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My childhood friend Jake prepared an elaborate confession ceremony for Madison during our graduation trip.
Everyone thought I would show up crying and making a scene to stop him, because in their eyes, I was madly in love with Jake.
But I only went to return the necklace he had given me, and then I left.
Jake thought I was playing hard to get, but I really wasn't. Because that night I was already in his roommate Daniel's bed.
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Everyone thought I would show up crying and making a scene to stop him, because in their eyes, I was madly in love with Jake.
But I only went to return the necklace he had given me, and then I left.
Jake thought I was playing hard to get, but I really wasn't. Because that night I was already in his roommate Daniel's bed.
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00:00Three nights ago, a dream so real I could still feel the freezing water.
00:03In the dream, I pushed through that same crowd, the same phones, the same string lights, and I completely lost
00:09it.
00:09You can't do this! You said you'd wait for me!
00:12Did you honestly think I'd pick you over her?
00:14People laughed. Someone filmed it.
00:18I ran. I wasn't trying to do anything dramatic.
00:21I just needed to get away from all those faces.
00:24But the dock was wet.
00:27My heels slipped, freezing, black underneath.
00:31I came up gasping, and phones were still recording from the dock above.
00:36And that was only the beginning of what the dream showed me.
00:56In the dream, my parents showed up an hour after they pulled me out.
01:00Pack your things. You're going to stay with Carol for a while.
01:03Carol was dad's cousin. Trailer park barely knew her.
01:06The first week at Carol's was fine.
01:08Then her boyfriend showed up with friends.
01:10They talked about me like I wasn't in the room.
01:12Pretty enough. Bet we could get good money.
01:14I called my parents. Both numbers blocked.
01:17Then Carol drugged my food.
01:19I woke up in a van. Zip ties on my wrists.
01:23Other girls around me, all crying.
01:25The men were talking about our organs like they were car parts.
01:29I died on a metal table in a warehouse.
01:31But in the dream, I could still see everything after.
01:35One person filed a missing person report.
01:37One person posted my photo everywhere, asking if anyone had seen me.
01:40When they found my body, he came to identify it.
01:42He paid for my funeral.
01:44And he was the only one standing at my grave.
01:46Daniel. Jake's college roommate.
01:48Someone I'd barely spoken to.
01:50I've been lying here in the dark for an hour, trying to make sense of it.
01:53Madison in white.
01:54Every detail.
01:55Which means I have to find out if Daniel is real too.
01:59I had one question left.
02:01Was Daniel real?
02:02And stood at the same dock from the dream.
02:04Then I called him.
02:06Daniel. I slipped.
02:07I fell in the lake.
02:08I'm soaking wet.
02:09And I don't know how to get back without everyone seeing me.
02:12Where are you? Stay there. I'll be right there.
02:14I stood there for a second, then walked into the shallow water and soaked myself through.
02:19If I was going to test this, it had to look real.
02:22Headlights came through the trees faster than I expected.
02:25He ran to me and wrapped the blanket around my shoulders and pulled me against his chest.
02:30Jesus, Elowen.
02:31What were you doing out here alone?
02:33I looked up at him.
02:35Water dripping from my hair.
02:36And I saw it.
02:38Not just concern.
02:39Fear.
02:40Real fear that something could have happened to me.
02:43The dream was right.
02:45Back at the lodge, I made my move.
02:47I told him I didn't want to be alone.
02:49I'll get you some dry clothes from your room.
02:51First drawer?
02:52The second he left, I went straight to his closet.
02:55White button-down shirt.
02:57I pressed it to my face before I put it on.
03:00His cologne.
03:01Clean, quiet.
03:03Exactly like him.
03:04I showered in four minutes flat.
03:06Pulled the shirt on.
03:07It hung to my thighs.
03:08Sleeves past my hands.
03:10I dried my hair just enough so it wouldn't drip.
03:12Then climbed onto his bed and waited.
03:15He walked in, holding the bag.
03:18Looked up.
03:19Stopped completely.
03:20I was sitting cross-segged on his bed, his shirt barely covering me.
03:23Moonlight coming through the window behind me.
03:26He dropped the bag.
03:27His mouth opened.
03:29Nothing came out.
03:30I hope you don't mind.
03:31Your shirt smells like you.
03:33It makes me feel safe.
03:35There's just one problem, though.
03:38What?
03:38I got your sheets wet.
03:41What are we going to do about that?
03:43I'm not part of whatever game you and Jake have going on.
03:46I don't want to be used to make him jealous.
03:48My eyes started burning.
03:49Even Daniel thought I was just playing games.
03:52I'm sorry.
03:53I know you hate me.
