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00:10Stand up straight.
00:12You look like you're apologizing for existing.
00:18The Harringtons are going to be there.
00:21Patricia's son just got into Georgetown.
00:23Like furniture, Jackson.
00:26I'll try.
00:28You'll try.
00:29That's what you said at Easter.
00:30And then you sat in the corner for two hours.
00:34Tuck in your shirt.
00:35And for God's sake, smile when they talk to you.
00:38It's not hard.
00:48You look fine, son.
00:50You're what I've been out to you, Barak.
00:56Anywhere you like, hon.
00:58Hey, the corner table just opened up.
01:02First time here?
01:03Yeah.
01:04The house drip is solid.
01:05Or if you want something that tastes like a hug, a vanilla oat latte is pretty unbeatable.
01:08The second one.
01:09Good call.
01:12Vanilla oat latte.
01:13For the guy in the corner.
01:15Thanks.
01:15I'm Rowan, by the way.
01:16In case you come back.
01:37You look like you haven't slept.
01:38Which means either something terrible happened or something interesting happened.
01:41And honestly, I'm hoping for interesting.
01:43Nothing happened.
01:44Liar.
01:44You've checked your phone three times since I sat down and you hate your phone.
01:49See?
01:49That's suspicious behavior.
01:51Spill.
01:51There's nothing to-
01:52Jackson.
01:53I have known you since the seventh grade.
01:55You have exactly one tell.
01:56And it's that you get very quiet and very red when you're keeping something.
01:58You are currently both.
02:05Someone gave you their number.
02:06A guy.
02:07At a cafe.
02:08A guy at a cafe gave you his number and you're sitting here eating a sad sandwich instead of texting
02:13him?
02:13I don't know what to say.
02:14Jason has a love interest and he's being a coward about it.
02:17Hey.
02:35He already knows who you are.
02:37He texted you.
02:45He already knows who you are.
02:47He texted you.
03:01He has a judge.
03:29Oh, and this is weird.
03:41Ah, fashion, show the mood, wait.
03:47Hi, you.
03:49You've been weird all morning, weirder than usual, and your usual is already a solid 8 to 10 on the
03:53weird out of school.
03:55I'm fine.
03:56Jackson, you were smiling in the hallway this morning. I almost called 91-1.
04:02You walked into a doorframe second period. Ms. Churn asked if you needed the nurse.
04:06The doorframe was poorly placed.
04:10Since when?
04:11I don't know. I just, I looked up and he was there, by the lockers. Like, he's always been there.
04:18This is insane. This is a movie. What did he do? Did he talk to you?
04:23He mouched high at me, across the hall.
04:25Oh, my God. You actually like him. I'm going to pass out.
04:31Rimi.
04:33Did you say hi back?
04:36I forgot how my face worked.
04:39Yes, shut up.
04:50Don't do this.
04:54I have to.
04:55I don't know if I was scared of that.
04:57Hmm.
05:00I think we got to see and tell me we can see that I had to see it's called Natasha
05:03Bia.
05:21Hey, Jackson.
05:23You're literally speedwalking away from me. That's a new one.
05:27I wasn't. I just forgot something.
05:29Your locker's behind me.
05:31Right.
05:33I just, I think maybe we shouldn't talk at school. It's complicated.
05:38Because of Bryce, he's not the boss of who I talk to.
05:41And he's definitely not the boss of you.
05:44You texted me until one in the morning last night.
05:47Now you can't look at me?
05:48It's different in person.
05:51Why?
05:52Because in person, you're...
05:54You.
05:55You're cute when you blush.
05:57You know that?
05:58Yeah.
06:03I've got you.
06:04Rowan.
06:05Yeah?
06:07I have to.
06:08Class.
06:10See you around, Jackson.
06:15What...
06:16Whatever you think is happening with Rowan, it's not.
06:19I don't know what you're talking about.
06:21Yeah, you do.
06:22I see the way you look at him, and I see the way he looks at you.
06:24It's pathetic.
06:27Hey.
06:29Just...
06:29In the neighborhood.
06:31Thought I'd grab a coffee.
06:43Toba.
06:45Toba.
06:55Well, look who it is.
06:57Hey.
06:58I was just...
06:58Around.
07:01Sure you were, honey.
07:04Should I serve this?
07:08Sit anywhere.
07:10I'll bring you something.
07:11I can just order at the...
07:12Sit.
07:14Anywhere.
07:15Vanilla latte.
07:16Extra foam.
07:17Remembered from last time.
07:19You remembered my order?
07:21After school.
07:22Everything with Bryce.
07:23I didn't want to make things harder for you.
07:25You're the easiest part of my week, Jackson.
07:28Noted.
07:30Don't go yet.
07:31You have to work.
07:33So stay.
07:34Read something.
07:36Look pretty by the window.
07:37Just stay.
07:53I've been waiting for you to come back.
07:56Yeah.
08:01Yeah.
08:10Nice shirt, by the way.
08:18Jackson, I had sprawled a K-cheat.
08:25This is insane.
08:30Hey.
08:31Hey, yourself.
08:32Are you whispering on purpose, or is that just your thing?
