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They Called Me Gross. Then I Changed Everything
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00:04during the months i had a crush on lucas reed the football captain i tried everything to lose weight
00:09one day after volleyball practice i almost passed out from hunger lucas caught my wrist and pulled
00:15me into a quiet corner beside the gym can you stop starving yourself
00:22if anyone makes another joke joke about your body i'll shut them up
00:26that was the day i thought lucas might like me too
00:30so after our football team won the next game i walked onto the field
00:39lucas i like you
00:45what lily taylor did you just say you like lucas
00:49a voice carried across the field for one second everyone went silent
00:57damn lucas really is something
00:59even the fatty has a crush on him lucas is that why you keep rejecting girls you were saving
01:06yourself for her
01:08you serious
01:11my face burned i could not say another word
01:16then a loud thug
01:17the football shot past my ear and slammed into the ground behind me
01:23the boys who had been laughing shut up lucas looked down at me i just want to know one thing
01:28what made you think you could confess to me did you think my standards were that low my whole body
01:34went stiff the heat drained from my face don't you think you're kind of gross
01:42i could not take it
01:43i could not take it anymore i ran into the restaurant and left myself inside a star
01:50suddenly
01:54next time look in a mirror before you embarrass lucas
02:00i stood there without moving cold water dripped from my hair onto the ground
02:06i had been knocked from my body for years but lucas was the first boy who ever defended me
02:12for a while i thought my life could be different
02:17but today lucas crushed that dream himself
02:20i finally understood
02:22girls like me did not get exceptions
02:27the next morning one of lucas's friends came over to move his desk lucas said he felt sick after yesterday
02:33he's taking a few days off he asked me to move his seat
02:40after saying that he seemed to realize how cruel it sounded
02:44he met my numb eyes and quickly added not because of you don't overthink it i blinked hard
02:50i could not understand why being bigger than other girls hate me this much
02:55i only ate a little more than they did
02:58was that really so disgusting
03:01three days later lucas came back
03:04he walked into the classroom with his arm around bella hart's waist
03:09bella was captain of the cheer squad and every guy's dream girl
03:14and i was lily taylor a nobody people only remembered when they needed a joke
03:20chase could not help whistling
03:21damn lucas finally got yourself a girlfriend so is it real or just for show
03:28bella pouted like she was offended
03:30what do you mean do i look like the kind of girl who lets random guys put their hands on
03:34my waist
03:36lucas lifted his brow lazily lucas did not deny it people started cheering and teasing me
03:42i lowered my head and looked at my workbook
03:45at least no one cared about what happened that day anymore no one had time to laugh at me that
03:51was
03:51already good enough
03:57after that i buried myself in school work on the next ap calculus test i beat ethan miller the top
04:04student for the first time the moment class ended ethan moved his desk beside mine
04:10miss carter said i keep messing up the written explanations she told me to learn from you then
04:16he smiled at me
04:18new seatmate help me out it took me a few seconds to realize i had a seatmate again i was
04:23a little happy
04:24so i quickly pulled out my notebook here this is what i use thanks when i looked up by accident
04:32i met lucas's eyes across the room he had been watching us for a while a second later he looked
04:39away close i did not know my confession had disgusted him that much so much so that he could
04:45not even stand to see me doing okay the next morning ethan brought me two sausage rolls i had just
04:51taken them when lucas walked over with a low laugh didn't know you had such specific taste man
04:59ethan's face changed what do you mean
05:06lucas dropped a stack of printed pictures on my desk
05:10for you you like this type right
05:15want me to bring you more tomorrow
05:20who the hell said i liked fat girls
05:24oh i saw you move seats i thought you were into her
05:29was i wrong lucas's friends laughed with me
05:36ethan cursed under his breath then he moved back to his old seat without another word
05:42from beginning to end neither of them looked at me but every word was about me
05:48my eyes fell on the picture scattered across the desk the sausage rolls in my hands went cold
05:55before lucas walked away why would you do this
06:01what
06:05are you that desperate for attention every guy who sits beside you gets the full treatment
06:13after what lucas did everything got worse one morning i found my desk covered in graffiti
06:21i kept my head down and walked to my locker the moment i opened it a stack of printed pictures
06:27slipped out and scattered across the floor students slowed down as they passed and started laughing