03:55I won't bother you anymore.
03:57His hand caught my wrist.
04:00I don't want to be your rebound.
04:02If you're here, I want it to be because you actually want to be here.
04:06With me.
04:06I do want to be here.
04:08I want to be with you.
04:10He was about to say something when his phone lit up.
04:13Jake.
04:13I didn't think.
04:15I climbed onto his lap, legs on either side of him, and leaned close until my lips were at his
04:20ear.
04:21His hands moved into my hair and he kissed me back like he'd been holding it in for a long
04:24time.
04:24When we finally broke apart, we were both breathing hard.
04:27His ears were red.
04:29His voice was wrecked.
04:30He stood up, kissed me once more, quick and soft, and practically ran to the bathroom.
04:34Then the bathroom door opened.
04:35Daniel came out in just a towel, hair wet, water still on his chest.
04:40Feel better?
04:42Much.
04:43Daniel!
04:44Are you awake, man?
04:45My whole body locked up.
04:47Daniel's eyes went wide.
04:48I dived under the blanket.
04:49Daniel dropped in beside me and pulled it up.
04:51His towel still on the floor, right as Jake's fist hit the door.
04:56The door swung open.
04:57Daniel killed the lights before Jake could see anything.
05:00I was already under the blanket, pressed flat against Daniel's side, not moving, barely breathing.
05:05Why are you sitting in the dark?
05:06It's like nine o'clock.
05:07Headache.
05:08The light was making it worse.
05:10Jake bought it.
05:12Flopped down somewhere and started talking.
05:13About Madison.
05:14About how she rejected him and how she was probably just playing hard to get.
05:17Then he said my name.
05:18Good thing Elwyn disappeared before the whole thing went down.
05:21She'd probably think she had a chance.
05:23He laughed.
05:23I bit down on my lips so hard I tasted metal.
05:26She'll never leave me alone.
05:27I could make her do anything.
05:29Don't talk about her like that.
05:32Jake laughed it off and headed to the bathroom.
05:35That's when I remembered.
05:37My underwear.
05:38Still in the hamper.
05:39Hey!
05:40Whose underwear is this?
05:42I stopped breathing completely.
05:44Is she still here?
05:46Is she under there?
05:48I could see his shadow through the blanket.
05:50His hand reached for the edge.
05:54Jake's hand was right there.
05:56Fingers curling around the edge of the blanket.
05:59Daniel went completely rigid.
06:02Jake pulled back.
06:03You okay, man?
06:04You sound weird.
06:05I'm fine.
06:07Jake kept talking.
06:08About me.
06:09How I'd always be there when he needed his ego fixed.
06:12I kept my face pressed against Daniel's side and didn't move.
06:15Got any condoms I can borrow?
06:16For tomorrow when I find Elveny?
06:19Don't talk about girls like that.
06:20Like what?
06:21She's easy.
06:22She'd do anything for me.
06:24Don't talk about her that way.
06:25She doesn't deserve to be treated like some object.
06:28Since when do you even care about Elven?
06:32Since always.
06:34Jake laughed, said whatever, and left.
06:38Then Daniel pulled the blanket off my head.
06:41I looked up at him.
06:42I expected relief.
06:43I expected anything but what I actually saw.
06:46He was staring down at me like I'd done something wrong.
06:51Daniel was angry.
06:53And I had no idea why.
06:55He pushed me away like I'd burned him.
06:57Maybe you figured out he doesn't want you, so now you're looking for a backup plan.
07:01I told him I didn't want Jake anymore.
07:03He didn't buy it.
07:05That's why you were hiding under my blanket instead of just telling him where you were?
07:08I want someone who gives a shit when I fall in a lake.
07:11Someone who doesn't think I'm pathetic.
07:14Someone who looks at me and sees something worth keeping.
07:17His expression shifted.
07:19Just enough.
07:20I want you.
07:21Not as a backup plan.
07:23Not to make anyone jealous.
07:24Just you.
07:25He didn't answer.
07:28So I grabbed my clothes and walked out.
07:30He called my name in the hallway.
07:32Told me to ask him again tomorrow.
07:34When I was sure, I nodded and kept walking.
07:36Back to my room.
07:38Door locked.
07:39Hands still shaking.
07:41Tomorrow?
07:42Fine.
07:43But I already knew what my answer was going to be.
07:46I had one plan.
07:47Find Daniel.
07:48Knock on his door.
07:48Ask again.
07:49That was it.
07:50I made it as far as the kitchen stove.
07:52There you are.
07:53I looked for you last night.
07:55You weren't in your room.
07:55I didn't turn around.
07:56I just flipped the eggs.