08:35I'm...
08:35My mom's downstairs.
08:36I don't want her to...
08:37Say no more.
08:38Covert operation.
08:39I can do covert.
08:40So, Jess literally threw a dish towel at my head and told me to stop smiling like an idiot.
08:45Apparently, I was scaring customers.
08:47Were you?
08:48Probably.
08:49I couldn't stop thinking about you sitting in that blue shirt looking at me like I'd said something in a
08:51foreign language.
08:52You whispered in my ear, in public.
08:53My brain shut down.
08:55Can I ask you something?
08:56And you don't have to answer.
08:57Okay.
08:58When you came into the cafe that first time, were you just looking for coffee, or were you looking for
09:01somewhere to hide?
09:02Both, I think.
09:03Yeah.
09:04I get that.
09:05Do you?
09:05Jackson, I'm gay.
09:06I've known since I was 14.
09:08And for about two years, every room I walked to felt like a place I needed to escape from.
09:11I've never said it out loud.
09:12You don't have to.
09:13Not right now.
09:14No, I want to.
09:14I just...
09:15The words get stuck.
09:16Then let them get unstuck whenever they're ready.
09:18I'm not going anywhere.
09:19I'm gay.
09:20That's the first time I've ever...
09:22God.
09:23Hey.
09:24You okay?
09:26I don't know.
09:27Yeah.
09:27I think so.
09:28So here's the thing.
09:29There's this place, the Starlight Cinema, over on Birch Street.
09:32They do these Saturday matinanes.
09:34Old movies.
09:35Terrible popcorn seats that creak.
09:36It's perfect.
09:37Go with me.
09:38Saturday.
09:38Next week.
09:39Like a... date?
09:41Exactly like a date.
09:42Specifically a date.
09:43With me.
09:43Where I buy you popcorn, and you pretend not to be nervous, and I pretend not to stare at you
09:46the whole time.
09:47Yes.
09:48Was that a yes?
09:49Saturday.
09:50One o'clock.
09:50I'll be the guy standing outside looking unreasonably happy.
09:52Okay.
09:53Good night, Jackson.
09:53Good night.
09:58Mom?
09:59Hmm?
10:00So Saturday, a few people from school are doing a study group at the library for the History Midmer.
10:04I was thinking I'd go.
10:05Which people?
10:06You've never once voluntarily attended a study group.
10:09Mr. Pemberton said the midter team's gonna be brutal.
10:12I figured...
10:13You figured?
10:14What library?
10:15For how long?
10:16The public one.
10:17On Elm.
10:17A few hours, maybe.
10:19No.
10:20Saturday is family dinner.
10:21I've already called Aunt Christine.
10:22You'll be addressed properly by sick.
10:23You didn't mention any dinner until right...
10:25This family has obligation at Jackson.
10:26You don't get to drift off whenever you feel like social for once in your...
10:29Okay.
11:02Can I come in?
11:03Yeah.
11:06I heard everything the other night.
11:07Your mother on the phone with you.
11:09The things she said about Saturday.
11:11Dad.
11:11Dad.
11:12Let me finish.
11:14Please.
11:14I've been standing in Hall Woes and saying nothing for 17 years.
11:17I told myself I was keeping the peace.
11:20But there's no peace in this house, is there?
11:22Tell me about it.
11:24What?
11:24His name is Rowan.
11:26He works at a cafe.
11:27He goes to my school.
11:29He's the first person who ever made me feel like I wasn't too much or too little.
11:34Just enough.
11:36Then you should go see him tomorrow.
11:42I need you to pick up the wine by four.
11:44And make sure Jackson wears the navy blazer.
11:46The charcoal one makes him look solid.
11:47Sora, sit down.
11:48We need to talk about the mortgage refineses.
11:50What about it?
11:51The rate lock expires Monday.
11:53I've been going back and forth with the bank and I need you to look at the numbers now.
11:56Before they close.
11:57Can't this wait?
11:58It cannot.
12:05You came.
12:07I came.
12:08I bought these three days ago.
12:10Just in case.
12:12You're shaking.
12:13I know.
12:14Nervous?
12:15Terrified.
12:16But I'm here.
12:17That's the bravest thing anyone's ever said to me.
12:22So, popcorn.
12:23Sweet or salty?
12:24I...
12:24Either's fine.
12:25Nope.
12:26You don't get to either's find me on our first date.
12:28Pick one.
12:29Sweet.
12:31Sweet it is.
12:34I got both.
12:35Mixed.
12:36Life's too short for compromise.
12:38That is literally a compromise.
12:40Oh, so you are funny.
12:41I knew it.
12:43You can breathe, you know.
12:44It's not a test.
12:46I know.
12:46I just...
12:47I've never done this before.
12:48Gone to the movies?
12:50Gone anywhere with someone who...
12:52wanted me there.
12:57Well, get used to it.
13:04I have no idea what that movie was about.
13:07Honestly?
13:08Me neither.
13:09Jackson.
13:10I'm really glad you came.
13:12Can I?
13:18Oh.
13:20Yeah.
13:21Oh.
13:22Hey.
13:23Whatever happens,
13:25tonight was real.