06:33i crouched down and picked up the pictures one by one after that no one wanted to hang out with
06:40me
06:40anymore they were afraid they would become the next target during lunch i sat alone under a tree and
06:47took big bites of my food even though i never thought about dieting again the only time i had tried
06:53to
06:53lose weight was because i liked lucas more than food now i did not like him anymore that friday we
07:01had volleyball class
07:03halfway through class it started pouring everyone ran toward the gym entrance they laughed and screamed
07:09while covering their heads i followed behind them before i could reach the door several girls started
07:15knocking me back and forth between them i lost my balance and fell hard onto the wet court
07:21my kneecap slid out of place the pain was so sharp that i could not sit up
07:27then a person stopped beside me i grabbed one pant leg without thinking i can't stand can you help me
07:35it was lucas
07:39no
07:39bella laughed beside him
07:42maybe if you lost weight you wouldn't fall so hard
07:45i was soaked through lucas did not look at me he walked past me
07:51i can't help you rain kept running into my mouth but my throat still felt dry
07:58i could only try to push myself up near the gym entrance i heard people talking she doesn't look
08:18quietly in the rain i forced myself to think about what grandma might make for dinner
08:24otherwise the pain in my knee and the eyes behind me would break me in the end i got up
08:30by myself
08:31the voices at the gym entrance never stopped i did not dare look back
08:37i limped to the security office and called grandma after hearing what happened grandma decided i needed
08:44to get stronger from that day on she planned my meals and made me exercise with her if they try
08:50to
08:50knock you down again hit back
08:57i stayed home for two days before going back to school that morning grandma only let me eat one
09:02whole wheat egg sandwich i felt miserable but soon ms carter walked into the classroom behind
09:08her stood a strange transfer student ms carter looked around the room her eyes finally stopped
09:14at me sebastian cole sit beside lily after that she hurried back to the office sebastian sat in the
09:21empty spot beside me neither of us seemed interested in talking but blake could never keep his voice down
09:27lucas look this guy is weird his whole face is covered what is he disfigured probably if he looked
09:36good why would he hide his face ghost boy and chubby lily new couple alert lucas did not react he
09:46only
09:46spun his pen lazily and said nothing for almost a month sebastian and i barely spoke i did not want
09:54to
09:54talk i was afraid the same thing that happened with ethan would happen again then one afternoon after
10:00class i noticed sebastian lying across his desk after hesitating for a moment i walked over do you have
10:07a stomach ache
10:10yeah
10:15i'll take you to the nurse's office luckily he did not pull away when i touched him he was almost
10:20six
10:20feet too most of his weight leaned against me good thing i was sturdy otherwise i would not have been
10:27able to hold him up the nurse gave him medicine then she asked me to get him some water i
10:34ran to buy
10:34it then hurried back by then sebastian was the only one left in the nurse's office you dislike me that
10:40much and still help me that's pretty kind of you lily i don't dislike you i thought you hated me
10:45so i
10:46didn't talk to you why would i hate you because i'm fat i suddenly felt he was probably not disfigured
10:54at
10:54all after that day sebastian and i slowly got closer but he was still strange he never took off his
11:03mask
11:03he barely talked to anyone else but he always ran with me after school my body changed too without
11:10noticing it i had gotten stronger grandma was pleased she said i looked healthier now i never
11:17expected lucas to be the first person at school to notice that afternoon i sat on the lawn finishing
11:24the low-fat turkey bowl grandma had packed for me i had just picked up my lunchbox when lucas suddenly
11:30grabbed my wrist you're dieting again that's none of your business lucas let go lucas pulled me toward
11:37the cafeteria you get dizzy when you starve yourself did you forget planning to pass out again if you
11:44don't let go i'll bite you you really don't know who is good to you drop the act after that
11:52i turned
11:53and walked back to the classroom sebastian was lying across his desk alone is your stomach hurting again
12:01sebastian sebastian slowly lifted his head yeah i wanted to buy medicine
12:09but i forgot where the nurse's office was i saw you downstairs just now but you were talking to some
12:16guy so i didn't want to interrupt lily it hurts i'll go buy it for you right now wait here
12:27i'll go with you that way i can remember the route
12:36i held his arm and hugged him further into his arm and we went downstairs we ran into lucas
12:45sebastian suddenly lost his balance i hurt too much to walk let me rest for a second okay i opened
12:51my
12:51mouth but when he made another soft sound of pain i could not refuse lucas's eyes turned cold at once
12:59he had just taken one step toward us when blake and bella caught up from behind
