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00:05during the months i had a crush on lucas reed the football captain i tried everything to lose
00:09weight one day after volleyball practice i almost passed out from hunger lucas caught my wrist and
00:15pulled me into a quiet corner beside the gym can you stop starving yourself
00:22if anyone makes another joke joke about your body i'll shut them up
00:27that was the day i thought lucas might like me too so after our football team won the next game
00:32i walked onto the field lucas i like you
00:46what lily taylor did you just say you like lucas
00:50voice carried across the field for one second everyone went silent
00:58damn lucas really is something even the fatty has a crush on him lucas is that why you keep
01:04rejecting girls you were saving yourself for her i'm serious
01:12my face burned i could not say another word then a loud thug cut through the field a football shot
01:20past my ear and slammed into the ground behind me the boys who had been laughing shut up lucas
01:26looked down at me i just want to know one thing what made you think you could confess to me
01:31did
01:32you think my standards were that low my whole body went stiff the heat drained from my face don't you
01:38think you think you're kind of gross
01:39i could not take it anymore i ran into the restroom and left my sight inside a star
01:50suddenly
01:55next time look in a mirror before you embarrass lucas
02:00i stood there without moving cold water dripped from my hair onto the ground
02:06i had been knocked from my body for years but lucas was the first boy who ever defended me
02:12for a while i thought my life could be different but today lucas crushed that dream himself i finally
02:21understood girls like me did not get exceptions
02:27the next morning one of lucas's friends came over to move his desk lucas said he felt sick after
02:33yesterday he's taking a few days off he asked me to move his seat
02:40after saying that he seemed to realize how cruel it sounded he met my numb eyes and quickly added
02:47not because of you don't overthink it i blinked hard i could not understand why being bigger than
02:52other people hate me this much i only ate a little more than they did was that really so disgusting
03:01three days later lucas came back he walked into the classroom with his arm around bella hart's waist
03:09bella was captain of the cheer squad and every guy's dream girl and i was lily taylor
03:16a nobody people only remembered when they needed a joke chase could not help whistling
03:22damn lucas finally got yourself a girlfriend so is it real or just for show
03:28bella pouted like she was offended what do you mean do i look like the kind of girl who lets
03:33random guys put their hands on my waist lucas lifted his brow lazily lucas did not deny it people
03:40started cheering and teasing me i lowered my head and looked at my workbook at least no one cared about
03:47what happened that day no one had time to laugh at me that was already good enough
03:57after that i buried myself in school work on the next ap calculus test i beat ethan miller the top
04:04student for the first time the moment class ended ethan moved his desk beside mine
04:11miss carter said i keep messing up the written explanations she told me to learn from you then he
04:16smiled at me new seat mate help me out it took me a few seconds to realize i had a
04:22seat mate again
04:23i was a little happy so i quickly pulled out my notebook here this is what i use thanks when
04:31i
04:31looked up by accident i met lucas's eyes across the room he had been watching us for a while a
04:37second
04:38later he looked away i did not know my confession had disgusted him that much so much so that he
04:45could
04:45not even stand to see me doing okay the next morning ethan brought me two sausage rolls i had just
04:51taken them when lucas walked over with a low laugh didn't know you had such specific taste man
04:59ethan's face changed what do you mean
05:06lucas dropped a stack of printed pictures on my desk for you you like this type right
05:15want me to bring you more tomorrow
05:20who the hell said i liked fat girls
05:25oh i saw you move seats i thought you were into her
05:29was i wrong lucas's friends laughed with
05:32and i thought i was wrong i was wrong i was wrong i was wrong i was wrong i was
05:36wrong i was wrong
05:36then he moved back to his old seat without another word
05:42from beginning to end neither of them looked at me
05:46but every word was about me my eyes fell on the picture scattered across the desk