13:27You don't have to go in alone.
13:29Yeah.
13:31I do.
13:32Tonight was...
13:35I know.
13:37Text me when you're safe.
13:39I mean it.
13:43Sit down.
13:49I said sit.
13:51Where were you?
13:52I told dad I went to the movies.
13:56Your dad told me he sent you to pick up dry cleaning.
13:59The shop closes at 4.
14:00It's 9.15.
14:02So either your dad lied to me,
14:03or you both did.
14:06Mom.
14:06Don't.
14:07I called you 14 times 14.
14:09You think that's acceptable?
14:10My phone was on silent.
14:11I'm sorry.
14:12You're sorry.
14:12You vanished for six hours,
14:14and I specifically told you we had plans,
14:16and you're sorry.
14:18Go to your room.
14:19We'll discuss this tomorrow
14:20when I've decided what to do with you.
14:25How bad?
14:27She knows you lied about the dry cleaning.
14:29I'll handle your mother.
14:30That's my problem, not yours.
14:32Dad, I'm sorry.
14:33I didn't mean for you to...
14:34Jackson.
14:35Stop apologizing for having a life.
14:37Was it good?
14:39The movie?
14:40Yeah, it was really good.
14:41Good.
14:42Get some sleep.
14:46I've been watching you at school for months.
14:48Did I ever tell you that?
14:49Since September.
14:51You sat in the courtyard reading,
14:52and the wind kept turning your pages,
14:53and you just...
14:54You had nowhere else to be.
14:56I wanted to be the person
14:58you had nowhere else to be with.
14:59You were scared to talk to me?
15:00The confident barista was terrified.
15:03Terrified.
15:03The cafe was the first time I was brave enough.
15:06Jess dared me to write my number.
15:07I almost didn't.
15:08The shy boy kissed me under a marquee.
15:10People surprise you.
15:12This is real,
15:13and that makes everything harder.
15:17You've been weird since we sat down.
15:19I haven't been weird.
15:21You've reorganized the sugar packets three times.
15:24There's stuff I haven't told you.
15:26About my family.
15:28About why Bryce is the way he is.
15:31My mom's been dating his dad for about a year.
15:33He's moved in together last summer.
15:35So Bryce and I were basically stepbrothers,
15:37except there's no basically about the hate.
15:39That's why he was standing next to you that day.
15:41In the hallway.
15:42Yeah.
15:43He didn't choose me.
15:43I didn't choose him.
15:44But he acts like I personally ruined his life
15:46by existing in his house.
15:47And being gay makes it worse.
15:50Being gay makes it sexuality is used omniscient.
15:53He used to just ignore me.
15:55Cold shoulder, whatever.
15:56I could handle that.
15:57But once he figured out I was seeing someone,
15:58he started making comments.
15:59In the house, at school,
16:01testing how far he could push for right snap.
16:03Has he?
16:04Not yet.
16:05But he's got friends now.
16:06People who think it's funny.
16:09Garrett.
16:10How do you?
16:11Remy told me she saw them together.
16:13Laughing about something after she confronted Bryce.
16:16Of course.
16:17Garrett would love that.
16:18Someone else who wants to make my life hell.
16:19Perfect match.
16:21Who is Garrett to you, really?
16:24He was my best friend.
16:25Since we were 12.
16:26He was the first person I came out to.
16:29What happened?
16:30He told everyone.
16:32Not because he was scared for me or confused or sting.
16:34He traded my secret for Poppy like it was a baseball card.
16:40Cute lunch date yesterday.
16:42Very romantic.
16:44Were you following me or do you just not have a life?
16:46Garrett saw you at the diner,
16:48holding hands with your little boyfriend like some Hallmark movie.
16:51And I live with you.
16:53I eat dinner with your mom.
16:54You think I enjoy watching her pretend everything's normal while her son...
16:58Finish that sentence.
17:00I dare you.
17:02Keep your boyfriend out of my face.
17:04Or I'll make sure everyone knows exactly what kind of family I got stuck with.
17:11Are you okay?
17:12Yeah.
17:13No, you're not.
17:14I'm not going anywhere.
17:15Then don't.
17:16Just stay.
17:18No.
17:19Faith, switch sides.
17:21You're here.
17:22Why does it matter where I...
17:23Because Jax and Rowan are sitting together and I need a clear line of sight.
17:26She's been planning this for three days.
17:28You're terrifying, Remy.
17:32Over here.
17:33Sit, sit, sit.
17:35So you're the guy who broke Jax's brain.
17:38Guilty.
17:39He couldn't form sentences for a solid week.
17:41It was impressive.
17:42I'm right here.
17:44And we're thrilled about it.
17:45Rowan, what do you want to drink?
17:47Jax likes the vanilla shake, but he'll never order it herself.
17:51Two vanilla shakes, then.
17:53And Dream just looks at the teacher and says,
17:55Completely dead, Ban.
17:56I think the painting speaks for itself.
17:58He didn't.
17:59The painting did speak for itself.
18:01Can I get you anything else?
18:03Another shake?
18:04On the house?
18:05I'm good, thanks.