13:04whoa fatty and ghost boy what are you two doing what did you call her fatty am i wrong sebastian
13:14punched
13:14him react i rushed between them and shoved tyler hard run run only when we reached the nurse's office
13:24did i let out a breath thank you sebastian but next time just ignore him he won a taekwondo tournament
13:32before we can't beat him but he was bullying you lily i can't let anyone bully you
13:51the next day blake came to school with bruises all over his face
13:56if i find out who beat me i'll kill him forget your face for a second
14:01i heard some billionaire's kid just transferred to our school from overseas
14:04who do you think it is i looked up and met sebastian's clean calm eyes he pointed at a problem
14:11on his worksheet then he smiled sincerely lily can you explain this one to me
14:18by late spring graduation was only a month away for the graduation showcase bella was in charge of
14:25costume sizes she stood at the front of the classroom with a clipboard and asked everyone
14:31when she got to me she looked down at the form lily should i put you down for xl or
14:37xxl i looked up for
14:39my corrections for some reason i felt embarrassed saying it i wear a small
14:49the classroom went fire
14:59everyone turned to look at me their shock told me no one had really noticed the change except sebastian
15:04and lucas after months of eating healthy and walking laps i had lost a lot of weight holy
15:10is that lily i told you her face was always pretty just had to lose the weight bella's face turned
15:16ugly
15:17ethan who had not spoken to me in a long time looked stunned too that look made me even more
15:23uncomfortable
15:24i was used to people staring at how much i ate not at my face
15:30ethan coughed and turned to bella isn't the lead singer spot still open
15:33maybe lily should do it this year bella had always been the default lead for school performances
15:39bella's smile almost cracks lily's not as tall as me i'm not sure she can pull off the dress
15:45she's prettier than you we can buy a different dress
15:49blake shot up from his suit what the hell is that supposed to mean you're defending fat
15:54girl now she lost some weight and suddenly you like her ethan glanced at me his voice dropped
16:03why not besides she might not even look at me now something in that sentence must have hit lucas
16:10he suddenly threw the cup in his hand the cup shatters against the wall
16:16the whole room went silent lucas leaned back like nothing had happened
16:20sorry my hand slipped the interruption killed ethan's mood to keep talking when lucas bent down
16:27to pick up the glass a shard cut into his palm he acted like he did not feel it by
16:32the time he stopped
16:33in front of my desk blood was already dripping from his fingers his eyes landed on the box of bandages
16:38on my desk his voice was low can i borrow one it won't stop bleeding sebastian gave a soft laugh
16:47wow you really know how to put on a show i looked away from sebastian then i shook my head
16:53at lucas
16:58no whether lucas bled or not had nothing to do with me i did not know why he had to
17:03come to me for
17:04this lucas did not look surprised the color slowly drains from lucas's face when he spoke again his voice
17:10was even softer i get it in the end i became the lead singer for the graduation showcase after that
17:18day i experienced a lot of firsts the first time someone called me pretty on the school subreddit
17:25the first time a boy asked me out the first time so many people were nice to me for no
17:30reason boys
17:31from other classes even came to our room between periods lilly i accidentally got an extra coffee you
17:36want it i refused out of habit but sebastian stopped the boy before he could leave lilly i think my
17:42blood sugar is low i want the coffee but i forgot my wallet his calm voice did not sound convincing
17:48at
17:48all it sounded like he was teasing me it's okay i have cash i took out my little wallet and
17:55counted out
17:55fifteen dollars for the boy can i buy it my friend wants it the boy's face twisted
18:05being around sebastian was easy even when more people started showing interest in me i still only
18:11stayed close to him because of that rumors about us slowly spread through the school did you hear
18:18lilly taylor the new pretty girl from senior class has weird taste she likes ghost boy i saw his face
18:23once he's disfigured it's disgusting yeah i heard his face is covered in run scores sebastian had never
18:30taken off his mask or cap in front of anyone even at lunch he always ate alone if not for
18:36me he would
18:37not have been dragged into these rumors so i started keeping my distance sebastian noticed one morning
18:44before class he stayed quiet for a long time then he suddenly said in a low voice lilly you can
18:50move your
18:50desk away i froze and turned to him what he leaned back in his chair his voice sounded tired i'm
19:02used to
19:02being alone you don't have to get tied to someone with a bad reputation they all say someone ugly and
19:10disgusting like me doesn't deserve to be close to you so maybe you should sit who said that he said
19:16lightly
