.
34:29But it goes like this.
34:30I have to act like I never, ever, ever did drugs.
34:32Ever.
34:33Ever.
34:34Ever.
34:34And the reason why this video is so important is because if I can watch my technique for 30 days,
34:42then I can do 30 days again.
34:44Right?
34:44So it goes like this.
34:45If you can do one day, you can do two days.
34:48But then you have certain things, man.
34:50You have holidays.
34:51Right?
34:51That's why it's good.
34:52If you can do a whole complete year sober, buddy.
34:55Then you almost mastered it because you'd be like, when Christmas came last year, I didn't get high.
35:02This is what I did.
35:04Right?
35:04But now, and I can't say that.
35:05I say, when Christmas got, I got high.
35:07When Thanksgiving, I got high.
35:09When New Year's came, I got high.
35:10Da-da-da-da.
35:10A-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha.
35:11All I know is high, high, high.
35:12So once you start a pattern, right?
35:14It's like you're going through the woods and you're cutting a path, right?
35:20For the other you behind you to follow.
35:23So I'm cutting a path right now for wanting me over here to follow, for the real me to follow.
35:29So I have to go through that path, man.
35:31I have to go through, you know, what happens when Christmas comes?
35:34So I'm going to do one of these things on Christmas.
35:36Christmas, I'm going to be sober.
35:39Mother's Day, whatever holiday comes up, I'm going to be sober and do it over here.
35:44And what my plan is this, man.
35:46I snapshot.
35:47This is recorded, right?
35:48So after a while, I'm going to do NAN here so everybody can come in here.
35:53And they can talk about their cases and stuff like that, about their situation.
36:00Hopefully they can get sober.
36:01I couldn't wait to come over here, man, to get to this meeting, to tell you the truth, man.
36:04But even though it's not a real NAN meeting, at least it gets stuff off my chest.
36:10And if I get weak again sometime during the day, I'll just come right back and watch the same video I did.
36:16Again, don't get weak during the day, brother.
36:18Okay, you're doing good so far.
36:20No alcohol in your system.
36:22No drugs in your system.
36:23So now what I've got to do is I've got to start eating the right food and stuff to get a new body.
36:28Because this body is a body based on drugs and alcohol.
36:31It's going to take me a while to clean out everything out of my system.
36:35And eventually, I am going to go to an NAN meeting, even if it takes a while to get there, right?
36:41And even if they only have it once a week or something like that, by that time, I'll be strong enough in here to go there.
36:46And let me tell you, nobody called me back.
36:49Nobody, don't worry about it.
36:50You got the right person.
36:52If you don't hear from us in a couple of days.
36:54First of all, it would kill me, man.
36:55It was when somebody said, if you don't hear from me in a couple of days, when the thing said same day drug treatment.
37:01So now I've got question marks, man.
37:03The question marks is this.
37:05Should I go to the treatment center now that I have three days or should I not go and try to do it on my own?
37:13Because if I go, I won't be able to do this video because I won't be here to do it those days, man.
37:18You'll see me come back and I have all those days.
37:21And I wanted to go there, man.
37:25And I'll tell you the truth.
37:26Why?
37:26I wanted to go there because I wanted to put my responsibility on somebody else.
37:29I say, when I get over there, it's their job to keep me sober.
37:32I'm locked up in here.
37:33I can't go out.
37:34I can't get high.
37:35I can't get drunk.
37:36I can eat all the food.
37:38I can spend all the time getting sober and I go to the meetings.
37:41And when I come out, I'll be like an armored, armored pain.
37:44I'll come out there and I have a glow and a shine on me.
37:46But that's not going to help the people that don't have a rehab.
37:52I've got to show them how to do it without the rehab.
37:56However, if it looks like it's the worst case, I'm going to abandon this mission and I'm going to rehab myself.
38:02And heck with the video, man.
38:04I've got to save me, right?
38:06I've got to save me first before I can save anybody else.
38:08Even if nobody in the world sees that this guy got saved, he's not doing drugs, I will know I'm not doing drugs.
38:14I will have the life I want.
38:15I used to travel to Manhattan and go to South Street Seaport and just hang out in the village, eat meals and look around and stuff like that.
38:23And that's what I want to do again, man.
38:24I want to always be able to have money in my pocket that if I'm walking down the block, I say, yo, I feel hungry.
38:29I want a hamburger.
38:30I got to tell you this too, man.
38:31My appetite has decreased, man.
38:34Before, when I wasn't getting high, when I was getting high, I was petrified.
38:38Yo, I'm not going to have enough money for food.
38:39I'm going to have money for bills.
38:41It was all about food, food, food, food, food, food.
38:43So, dude, I hate to say it, man, but yesterday, all I had, man, was early morning, maybe a shish kebab and a half.
