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From a twelve-year-old lookout on a street corner to the boss of bosses feared by an entire nation, this is your life at every rank inside a cartel.
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VIDEO TOPICS/TIMESTAMPS:
0:00 The Lookout
2:47 The Mule
5:15 The Dealer
7:51 The Sicario
10:23 The Cell Leader
13:01 The Plaza Boss
15:53 The Operations Chief
18:33 The Underboss
21:27 The Capo
23:48 The Patron
Every episode takes a lot of research and writing. Drop your next video idea in the comments. I read them all.
Subscribe so you don't miss the next one! 🔔
VIDEO TOPICS/TIMESTAMPS:
0:00 The Lookout
2:47 The Mule
5:15 The Dealer
7:51 The Sicario
10:23 The Cell Leader
13:01 The Plaza Boss
15:53 The Operations Chief
18:33 The Underboss
21:27 The Capo
23:48 The Patron
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00:00Level 1. The Lookout.
00:02You are 12 years old. The older boys call you Harcon. It means falcon.
00:07You sit on a plastic chair on a street corner. You have a cheap phone and a warm bottle of
00:12soda.
00:13Your only job is to watch. You watch for police trucks. You watch for soldiers in green uniforms.
00:20You watch for strangers who do not belong on this street.
00:23When you see something wrong, you make a call. That is it. That is the entire job.
00:28They pay you more in a week than your mother earns in a month.
00:32Your mother cleans houses on the rich side of town. Her hands are cracked from bleach and hot water.
00:38Your father left when you were six. Nobody says where he went.
00:42Some nights you wonder if he is dead. Most nights you do not think of him at all.
00:47Your little sister Lucia is eight years old. You buy her candy with your first paycheck.
00:52You feel like a man when she smiles up at you.
00:55You are not a man. You are a child with a phone.
00:58The men who hired you understand this perfectly. That is exactly why they chose you.
01:04A child draws no suspicion from anyone.
01:06A child can sit on a corner all day and look bored.
01:10A child works for almost nothing and feels rich doing it.
01:14You do not know whose product moved through your corner.
01:17You do not ask.
01:18You learned very fast that asking questions is dangerous.
01:22Instead, you memorize the rhythm of the street.
01:25You know which cars belong here.
01:27You know which faces are new.
01:29You know the sound of a military engine before you see it.
01:32You learn the small signals the older boys use.
01:35A whistle means slow down.
01:38A hand on the head means leave now.
01:41One hot afternoon, a convoy of soldiers rolls in.
01:44Your thumb is dialing before your brain catches up.
01:47The street empties in seconds.
01:50Doors close.
01:51Music stops.
01:52The soldiers find nothing but children and stray dogs.
01:56You did your job and nobody got caught.
01:59That night a man in a clean white truck finds you.
02:02He hands you a folded stack of bills.
02:04He tells you that you have good eyes.
02:06He tells you that you will go far.
02:09You wait.
02:10You watch.
02:11Hours pass slowly.
02:13Most days nothing happens.
02:15That is the point.
02:16Nothing happening means everyone is safe.
02:19You learn patience the hard way.
02:21You learn to sit still.
02:23The chair is hard.
02:25The soda goes warm fast.
02:27You do not complain.
02:29Complaining is for children.
02:31You feel older than 12.
02:33You are not.
02:34You do not yet know what far means.
02:36You do not know that far is a direction with no road back.
02:40You walk home counting the money in your pocket.
02:43You have never felt so important in your life.
02:46Level 2.
02:48The mule.
02:49You are 15 now.
02:50They moved you up because you never once talked.
02:53Silence is the only currency that never loses value here.
02:56You proved you had plenty of it.
02:58You do not sit on a corner anymore.
03:01Now you move things.
03:02Small packages wrapped tight in plastic and brown tape.
03:05You carry them across town on a battered bicycle.
03:08You carry them in a backpack that should hold school books.
03:11You learn the routes that slip around the checkpoints.
03:14You learn which streets the army watches and when.
03:17You learn to pedal slow and calm while your heart slams.
03:21A nervous mule gets caught.
03:22A calm mule gets paid and gets older.
03:25You practice your bored face in the mirror at home.
03:27You learn to look through a soldier instead of at him.