05:52the sausage rolls in my hands went cold before lucas walked away why would you do this
06:01what
06:05are you that desperate for attention every guy who sits beside you gets the full treatment
06:14after what lucas did everything got worse one morning i found my desk covered in graffiti
06:21i kept my head down and walked to my locker the moment i opened it a stack of printed pictures
06:27slipped out and scattered across the floor students slowed down as they passed and started laughing
06:33i crouched down and picked up the pictures one by one after that no one wanted to hang out with
06:40me
06:40anymore they were afraid they would become the next target during lunch i sat alone under a tree and
06:47took big bites of my food even though i never thought about dieting again the only time i had tried
06:54to lose weight was because i liked lucas more than food now i did not like him anymore that friday
07:00we had
07:01volleyball class halfway through class it started pouring everyone ran toward the gym entrance they
07:08laughed and screamed while covering their heads i followed behind them before i could reach the door
07:14several girls started knocking me back and forth between them i lost my balance and fell hard onto the
07:20wet court my kneecap slid out of place the pain was so sharp that i could not sit up
07:27then a person stopped beside me i grabbed one pant leg without thinking i can't stand can you help me
07:35it was lucas
07:39no bella laughed beside him maybe if you lost weight you wouldn't fall so hard i was soaked through lucas
07:49did
07:49not look at me he walked past me i can't help you rain kept running into my mouth but my
07:56throat still
07:57felt dry i could only try to push myself up near the gym entrance i heard people talking she doesn't
08:04look like she's faking it this is too much should we help her you like her you go who the
08:10hell said i
08:10liked fat girls it took me almost 10 minutes to sit up i still could not stand so i sat
08:18quietly in the
08:19rain i forced myself to think about what grandma might make for dinner otherwise the pain in my knee
08:26and the eyes behind me would break me in the end i got up by myself the voices at the
08:32gym entrance never
08:33stopped i did not dare look back i limped to the security office and called grandma after hearing
08:42what happened grandma decided i needed to get stronger from that day on she planned my meals
08:48and made me exercise with her if they try to knock you down again hit back
08:57i stayed home for two days before going back to school that morning grandma only let me eat one
09:03whole wheat egg sandwich i felt miserable but soon ms carter walked into the classroom behind her
09:09stood a strange transfer student ms carter looked around the room her eyes finally stopped at me
09:15sebastian cole sit beside lily after that she hurried back to the office sebastian sat in the empty spot
09:21beside me neither of us seemed interested in talking but blake could never keep his voice down lucas
09:28look this guy is weird his whole face is covered what is he disfigured probably if he looked good
09:37why would he hide his face ghost boy and chubby lily new couple alert lucas did not react he only
09:46spun his pen lazily and said nothing for almost a month sebastian and i barely spoke i did not want
09:54to
09:54talk i was afraid the same thing that happened with eatman would happen again then one afternoon after
10:00class i noticed sebastian lying across his desk after hesitating for a moment i walked over
10:06do you have a stomach ache
10:15i'll take you to the nurse's office luckily he did not pull away when i touched him he was almost
10:20six
10:21feet two most of his weight leaned against me good thing i was sturdy otherwise i would not have been
10:27able to hold him up the nurse gave him medicine then she asked me to get him some water i
10:34ran to buy it
10:35then hurried back by then sebastian was the only one left in the nurse's office you dislike me that much
10:41and still help me that's pretty kind of you lily i don't dislike you i thought you hated me so
10:46i didn't
10:46talk to you why would i hate you because i'm fat i suddenly felt he was probably not disfigured at
10:54all
10:57after that day sebastian and i slowly got closer but he was still strange he never took off his mask
11:03he barely talked to anyone else but he always ran with me after school my body changed too without
11:11noticing it i had gotten stronger grandma was pleased she said i looked healthier now i never