19:16it doesn't matter at first sebastian refused to tell me after i asked several times he finally gave me
19:24a few names i remembered them they were all boys who asked me to come out before sebastian had spoken
19:31up for me whenever people called me fat now it was my turn to do something for him i found
19:37those boys and
19:38rejected them again this time i warned them if they kept spreading rumors i would report them for
19:44harassment when sebastian found out he covered his eyes with one hand sebastian's shoulders shake
19:52silently i guessed he was crying because he was touched so i patted his shoulder gently no one will
19:57say bad things about you anymore don't be scared i made a reasonable conclusion sebastian was deeply
20:04moved nothing bad happened again before graduation the only thing people gossiped about was lucas and
20:12bella breaking up at lunch sebastian and i walked ahead behind us blake was trying to comfort lucas don't
20:19take it too hard man there'll be someone better lucas walked past me without slowing down
20:25his shoulder brushed mine he looked straight ahead and said casually why would i be upset
20:31i never liked her anyway sebastian glanced ahead then he smiled faintly lily sounds like there's a dog
20:40barking somewhere by the time finals ended i already knew i had done better than usual the day after
20:49results came out miss carter asked rachel to organize one last senior dinner when i arrived i saw lucas
20:56outside the restaurant the red spark flickered in the dark his eyes stayed on me i looked away as
21:02if i had not seen him i tried to walk around him lucas grabbed my wrist he pulled me back
21:08until my back
21:09hit his chest are you insane he caught my other wrist without even looking lucas looked down at me no
21:20matter how i beg now you won't give me another chance right i avoided his eyes i don't know what
21:25you're
21:25talking about don't lie lucas smiled faintly you know exactly what i mean he pinched my chin and made
21:34me face him you know i said i never liked bella because i wanted you to hear it i went
21:39quiet i stopped
21:40struggling after a long moment i looked back at him calmly yes i know i also know you liked me
21:47a long
21:47time ago otherwise i wouldn't have been stupid enough to confess to you
21:55the first time i tried to lose weight i hid it from everyone i ate almost nothing i walked home
22:00every day instead of taking the bus i wanted to lose weight as fast as possible i wanted to wear
22:06the
22:06dress i had loved for months then i wanted to confess to lucas but lucas noticed my pale face he
22:13also
22:13noticed my hand pressed against my stomach he had been about to leave for basketball with blake and
22:18the others period craps i'm fine lucas did not believe me he kept insisting on taking me to the
22:24hospital i had no choice but to tell him i had been dieting his frown deepened he used the clinic
22:31as an
22:31excuse and signed us both out of school then he dragged me to lunch he walked ahead holding my hand
22:41his voice was cold i care that much about what people think even starving yourself is fine i was
22:47so hungry my head felt light i barely heard him i just nodded without thinking yeah lucas was furious
22:55his grip on my hand tightened but after a long silence he still gave in he held back his anger
23:02and
23:02said can you stop starving yourself if anyone makes another joke about your body i'll shut them up
23:09is that enough i smiled a little then i asked quietly don't you think i'm fat like this i'm kind
23:15of ugly
23:16right lucas stopped walking he did not let go of my hand he turned back and bent slightly his eyes
23:23were
23:24focused i looked his voice was serious you're cute everywhere lucas said it like he was giving an answer
23:33in class that was the moment my crush on him grew out of control i squeezed his hand back for
23:39the first
23:40time i tried to climb out of my own insecurity then in the next second he pushed me right back
23:46in
23:47for a long time after that i could not get up again lucas's lashes trembled his grip on my wrists
23:57loosened yes he lowered his eyes and gave a bitter smile i liked you a long time ago but being
24:05with you
24:05meant everyone would stare joke and laugh behind my back so you don't get to ask me for another chance
24:11now
24:13his confession came too late i turned and walked away
24:20after a few steps i heard his voice behind me it was low almost like he was talking to himself
24:26but i
24:27liked you more than any of them ever did i did not stop i took a breath then i pushed
24:35open the
24:35restaurant door inside most of our class was already there sebastian had not arrived yet miss carter smiled
24:44when she saw lily you did well come sit bella's face darkened the moment i walked in then she suddenly
24:52smiled miss carter don't let lily's grades fool you she's not as innocent as she looks
24:59i looked at her what are you talking about come on lily we've already graduated it doesn't matter now
25:10she was secretly dating someone before finals i almost laughed before i could explain miss carter cut
25:17in who who is lily's boyfriend bella smiled wider sebastian cole