03:30Sometimes you make crossings to the other side of the river.
03:33You walk through tunnels that smell of mud and sweat and fear.
03:37The tunnels are low and the air is thin and bad.
03:40You crawl for what feels like hours under the border.
03:43You hand a package to a stranger and walk straight back.
03:45You never learn what happens after that.
03:48You never ask.
03:49Your mother believes you work at a warehouse.
03:52You let her keep believing it.
03:53The lie is gentler than the truth.
03:56You bring home extra money and say it is overtime.
03:58She is too tired to question the story.
04:01Lucia is 11 now and asks fewer questions every year.
04:05She has learned what kind of family does not ask questions.
04:08One night a whole load goes missing on a route.
04:10It is not your fault, but blame always falls downward.
04:14They line up four boys against a cold concrete wall.
04:17You are one of the four.
04:19A man walks the line very slowly.
04:21He looks each boy in the eyes for a long moment.
04:24He stops in front of the boy standing beside you.
04:27You never see that boy again.
04:29You learn that night that loyalty is not enough.
04:31You also have to be lucky.
04:33You decide you will make yourself too useful to lose.
04:36You start volunteering for the hardest routes.
04:39You start carrying the heaviest loads through the worst tunnels.
04:42You breathe slow.
04:43You smile at the checkpoint.
04:45You wave like a tired boy.
04:47They wave you through.
04:48Your legs do not shake until later.
04:51You count the days you have left.
04:52You wonder if there is another life.
04:55There is not, you decide.
04:56The pack feels heavy.
04:58Your back aches.
04:59You keep pedaling.
05:01You do not stop.
05:02Stopping invites questions.
05:04Questions invite trouble.
05:06You stop being a boy who is afraid of anything.
05:08The men above you notice the change in you.
05:11They always notice.
05:12They start saving your name for bigger work.
05:15Level 3.
05:16The dealer.
05:17You are 18.
05:19They gave you a corner of your own.
05:21Not to watch this time.
05:22To sell.
05:23You stand on the same kind of corner where you once sat as a lookout.
05:26The symmetry is not lost on you.
05:29You have a small crew of younger boys watching for you now.
05:32To them, you are the man in the clean truck.
05:35You hand them folded bills and tell them they have good eyes.
05:38You sell to addicts who would trade anything for a single hit.
05:41You sell to college kids who think buying is daring.
05:45You sell to a police officer off-duty who wants to forget his week.
05:49You learn that almost everyone is using something.
05:52You learn that the product does not care who buys it.
05:55You keep a careful count of every gram you touch.
05:58The men above you count it too, twice over.
06:01A few pesos short and you answer for the gap.
06:05You answer with money first, if you can.
06:07If you cannot pay with money, you pay another way.
06:10You have seen what happens to dealers who skim from the top.
06:14You have seen them on the morning news as bodies without names.
06:17So you never skim, not once.
06:20You learn to stretch a sleepless night into a working day.
06:24You learn which customers will rob you and which will pay.
06:27You meet a girl named Marisol who works behind a pharmacy counter.
06:31She has a laugh that makes you forget the corner exists.
06:34She does not know what you really do.
06:37She thinks you sell phones from a little shop downtown.
06:40You let her think it.
06:41You are falling in love and lying in the very same breath.
06:44You do not yet know how to do one without the other.
06:49Your mother's cough has gotten worse this year.
06:51You pay for a real doctor with drug money.
06:54You feel nothing at all about where the money came from.
06:57Money is just money to you now.
06:59It spins exactly the same no matter how you earned it.
07:03Lucia is 14 and watches you with careful eyes.
07:07She sees the new shoes and the thick wallet.
07:09The corner never sleeps.
07:11You barely do either.
07:13You count cash by candlelight.
07:15You hide it in the floor.
07:18Marisol asks about your hours.
07:20You change the subject every time.
07:22She lets it go for now.
07:24You know she will not forever.
07:27The nights blur together.
07:28The faces blur too.
07:30You stop learning their names.
07:32Names do not matter here.
07:34Only the count matters.
07:36The count is always right.
07:39She says nothing, but she knows.
07:41You can feel her knowing across the dinner table every night.
07:45You tell yourself you are doing this for them.
07:48You almost believe it.
07:50Level 4.
07:51The Sicario.
