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Bl Ai Sinking In Summer
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00:00:06you're dead you hear me dead his room was right next to mine
00:00:18my mother my own mom was feeding the enemy blueberry pancakes this was a hostage situation
00:00:26and i was the hostage like nine times in four minutes because he's ruining my life you know
00:00:33what this sounds like right what obsession oh this is happening this is absolutely happening
00:00:39no spin again what's the matter mark scared of your breath yeah
00:00:48relax it was spin the bobble it doesn't mean anything
00:00:54that's all it was a stupid drunk meaningless game so why could i still feel it there are
00:01:03three things you need to know about my life one my mom makes the best grilled cheese on
00:01:07the eastern seaboard two i will die on the hill that empire strike back film who is a six
00:01:12foot golden retreat back from this and made it his personal my summer you're cornered little
00:01:16man surrender or face annihilation you literally used the word annihilation wrong last week on
00:01:22your english final summer started words don't count anymore you're dead i win
00:01:33best of seven it's already best of seven
00:01:37i'm up four to one boys if i find one more dart in the pasta pot you're both grounded until
00:01:45college
00:01:45that was theo i did it clean up both of you and theo your friends arriving in an hour
00:01:55what friend oh yeah didn't i mention beckett's staying next door for the summer
00:02:00his mom rented the colohan place you didn't mention that
00:02:06you definitely absolutely did not mention that
00:02:11must have slipped my mind beckett hale my brother's best friend the most arrogant and
00:02:17sufferable human being i have ever misfortune of breathing near and he was gonna live next door
00:02:22all summer
00:02:32well well little marsh miss me about as much as i'd miss food poisoning your brother's still adorable
00:02:39when he's angry call me cute one more time and i'll key in your car okay great start everyone
00:02:44really feeling the love relax i'm sure we'll be best friends by august i'd rather chew glass
00:02:50careful i'm right next door now nowhere to hide
00:02:58el come swim i'm reading what is this sylvia plane light summer reading give it back come get it
00:03:14you're dead you hear me dead you needed to cool off
00:03:19i was going to survive this summer and i was going to make becklin hall's life a living hell
00:03:33his room was right next to mine
00:03:50morning roomie we're not roommates neighbors then
00:03:54thin walls by the way you talk in your sleep
00:04:01oh beckett you're up early pancakes mrs marsh you're a saint i'd love some
00:04:08call me katherine sweetheart your family this summer
00:04:11he's a stray my family keeps feeding elliot it's fine he's adorable when he's grumpy
00:04:23my mother my own mom was feeding the enemy blueberry pancakes this was a hostage situation
00:04:31and i was the hostage
00:04:36he's everywhere the kitchen the yard the bathroom i went to brush my teeth and his stupid toothbrush
00:04:43was just sitting there next to mine touching mine
00:04:48what a tragedy i'm serious slona it's an invasion you've mentioned him like nine times in four
00:04:56minutes because he's ruining my life you know what this sounds like right
00:05:02what
00:05:04nothing forget it no what does it sound like
00:05:13obsession
00:05:18i'm not that's insane i hate him
00:05:22yeah you've made that super clear all i'm saying is most people who hate someone
00:05:29they just ignore them they don't track their toothbrush placement
00:05:33i need new friends
00:05:39i thought this was our pool day
00:05:41it is
00:05:42beckett's part of our now deal with it little brother
00:05:49did beckett just yep
00:05:57nice form six out of ten nobody asked for your opinion weak splash
00:06:04i can fix that if you want i'd rather drown
00:06:16guys mateo just texted he's throwing a massive party this weekend
00:06:20see you live
00:06:21everyone's invited
00:06:22let's go
00:06:23i told myself the weird feeling in my chest was chlorine burn
00:06:27that's all it was
00:06:28chlorine
00:06:33here's my free plan for surviving mateo's dance party
00:06:37step one avoid beckett hail
00:06:39step two drink until step one doesn't matter
00:06:43you sure you're good
00:06:45you've been weird all week
00:06:46i'm great i'm fantastic
00:06:48hand me that
00:06:51that's not water
00:06:53that's the point
00:06:57so much for step one
00:06:58all right all right spin the bottle
00:07:00classic rules no chicken out
00:07:04you look like you're about to pass out
00:07:29oh this is happening this is absolutely happening no spin again what's the matter marsh scared
00:07:36of your breath
00:07:37yeah
00:07:39relax
00:07:40it's just a game
00:07:47okay okay guys that's you can stop now
00:07:57it was a game
00:07:58it was nothing
00:07:59it was nothing
00:07:59elliot
00:08:00hey
00:08:01you good
00:08:03don't
00:08:03don't what
00:08:04don't stand there like
00:08:05like that was nothing
00:08:07it was spin the bauble
00:08:08it doesn't mean anything
00:08:16what the hell
00:08:24it was a game
00:08:26that's all it was
00:08:27stupid
00:08:28drunk
00:08:29meaningless game
00:08:31so why
00:08:33could i still feel it
00:08:42i didn't sleep
00:08:44not really
00:08:45every time i closed my eyes
00:08:47i felt it
00:08:48his mouth
00:08:49the pressure
00:08:50the way the room
00:08:51disappeared
00:08:51then the crack of my fist
00:08:53against his jaw
00:08:54both felt violent
00:08:56both felt necessary
00:09:00my plan was simple
00:09:02stay in this room
00:09:04september
00:09:05maybe october
00:09:06maybe forever
00:09:08elliot honey
00:09:10breakfast
00:09:11beckett made french toast
00:09:13i'm sick
00:09:16you were fine yesterday
00:09:20it hit fast
00:09:22probably terminal
00:09:25elliot james marsh
00:09:27you have five minutes
00:09:40dude these are incredible
00:09:42you should open a restaurant
00:09:44maybe i will
00:09:45call it punched in the face cafe
00:09:47great origin story
00:09:52there he is
00:09:53sit down
00:09:54eat something
00:10:03you're not having beckett's french toast
00:10:05it's life changing
00:10:07i'm good with cereal
00:10:08yeah cereal's a safe choice
00:10:11low risk
00:10:19beckett
00:10:20do you just lurk in hallways