18:06He sure we sure.
18:07You've got pie.
18:08I could bring you a slice.
18:09He's taken.
18:10Got it.
18:11Lucky guy.
18:12Holler if you need the check.
18:13Oh my god.
18:15Did that just happen?
18:16Can we not say it again?
18:18Shut up.
18:19Never.
18:23Rowan.
18:24Garrett.
18:25Didn't know you came here.
18:28Didn't know you worked here.
18:29You look good, man.
18:31You look...
18:31Don't.
18:36Who was that?
18:38Nobody.
18:40Nobody.
18:44Rowan.
18:48Talk to me.
18:49Please.
18:50Seeing him just...
18:51It pulls everything back.
18:52Like a trap door.
18:53Garrett was the first person I ever told.
18:55We were 14.
18:56Sitting in a stupid video game and I just said it like it was nothing.
18:59It was safe.
19:00What happened?
19:00For two weeks?
19:01Nothing.
19:01He acted totally normal.
19:02I thought, okay, this is fine.
19:04I have a person.
19:05Then one Monday, I walked into school and everyone knew.
19:08Everyone.
19:09He told the entire soccer team over the weekend.
19:11Turned it into a story.
19:12Made himself the hero.
19:14Yeah, he told me.
19:15It was so weird.
19:15I didn't know what to do.
19:16That's not...
19:17He wasn't even cruel about it.
19:18That's the worst part.
19:19He wasn't hateful.
19:21He just didn't think my life was worth protecting.
19:22What did you do?
19:24Survived.
19:25Badly.
19:25I stopped eating lunch at school.
19:27Wore headphones everywhere.
19:28Became the version of me that need anyone.
19:30It took me a year to figure out that version was just lonely with better posture.
19:34He was the first person I trusted.
19:36And tonight, he's standing ten feet away plates like none of it happened.
19:38Like, I'm just some guy.
19:39You're not just some guy.
19:40I know that now.
19:42But for a long time, I wasn't sure.
19:46I'm not going anywhere.
19:49He traded your secret like nothing I won't.
19:52Ever.
19:53How are you this brave and this shy at the same time?
19:57Honestly, no idea.
19:59Ask me again tomorrow and I'll probably be hiding under my bed.
20:09You've been wearing the same three hoodies in Rotovation since freshman year.
20:12Today, that ends.
20:14There's nothing wrong with my hoodies.
20:16Jackson, babe.
20:17You have a boyfriend now.
20:18A hot one.
20:19Who looks at you like you hung the moon.
20:20The least you can do is retire the hoodie with the bleach stain.
20:23This isn't about Rowan.
20:24It's absolutely about Ruan.
20:26And that's okay.
20:26But it's also about you.
20:28When's the last time you looked in a mirror and liked what you saw?
20:30That's what I thought.
20:31Come on.
20:32Try this.
20:34And this.
20:35And oh.
20:36Absolutely this.
20:38This isn't me.
20:44You alive in there?
20:46I look ridiculous.
20:48Let me see.
20:52Jackson.
20:54What?
20:54Look.
20:57Maybe.
20:59Thanks.
20:59For this.
21:01For all of it.
21:01Really.
21:02You've been-
21:02Don't you dare get sentimental on me, Marsh.
21:04I'm serious.
21:05You're always the one holding everyone together.
21:07Who holds you together?
21:09Fine.
21:10I'm always fine.
21:12That's not what I asked.
21:14Ask me again sometime.
21:15When I'm ready.
21:17So you actually know him?
21:18Rowan's whole story?
21:19I know everything.
21:20Every embarrassing detail.
21:22Every weakness.
21:23And you share that because, what?
21:24You're a good citizen?
21:25Because he dropped me like I was nothing.
21:27Rewrote the whole story so he's the victim and I'm the villain.
21:30My dad's marrying his mom next spring.
21:31I have to live with him.
21:32I need him manageable.
21:33And I need him to remember that he doesn't get to raise people.
21:35Then we understand each other.
21:37Dream, stop drawing me.
21:38My nose isn't that big.
21:39I'm drawing the guitar.
21:41You just happen to be attached to it.
21:47So are you guys coming to the dance together or what?
21:49Yeah, we're going as a group.
21:51We're figuring it out.
21:54Faith asked me by writing it on a pizza box lid.
21:57For the record, it was romantic.
21:58You cried.
22:01I had allergies.
22:05You okay?
22:07Yeah, just thinking.
22:14Here.
22:15You looked like you needed a drink that isn't awkwardness.
22:19Thanks.
22:22How do you do it?
22:23Do what?
22:24Just be with Dream in front of people.
22:27Like it's nothing.
22:28It's not nothing.
22:29It was terrifying at first.
22:30I threw up before I held his hand at a football game.
22:32Seriously?
22:33In a trash can behind the bleachers.
22:34Very glamorous, Ruff.
22:35Being out isn't about bravery, Jackson.
22:37Beside you matter.
22:38That what you feel matters.
22:39And then doing it scared anyway.
22:40I want to be like that.
22:41I just...
22:42Every time I try, I hear her voice telling me I'm wrong.
22:44She's wrong.