11:17expected lucas to be the first person at school to notice that afternoon i sat on the lawn finishing
11:24the low-fat turkey bowl grandma had packed for me i had just picked up my lunch box when lucas
11:30suddenly grabbed my wrist you're dieting again that's none of your business lucas let go lucas
11:37pulled me toward the cafeteria you get dizzy when you starve yourself did you forget planning to pass out
11:43again if you don't let go i'll bite you you really don't know who is good to you drop the
11:51act after
11:52that i turned and walked back to the classroom sebastian was lying across his desk alone
11:59is your stomach hurting again sebastian slowly lifted his head
12:06yeah i wanted to buy medicine but i forgot where the nurse's office was i saw you downstairs just now
12:14but you were talking to some guy
12:19so i didn't want to interrupt
12:22lily it hurts i'll go buy it for you right now wait here
12:27i'll go with you that way i can remember the route
12:36i held his arm and helped him to open his eyes
12:39when we went downstairs we ran into lucas
12:45sebastian suddenly lost his balance i hurt too much to walk let me rest for a second okay i opened
12:51my mouth but when he made another soft sound of pain i could not refuse lucas's eyes turned cold
12:59at once he had just taken one step toward us when blake and bella caught up from behind
13:04whoa fatty and ghost boy what are you two doing what did you call her fatty
13:12am i wrong sebastian punched him react
13:16i rushed between them and shrugged tyler hard run
13:23only when we reached the nurse's office did i let out a breath thank you sebastian
13:28but next time just ignore him he won a taekwondo tournament before we can't beat him
13:39but he was bullying you lily i can't let anyone bully you
13:51the next day blake came to school with bruises all over his face
13:56if i find out who beat me i'll kill him forget your face for a second i heard some billionaires
14:03kid just transferred to our school from overseas who do you think it is i looked up and met sebastian's
14:09clean calm eyes he pointed at a problem on his worksheet then he smiled sincerely lily can you
14:16explain this one to me by late spring graduation was only a month away for the graduation showcase
14:23bella was in charge of costume sizes she stood at the front of the classroom with a clipboard and
14:29asked everyone when she got to me she looked down at the form lily should i put you down for
14:36xl or xxl i
14:38looked up for my corrections for some reason i felt embarrassed saying it i wear a small
14:49the classroom went fire
14:59everyone turned to look at me their shock told me no one had really noticed the change except sebastian
15:05and lucas after months of eating healthy and walking laps i had lost a lot of weight holy
15:10shit is that lily i told you her face was always pretty just had to lose the weight bella's face
15:16turned ugly ethan who had not spoken to me in a long time looked stunned too that look made me
15:23even
15:23more uncomfortable i was used to people staring at how much i ate not at my face ethan coughed and
15:31turned to bella isn't the lead singer spot still open maybe lily should do it this year bella had always
15:36been the default lead for school performances bella's smile almost cracks lily's not as tall
15:42as me i'm not sure she can pull off the dress she's prettier than you we can buy a different
15:48dress
15:50blake shot up from his suit what the hell is that supposed to mean you're defending fat girl now
15:55she lost some weight and suddenly you like her
16:00ethan glanced at me his voice dropped why not besides she might not even look at me now
16:08something in that sentence must have hit lucas he suddenly threw the cup in his hand the cup shatters
16:14against the wall the whole room went silent lucas leaned back like nothing had happened sorry my hand
16:22slipped the interruption killed ethan's mood to keep talking when lucas bent down to pick up the glass
16:28a shard cut into his palm he acted like he did not feel it by the time he stopped in
16:33front of my desk
16:34blood was already dripping from his fingers his eyes landed on the box of bandages on my desk
16:40his voice was low can i borrow one it won't stop bleeding sebastian gave a soft laugh
16:48wow you really know how to put on a show i looked away from sebastian then i shook my head
16:54at lucas
16:58no whether lucas bled or not had nothing to do with me i did not know why he had to
17:03come to me for
17:04this lucas did not look surprised the color slowly drains from lucas's face when he spoke again his voice
