00:00It's been a few days since the reunion, and I did want to get on here and address something that
00:05I think is pretty important, and that's the way that I would handle conflict with the name-calling and the
00:11viping, as it was referred to.
00:15I think for a long time I normalized name-calling as just part of conflict, and I didn't appreciate how
00:22damaging that could be and the lasting effects of it, especially when it's coming from someone who's supposed to be
00:29your biggest supporter.
00:30And I do realize I'm 33, and I should have fucking figured that out by now.
00:35I have been in therapy since the spring, and recently I started seeing a counselor who specializes in DBT who
00:45helps specifically with managing your emotions and dealing with conflict.
00:50I thought I needed somebody who had more of a specific, focused approach on my issues.
01:00I haven't always known how to contribute to a healthy relationship, and I think that caused me to carry some
01:08pretty unhealthy habits into the marriage.
01:11And I did want to be married.
01:14I clearly was not ready, and I wish that I had realized that before committing to one or even signing
01:21up for something like this.
01:23I did learn a lot from the marriage, and I just want to make the right changes before ever getting
01:30into another relationship, whenever that may be.
01:33And anyone who's reached out with, you know, encouragement, I really do appreciate it.
01:41I don't expect one video to change anyone's opinion about me, but I just did want to, you know, I
01:50just wanted to call it the fact that I do have a lot of work to do, and I am
01:53committed to doing it.
01:54And if this sounds familiar to anyone, I really hope that you take it seriously sooner than I did.
