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When Ryan's mother marries Blaine Nelson, he hopes he'll gain a fun-loving stepdad; instead, he gets chaos, pain and fear, and while Blaine relishes tormenting Ryan, he can never imagine just how dark and sadistic his stepfather truly is.
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00:00It really started in 1988, I saw a small little blurb about a truck driver and a sexual assault
00:19that had happened in Texas. A mother and her daughter were broke down on the side of the
00:26road and a truck driver pulled over and he raped them both, put them back in their car and left
00:33them. They showed a sketch of the truck and it was Blaine's truck. And all the bills went
00:43off for me. I've just carried it with me for so long and it just felt like it was time to
00:49talk to somebody about it. And so I am in no way trying to ever say that I can compare
00:57myself to Blaine's other victims. I can't imagine what they go through on a daily basis. I just
01:11know what I go through on a daily basis from what he's done to me.
01:24I've always thought of Blaine as the boogeyman. I've tried to explain like horror movies and that
01:30kind of thing do not scare me because I know who the real boogeyman is. I know who the real
01:36monster is. And when there's no storyline and there's no Hollywood, no cameras and things
01:44like that. And you know someone like that is out there. I can't sleep. I just can't sleep.
02:06This is probably around
02:35the time that Blaine first came into our lives.
02:39I would be about five years old,
02:41and prior to this, it had just been the three of us,
02:44my mom and my sister and me.
02:46Blaine was a long-haul trucker
02:48that would sometimes be gone for days.
02:50But I remember him coming around was, like, it was exciting.
02:54It was awesome to have any male figure around.
02:59As a young boy, I didn't even realize
03:01that I was missing a father figure.
03:02I played, you know, Little League baseball,
03:06so you see every other boy there with his dad.
03:15Dad shows up to watch him play.
03:18So the few times that Blaine made it to my games, it was big.
03:24So any time that those holes were filled were important,
03:29he seemed like a superman.
03:33He had his foot on the pedal kind of personality about everything.
03:45When my mom first started dating Blaine,
03:47he was pretty decent,
03:48but that kind of changed after they got married.
03:51Sometimes you can see the monster that's in front of you,
03:53and you can tell, you know,
03:56you just know that he flew under all those radars.
03:59He flew under every radar possible,
04:01and he had everybody fooled.
04:02We lived in an apartment complex with other families and young kids my age.
04:26One night, the kids that all lived in the apartment complex,
04:29we were all sleeping on the grass,
04:31and everybody just had blankets and pillows,
04:33but it was pretty late,
04:34and the silence was broke.
04:38You could hear, like, a quiet grumbling,
04:40and nobody really knew what it was,
04:44and it just kept getting louder.
04:46And from one direction,
04:52it was Blaine in the green machine.
04:58It was a 1977 Chevy,
05:01but it had a Corvette engine in it,
05:03and so it was unbelievably loud,
05:06it was unbelievably fast,
05:08and he came flying past all of us.
05:11By then, everybody's awake.
05:12Everybody knows it's him that went by,
05:14and the sound kept going until it was almost gone.
05:19By then, police cars, two of them,
05:22came past us.
05:27And they were pushing their cars to the limits, too,
05:29but they didn't have a chance.
05:31And the sound kept going,
05:34and then it came back and got louder again,
05:36and Blaine came from the other direction,
05:38flew into the apartment complex.
05:43You could hear him slam on the brakes
05:45and screech the tires,
05:46parked the truck,
05:47and you could hear his cowboy boots,
05:50click, click, click,
05:50and came running past all of us,
05:53put up his hand,
05:55said, hi, kids,
05:55and just went into the apartment and shut the door.
05:58They never found him.
06:01They never caught up to him,
06:04but it was something that I'll just never forget,
06:07like the sound of that engine,
06:09and seeing it go past it,
06:11something that you only see in movies.
06:14It didn't seem like Blaine's running from the police.
06:16He must have done something super wrong.
06:18To all of us, it seemed great.
06:22It's only looking back now as an adult
06:24that I realized how dangerous
06:25and irresponsible all of that was.
06:29I don't think he cared about dangerous at all.
06:31Blaine liked toying with police.
06:33He liked toying with people in general.