22:45You know that, right?
22:47Jason, you're in a cop fight?
22:54You don't have to explain today.
22:56I get it.
22:56It's not you.
22:57No, I need you to actually know.
22:58When I pulled my hand away in there, it wasn't because I didn't want to.
23:00It's because I wanted to so badly, it scared me.
23:02Then take your time.
23:04I'm not going anywhere.
23:19You knocked.
23:20I left it unlocked for you ten minutes ago.
23:23I was starting to think you were standing out here rehearsing.
23:25I was only rehearsing for eight of those minutes.
23:29It smells like you in here.
23:32Good or bad?
23:33Good.
23:34Like coffee and that detergent you use.
23:37You can sit down.
23:38The bed doesn't bite.
23:41My mom's at Bryce's dad's place until tomorrow.
23:43It's just us.
23:44No one's going to walk in.
23:46I know, that's sort of what makes me nervous.
23:48We don't have to do anything.
23:50I just wanted you here.
23:51I wanted to be here.
23:53I've been thinking about it all week.
23:57What are you most afraid of?
23:59Right now?
24:01In general.
24:03Then I'll get used to how this feels.
24:05And then it'll go away.
24:07It's not going away.
24:09I've never, no one's ever touched me like I'm something worth being careful with.
24:13Can I kiss you?
24:18My heart's going to explode.
24:22Mine too.
24:29I'm not letting anything happen to you.
24:31Oh god.
24:33Oh no.
24:34No, no.
24:37Hey, what time is it?
24:39It's after seven, Rowan.
24:41She called twelve times.
24:42Twelve.
24:43Okay.
24:44Just breathe.
24:46We'll figure it out.
24:47I was supposed to be home.
24:48I didn't even, I don't have a cover story.
24:50I don't have anything.
24:51Jackson.
24:52Stop.
24:53Stay for five minutes.
24:56Please.
24:56I can't.
24:57You don't know what she's like when...
24:59Yeah, I do.
25:00You've told me.
25:01Can I ask you something?
25:03I really have to go.
25:06Are you ashamed of me?
25:08What?
25:09Every time we get close, really close, you bolt.
25:12You're halfway out the door before I even my eyes, so I need to know.
25:14Is it me?
25:15Rowan, that's not...
25:16Because last night meant something to me.
25:18And I can't keep pretending it doesn't wreck me when you run.
25:21I'm not ashamed of you.
25:24I have never been ashamed of you.
25:25I'm ashamed of me, of how scared I am, of the fact that the best night of my life is
25:29something I have to hide from my own mother.
25:30You don't have to hide from me.
25:31I know.
25:32That's the part that terrifies me.
25:37I know.
25:44Inside.
25:46Now.
25:52Sit down.
25:55I said sit.
25:57I've been very patient with you.
25:59The late nights.
26:00The lying.
26:01The sneaking around like some...
26:03I don't even have the word for it.
26:04Mom.
26:05I'm not finished.
26:06You told me it was a study group.
26:07You told me it was errands for your Oberyn.
26:09And the whole time you were what?
26:11Running around with some boy from a coffee shop?
26:13You will not see him again.
26:14You will not text him.
26:15You will not so much as look at him in that hallway.
26:17Am I clear?
26:18This is a phase, Jackson.
26:19A confused, embarrassing phase.
26:21And when it's over, you'll thank me.
26:26She's asleep.
26:28I should have stopped this years ago.
26:30Not you.
26:31Her.
26:31The way she talks to you.
26:33The way she's always talked to you.
26:35It doesn't matter.
26:36It matters more than anything.
26:37I took it from her purse.
26:39She'll know.
26:40Let her.
26:41You text that boy.
26:43Tell him you're okay.
26:44And tomorrow, things are going to be different in this house.
26:46I promise you that.
26:47Your mother loves you.
26:48She just loves her idea of you more.
26:50And I'm done letting that be enough.
26:54Please just tell me you're safe.
26:56That's all I need.
26:58I'm here.
26:59She took my phone.
27:00My dad got it back.
27:01I'm not giving up on us.
27:02I'll wait.
27:03However long.
27:04I'll wait.
27:06You went behind my back.
27:08You gave him that phone.
27:09He's our son, Soris.
27:11Not your prisoner.
27:11I am trying to protect him.
27:13From what?
27:14From being happy?
27:15From being himself?
27:16I've watched you shrink that boy for 17 years.
27:18It stops now.
27:25Morning, brother.
27:27Don't call me that.
27:28Fair enough.
27:30Let's skip the family stuff and get to business.
27:32I know about your boyfriend.
27:33The quiet one.
27:34Marsh.
27:34His name is Jackson.
27:36And I don't care what you know.
27:37Yeah, you will.
27:38Because his mom, she cares.
27:40A lot.
27:41One phone call, Roland.
27:42That's all it takes.
27:44I tell her what her son's been doing, who he's been doing it with, and that little world
27:47you two built?
27:48Gone.
27:49You don't know anything about his family.
27:51Garrett's been real helpful filling in the gaps.
27:56Controlling mother, pushover dad, kid who can barely breathe in his own house.