25:26bella continued her words i mean lily acts like such a good girl who knew she had a thing for
25:32the
25:32weirdest guy in school miss carter's eyes widened behind her glasses bella looked even more pleased
25:41he never takes off that mask maybe there is something ugly hiding underneath
25:47but lily you don't have to deny him just because your boyfriend is ugly
25:51when he gets here why don't you ask him to take off that mask
25:57let everyone see those burn scars compared to her rumor about me dating sebastian
26:03i hated her insulting him more bella have you ever seen scars on sebastian's face she choked no but
26:11then you made it up everyone says it everyone also says you only made cheer captain because your mom paid
26:19off the coach so according to you that must be true too right bella panicked at once who the
26:27hell said that bella looked around the room the restaurant got noisy another group of students
26:33crowded around miss carter miss carter i heard the principal say some billionaire's son was in our
26:38class who is it is he hot he has to be hot right he's rich
26:46miss carter was coding two directions
26:48boom grew louder and louder then the door opened again everything went quiet everyone looked toward the
26:59entrance
27:09for a second the whole room forgot how to breathe
27:11his features were sharp and clean the man was almost too good looking to be real
27:15the girl closest to the door blushed first um are you looking for someone miss carter finally let
27:23out a breath then she smiled you don't recognize him the person you were all talking about is standing
27:30right in front of you bella's voice called sebastian cole the billionaire son what the hell so this
27:39gorgeous guy is sebastian the same sebastian who transferred back from overseas
27:45and apparently lily's boyfriend
27:50i felt like lightning had struck me on the spot sebastian looked a little unfamiliar without the mask
27:57then he raised one brow and looked at me
28:02fine i accept i stared at him except
28:10no way that's ghost boy i knew his eyes were too pretty for him to be ugly i thought that
28:16mask
28:17was hiding scars are we sure he's not some actor the dinner ended in scattered gasps and whispers
28:23on the way home sebastian answered every question i had at first he wore the mask because he had gotten
28:30into a fight before transferring the bruises on his face had not healed yet later he just got used to
28:38wearing it as for why he still took finals after being accepted early sebastian looked at me calmly
28:45to go to the same university as you girlfriend only then did i remember what miss carter had said at
28:51dinner you misunderstood bellow was this is my first relationship sebastian's eyes softened
28:58my parents were always working i grew up with nannies
29:03once they both missed my birthday so i ran away from home i thought someone would notice
29:11no one did
29:14after that i got used to it he said it like it was nothing but i still saw the shadow
29:18in his eyes
29:20my nose stung so even rich families could be this cruel sebastian noticed my eyes turning red
29:27don't feel bad for me this is the first time someone chose me and didn't give me up
29:35that's enough
29:41he sounded too used to begging for scraps of love that made it worse i pressed my lips together
29:49but the tears still fell don't cry lily
29:55then he suddenly returned to the earlier topic by the way what were you saying i misunderstood
30:02i froze the tears hung in my eyes i blinked fast
30:08after choking on my words twice i finally said stiffly
30:14nothing boyfriend if i denied it now sebastian might actually jump into the river
30:20he needed love too much and i could tell what i felt for him was different trying it would not
30:26hurt
30:30sebastian had already been accepted somewhere good but after i chose my university he gave up his spot and
30:36enrolled with me his cold work obsessed family barely reacted by the end of summer i had fully
30:42accepted that sebastian cole was my boyfriend he never pushed too far the most he did was kiss my
30:49forehead when he walked me home other than being clingy he had almost no flaws on the first day of
30:56college reality hit me fast out of my three roommates two ignored me when i said hello the last one
31:02was
31:02bella heart her cheer record had helped her get into the school compared to my bad mood bella looked
31:10almost pleased when she saw me what a coincidence not really most students from our high school had
31:19stayed in state for college running into old classmates on campus was normal but some coincidences were still
31:26annoying like that evening when sebastian and i were eating dinner he told me lucas was in his major i
31:36felt depressed for a few seconds then i remembered lucas was good at fighting i quickly warned sebastian
31:42don't get into it with lucas when you're alone you can't beat him
31:47if he gives you trouble call campus security sebastian was picking the carrots out of my food
31:52without looking up he asked slowly how do you know i can't beat him he had no idea how dangerous
31:59lucas was this concerned his personal safety so i put down my fork and said seriously don't act tough
