00:00hi my name is Alicia and if this is your first time visiting my channel welcome this is part
00:20two rest in peace Angus Cloud so I just want to say like off the record just to kind of like
00:24piggyback off the first part real quick I was treated so badly after watching friends pass
00:31away from suicide and overdoses that the only way I can make sense of it is to help somebody else and
00:38I'm sending good vibes and I hope that no one ever had to lose anybody in that way but if if you find
00:48yourself in that situation I just want to be a friend I just want to be there and sit in silence
00:51with you I'm not going to even act like I know what to say because I don't just because I've
00:55experienced a lot of it I'm not an expert I just want to sit there and be with you not disappear
01:01not leave text on read not say nothing just be your friend and so I just want to get into the
01:09acting part because Angus Cloud I was reading up on him a little bit and I noticed that he didn't
01:17have a lot of acting credits before he became a big star and I just want to encourage other actors
01:23and actresses out there keep going for it because I think a lot of people always talk about well acting
01:31is not a job and you can't get paid doing that and you won't be successful in it they always send
01:39all this negative energy because they just don't think you can make it they don't they just don't see
01:43it as a real job and my advice personally sometimes you just have to get away from your family or
01:50friends and go for it because I believe you can be successful in it okay to add a little tidbit
01:58um I don't generally ask for help because I don't like to burden people and I've been treated so badly
02:05but I saw this one quote that says um you like to take care of others in ways that you wish you
02:14were taken care of yeah I mean especially going through grief and death like I don't want people
02:20to feel abandoned in the same way as I was so even if I could just sit in silence with you because I
02:27wasn't asking for my friends at the time to give up their holidays and spend your whole weekend and
02:33spend your whole week with me I just wanted a little bit and since a little bit was just so
02:39hard I just sort of made up my mind hey you know what I'm just going to live the solo life and
02:45not trust people as much and not let people in so easily and I actually wrote a whole article on how
02:51to thrive as a loner and I've been getting a lot of feedback on it like damn like there are some people
02:58out here who had to do it on uh their own like me like we've had no choice you're either going to
03:04figure it out or you're not so that's the point of my life that I'm in right now I'm at that point
03:10where hey I'm going to either figure it out or I'm not uh when you look on my youtube channels I'm not
03:16sitting here talking about oh I lost friends to this or that every day I'm living my life doing things
03:22just being a happy person traveling eating food posting food you're not going to hear me talk about
03:29it all the time but I do I am very careful about who I let in my life and I even gotten readings saying
03:39don't be so distant from people and everybody's not going to come into your life to hurt you I'm like
03:44well sorry but I feel that way and how about I do a better job of having better boundaries and
03:51cutting people off quicker and that's basically what I decided to do just another tidbit in fact
03:59I am going to go ahead and read a couple of things that I found on Atlanta's acting collective that I
04:08find to be really cool in fact while this loads let me go ahead and uh hit pause and I will be right back
04:18so here's a little list from Atlanta actors collective on how to support your acting friends
04:27and family members yeah here we go do not refer to anything we're doing as little it's not cute or
04:34funny fix the way you speak to us about our careers it's wildly disrespectful we show you grace because
04:39we're nice it's tiring our work is just as important as yours don't you watch tv exactly or maybe you feel
04:45like your work isn't important we don't know but we are artists and we're sensitive about our shit
04:50word to Erica we don't hear back about every audition stop asking seriously we might audition
04:56between two to twenty times in a month we hear back if you book a role or if we're put on hold for it
05:02otherwise we don't hear anything don't make us feel bad for canceling plans for an audition sometimes
05:07they come fast and furious quick deadlines and a lot of pages making us feel bad doesn't help
05:13if we had to cancel we're sorry just consider us doctors on call gotta understand don't ask us what
05:19our plan b is if acting doesn't work out just don't nothing wrong with us having a business that
05:25support our craft but a fallback plan come on now you're straddling the wildly disrespectful
05:29it cut me off so let me try the last part again don't ask what plan b is if acting doesn't work out
05:37just don't nothing wrong with us having businesses that support our craft but a fallback plan
05:44come on now you're straddling the wildly disrespectful line again
05:48to finish off here's something from third eye thoughts i stopped sending paragraphs stopped begging
05:58i stopped telling people how to treat me and started walking away blocking and distancing myself
06:02life is becoming more peaceful sometimes being alone in life is better than being surrounded
06:07by half-assed people you glow differently when your confidence is fueled by the belief in yourself
06:12instead of the validation from others woman of mindset steve bellow music don't let anyone who
06:19hasn't been in your shoes tell you how to tie your shoelaces by inspiring souls also and here's one
06:26more that i saw on facebook the other day tiny buddha official also by sacred soul energy healing
06:33do you know what happens when you decide to stop worrying about what other people might think of
06:38you you get to dance you get to sing you get to laugh loudly you get to paint right and create you get
06:45to be yourself you know what some people won't like you some will laugh or mock or point out flaws
06:50but it won't just it won't bother you as much so let me try that again voice don't go out on me
07:00some will laugh or mock or point out flaws but it just won't bother you all that much
07:07and then here's another one that kind of thought off the top of my head
07:10um you won't be broken by people's silence when your validation doesn't come from their claps or
07:17their likes i also stopped caring about who likes my photos on social media and who views my stories
07:22i don't care so just a couple of thoughts and yeah let's get on to the acting part give me one second
07:31here's a couple more quotes if you're lucky enough to do work that you care about
07:40you should just try to do work that you care about then focus on the work is what's important
07:45not the accolades that come from it adrian warren actors are some of the most driven courageous
07:53people on the face of the earth they deal with more day-to-day rejection in one year than most
07:57people do in a lifetime everyday actors face a financial challenge of living a freelance lifestyle
08:04the disrespect of people who think they should get real jobs and their own fear that they'll never
08:09work again every day they have to ignore the possibility that their vision they have dedicated
08:14their lives to is a pipe dream with every role they stretch themselves emotionally and physically
08:19risking criticism and judgment with every passing year meaning them watch as other people their
08:24age achieve the predictable milestones of a normal life you know the car the family the house
08:30the nest egg why because actors are willing to give their entire lives to a moment to that line
08:35that laugh that gesture that that gesture or that interpretation that will stir the audience's soul
08:43actors or beings who have tasted life's nectar in that crystal moment when they poured out their
08:48creative spirit and touched another's heart in that instant they were closest magic and perfection
08:54as anyone could ever be and in their hope and and in their own hearts they know that to dedicate
09:02one self in that moment it's worth a thousand lifetimes david ecker so just some general advice that i have
09:12on how you can support uh your actor friends doing things number one just simply ask them what you can do
09:19to be supportive number two keep your negative mindset about acting and filming and how you think it may not be
09:30able to get money or how you might not be able to earn money to yourself and share their projects
09:36without um them having to ask you like if you just go above and beyond because most of the time like
09:45most of your actor and music friends your creative friends will dm you saying hey can you share this
09:49if you can just take the uh additional steps to share their projects that would be great
09:54oh one more thing be supportive of others until your time comes because i think there's too much
10:01jealousy out here there's enough room at the table for everyone to be successful so stop being jealous
10:07and clap for others until your time comes and rest in peace angus cloud uh your story is basically an
10:13inspiration to all of us still on earth that we can make it and if i think of any more i'll let you know
10:19but i think i'm going to go ahead and cut this now so thanks for watching
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