38:56And, you know, it's only like about six, seven pieces or anything, six kebab and a half.
39:06And I had some shrimp.
39:08I went to this shrimp spot.
39:11I got some shrimp and some clams, dude.
39:14And that was it, man.
39:17And let me tell you, boy, I used to eat a lot.
39:18So, it's like my appetite is gone because when I was getting high, it made me hungry.
39:23And I feel a little bit bad about that.
39:26I got food in the house.
39:28And I don't have an appetite for it, man.
39:30And I feel a little bit bad about that.
39:31But, hey, this is a process, man.
39:34This is not a one, two, three thing.
39:36Snap your fingers.
39:37It's a process.
39:38And in the process, a whole lot of things are going to happen.
39:41And then after that, a breakthrough is going to come through.
39:44And a whole lot of things are going to happen.
39:45But right off the bat, man, I'm saving money and paying bills.
39:49And that's super important, man.
39:50And I'm not getting high.
39:52Right?
39:52And there's nobody around.
39:53There's nobody that you can say, somebody says, wow, you're not getting high.
39:57Congratulations, man.
39:58Nobody.
39:59Nobody.
40:00This is solo.
40:02You know, which is okay, man.
40:05It's okay.
40:06It gets a little lonely sometimes, but it's okay, man.
40:09So, what I used to do is, before I really got high, high, I used to go to the library when I didn't have no time.
40:16I'm going to start going back to the library.
40:18I used to say to myself every day, all right, this is where you're going to go tomorrow after you take your business, stuff like that.
40:23So, what I can do now is, I can get myself a nice, I like cherry coat.
40:27Cherry coat and a sandwich, like a big hero.
40:31It only costs $7.
40:31Right?
40:32So, the hero and the sandwich.
40:35And then I got my metro card.
40:36Right?
40:36I got the half beer metro card.
40:38It's only $1.35.
40:40And take a trip in Manhattan, man.
40:41I get hungry.
40:42I eat my sandwich.
40:43I look around.
40:44I snap pictures.
40:45I got my laptop.
40:46I take a book with me.
40:47Get some fresh air, man.
40:48Get away from the neighborhood.
40:51You got to get away from the environment.
40:53Because if you work in the feather factor, you're going to come out with feathers, man.
40:56And I got a bunch of feathers.
40:58I look like some kind of an ostrich or a bird right now.
41:00I got to get rid of these feathers, man.
41:01And that's how you do it.
41:03You got to get out of the environment.
41:04I just remember, I'm glad I spoke about that.
41:05I got to get out of the environment, man.
41:07And go back to Manhattan.
41:08And force myself to get out.
41:09To see how people are living.
41:11To be around people and not getting high all the time, man.
41:14To live that lifestyle again.
41:17So, I'm sorry for talking so long.
41:19Thank you for letting me share.
41:22And I'm going to leave this for the next speaker.
41:26You know, I put this over here.
41:28So, I will take it away.
41:32Ben, thanks for letting me speak.
41:34And the only thing I want to leave you with, you know, no matter how hard it is, man, keep trying to not getting high.
41:42And this is how I started, man.
41:43First, I always had in my mind, don't get high.
41:45Don't get high.
41:46Don't get high.
41:47This is my last one.
41:48You know how many times I said this is my last one?
41:49I said like six times.
41:50I said, God, this is my last one.
41:52This is my last one.
41:52What happened was, it was a little bit left from the last one.
41:56And I didn't get a good hit.
41:57I thought, oh, man, I can't do it like that.
41:59I got to make sure that before this is my last one, I want to have the best hit I can.
42:05Let me tell you, man.
42:05They said one is too many.
42:07A thousand is never enough.
42:08And I'll tell you why.
42:09One will trigger off something, right?
42:13One, let's be for real.
42:14It goes like this, man.
42:15When you do one, you're going back to the dark side.
42:19Once you ingest the dark side, the dark side is in you.
42:22You gave the dark side permission to take over.
42:25So, whatever happens next is not on you.
42:27You're out of control now.
42:29Right?
42:29So, you can't take anything, man.
42:32So, they said one is too many.
42:33A thousand is never enough.
42:34So, a thousand is never enough, man.
42:37Because I can tell you this, buddy.
42:39I went through about, with no exaggeration, about $30,000, $40,000 worth of drugs.
42:48Right?
42:49In the past couple of years.
42:50$30,000, $40,000 worth of drugs that I could have used to do a whole lot of things, man.
42:55I have a son.
42:56Right?
42:57He's older now.
42:58He's a man.
43:00But what if he says, I need help, Dad?
43:02What if he says, I want to see my dad?
43:05Right?
43:05What if he decides that, you know, it's time for me to see my dad, man?
43:09You know, we stay.
43:10But we never had a bad situation.