07:53You are 21.
07:54They notice something about you they had been waiting to see.
07:57You are not afraid.
07:59Fearlessness is rare, and men like these collect it.
08:02They hand you a pistol and a single name.
08:04The name belongs to a man who stole from the organization.
08:08You are told exactly what you must do.
08:11You do not sleep at all the night before.
08:13You tell yourself the man is a thief.
08:15You tell yourself he knew the rules when he broke them.
08:18You find him at a taco stand on a quiet Tuesday.
08:21Your hand does not shake.
08:23That steadiness surprises you more than anything else.
08:27Afterward, you drive to the river and are sick in the weeds.
08:30You sit there in the dark for a long time.
08:32Then you go home to Marisol and eat dinner like nothing happened.
08:36You discover that you can actually do this.
08:39You discover that the calm boy you became at 15 still lives inside you.
08:43He is useful now in a way you never expected.
08:46You take on more work like this.
08:48Each time, it goes a little quieter inside your chest.
08:52That growing quiet frightens you whenever you let yourself feel it.
08:55So you simply stop letting yourself feel it.
08:58You build a locked room inside yourself and put everything in it.
09:02You marry Marisol in a small white church near the hills.
09:05You invite no one from the work.
09:08Two separate worlds, you tell yourself, and you keep them apart.
09:11Your daughter is born the following spring.
09:14You name her Sophia, after your grandmother.
09:16You hold her in the hospital with hands that smell faintly of gun oil.
09:20You scrub them raw, but the smell will not leave.
09:23Your mother meets her only granddaughter exactly once.
09:26She holds Sophia and weeps without saying why.
09:30Then her lungs finally fail her that winter.
09:33You bury your mother with money you can never explain.
09:37Lucia is 17 now, and she stops speaking to you at the funeral.
09:40She knows what you are.
09:42Of course she knows.
09:43You do not pray anymore.
09:45You stopped a while ago.
09:47Praying felt like lying to God.
09:49So you went quiet instead.
09:51Sophia sleeps in the next room.
09:53You check on her every night.
09:55You watch her breathe.
09:57You promise to protect her from all of this.
09:59You wash your hands again.
10:01The smell stays.
10:02It always stays.
10:04You stop trying to wash it off.
10:06You learn to live with it.
10:08You learn to live with everything.
10:10Everyone always knows in the end.
10:13You stand alone at the grave after the others leave.
10:15You promise your mother things you already know you will not keep.
10:19You walk away from the cemetery a different man.
10:23Level 5.
10:24The Cell Leader
10:25You are 26.
10:27You survived long enough to be promoted, which is its own dark achievement.
10:31Most Sicarios do not grow old.
10:33They get dead, or they get caught, usually quickly.
10:37You did neither, and the bosses noticed.
10:39So they gave you men of your own.
10:41You run a cell now.
10:43A dozen Sicarios, a handful of dealers, and lookouts on every corner.
10:48You are responsible for a cluster of neighborhoods.
10:50You collect the money.
10:52You move the product.
10:54You solve the problems before they ever climb the ladder.
10:57You are a manager now, though nobody uses that word.
11:01You learn that leading killers is harder than killing ever was.
11:05Men want money.
11:06Men want respect.
11:08Men want to feel that they are rising in the world.
11:10You give each of them just enough of all three to stay loyal.
11:14You learn the four levers that move any person.
11:17Money, fear, loyalty, and ambition.
11:22You learned the first three out on the street years ago.
11:25The fourth one you only learn now, in charge.
11:28You give ambitious men a path upward, so they do not carve one through you.
11:33You meet with police commanders to pay them their share.
11:36The arrangement is old and understood by everyone in the room.
11:39They take their envelopes, and they look the other way.
11:42Then a new commander arrives who refuses to take the envelope.
11:46He wants to make a name for himself in the papers.
11:49So you arrange something different for him.
11:51He is replaced within a single month.
11:54You did not pull any trigger yourself.
11:56You only made one phone call from a quiet kitchen.
11:59The distance between you and the act feels almost like innocence.
12:03It is not innocence, and you know that.
12:06You remember the boy who threw up by the river.
12:09He would not recognize the man making calm phone calls now.
12:13Sophia is four years old now.
12:16She runs to the door every time you come home.