00:10:22relax
00:10:23i wanted to talk
00:10:26we have nothing to talk about
00:10:30it was a game elliot
00:10:32spin the bottle
00:10:33people kiss
00:10:35the world keeps turning
00:10:37great
00:10:38world's turning
00:10:39move
00:10:43you hit me pretty hard
00:10:44for something that meant nothing
00:10:46it meant nothing
00:10:48then why can't you even look at me
00:10:55i'm looking see
00:10:57nothing
00:10:59you kissed back
00:11:02you kissed back
00:11:03you're insane
00:11:12i told myself it was research
00:11:14but nobody types that at two in the morning unless something already cracked open
00:11:24the worst part
00:11:25it wasn't a kiss
00:11:27it was knowing he couldn't sleep either
00:11:30and some broken part of me and some broken part of me was glad
00:11:38step one
00:11:39step one
00:11:39be so aggressively normal that the universe forgets saturday ever happened
00:11:42step two
00:11:43never think about his mouth again
00:11:44step three
00:11:45there is no step three
00:11:46steps one and two are already impossible
00:11:49hey brianna
00:11:50hey brianna you do something different with your hair looks amazing
00:11:52got a trim
00:11:54like two weeks ago
00:11:56well it's really working for you
00:12:03is he flirting
00:12:06badly
00:12:07no i mean since when does elliot marsh flirt in the hallway at eight in the morning
00:12:14something happened at that party
00:12:16obviously something happened at that party
00:12:18he punched beckett hale in the face
00:12:20no
00:12:21something else
00:12:25so theo tries to flip the kayak back over
00:12:27right and he just
00:12:28full scorpion into the lake
00:12:30face first
00:12:36you're in a mood today
00:12:38what mood
00:12:39i'm great
00:12:40i'm fantastic
00:12:42exactly
00:12:43that's what's weird
00:12:46you going to griffin's thing this weekend
00:12:48maybe
00:12:50you asking me to go
00:12:52maybe i am
00:12:55what the hell
00:13:03you're a terrible actor elliot
00:13:05back off
00:13:06you keep running from it
00:13:08but i was there
00:13:09you kissed me back
00:13:12oh one more thing
00:13:13that party
00:13:14someone had their phone out
00:13:15i've seen the video
00:13:16you're lying
00:13:18he could have punched me back that night
00:13:20and it would have hurt less than this
00:13:22because a bruise fades
00:13:23but a video
00:13:24but a video
00:13:25a video lives forever
00:13:29yesterday he cornered me in the hallway and said somebody caught that kiss on video
00:13:34you look wrecked
00:13:35you look wrecked
00:13:36like you didn't sleep at all
00:13:37back off
00:13:38i deleted the video
00:13:39it's not going anywhere
00:13:40if that clip gets out we're both screwed
00:13:43i need to ask you something
00:13:45don't do this
00:13:46don't do this
00:13:47my ap lit essays
00:13:48do friday
00:13:49and i've got nothing
00:13:50you're good with words
00:13:51help me out
00:13:52just this once
00:13:54you're blackmailing me over an essay
00:13:56i'm not blackmailing you
00:13:58i just
00:13:59i really
00:14:00don't know how to get close to you
00:14:02i just wanted an excuse to talk to you a little longer
00:14:05you're sick
00:14:06with you
00:14:07i've been messed up for a long time
00:14:12he deleted it days ago
00:14:13he had no leverage
00:14:15nothing
00:14:16and i still wrote the essay
00:14:17so is he that good
00:14:19or did i lose this a long time ago
00:14:22he said he wanted my attention
00:14:23the stupid part is
00:14:25he's had it since the day he moved in next door
00:14:38iced americana
00:14:39i don't want to serve you
00:14:40i came to apologize
00:14:42i shouldn't have used the video to scare you
00:14:44i shouldn't have pushed you into stuff you didn't want to do
00:14:46i just
00:14:47i was scared you'd push me away again
00:14:49scared you'd stop talking to me for good
00:14:50you always find the dumbest way to ruin everything
00:14:55i know
00:14:56i'll do better
00:15:01i heard people at school saying you've been doing beckitt's homework
00:15:04he asked and i just didn't say no
00:15:07did he threaten you
00:15:08you don't have to just take that
00:15:11no
00:15:12i agreed to it
00:15:19i'm not writing another thing for you
00:15:21and i'm not letting you drag me around anymore
00:15:23i get it
00:15:24i'm not pushing you
00:15:25i'll wait
00:15:27i'm not worth waiting for
00:15:28yeah you are
00:15:32whatever this was between us
00:15:33it wasn't over
00:15:34but at least the ugliest hardest part of it was finally behind us
00:15:41it had been four days since the parking lot
00:15:43four days since beckett hale said i'm sorry like he meant it and drove away
00:15:46four days of me waiting for the other shoe to drop
00:15:48peace offering
00:15:49oat milk latte
00:15:50two sugars
00:15:51how do you know my order
00:15:52you literally make it for yourself every shift
00:15:54i have eyes
00:15:56this doesn't make us friends
00:15:58didn't say it did
00:16:01but we're not enemies anymore either
00:16:08all right who's in for mario cant losers buy pizza
00:16:11you always pick rainbow road and then act betrayed by it
00:16:13that's slander
00:16:17beck grab a controller man
00:16:21wait are you two actually being civil
00:16:23should i document this
00:16:25don't make it weird declin
00:16:26for once we agree
00:16:46the thing about ceasefires is they're supposed to be temporary
00:16:48a pause before you go back to the world
00:16:51no absolutely not
00:16:52but lying there in the dark smiling like an idiot at a text from becca hale
00:16:56i had this terrible sinking feeling that the war was already over
00:16:58and i'd lost
00:17:04two nights
00:17:05no parents
00:17:07a lake
00:17:08this is literally the reset button we all need
00:17:11or a guaranteed disaster with mosquitoes
00:17:15you're coming
00:17:16non-negotiable
00:17:21yo sloan
00:17:23camping trip
00:17:23beck and i already signed up
00:17:25perfect
00:17:26the whole crew
00:17:27the whole crew
00:17:28including the guy i've been texting until 1am about his parents divorce
00:17:31the guy i was absolutely categorically not thinking about
00:17:38tent assignments are alphabetical by last name
00:17:40finch and hall
00:17:42marsh and oh also hall we have two marshes
00:17:45theo you're with drake
00:17:46elliott you're with beckett
00:17:48you're kidding
00:17:49the alphabet doesn't kid mr marsh
00:17:52relax
00:17:52relax i don't snore