06:35He would do things without thought of consequence.
06:40It was just another game.
06:53Wow.
06:55Yeah, this is a picture of me and my sister.
06:59During this time,
06:59like if I needed something,
07:00I'd go to my sister.
07:02If I had a problem,
07:04if I'd go to my sister,
07:06but it's hard that we don't have a relationship.
07:10Her and I have just...
07:12We've never...
07:16We've just never addressed the real reasons.
07:23I don't have anybody else.
07:25And that's something that we just had to deal with.
07:28Had to deal with a lot of years of silence.
07:30One morning,
07:36my sister and I were watching Saturday morning cartoons.
07:40Pretty sure we were fighting over the station.
07:43So he decided that our punishment
07:45for fighting over the TV
07:47would be to punch each other in the arms.
07:50That's enough.
07:52Basically, for my sister and I
07:54to punish each other,
07:56that way he didn't have to,
07:57but he would still get to watch.
08:00Like he just...
08:01It made it like such a competition
08:03that you weren't really thinking
08:05about the consequences
08:06or if you were going to get hurt
08:07or if you were going to hurt somebody.
08:10It's not like I could just say,
08:12no, I don't want to do this.
08:13You know, that was it.
08:14That was what you were doing.
08:15The more we started punching each other,
08:17the more it kind of became personal
08:19for my sister and I.
08:20Like it wasn't about the TV anymore.
08:21As it would go on,
08:26I was really taking the worst of it.
08:28The more it started to hurt,
08:30the more I started to cry.
08:32And you kind of had rules for it.
08:35Whatever arm you punched with
08:36was the same one
08:37that you had to take the punch with.
08:39And as longer it went on,
08:41the more violent it became.
08:45There was a lot of happiness and pleasure
08:47in Blaine's face
08:48while we were doing it.
08:51A monster forces children
08:53to fight against each other.
08:56A maniac, a hunter, a predator.
09:00All of those things.
09:03And looking back on it,
09:04he was like that when he got there.
09:06You know, this wasn't something
09:07that came on gradually for him.
09:10All this, whether he knew it or not,
09:13all this stuff was already
09:13mowing around in his head.
09:15He just had to have an outlet
09:16and the outlet was my sister and me.
09:21He was practicing to be a monster.
09:37This would be our race team.
09:41This is chariot racing.
09:42That would be Blaine and the chariot.
09:46And that would be me
09:48right in front of the chariot.
09:49You can barely see me.
09:51It was something that my grandfather
09:53started in our family.
09:55So every Saturday was race day.
09:57This is what country people do
09:58with their farm horses on Saturdays.
10:01It was fun.
10:02It was amazing.
10:03And nobody fights on that day.
10:06I wish every day was race day.
10:15When we would race our horses,
10:17Blaine had a helmet that he would wear
10:19in the chariot.
10:20And it was green.
10:21But we changed colors from green to yellow.
10:24So we bought $0.99 spray paint.
10:29Spray painted the helmet.
10:32And it was in our back washroom drying.
10:37And I went back there to get something,
10:40but I had, like, bumped it.
10:41And it fell off,
10:46so I picked it up
10:47and set it right back on there.
10:50Later on,
10:51when Blaine and my mom got home,
10:55all I heard from the back room
10:56from him was, like,
10:59what happened to the helmet?
11:01Always felt like I had to walk around eggshells
11:04around Blaine
11:05because it always changed.
11:08I never knew what I was going to be in trouble for.
11:10You just never knew what Blaine you were going to get,
11:12so you never knew what punishment
11:13you were going to get.
11:15I just,
11:16I knew it was all downhill from there.
11:19And decided the punishment was going to be
11:21to get hit with this rubber cooking spoon
11:25that my mom used.
11:30And I still remember to this day,
11:32like, he called it taking the position.
11:35I'd have to, like, bend over
11:36and put my hands on my knees
11:38and get ready for the spoon.
11:43Blaine enjoyed every minute of it.
11:47The more he saw you struggle
11:49or the more that he saw you in pain,
11:51the longer it took.
11:54It was the worst physical pain
11:57that I had felt
11:58up to that point in life.
12:01I could still hear the sound of it.
12:06I can, I can hear it hit me.
