00:00It makes me quite angry to think that I was treated so differently back then.
00:21When I say about skinny privilege or pretty privilege, that is not everyone falling at
00:27your feet, not everyone suddenly fancying pants off you and wanting to date you and things like
00:33that. It's, for me, my experience of it is like really basic human things that people probably
00:40don't even really think about. Things, literally things like someone holding the door open for you
00:45in a corridor or someone smiling at you from across the street, things like that. You know,
00:52walking into like a break room at work and people actually talking to you and wanting to have a
00:57conversation with you, things, real basic things that maybe, and I'm not saying for everyone, but
01:03maybe for people that haven't been big, that is just normal for them. But when you've been big,
01:10you realise that you don't get that same experience, you don't get treated the same.
01:15And I find it quite sad because when I first started losing the weight, I'm not gonna lie,
01:22I'm not overly happy to share it, but I always said I'd be truthful. It was a bit of
01:27motivation for me because I've never had that before. So then all of a sudden I was like,
01:32oh, people are being nice to me, like I quite like this feeling, this is lovely.
01:37And so it drives you to do more.
01:51But I've been at the weight that I'm at, so I'm around 15 stone now and I keep fluctuating a
02:03little bit, but I've lost nearly 10 stone. And because I've been here for quite a while,
02:09I've like reflected back on the journey a little bit more. And it makes me quite angry to think
02:15that I was treated so differently back then to what I am now, because I am still the same person.
02:21I'm no different. I still treat people the same. When I was bigger, I always treat people with
02:27kindness and respect. I was always super friendly to people. And I just think, why didn't I get the
02:34same back just because I was bigger? I'm still the exact same person. And I embarked on this
02:41journey for my health. I could barely walk without being out of breath. My legs hurt after walking
02:47up the stairs, things like that. But equally, I know that there's people that are bigger,
02:52that are comfortable with that and happy with that. And I'm not going to tell anyone how to
02:56live their life, but it makes me quite sad to think that they probably live their life without
03:00getting some of the basic respect and decency that a thinner person would. So for me, my experience,
03:07it's really real. And it's quite hard to deal with sometimes mentally, to be fair.
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