00:17:54that is the least of my concerns
00:18:16all right campfire confessions
00:18:19one truth you've never told anyone
00:18:21i'll start
00:18:21i cheated on my driving test
00:18:23parallel parked like garbage
00:18:24smiled at the instructor
00:18:26he passed me anyways
00:18:28i i cried when i was watching a dog food commercial
00:18:31i totally failed my first calculus test and even cooked up a fake grade online
00:18:36beck your turn
00:18:39after my parents split
00:18:42my dad packed his car on a tuesday
00:18:45didn't say goodbye
00:18:46i sat on the porch for six hours waiting for him to come back
00:18:51he never did
00:18:58that was the moment i stopped pretending to tent and i felt love
00:19:12every smart instinct i had said stay in the tent
00:19:15go to sleep
00:19:16don't follow him into the dark
00:19:20i've never been smart about it
00:19:27there's a moment
00:19:28right before you do something stupid
00:19:30where your brain sends up a flare
00:19:32a warning
00:19:33and you walk toward it anyway
00:19:36you're a loud elliott
00:19:38could hear you from a mile away
00:19:40yeah well you disappeared from the tent at midnight
00:19:42figured you were either sleepwalking or being murdered
00:19:44either way
00:19:45seemed worth checking
00:19:46couldn't sleep
00:19:48get in line
00:19:50what i said back there
00:19:51at the fire
00:19:53about feeling like nobody's first choice
00:19:55you don't have to explain
00:19:56i know i don't have to
00:19:57i wanna
00:19:58my dad left on a tuesday
00:20:00didn't even pick a dramatic day
00:20:02not a holiday
00:20:02not a birthday
00:20:03just a regular nothing tuesday
00:20:04packed a bag
00:20:06kissed my sister's forehead
00:20:07and drove to portland
00:20:08i was at practice
00:20:09he didn't wait
00:20:10that's not about you beckett
00:20:12that's about him
00:20:14everyone says that
00:20:15doesn't make the house less empty
00:20:19my mom hums when she cooks
00:20:21this old fleetwood mech song
00:20:22landslave
00:20:23every single time
00:20:24drives theo insane
00:20:25but sometimes i stand in the hallway
00:20:26just to listen
00:20:26because i don't know
00:20:27it means everything's okay
00:20:28the world's still turning
00:20:29why are you telling me this
00:20:29because you told me about the tuesday
00:20:31felt like i owed you something honest
00:20:33you know what's funny
00:20:34i spent the whole first week
00:20:35trying to make you hate me
00:20:37mission accomplished
00:20:38no
00:20:39i spent the whole first week
00:20:41terrified you'd figure out
00:20:42i was paying attention to you
00:20:43picking fights was easier
00:20:44paying attention how
00:20:49in every way that mattered
00:20:51i don't hate you elliot
00:20:53i never did
00:20:55then what is this
00:20:56i don't know
00:20:59but i'm tired of pretending
00:21:00it's nothing
00:21:01his hand was warm
00:21:02and i thought
00:21:03this is the thing
00:21:04this is what i've been running for
00:21:06not him
00:21:06not the kiss
00:21:07just this
00:21:08the terrifying simple fact
00:21:10that someone's hand
00:21:10could feel like the only place
00:21:11yours was ever supposed to be
00:21:13elliot
00:21:13you out here
00:21:14dorothy's doing a head count
00:21:16yeah
00:21:17i'm coming
00:21:22i walked away
00:21:24but i swear
00:21:25i left something on that rock
00:21:27something i wasn't getting back
00:21:32he hasn't texted
00:21:33not since we got back
00:21:34not a word
00:21:35which is fine
00:21:36totally fine
00:21:37because nothing happened
00:21:38we talked
00:21:39he touched my hand
00:21:40that's
00:21:41that's just what people do
00:21:41by legs at midnight
00:21:42normal
00:21:43completely normal
00:21:58look at him
00:21:59not a care in the world
00:22:01meanwhile i'm over here
00:22:02dissecting a handhold
00:22:03like it's a supreme court case
00:22:06you're glowing
00:22:07i'm sweating
00:22:08it's called humidity
00:22:09no it's called
00:22:09something happened
00:22:10at that campsite
00:22:11and you're going to tell me what
00:22:12nothing happened
00:22:12we roasted marshmallows
00:22:13rowan cried about a dog
00:22:14commercial again
00:22:15standard trip
00:22:15you're doing that thing
00:22:16where your voice goes up half an octave
00:22:17because you're lying
00:22:18my voice doesn't
00:22:19so i'm thinking movie night friday
00:22:21the yates den
00:22:22declan said he'd order pizza
00:22:23i'm in
00:22:24elliot
00:22:30elliot
00:22:31what
00:22:32yeah
00:22:32friday
00:22:33sure
00:22:34you've been weird since the trip
00:22:35i haven't been
00:22:36you have
00:22:37and it's fine if you don't want to talk about it
00:22:39but i'm asking you as your best friend
00:22:41are you okay
00:22:43i'm okay
00:22:44i promise
00:22:59i'm so screwed
00:23:17i'm so screwed
00:23:28welcome to paradise people
00:23:30no parents
00:23:31no rules
00:23:32no
00:23:32actually there are rules
00:23:34don't break anything mom loves
00:23:35theo invited everyone to birchwood cottage for the weekend
00:23:39and by everyone
00:23:41i mean the one person
00:23:43who's been living rent free in my head
00:23:45since the lake
00:23:56this place is gorgeous
00:23:57dibs on the room with the view
00:23:59they all have views
00:24:00it's a lake house
00:24:02then dibs on the best view
00:24:06all right
00:24:08rooms
00:24:11slona and rowan upstairs left
00:24:14spencer you're on the couch because you lost the bet
00:24:17elliot
00:24:17you're in the back bedroom
00:24:20beckett
00:24:21i'll take me whatever's left
00:24:22back bedroom's got twin beds
00:24:23you too can share
00:24:24cool
00:24:25fine
00:24:26whatever
00:24:29not fine
00:24:30not whatever
00:24:31not even remotely in the same zip code as fine
00:24:55you've been avoiding me all day
00:25:00i've been ten feet from you for six hours that's the opposite of you know what i mean
00:25:05i don't know how to act around you anymore that's the problem
00:25:10then stop acting
00:25:26you following me
00:25:30you left the bonfire without saying anything
00:25:32theo thinks you're sulking
00:25:34i'm not sulking
00:25:35i'm
00:25:36processing
00:25:38processing what
00:25:38this
00:25:39you
00:25:41the fact that i can't stop thinking about that night at the lake
00:25:44and it's driving me insane because
00:25:45i don't know what it means
00:25:46and i don't know what you want
00:25:47and i
00:25:48can i
00:26:07what are we doing