12:08I can hear how the sound that it would make
12:10as it was coming to hit me.
12:12And he just kept hitting me.
12:16It was miserable.
12:20Just knowing that the next one's coming.
12:22And that no one's going to stop him.
12:36And again, I'm sitting there
12:37in the middle of a punishment
12:38that I just don't understand.
12:41I don't get it.
12:43My mom was mad about it,
12:45but it wasn't,
12:48she wasn't mad because, like,
12:50did you see what you did to him
12:52or do you know how bad you hurt him?
12:54She was mad because she thought
12:55somebody was going to see it.
12:58So after that,
12:59it didn't stop anything.
13:01It just made it so,
13:03he had to be more creative
13:04and find ways to punish me
13:06without actually hitting me.
13:07As I got a little bit older,
13:22my mom and Blaine decided
13:24that I needed to do chores
13:25and started giving me
13:26a few responsibilities,
13:27which is fine.
13:28But one of my first responsibilities
13:30was to sweep out the garage.
13:32And I remember sweeping it
13:38and I remember doing
13:39a pretty good job.
13:41And I didn't know it,
13:43but the whole time I was doing it,
13:45he was watching me.
13:49And I swept everything up
13:51except for the last little bit
13:53that's usually there
13:55that nobody can get
13:56with a broom and a dustpan
13:58by themselves.
13:59And I remember taking the broom
14:00and just kind of pushing it
14:02off to the side.
14:10You all done?
14:12Just about.
14:14So he asked me
14:15what I was doing.
14:17And he's like,
14:18did you sweep it all up
14:18and get it out?
14:19And I said, yeah.
14:20Yes, sir.
14:22I was watching you.
14:24And so because I had lied to him,
14:26or I didn't tell him the truth
14:28the way he wanted to hear it,
14:29I guess,
14:30he decided to punish me
14:33because of that.
14:34Now, come on!
14:40So we had this, like,
14:41small crawl space
14:42under our house.
14:43It was like walking
14:44into a big, like, grave,
14:48like a big dirt grave.
14:49The air doesn't move in there.
14:54It just has dead spiders,
14:56dead mice.
14:58It just was a really desolate,
15:01horrible place.
15:04So that room,
15:07oh, man.
15:08he didn't even go down
15:14in that room.
15:15Like, nobody in the family
15:16would go down in there.
15:21I often didn't understand
15:23what it was
15:25I was being punished for,
15:27and I still didn't understand why.
15:28I just...
15:29I didn't get it.
15:33I just can't do that to somebody.
15:39I cannot go into crawl spaces
15:42to this day
15:42because I know I'm not there.
15:46I know I'm not in that room.
15:48But it stops me,
15:51and it freezes me,
15:52and I feel trapped.
15:54When I was in that room,
16:00there was no escape.
16:02There wasn't like,
16:03oh, if I can wait
16:04until he walks away
16:04and I can sneak out
16:05and stuff like that.
16:06No, there was no doing that.
16:10But I wasn't even able
16:10to talk to my mom
16:11about the abuse,
16:12and I wasn't able
16:13to open up and say anything,
16:14like, you know,
16:14that had been going on
16:16that, like...
16:16Because she was there
16:17for the majority of it,
16:18so I don't really know
16:20that, like,
16:20there was anything to tell her.
16:22It just felt lonely
16:23because my mom was,
16:24uh, she was, like, mute.
16:28Like, the way she dealt
16:29with it was by being silent.
16:33I didn't feel safe anymore.
16:35I really didn't.
16:36I didn't feel safe.
16:46So this is a picture
16:48of me in the background,
16:49and right here in the bottom,
16:51this would be our bird.
16:52but I think this one
16:55slipped past my mom.
16:57I think if she would have known
16:58that this was Blaine's leg
16:59right here
17:00and that that was
17:01any part of him,
17:02she just would have
17:03thrown it away.
17:04My mom destroyed anything
17:05with Blaine in it.
17:07And those would be
17:09his cowboy boots
17:10right there.
17:13Those are the boots.
17:14Those are the boots
17:15that I would get
17:16kicked with
17:1710,
17:1812,
17:1912,
17:2015 times a day
17:21because of my mom
17:22intervening over him
17:24hitting me with that spoon.
