00:00 I always thought that it was impossible for me to lose any weight.
00:03 I just thought that that was my life.
00:06 At my heaviest, it was in the early 400s,
00:10 I would eat till I vomited.
00:12 When I was in my early 20s, I started making changes,
00:17 which has led to the most dramatic part of my transformation.
00:20 I've lost approximately 250 pounds.
00:24 I always knew that I was going to have excess skin,
00:29 but I didn't know to the extent that it would affect me.
00:32 So this here is all excess skin from the weight loss that I'm going to have taken off.
00:38 My surgery takes place in six days.
00:41 Yeah, I'm completely terrified.
00:45 There's never not been a time when I wasn't overweight.
00:52 I was told that I was morbidly obese in high school.
00:57 When I was a child, I would eat an entire loaf of store-bought bread,
01:00 and then I would eat something after that.
01:03 I would eat till I vomited.
01:06 I do think that sometimes my overeating was just a way to comfort myself.
01:12 I think it was kind of like a cycle.
01:15 Like I was eating because I was overweight,
01:17 and I was overweight because I was like eating so much.
01:20 At my heaviest, it was in the early 400s.
01:24 After that, I just never kept track.
01:25 It's not something that you want to hear.
01:27 Like you know it's not good for you.
01:29 When I was in my early 20s, I started making changes to my diet.
01:37 Not to lose weight, but just to be a bit more healthy.
01:41 Because I always thought that it was impossible for me to lose any weight.
01:45 I just thought that that was my life.
01:47 So the big dramatic turning point,
01:53 it was four years ago is when I started working with my personal trainer, Nancy.
01:57 I lost 10 pounds. I lost 20 pounds. I lost 30 pounds.
02:01 Last 18 months, I've lost the last 100 pounds,
02:05 but also incorporated exercise and weight training into that,
02:09 which has led to the most dramatic part of my transformation.
02:12 I've lost approximately 250 pounds.
02:19 [Sighs]
02:20 Remember when we used to train at the beginning?
02:37 We were in the studio and we'd be like, "I can't do this."
02:40 And you'd be like, "Nope, nope."
02:41 You'd just kind of lunge and then you can't do it.
02:43 And then now it's like, look at you,
02:44 like doing all this sh*t in front of all these people on the track in Williamsburg.
02:48 It's amazing. You should be so proud of yourself.
02:51 Yeah, a little.
02:52 But I wouldn't be at this point right here.
02:54 Like, don't listen to her. She's really humble.
02:56 But I would not be at this point right now without having her there.
03:00 So, yeah, she won't admit that, but it's 100% true.
03:04 It would not even be a possibility, I think so.
03:07 Thank you for... It's a team. It's a team effort.
03:11 It is. It is a team effort.
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03:18 I always knew that I was going to have excess skin,
03:21 but I didn't know to the extent that it would affect me.
03:24 There was a particular moment where I just realized that
03:28 this was not the feeling I expected to have.
03:32 I realized that this was actually making me feel worse.
03:37 And because I had envisioned what I would look like in my head,
03:42 and I did not look like that.
03:43 So this here is all excess skin from my weight loss that I'm going to have taken off.
03:50 They're removing, having all of my abdomen done,
03:54 from the bottom all the way up to the top of my rib cage.
04:00 My surgery takes place in six days.
04:03 Having skin removal surgery, it just...
04:06 For me, it's like closing this chapter of my life,
04:09 and I feel like I could just completely move on from it.
04:13 Are you nervous about it?
04:15 Yeah, I'm completely terrified.
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04:31 The surgeon estimated that he removed approximately 10 pounds of skin.
04:35 When the bandages first came off,
04:37 the first thing that I noticed was how completely flat my stomach was.
04:43 Pretty much every morning when I wake up,
04:45 the first thing I do before I get dressed is just look at myself in the mirror,
04:49 because it's not so much an exciting thing for me,
04:53 as it is just kind of like a surreal thing for me to have
04:59 none of that excess skin kind of just folded over.
05:02 It's going to take me quite a while for me to get used to the fact that it's not there.
05:07 It's kind of just kind of like how I have like kind of phantom fat,
05:11 where I still think that it's there.
05:14 And then I'll just like sometimes rest my hands like on my hips,
05:17 and just be like, "Okay, like that's flat."
05:20 It's still very weird to get used to.
05:24 There's been plenty of times where I completely dropped everything that I was doing,
05:29 and gained weight back.
05:31 There was even a point where I gained back 65 pounds,
05:34 but then I lost it again, and then some more.
05:37 So just keep going, stay consistent,
05:41 and don't be discouraged when you fail at your diet,
05:44 because you will always fail at your diet.
05:46 You just need to know when to get back on it again.
05:51 And I did happen to find this tucked away in my closet somewhere
05:55 that I didn't even know I still owned.
05:56 This was my old winter coat, which was an extra, extra large.
06:01 All right.
06:07 Let's see if the buttons fit.
06:10 It's weird because I don't remember ever being this size.
06:16 Probably fit another two of me in here with this jacket.
06:22 Extra small.
06:24 Yeah, my current jacket is an extra small, so yeah, I've come a long way.
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