32:07he's really good at fighting
32:12i've seen lucas fight a few times he barely lost maybe i sounded too serious sebastian seemed hurt
32:19after a long pause he pushed the food he had picked clean back to me then he nodded got it
32:25i'm useless i won't mess with him i forgot sebastian was sensitive my words had hurt him for the rest
32:31of
32:31dinner he barely spoke even though he was upset he still quietly peeled shrimp for me i bit my fork
32:37and
32:37looked at him carefully the guilt got worse after dinner we did what college couples were supposed to do
32:45we went for a walk from the track to the quiet path by the campus lake i apologized to sebastian
32:52the whole
32:52way after a long time he finally softened a little lily comfort me i am comforting you not enough
33:05his breath brushed hot against my ear kiss me please his voice was so close that i shivered
33:13my breath hitched where both our voices had gone quiet sebastian tugged down the collar of his hoodie
33:22here i stood on tiptoe and kissed him sebastian held the back of my head leave a mark
33:33let everyone know i'm yours i followed what he told me to do i pressed my lips there then i
33:40bit down lightly
33:43my face burned red i pushed him away and lowered my head
33:48felt nice
33:54next time leave a few more okay wasn't it supposed to go both ways why didn't he kiss me
34:01i could not bring myself to ask so i stared at him for a few seconds then i shook my
34:07head no
34:09hopefully he would understand what he had done wrong and next time he would offer to kiss me too
34:17after college started i joined the volleyball club at first everything seemed normal then i realized
34:23coach was strange whenever he corrected my posture he stood too close lily raise your arms he came up
34:30behind me i could almost feel his breath near the back of my neck i stepped away quietly
34:38you can just tell me what to fix he did not take the hint he smiled
34:43but you're too stiff freshman then he suddenly flicked my forehead other girls wish i'd help them myself
34:50during break bella sat beside him with her water bottle she raised her voice just enough for me to hear
34:58wow lily coach is so nice to you if you didn't already had a boyfriend
35:04you could totally consider him coach's face changed boyfriend you have a boyfriend
35:12i looked away from bella and nodded coach stared at me for a few seconds you have a boyfriend and
35:20didn't say anything what were you leading me on did you ask and honestly you're not exactly worth
35:30leading on before he could answer bella slammed her bottle down and stood up who do you think you're
35:37talking to your boyfriend isn't even on his level he's useless and creepy anger shot straight to my
35:45head before i could think i walked up to bella then i slapped her hard across the place i warned
35:53you
35:53not to insult sebastian again bella froze with one hand on her cheek you hit me the next second she
36:00lunged at me we crashed into each other all the anger i had swallowed for years finally came out
36:06three girls finally pulled me away coach looked at me coldly then he made his decision on the spot
36:15you started it stay after practice run drills until i say you're done
36:24bella dusts herself off and smiles like she has won
36:30under the evening heat i stayed on the court and ran drills alone by the time coach finally
36:37let me go everyone else had already left i dragged myself back to the dorm after i showered i was
36:44too
36:45tired to move i was also starving then sebastian called and made me come downstairs the moment i saw
36:53him i fell into his arms and started complaining halfway through i felt so yoonged that i cried
37:00sebastian i'm so hungry i barely ate anything today i really want sausage rolls sebastian went quiet
37:10too quiet he helped me sit on the bench nearby then he went to buy food for me after i
37:17finished eating
37:18he checked his phone his face showed nothing go back and rest lily i have something to do i'll come
37:26find you later i looked at him for two seconds then i lowered my eyes okay i'll head back
37:33then he turned away but i remembered the message i had accidentally seen on his phone
37:40sebastian that asshole from volleyball is at the pool hall come over
37:47i quietly followed him for some reason i suddenly thought of blake showing up with bruises back in
37:53senior year pieces of old memories came together in my head and they all pointed to one fact sebastian had
38:00been pretending to be weak this whole time that guess was confirmed when i stood outside the pool hall
38:06i looked through the glass sebastian stood beside a pool table coach and three other guys lay scattered
38:13across the floor sebastian did not have a scratch on him sebastian holds a broken pool cue in his hand
38:21the sharp wooden end hovered less than an inch from coach's eye
38:26coach
38:27you were interested in my girlfriend coach shook his head hard no no i wasn't i swear
38:39sebastian turned the broken pool cue lazily between his fingers my girlfriend had a rough day
38:46how are you planning to make it up to her coach trembled
38:51what do you want me to do
38:55sebastian seemed too bored to answer he shifted the broken key