17:25He didn't, like,
17:26really spank me
17:26or physically,
17:27like, beat me
17:29for a while.
17:31But it was okay
17:32to kick me
17:33with the side of his boot.
17:34And if I flinched,
17:35he'd do it again.
17:36And if I tried to move,
17:37he would do it twice more.
17:38But it was humiliating
17:42to have to, like,
17:43stand there
17:43and wait to take it
17:45because it would happen
17:48in front of my mom
17:48or my sister.
17:49And, um,
17:51so it was just humiliating
17:55in front of everybody.
17:56My real father
18:14had moved to California.
18:16So every summer,
18:17my sister and I
18:18would go and see him
18:18for the first couple months
18:19of the summer
18:20and then come back home,
18:21get ready for school.
18:23But there was
18:25one particular year.
18:27I did not go.
18:30It had been, like,
18:31a, probably, like,
18:32a week,
18:33week and a half
18:33since my mom
18:34had talked to my sister.
18:36And so my mom
18:37tried to call my dad
18:39and my dad was saying,
18:40well, she's gonna live
18:42with me now.
18:43And she doesn't
18:43want to talk to you.
18:44She doesn't want to have
18:46anything to do
18:46with you anymore.
18:48I'm gonna fight for custody.
18:49She's gonna live with me.
18:51And so my mom
18:51started freaking out
18:52and wanted to speak.
18:55To my sister,
18:56he wasn't having it.
18:57My dad wasn't having it.
18:59Put her on the phone.
19:02So Blaine got on the phone
19:04and Blaine told him
19:05that, like,
19:06I, you have about
19:08an hour
19:09to make plane reservations
19:10or I'm gonna be
19:11on your front doorstep
19:12in 12 hours
19:13and you won't like it
19:14if I get there.
19:16The things I heard him say
19:18scared me
19:19because I knew
19:19that he was capable.
19:22It wasn't yelling
19:24over the phone.
19:26It was the most convincing,
19:28scary, soft tone,
19:32evil thing
19:32that you could imagine
19:33a person saying.
19:35But it was the really,
19:36the calm
19:37and scariness of it
19:39that made it real.
19:42It was terrifying.
19:43And he hung up
19:44like my sister was home
19:46like two or three days later.
20:00It was like a,
20:01I guess it could be
20:01considered a family night.
20:03We were just sitting
20:04and watching TV.
20:05We were watching PBS
20:06during fundraising time.
20:11It kind of started off
20:12like we were joking
20:13about how nervous
20:14the girl looked
20:15and how she kept
20:16fumbling over her lines
20:18and like,
20:18oh my gosh,
20:19this is live TV.
20:20She's terrible.
20:22And so Blaine decided
20:24to make it
20:24more fun for him.
20:27Call now.
20:28Call the number
20:28on your screen.
20:29You'll see.
20:30He said,
20:31you guys watch this.
20:33And he called
20:33the pledge number
20:34and within a few minutes
20:36he had convinced
20:37the people at PBS
20:38that he was going
20:39to donate
20:39a large amount of money
20:41and that he just wanted
20:43to thank the girl
20:45that was on TV.
20:47Thank you so much.
20:48And he went
20:51from thanking her
20:52to telling her
20:52that like,
20:53I'm going to hunt you down
20:54and gut you like a fish.
20:57I could see the fear
20:59on that lady's eyes
21:01on live television.
21:02I was more terrified
21:03when I heard him
21:04talking to that lady
21:06that way
21:06because it was just
21:07so attainable
21:09for Blaine.
21:10Like,
21:10it sounds real.
21:13But he scared
21:14this woman
21:15and the absolute terror
21:17that was in her face
21:18was really funny
21:19for him.
21:21To make that switch
21:22and to flip over
21:23into like,
21:25demon mode,
21:26I guess,
21:26it just,
21:27it was very easy
21:28for him.
21:29She's leaving.
21:30I try to like,
21:40think of any
21:41of his like,
21:42female victims.
21:43Like,
21:44I just can't even imagine
21:46like,
21:47the whole,
21:49the,
21:49had to have been
21:50left in their existence
21:51from,
21:52from him
21:53just being
21:54in their world
21:55for a few minutes
21:56and,
21:57man,
22:00I feel so bad
22:02for
22:03every,
22:05everybody that
22:06he hurt.
