00:00Hello gang. I wanted to share something deeply personal with you, which I don't often do, so this in itself
00:07is weird.
00:08I have been experiencing something that I have never in my life experienced before, and it has taken the wind
00:17out of my sails actually.
00:18I am suffering crippling anxiety. I am overwhelmed. I'm unsure.
00:26And for somebody who has dealt with life like this, with the power of a firstborn Indian daughter, who bosses
00:34life, also just copes, copes, I think great at it.
00:39This is like, what the hell is going on? Every mechanism I have in place to just deal with stuff
00:46that's just come easily for way over 40 years to me is crumbling beneath my feet.
00:53Obviously, it's hormones. But here's the thing. Do I take hormones or do I feel the feels? Am I supposed
01:03to feel this?
01:04Am I supposed to go, oh, OK, something is naturally going, well, we're not tolerating bullshit anymore.
01:13We're not taking that from that person. Maybe I don't need to spin all the plates at once. Is that
01:21what I'm supposed to do?
01:22Maybe I'm meant to feel my feelings. Also, I get teary. I've never got teary.
01:29Maybe I'm being brought up to just boss and do and feel for other people, but not for myself.
01:37And so right now, we're in a situation, gang.
01:42I don't know. Why am I telling you? Why am I telling you this?
01:44Because I just don't think Asian women talk about it.
01:48I don't know if women talk about it, but brown women, we don't talk about shit, do we?
01:51So that's what I'm telling you. Can anyone else relate? Send me your tips.