12:18She wraps her arms around your leg and will not let go.
12:22You sit at the head of the table now.
12:24Men wait for you to speak.
12:26You weigh every word.
12:28A wrong word costs lives.
12:31You learn to say less.
12:33Silence still serves you well.
12:35It always has.
12:36You think of the boy who never talked.
12:39You make a decision.
12:41Men live or die by it.
12:43You decide quickly.
12:44You decide cleanly.
12:46Then you go home to Sophia.
12:48You read her a story.
12:50You wonder how many years you have before she learns what her father is.
12:54You hope it is many.
12:56You suspect it is few.
12:58You hold her tighter than you should.
13:01Level 6.
13:02The Plaza Boss
13:04You are 31.
13:06The man who ran the plaza was arrested in a dawn raid.
13:09The vacuum opened, and you were standing closest to its edge.
13:13You stepped in before anyone else could move.
13:16There were three weeks of blood that you will never describe to a soul.
13:19When it finally ended, the plaza belonged to you.
13:23A plaza is a territory.
13:25It is a crossing point on the border.
13:28It is a piece of ground that everything must flow through.
13:31You control every gram that moves across it.
13:34Every truck, every kilo, and every dollar pays a tax to you.
13:39You answer to the men above, the ones whose faces you rarely see.
13:43You send them their share through channels that hide where the money goes.
13:47You keep your own share, and it is enormous beyond imagining.
13:51You buy a house with high walls and a heavy iron gate.
13:56You buy trucks and watches and a stable of horses you never ride.
14:01Money stops being money and becomes a problem you have to hide.
14:05You launder it through restaurants and car washes and a small soccer team.
14:09You meet mayors who shake your hand warmly at town festivals.
14:13You meet a senator once at a private ranch in the hills.
14:16He drinks your tequila and laughs at your jokes.
14:20He never once asks what you really do.
14:24The line between the cartel and the state is not really a line.
14:28It is a handshake in a quiet room with the curtains drawn.
14:32You learn this is how the whole machine has always run.
14:36You also learn that every favor has a hook inside it.
14:40The people you pay can also bury you when it suits them.
14:44Marisol knows everything now.
14:47She stopped pretending years ago.
14:49She lives in comfort and silence and a fear she never names aloud.
14:54She no longer asks when you will be home.
14:57Sophia is nine and goes to a private school with armed guards at the gate.
15:02She thinks the guards at the gate are completely normal.
15:04For her, they always have been.
15:07The walls keep the world out.
15:09They also keep you in.
15:11You rarely leave the compound.
15:13You watch the gate on a screen.
15:15You count the guards by habit.
15:18Old habits keep you alive.
15:20You taught yourself to watch as a boy.
15:22Now you never stop watching.
15:25The money never stops moving.
15:27Neither do you.
15:28You sleep in short pieces.
15:31You wake at every sound.
15:33You taught yourself this as a boy.
15:35It never left you.
15:37You sometimes think of the boy on the plastic chair.
15:41He watched for trucks like the ones your guards now drive.
15:45You have become the thing he was hired to warn about.
15:48The thought arrives and you push it down into the locked room.
15:52Level 7.
15:54The operations chief.
15:56You were 36.
15:57The organizations saw that you were good with logistics, not only with violence.
16:02Many men can kill.
16:03Very few can move tons of product across a continent without losing it.
16:08They pulled you off the plaza and handed you the entire pipeline.
16:11You run the supply chain now.
16:13You buy raw materials from suppliers in distant countries across the ocean.
16:18You oversee the labs hidden deep in the mountains and the jungle.
16:21You manage the chemists who cook the product in masks.
16:24They never learn your real name.
16:27You arrange the transport for everything.
16:29Trucks, fishing boats, small planes, and submarines built in secret jungle yards.
16:35You bribe the customs officials and the port authorities and the highway police.
16:39You think in volume and routes and margins now.
16:43You are a businessman whose business simply happens to be poison.
16:47You read spreadsheets the way a sicario reads a room.
16:51You can feel a leak in the numbers before anyone reports it.
16:54You fly between cities on private planes with soft leather seats.
16:59You meet partners in hotel suites and close deals worth more than small nations earn.
17:04You have men in a dozen countries who all answer to you.
