00:00I would describe my style as alternative princess Bratz doll.
00:06I've gotten so many requests of people to see me
00:08without tattoos or covering my tattoos with makeup.
00:11And I'm like, no, I'm not ready to do that.
00:14But today I am.
00:16My mom hasn't seen me without tattoos in over 10 years.
00:20You look like a little girl.
00:24Don't make me cry.
00:26I have a lot of feelings right now.
00:28Can we stop for a second?
00:31I'm sorry.
00:35When I was a kid, I was finding myself.
00:37I tried the preppy thing.
00:39Then of course I became an emo kid
00:41and that kind of developed
00:42into just the general alternative aesthetic.
00:46Then that evolved also into like a sporty vibe.
00:49But now I'm back to what I feel is truly my roots
00:51which is an alternative princess.
00:55I started getting tattoos the day after my 18th birthday.
00:58And that's only because the shop was closed
00:59on my 18th birthday.
01:01My favorite tattoo visually is the one on my back
01:04but my favorite tattoo sentimentally
01:06would be the one of my mom's handwriting.
01:08This is a tattoo of my dog.
01:10He is my prince.
01:11He's the king of my entire world.
01:12His name is Godfrey.
01:14My followers would always be like,
01:16why don't you cover it with makeup
01:17and see how you feel about it.
01:19But I've always avoided it
01:20because I didn't want it to make me sad.
01:25I started getting tattoos to help with my confidence
01:28but now I regret some of them.
01:30I feel very nervous about covering them up.
01:32Definitely a little anxious.
01:34I'm going to be revealing my transformation to my mom.
01:38All right, mom.
01:39My box of clothes came from my transformation.
01:42It's exciting.
01:43Let's see what it is.
01:45I can't wait to see what it is.
01:49Oh God.
01:51What is this?
01:53I don't know.
01:54What is it?
01:55Would never wear this dress.
01:57Super clash moment with my current skin situation.
02:00But yeah, so that's a definite no.
02:03Like these aren't even earrings to me.
02:04This is a nose ring.
02:06Like literally this is a nose ring.
02:09Luckily I had my stretch ears sewn up.
02:12So my ear lobes are significantly smaller.
02:14Now if I had my big thicky lobes,
02:17these would have been hanging on by a thread.
02:20Godfrey, are you going to recognize me
02:21when I don't look like a coloring book anymore?
02:25I'm sorry.
02:26One of the things that I'm nervous about
02:28is how you will feel seeing yourself without tattoos.
02:33And I get a little emotional because I don't know
02:37because sometimes you have a little mixed feelings
02:40about how many tattoos you have.
02:42And I'm a little nervous for that.
02:44I'm a lot nervous for that.
02:46I really am.
02:47And I'm concerned for you.
02:49Love you.
02:54Hi!
02:55Hello, hi.
02:57My name is Aima.
02:59I'm a makeup artist.
03:00Oh, nice to meet you.
03:01I'm MJ.
03:01Nice to meet you.
03:03I'm so excited.
03:04I know, me too.
03:05Hi.
03:22I've never covered up this many tattoos in my life.
03:31Yes, we all finished.
03:34Are you ready to see a transformation?
03:36Yes, I'm ready.
03:37There you go.
03:48It's so strange.
03:49I mean, I feel like me, myself, I feel like I look good.
03:53Like I look good without the tattoos.
03:55Like it's somehow not as shocking
03:59as I thought it would be.
04:00Looking at myself now, like, I'm still special.
04:03Like it's not my tattoos that made me special and unique.
04:06Like I'm what makes me special and unique.
04:09So I don't want to get emotional,
04:11but I have a lot of feelings right now.
04:19Can we stop for a second?
04:21I think what I am expecting is to see the little girl
04:26that I knew before the tattoos.
04:28And it might be difficult.
04:31Oh my God.
04:35I...
04:38I'm speechless, really.
04:41Why are you emotional?
04:41I don't know,
04:42because you do look like the little girl.
04:45You look like a little girl.
04:48Don't make me cry.
04:52So how are you feeling internally though?
04:55I cried.
04:56You did cry?
04:57Just because like, for me,
04:59like, I still feel like, oh, I'm going to cry again.
05:03I always thought like my tattoos were what made me
05:05like special and like unique and gave me confidence.
05:09But like seeing myself without them,
05:11like I still feel really, really pretty.
05:13Like I still feel like me.
05:15Like that's not what makes me me.
05:17Like it's like such a small part of my identity.
05:21That's a good thing.
05:22Yeah, like it honestly made me feel better.
05:23Cause I'm like, wow, like, yeah, I didn't,
05:25I'm not happy,
05:26like super happy with all the decisions that I've made,
05:29but like, who's to say I would have been happy
05:31with whatever my other decisions were.
05:33It's like, I'm still me.
05:34Like it literally doesn't matter.
05:36I think that's a great outcome.
05:37Yeah, me too.
05:39I'm very surprised.
05:42I'm not as stressed anymore.
05:44Although I wish I could have done things differently
05:46and starting over would be really cool.
05:48And I really do like how my skin looks like this.
05:51I still wouldn't change anything.
05:53Cause this is part of my journey
05:54and this is what makes me me.
05:57And even having like the emotional capacity
05:58to reflect on myself and my choices
06:00and why I've done the things I've done
06:02also makes me me and is part of my journey.
06:04So I'm grateful for the experience.
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