43:13I told him I'm available.
43:14If he needs me, if he needs any money, he can come to me and stuff like that.
43:18And he can't.
43:18Because right now, even if he came to me, I didn't have any money on me.
43:22I just had a little bit.
43:23I'd give him everything I had, man.
43:24Because I didn't do anything for my son.
43:25I was one of those.
43:26So, getting high all those years, irresponsible, buddy.
43:32I could tell you a nightmare.
43:36I'm going to say that for the next time.
43:38All right?
43:38I'm out of here, guys.
43:39Thanks for letting me share.
43:43And pray for me, guys, that I get this thing done.
43:48Because I told somebody in the neighborhood I'm going to change the neighborhood.
43:51But it's not going to happen right away.
43:52It's going to be piece by piece.
43:54Got it?
43:55Got it.
43:56All right.
43:56I'm out.
43:57Thanks for sharing, man.
44:01And by the way, my plan is to fill every one of these chairs in here.
44:08Because I'm going to put 30 days.
44:12I'm going to have 30 seats of myself in here.
44:17That's great, man.
44:19Keep up the good work.
44:21Well, my friend, that was an excellent speech, right?
44:29Heart-touching, heartfelt, and everything like that.
44:32But the truth of the matter is, my friend, I got high.
44:39That day, when I did this video right here, that was early in the morning time.
44:46I was thinking about getting high on and off and off.
44:48But the truth of the matter is like this, man.
44:50I'm going to kick it to your life.
44:52I prayed, the blood of Jesus, the blood of Jesus, the blood of Jesus, all of that stuff, man.
44:59All that stuff.
45:00I tried to read, listen to positive movies that has to do with drug addiction and what else?
45:10Motivational stuff.
45:11I worked out.
45:12I did exercises.
45:14Nope, nope, nope, nope.
45:15Bored, bored, bored, bored, bored, bored.
45:17I have no creativity.
45:19There was no excitement.
45:20Every time I wanted to watch a movie, I couldn't really watch the movie.
45:24Because why?
45:24Because I like to watch the movie and get high.
45:27So I can understand it even more.
45:30It's like, if it's a good movie, I get high, I got my munchies, then I can really watch the movie and enjoy it, right?
45:35So now what?
45:36No alcohol, no drugs.
45:39I'm going to watch a movie.
45:40Sober?
45:40No.
45:41It wasn't fun, buddy, for me.
45:42I'll be honest with you.
45:43I was bored.
45:45I was like, my gosh, man.
45:47This is not fun at all, buddy.
45:50So I don't even have, when this guy right here was talking.
45:53He was talking about, he had three days.
45:57He was premature, man.
45:58He woke up like Christmas, man.
46:00You don't even wait for 12 o'clock the next day.
46:04That's Christmas for you.
46:05Instead of you waiting like 6 o'clock in the morning the next day or 8 o'clock or something like that.
46:10You just open up your present too early, man.
46:14And nobody's going to tell you that but me, man.
46:16So next time, before you start making everything public, make sure you got it down pat.
46:21It's the two and a half day, man.
46:27So how do I feel since I'm getting high?
46:31I felt bad and guilty before, right?
46:33But then I asked God.
46:35Oh, and dude, hey, this is it.
46:38Did I watch porn and stuff like that?
46:40Yeah.
46:41Hey, I told you.
46:43Yep.
46:44I said, hey, why are you going to do one thing?
46:45You're going to do everything, right?
46:47And for a penny?
46:48And for a pound?
46:49Yes.
46:49Porn, porn, porn.
46:50It was excellent, excellent.
46:51I've seen women that you've never seen before.
46:53You can even imagine, man.
46:55Different shapes, size, all kinds of stuff like that, man.
46:57It was incredible, incredible, incredible work.
46:59Because I got to tell the truth, man.
47:00I got to tell the truth.
47:01If I'm going to, you got to speak your heart.
47:04You got to tell the truth.
47:06And that way, people know you for real.
47:08And that's for real.
47:09So the bottom line was this, man.
47:10Dude, I had so much fun since I started to do the truth.
47:27You think I'm joking, man?
47:28Check this out.
47:30Dude, you're not supposed to be talking like that, man.
47:33This is for people.
47:34Recovery.
47:35Because we'll work for recovery, man.
47:36It doesn't work for another person.
47:38So right below the administration, real quick.
47:40Real quick.
47:42Okay.
47:42All right.
47:42How much time you got, man?
47:44Dude, what the hell is this?
47:45I have to be honest, man.
47:47It was a movie about drug recovery.
47:49I couldn't even watch the movie without getting high, man.
47:51I had to get high to watch the movie about drug recovery.
47:55Let me show you that.
47:56You listened to this?
47:57Yeah.
47:57Yeah.