17:10was even softer i get it in the end i became the lead singer for the graduation showcase after that
17:18day i experienced a lot of firsts the first time someone called me pretty on the school subreddit
17:25the first time a boy asked me out the first time so many people were nice to me for no
17:30reason
17:31boys from other classes even came to our room between periods lilly i accidentally got an extra
17:36coffee you want it i refused out of habit but sebastian stopped the boy before he could leave
17:41lilly i think my blood sugar is low i want the coffee but i forgot my wallet his calm voice
17:47did
17:48not sound convincing at all it sounded like he was teasing me it's okay i have cash i took out
17:54my little
17:54wallet and counted out fifteen dollars for the boy can i buy it my friend wants it the boy's face
18:01twisted
18:05being around sebastian was easy even when more people started showing interest to me i still only
18:11stayed close to him because of that rumors about us slowly spread through the school did you hear
18:18lilly taylor the new pretty girl from senior class has weird taste she likes ghost boy
18:22i saw his face once he's just bigger it's disgusting yeah i heard his face is covered in
18:28burnt scars sebastian had never taken off his mask or cap in front of anyone even at lunch he always
18:34ate alone if not for me he would not have been dragged into these rumors so i started keeping my
18:40distance sebastian noticed one morning before class he stayed quiet for a long time then he suddenly said
18:48in a low voice lilly you can move your desk away i froze and turned to him what
18:58he leaned back in his chair his voice sounded tired i'm used to being alone
19:04you don't have to get tied to someone with a bad reputation they all say someone ugly and disgusting
19:11like me doesn't deserve to be close to you so maybe you should sit who said that he said lightly
19:16it doesn't matter at first sebastian refused to tell me after i asked several times he finally
19:24gave me a few names i remembered them they were all boys who asked me to come out before sebastian
19:31had
19:31spoken up for me whenever people called me fat now it was my turn to do something for him i
19:37found
19:37those boys and rejected them again this time i warned them if they kept spreading rumors i would report
19:44them for harassment when sebastian found out he covered his eyes with one hand sebastian's shoulders
19:52shake silently i guessed he was crying because he was touched so i patted his shoulder gently no one
19:57will say bad things about you anymore don't be scared i made a reasonable conclusion sebastian was
20:03deeply moved nothing bad happened again before graduation the only thing people gossiped about was lucas
20:12and bella breaking up at lunch sebastian and i walked ahead behind us blake was trying to comfort lucas
20:19don't take it too hard man there'll be someone better lucas walked past me without slowing down
20:25his shoulder brushed mine he looked straight ahead and said casually why would i be upset
20:31i never liked her anyway sebastian glanced ahead then he smiled faintly lily
20:39sounds like there's a dog barking somewhere
20:44by the time finals ended i already knew i had done better than usual the day after results came up
20:50miss carter asked rachel to organize one last senior dinner when i arrived i saw lucas outside the
20:57restaurant the red spark flickered in the dark his eyes stayed on me i looked away as if i had
21:03not seen
21:03him i tried to walk around him lucas grabbed my wrist he pulled me back until my back hit his
21:09chest
21:14are you insane he caught my other wrist without even looking lucas looked down at me no matter how
21:21i beg now you won't give me another chance right i avoided his eyes i don't know what you're talking
21:26about don't lie lucas smiled faintly you know exactly what i mean he pinched my chin and made
21:34me face him you know i said i never liked bella because i wanted you to hear it i went
21:39quiet i
21:40stopped struggling after a long moment i looked back at him calmly yes i know i also know you liked
21:47me a long time ago otherwise i wouldn't have been stupid enough to confess to you
21:55the first time i tried to lose weight i hid it from everyone i ate almost nothing i walked home
22:01every day instead of taking the bus i wanted to lose weight as fast as possible i wanted to wear
22:06the dress i had loved for months then i wanted to confess to lucas but lucas noticed my pale face