28:00You really want to be the thing that breaks him.
28:04Walk away, Bryce.
28:06End it.
28:07Or I make the call.
28:09You're doing that thing where you pretend a giant poster doesn't exist.
28:15I don't know what you're talking about.
28:16That one.
28:17The one you just walked past three times during passing period.
28:20I take this route to history.
28:23Your history class is in the other building.
28:26It doesn't matter.
28:27After everything with my mom.
28:30With your boyfriend?
28:31Say the word, Jackson.
28:32It won't bite.
28:33My boyfriend.
28:35See?
28:36The ceiling didn't collapse.
28:38Must be nice.
28:40Just signing up.
28:41Like it's nothing.
28:43So.
28:47There's a dance.
28:49I've heard rumors.
28:50I'm not going to ask you.
28:51Just so you know.
28:53Ready to go?
28:54Yeah, let's go.
28:59You're not?
29:00Nope.
29:01Because if I ask, you'll feel pressured.
29:03And then you'll say yes because you don't want to hurt me.
29:04And then you'll spend the whole week panicking.
29:05And I'll feel guilty.
29:06And Rowan.
29:08Yeah?
29:10Go to the dance with me.
29:12Yeah.
29:13Yeah.
29:14I want to.
29:27What do you want?
29:28Heard you're taking my stepbrother to the dance.
29:30That's cute.
29:31Really brave.
29:34You know your mom and I had a nice little chat.
29:36She's very interested in your social life.
29:38Stay away from my family.
29:40I'm not doing anything.
29:41Just keeping concerned parents informed.
29:43That's practically community service.
29:46You think you're scaring me?
29:48I've lived with someone scarier than you my whole life.
29:52Saturday night, Marsh.
29:54A lot can happen before Saturday night.
29:59He's talking to my mom.
30:01Then we stop hiding.
30:03All of it.
30:04Together.
30:07So.
30:09Saturday.
30:11Saturday.
30:12You still good?
30:13I'm terrified.
30:15But yeah.
30:16I'm good.
30:20Guess Westbridge is doing a freak show theme this year.
30:24Don't.
30:25I wasn't going to.
30:27I mean, don't let it in.
30:33Hey, Calloway.
30:35Your boyfriend pick out your outfit or does he just pick out your.
30:40Jackson.
30:44Hey.
30:45It's fine.
30:46Let's just go to.
30:48I'm done hiding.
30:53You didn't have to.
30:54Yeah.
30:56I did.
30:57I did.
30:57I did.
31:00Show's over.
31:01Get to class.
31:03Before you spiral, I brought caffeine and a damage report.
31:07How bad?
31:08Mixed.
31:09Jenny Park told me it was a romantic thing she's ever seen.
31:11Kyle Brennan called it weird.
31:12Most people generally don't care.
31:13And?
31:13Faith is losing his mind.
31:15He's telling everyone who listened that his friend pulled a movie moment.
31:17What about Bryce?
31:18Haven't seen him yet.
31:19But, Jakeshin, you kissed a boy in front of 200 people.
31:22That's not something you can undo.
31:23And you shouldn't want to.
31:26I don't want to underdo it.
31:29Good morning.
31:31Good morning.
31:40Quite a show yesterday.
31:41Don't have time for this, Garrett.
31:43You really tanked your life for that kid.
31:45He can barely string a sentence together.
31:46You don't get to talk about ruining lives.
31:49You wrote the playbook.
31:50That was years ago.
31:51I was.
31:51You were my best friend.
31:52And you sold me out for a seat at the popular table.
31:55So whatever you and Bryce are cooking up, I already survived the worst thing a friend
31:59can do to me.
31:59You did it.
32:00I'm trying to warn you.
32:01Bryce called someone.
32:02Jackson's mother.
32:03Couple days ago.
32:05Thought you should know.
32:08What happened?
32:09Garrett told me.
32:10Bryce called your mother.
32:11Before the kiss.
32:12Maybe Monday.
32:13Maybe Tuesday.
32:14She knows, Jackson.
32:15She's known.
32:17She hasn't said anything.
32:19That scares me more.
32:20Yeah.
32:21Me too.
32:22Whatever's coming, we face it.
32:24Okay?
32:25Okay.
32:31Dad?
32:32I'm home.
32:35Sit down.
32:37You tell me.
32:38I got a very interesting phone call this week from a boy named Bryce.
32:42He told me something I didn't believe.
32:44So I pulled the records myself.
32:48312 texts.
32:5047 calls.
32:51One number.
32:52Over and over and over.
32:54Mom.
32:54I'm not finished.
32:56He also told me what happened in the hallway yesterday, that you kissed a boy.
33:00In front of the entire school.
33:02So I'll ask you once.
33:05Is it true?
33:09Yes.
33:10It's a phase.
33:11You're 17.
33:12You don't know what you...
33:14It's not a phase.
33:15You don't get to tell me what it is.
33:17I have watched you your entire life.
33:19I know you better than you know yourself.
33:21His name is Rowan, and he didn't take advantage of anything.
33:24You think this is brave?
33:26Humiliating this family in front of your entire school?
33:28I wasn't thinking about this family.
