00:00I never feel like I'm trying to win anything with you because the winning is
00:04us ending up on the same side.
00:08How does it feel to love a black woman?
00:10Loving a black woman feels like a privilege.
00:14It feels like I'm seen.
00:15I've only dated black women.
00:18Listen, how does it feel to love this black woman?
00:21You know what?
00:22What was the spark that drew you to me?
00:24Well, I have been ghost following you on Instagram for quite some time.
00:27Slide in the DMs.
00:28The slide is shut up.
00:29Yeah.
00:30After I slid into your DMs, sent a picture to my best friend, Shay.
00:34And I was like, girl, how cute is she?
00:37I just thought you were so sweet and cute.
00:39The moment you DM me, I took a screenshot, sent it to my best friend and was like,
00:43this fine ass girl just slid in my DMs.
00:45What do I do?
00:45You were just very straight to it.
00:47Just like real in a way that I just hadn't experienced before.
00:50I don't know.
00:51It was something I needed to know more.
00:54Have that effect.
00:57So how and when did we define our relationship?
01:00I think you were a bit more hesitant than I was in the beginning.
01:06Until you found out just who the fuck I was.
01:08Then you were like, oh.
01:09You had asked if, you know, we can kind of do that.
01:13And I was a bit on the fence about it.
01:14And then a week after you were like, no, you were my girlfriend.
01:19And I was just like, okay, okay, okay.
01:22I was just like nervous about, you know, being in another relationship so soon.
01:27And it was more of like what I thought I should be doing as opposed to what actually felt good.
01:32We were both pretty, had been in relationships prior to.
01:38And I think we both felt that, but it just felt right.
01:41And I wasn't going to allow myself to be caught up in this cage of what I should be doing
01:47because of what had happened or all that bullshit that happens with people.
01:51You were just too good to pass up and I wasn't going to not shoot my shot.
01:56What's the easiest thing to love about me?
02:00I don't know if there's one thing.
02:02I don't know.
02:03There's this, this higher love that we speak of that you kind of exude and bring to us.
02:08And I've never had anyone love me.
02:10I've never knew, known that I deserve love like this.
02:13You do?
02:13You were just that in every way, every day in the smallest details and the big things.
02:23You're just so good to me.
02:25You're so...
02:28You never miss the opportunity to tell me how special I am and how valid I am.
02:33In this world, when I don't feel that way, I told you I was going to cry.
02:42What's the hardest thing to love about me?
02:43I think the hardest thing to love about you is really closely tied to what's the easiest thing to love
02:49about you.
02:49And sometimes you can get dark and it's not the hardest thing to love about you.
02:53I guess what makes me sad about loving you and I just want to love you out of it.
02:58And sometimes you just need your space to be free is that I feel not as useful in those moments.
03:05Like I can't love you out of it.
03:07What's the hardest thing about loving me?
03:10Your teeth grinding at night.
03:12That's it?
03:13That's it?
03:14Now I feel like an asshole.
03:16No, you're good.
03:17How was our relationship for the past 10 months?
03:19We talk all the time about there not being a honeymoon phase.
03:23And so it doesn't for me feel like...
03:26I think when I first met you I knew that I was going to fall in love with you.
03:29And so this whole time I've just been growing into that self-fulfilling prophecy.
03:34I don't know.
03:35It doesn't feel like growth so much as just like the journey we're on.
03:38Yeah.
03:39I agree.
03:40Like I mean we still feel very new to me.
03:44Um...
03:44And...
03:45But I already know and feel how much we've grown.
03:48I never feel like I'm trying to win anything with you.
03:52Because the winning is us ending up on the same side.
03:55And we always seem to.
03:56And that kind of wanting to be on the same side.
04:00That is growth personally for me and in our relationship.
04:03Where do you see your relationship in a year?
04:05I'm marrying her.
04:07I'm marrying her.
04:09In a year?
04:09In a year, yes.
04:11Yeah.
04:12I'm not mad at that.
04:13But you gotta give me a ring and not a piece of twine.
04:15I need you to know it's real without the diamond.
04:18You know that already.
04:19You know that every day.
04:20You're right, you're right, you're right.
04:21You know that.
04:21You're right.
04:22Yeah.
04:22So take the twine.
04:23F*** that twine.
04:25Please.
04:25You get all of this and all you have to give is a diamond?
04:27I think that's an easy trade.
04:29Alright.
04:29I'll go shopping.
04:30Where do you see our relationship in five years?
04:33I see babies and I see happiness upon happiness.
04:36I see very different people than we are today.
04:39I just want all the special things with you.
04:42I see us, yeah, definitely being mothers.
04:44Yeah, I see us just being able to do the things that we're talking about right now.
04:50How does it feel to love a black woman?
04:52Black women are, black women are everything.
04:57And my favorite black woman is everything.
04:59And so it's just important to me.
