00:00Hiya, just a quick one for me because I know I've got a lot of parents that follow me and
00:05I'm starting to feel guilt because I get a lot of DMs saying, oh Sian, you know, how
00:10are you doing it, the early mornings, red carpets, celebrities and that kind of thing
00:14and I'm scared that it reflects something that isn't real life because my Instagram
00:19looks so glossy and showbiz and yet the truth of it is some days I am at absolute rock bottom
00:26curled in a corner wondering how I'm going to survive the next day, wondering how I'm
00:31going to go into work and I just don't want to add to any parenting pressure, you know,
00:37I don't want my timeline to look like something that you should be trying to achieve when I'm
00:42not even achieving it, I'm literally using my Instagram to show you all my professional
00:46work almost like a CV but I'm not showing you the full picture, I'm not showing you the
00:53you know, 48 hours of no sleep and the A&E trips and then the massive work commitments
00:59and then choosing, is it work, is it children, is it childcare, am I a good mum, I am a
01:03bad
01:04mum, what am I doing, you know, and I'm feeling like this all the time and I'm torn and I
01:08am
01:09struggling and I'm not getting it right every time and there are some days when I'm hanging
01:14by a thread and so I just, I just, it's not, I'm not saying this to get any sort of
01:19pity,
01:19I'm just saying it so that you know that what you're seeing on Instagram obviously isn't like
01:25the full story and isn't achievable, like please don't think whatever you're doing isn't enough or
01:31that I'm somehow, I've got the cheat codes to parenting because I really haven't, like I'm
01:37some days just about surviving and there's days when I genuinely think how am I gonna do it and I
01:44think we all just do and when you're in it, you don't think about it, you just do it because
01:48that's all you can do, like everyone's situation is different, everyone has you know commitments
01:54that they have got to do or they haven't got to do and you've got to keep trying to make
01:58the right
01:58decisions all the time but you know I've had a really tough few weeks of parenting and maybe
02:05that's not been reflected on here and if you don't hear me on the radio or talking in podcasts
02:09then you might just think that it's been a breeze and it's more that I just wanted to be real
02:15with
02:15you all and say it's been really hard.
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