33:30I was thinking about him.
33:31Then you've made your priorities very clear.
33:34I carried you for nine months.
33:36I dressed you.
33:37Fed you.
33:38Drove you to every appointment when you couldn't even look a stranger in the eye.
33:42I built a life around protecting you, and this is what you do with it.
33:45Protecting me?
33:47You were suffocating me.
33:50Everything I did was for you.
33:53Everything you did was for you.
33:54For how it looked.
33:55For what the neighbors would think.
34:00You will end this.
34:01Tonight.
34:02You will text that boy and tell him it's over.
34:05And we will never speak of this again.
34:08Then maybe I'm not your son.
34:31Anything?
34:33Three days.
34:3447 messages.
34:36Nothing.
34:37His mom took his phone.
34:38That's all this is.
34:42You don't know that?
34:44Yeah, I do.
34:45Because I know Jackson.
34:46And I know his mother.
34:48What if she's...
34:49What if he's just sitting in that house alone and I can't...
34:52Then we don't sit here feeling sorry about it.
34:55I've got a plan.
34:58What kind of plan?
34:59The old-fashioned kind.
35:01His bedroom window faces the back garden.
35:02The trellis holds weight.
35:03I've tested it.
35:05You've tested it?
35:07Sophomore year.
35:08Long story.
35:09You in or not?
35:13That one.
35:14Tap twice.
35:15Pause.
35:15Tap three times.
35:16He'll know it's not her.
35:18How will he know?
35:20Because she'd never knock.
35:32Are you okay?
35:35You shouldn't be here.
35:38That's not what I asked.
35:40She took everything.
35:41I can't leave.
35:43I can't call anyone.
35:45You can hear me right now.
35:48That's enough for tonight.
35:49Go!
35:50Now!
35:57I heard you.
35:59Earlier.
36:00At the window.
36:03I'm not going to tell her.
36:06I should have done something years ago.
36:08I kept thinking,
36:09if I just keep the peace,
36:10you'd be okay.
36:11That was the biggest lie
36:12I ever told myself.
36:14I'm going to fix this, Jackson.
36:16I need you to hang on a little longer.
36:19I need you to hang on a little longer.
36:22I'm right here.
36:23We're Amy.
36:24It stops tonight.
36:26What stops, Oberon?
36:27You'll have to be specific.
36:28You're usually so vague about everything.
36:31The monitoring.
36:32The isolation.
36:32The way you've turned his bedroom into a cell.
36:34All of it.
36:35I'm protecting our son.
36:37Something you've never had the spine to do.
36:39You're not protecting him.
36:40You're erasing him.
36:41There's a difference.
36:42And you know it.
36:43He's 17.
36:44He doesn't know what he wants.
36:45He's confused.
36:46And that boy,
36:46that boy is the reason.
36:48That boy is the first person
36:49who's made Jackson smile in years.
36:53You're letting him ruin his life
36:54because you're too weak to say no.
36:56I watched him shrink
36:57every single day,
36:57a little smaller.
36:58And I told myself he meant well.
36:59I was wrong.
37:00Gave up my career.
37:02Everything I've done,
37:03the structure,
37:03the discipline,
37:04it was for him.
37:05What will people say?
37:06Have you thought about that?
37:07The neighbors,
37:08the school,
37:08our families.
37:09I don't care what people say.
37:10I care that my son cries
37:12behind a locked door every night
37:13and thinks no one hears.
37:20You'll regret this.
37:21I already regret plenty.
37:23This won't be one of them.
37:34I'm sorry it took me so long.
37:41She's really gone.
37:43Yeah.
37:44Sit down, Jackson.
37:48I owe you an apology.
37:49Not for last night.
37:51For every night before it.
37:52I watched her chip away
37:53at you for years.
37:54I told myself
37:55it was just how she was.
37:56I thought you didn't see it.
37:58I saw everything.
38:00I just didn't have the guts
38:01to stop it.
38:01So tell me
38:02from the beginning.
38:04Tell me about him.
38:08His name is Rowan.
38:10He works at a cafe downtown.
38:12He wrote his number
38:13on my receipt
38:14the first time I walked in.
38:16I almost threw it away.
38:17I was so scared.
38:19But you didn't.
38:20No.
38:22And then he texted me first
38:23because I was too chicken
38:23to do it myself.
38:25He's kind, Dad.
38:25He's patient.
38:26He makes me feel like
38:27I'm allowed to take up space.
38:28He told me he'd been
38:29watching me at school
38:30for months.
38:31Too scared to talk to me.
38:32This guy who seems like
38:33he's afraid of nothing,
38:34he was terrified of me.
38:35Sounds like you're both
38:36braver than you think.
38:37Mom called it a sickness.
38:40Your mother is wrong
38:41about this,
38:42about a lot of things.
38:43You're my son.
38:45Nothing changes that.
38:46Nothing.
38:53Hey.
38:54I'm okay.
38:55My dad,
38:57he made her leave.
38:58He what?
38:59He chose me, Rowan.
39:01Come.
39:02I want you to meet him.
39:04For real this time.
39:06Can you come over?