00:26:08something real
00:26:12i've spent my whole life building walls
00:26:16and this boy just walked right through them like they were made of smoke
00:26:25here's the thing about kissing someone in a forest at midnight
00:26:27you can't unknow what their mouth feels like
00:26:30trust me
00:26:31i've tried
00:26:32so i did what any rational person would do
00:26:35i researched
00:26:37okay
00:26:37so maybe not that rational
00:26:53you've been staring at that muffin for five minutes
00:26:55i'm thinking
00:26:59dangerous hobby
00:27:00we need to be more careful
00:27:01sloan already thinks something's up
00:27:04sloan thinks everything's up
00:27:06she once accused the lunch lady of running a black market for hall passes
00:27:09i'm serious
00:27:12i know you are
00:27:16bathroom
00:27:17two minutes
00:27:31this is insane
00:27:33yeah
00:27:34that's kind of insane
00:27:43so anyway
00:27:45rowan's convinced the new calc teacher is secretly a
00:27:49what is she doing
00:27:50elliot
00:27:51hey
00:27:52earth
00:27:53to elliot
00:27:56since when do you care who beckett talks to
00:27:59i don't
00:28:00your knuckles are white babe
00:28:05i've got homework
00:28:16hey
00:28:17you disappeared today
00:28:20looked like you were busy
00:28:23kendall
00:28:24that's what this is about
00:28:26this isn't about anything
00:28:28goodnight
00:28:28she means nothing
00:28:29you know that
00:28:30do i
00:28:31because from where i was sitting
00:28:32she had her hands all over you
00:28:34and you didn't seem to mind
00:28:37you're jealous
00:28:39i'm not
00:28:39you are
00:28:41and it's kind of incredible
00:28:44because it means this is real for you too
00:28:47of course it's real that's the whole problem
00:28:50beck
00:28:50you forgot your charger
00:28:52oh hey ell
00:28:53you good
00:28:55great
00:28:57night
00:29:00everyone i cared about
00:29:02was either pulling me closer
00:29:03or pushing me away
00:29:05and i couldn't tell which was worse
00:29:11you're my best friend
00:29:12you're one of the most important people in my life
00:29:14and i'm sorry
00:29:15i'm so sorry
00:29:16but i can't
00:29:17i don't feel that way about you
00:29:18yeah
00:29:20i knew that
00:29:22that doesn't mean
00:29:24i just needed to say it out loud
00:29:26so it would stop eating me alive
00:29:30is there someone else
00:29:34okay
00:29:35he deserved the truth
00:29:36all of it
00:29:38and i gave him silence
00:29:40which was its own kind of answer
00:29:45hey
00:29:47you okay
00:29:50rowan was just here
00:29:53and
00:29:56she told me he was in love with me
00:29:58what did you say
00:29:59what do you think i said
00:30:02i told him i don't feel the same way
00:30:05did you tell him about us
00:30:08no
00:30:09do you want to
00:30:10i don't know what i want
00:30:12i just broke my best friend's heart
00:30:14and i can't even explain why
00:30:16you didn't break anything
00:30:17he was brave enough to tell you the truth
00:30:19that's not your fault
00:30:20he asked if there was someone else
00:30:21and i just stood there
00:30:24elliot
00:30:25he knew
00:30:26he looked at me and he knew
00:30:30come to the window
00:30:37whatever happens
00:30:38i'm right here
00:30:39two boys in separate rooms
00:30:41reaching for each other through glass
00:30:43that's what it felt like
00:30:45being close enough to touch
00:30:46and a whole world in the way
00:30:51it's been five days since rowan told me he loved me
00:30:53five days since i sat there like a statue
00:30:56and let him walk out
00:30:58we haven't spoken
00:30:59not a text
00:31:00not a glance
00:31:02it's like someone cut a limb off
00:31:04and i'm just supposed to keep walking
00:31:07rowan switched lab partners
00:31:09did you know that
00:31:11no
00:31:12he requested brody sims
00:31:15brody sims elliot
00:31:16the kid who eats glue
00:31:17he doesn't eat
00:31:19that was one time
00:31:22what happened between you two
00:31:27nothing
00:31:28we just need space
00:31:31space is what you give someone who borrows your hoodie too long
00:31:34this is a crater
00:31:39you okay
00:31:40and then there's that
00:31:46there's nothing
00:31:48sure
00:31:49and i'm the queen of england
00:32:03everyone wants a piece of me
00:32:05and i've got nothing left to give
00:32:07rowan wants an answer i can't give him
00:32:09beckett wants me to be braver than i am
00:32:11and i'm just sitting here trying to remember how to breathe
00:32:20you've been ghosting me
00:32:21i've been dealing with things
00:32:22i know
00:32:24rowan
00:32:24i'm not stupid
00:32:25then you know why i need to
00:32:27what
00:32:27pull back
00:32:28pretend the last two weeks didn't happen
00:32:30i'm not pretending anything
00:32:31i just can't do this right now
00:32:33my best friend is in love with me
00:32:34and i'm sneaking around with his
00:32:36with you
00:32:37and it feels like i'm betraying everyone
00:32:39you're not betraying anyone
00:32:40by being honest about what you want
00:32:42that's easy for you to say
00:32:43you're not the one who watched him cry
00:32:48i'm not your dirty secret elliot
00:32:50and i'm not ready
00:32:50can you understand that
00:32:52i'm not ready
00:32:55okay
00:32:56i hear you
00:32:57but i'm not gonna wait forever
00:33:04mom
00:33:05sit down i'll get the plates
00:33:07i'm fine sweetheart
00:33:09just a tickle
00:33:11katherine
00:33:12the hendersons want us for dinner saturday
00:33:15that sounds lovely
00:33:19mom
00:33:20you okay
00:33:22never better
00:33:24that night i couldn't sleep
00:33:26not because of becky
00:33:27not because of rowan
00:33:29because my mother folded a napkin
00:33:32like she was hiding a grenade
00:33:33and i was too afraid to ask what was on me
00:33:39i
00:33:41i
00:33:41i
00:33:42e
00:33:48i
00:34:08Your mother and I need to talk to you both
00:34:11I've been having some tests done
00:34:14I didn't want to worry you
00:34:15Until we knew for sure
00:34:18It's cancer
00:34:20Stage 2 breast cancer
00:34:21The doctors are optimistic about treatment
00:34:24But I start chemotherapy next week
00:34:27How long have you known?
00:34:29A few weeks
00:34:30We wanted to have a plan before
00:34:32A few weeks?
00:34:33Theo, look at me
00:34:35I'm going to fight this
00:34:37I need you boys to know that
00:34:43What's the treatment plan?
00:34:45Six rounds of chemo
00:34:47Then we reassess
00:34:49What are the odds?
00:34:50Elliot
00:34:51What are the odds, dad?