22:13he also noticed my hand pressed against my stomach he had been about to leave for basketball with
22:18blake and the others i'm fine lucas did not believe me he kept insisting on taking me to the hospital
22:25i had no choice but to tell him i had been dieting his frown deepened he used the clinic as
22:31an excuse
22:32and signed us both out of school then he dragged me to lunch he walked ahead holding my hand
22:41his voice was cold i care that much about what people think even starving yourself is fine i was
22:47so hungry my head felt light i barely heard him i just nodded without thinking yeah lucas was furious
22:56his grip on my hand tightened but after a long silence he still gave in he held back his anger
23:02and said
23:03can you stop starving yourself if anyone makes another joke about your body i'll shut them up
23:09is that enough i smiled a little then i asked quietly don't you think i'm fat like this i'm kind
23:16of ugly
23:16right lucas stopped walking he did not let go of my hand he turned back and bent slightly his eyes
23:24were
23:24focused i looked his voice was serious you're cute everywhere lucas said it like he was giving an answer
23:33in class that was the moment my crush on him grew out of control i squeezed his hand back for
23:39the first
23:40time i tried to climb out of my own insecurity then in the next second he pushed me right back
23:46in
23:48for a long time after that i could not get up again lucas's lashes trembled his grip on my wrists
23:57loosened yes he lowered his eyes and gave a bitter smile i liked you a long time ago but being
24:05with you
24:06meant everyone would stare joke and laugh behind my back so you don't get to ask me for another chance
24:11now
24:13his confession came too late i turned and walked away
24:20after a few steps i heard his voice behind me it was low almost like he was talking to himself
24:26but i
24:27liked you more than any of them ever did i did not stop i took a breath then i pushed
24:35open the
24:36restaurant door inside most of our class was already there sebastian had not arrived yet miss carter smiled
24:44when she saw lily you did well come sit bella's face darkened the moment i walked in then she suddenly
24:52smiled miss carter don't let lily's grades fool you she's not as innocent as she looks
25:00i looked at her what are you talking about come on lily we've already graduated it doesn't matter
25:09now she was secretly dating someone before finals i almost laughed before i could explain miss carter cut
25:17in who who is lily's boyfriend bella smiled wider sebastian cole
25:27bella continued her words i mean lily acts like such a good girl who knew she had a thing for
25:32the
25:32weirdest guy in school miss carter's eyes widened behind her glasses bella looked even more pleased
25:41he never takes off that mask maybe there is something ugly hiding underneath
25:48but lily you don't have to deny him just because your boyfriend is ugly
25:52when he gets here why don't you ask him to take off that mask
25:57let everyone see those burn scars compared to her rumor about me dating sebastian
26:03i hated her insulting him more bella have you ever seen scars on sebastian's face she choked
26:10no but then you made it up everyone says it everyone also says you only made cheer captain because your
26:19mom paid off the coach so according to you that must be true too right bella panicked at once
26:26who the hell said that bella looked around the room the restaurant got noisy another group of
26:33students crowded around miss carter miss carter i heard the principal say some billionaire son was in
26:38our class who is it is he hot he has to be hot right he's rich
26:46miss carter was holding two directions
26:48room grew louder and louder then the door opened again everything went quiet everyone looked toward the
26:59entrance
27:09for a second the whole room forgot how to breathe his features were sharp and clean the man was almost
27:14too good looking to be real the girl closest to the door blushed first um are you looking for
27:21someone miss carter finally let out a breath then she smiled you don't recognize him the person you
27:28were all talking about is standing right in front of you bella's voice cracked sebastian cole the
27:36billionaire son what the hell so this gorgeous guy is sebastian the same sebastian who transferred back
27:42from overseas and apparently lily's boyfriend i felt like lightning had struck me on the spot
27:54sebastian looked a little unfamiliar without the mask then he raised one brow and looked at me
28:02fine i accept i stared at him except the restaurant exploded