22:09I,
22:10I can't apologize
22:11enough,
22:12but it doesn't,
22:13I know it doesn't
22:14really mean a whole lot.
22:15I'm not his advocate,
22:17not his lawyer.
22:18I,
22:18I don't,
22:19I don't know
22:20how it feels,
22:20but I,
22:21I,
22:21I,
22:21I've been hit
22:24by that train.
22:33As I got older,
22:34Blaine started taking me
22:35out on the road
22:36with him.
22:38Those times,
22:40Blaine was different.
22:43I,
22:43I didn't have to worry
22:49about getting kicked
22:50and to have to
22:51take the position
22:51or get hit
22:52or,
22:53you know,
22:53I didn't have to worry
22:53about him
22:54backhanding me
22:55or just anything
22:56when we were
22:59in the truck.
23:02For me,
23:03it was amazing.
23:03I was seeing
23:05the world
23:05from a semi-truck.
23:08I get to eat
23:09beef jerky
23:10and trash food
23:11for a couple days
23:12and soda
23:12and he would treat me,
23:14we'd get along,
23:14he would treat me like,
23:15more like a friend.
23:17He treated me like,
23:18almost like an equal.
23:20So, one night,
23:24we had just gotten
23:25onto the freeway
23:26and we were on the freeway
23:27for maybe seven
23:28or eight minutes.
23:29A highway patrolman
23:30started waving
23:31for us to pull over.
23:35So, as we were
23:37getting pulled over,
23:38Blaine reached back
23:41into the camper
23:41part of the sleeper
23:42and he grabbed
23:43a handgun
23:44and put it
23:49underneath my seat
23:51and told me
23:52to sit on it
23:52and told me
23:53that unless the cops
23:54told me to get out
23:55of the truck
23:55to stay where I was sitting.
23:59I don't know
24:00if he'd stolen the gun
24:01or committed a crime
24:02with it,
24:02but he definitely
24:03didn't want them
24:03to see it.
24:05You don't question it,
24:06you just,
24:06you do what you're told.
24:07And so,
24:11he got out
24:12and he talked
24:13to them
24:13for a few minutes
24:14and then
24:17one of the police officers
24:18opened up
24:19the driver door
24:20and said,
24:21your dad's
24:21getting arrested
24:22and his boss
24:24is coming
24:25to pick up
24:25the truck
24:25and take you home.
24:28And so,
24:29that was it.
24:31Like,
24:31Blaine was under arrest.
24:35Blaine's boss
24:36bailed him out
24:36immediately.
24:37We were back
24:38on the road
24:38as planned
24:39and Blaine
24:41never even said
24:41another thing
24:42to me about it.
24:42I still don't know
24:43what they pulled us
24:44over for.
24:44He never told me.
24:46My mom never spoke
24:47of it,
24:47so it got swept
24:48under the rug
24:49as far as,
24:50like,
24:50it was none
24:51of my business.
24:51but it was,
24:53they were looking
24:54for him.
25:09He would spend,
25:10like,
25:10extended times
25:11away from the truck.
25:13Like,
25:14during the times
25:14when I was sleeping,
25:16sometimes it just,
25:17I would kind of wake up
25:18and realize
25:18the truck wasn't moving,
25:20but it was running.
25:20But Blaine wouldn't be
25:21in the truck
25:22and I knew better
25:23than to get out
25:24and go wandering around
25:25and looking for him.
25:27You know,
25:28we weren't just
25:28pulling over
25:29and taking a break.
25:31But in residential areas,
25:32we were kind of,
25:33like,
25:33pulled over
25:34and stopped
25:35for large,
25:36weird,
25:37just odd amounts
25:38of times,
25:38like when we should
25:39be driving
25:39and going
25:40and getting another load
25:41and coming
25:42and dropping it off.
25:43We're, like,
25:44in a neighborhood
25:45for no reason.
25:46so it was, like,
25:49not just the amount
25:50of time,
25:50but, like,
25:51the odd times,
25:52like the witching hours,
25:53you know,
25:54that people are out
25:56doing bad stuff.