39:07I'm already grabbing my keys.
39:21You must be Rowan.
39:22Yes, sir.
39:23I...
39:24These are...
39:24I didn't know what to bring.
39:26Come in.
39:27He's been pacing a hole
39:28in the floor waiting for you.
39:31Rowan.
39:32Thank you for making him brave.
39:42Don't ever go dark on me
39:43like that again.
39:44I won't.
39:46I promise.
39:47My dad wants to meet you,
39:48like, properly.
39:49I think he just did.
39:51I almost cried
39:52and you locked
39:52eating your doorway.
39:54That would have been
39:55a strong first impression.
39:56I brought gas station flowers.
39:57I think the bar's already low.
40:04I think the bar's already low.
40:06over on Birch Street.
40:07Good coffee?
40:09Terrible, honestly.
40:10But the company's worth it.
40:12I'll have to come by sometime.
40:18If you ever scare me like that again,
40:20I will kill you myself.
40:21She's been like this since the car.
40:25Glad you're okay, man.
40:26For the record,
40:27I always said you two were inevitable.
40:29She literally did.
40:31It was annoying.
40:32I'm sorry.
40:37Anyone hungry?
40:40This is it.
40:47I'm here for my things.
40:48Oberon said three o'clock.
40:50I know.
40:51He's at work.
40:52He asked me to be here.
40:54Mom,
40:54I want to talk to you
40:55before you go upstairs.
40:56I'm here for clothes, Jackson,
40:58not a conversation.
40:59I know.
41:00But I need you to hear me.
41:02Once,
41:02and then you can pack
41:03whatever you want.
41:06You have something to say?
41:09Say it.
41:10I love you,
41:10and I spent 17 years
41:11trying to be small enough
41:12to fit inside
41:13whatever you needed me to be.
41:14I never asked you
41:15to be invisible.
41:16I asked you-
41:16Presentable.
41:17Appropriate.
41:18Normal.
41:18I know.
41:19I memorized the words.
41:22Everything I did
41:23was to protect you.
41:23The world is cruel
41:24who are different.
41:25I was trying to spare you.
41:26You weren't sparing me.
41:28You were sparing yourself.
41:29That's not fair.
41:31Maybe not.
41:33But it's true.
41:34I carried you.
41:35I fed you.
41:35I fed you when you were sick.
41:37I sat up with you every night.
41:38I chose every friend,
41:39every shirt,
41:40every word I was allowed
41:40to say at dinner.
41:41You chose everything.
41:43And I,
41:43because I thought
41:44that's what love-
41:44And now,
41:45what does love look like now?
41:46Some boy from a coffee shop, Jackson?
41:47His name is Rowan.
41:49And he didn't teach me
41:50what love looks like.
41:51He taught me
41:52what it feels like to be seen.
41:54You're killing me.
41:55No, Mom.
41:56I'm just not shrinking anymore.
41:59I want you in my life,
42:00but not the version of your life
42:01where I don't exist.
42:02The real one.
42:03Where I'm gay
42:04and I'm scared sometime
42:05I'm in love.
42:05That's the whole thing.
42:06That's your son.
42:07I need time.
42:10I know.
42:11The black tie
42:11for the dance.
42:13It brings out your eyes.
42:16Thanks, Mom.
42:25How'd it go?
42:26I told her everything.
42:28And?
42:28Said she needs time.
42:29And she told me
42:30which tie to wear Saturday.
42:31That's something.
42:32Yeah.
42:33That's something.
42:41You look-
42:42You look like someone
42:43I'm really proud of.
42:44Does this work?
42:45Rumi said navy,
42:46but I don't-
42:49It works.
42:50Your mother used to fix my tie
42:52before every event.
42:53I never learned to do it myself.
42:56I'm learning a lot of things myself
42:57these days.
42:58Have the best night of your life.
43:00You've earned it.
43:04For everything.
43:05That's what I'm here for.
43:07Always was.
43:08Just took me too long to prove it.
43:13Yeah.
43:20Wow.
43:23Stop.
43:25Good.
43:26Me too.
43:31Everyone's gonna stare.
43:33Let them.
43:41Finally!
43:42Hey!
43:43Hey!
43:43Looking sharp, Marsh!
43:47I'm memorizing this for later.
43:50I need a photo.
43:5117 photos.
43:52You owe me this.
44:04Dance with me?
44:07I can't dance.
44:09Neither can I.
44:10That's the whole point.
44:13Thank you for texting first.
44:15Thank you for walking into that cafe.
44:17I almost didn't.
44:19I know.
44:21I watched you stand outside for 10 minutes.
44:24I'm not shy anymore.
44:26Yeah, you are.
44:27That's okay.
44:28I like you shy.
44:29I like you brave.
44:30I like you every way you come.
44:36I spent my whole life being quiet.
44:38Turns out the loudest thing I ever did
44:39was let someone love me.
44:42My husband was
44:42a little angel.
44:42I like you man.
44:42I saw you in my car.
44:42In my car, you just saw me oh my angst.
44:43I multi-family.
44:43I've got toazdo a table.
44:43It's just a window.
44:43I'm sorry.
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