00:34:53Good
00:34:54They're good, sweetheart
00:34:58Okay, okay, good
00:34:59I need a minute
00:35:05You think you know what fear is
00:35:07You think it's the dark
00:35:09Or heights
00:35:10Or someone finding out your secret
00:35:12It's not
00:35:13It's your mom sitting on a couch
00:35:15Telling you her body is trying to kill her
00:35:17And smiling while she does it
00:35:26Theo told me
00:35:31You don't have to talk
00:35:35I'm not going anywhere
00:35:42Chemo sounds clinical
00:35:43Sterile
00:35:44Like something that happens in a textbook
00:35:48Nobody tells you about the waiting
00:35:50The hours where the clock doesn't move
00:35:52And your brain fills the silence
00:35:54With every worst case scenario it can find
00:36:00Doctor says she's responding
00:36:02Early days
00:36:03But responding
00:36:05Okay
00:36:08You should eat something
00:36:12I'm fine
00:36:14You're not fine
00:36:16None of us are fine
00:36:22I wanted to say something
00:36:23Anything
00:36:25But every sentence I could think of
00:36:27Had a trap door in it
00:36:29And I was so tired of falling
00:36:32Hey, Mr. Marsh
00:36:33Theo asked me to bring food
00:36:35Said nobody's eaten since breakfast
00:36:45Turkey and Swiss
00:36:47Extra pickles
00:36:48The way you like it
00:36:51Thanks
00:37:00You don't have to do this
00:37:02Do what?
00:37:03The food
00:37:03The driving
00:37:04The hovering
00:37:05I'm not hovering
00:37:07I'm sitting
00:37:08There's ice cream
00:37:08It's a whole different verb
00:37:10She looked so small in that chair
00:37:11The IV bag was bigger than her arm
00:37:14She's tough
00:37:17Everyone keeps saying that
00:37:18Like tough is a cure
00:37:20It's not a cure
00:37:22But it's not nothing
00:37:23He didn't try to fix it
00:37:26Didn't offer platoons
00:37:27Or silver linings
00:37:28He just
00:37:30Stayed
00:37:32And somehow
00:37:33That was the only thing
00:37:35That didn't make me
00:37:35Want to scream
00:37:38I keep thinking about time
00:37:41How much she has
00:37:42How much I've wasted
00:37:42Being angry about stupid things
00:37:45You're seventeen
00:37:46Stupid things are kind of
00:37:48Our whole deal
00:37:49What if she doesn't
00:37:50Hey, don't
00:37:52You don't have to be okay right now
00:37:53You don't have to be anything
00:37:55I need you
00:37:57And that terrifies me more than any of it
00:38:00And I'm here
00:38:01Simple as that
00:38:08I told myself no one could see us in the dark
00:38:11But the thing about secrets is
00:38:13Someone's always watching
00:38:17Be ready at ten
00:38:18Wear something you don't mind getting dirty
00:38:21That's ominous
00:38:23Trust me
00:38:27Where are we going?
00:38:28Starlight pier
00:38:29That's an hour away
00:38:30Yeah
00:38:31That's kind of the point
00:38:32If this is some elaborate plan to murder me
00:38:34At least buy me funnel cake first
00:38:37Deal
00:38:43Pink?
00:38:44Pink?
00:38:44Really?
00:38:46It's objectively the superior flavor
00:38:48It's the same flavor
00:38:50They're both just sugar
00:38:52And yet you're wrong
00:39:00There it is
00:39:01What?
00:39:03That
00:39:03You're smiling
00:39:04Like actually smiling
00:39:06Not the sarcastic one you use on everybody else
00:39:11What?
00:39:12Are you
00:39:13This is disgusting
00:39:16There's literally a
00:39:31There's literally a
00:39:46How's it going?
00:39:48Yeah
00:39:48One minute
00:39:50We're insane
00:39:52Probably
00:39:54Probably
00:39:57Bec
00:39:59Yeah
00:40:00Be my boyfriend
00:40:01For real
00:40:05Not just whatever this has been
00:40:08I want it to be real
00:40:11Took you long enough
00:40:20I walked inside and pressed my back against the door
00:40:22And stood there in the dark like an idiot
00:40:24Grinning at the ceiling
00:40:26My mom was sick
00:40:27My best friend could barely look at me
00:40:29My dad and I spoke in monosyllables
00:40:32And somehow
00:40:33Impossibly
00:40:34I was happy
00:40:39That should have been my first warning
00:40:46Boyfriend
00:40:47He typed it
00:40:48With his actual fingers
00:40:49On purpose
00:40:51And I'm lying here smiling at a screen
00:40:53Like a golden retriever who just learned a new word
00:40:59I wrote back mourning with a period
00:41:01Because apparently becoming someone's boyfriend turned me into a sociopath who can't use emojis
00:41:08Wear the blue hoodie today
00:41:10You look good in it
00:41:14Three days since starlight pier
00:41:16Three days since I said be my boyfriend like some character in a movie I'd normally make fun of
00:41:21Three days of texting under the covers
00:41:23Deleting threads
00:41:25And feeling like my chest might actually explode
00:41:39Tinted windows
00:41:40Tinted windows
00:41:40This is a school parking lot
00:41:42Then stop talking and we'll be faster
00:41:47That's not how logic works
00:41:52You've been staring at me in Calloway's class for 45 minutes
00:41:55I counted
00:41:56I was staring at the clock behind your head
00:42:00The clock's on the other wall
00:42:06I hate you
00:42:08No you don't
00:42:10That's it
00:42:11You're doing it again
00:42:12Doing what?
00:42:14Smiling
00:42:15At nothing
00:42:15Like you've got a secret stash of serotonin the rest of us don't have access to
00:42:19I'm just in a good mood
00:42:20Is that a crime now?
00:42:22For you?
00:42:23Historically?
00:42:23Yes
00:42:24You're seeing someone
00:42:26What?
00:42:27No
00:42:28Elliot Marsh
00:42:29You are a terrible liar
00:42:30And you're wearing a hoodie someone else picked out
00:42:32Who is it?
00:42:37There might be someone
00:42:40It's new
00:42:40I'm not ready to talk about it
00:42:42I knew it!
00:42:43Keep your voice down
00:42:44Is it someone at school?
00:42:46Do I know them?
00:42:48Sloanie
00:42:48Please
00:42:51Okay
00:42:54Okay
00:42:55But when you're ready
00:42:57I want details
00:42:59Industrial quantities of details
00:43:04The landmark ruling has sparked celebration
00:43:07Across the country
00:43:08With same-lex couples
00:43:09Lining up at courthouses
00:43:11There it is again
00:43:12Every channel
00:43:13Like they've got nothing else to report
00:43:15Dad
00:43:16It's kind of a big deal
00:43:18It's a circus
00:43:19That's what it is
00:43:20Every week
00:43:22Another parade
00:43:23Another spectacle
00:43:24Richard
00:43:25What?
00:43:26I'm not allowed an opinion at my own table?