28:11no way that's ghost boy i knew his eyes were too pretty for him to be ugly i thought that
28:17mask
28:17was hiding scars are we sure he's not some actor the dinner ended in scattered gasps and whispers
28:24on the way home sebastian answered every question i had
28:27at first he wore the mask because he had gotten into a fight before transferring
28:33the bruises on his face had not healed yet later he just got used to wearing it as for why
28:39he still
28:40took finals after being accepted early sebastian looked at me calmly to go to the same university as
28:47you girlfriend only then did i remember what miss carter had said at dinner you misunderstood bella
28:54this is my first relationship sebastian's eyes softened
28:59my parents were always working i grew up with nannies once they both missed my birthday
29:06so i ran away from home i thought someone would notice no one did
29:14after that i got used to it he said it like it was nothing but i still saw the shadow
29:19in his eyes
29:20my nose stung so even rich families could be this cruel sebastian noticed my eyes turning red
29:28don't feel bad for me this is the first time someone chose me and didn't give me up
29:36that's enough
29:41he sounded too used to begging for scraps of love
29:44that made it worse i pressed my lips together but the tears still fell don't cry lily
29:55then he suddenly returned to the earlier topic by the way what were you saying i misunderstood
30:02i froze the tears hung in my eyes i blinked fast
30:09after choking on my words twice i finally said stiffly nothing boyfriend if i denied it now
30:17sebastian might actually jump into the river he needed love too much and i could tell what i felt for
30:24him
30:24was different trying it would not hurt sebastian had already been accepted somewhere good but after i
30:33chose my university he gave up his spot and enrolled with me his cold work obsessed family barely reacted
30:40by the end of summer i had fully accepted that sebastian cole was my boyfriend he never pushed too
30:47far the most he did was kiss my forehead when he walked me home other than being clingy he had
30:53almost
30:53no flaws on the first day of college reality hit me fast out of my three roommates two ignored me
31:00when
31:00i said hello the last one was bella hart her cheer record had helped her get into the school
31:08compared to my bad mood bella looked almost pleased when she saw me what a coincidence
31:15not really most students from our high school had stayed in state for college
31:21running into old classmates on campus was normal but some coincidences were still annoying
31:29like that evening when sebastian and i were eating dinner he told me lucas was in his major i felt
31:36depressed for a few seconds then i remembered lucas was good at fighting i quickly warned sebastian
31:42don't get into it with lucas when you're alone you can't beat him
31:48if he gives you trouble call campus security sebastian was picking the carrots out of my food
31:52without looking up he asked slowly how do you know i can't beat him he had no idea how dangerous
31:59lucas
32:00was this concerned his personal safety so i put down my fork and said seriously don't act tough
32:08he's really good at fighting
32:12i've seen lucas fight a few times he barely lost maybe i sounded too serious sebastian seemed hurt
32:19after a long pause he pushed the food he had picked clean back to me then he nodded got it
32:25i'm useless i won't mess with him i forgot sebastian was sensitive my words had hurt him for the rest
32:31of
32:31dinner he barely spoke even though he was upset he still quietly peeled shrimp for me i bit my fork
32:37and
32:37looked at him carefully the guilt got worse after dinner we did what college couples were supposed to do
32:45we went for a walk from the track to the quiet path by the campus lake i apologized to sebastian
32:52the whole
32:53way after a long time he finally softened a little lily comfort me i am comforting you not enough
33:05his breath brushed hot against my ear kiss me please his voice was so close that i shivered
33:14my breath hitched where both our voices had gone quiet sebastian tugged down the collar of his hoodie
33:22here i stood on tiptoe and kissed him sebastian held the back of my head leave a mark
33:33let everyone know i'm yours i followed what he told me to do
33:38i pressed my lips there then i bit down lightly
33:44my face burned red i pushed him away and lowered my head
33:48it felt nice
33:54next time leave a few more okay wasn't it supposed to go both ways why didn't he kiss me