25:57Those were the times
25:58that he was saying
25:58that he was working.
26:00But there was just,
26:01there was gaps.
26:02My mom came
26:16and picked me up
26:17from school one day,
26:18which was very,
26:19very odd
26:20because I would walk
26:21every day.
26:22And when I got
26:23into the car,
26:24she was crying
26:24and, like,
26:25like sobbing,
26:26kind of crying.
26:27And had been all day,
26:29her eyes were puffy
26:30and stuff.
26:31I could tell she was
26:32a mess.
26:33And, uh,
26:35so she's like,
26:35I came and picked you up
26:36because I need to talk
26:37to you.
26:38And, uh,
26:38so she just,
26:40like,
26:42blurted it all out.
26:43She says, like,
26:44I'm just telling you
26:45that, like,
26:46Blaine's not coming home.
26:51And I probably
26:52was one of the first
26:53people that she was
26:54able to talk to
26:55about it.
26:55So she kind of
26:56just exploded
26:56and, um,
26:58said that Blaine
26:59had cheated on her.
27:02I remember in my head
27:04thinking, like,
27:04well, you know,
27:05what are we going to do
27:05now?
27:06And so my mom,
27:07you know,
27:07reassured me that
27:08she was going to,
27:09that I'm here
27:10and it's just me,
27:11you and your sister
27:12again.
27:13And it had been a long
27:14time since I'd heard
27:15her say that.
27:16And so there we were.
27:17Like, we were at that.
27:19I didn't feel,
27:20I didn't feel relief
27:22because, like I said,
27:25over the few years
27:26leading up to that,
27:27I didn't feel 100%
27:30safe with my mom
27:31either.
27:34I didn't want him
27:35to come back,
27:36but he was,
27:37he was my dad.
27:38He was my father figure.
27:40That was,
27:40that was,
27:41that was what I was
27:42dealt with.
27:47It was different for my mom
27:48and for my sister.
27:50They experienced
27:51their own thing.
27:52You know,
27:52my mom lost her husband
27:54and to my sister,
27:55she lost his stepdad,
27:56but I lost my father figure
27:58and my,
27:59and my stepdad.
28:01So,
28:01it was a punch.
28:03It was a big punch.
28:16I went through a really,
28:18crazy stage
28:20over the immediate fallout
28:22from that.
28:24I,
28:25I had a,
28:29a small little cubby hole
28:32that was above my closet.
28:41And I feel safe.
28:48And so,
28:49I would like hide up in there
28:51and I would sleep up
28:52in that cubby hole.
28:56So,
28:57it was just easier
28:58to like hide.
28:59and,
29:00all that time he punished me
29:16and would isolate me
29:18and make me be more myself.
29:21And in the end,
29:24that's the only place
29:28I got any peace.
29:30That's the only way
29:30I would feel okay.
29:34As if I closed everybody off
29:37and closed everything out.
29:38I really believe that Blaine
29:59was gone for good.
30:00It had been about
30:02two years since he left
30:04and
30:05one morning I woke up
30:08and
30:09surprise,
30:12he's back.
30:15He was there
30:16with his bathrobe on.
30:18He said,
30:19like,
30:20and this is something
30:20that I haven't told you,
30:21he never called me my name.
30:22A piece of
30:28never called me my name.
30:32He had a nickname for me
30:34and I just don't want to say it.
30:36I just,
30:37I don't want to repeat it.
30:39He said,
30:40hi Ryan,
30:40but instead of Ryan,
30:41he called me that nickname
30:42that he always called me.
30:43So,
30:44it was almost like
30:45going all the way back.
30:48There he was.
30:50It was like the gut punch,
30:51like a little bit of disgust,
30:52a little bit of like
30:53the bewilderment.
30:55Why are you here?
30:57My mom just told me.
30:58Blaine hired a private
30:59investigator a long time ago
31:01and he knew where we were
31:01at the whole time.
31:04He seemed like a,
31:06like,
31:07a kid with a big old
31:09lollipop in his hand.
31:10He was happy.
31:11You could tell that like
31:11he was back with my mom,
31:14like,
31:14that little smirky smirk.
31:17He was there to stay.