00:43:27You're allowed to eat your dinner without editorializing
00:43:31There it is
00:43:32The wall I'd been pretending wasn't there
00:43:35Brick by brick
00:43:36Comment by comment
00:43:37My father built it
00:43:38And I'd been standing on the wrong mind
00:43:40Whole life without knowing it
00:43:43You've been quiet all day
00:43:45Quieter than usual
00:43:46Which is saying something
00:43:47Because you never shut up
00:43:49My dad said some stuff last night
00:43:51About people like us
00:43:53What kind of stuff?
00:43:54The kind where you realize
00:43:56The person who's supposed to love you
00:43:57No matter what
00:43:57Has conditions
00:43:59Fine print
00:44:00Yeah
00:44:01I know that play, Brooke
00:44:02What if he never gets it?
00:44:04What if I tell him and he just
00:44:06Looks at me like I'm broken?
00:44:08Then he'd be wrong
00:44:09And you'd survive it
00:44:10You're annoyingly hard to kill
00:44:12Trust me
00:44:12I've tried
00:44:14What if I'm not ready?
00:44:15Then you're not ready
00:44:16There's no deadline, Elliot
00:44:17This isn't a college application
00:44:21Seven across
00:44:23Unwavering devotion
00:44:25Nine letters
00:44:27Steadfast
00:44:28Look at you
00:44:29My walking to Sarah Vans
00:44:31Something's eating at you
00:44:33And don't say nothing
00:44:34Because I've been your mother
00:44:35For 17 years
00:44:36And I can hear you thinking
00:44:37From two rooms away
00:44:39Mom
00:44:41If I were different
00:44:42From what you expected
00:44:43Not bad, different
00:44:44Just different
00:44:45Would that change anything?
00:44:49Elliot James Marsh
00:44:50I loved you before
00:44:52I ever saw your face
00:44:53I loved you when you screamed
00:44:54For 14 hours straight
00:44:55With Colic
00:44:56I loved you when you
00:44:57Put a frog in Theo's cereal
00:44:58There is nothing
00:44:59You could tell me
00:45:00Nothing
00:45:01That would make me love you less
00:45:03Even if it's something
00:45:04Dad wouldn't understand?
00:45:05Your father's understanding
00:45:07Is his responsibility
00:45:08Not yours
00:45:09You hear me?
00:45:10No matter what
00:45:12Always
00:45:17Mom
00:45:19I think I'm in love with a boy
00:45:21She couldn't hear me
00:45:22But I hurt myself
00:45:24And for the first time
00:45:25The words didn't feel like a confession
00:45:28They felt like the truth
00:45:31Rowan came back
00:45:32Not all the way
00:45:33But enough
00:45:34He sits with us again
00:45:36He laughs at the right moments
00:45:38And if his eyes go somewhere far away
00:45:40When Beckett's name comes up
00:45:41Nobody mentions him
00:45:43That's the deal we made
00:45:44Without saying it out loud
00:45:47You're doing that thing again
00:45:49What thing?
00:45:50The thing where you look like
00:45:51You won the lottery
00:45:51But you're pretending
00:45:52You didn't buy a ticket
00:45:56Leave him alone, Sloan
00:45:58Fine
00:45:58But for the record
00:45:59I'm keeping a tally
00:46:00Of every weird smile
00:46:01We're at 14 this week
00:46:03And it's Monday
00:46:10You've been disappearing a lot lately
00:46:12Busy with who?
00:46:14Homework
00:46:15Riveting stuff
00:46:30Nobody tells you secret dating
00:46:32Turns every public room
00:46:34Into a performance
00:47:03Elliot
00:47:04That's not what this looks like
00:47:05Don't
00:47:07We're done
00:47:12Elliot
00:47:14Elliot
00:47:15Elliot
00:47:16You saw one second
00:47:17And turned it into the whole story
00:47:19No
00:47:21I saw enough
00:47:25I can't keep doing this in secret
00:47:27And pretending it doesn't break me
00:47:29I wasn't hiding you
00:47:32I was trying to protect you
00:47:34Please
00:47:35Please believe
00:47:36Inside was the flat lake stone
00:47:38From Lakeview Haven
00:47:39I wanted him to know
00:47:40I remembered the night
00:47:42Everything changed
00:47:47Got you
00:47:51After Beckett's birthday
00:47:52I did what I do best
00:47:53I disappeared
00:47:54Not physically
00:47:55I still showed up
00:47:55Made lattes
00:47:56Visited mom at St. Andrews
00:47:58Smiled when Theo talked
00:47:59But the version of me that existed for the last few weeks
00:48:01The one who believed in something
00:48:03Gone
00:48:03We're not open for another 10
00:48:07You won't answer your phone
00:48:09Nothing to say
00:48:11Elliot
00:48:12She kissed me
00:48:13I didn't
00:48:14I know what I saw
00:48:17You saw one second
00:48:18You left before the other 59
00:48:19Where I shoved her off
00:48:20And looked for you
00:48:21Doesn't matter
00:48:22How can it not matter?
00:48:23Because I can't do this
00:48:24The sneaking
00:48:26The lying
00:48:26The
00:48:27Watching someone else
00:48:28Put their mouth on you
00:48:29While I stand there
00:48:30Pretending I don't care
00:48:31I'm done
00:48:31You're scared
00:48:32That's not the same as done
00:48:34Get out
00:48:35I'm working
00:48:44You look like death's understudy
00:48:47Charming
00:48:48Beckett looks worse
00:48:49If that helps
00:48:50It doesn't
00:48:54What happened at his birthday?
00:48:56And don't say nothing
00:48:57Theo's been weird
00:48:58Beckett's a ghost
00:48:58And you've got that face you make
00:49:00When you're about to implode
00:49:01We had a fight
00:49:01It's over
00:49:02The fight?
00:49:03Or the
00:49:03Whatever you two were?
00:49:06Both
00:49:18Dude
00:49:18Have you seen the whisper board?
00:49:45Birchwood Cottage
00:49:46The forest
00:49:47Someone was there
00:49:48Someone saw us
00:49:53Every nightmare I ever had
00:49:54About being found out
00:49:55None of them were this quiet
00:49:57In my head
00:49:58There was always screaming
00:49:59But the real thing
00:50:01The real thing is just your phone
00:50:03Buzzing in the dark
00:50:03While the whole world
00:50:04Reads your secret
00:50:10You don't have to go today
00:50:14Yeah, I do
00:50:16Elliot
00:50:16If I hide
00:50:18They win
00:50:18You taught me that
00:50:19Then you walk in there
00:50:20Like you own the place
00:50:22Because you do
00:50:22The photo had been up for 18 hours
00:50:24412 comments
00:50:25Last I checked
00:50:26I stopped checking around midnight
00:50:27When someone wrote
00:50:27Burn in hell
00:50:28With a smiling face
00:50:29The Ashford whisper board
00:50:30Doesn't sleep
00:50:31Neither did I
00:50:43We're walking you to every class today
00:50:45Non-negotiable
00:50:46Anyone gives you trouble
00:50:47I'll handle it
00:50:50You don't have to
00:50:52Shut up
00:50:53Yes, we do
00:51:05Hey
00:51:09Theo
00:51:09My brother
00:51:10My little brother
00:51:11And you couldn't tell me?