07:58I went for a walk.
07:59For six hours.
08:00Madison turned me down.
08:01And apparently it's your fault.
08:03She thinks I've been stringing you along for years.
08:05So it's my fault you got rejected?
08:07Look, Elle.
08:08Maybe this is the universe telling us we should finally-
08:11Stop!
08:12I turned off the burner and picked up my plate.
08:14He grabbed my arm before I could move.
08:16Don't walk away from me.
08:17You're being ridiculous.
08:18You can't just ignore me because you're upset about Madison.
08:21I looked at his hand on my arm.
08:22Then I looked at him.
08:23I wasn't scared.
08:24I was just tired.
08:26So completely done.
08:27Let go of me.
08:28We have something, Elowen.
08:29Maybe I wasn't ready before, but things are different now.
08:32You're right.
08:32Things are different.
08:33I'm different.
08:34I pulled by my arm free.
08:35I don't want you anymore, Jake.
08:37He actually laughed.
08:38Like it was a joke.
08:39Don't you dare walk away from me again!
08:41You can't have everything your way just because you're upset!
08:43Jake disappeared entirely.
08:44I didn't care.
08:47Every morning there was coffee made exactly how I like it.
08:50Every afternoon, a new plan.
08:52A hiking trail.
08:54A cafe.
08:55A bookstore with cats wandering the shelves.
08:58By Sunday morning, I was completely gone for him.
09:00I have a surprise.
09:02The kind where you have to trust me and not ask questions.
09:05He drove 20 minutes out of town and parked at what looked like a random field.
09:09We walked through the trees and I stopped breathing.
09:12Thousands of wildflowers.
09:14Daisies.
09:15Pop-ups.
09:16Colors I didn't have names for.
09:17And in the middle of it all, a picnic blanket.
09:21A basket.
09:22And Daniel watching my face.
09:24Like my reaction was the whole point.
09:27He unpacked the basket.
09:30Sandwiches.
09:30Fruit.
09:31Those exact cookies from the diner.
09:33And I just sat there watching him.
09:36And something broke open.
09:38I love you.
09:41Daniel went completely still.
09:42I kept going before I could stop myself.
09:45I told him I loved how gentle he was.
09:46How he made me laugh.
09:47I told him I loved that he came for me at the lake.
09:50That he defended me to Jake when I wasn't even in the room.
09:52You don't have to say it back.
09:54I just needed you to know.
09:56I've been in love with you since freshman year.
09:58I stared at him.
09:59The first time I saw you.
10:00I thought there was no way you'd ever notice someone like me.
10:03Quiet.
10:04Boring.
10:05You're not boring.
10:07You're kind and real.
10:08Do you know how rare that is?
10:10He reached over and held my face in both hands.
10:13And kissed me.
10:14Soft and slow.
10:15Surrounded by flowers and sunlight.
10:17We drove back.
10:18Packed.
10:19Went home.
10:21And that's when it hit me.
10:23Back at school.
10:24Daniel's hand resting on mine.
10:26I looked down at my phone.
10:29One missed call.
10:31Mom.
10:32After everything we've given you.
10:33The best schools.
10:35The best clothes.
10:35A home.
10:36A family.
10:37I told her I wanted to move out.
10:38That I was 21.
10:40That it was time.
10:40Throwing away your future with Jake?
10:42Do you have any idea how lucky you are that he's still interested?
10:46Jake and I are not getting married.
10:48We're not even dating.
10:49I don't want to be with him.
10:51You lash on to whoever will give you attention and refuse to let go.
10:55Just like you latched on to us.
10:57I packed my things and left that same afternoon.
11:00On the drive back to campus I called Daniel.
11:03He picked up on the first ring.
11:04They're pissed.
11:06I'm officially cut off and basically homeless.
11:10No you're not.
11:11You have me.
11:13We can figure this out together.
11:15We're not moving in together because you need somewhere to live.
11:19We're moving in together because I want to wake up next to you every morning.
11:24For the first time in a long time I actually believed it.
11:27Then my phone rang.
11:29Unknown number.
11:30Why the hell did you block me?
11:31Jake was still on the phone, telling me to show up to his birthday party with a gift and an
11:35apology.
11:36I'm going to that party and I want to take you with me.
11:38I looked at him.
11:39He meant it.
11:40In front of everyone.
11:41In front of Jake.
11:42I told Jake I'd be there, hung up, and kiss Daniel before he could say another word.
11:47His apartment was nothing like the dorms.
11:49Big windows.
11:50Clean.
11:51Quiet.
11:52He showered first.
11:53I pulled one of his white shirts from the closet and put it on.
