00:00I wasn't really like living my life I was just like going through the motions I was in grad
00:28school I didn't really know like what I wanted to do with with my life and then when I started
00:35medically transitioning when I started testosterone I started to realize like oh like my life can be
00:41what I want I fell in love with the gym and I haven't stopped going since I also didn't know
00:59anything about fitness I didn't know how how equipment worked I didn't know like what a rep
01:04was I didn't know what I said I didn't know what anything was so I'm going in there for the first
01:08time and it was just like okay tunnel vision like I I made my plan I'm gonna stick to it I'm gonna
01:15figure it out no one is really paying attention to you I mean of course you have those few you know
01:27rude people who are gonna pay attention to you but the majority they're paying attention to what
01:31they're doing and they don't care what you are doing normal bodybuilding shows have like classic
01:43um physique wellness but transformation is where you can show you know how much weight you've lost
01:49on stage it doesn't really matter like you know the aesthetics of bodybuilding you're gonna have
02:14peaks and valleys um you're gonna go through days where you don't want to you know do what you need
02:19to do but you just kind of like do it and then don't beat yourself up over it as long as you don't
02:25give up then you're not failing
