00:00 To be able to get to share my pain with someone, it makes my pain very necessary and it makes
00:05 it okay that I had it.
00:06 It made me feel not alone and it made me realize that I helped somebody else not feel alone
00:11 and isn't that just a function of music?
00:14 We did a damn good job with this one.
00:15 That's for damn sure, man.
00:16 So we wrote this song "Lose Control" with Ammo, my dear, dear mentor, best bud, best
00:29 guy ever, Julian Boneta and Mickey Echo.
00:31 I was going through a really rough time.
00:34 When you're going through something and you're with a person, and I mean this with all respect
00:37 and love for that person, the song itself is just kind of about substances we were kind
00:42 of on became kind of the substance of our relationship and it was kind of like we were
00:45 enabling each other in a lot of ways to not grow.
00:48 You can love somebody so much but sometimes that's just what happens in a relationship.
00:52 So we wanted kind of like a catchy melody that was a great chorus that would inspire
00:56 kids that want to sing or people that want to sing to like sit in their car all day and
00:59 try to learn that riff over and over and over again.
01:02 So that's kind of where it just all came from.
01:05 Being an addict and codependency and wanting a catchy riff that nobody can sing.
01:09 So that's in a nutshell what the whole song is.
01:12 Something's got a hold on me lately.
01:15 No, I don't know myself anymore.
01:19 Feels like the walls are all closing in and the devil's knocking at my door.
01:24 Whoa.
01:25 Out of my mind, how many times did I tell you I'm no good at being alone?
01:33 It's taking a toll on me, trying my best to keep from tearing the skin off my bones.
01:41 But you know, the fear of being alone is kind of like being alone with your own thoughts
01:45 and own anxiety and your own little tics.
01:47 I think it's a very, very natural thing to feel.
01:49 I started having to do things to myself that really changed my life as far as just looking
01:53 at myself in the mirror every day and doing little affirmations.
01:56 I know with cliche and cheesy as they sound, it's great to say, "You're doing great.
01:59 I love you.
02:00 You're beautiful."
02:01 It really just makes your whole day better.
02:04 I lose control when you're not next to me.
02:11 I'm falling apart right in front of you.
02:15 Can't you see?
02:16 I lose control when you're not next to me.
02:26 You're breaking my heart, baby.
02:28 You make a mess of me.
02:30 I think I heard something from the Bee Gees one time.
02:33 Somebody said this to me.
02:34 I don't know if this is true.
02:35 It changed my life as far as chorus writing.
02:37 They used to write the chorus and then they'd go back and be like, "Okay, now this is the
02:40 verse."
02:41 And then write another chorus and say, "Okay, this is the pre."
02:44 And then write another chorus.
02:45 And so they would start with a chorus and get big.
02:47 And I think with 100,000 songs coming out today, you have maybe two and a half minutes
02:51 at best to grab somebody's attention.
02:53 I think it's very important to make everything feel like a hook all the time.
02:58 Problematic.
02:59 Problem is I want your body like a fiend, like a bad habit.
03:03 Bad habits hard to break when I'm with you.
03:06 Yeah, I know I can do it on my own, but I want that real full moon black magic and it
03:11 takes two.
03:13 Problematic.
03:14 Problem is when I'm with you, I'm an addict and I need some relief.
03:19 My skin and your teeth can't see the forest through the trees.
03:23 Got me down on my knees.
03:25 Darling, please.
03:27 When you're detoxing from something, it's so hard.
03:30 And the only thing that truly will give you relief in that moment is hitting that thing
03:34 again.
03:35 And that's all that's on your mind.
03:36 And that moment kind of related to that.
03:38 I need to get out of this.
03:39 I need to detox from this.
03:41 And I know how bad it's going to hurt.
03:42 Just signing up for the big life altering change that that was going to be.
03:46 And the only thing that would have really relieved me from that was it all being better
03:49 and just going back and calling it back up and saying, "I just want to see you one more
03:53 time."
03:54 And then you always do that thing with somebody.
03:56 And you're just like, "If I could just see you one more time.
03:58 If we could just be together one more time.
04:00 If we can just get a little fix one more time.
04:03 Bone one more time."
04:04 And then that always just opens the door to being back on another bender.
04:07 You know what I mean?
04:08 I guess a love bender or something.
04:13 Once you get past all that detox of it, you're like, "Why did I want that?"
04:16 I feel normal now and I like feeling normal.
04:19 I feel great.
04:20 I feel happy.
04:21 You don't know that you want that until you're out of that.
04:22 And you're like, "Oh, I feel great."
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