11:56That was all.
11:57When I found him on the little rooftop terrace.
11:59Gray sweats.
12:00No shirt.
12:01City lights behind him.
12:02I fell asleep hours later in his arms.
12:04His shirt on the floor.
12:05The party dress already hanging on the closet door.
12:07Tomorrow night, Jake's birthday.
12:08Tomorrow night, Daniel walks in next to me and says my name out loud in front of everyone who thought
12:11I'd show up alone.
12:12I wanted to see Jake's face when that happened.
12:14The party was exactly what I expected.
12:16Frat house.
12:16Balloons.
12:17Music loud enough to rattle your teeth.
12:18I walked in wearing a simple reference outfit, and I heard it before I even made it through the door.
12:22Is that Elowen?
12:23She still came.
12:25Poor, desperate Elowen.
12:26Showing up alone to beg for Jake's attention.
12:28That's what they thought.
12:29Jake spotted me from across the room.
12:30His whole face lit up like I'd proved every smug thing he'd ever said about me.
12:33Then Daniel stepped up beside me.
12:35Sorry, I'm late.
12:36Couldn't find parking.
12:36His arm went around my waist.
12:38Easy.
12:38Natural.
12:39Like he'd done it a hundred times.
12:40This is a joke, right?
12:41Some kind of revenge thing?
12:43You think Daniel actually wants to be with some pathetic adopted orphan who's been throwing herself at me for years?
12:47She's not even really rich.
12:49She's been pretending to be one of us this whole time.
12:52The only reason anyone kept her around was hoping I'd be desperate enough to marry her someday.
12:55I'd rather die alone than settle for damaged goods.
12:58That's when Daniel moved.
12:59I'd never seen him raise his voice, let alone his fist.
13:01But something in those words flipped a switch.
13:03And suddenly he was across the room and Jake was on the floor, blood running from his nose.
13:07Don't you ever talk about her like that again.
13:09Jake looked up from the floor, stunned.
13:11I love Elowen.
13:12Not her family's money.
13:13Not her social status.
13:14I love her.
13:15And if you have a problem with that, take it up with me.
13:17Jake wiped his face.
13:18He took my hand and we walked out.
13:20The whole party watched.
13:22Nobody moved.
13:24Outside, I grabbed him and kissed him hard.
13:27The week before graduation, Daniel kissed me goodbye and said he'd be back for the ceremony.
13:31Family stuff.
13:32Nothing important.
13:34No calls.
13:35No texts.
13:36Nothing.
13:37Then a woman in a tailored suit sat down beside me like we had an appointment.
13:41She had Daniel's eyes and none of his warmth.
13:44I'm Victoria Cross.
13:46Daniel's mother.
13:48He's at home.
13:49Where he belongs.
13:51She opened her purse and pulled out a checkbook.
13:53$100,000 to disappear from her son's life.
13:56Then she told me why.
13:57Jake called them after the party.
13:59Told them I was unstable.
14:01Manipulative.
14:02That the lake incident was a suicide threat.
14:04Daniel was locked in his room.
14:05And his father had taken a belt to him when he found out about us.
14:09She stood up, smoothed her suit, and gave me until tomorrow.
14:13After that, things get worse for Daniel.
14:15She walked away.
14:17I sat there in my graduation gown, the check trembling in my hands.
14:20And all I could think was, he was being hurt because he chose me.
14:40The next morning, I wrote the hardest letter of my life.
14:43I hid a message inside it.
14:45That I was waiting.
14:46That I was getting strong.
14:48That if he ever found a way out, I would be ready.
14:51Then I took the check and got on a plane to England.
14:54I studied until my eyes burned.
14:57I made real friends.
14:58I went to therapy, wrote in journals, and slowly figured out who I was when I wasn't
15:03begging people to love me.
15:04Two years of that.
15:06It was good.
15:07But I thought about Daniel every single day.
15:09Then one Tuesday afternoon, I saw him across a courtyard.
15:12I thought I was hallucinating.
15:14Two years of missing someone can do that.
15:16But the way he moved, those shoulders, that hair, he turned around.
15:21Our eyes met.
15:22I dropped my books and ran.
15:24He turned me around and I was crying and laughing and I did not care even a little bit.
15:29I found you.
15:30I got my trust fund, built my own business.
15:33I'm not some kid they can control anymore.
15:35I built something they can't touch.
15:37I kissed him so hard it hurt.
15:40That night, back at my flat, we made up for every day of those two years.
15:46Afterwards, we lay tangled together while the sky outside went from black to gray to gold.
15:51I love you too, Elwynn.
15:52Forever this time.
15:56Forever.