00:51:14I wanted to
00:51:15He wasn't ready
00:51:15That's not your call
00:51:17You're supposed to be my best friend
00:51:18I am your best friend
00:51:19Best friends don't sneak around
00:51:22With your family
00:51:22Behind your back
00:51:24You're right
00:51:25I'm sorry
00:51:26He's 17, Beck
00:51:27He's my kid brother
00:51:28And the whole school
00:51:29Is tearing him apart
00:51:30And I didn't even know
00:51:31He needed for protecting
00:51:32Break it up
00:51:33Both of you
00:51:34Principal Hargreft's office
00:51:36Now
00:51:41Is it true?
00:51:44Yes
00:51:45The Hale boy
00:51:48His name is Beckett
00:51:51He needs time
00:51:52That's all
00:51:53What if time isn't enough
00:51:55Then that's his loss
00:52:00I don't care who you love
00:52:02You're my brother
00:52:03Always
00:52:08My phone buzzed in my pocket
00:52:09I didn't check it until midnight
00:52:11One text from Rowan
00:52:13I'm sorry I disappeared
00:52:14Can you talk?
00:52:17Can I come in?
00:52:27I need to ask you something
00:52:29And I need you to be honest with me
00:52:31You already know the answer
00:52:32I want to hear it from you
00:52:35Yeah dad
00:52:36It's true
00:52:37I'm
00:52:37Beckler and I were together
00:52:38Are together
00:52:39I don't even know anymore
00:52:43How long?
00:52:44Months
00:52:49I don't understand it
00:52:50I'm not going to pretend I do
00:52:51That's not the same
00:52:52It's okay
00:52:53No
00:52:53It's not
00:52:58You're still my son
00:52:59I just
00:52:59I need time
00:53:06You walked out of that room
00:53:07You just left him sitting there
00:53:09I said I needed time
00:53:10That's
00:53:10Time
00:53:11Told you the most terrifying truth of his life
00:53:14And you gave him your back
00:53:17I don't know how to do this Karth
00:53:19I wasn't raised for this
00:53:20Neither was he
00:53:21And he's 17
00:53:22And he's doing it anyway
00:53:23I am lying in this bed
00:53:24Fighting for every day I get
00:53:25And I will not spend a single one of them
00:53:27Watching you make that boy
00:53:28Feel like he's broken
00:53:28What do you want me to do?
00:53:30Go back upstairs
00:53:30And this time
00:53:32Stay
00:53:37Scoot over
00:53:44You punched him
00:53:45He deserved it
00:53:47He didn't
00:53:48I was angry
00:53:49Not at you
00:53:49At, I don't know
00:53:50At finding out from a picture on a screen
00:53:52Instead of from my brother's mouth
00:53:53I wanted to tell you
00:53:54I was terrified
00:53:54Of me
00:53:55Of losing you
00:53:57Listen to me
00:53:58I don't care who you love
00:53:59You're my brother
00:54:00That's the only thing
00:54:00That's never gonna change
00:54:01Always, El
00:54:07The world didn't end
00:54:08It just rearranged
00:54:10And somewhere in the wreckage
00:54:12I could almost see a shape
00:54:14Something that looked like it might hold
00:54:17Okay
00:54:17Okay then
00:54:31Don't you dare look at me like that
00:54:33Like what?
00:54:34Like I'm already gone
00:54:36I need you to do something for me
00:54:38And I need you not to fall apart while you do it
00:54:45Name it
00:54:48There's a razor in the top drawer
00:54:49The one your father uses for his neck
00:54:52I'd rather choose this
00:54:53Than watch it happen to me
00:55:02You sure you don't want Theo to
00:55:04I want you
00:55:05You've always been my brave one
00:55:07Even when you don't know it
00:55:11If I mess this up
00:55:12You're telling everyone dad did it
00:55:15Deal
00:55:29I used to sing that when I couldn't sleep
00:55:31It still works
00:55:33You're still here
00:55:35Well?
00:55:36You're beautiful, Mom
00:55:37I look like a baby bird
00:55:39The fiercest baby bird I've ever seen
00:55:44My brave, brave boy
00:55:49Thanks for meeting me
00:55:51You said you wanted to talk
00:55:54I disappeared on you
00:55:55Right when everything was falling apart
00:55:57Your mom, the outing, all of it
00:55:59And I just vanished
00:56:01Yeah, you did
00:56:03I was jealous
00:56:05And hurt
00:56:06And I told my step
00:56:07That made it okay to bail on my best friend
00:56:08It didn't
00:56:11I can't give you what you want, Rowan
00:56:14That hasn't changed
00:56:16I know
00:56:17I'm not asking for that anymore
00:56:18I'm asking if there's still room for me
00:56:20As your friend
00:56:21Just that
00:56:25You're buying next time?