34:01i could not bring myself to ask so i stared at him for a few seconds then i shook my
34:07head
34:07no hopefully he would understand what he had done wrong and next time he would offer to kiss me too
34:17after college started i joined the volleyball club
34:20at first everything seemed normal then i realized coach was strange
34:24whenever he corrected my posture he stood too close
34:28lilly raise your arms he came up behind me i could almost feel his breath near the back of my
34:34neck
34:34i stepped away quietly
34:38you can just tell me what to fix he did not take the hint he smiled
34:43but you're too stiff freshman then he suddenly flicked my forehead
34:47other girls wish i'd help them myself
34:51during break bella sat beside him with her water bottle
34:54she raised her voice just enough for me to hear
34:58wow lilly coach is so nice to you if you didn't already had a boyfriend
35:04you could totally consider him coach's face changed boyfriend you have a boyfriend
35:13i looked away from bella and nodded coach stared at me for a few seconds
35:19you have a boyfriend and didn't say anything
35:24what were you leading me on
35:27did you ask and honestly you're not exactly worth leading on
35:31before he could answer bella slammed her bottle down and stood up
35:36who do you think you're talking to your boyfriend isn't even on his level
35:41he's useless and creepy anger shot straight to my head
35:46before i could think i walked up to bella then i slapped her hard across the face
35:52i warned you not to insult sebastian again bella froze with one hand on her cheek you hit me
35:59the next second she lunged at me we crashed into each other all the anger i had swallowed for
36:05years finally three girls finally pulled me away coach looked at me coldly then he made his decision
36:13on the spot you started it stay after practice run drills until i say you're done bella dusts herself
36:25off and smiles like she has won
36:31under the evening heat i stayed on the court and ran drills alone by the time coach finally let me
36:38go
36:38everyone else had already left i dragged myself back to the dorm after i showered i was too tired to
36:45move
36:46i was also starving then sebastian called and made me come downstairs the moment i saw him i fell into
36:55his arms and started complaining halfway through i felt so longed that i cried sebastian i'm so hungry
37:02i barely ate anything today i really want sausage rolls sebastian went quiet too quiet he helped me sit
37:13on the bench nearby then he went to buy food for me after i finished eating he checked his phone
37:20his face showed nothing go back and rest lily i have something to do i'll come find you later i
37:26looked
37:27at him for two seconds then i lowered my eyes okay i'll head back
37:34then he turned away but i remembered the message i had accidentally seen on his phone
37:40sebastian that asshole from volleyball is at the pool hall come over
37:47i quietly followed him for some reason i suddenly thought of blake showing up with bruises back in
37:53senior year pieces of old memories came together in my head and they all pointed to one fact sebastian
38:00had been pretending to be weak this whole time that guess was confirmed when i stood outside the pool
38:05hall i looked through the glass sebastian stood beside a pool table coach and three other guys lay
38:12scattered across the floor sebastian did not have a scratch on him sebastian holds a broken pool cue in
38:20his mind the sharp wooden end hovered less than an inch from coach's eye coach
38:30you were interested in my girlfriend coach shook his head hard no no i wasn't i swear
38:39sebastian turned the broken pool cue lazily between his fingers my girlfriend had a rough day
38:46how are you planning to make it up to her how are you planning to make it up to her
38:49coach trembled
38:52what do you want me to do
38:55sebastian seemed too bored to answer he shifted the broken key
39:00the sharp wooden end in his throat which is calm before it could go down i spoke
39:08sebastian my voice was calm his whole body froze
39:15until coach and the others ran out in a panic sebastian still did not turn around
39:20i walked over and crouched in front of him then i took the broken pool cue out of his hand
39:27sebastian lowered his hand his throat moved a few times before he spoke his voice was hoarse i'm sorry
39:34i stayed quiet after a long moment he asked again are you gonna break up with me
39:41i looked up at once his eyes were red something dark and restless moves in sebastian's eyes