47:58So then what else, man?
48:00Here's the thing over here.
48:03All right.
48:05Excellent, excellent.
48:06Right, man.
48:06So let me get over here and talk to you for a second, man.
48:10All right.
48:10So anyway, if my line looked correctly.
48:13Yeah.
48:14Yeah.
48:15Right.
48:15Dude, what's going on here, man?
48:16So I just watched this movie about drug recovery.
48:18I couldn't watch that, man.
48:20I like to do video.
48:27I couldn't watch that.
48:28I incorporated this thing with every single thing that I almost do.
48:31So in order for me to have fun, I had to have a couple of beer, a couple of smoke.
48:35And now I'm having fun now.
48:36I got to keep it real.
48:37Right?
48:37It's fun like this.
48:38Check this out.
48:40Look.
48:41Dude.
48:42Huh?
48:43Fun.
48:44Like this, man.
48:45Bang.
48:47Put it down.
48:48Jump off.
48:50Huh?
48:50ABC.
48:51Pull the chair back up.
48:52Reverse it.
48:54Right?
48:54All right.
48:54Keep it real.
48:55Keep it real.
48:56Right?
48:56It's not going to end like this.
48:58Because hopefully I will be able to do it.
49:01What do you call it?
49:02Bang.
49:03What are you doing, man?
49:04Without drugs.
49:05But right now.
49:07All right?
49:07It's like this.
49:08Woo.
49:10Right up here.
49:11Bang.
49:12Jump.
49:13Ski.
49:13Like that, man.
49:15So could I do that?
49:16I was sober.
49:17Could a sober guy do that?
49:20I don't think so, buddy.
49:23Let me put this in the back over here so there's a block of attention.
49:26So I don't know what to tell you, man.
49:29So I was thinking, like, maybe I'm going to have to cooperate this thing.
49:33My real life.
49:34Like, make a budget.
49:35Like, you know, you got to pay your light, pay your gas, and stuff like that.
49:39And you also got to save money for your drugs, too, man.
49:42If it works right.
49:43But just make sure you don't overdo it.
49:44Got it?
49:45Right.
49:46All right, guys.
49:46So check this out, man.
49:48This is what I'm getting ready to do right now.
49:49I'm actually going to leave here and go to hollow fit.
49:52Right?
49:53It's just exercise run.
49:54I'm going to run the hell out of the hollow fit thing.
49:57So I'm going to get my come down.
49:59You know what I'm saying?
50:01Stay tuned for this video.
50:02It's going to be called the hollow fit.
50:06Sober run.
50:07What am I going to call it?
50:09The hollow fit.
50:11Come down run.
50:12Okay?
50:13This is going to be part two to this video.
50:15I might do it on Friday.
50:16Stay tuned.
50:17I think you'll love it.
50:18Ciao.
50:19I'm out of here, man.
50:19But the question is this, my friend.
50:36What's the question?
50:37Am I really out of here?
50:40Or am I just saying I'm out of here?
50:44Like this.
50:45Bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang.
50:49All right.
50:49When somebody says you're out of here, all right.
50:52They're not going to be out of here like this.
50:54Got it?
50:59All right.
51:01All right.
51:15More guys.
51:18Let me tell you like this, man.
51:19The last character, you can forget about him, right?
51:26If you want to keep your life clean, man, you got to do whatever it takes for you to
51:29keep your life clean.
51:31They have any meetings all over the place if you want to Zoom it, right?
51:36But Zoom is not like being there.
51:37If you have to be an outpatient, you can go out and you can get treatments and sit in
51:42groups and you can talk about it, man, and try to make friends and get telephone
51:45numbers, or you can find in-person groups that you can go to and you can see people and you
51:51can actually talk and communicate with people, man.
51:54No matter how long it takes, if you need to get into a rehab or drug treatment system,
51:58do the best you can, man.
52:00But try to keep your life sober and clean, man, because there's a whole mountain of valleys
52:05and other worlds on the other side of this struggle.
52:10And I think that everybody should have the opportunity to live their life drug-free just
52:16to see how happy they can be, man.
52:18And there is a video, like this last guy said right here, there is a video on HoloFit, and
52:25it's going to be called, I forgot what he said, man, coming down off of drugs or something
52:29like that, but there is a video that's going to be played.
52:32I was going to play it over here, but I didn't even post it yet.
52:34All right, guys, thanks for watching, and if you have any words of encouragement, and
52:40if you have any telephone numbers, like if you're from a different state and you know
52:43anything about NA or a different borough, put the number down to the drug rehab that
52:48you know that's available in your area on my comment box.
52:52So whoever's watching, if they live in an area and they're having a drug problem, they
52:56can look and see where they can get help also.
52:58Okay, thanks guys for watching, and may God bless you and keep you strong.
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