31:18It didn't seem like
31:19he was leaving that day
31:20or anytime soon.
31:22I don't get scared
31:27when I watch
31:29horror movies
31:31because
31:33those people
31:34are,
31:36they just,
31:36they're not as scary
31:37as,
31:38like,
31:40my stepdad.
31:40once.
31:50When Blaine came back
31:52into our lives,
31:52I was a little bit leery
31:53of his intentions.
31:56But he was trying
31:57to just be a father
31:58and a husband.
32:00But I think
32:01that's what makes him
32:02the most dangerous
32:03because he had
32:06all of the masks
32:07that were necessary
32:08to fool everybody.
32:13Blaine said
32:14that he was working
32:14two different
32:15part-time jobs
32:16and so
32:17he would go away
32:18for long stretches
32:20of time.
32:23And then one morning
32:24he left
32:25and he just
32:26didn't come back.
32:27A couple days
32:32went by
32:32and
32:33then there was
32:34just a small
32:35clipping that my mom
32:36had cut out of the paper
32:37and she's like,
32:38here,
32:38I need to show you this
32:39and she just
32:39showed it to me.
32:40She didn't say a word.
32:41It just said
32:42local man
32:43has been arrested
32:45for rape.
32:49When I read it
32:50I was almost like,
32:51okay,
32:52like,
32:53that's horrible.
32:54Like,
32:54local man arrested
32:55for rape.
32:56I'm like,
32:56what does this mean?
32:57She's like,
32:57it's Blaine.
33:03And
33:03it's like,
33:05I feel like,
33:05like,
33:08the color,
33:08like,
33:09leave my own face.
33:13The story was like,
33:14Mr. Nelson
33:15is accused
33:17of 17 rapes
33:18but is admitting
33:19to over 100
33:20nationwide
33:21and you hear
33:23something like that
33:24and you're like,
33:25it just doesn't,
33:27it doesn't register.
33:29It doesn't register
33:30like,
33:31like,
33:31because I know
33:32what damage
33:35he did
33:35to our family.
33:38Now there's a,
33:38there's a,
33:39there's like
33:43100 other
33:44families out there,
33:45100 other women
33:48that have to try
33:50and explain that
33:50to their children
33:51or to their husbands
33:52or,
33:53you know,
33:53if they don't have
33:54any of that,
33:54like,
33:55they,
33:56there are 100
33:57other women
33:57out there
33:58that,
34:02wow,
34:03so I'm looking
34:16at a police report
34:17from Ogden
34:19police.
34:23In 1983,
34:24he went into an apartment
34:26with the intention
34:27of stealing money
34:28or purses.
34:31A girl was asleep
34:32with no clothes on.
34:35He took advantage
34:36of her
34:36in the moment
34:37and raped her
34:38and that is
34:40what started him.
34:43Number two
34:44was the Apple Grove
34:45apartments.
34:46He said the girl
34:47had two children
34:48and believed
34:49this rape occurred
34:50in 1984.
34:55One of the worst
34:56things that's on here
34:57is that the dollar
34:59amounts are there
35:00from the women
35:00that he stole.
35:01He got into a purse
35:02and stole $2.
35:05He got into a purse
35:06and stole $17.
35:07Number six,
35:13Nelson explained
35:14how he entered
35:15the house
35:15and had intercourse
35:17with the victim.
35:24Number seven,
35:26Nelson said
35:27that the keys
35:27were left
35:28in the door
35:29and had intercourse
35:32with the victim.
35:37It looks like
35:42there's at least
35:4225 in this report.
35:44That's all the ones
35:45that I see
35:45in this report.
35:48Nelson explained
35:49that there were more
35:50but at this time
35:51he doesn't remember
35:52where they are.
36:03Nelson said
36:03that he would
36:04pick the houses
36:05by the looks
36:06of their yards.
36:07the cars around it
36:09and he would simply
36:11go from house to house
36:12and checking doors.
36:13He said that
36:14you would be surprised
36:15the amount of doors
36:16that people would
36:17leave open.
36:20It also became a game
36:22to see if the police
36:24could catch him.
36:27Why did you last there?