39:49he looked nothing like the harmless sebastian who leaned on me and said his stomach hurt
39:53i sighed and curled my fingers into his palm only then did he calm down a little
39:59of course i'm not breaking up with you over this i just don't understand why you lied to me
40:06sebastian wrapped his hand tightly around mine his smile looked pale and bitter
40:12because i knew you didn't like me
40:16you only agreed to date me because you felt sorry for me
40:21if i didn't look pitiful enough you would leave
40:24then i held his face in both hands sebastian look at me
40:30i feel sorry for a lot of people but i don't date them just because they're pitiful
40:36liking someone isn't charity it's not something i hand out because someone looks sad
40:41he gripped my hand his eyes were almost stubborn you can't lie to me
40:51sebastian was wound too tight so i leaned in and kissed him lightly fine if he would not kiss me
40:58first
40:59i could do it if i'm lying i'll never get to eat sausage rolls again sebastian finally relaxed that
41:06night we walked through the quiet street outside campus i swung his hand as i walked listen we're
41:15actually perfect for each other you're really good fighting and i'm pretty good too today i basically
41:21pinned bella to the ground she barely touched me her face is gonna be swollen for at least a week
41:28sebastian squeezed my hand next time you don't have to do it i'll handle them
41:36but bella is a girl sebastian answered without much thought
41:43i'll use a pink bat i burst it then i stood on tiptoe and kissed his cheek loudly
41:51i like you so much sebastian cole
41:56sebastian was not the kind of guy lucas said he was
41:59he did not only solve problems with violence before going after coach he had already collected
42:05screenshots messages statements from other girls and proof that bella had cheated her way into her
42:12cheer scholarship then he submitted everything to the school the next day coach was suspended from
42:18the club team bella lost her scholarship she was removed from the cheer program everything happened
42:25so fast that i could barely believe it sebastian met my suspicious eyes then he lazily touched my
42:31lashes with one finger my mom graduated from the school she donated a library three years ago right
42:37now she's talking to the school about funding two new dorm buildings later i met sebastian's mother once
42:43on campus remembering his lonely childhood i carefully told her to be nicer to him that little brat told
42:51you we abandoned him i nodded sadly that year he was only seven years old we missed one birthday dinner
42:58because of work so he took his father's phone and texted our assistant told him to prepare the
43:05private rept he wanted to fly to melbourne alone when we caught him he was afraid his father would punish
43:10him
43:12so he hid in the hotel for two days and told everyone he had run away from home
43:18if the housekeeper hadn't found him eating cake in there your boyfriend would still be telling people
43:23he survived in the wild i stared at her so that was the tragic childhood he told me about
43:31a sudden laugh came from not far away the mood went cold lucas stood under a streetlight watching me
43:37so now you're into violence
43:43just because he beat up a few guys for you you're obsessed sebastian was still upset about me saying
43:48he could not beat lucas the second lucas opened his mouth sebastian's face went dark
43:53he started walking toward him i grabbed his arm in time
43:59is he even worth fighting lucas is obviously weaker than you
44:04if you fight him that's basically bullying you could make him cry without even trying
44:14what if he breaks down and calls the police coward you couldn't even like someone in public
44:23what makes you think you can compete with me lucas's face darkened he gave a cold smile and stepped
44:28forward i had no patience left i pulled the pepper spray from my back then i sprayed him straight in
44:34the face no one helped him he would probably need a while before he could open his eyes again for
44:42a
44:43second the way he stood there in pain reminded me of myself in the rain back then i had sat
44:48alone on
44:48the court no one was willing to help me now lucas looked just as helpless lucas seeing you like this
44:56makes me feel like i finally walked out of that rain i would not choke on that humiliation anymore
45:01i did not need him to suffer exactly the way i had suffered this was enough
45:06it
45:06ok
45:06you
45:07you
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