00:56:29Yeah
00:56:29Okay
00:56:30Yeah
00:56:32Some days break you open so wide
00:56:34You're sure nothing will ever fit back together
00:56:37But then someone shaves her head
00:56:39And calls you brave
00:56:41Someone says I'm sorry
00:56:42And means it
00:56:43Someone leaves flowers
00:56:44And asks for nothing
00:56:49After everything
00:56:50The outing
00:56:51The fallout
00:56:52Dad's silence
00:56:53Mom's fight
00:56:54I told myself the kindest thing I did do
00:56:56Was cut the wire
00:56:57For both of us
00:56:59I wasn't being brave
00:57:01I was being a coward
00:57:02Dressed up as a martyr
00:57:04But I couldn't tell the difference anymore
00:57:16You texted
00:57:17Yeah
00:57:19I wasn't sure you would again
00:57:21Ever
00:57:22I need to say something
00:57:23And I need you to let me finish
00:57:24Okay
00:57:24This
00:57:25Us
00:57:26It's destroying everything it touches
00:57:28You lost your birthday to a scene
00:57:29I got outed
00:57:30Theo punched you
00:57:31My dad can barely look at me
00:57:32Your mom's not your problem
00:57:33She's right though
00:57:34Everyone around us gets hurt
00:57:36So what are you saying
00:57:37I'm saying we stop
00:57:38For real this time
00:57:40No more sneaking around
00:57:41No more pretending
00:57:42We can just
00:57:42No
00:57:43Beckett
00:57:44No
00:57:45You don't get to decide this alone
00:57:47Not after everything
00:57:49I'm trying to protect you
00:57:50I don't want your protection
00:57:53I want you
00:57:56I can't be the reason
00:57:57Something else goes wrong
00:57:58Then stop running
00:58:00And let something go right
00:58:03Elliot
00:58:04Elliot
00:58:05Go home
00:58:06Look at me
00:58:07Look at me
00:58:20No
00:58:21No
00:58:22No
00:58:22No
00:58:23Stay with me
00:58:24Beckett
00:58:25With me
00:58:25Stay with me
00:58:26Don't you dare
00:58:26Somebody help
00:58:28Please
00:58:31You idiot
00:58:32You stupid beautiful idiot
00:58:34I'm here
00:58:35I'm right here
00:58:41He said he didn't want my protection
00:58:43So he gave me his instead
00:58:48They won't tell me anything
00:58:50He's not my family
00:58:51He's not my anything
00:58:53According to the paperwork
00:58:54I'm just the boy
00:58:55Covered in his blood
00:58:58Hey
00:58:59Look at me
00:59:01He's in surgery
00:59:01That's good
00:59:02That means there's their fighting for him
00:59:03He pushed me
00:59:04He just
00:59:04I was walking away
00:59:05And he pushed me out of the road
00:59:06I know
00:59:06I was leaving him Theo
00:59:08That's why we were in the street
00:59:09I was ending it
00:59:16Where is my son
00:59:17Where is he
00:59:22Beckett
00:59:22Beckett Hale
00:59:23He was brought in a car
00:59:24Hit him
00:59:24Where is he
00:59:26You
00:59:27What happened
00:59:28What did you do
00:59:28Mrs. Hale
00:59:29My son is in surgery
00:59:30Because of you
00:59:30Whatever this thing is between you
00:59:32Whatever you dragged him into
00:59:33That's not fair
00:59:34Beckett pushed Elliot
00:59:35Out of the way of a car
00:59:36He saved his life
00:59:37And they lose his
00:59:38I want him away from my son
00:59:39Do you understand
00:59:40Away
00:59:44He's out of surgery
00:59:45There's significant swelling
00:59:46Traumatic brain injury
00:59:48The next 72 hours are critical
00:59:50Is he conscious
00:59:52No
00:59:54He's in a coma
00:59:56We won't know the extent of the damage
01:00:0472 hours
01:00:05He's strong
01:00:06You know he is
01:00:26You absolute idiot
01:00:28You stupid reckless beautiful idiot
01:00:31You don't get to leave me
01:00:33You hear me
01:00:34You don't get to say
01:00:35I love you for the first time
01:00:37And then die
01:00:38That's not how this works
01:00:45Excuse me
01:00:46You can't be in here
01:00:47Sir?
01:00:49Sir?
01:00:52You can't be in here
01:00:53Sir?
01:00:59Please
01:00:59Please
01:01:00Just let me stay
01:01:02They told me to go home
01:01:03But home was in that room
01:01:05Unconscious
01:01:06With a machine breathing for him
01:01:15Three months
01:01:1792 days since the intersection
01:01:19Since the rain
01:01:21Since his blood on my hands
01:01:23People say time heals
01:01:25People are liars
01:01:27Time just teaches you how to function while broken
01:01:42Breakfast?
01:01:43Had some
01:01:44Liar
01:01:45Liar
01:01:46Sit
01:01:54Your color's coming back
01:01:56I should know
01:01:57I've been monitoring my own
01:01:58Like a paint swab
01:01:59How was yesterday's blood work?
01:02:01Dr. Reeves used the word
01:02:02Animative
01:02:03I told him I'd accept
01:02:04Nothing less than miraculous
01:02:07You're carrying too much
01:02:09Sweetheart
01:02:09You know that, right?
01:02:10I'm fine
01:02:11You're 17
01:02:13Fine isn't supposed to look like this
01:02:23You eat today?
01:02:24Why does everyone keep asking me that?
01:02:27Because you look like a Victorian ghost
01:02:28And I care about you
01:02:29Quiz me on calculator?
01:02:33Hey
01:02:33Hey
01:02:34Any updates?
01:02:35Same
01:02:35Stable
01:02:36Lorraine won't return my calls
01:02:38Theo?
01:02:39He visits
01:02:40Beckard's awake more now apparently
01:02:41Physical therapy started last week
01:02:43But the restraining order's still active
01:02:45So I get everything secondhand
01:02:47That's not fair
01:02:47None of this is fair
01:02:50Elliot
01:02:52Sit down a minute
01:02:55I went to that
01:02:56Meeting again
01:02:57The one at the community
01:02:58The P. Blake meeting?
01:03:00There was a father there
01:03:01His son's about your age
01:03:02He said something that
01:03:03Stuck with me
01:03:05He said he spent two years
01:03:06Mourning a version of his kid
01:03:08That never existed
01:03:09And by the time he stopped
01:03:10He'd almost lost the real one
01:03:12I don't want to be that father Elliot
01:03:14I'm not good at this
01:03:16But I'm trying
01:03:18I know dad
01:03:21Elliot
01:03:23He's awake
01:03:24Like really awake
01:03:25Talking
01:03:26Sitting up
01:03:27You said that last week
01:03:28No
01:03:28Listen to me
01:03:29He grabbed my arm today
01:03:30And said exact words
01:03:31Where's Elliot?
01:03:32Tell him to come
01:03:34The restraining order
01:03:35Screw the restraining order
01:03:37Theo
01:03:37He asked for you
01:03:39He's been asking for you
01:03:40Lorraine can file whatever she wants
01:03:41You need to be there
01:03:43Then let them arrest me
01:03:4792 days of being good
01:03:49Of following rules
01:03:51Of dying quietly
01:03:52Enough
01:04:01There
01:04:02Almost presentable
01:04:03Hey
01:04:04You okay?
01:04:06Yeah
01:04:06I'm okay
01:04:07I'm sorry I made you wait so long
01:04:10Don't be
01:04:11I'd wait forever
01:04:12He was the last person
01:04:14I ever wanted to fall for
01:04:15The arrogant
01:04:16Insufferable
01:04:17Beautiful
01:04:18Elliot
01:04:18Who moved in next door
01:04:19And ruined my entire summer
01:04:21He made me furious
01:04:22He made me brave
01:04:24He loved me even when I couldn't love myself
01:04:35The person I hated more than anyone in the world
01:04:37Became the one I couldn't live without
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