36:29Because I was
36:30a witness to game,
36:32to blame playing games
36:33with the cops
36:33by driving 100 miles
36:34an hour past me
36:35and running from the cops
36:36and you can see
36:37no matter what it was
36:38whether he's out
36:39like playing a board game
36:41or whether he's
36:42like violating
36:43a woman's life
36:44it's still a game.
36:46It was still a game
36:47to him
36:48and that's just not fair
36:49to any of these women.
36:50Like I hate seeing
36:52I hate seeing it
36:53like this
36:53because you know
36:56that behind every one
36:56of these black marks
36:57is somebody's name.
36:58it's just
37:03it's another
37:04it's just
37:05it's another gut punch
37:06and I
37:07I feel horrible.
37:10I can't
37:11I can't even put into words
37:12how I feel.
37:12I don't know
37:32it's been
37:32a minute
37:35since I
37:36like
37:37even talked to my mom
37:38my sister
37:39like we don't have
37:39a relationship
37:40like at all
37:41I just don't want to
37:43face it
37:44or talk about it.
37:46I wish my mom
37:47would have said anything
37:48that's something
37:49that came from
37:50in here
37:51that
37:52that wasn't
37:53something that she felt
37:55like she had to say
37:56because that's what
37:56parents say
37:57like I'm sorry
37:59you're messed up
38:00in this
38:01I'm sorry
38:01that this is your life now
38:04but we're going to get
38:05through it
38:05kind of thing
38:06it just
38:07it didn't happen.
38:10I just want to say
38:11to my mom
38:11and my sister
38:12that if they do
38:13end up seeing this
38:14that
38:14I know you both
38:18have a story too
38:19and
38:21I would like to hear it
38:23before it's too late.
38:24after Blaine left
38:37it took a while
38:38but I started to find
38:39a little bit of relief
38:40the monster was gone
38:43I don't know
38:46if it's going to do
38:47any good
38:47to tell my story
38:48after so long
38:49but
38:51there's a lot of people
38:53out there that
38:54probably never caught
38:56their boogeymen
38:57and
39:03so I don't know
39:05it may do
39:06nothing to come
39:08and talk to you guys
39:09in the end
39:10but hopefully it will
39:11like
39:11for some of his
39:14I don't know
39:14for me
39:15for some of his other victims
39:16for my mom
39:18and for my sister
39:19that still
39:20don't want to
39:22acknowledge any of this
39:23it's like
39:27still walking on thin ice
39:29there's spots
39:30and there's times
39:31if you
39:31sometimes if you stop
39:32you might hear
39:33a couple cracks
39:34underneath you
39:34but you gotta keep moving
39:35or you're gonna fall
39:36and there are some days
39:38where
39:38it swallows me whole
39:40but those are the days
39:46that I
39:46will try to find
39:49some
39:50solace
39:51with my children
39:52or
39:52with my grandbaby
39:54I have such a
39:57beautiful wife
39:58and family
39:58that
39:59they don't deserve
40:00for me to
40:02wallow in it
40:04they deserve
40:06for me to be present
40:07you know
40:09maybe there's
40:10maybe there's a kid
40:12out there
40:13that's locked
40:15in a crawl space
40:16or something
40:17that the next time
40:18they get out
40:19they'll call somebody
40:20or they'll say something
40:21and it won't happen anymore
40:23that you're
40:34committed a violent
40:35act
40:35yeah
40:35but my wife
40:37I cut her with a
40:38broken eye
40:38I just felt
40:39helpless again
40:41like
40:42he grabbed a hold of me
40:47and threw me down
40:49on the bed
40:50and was choking me
40:51I'm thinking to myself
40:53I'm pregnant
40:54and he's trying
40:55to kill me
40:56I've seen this look
40:58right before
40:59he explodes
41:00people call him
41:01a monster
41:02and keep
41:02calling him evil
41:04it's probably
41:05because it's true
41:05my mother was
41:07strangled
41:08so severely
41:10her lunatics
41:11was snapped in half
41:12as far as
41:13I'm concerned
41:14I don't have a brother
41:15I hope God
41:16does not have
41:16mercy on his soul
41:17he got that
41:19gun
41:20and he started
41:21beating me with it
41:22he was like
41:23a monster
41:24when they just
41:25hatch
41:26hatch
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