00:00Hiya, just a quick one for me because I know I've got a lot of parents that follow me and I'm starting to feel guilt because I get a lot of DMs saying,
00:09Oh Sian, you know, how are you doing it? The early mornings, red carpet, celebrities and that kind of thing.
00:14And I'm scared that it reflects something that isn't real life because my Instagram looks so glossy and showbiz.
00:22And yet the truth of it is some days I am absolute rock bottom, curled in a corner, wondering how I'm going to survive the next day, wondering how I'm going to go into work.
00:32And I just don't want to add to any parenting pressure.
00:37You know, I don't want my timeline to look like something that you should be trying to achieve when I'm not even achieving it.
00:43I'm literally using my Instagram to show you all my professional work, almost like a CV.
00:48But I'm not showing you the full picture. I'm not showing you the, you know, 48 hours of no sleep and the A&E trips and then the massive work commitments and then choosing.
01:00Is it work? Is it children? Is it childcare? Am I a good mum? I'm a bad mum. What am I doing?
01:05You know, and I'm I'm feeling like this all the time and I'm torn and I am struggling and I'm not getting it right every time.
01:12And and there are some days when I'm hanging by a thread. And so I just I just it's not I'm not saying this to get any sort of pity.
01:19I'm just saying it so that you know that what you're seeing on Instagram obviously isn't like the full story and and isn't achievable.
01:27Like, please don't think whatever you're doing isn't enough or that I'm somehow I've got the cheat codes to parenting because I really haven't like I'm some days just about surviving.
01:39And there's days when I genuinely think, how am I going to do it? And I think we all just do.
01:45And when you're in it, you don't think about it. You just do it because that's all you can do.
01:49Like everyone's situation is different. Everyone has, you know, commitments that they have got to do or they haven't got to do.
01:56And you've got to keep trying to make the right decisions all the time.
02:00But, you know, I've I've had a really tough few weeks of parenting and maybe that's not been reflected on here.
02:07And if you don't hear me on the radio or talking podcast, then you might just think that it's been a breeze.
02:12And it's more that I just wanted to be real with you all and say it's been really hard.
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