17:08You almost forget the boy on the plastic chair with the soda bottle.
17:12Almost.
17:13He visits you in dreams sometimes.
17:16Watching a convoy thumb over the phone.
17:18You wake up and remember that you became what that convoy was hunting.
17:23Sophia is 14 now.
17:25She found something about you online.
17:28An article with a name attached.
17:30She asked you to your face whether it was true.
17:33You lied to her and you watched her decide whether to believe you.
17:36She chose to believe you.
17:39You saw the cost of that choice sitting in her eyes.
17:42You give her everything money can buy to make up for it.
17:45You both know that money is not the thing she wants.
17:49You speak in numbers now.
17:57The scale stopped feeling real years ago.
18:01Maybe that is mercy.
18:02Maybe it is just damage.
18:05You no longer know the difference.
18:07A shipment is lost at sea.
18:10You absorb it.
18:11You move the next one.
18:12There is always a next one.
18:15The pipeline never rests.
18:17Neither does the chief.
18:19Neither of you says so out loud.
18:21You miss her recitals and her birthdays for shipments and meetings.
18:26You tell yourself there will be time later to make it right.
18:29You are wrong about that.
18:31But you do not know it yet.
18:33Level 8.
18:34The underboss.
18:36You are 41.
18:38A man above you was extradited to the United States in chains.
18:42Then another was killed in a long shootout with the Marines.
18:45The structure thinned out fast, the way it always does.
18:49You rose because you were still alive and still useful.
18:53You are the second in command now.
18:55They call it the underboss.
18:57You coordinate everything below the very top.
19:00The plazas.
19:01The pipeline.
19:02The sicarios.
19:03The politicians.
19:04The police.
19:05You are the bridge between the patron and the rest of the organization.
19:09Orders travel down through you.
19:11Money travels up through you.
19:13You spend your life on encrypted phones that you destroy and replace each week.
19:18You move between safe houses and never sleep in the same bed twice.
19:23You have not walked down a public street in years.
19:26You eat only what your own cooks prepare because poison comes in many forms.
19:31You trust almost no one alive.
19:34The men closest to you are the ones most able to betray you.
19:38You have watched it happen to others again and again.
19:42A trusted lieutenant turns informant and a whole structure collapses overnight.
19:47So you watch your own people for the smallest signs.
19:51A man who buys a new car too soon is a warning.
19:54A man who suddenly stops complaining is a warning.
19:58You once gave the order on a man you loved like a brother.
20:01The evidence was there and the evidence was enough.
20:05You did it yourself, in private, and told no one how it felt.
20:09It felt like swallowing glass.
20:12You added him to the room inside you where you keep the dead.
20:16That room is very crowded now.
20:19Sophia is 19 and studies in another country under a borrowed last name.
20:24She calls you on holidays.
20:26The calls are short and careful.
20:28You hear in her voice that she has built a life that does not include you.
20:32You let her keep it.
20:34That distance is the only real gift you are still able to give her.
20:38You change phones again.
20:40You burn the old one.
20:42You move again at midnight.
20:44You sleep in your clothes.
20:46You keep a bag packed by the door.
20:49Trust is a luxury you cannot afford.
20:52You learned that price long ago.
20:54You pay it every single day.
20:58A name comes up.
20:59It might be an informant.
21:01You investigate quietly.
21:03You are usually right.
21:05Being right costs a life.
21:07You pay it and move on.
21:10Lucia, your sister, is somewhere out there too.
21:13Silent for years.
21:15You hear she has children, a husband, an honest and quiet life.
21:20You send money once through a stranger.
21:23She returns every peso of it without a single word.
21:27Level 9.
21:28The Capo.
21:29You are 47.
21:31The patron who led the organization for a decade was finally captured.
21:35They paraded him on television in handcuffs and a bulletproof vest.
21:39The throne sat empty and bloody for everyone to see.
21:42Three factions went to war over it instantly.
21:45You were one of those three factions.
21:47The war lasted eight months.
21:49You stopped counting the dead long before it ended.
21:52You lost good men and you buried them quietly.
21:55When the smoke finally cleared, you controlled the largest share.
21:58You are a capo now, a regional boss.
22:02You command an army of thousands and a business worth billions.
22:05You have governors who quietly take your money.