39:00the sharp wooden end almost told coach's calm before it could go down i spoke
39:08sebastian my voice was calm his whole body froze
39:15until coach and the others ran out in a panic sebastian still did not turn around
39:20i walked over and crouched in front of him then i took the broken pool cue out of his hand
39:26sebastian lowered his hand his throat moved a few times before he spoke his voice was hoarse i'm sorry
39:34i stayed quiet after a long moment he asked again are you gonna break up with me
39:41i looked up at once his eyes were red something dark and restless moves in sebastian's eyes
39:48he looked nothing like the harmless sebastian who leaned on me and said his stomach hurt
39:53i sighed and curled my fingers into his palm only then did he calm down a little
39:59of course i'm not breaking up with you over this i just don't understand why you lied to me
40:06sebastian wrapped his hand tightly around mine his smile looked pale and bitter
40:12because i knew you didn't like me
40:16you only agreed to date me because you felt sorry for me
40:21if i didn't look pitiful enough you would leave
40:23then i held his face in both hands sebastian look at me
40:30i feel sorry for a lot of people but i don't date them just because they're pitiful
40:36liking someone isn't charity it's not something i hand out because someone looks sad
40:41he gripped my hand his eyes were almost stubborn you can't lie to me
40:51sebastian was wound too tight so i leaned in and kissed him lightly fine if he would not kiss me
40:58first
40:59i could do it if i'm lying i'll never get to eat sausage rolls again sebastian finally relaxed that
41:06night we walked through the quiet street outside campus i swung his hand as i walked listen we're
41:14actually perfect for each other you're really good fighting and i'm pretty good too today i basically
41:20pinned bella to the ground she barely touched me her face is gonna be swollen for at least a week
41:28sebastian squeezed my hand next time you don't have to do it i'll handle them
41:35but bella is a girl sebastian answered without much thought
41:42i'll use a pink bat i burst at him then i stood on tiptoe and kissed his cheek loudly
41:51i like you so much sebastian cole
41:56sebastian was not the kind of guy lucas said he was
41:59he did not only solve problems with violence before going after coach he had already collected
42:05screenshots messages statements from other girls and proof that bella had cheated her way into her
42:12cheer scholarship then he submitted everything to the school the next day coach was suspended from
42:18the club team bella lost her scholarship she was removed from the cheer program everything happened
42:25so fast that i could barely believe it sebastian met my suspicious eyes then he lazily touched my
42:31lashes with one finger my mom graduated from the school she donated a library three years ago right
42:37now she's talking to the school about funding two new dorm buildings later i met sebastian's mother once
42:43on campus remembering his lonely childhood i carefully told her to be nicer to him that little brat told you
42:50we abandoned him i nodded sadly that year he was only seven years old we missed one birthday dinner
42:58because of work so he took his father's phone and texted our assistant told him to prepare the private
43:05rept he wanted to fly to melbourne alone when we caught him he was afraid his father would punish him
43:12so he hid in the hotel for two days and told everyone he had run away from home
43:18if the housekeeper hadn't found him eating cake in there your boyfriend would still be telling
43:22people he survived in the wild i stared at her so that was the tragic childhood he told me about
43:31a sudden laugh came from not far away the mood went cold lucas stood under a streetlight watching me
43:36so now you're into violence
43:43just because he beat up a few guys for you you're obsessed sebastian was still upset about me saying
43:48he could not beat lucas the second lucas opened his mouth sebastian's face went dark
43:53he started walking toward him i grabbed his arm in time
43:59is he even worth fighting lucas is obviously weaker than you
44:03if you fight him that's basically bullying you could make him cry without even trying
44:14what if he breaks down and calls the police coward you couldn't even like someone in public
44:23what makes you think you can compete with me lucas's face darkened he gave a cold smile and stepped
44:28forward i had no patience left i pulled the pepper spray from my back then i sprayed him straight in
44:34the face no one helped him he would probably need a while before he could open his eyes again
44:42for a second the way he stood there in pain reminded me of myself in the rain back then i
44:47had sat alone
44:48on the court no one was willing to help me now lucas looked just as helpless lucas seeing you like
44:55this makes me feel like i finally walked out of that rain i would not choke on that humiliation anymore
45:01i did not need him to suffer exactly the way i had suffered this was enough
45:05yes
45:06my
45:07my
45:07my
45:07my
45:07my
45:08my
45:08my
45:08my
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