22:08You have presidents who pretend in public that you do not exist.
22:11You have a bounty on your head from two separate governments.
22:14Your face hangs on posters and airports you will never walk through.
22:18You live in the mountains where you were born.
22:20Your fortress is carved into the rock above the old village.
22:23You have tunnels for escape and sentries posted on every ridge.
22:27From your window, you can see the road you once watched as a boy.
22:30You have given so much of yourself to this life.
22:33Your mother died never knowing what you became.
22:36Your sister Lucia has not spoken a word to you in 30 years.
22:39You hear she still lives that quiet, honest life you sent money toward.
22:44Sometimes you envy her more than you can say.
22:47Marisol sleeps in a separate wing of the compound now.
22:49The marriage is a treaty between two tired people, not a love.
22:53You barely remember the girl who laughed behind the pharmacy counter.
22:57Sophia is grown and married, living a continent away on purpose.
23:01You have everything a man can take by force.
23:04You have nothing a man actually needs to live.
23:07You sit alone on your mountain in the long evenings.
23:10The mountain is quiet at night.
23:11Too quiet sometimes.
23:13You hear every dog and every truck.
23:15You sleep with a pistol close.
23:17You have not been at peace in years.
23:19You have not been at peace ever.
23:21You wonder when that started.
23:23You know exactly when it started.
23:25The factions still test you.
23:27You answer every test.
23:29You answer them in blood.
23:30The mountain holds.
23:32You hold.
23:33For now, you hold.
23:35You understand at last that you climbed your entire life to reach a cage.
23:39The boy on the plastic chair had more freedom than you do now.
23:42He just did not know it yet.
23:44You would trade all of it to sit on that corner one more time.
23:48Level 10.
23:49The Patron.
23:50You are 52.
23:52You sit at the top of an empire that no map will ever draw.
23:57The rivals are dead, imprisoned, or hiding in countries that will not give them up.
24:02You won.
24:03You are the patron now.
24:05The boss of bosses.
24:07Your name is whispered across a nation like a curse and a prayer at once.
24:12Your word ends lives.
24:14Your word moves armies of men who have never once seen your face.
24:18You control more money than you could spend across a hundred lifetimes, and you are more
24:23alone than the boy on the plastic chair ever was.
24:26You trust no one.
24:28You sleep four hours a night, and you sleep with one eye on the door.
24:33Every meal is tasted by someone else first.
24:36Every loyal man around you is also a possible Judas, and you both know it well.
24:41You own palaces you cannot enjoy, and beaches you cannot walk in daylight.
24:46You watch the news and see your own legend grow into a stranger you do not know.
24:51It no longer feels like it has anything to do with the boy from the village.
24:55Sophia is a mother now, with a child you have never once held.
24:59She lives a continent away under a borrowed name, free of you on purpose.
25:04You sent her a letter a single time.
25:06It came back unopened.
25:08You understood, and you did not send another.
25:11There is no retirement waiting at the end of this road.
25:14There is no quiet house, no grandchild on your knee, no peace at all.
25:20There is only the throne, the men circling it, and the day one of them moves first.
25:26You think of your mother sometimes, coughing in the corner of a leaking house.
25:30You think she would not recognize the man you have become.
25:33You are not certain you would want her to.
25:35You carry the locked room everywhere now, and it is full of the dead.
25:41You will carry it until the day someone finally takes the throne from you.
25:45The throne is cold.
25:47It was always cold.
25:49Power does not warm a man.
25:51It only isolates him further.
25:53You learned that too late.
25:55There is no learning your way out now.
25:58There is only holding on.
25:59You hold on with both hands.
26:02The world calls you a monster.
26:05Maybe the world is right.
26:07You stopped arguing long ago.
26:09You only count the days.
26:11Each day you survive is a victory.
26:14Each victory tastes like ash.
26:17Somewhere out there tonight, a boy of twelve sits on a plastic chair.
26:21He has a cheap phone and a warm bottle of soda.
26:24He has a little sister he buys candy for with his very first pay.
26:28A man in a clean white truck tells him he has good eyes.
26:32The boy feels like he is finally rising in the world.
26:35He has no idea that he is already falling.
26:39He will learn.
26:40They always do.
26:42The cycle continues.
26:44The cycle continues.
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